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And So You, I Got Our ‘Say So’. Is Anyone Impressed? …

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Much To Do In 2020. Forget About Our Say So. It’s All Much Greater! Full Size Beyond My Conception.

 

A flat version of the book I am working on, and the cover for the book. It’s slow in coming, but! In due time? For sure! :-)

Wow! O My Master! How Timely You Remind Me Of Your Written Words …

While I was vacillating on how to continue recording Your words a like to a post I posted back in January 2020 popped in my inbox. I clicked. WOW!

I Am Dumb Found! Your Leading Is Beyond My Grasp …

Tuesday, July 21, 2020 at 5:50 am.

Copious tears begin to flow. How amazing are Your ways! Way beyond my grasp are they but! Amazingly good and loving ways beyond my grasp as well.

I Have Been In Suspense From July 4 To July 19 To This Moment, Why? …

I posted in all sites on July 4th, but the last post on July 19 I have not been led to post it in all sites. Why? So much haze in my mind with all going on in this world that I inhabit.

But You Are In Control Even Of That Haze …

That’s the reason for my copious tears of joy. Who am I to count in the immensity of Your love and care for me?

Words Can Be Deceiving Especially The Word ‘Love’ …

Tuesday, July 21, 2020 at 7:45 am.

Love is defined as a feeling in the dictionary but! I am learning that love is above feelings. That is true love or the love from and for You first of all and then true love for others.

Indeed! As A Rule The Only Love We Know Is The Romantic Love That We Practice …

And that is the cause of ALL our earthly problems with no exception! No kidding! But! You are turning all things around on this 2020 year.

True Love Is An Attitude Of Obedience Or Submission To Authority …

This is the truth about love to set us free from the grip of such volatile inconstant fickle word as the word love that we know.

  • Submission to authority is the key to experience true love.

That Is What Is Happening In My World For The Benefit Of Your So Loved World …

What a marvel it is to experience true love or submission to Your Sovereign Authority—the first and most important of all the commandments.

  • Thus? The rest of the commandments become the reality of our lives.

So? That’s How The Saga Continues Victoriously On This 2020 Year Of COVID-19 Fear …

Tuesday, July 21, 2020 at 8:20 am.

I am ready to close but I need now re-check Your leading to proceed. After reading the post You sent to me in the inbox it came to me to post it before I post anything else in all the sites.

On to the task with a glad heart.

Let’s Get On With The Show in that post back in the middle of January 2020 …?

Thanks, My Master! For What Now? For It All You Are In Control …

Saturday, January 18, 2020 at 10:30 pm.

Been sleeping the whole afternoon. Disgusted. Not knowing what to do in view of all that goes on with my thinking and feelings. Guess I just don’t want to be human anymore.

But Here Is The Riff, I Am Human. I Think And Feel Like Any Other Human …?

Ha! I woke up about and hour ago. One word in my mouth: Laugh. Hum! That brought to mind Sarah’s laugh at the announcement she was to give birth to Issac at her age.

  • Master? Been reflecting on the matter. Ha! Sarah’s laugh applies to me now. Indeed! All Your amazing promises makes me laugh because of the impossibilities as humanly speaking I see, but!
  • You did not withdrew Your promise for Sarah to bare Issac. Only You reinforced it. It’s the same with me now. Humanly speaking, I nearly despair. The human’s neglect to obey or to listen to You just gets to me.

Even So? You Are In Control Of It All Including My Humanity In Its Whole …

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The Family In Mind On Waking Up This Time …

Where Are The Basis For The Human Family? …

Let’s Start At The Very Beginning. A Good Place To Start …

Wednesday, February 19, 2020 at 3:47 am.

The way You are leading me from the onset of my journey in Your sight is about You and Your intent for our creation.

No Kidding! The Family Is In Your Mind Forever Time …

Wednesday, February 19, 2020 at 4:02 am.

You have me now to finish with the posting I started before You sent me to sleep. Then? I’ll work on a new graphic You set in my mind about the family.

This Has Been A Frustrating Day, But! …

Wednesday, February 19, 2020 at 10:50 pm.

I am not letting get to me. I know You’ll show me the way to go that I cannot find. From the graphics to the book formatting nothing is working as I would like it to work. I’ll try the bed. I wait on You.

It’s Rough My Master, Help …?

Thursday, February 20, 2020 at 3:33 am.

My body is not colloborating. There is much to do but I am stuck with the book format. How the styles got all messup, beats me? I’ll take a break. I wait on You.

Unexpected Miracle …

Thursday, February 20, 2020 at 11:47 am.

I slept for a couple hours. On waking up I noticed the NET was working fast. It came to me to call Microsoft support for help with the problems.

  • Well? It was decided to repair the program. That didn’t work. Next to reinstall it.
  • I cringed! Wirh the faulty NET it has been nearly impossible to reinstall any big program.
  • Besides, even if the NET would work it would take about 1-1/2hours and longer to download and install the program.
  • And that was the big problem. The NET would quit before the download could finish.
  • Hum! This time? Half hour. Program downloaded. Install completed. Wow!
  • And? It came to me how to resolve my formatting problem with the styles.
  • Master! You unstuck me big time!
  • Unbelievable! Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Much To Do But! No Longer Overwhelming …

I know exactly what needs to be done thanks to the instructions You send my way. But why did all of this happen? The support tech needed the few in between remarks made about Your strenght always availing me.

Drunk With Chocolates Big Time! …

Thursday, February 20, 2020 at 9:47 pm.

O my Master! You are healing my body without drugs! You are teaching me all about how to regulate the sugar and salt intake for my body’s stability. So today?

  • In my enthusiasm about Your teaching, I overdone the chocolates a bit.
  • To no avail I had the sense my indulgence to quit.
  • Next? Ahmad came with a worker to clean the roof.
  • Not realizing the effect of my overindulgence, I walked aloof
  • What were they doing to see, and? O me!
  • Kapum! Shaloom! Down my body swoom!
  • Swift six arms lifted me up like a feather.
  • My sun chair pushed under
  • Me well to be in the coldness of the weather
  • Despite my chocolate spree.
  • Two hours since now
  • Still oozy and fussy got busy
  • In my task if one may ask.
  • It’s 10:51 pm will lay down.
  • Will wait on You my body to settle down.

Awake But Going Back To Sleep …

Friday, February 21, 2020 at 1:47 am to 4:40 am.

And so, the saga goes, my Master. All could be a disaster. but You turn it well to be for me, for Thee. Underneath Your everlasting arms sleep takes over to set me free from weeping to be.

I’m going on this day by the power of Your love, wisdom, and Your everlasting faithfulness.

Your promises are the only sound matter to grab on go on. Quote:

Isaiah 55:1-13

“Oh everyone who thirsts, come to the waters. And you who have no silver, come, buy and eat. Come, buy wine and milk without silver and without price.

“Why do you weigh out silver for what is not bread, and your labour for what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to Me, and eat what is good, and let your being delight itself in fatness.

“Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, so that your being lives. And let Me make an everlasting covenant with you, the trustworthy kindnesses of Dawiḏ.

“See, I have given Him as a witness to the people, a Leader and a Commander for the people.

“See, a nation you do not know you shall call, and a nation who does not know you run to you, because of Yahuweh your Elohim, and the Set-apart One of Yisrael, for He has adorned you.”

Seek Yahuweh while He is to be found, call on Him while He is near. Let the wrong forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts.

Let him return to Yahuweh, who has compassion on him, and to our Elohim, for He pardons much.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,” declares Yahuweh.

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.

“For as the rain comes down, and the snow from the heavens, and do not return there, but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, and give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so is My Word that goes forth from My mouth – it does not return to Me empty, but shall do what I please, and shall certainly accomplish what I sent it for.

“For with joy you go out, and with peace you are brought in – the mountains and the hills break forth into singing before you, and all the trees of the field clap the hands.

“Instead of the thorn the cypress comes up, and instead of the nettle the myrtle comes up. And it shall be to Yahuweh for a name, for an everlasting sign which is not cut off.” End of quote.

And with this note, I am to close and post. For the quote says it all better than what I could ever with such authority myself done and plan.

As You are restoring my family You are restoring all families scattered in the four corners of the earth ignorant of their rightful identity with You.

I’ll have the whole day ahead to let You lead the way on whatever I am to do the go to honor and proclaim Your name to be Sovereign.

  • Your family business on this 2020 year forever eternally to flourish.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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This Is The Year Not To Fear Our Fears …

The Year To Come Boldly To The Throne Of Grace For The Much-Needed Help To Abandon Our Fears …?

Fear Of You, Only Fear Needed …

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 12:12 am.

This subject came to me on this midnight. It is the experience of my moment while I am enjoying Your victory in my life as well as Your unbroken fellowship.

For The Fear Of You Is The Beginning Of All Wisdom …

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 7:38 am

O my Master! Words. Same words with different implications. I often wondered the mention of the word ‘fear’ in the Scriptures. Fear not. Fear the Master.

  • This morning You lead me to search the meaning of words. Here is what I found. Quote:

fear (fɪə)

n

  1. a feeling of distress, apprehension, or alarm caused by impending danger, pain, etc
  2. a cause of this feeling
  3. awe; reverence: fear of God.
  4. concern; anxiety
  5. possibility; chance: there is no fear of that happening.
  6. for fear of for fear that for fear lest to forestall or avoid
  7. no fear certainly not
  8. put the fear of God into to frighten

vb

  1. to be afraid (to do something) or of (a person or thing); dread
  2. (tr) to revere; respect
  3. (tr; takes a clause as object) to be sorry: used to lessen the effect of an unpleasant statement: I fear that you have not won.
  4. (foll by: for) to feel anxiety about something
  5. an archaic word for frighten

Why This Is The Year Not To Fear Our Fears …

There are two meanings among 13 that answers my question: 3. awe; reverence: fear of God. 10. (tr) to revere; respect.

So? This Year You Will Ingrain The Fear Of You By The Power Of Your Love …

Therefore? All other fears shall vanish giving way to the awe; reverence; respect due to You alone first and uppermost.

Well? This Is A Subject That So Far People Have Not Wanted To Talk About, But!

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 8:23 am.

Now? The tide has turned big time! HalleluYah! O my Master! You getting to Your people’s heart and mind. Every post here lately? Your people are responding. Will now spend the day creating a graphic on this matter.

Great! The Graphic Is Finished. The NET Is Working. Ready To Post …

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 11:38 pm.

Just a few minutes to midnight. Much accomplished today, but! The best? One of my stranged children, Daniel, got in touch with me with love and gratitude. Thanks, my Master!

You Are Harmonizing All The Inharmonious Circumstances Of My Life As Promised …

Quote:

Wait. Relax. No matter what you see, feel, and think, I am harmonizing all the inharmonious circumstances of your life.

Wait. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Wait. You will soon see My Deliverance!

Pause. Reflect. Your gaze set on Me, wait with hope. It is as written in Romans 8

On To Posting Grounds On This Blessed Midnight on Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 12:07 am

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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Posting Done! The NET Held Up, And? …

And I Got My Oil! Whoopee!


Did my accomplishments and getting my oil Add An Iota To My Stature? …

Friday, February 14, 2020 at 5:07 pm.

Hardly, but! it’s only because of Your loving discipline that You finally convinced me to quit whining about the least inconvenience that came my way and go on.

It’s Past Midnight On A New Day …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 1:12 am.

Here I am. I written a lot in an email to Roxana since I woke up last night at 11:40 pm. Now I don’t feel good. I am cold even with the heat on. I don’t know what to do, what to eat what to drink. Maybe go back to sleep?

Ah! Sunshine Out There As It Is In Here In My Heart …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 6:30 am.

Yeap! The sun is shinning in my heart even when the winter darkens the skies out there, but! You give us a break from that darkness. You never give us any more than what we can take.

O Mine! Gas Is Waving The Signal To Quit, My Master …

I’m sure glad You are giving me a sunny day. Maybe there will be gas replacement today. Maybe there will not be. Either way? It does not affect my well-being.

It’s The 7th Day Of Rest. Resting In You I Remain Sunshine Or Wintertime …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 12:50 pm.

Been working on the graphic to illustrate the matter. You gave me the idea as You do with all graphics. It looks beautiful to me. Who knows but You whether others think the same as me.

Legend For The Graphic …

Sun shining on the Planets

2020

Sun shining on my Heart

Sun shining on ALL Hearts

Master! Help Me To Truly Love My Brother …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 2:00 am.

The sun is shining on my heart, but You know how I feel when I read headlines from leaders that have offended me for exposing the truth. The thing is that these leaders continue with their timelines, and?

  • I have not read yet one single testimony of Your dealings with them.
  • All I see in the leadership is their pompous authority over many followers.
  • Following each other, but!
  • Not following Yahushua as they claim to do.
  • Am I guilty?
  • Am I telling anyone what to do?
  • Am I judging my brother?

O My Master! A Few Hours Of Sleep Did Me Good …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 5:52 am.

As if You didn’t know it. But You tell me to always come to You, to come to reason things out with You, and? I have discovered how wonderful it is to answer Your beckoning.

Questions That Only You Can Answer My Master …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 3:30 am.

Your answer? Habakkuk’s Prayer. Wow! How have I missed this most important prayer? But! not to fear. In the economy of our lives You do not waste a second. Anyhow, now?

You Sent Me To Read The Entire Chapter To Reprogram My Mind …

This matter is by far most critical moment at this stage of Your Presence in my heart. Your Presence for real in my daily living.

Well? You Sent. I Went. My Life’s Onset For Me To Vent …?

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 5:35 am.

Honest to goodness! You are leading me 100%. You led me to an entry on Saturday, January 08, 2011 (5:22 am). Wow! The consistence of Your message is uncanny. Strong words. they knocked the socks off my feet. Who knows? Those words might do the same for you should you be inclined to read them. Here is the link:

UPDATED WORDS FROM 1986

  • Did I write those words?
  • Phew! My hand wrote not my will.
  • All I could say was, “Not me! I been a sinful woman. They not going to listen to me!” But!
  • You said, “I don’t want them to listen to YOU!!! I want them to listen to ME!!!”

That Happened On February Of 1986. O me And YOU …

Me with the little letters. YOU with the capitals. Since then? You have had me vent out my sinful life unmercifully. Did my venting out my sinful life humiliated and shamed me? Not at all! Quote:

James 4:4-12

You [are like] unfaithful wives [having illicit love affairs with the world and breaking your marriage vow to God]! Do you not know that being the world’s friend is being God’s enemy? So whoever chooses to be a friend of the world takes his stand as an enemy of God.

Or do you suppose that the Scripture is speaking to no purpose that says, The Spirit Whom He has caused to dwell in us yearns over us and He yearns for the Spirit [to be welcome] with a jealous love? [Jer 3:14; Hos 2:19ff]

But He gives us more and more grace (power of the Holy Spirit, to meet this evil tendency and all others fully). That is why He says, God sets Himself against the proud and haughty, but gives grace [continually] to the lowly (those who are humble enough to receive it). [Pro 3:34]

So be subject to God. Resist the devil [stand firm against him], and he will flee from you.

Come close to God and He will come close to you. [Recognize that you are] sinners, get your soiled hands clean; [realize that you have been disloyal] wavering individuals with divided interests, and purify your hearts [of your spiritual adultery].

[As you draw near to God] be deeply penitent and grieve, even weep [over your disloyalty]. Let your laughter be turned to grief and your mirth to dejection and heartfelt shame [for your sins].

Humble yourselves [feeling very insignificant] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up and make your lives significant].

[My] brethren, do not speak evil about or accuse one another. He that maligns a brother or judges his brother is maligning and criticizing the Law and judging the Law. But if you judge the Law, you are not a practicer of the Law but a censor and judge [of it].

One only is the Lawgiver and Judge Who is able to save and to destroy [the One Who has the absolute power of life and death]. [But you] who are you that [you presume to] pass judgment on your neighbor?

My Venting Out My Sinful Life Humbled Not Humiliated Me …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 6:17 am – 8:38 am

Today marks the 34th anniversary of my surrender to You. At 3:30 am today You sent me to Habakkuk’s Prayer. Then, you sent me to read the entire chapter to reprogram my mind. Next?

You led me to an entry on Saturday, January 08, 2011 (5:22 am) to vent out my sinful life as in James 4:4-12. Next? You led me to February 16 of 1986. Next? Today.

You Answered The Questions That Only You Can Answer My Master …:

  • Am I guilty?
  • Am I telling anyone what to do?
  • Am I judging my brother?

Wow! The Consistence Of Your Message Is Uncanny. Strong Words, But! …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 9:46 am.

Strong words consistent with the work You been doing in my life to the exact moment. Thirty-four years. Now? You are leading me back to the meaning of number 34. Quote:

Meaning of Number 34

The number 34 has clear access to inner wisdom. 34 is also intuitive. It interprets its wisdom and intuition creatively, seldom getting bogged down in unworkable details when considering solutions to problems.

For 34, alone time to think through a problem or to meditate is important. The number finds its answers within. Even when answers or solutions are found somewhere else, 34 looks inward to validate them.

It approaches life with an understanding filtered through its own inner awareness and certainties.

The numerology essence of the number 34 generally is comfortable interacting with others, although doesn’t actively seek such opportunities. Its participation in social interactions often inspire other participants.

The Basic or Core Essence of 34

The deep down basic essence of the numerology number 34 is introspection, finding answers within. Other meanings of the number 34 must take that vibration into account.

To better understand the essence of 34, let’s have a look at its composition and the number it is reduced to. The number 34 is composed of the digits 3 and 4, and is reduced to the single digit 7:

3+4 = 7

Thus, the numerology number 34 essence is based on the essence of the number 7. It also contains the essence of the individual digits. See these articles for number interpretations of the single-digit essence of the number 34 and the digits 34 is composed of:

Number 3 Meaning

Number 4 Meaning

Number 7 Meaning

The digit the number is reduced to (the digit 7 in this case) always has more force or capacity than the digits of the number being reduced.

The relative amount each contributes to the whole could be represented by this graph: :

7-3-4

Thus, the 34 essence contains the 7’s essence, such as introspection, intuition, and wisdom.

Plus a dose of the 3’s essence, such as creative expression, inspiration, and tolerance.

Plus a dose of the 4’s essence, such as pragmatism, conscientiousness, and a focus on building a secure foundation for the future, this blend resulting in an essence unique.

The 34 essence is knowledge of self. There is introspection and study and analyzing and accumulation of wisdom. There’s also imagination, creativity, optimism, and a dynamism that’s felt by others.

In social situations with a 34 present, others find their energy and outlook on life uplifted, their inner creativeness awakened, their future appearing brighter.

The number 34 has wisdom gained through knowledge of self as its priority. There’s an ongoing urge to accumulate wisdom. Perfection and beauty are important. Quality is appreciated.

Goals generally have specific steps associated with them for their accomplishment.

Imagine being intuitively connected to ancient wisdom and knowing yourself in relation to that wisdom. Both the analytical and spiritual aspects of yourself are known and accepted. Issues in life are approached with an element of creativity, especially when expressing concepts to others. There is continuing analysis of self in relation to events and circumstances.

That’s 34. End of quote.

Granted, This Is Not A Biblical Meaning Of Number 34, But! …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 11:01 am

This is what You led me to check out. It describes the essence of the work You have now declared finished. It describes the present experience of my life in Your Presence as per Your words You brought to my remembrance. Quote:

“Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

And So? That’s My Life. No Worldly Cares Whatsoever …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 10:30 pm.

Ah but my interpretation of worldly cares! Is it for me to become a stoic recluse aloof from the basic needs in life? Nay! Nay! Nay! The truth?

  • At times I had in mind to become such, but O how depressing.
  • Other times, I’ll figured something different, but!
  • I never could figure out how to live but not love the world!
  • All the time You have been at work transforming and enabling me to live but not to love the world.

Phew! Saved By The Bell I Hear So Well Now …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 11:00 pm.

What bell? The bell of Your exact time for all to happen. The bell that rang for me on the last day of 2019. The day when the lust for the things of this world vanished forever by the power of Your love. Wow!

I Never Realized The Weight Of Such Lusts On My Being, But! …

Now I do. I do realize it. For You have lifted that weight from my beign now to be from it set free. Better yet? You have transformed me into the joy and rejoicing You created me to be.

Ha! I’m A Joy To Ahmad Even When I’m Threatening To Kill Him …

“Hellooo! I hear you now.”

“I’m glad you do. I need to remind you that I am out of gas since I called you yesterday. I am cold. I need gas! Also, I need for you to tell me at what time I am supposed to go to the welcome line?”

“Welcome line? What means Basilia?”

“The welcome line to welcome all to the death of Ahmad xxx!”

“Ha! Ha! Ha! Everybody wants to kill me! Ha! Ha! Ha!”

O My Master! Finally! You Have Empowered Me To Enjoy This Strange Culture …

No kidding! This strange culture has been nothing but trouble for me until now. It never fails. When I am waiting for Ahmad’s help somebody dies. That means 3 days I do not hear from Ahmad. Where is my gas or this or that?

“Basilia, my cousin die. It’s mandatory that I go to the family for 3 days to welcome all the mourners that must come to mourn the death of my cousin for 3 days.”

What about Basilia? Basilia could be dead but she has to wait for 3 days for them to come find me dead and I’ll have my 3 days of welcoming all to mourn my death! What a trip.

“But that’s mandatory, Basilia. I have no choice.”

“What is it that you all do for 3 days, Ahmad?”

“Well? The close family stands in line. The visitors come. The family must shake hands and say, Welcome!”

“You do that for 3 days?”

“Well, yes because different people come each day. Then you are not supposed to talk to or visit anyone for 3 days. You are supposed to mourn for 3 days. That’s why I could not call you.”

O My Master! You Are In Control Of It All, Why Then …?

Monday, February 17, 2020 at 4:03 am.

Well? I attempted to sleep at 12:19 am to no avail. Sleep evaded me. So? I got up. Continued my creation in Photoshop. Fixed my hair. Back and forth while Photoshop is doing its thing. And?

Goodness Sake! Four Hours Done Flew Past Me …

It’s a wonder how You work things out for me. Four hours of learning new techniques in the older version of Photoshop that You resuscitated for me.

No Kidding! You Have Resolved My Photoshop Troubles …

As good as the technicians from Photoshop support are, they have not been able to solve my problem because I did not know how to explain the problem. Anyhow?

I’m Fully Enjoying Your Gifts, My Master …?

Monday, February 17, 2020 at 4:01 pm.

The sun is shinning. Photoshop is working like a charm. You are giving me much needed sleep. There is abundance of food. I have gas. Ahmad and family continue to take care of my supplies the best way they can. And?

My Body Is On The Mend. I Am Comfortable, and? …

Monday, February 17, 2020 at 6:03 pm.

Finally! I started the dreadful dish washing chore! You know how I enjoy washing my dishes, but! when Your hand is heavy upon me, all I can do is graphics. Even writing is nearly impossible.

O Well! The Beauty Of It All? It’s All For A Super Ending …?

Your purpose for all written is to show that is it not about our self-efforts to please period. It’s all about Your faithfulness to Your Word.

  • I for one? I get all excited when things go well. I get bent out of shape when things go not so well.
  • Either way? Your faithfulness to Your promises to me prevail.

And With This Note, I Am Ready To Close And Post This Matter.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

 

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What A Life To Live On! No Need To Be ‘Smug’ About It. Just Live It With Fear And Trembling …

There Is Gold At The End Of The Rainbow In This Post To Understand The Headline …



Almost Miss Recording Today. …

Tuesday, January 21, 2020 at 5:13 pm

I started to go to bed, but! I noticed the last time I recorded was when I went to bed at 11:34 pm last night. Suddenly! I realized that the day is almost gone, and? I didn’t record any dates or times. So?

Instead Of Going To Bed I Decided On Piecing Things Together …

I closed the writing at 10:51 pm.

Went to bed at 11:34 pm.

Woke up around 4 am.

I worked on the post. Had a hard time aligning the graphics.

I finally succeeded. Published on the main site on Tuesday, January 21, 2020 at 7:33 am.

Ahmad surprised me with some goodies. Again, a good visit.

I think I slept the rest of the morning.

Then I spent a long time preparing the cilantro that Ahmad brought me earlier.

It looks like I published the post in all sites around 2 pm because the responses began around 3:30 pm.

What did I do for the next 2 hrs. is a mystery to me? But!

Since 5:13 pm I been piecing things together.

What To Do Next? The Net Is Not Working. Maybe Sleep?

Tuesday, January 21, 2020 at 6:48 pm.

I am not sleepy. The heat is on but I am cold. I am not hungry. I am not expecting anyone because Ahmad came in the morning and my little friend came this afternoon. Ah! They brought me some extra cilantro. I’ll work on it until? Sleep came my way at 8:13 pm hit the bed. Up at 12:39 am.

Another Day Yet. Still Under The Misery Of Pain …

Wednesday, January 22, 2020 at 12:45 am.

Relief is not to be found. No matter. I wait on You. Patiently I wait. You never give anymore than what I can take. The NET still out. don’t know whether to eat or drink. Perhaps on back to bed?

Uncanny. My Master! The NET Worked Enough To Hear Such Amazing Words From You In A Comment From 2016 …?

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Harmony And Sense Versus?

Harmony And Sense Versus?

Conflict, Discord, Strife, Contention, Dissension, Clash …


Well? Steady Goes It …?

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 6:38 pm.

It feels good to be steady. Thanks, my Master. It’s the hour that I used to feel pretty unsteady, but now? No problem anymore. Your promise is fulfilled. Quote:

Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step].

Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

The Midnight Approaching Again …

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 11:37 pm.

Slept from 8 to 10 pm. My little friend brought me some goodies. Been checking the inbox. New followers and likes in one of the websites I have not been keeping up. I went ahead and updated it.

Now? Not Sure Of What Is Next, But!

No problem. I’ll wait on You. Did not hear from Ahmad today. You know what’s going on there, my Master. I no longer trouble myself with Ahmad’s absence. What a relief!

Ahmad’s Decreed Time? Not As Per My Pleasure …?

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 7:03 am.

Numbers tell. The 2nd day. Meaning of number two? Division! Dividing my willful pleasures from Your decreed Laws. What a revelation to start this 2nd day of the 10th month. Wow!

Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endure! The End? Saved! …

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 2:13 pm.

Master? You have given me 7 hours since I recorded this headline. Meantime? You led me to illustrate the post. You gave me the incentive to catch up with my chores. Lastly?

Let It Go! In The Subject Line. I Clicked …?

Wow! The command from the leaders of Your flock. O my Master! You flashed into my mind my whole life of bondage to such command.

What A Heavy Burden Imposed Upon Unsuspecting Me, But! …

Not without my willing consent. I am the one who placed the leaders of Your flock ahead of You. What a revelation! And on this 2nd day meant to divide the precious from the vile.

Skip The Dividing of The Human Willful Pleasures From Your Decreed Laws? …

There you have the core of all Conflicts, Discords, Strives, Contentions, Dissensions, Clashes in the human’s lives. WHAT?

O Well! Must Wait On You To Give Me Exactly What I Need To Write Next …

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 6:24 pm.

O my Master! I know this is incredible! The whole world’s system is set on the ‘Let It Go!’, but! The whole system is now bankrupt! More and more people are realizing it does not work! Even so?

The Leaders Are Now More Than Ever Before Intent In Making It Work …?

History repeating itself. It’s happening all over like it happened at the beginning. The blaming game. Anger. Rebelliousness. We have become our own gods, and declare:

Divine Self. The Universe. Unconditional Love …?

Master? What are You showing to me? Ha! The three words now household words mixed with the words ‘God’, Positive Thinking, and Your written words? The sure recipe for the predicted great falling away.

O My Master! This Is Not A Welcome Subject, I Fear, But! …

Despite my fears? You are still in control of it all. Those words encompass the Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields Your people is set on. You know it. What to do now, my Master?

“Fear Not! Do Exactly As You Been Doing—Write, Publish, And Optimize …

I am doing the rest no matter how it looks to you. This time? My people are responding to Me not to you. Remember, you are the product in My business not the owner of the business.”

Phew! What A Relief! No Need For My Concerns …

No need to concern myself with the likes or comments or followers. You have already told me it is beyond my imagination the multitude of souls You have reached with these writings You inspire to me.

On To My Task. Let You Do Your Task …

Tried. Purified. Refined. Chosen On High Seas. Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endure! The End? Saved! On lower seas. Sing! Rejoice! Aboard The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on!

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

 

 

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Could You See This World? A Huge Field Of Dry Grass Under!

A Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields …

 

Is There Hope For LIFE &STRENGTH To Overcome? …

Saturday, September 28, 2019 at 8:13 am.

O man! Master? You know how easy it is for a drunkard or a whore to see, but! Not so for the ones living on the veneer of green luscious fields. It’s impossible for a human to give up such veneer. Even so?

Nothing Is Impossible With You. Dry Field? Stamped With? …

Saturday, September 28, 2019 at 2:07 pm.

Stamped with the turquoise fertility stamp! Wow! That just came to me. Been thinking all day about what I saw before I woke up this morning.

  • I saw a vast dry grass field. Somehow, I had a huge stamp in my hand. I began to stamp the field. It was so real, but I couldn’t figure it all out.
  • It came to me This World is a huge field of dry grass but all we can see is a Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields. So? I wrote the headline for the post. Next I recorded what came to me until I recorded the headline about stamped with.
  • I left it there because I didn’t know with what the field was stamped. I had a sense that the stamp in my hand had something to do with the turquoise rose allegory, but I didn’t know how to connect the field with the stamp until it just now.
  • I remember to come to record in the journal. I had no idea of what I was to record. I recorded date and time. I began to write with what was the field stamped to my own amazement. So simple. As if I should have known it all the while.

And So? My History Been Recorded In The Journal , And…?

Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 9:06 am.

O my Master! And You are now revealing it to me. Whatever for? For the benefit of all readers present as well as former and future. What has taken place from the time You called me to journal my life until this very moment?

Harmony And Sense In My Life Is And Has Been A Reality …

Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 10:58 pm.

Things worked out pretty well today. Thanks, my Master! Will go to sleep now. Hope to catch up. Awake at 3:47 am.

A New Day Waiting On You My Master …

Monday, September 30, 2019 at 3:53 am.

Like a maiden wait for her mistress so my soul waits on You. Illustrating my history recorded in this journal is the task consuming my time while I wait on You.

Talking About Harmony And Sense In My Life Is A Reality …?

Monday, September 30, 2019 at 4:01 pm.

Master? The truth is You are the Author of harmony and sense. Yes, the reality of my life has always been in harmony and much sense, but!

As A Human Being? All Inharmonious Circumstances And Conditions Known To Me, Until…?

Your decreed time to unravel and harmonize my life came to me. But why all known to me before has been all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun?

All Is Crystal Clear To Me Now, No Kidding! …

The Harmony And Sense In My Life? Totally opposite of what the world knows for harmony and sense! Wow! NOW! This moment. IT ALL FIT TOGETHER! What am I talking about?

My Former Life Of Conflict, Discord, Strife, Contention, Dissension, Clash …?

That’s what I am talking about. No kidding! My family and the people that known me in the past can all testify about it all. No wonder why most all are skeptics about this miraculous transformation of my being!

The Best Part? JOY Inexplicable Full Of Your Esteem Bubbles Up Within Me …?

Master! Master! Master! Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! No more anger. No more conflicts. No more regrets. No more wondering. No more sorriest! What a marvel!

Your Work Is Done! The Adjustment To All Is For Real! …

That shall be the subject for future posts. For now? I am finished optimizing the illustration for this post. Lead me as I am preparing to post again. Quote:

Ecclesiastes 12:13

13  All has been heard; the end of the matter is: Fear God [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments, for this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation, the object of God’s providence, the root of character, the foundation of all happiness, the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man. End of quote.

Ha! I Started To Insert The Post In The Site, But!

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 12:46 am.

I had to hit the bed. Slept for 6 hours! Wow! I needed that! Midnight. Woke up. Another day. Another month. The first day of 10th month. The 12th hour. The minutes? I noticed, the number 46 or 4+6=10. The number 10?

Master! You Telling Me What Is To Happen It’s Really, Really Happening Now? …

O but what can I say, my Master? There are no words, no ways of any kind to figure You out. I never know what You got in store for me until You see fit to show it to me. Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Master?. Am I To End This Post With Another Quote From Your Written Words I Got In The E-Mail Inbox Just Now?

I happen to check my inbox as I was editing the published post. I read the important email. Didn’t know what to make of it until I read the ending Scripture. How appropriate to quote it to end this post!

“Let them shout for joy and rejoice, who favour my vindication; and let them say continually, ‘The Lord be magnified, Who delights in the prosperity of His servant.’” (Psalm 35:27, NASB)

On to post now for sure.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Truth Can Be Offensive/Insulting …

Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?

Big Time! Wished To Die, But!

That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.

Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.

No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …

Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:

Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!

The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”

Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,

“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”

Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.

“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”

Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!

“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!

No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”

O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!

“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.

From now on all your doings shall become sensible and your feelings for goodness shall intensify as well as your feelings for badness.

And your thoughts shall be under the captivity of My thoughts. This drastic change within your being shall soon take hold of the hearts of many who would turn to Me and esteem My name as they see your good works.”

Master, what about these festivals and different things that Your people are so deep into? What am I to do? What am I to respond to inquires as to my behavior on these days of excitement for Your people?

And, Master, what am I to do about my health? What about all the body discomforts I suffer all the time? Am I to do anything about my body? How am I to take care of my body?

“My beloved, say and do exactly as I have been leading you to say and do. Do not relent in speaking My WORD as it is written.

Truly, My Thia, your time has come to delight Me and from here on out ALL things and ALL matters shall come to pass in your life as it is written and as I have been telling you personally.

My beloved Thia, I am well aware of your physical condition. Your body is continuously decaying on account of the environmental conditions caused by the sin of mankind under the evil influence of our enemy.

Nonetheless, you have nothing to worry about because My grace is sufficient unto you; that means that you are able to withstand all and any discomfort in your body and rejoice rather than complain about it.

You are in excellent health and I will keep your body in healthy conditions until the time comes to invest you with a new body immune to decay.

My beloved Thia, from now on you will be sitting still and yet your activity in the realm of My invisible Kingdom shall intensify ten fold.

As of this instant I am taking control of your imaginations. Your steps shall be steady as you move in any direction.

And the song of praise and adoration to Me shall intensify to the point of the highest heaven.

Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

Wow! I guess I won’t post this amazing word fulfilled today because I am sleepy. By the time I wake up the Net won’t work. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 am.

Absolutely Awesome! Those Words?  …

Sailing the turbulent waves of these lower seas? I had even forgotten those words until this moment. Ten years beaten by the treacherous waves this world could to me thrust me under.

Even So? My Master Lives In My Deepest Chamber! …

Nothing and no one have been able to really disturb me despite all my lapses and preoccupations. Brutal pain and lack of gain? Almost to the exact day I am typing these lines without pain—no worries about my lack of gain.

MIRACLE!

Let’s go to the details if we must.

 

Introduction

 

What’s With This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory Been Writing About? …

Will Do My Best To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 1:56 pm.

Why do I keep regressing instead of progressing? Day by day the answer is coming clear to me but not to thee, dear Reader follower.

Therefore? This Introduction …

Let me summarize the sequence of events. Our lives come in cycles. In my life? I don’t know exactly when each cycle begins and ends except for this last cycle starting with An Extended Adventurous Voyage—the present cycle I am living in.

Here is the list of post from present to previous for your reference to understand this introduction.

Strange, But! Since I Started The Present Cycle? Not Many Clicks …

What is happening? I already explained the matter in the An Extended Adventurous Voyage post, but! It looks like it made no difference to my readers.

I Not Concerned About The Clicks, But!? …

I am concerned with how I am coming through to my readers. What came to me just this morning? To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain.

  • It is plain to me how everything that happens in the physical realm has its source in the spiritual realm.

Our Physical Pain Has Its Source In What Is Buried In Our Spirits—The Deepest Part Of Our Beings …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 3:49 pm.

I am learning these things on the daily and moment to moment basis with every stage of my physical condition. The fluctuation of my physical condition troubles me big time.

That’s Why I Keep Regressing Instead Of Progressing, Until This Morning …?

What happened this morning? I had been in the gutter of my own negative thinking since yesterday when I came into the knowledge of being a ‘lame duck’ for lack of Ahmad’s support.

Down I Went! All Day. All Night. Until The Master Lift Me Up Earlier Today …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 10:52 pm.

Earlier today I got up from bed because I could not sleep. My mind kept churning with Ahmad’s lack of support. I kept begging for help. The answer came to my inbox.

Just Out Of Curiosity? I Clicked The Headline …

Wow! First glimpse of the people’s coming to terms with reality. I was impressed. Though that not in total agreement with the author of the post? I replied to comment. Quote:

I’m impressed! Radical Judgement of one’s self is the one thing, perhaps the only thing to solve our problems. Over and over I must radically judge myself.

Dear Reader, I will give you a bulleted summary of how this renewal of mine has been on the making for the last 45 years since 1974 when I discover the Scriptures.

  • The year was 1974—I discovered the Scriptures. Got into the unknown spiritual realm. Lost my mind. Stopped reading the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1979—amazing healing experience from deep wound inflicted upon me in my childhood. The result? Regain my physical health. Back in the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1983—Gruesome divorce. Felt apart. Lost hope. Lost all morals. Hit the top of immoral living.
  • The year was 1985—Suddenly! Unexpectedly! My whole life was run like a film strip in my view. What did I realize as I viewed the film?
  • I had gone through life unaware of the secret saving power of the Spirit of the Almighty Creator of my being, taking everything and everybody for granted without consideration of anything other than my own understanding of life, and the raw feelings of my emotions.
  • Restored,
  • A second mental breakdown.
  • Called to journal my life, but! Did not listen.
  • The year was 1986—convicted. Power to quit my work. Power to listen.
  • The year was 1987—began new life under my gifted friend’s care. Began to journal my life consistently.
  • The year was 1992—saddest year for me, my gifted friend died. I became lost. I felt abandoned. Back to my old life of family and church.
  • The year was 1994—bought property. Became sort of independent. Happy time.
  • The year was 1995—depression treatment? Electric shocks. Almost destroyed me. My daughter rescued me, but that’s the year my prescription drug addiction began.
  • The year was 1999—inspired to go live with family. Sold my property. Things did not work out. I felt spiritually dead.
  • The year was 2001—back on my own again. Got beautiful apartment, but! Got involved in helping seniors instead of my call to journal my life as instructed to do.
  • The year was 2007—that’s the year I dropped unconscious, victim of misdiagnose. Rushed to the emergency room at the point of death. Convicted. Repented. Restored.
  • The year was 2008—called to go to the ‘lost sheep of Israel. Power to accept the call.
  • The year was 2009—called to get out of the USA. Destination? The wilderness of people to judge me face to face.
  • The year was 2015—call to go with my gifted son Ahmad. He is to be my authority while we wait for Yahushua’s return.
  • The year was 2017—got the roof apartment of my dreams. My renewed life began.
  • The year is now 2019—WOW! What a year it has been. This is to be the year of our jubilee, but! O well?

It Surely Doesn’t Look Like Jubilee At All! But!

The Almighty Creator is in control of His creation. I am committed and submitted to Him as my supreme Authority. He has declared me to be His messenger. So? End of quote.

Reading And Commenting On That Post? It Brought Me To My Senses …

Reflecting on what I read? That’s what stopped the flow of negative thoughts. Then? I was able to hear my Master’s instructions to call Ahmad.

It Does Not Matter How It Looks To Us All …

Me? I’m, I have been going through another rough period of my journey. Don’t know what is to be even in the next moment. I go up and down, but!

O My Master! You Are Faithful To Your Word To Sustain Me …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 12:04 am.

One more 7th Day of Rest. Things don’t look too good between Ahmad and me. I am somewhat dejected, but! I am resting on You. I keep remembering Your recent words to comfort me. Quote:

“Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

The Sting Of Ahmad’s Words To Release His Anger? …

Enough fuel for my dejection, but! I’m taking what I give. I spit out similar words to him to release my own anger, and?

That’s A Good Thing! Be Ye Angry And Sin Not …?

Wow! Thanks, my Master! How amazing are Your words when You apply them to my inner being. To release one’s anger keeps one from the festering resentment that causes all our physical pain and misery.

Now I Am Beginning To Understand The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

Perhaps this introduction will help my readers to understand such power as well. On to the details of what is going on in my journey.

 

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on!

Human Integrity? Limited. Questionable Big Time …?

No Kidding! That’s Not My Idea, Dear Readers …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 3:57 am.

I wish it was because then you would be justified in abandoning this blog, but! The truth is now coming to light in many blogs/books and such other than this single post.

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on! …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:11 am.

How can that be? Everybody thinks highly of me. I’m faithful. I live by the word. I help the orphans and the widows. I support the Church and ministers. I – I – I – am a good Christian woman.

Me? How Can That Be? Talking about offended? Until …

Until the reality of truth hit my gut! It’s Wednesday, September 11, 2019 at 10:36 pm. Know what? I’m having an awful time writing about this issue.

Insults, Or What Is Considered As An Insult? Turns A One Away …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:26 am.

Indeed! Turns a one away from the source of the insult without hesitation. Thus? Many of my followers have abandoned this blog offended by the truth that will set them free. Even so?

The Almighty Sole Creator Of Our Beings Has Not Abandoned Them …?

Not a single one of His begotten children shall be lost. He plans to restore every single one of us. Only? His ways to do it all? Simple but! Illogical!

The Human Mind Cannot Grasp Such Ways …

That’s the fact to be exact. There is no need for me to be concerned about the followers of this blog. There is no need for me to be concerned about my loved one’s present behavior.

Master? You Are Lifting Me Up To Sail The High Seas …

The high seas away from any country’s jurisdiction. Away from my preoccupation with the human element. Your plan of restoration is coming to pass exactly as You have decreed it to pass despite all my preoccupations.

That’s The Fact To Be Exact. On To High Seas This Day I’ll Sail …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at.4:47 am.

O my Master! You have set me free from all my preoccupations. All around me I see, I read all the goings on of my people near and far. On this moment of time?

My Soul Is Free—On To High Seas I’ll Sail—Holding On To My Master’s Rail …

Clarity is in my mind to see far and beyond the furthest realm my imagination could find. The splendid future? Not so far away now.

It Might Be Days-Weeks-Months-Even Years, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:25 am.

The splendid future is already here. In my heart. In my mind. Because in Your Presence? That future I find. Because You live? I can live that future. Because You live? All fear is gone!

I Am Sailing On High Seas Away From The Storms Of Lower Seas Because …?

You have risen in my mind to calm it down. On high seas I am sailing while You are at the helm. No need to be overwhelmed because You are at the helm. Even so?

Reality! On Lower Seas? I’m A Lame Duck …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 12:53 pm.

A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.

What Is A Lame Duck? …

It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!

O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?

I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.

What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.

I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.

Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?

Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …

I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.

Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.

I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.

You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.

I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.

Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.

First? I sense You calling me to sleep. Well? I guess You were not calling me to sleep. I could not sleep. I got up. All kinds of things been running through my mind because of pain, lack of appetite and now lack of sleep.

You Have Shown To Me All Physical Conditions Are Rooted In The Spiritual …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 8:44 am.

Every single day You demonstrate what You show to me. My body reacts to what is going on in my spirit. A Lame Duck? That revelation threw me for spin downwards.

I Reverted To My Old Way Of Thinking Big Time, But! …

You kept me from staying there. Even so? A Lame Duck? Because Ahmad is not supporting me. From that thinking? Because. Because. Because kept churning in my mind until a moment ago.

It Came To Me, Why Are Sitting Here Imagining All Sorts Of Because? …

Call Ahmad. Find out what’s going on. Sure enough, I called. Didn’t have in mind to blow up in anger but that’s exactly what I did. Next? I began to think of jumping ship, but then?

I Lift Up My Voice, Where Can I Go From Your Spirit My Master? …

Behold! Your Power Of Love and wisdom. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! I began to reason, You have planted me here. I am established. I am safe and secure. What nonsense is this of ‘jumping ship’?

Back To Your Track. Holding On To Your Rail On High Sea Waters …

High Sea Waters? Treacherous waters! Unless I hold on to Your rail? I’ll be drowning without fail, but! You are at the helm. Should I let go of Your rail? You tilt the ship to save my tail—a take from Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

Where Am I Going From Here On? I Don’t Know. My Master Knows …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 5:39 am.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? You know all about Your purpose and plan for these writings. Whether I sound pretensions or not? True or false? It’s Your plan to make it known to all.

Me? You Know I Can’t Take Much More …

Between suffering the consequences of my human reactions to fly/flies to ants annoying me while awake or sleep, plus the troubles between Ahmad and me? I am simply worn out. At my wits end again.

Even So? You Are Holding Me Up. I Cannot Jump Ship …?

I am staying put. Sometimes sober. Sometimes I lose it. For the most? Busy searching my writings for files I cannot find, but! One thing I know for sure.

Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

To that end You have drastically dealt with me. I am appalled at my own self’s distasteful hypocrisy! But I am thankful for Your hand of discipline to set me free. A take from Psalms 139. Quote:

Psalms 139:2-5

You know my down-sitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. [Mat 9:4; Joh 2:24-25]

You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Master, You know it altogether. [Heb 4:13]

You have beset me and shut me in–behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.

My Distasteful Hypocrisy In Chasing Millions …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 6:46 am.

Reflecting on what I read that jolted me back on my Master’s track? Besides the admonishing to judge myself radically, a quote shone a beam of Your light to really expose that hypocrisy. Quote:

“Ego is the absolute impediment to Dao. The sin is pride. If it thrills you that you’re enlightened then you’re ruined. Forget sharing it. You’re not pure enough to share it.” — Terence McKenna

Even So? It All Comes To Me From Your Hand Of Mercy …

O my Master! I am not any longer thrilled about my enlightenment on the matter of receiving any enticing emails from Ray Edward et all. In fact? I am appalled! But!

Even That—Appalled? Could Be A Thrill Of My Carnal Nature, So? …

Therefore? I quit. I am letting go of everything. Including my thinking. My ideas and concepts. You are filling my mind with the opposite of all of that as You promised to do a long time ago. Quote:

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua You spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985. You said to me at that moment:

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love.  These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others.

Rest in Me and hold My flowers. Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”

And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. And You said to me:

“You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY flowers and not your flowers.”

Then You spoke to me a second Word to answer my dilemma at that time. I asked, ‘Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just to rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be Okay, Father?’ And You answered me,

“I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you. I am telling you just that.

You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off of ME.

Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying. You are being self-conscious.

Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.

Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for My own reasons, even if you don’t understand My reasons.

You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.

Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.

Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings.

That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor.

It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So, don’t worry about anything.

Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.

Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of.

You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

Serious Reflection On The Last Paragraphs You Bring To My Mind …

Quote:

“Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings. That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor. It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

“I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So don’t worry about anything.

“Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being. Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

So Be It. Though I Feel Like Crying For I Am Sad? …

No matter. Because my feelings are on this world’s shores, but! You have lifted me up to sail the high seas away from this world’s shores.

Whether I Sadly Cry Or Not? All It Matters Is To Be Near You On High Or Lower Seas …?

I’m going on. I’ll post these lines with my hope and expectation set on You by the power of Your love and wisdom, but! Before I post I must add the latest as I woke up this morning.

Continuous Constant Change …?

  • Cycles Of Life Repeating It Selves Precisely …

The First Day With No Pain …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 pm

I slept until 2:54 am. Thank Goodness! The end of my 7th Day of Rest came with the realization of Your Presence manifestation in a day without pain.

Twelve Years Since? This Cycle Of My Journey Began …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 3:22 am.

The year was 2007. Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Alone I sat reading the recent acquired article on Daniel 8. I began to see the parallel. Suddenly! I was called to the carpet. Quote:

It was a Saturday on September 15, 2007. I was keeping the 7th Day of Rest all by my lonesome. I was reading an article written by Yedidah on Daniel 8. Suddenly! It came to me something to this effect,

  • “Such is the message I have given to you to proclaim to the world. You are no longer doing so. You cannot hear Me any longer because, you are too busy taking care of the home bound. Because your spirit is sleeping and your mind is dull with all those pills that you are taking.”

Immediately, I got up. I headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my pill big box. I headed to the toilet. I proceeded to flush nearly $1000.00 of prescription drugs I have been faithfully swallowing for that many years.

I came back to the computer. I wrote a resignation letter to my position as a volunteer in the Senior Companion Program. I picked up the phone and cancelled all appointments with 5 specialists in-charged of my health. I made a note to prepare to sell my Kia Sophia.

Then I dropped the bomb on my children. “You are insane!” some of them retorted and quit their mom.

They had had enough of my crazy whims and mental insanity but, this was not insanity nor a whim after all. Years later it has proven it not to be so.

To conclude, for the record, it is now Thursday, October 20, 2016. Tomorrow will mark 30 years since October 21, 1986.

That is another remarkable date in my journey of life in the Presence of my Father/Creator. That was the date when Father marked me as a writer to honor His name.

The honor of our Father/Creator’s name. what does that mean? A mouth full of misunderstanding but, not outside of the Father/Creator’s control & dominion & knowledge.

His wisdom is unfathomable. That will be the subject for subsequent posts on this line. Why?

What the honor of the Father/Creator’s name got to do with mental insanity? The answer to that question gives way to the Innovative Approach to Mental Health that needs to be proclaim to the whole world if there is to be any hope to restore our sanity to avail us for eternity. End of quote.

Much Reflection Needed …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 8:26 am.

I cannot by any stretch of my imagination regress to any resemble of my old ways. But how on earth can I do what I intent to do? Inevitable, I do as I done before at the least provocation.

You Are Being Self Conscious. Quit Trying To Perfect My Work …?

Oops! I hear You big time! What a trip am I! No wonder why the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. O but Your faithfulness to Your words.

I Am In Control, Relax …?

  • O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
  • Today is your 12th anniversary of your return to do what I called you to do since 1985.
  • I am aware of your misgivings as you read Yedidah’s article on Daniel 8. You can now confirm all stated in that article, but!
  • The backlash from Yedidah and her followers still lingers inside of you. The reading of the article brought that backlash to the surface.
  • Thus, the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. Even so?
  • Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being even before you met Yedidah.
  • No need for you to hold on to that backslash. Yedidah and her followers cannot comprehend what goes on with your life in My Presence. Let go. I am in control.
  • Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.
  • I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake, but! You are human.
  • In your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time.
  • That is why I have had to pour the life in My written words slowly and gently in order to fill you with My Spirit in those words.
  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Dear Reader, I am sure you now have a better understanding of this journey of mine. Ready now to post for sure.

Here are the links to my last two books in case anyone is inclined to find out the details of what’s happening and it’s all happening in my life’s journey:

Click to access AN-EXTENDED-ADVENTUROUS-VOYAGE-1.pdf

Click to access Ahoy-The-Turquoise-Ship-Booklet.pdf

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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Renewed? Nothing Like I Ever Imagine …

Power To Be Loved To Love. Wisdom. Peace. Humility. Harmony. Humor …

My Life Begins  To End No More …

Saturday, June 15, 2019 at 12:22 am.

Renewed! Only problem? My human mind remains human—my worst enemy churning out foul debris to taint the beauty of my renewal, but!

I Live Under The Shadow Of The Almighty Whose Power No Foe Can Withstand. So? …

I woke up not feeling renewed at all! Leg cramps made me jump out of bed. Pain. Depression. Discouraged. Hopeless again. What brought all that up? The numerous ‘Happy Birthdays’ plus Ahmad, wife, and Maria’s visit?

It Hit Me Hard! But All Of It? Did Nothing For The Longing In My Soul …

How in heaven’s name can I live with such heavy burden in my soul? And why am I not healed? What to do? Whatever I do it backfires on me. On top of it all? Computer messing up.

  • At 1:10 am will turn off unplug comp. go to bed. Wait. Up at 4:45 am. Not much improvement. Alone again. Silence from above. Turn on Photoshop. Began to create.

Thinking About What I Write? A Reminder …

Saturday, June 15, 2019 at 1:31 pm.

  • But of that [exact] day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.
  • As were the days of Noah, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. For just as in those days before the flood they were eating and drinking, [men] marrying and [women] being given in marriage, until the [very] day when Noah went into the ark,
  • And they did not know or understand until the flood came and swept them all away–so will be the coming of the Son of Man. Matthew 24:36-39

For Me? A Reminder Of The Consequences Of Past Behavior …

I been dreaming of a daisy plant. Have made it known to Ahmad, but! He claims daisies not in bloom? Strange. Anyhow? Last night he brought me a plant non to my liking. Didn’t let on my dislike, but!

It Brought To My Mind The Lack Of Connection Between Us, And? …

I lifted my voice on high. Father? Where is that man You have to connect with me? I know Ahmad is bound and determinate to take care of me for the rest of my life, but!

Ahmad Does Not Have The Means To Help Me …

O my Master! I am so lonely. Why am I in this predicament? Where is that man to understand, to pamper me like my Honey did? O but I so miss him. Suddenly!

It Came To Me, Ahmad Is Your Gift To Me, But! I Do Not Like Him …

Wow! You gifted me two husbands to take care of me. I did not like them. Am I doing the same with Your gift of a son?

Even So? You Gifted Me A 3rd Man—What A Gift …

But then? You took him away. Ha! Just now I am realizing why? I stand open and exposed, naked and defenseless to the eyes of Him with Whom I have to do.

Pain. Depression. Discouraged. Hopeless Again? The Power Of Your Word Cutting Such Dross. Quote:

For the Word that the Master speaks is alive and full of power [making it active, operative, energizing, and effective]; it is sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating to the dividing line of the breath of life (soul) and [the immortal] spirit, and of joints and marrow [of the deepest parts of our nature], exposing and sifting and analyzing and judging the very thoughts and purposes of the heart. Hebrews 4:12 End of quote.

For the time being no discipline brings joy, but seems grievous and painful; but afterwards it yields a peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it [a harvest of fruit which consists in righteousness–in conformity to the Master’s will in purpose, thought, and action, resulting in right living and right standing with the Master. Hebrews 12:11. End of quote.

At The End Of This 7th Day Of Rest? The Yield From Your Discipline …

A peaceable fruit of righteousness to me. I have been trained by Your discipline. A harvest of fruit which consists in righteousness—In conformity to the Master’s will in purpose, thought, and action, resulting in right living and right standing with the Master.

Next? A Record Confirming Such Harvest …

This record goes back to that memorable 7th Day of Rest on October 03, 2009—the day You took the key to the deepest chamber of my heart. The next day? Quote:

Sunday, October 04, 2009 (12:43am).

Excerpt:

“My beloved Thia, be not afraid to be firm against the unclean. Do not mistake kindness for tolerance of the sinful and rebellious behavior of most of My children. Speak the truth and reality of My WORD whether they want to hear it or not.

“My beloved Thia set it in your heart and mind that you are not in for a popularity contest to gain the approval of man. Rather, remember, you are no longer functioning and living in the realm of the natural mankind. You are now set on My Mountain top totally under My domain and protection!”

Seven years later on Wednesday, September 28, 2016 at 7:06 am

“O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, pause and reflect.

  • Have I not reassured you over & over again about Your identity with Me?
  • Have I not confirmed to you the work that I have and I am doing in your life on the daily basis?
  • Have I not transformed you from a fearful, coward, arrogant woman to the beautiful woman liken to an innocent child that you now are in My sight?
  • Furthermore, have I not promised you that you shall never be put to shame or depressed anymore?
  • Have I not promised you more wisdom & wealth than what I gave to King Solomon?
  • Have I not promised you a husband to represent Me for the rest of your time on these earthly grounds as they now are?
  • Have I not promised you the fulfilment of all your dreams?

Very well then, why have I made such outlandish promises to you?

Because, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, because with your sordid past of sinful living plus the fact of your low birth, you are the most un-liken candidate to receive such honors. Absolutely, you have no grounds to attribute any glory to your goodness.

You see now? My ways and my thoughts are way above the human mind & heart.

In your dream this time, you stood naked in front of Me looking for me to praise and admired your slim body, why? Not because, you wanted My approval but, I wanted you to see My complete work. Thus, in the previous dream you saw first the number three; then the number eleven.

Now, in this dream you saw My completed work after this period of chaos, disorder and judgment that you are passing thru.

There will be some changes in this agonizing period of pain & defeat that you are suffering.

Wait.

You are equipped now to wait in good spirits, expecting the best even if the worst should manifest.

Remember, I am always with you. I will never, ever leave or forsake you. I delight in your child like obedience. My delight in that obedience is your strength.”

Sunday, November 27, 2016 at 6:09 am

“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Pause & reflect. Focus.

Set your gaze on Me. Fear not. I did not set you up for you to make an impact in this world.

I set you up to impact the world with the work I do in your heart at all times.

 

Whether you are discouraged or not. Whether you are elated or depressed. No matter what?

I am impacting this world with everything I give you to proclaim in whatever place or situation I happen to place you in.

I am your Anchor. Fear not. You shall not be put to shame.

I am giving you as much wisdom & riches as I gave to King Solomon.

For I know that you are keenly aware of your deficiencies and your weaknesses.

I am well aware also of your faithfulness. Your faith shall not fail you. For you are returning to Me.

Now? I have set up you up to strengthen the rest of My children.

I am well aware of your concern because many are attaining a blissful life by means of the power of their minds.

In due time, I will fulfil My promises to you. I will make your dreams come true.

The fulfillment of your dreams will catch the attention of more souls than you can imagine.

Set your focus on Me along with My promises to you. From now on, keep to yourself.

Do not let all the worldly thoughts & human wisdom deter you from the path I have marked for you.

I will give you enough savvy to achieve your goals with a different slant little known by the most sophisticated scholars in all arts.

Do what they tell you but, do not do what they do. In that respect, I will weed & separate My children from the rest of mankind.

Fear not, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart. Lift up your head! Your redemption draws nigh.

Rejoice and be glad. Your discouragements are only for a moment. No need for your concern. I am working all things for the good of all My children.

Remember, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Always remember, your obedience is My delight. My delight is your strength.

Ten Years Since Now …

Saturday, June 15, 2019 at 7:25 pm.

Dear Reader, hope you still with me. On this day? My life begins to end no more for sure. The Yield From the Master’s Discipline is a reality in my life.

Truly? Living Learning And More At My 80th…

All misery of this morning along with my life’s misery? Shall no longer be found on this earthly ground.

My gaze is set above. From the natural to the supernatural by the power of love and wisdom from on high.

Much love to all, thiaBasilia.