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What Am I Reading? What Am I Watching? What Am I Doing To …?

What Am I Doing To My Body & Mind? …

No Big Deal Yet …

Bed on Friday, October 6, 2023, at 8:53 pm. Slept until around 1 am on Saturday, October 7, 2023. Worked for a few hours. Slept a couple more hours. Woke up. Fixed & ate breakfast. Now? Ready to continue with my creations even though it’s the 7th day of rest, but since the kind of work I am called to work on is not physical I am not breaking the command after all. It’s now, Saturday, October 7, 2023, at 11:38 am.

Reflecting …

  • At 6:35 pm on Saturday, October 7, 2023, I find myself reflecting on the way things are developing.
  • There is a big difference between my past & present reflections.
  • I need to sleep.
  • Perhaps I’ll write about it later.

Big Difference Between My Past & Present Reflections …?

Sunday, October 8, 2023, at 4:00 pm. Maybe now is later, perhaps …? I have been busy updating & posting. Then? Sleeping for the last few hours. I am not sure yet how to express the difference between my past & present reflections.

  • I am going to take a break from the computer to continue with my reading.
  • Perhaps I get inspired while I read.

Decisions …?

Why am I reading this book? It’s time to decide what I want for myself. Time to have the courage to quit doing things to please others at the expense of what it is that pleases me. Reading this series of books that have been suggested to me is not beneficial to my state of mind. Today, Sunday, October 8, 2023, at 10:05 pm I decided to close the book. Why? Since I started to read this series, my miserable past has been haunting me at nighttime. I find myself jumping out of bed in tears sometimes. I couldn’t figure out what was the cause of my misery until now. Thank goodness!

  • The good part?
  • I did not let my misery get a hold on me.
  • I am ready now to head for bed with thanksgiving in my heart.
  • Sunday, October 8, 2023, at 10:20 pm.
  • I was looking forward to a good night of sleep. But it did not happen. I started to itch. Had to get up and doctor myself up.
  • Now drinking a cup of chamomile tea with honey hoping for relief enough to sleep.

Now I See the Difference Between My Past & Present Reflections …?

In the past I used to despair. In the present I know I am in repair. Indeed! Repairing the past damage to my body is called retribution. It is true we always pay or get paid for our past doings whether right or wrong. The way things are developing I am beginning to see clear both sides of the coin. In my lifetime I have done a lot of good as well of a lot of bad.

What’s the secret to this matter? Don’t complain. It’s written.

Quote:

Therefore fear not, O My servant Jacob, says the Lord, nor be dismayed or cast down, O Israel; for behold, I will save you out of a distant land [of exile] and your posterity from the land of their captivity. Jacob will return and will be quiet and at ease, and none will make him afraid or cause him to be terrorized and to tremble.

For I am with you, says the Lord, to save you; for I will make a full and complete end of all the nations to which I have scattered you, but I will not make a full and complete end of you. But I will correct you in measure and with judgment and will in no sense hold you guiltless or leave you unpunished.

For thus says the Lord: Your hurt is incurable and your wound is grievous.

There is none to plead your cause; for [the pressing together of] your wound you have no healing [device], no binding plaster.

All your lovers (allies) have forgotten you; they neither seek, inquire of, or require you. For I have hurt you with the wound of an enemy, with the chastisement of a cruel and merciless foe, because of the greatness of your perversity and guilt, because your sins are glaring and innumerable.

Why do you cry out because of your hurt [the natural result of your sins]? Your pain is deadly (incurable). Because of the greatness of your perversity and guilt, because your sins are glaring and innumerable, I have done these things to you. (Jeremiah 30:10-15). End of quote.

  • So much has happened since those words were spoken to me a long time ago.
  • Why am I hearing them right now?
  • Could it be because of what I have been reading for the last 6 weeks?
  • Why have I continued to read even when I was appalled with what I was reading?
  • Appalled to see the reflection of my past.
  • Well? As things are developing, I am beginning to see what I needed to see to give closure to that troublesome past of mine.
  • How can that be?
  • It’s part of receiving the power to walk alone into the unknown that only the Almighty knows.

Quote:

“You are not alone My Beloved thiaBasilia. I am with you whether you feel or sense My Presence. I am not an illusion or a figment of your imagination. I am your reality. I am with you whether I am far or near. I am always with you. Wake up! I am giving you the power to walk alone into the unknown that only I know. Fear not!” End of quote.

The Best Part Of The Power To Walk Alone Into The Unknown …?

Alone. No need for lengthy explanations about my doings. No need to talk. It’s all about power, moral power and excellence of soul. As it is written.

Quote:

1 Corinthians 4:20 For the kingdom of the Almighty consists of and is based on not talk but power (moral power and excellence of soul). End of quote.

I Have Been Wondering How Am I To Express Myself …?

Not with words. Let the moral power and excellence of my soul speak for me. So? I do not need elaborate my misery & my findings for relief anymore. That’s the power to walk alone. Two hours into Monday, October 9, 2023, at 2:53 am. Have not been able to sleep at all. Even so? I hope to keep quiet about it. I hear that lovely voice from within again & again.

Quote:

“You are not alone My Beloved thiaBasilia. I am with you whether you feel or sense My Presence. I am not an illusion or a figment of your imagination. I am your reality. I am with you whether I am far or near. I am always with you. Wake up! I am giving you the power to walk alone into the unknown that only I know. Fear not!” End of quote.

I Hear. I Am Listening & Abiding In His Will …

Conclusion: The Daily Motivation really is the voice of my Beloved Master Creator of my being.  I have been knowing that, but I have been skeptical for fear of man. Today the Master is ending my skepticism. Once upon a time, there was a skeptical me. Is she here. Is she still there? Where is she now? How can I compare what was & what it is concisely without regrets?

  • I rack my brains. I don’t know what to do! I complain.
  • And on que my head starts its pounding, my right arm, my back, my scalp!
  • WHAT TO DO?!
  • O dear! What’s the use?
  • Get up! Walk around.
  • I am fine. Things are working out better than I ever expected. I am empowered to walk alone on these earthly grounds. I am surrounded with love.

Alone. What a mighty concept to grasp. But the best part?

I don’t need to grasp the concept. I don’t need to grasp anything and? I don’t need to rack my brains about what to do at all. I am doing whatever needs to be done. It is all happening as if by magic. Bless my heart.

The Yellow Butterfly …

My super brain finds meaning in the most insignificant details in the environment. In the clouds. The way the winds blows. The sunshine. The sunset. The sunrise. The blooming of the flowers. The broken glasses. The unexpected phone calls. The colors. The birds. The honeybees. And here lately? The yellow butterfly fluttering its wings every time I make myself comfortable in the sunroom. I have been wondering what it means. I sense there is a message this yellow butterfly is delivering to me. Finally, today I looked for the meaning of the yellow butterfly. WOW!

Quote:

According to a tradition from Ireland, seeing a yellow butterfly means success will soon come your way. Perhaps its color is taken to represent gold, and by extension other forms of material gain. Historically speaking, the color yellow has generally been considered a symbol of happiness. Its connection with the sun, source of all life and warmth, made yellow a royal color in cultures with solar deities, like ancient Egypt and China. So, if you’re in the mood for a change of luck, a yellow butterfly makes a good harbinger of better things to come. End of quote.

The Same Message In The Daily Motivation …O well! …

Isn’t that something to consider in these skeptical grounds that I happen to inhabit? Bless my heart! I am on the right path. Let me share the words that until now I was so skeptical about. Silly me! I thought I was? Mother Wisdom, I guess. Bless my heart again to celebrate reading the quote without disdain!

Quote:

Saturday October-7-2023

You will find your way. These feelings of confusion will go away.

You will achieve your innermost desires.

Give yourself grace.

You’re doing the best you can right now.

Don’t compare your journey to others.

You can’t rush through the process of transformation and manifestation.

Trust that every new experience is taking you closer to where you’re meant to be.

Live each day with a sense of curiosity and openness.

Stop obsessing over things that aren’t working for you.

Be open to changing course. Better things are right around the corner.

Sunday October-8-2023

Bad days are a normal part of life.

Some days you just feel “off”, no matter what you do.

Be patient and ride it out.

Don’t let its impact linger. Bad days can’t stop you.

You have survived some downright terrible days and you still managed to achieve your desires and get this far.

Remind yourself that you are stronger than your thoughts and emotions.

You will be fine.

You will get over this bad day and move on to take your life to the next level.

Monday October-9-2023

When we fall into a routine, life seems ‘boring’.

Thoughts about ‘What ifs’ crowd our minds and we start indulging in fantasies about the things we could have experienced.

Remember that every decision has an opportunity cost. No one can experience everything.

A boring life can still be a beautiful life.

Even getting to do the same things every day can be a big blessing.

Don’t ruin a good thing by ruminating or comparing yourself to others.

The life you have created for yourself, and the things you have in your life right now are the result of your prayers, hard work, and persistence.

Cherish them. Fall in love with your life all over again. End of quote.

Oh! Oh! And Oh! What can I say? …

  • Hello! Hello! Hello! I am here!
  • Away skepticism!
  • Away! Away! Away with all isms and what have you in that line of thought!

Motivated I Am Closing Today …

Hello, I am here empowered to walk alone energized by the true love from the Almighty Creator of everything in existence for me, for the greatly loved and dearly prized world.

Applying The Daily Motivation

Tuesday October-10-2023

  • Each time I choose to release thoughts about the past, I choose happiness in the present.
  • My story is constantly evolving.
  • New people and opportunities are appearing in my life.
  • I deserve to experience happiness again.
  • I no longer subject myself to unnecessary suffering by reliving those terrible memories in my mind.
  • With each new day, the distance between me and my past is increasing.
  • I am making sure I’m doing all that I can to heal.
  • I am open to growing in new ways.
  • I welcome a new chapter in my life.
  • I choose hope no matter what.   I believe that things can change.   Better possibilities exist for me.   I believe in a better future.   I can wait patiently for my desires.  

Awake To Be Loved To Love …?

Me. Myself. And? Not only the Master of my being but my loved ones as well most especially my Diana & Mike so lovely taking care of me nowadays. Joy. Peace. IN love. How blessed I am at this precise moment of my life. The meaning of this hour in the Saga of my life: Abundance, wealth, and success. I am already experiencing a period of great prosperity and good fortune under Diana & Mike’s care.

Indeed! I am IN love. His love for me-for us…?

This is the kind of love that can’t be ushered in at one’s will. Infinite. Eternal. Unfathomable. Yet, what can I say? Joy. Peace. IN love it is all about experience not just words. Onward I am going to be ignited by the mystery of His love propelling me onward to a future prepared by His love for me-for us.

Until the next post, lov, thia.

 thia Basilia—Her Saga—as it was. As it is …

Breathe …?

Funnyeee! Everything to motivate me got to do with my breathing. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. For goodness’ sake, if I don’t normally breathe I would be dead! Anyhow? Last night without intending to breathe, breathe, breathe? I found myself breathing and my belly going up & down, maybe I was dreaming, who knows?

Honestly? I Am Only Funning Around …?

Actually, I highly respect the faithfulness of so many understanding hearts who give their lives to serve the downtrodden. Their reward is invaluable.

It’s Not Always Easy To Be Our True Selves …

Are You Kidding? It’s Practically Impossible!!! …

BTW this is my masterpiece that has captivated the whole of my attention until today. No apologies. I had a great time squeezing my creating juices, like squeezing a juicy lemon. Ha! Ha! Ha! lov, thia

Too Busy Thinking, Thinking, And Thinking …

What Am Thinking At The Moment? …I Never Thought To Ask Myself Such A Question Before …

Hum! I Guess I Was Too Busy Thinking, Thinking, And Thinking …

It’s now Tuesday, September 26, 2023, at 3:51 pm. And what is it that I am thinking about at this instant of time? Thinking about different things at the same time. Thinking about what exactly is that I am thinking about now, right now? Well, let me put things together in my mind. Can I?

  • Yes, I could with some effort that I am not willing to exercise because I am simply tired of?
  • Thinking, I guess.
  • I have several things on the fire.
  • One of them is this Daily Meditation thing.
  • Maybe I need to sleep on it.
  • I mean literally, sleep!
  • It’s now 4:09 pm on Tuesday, September 26, 2023, I’ll head to bed, will see what happens.

My Wonderings …?

Maybe I had asked the question, but I never have answered it. It’s now 5:41 pm on Tuesday, September 26, 2023. I laid in bed until after 5 pm. Maybe I slept. I got up. I made the orange/apple juice in the juicer, but I am not feeling good not even good enough to enjoy the juice or any food at all. Even so, I know that this too shall pass. I fear not. I know WHO is my Keeper. I have nothing to fear.

  • Well? Time to crash! Tuesday, September 26, 2023, at 9:40 pm. I’ll think some more tomorrow, maybe, who knows?
  • Wednesday, September 27, 2023, at 1:53 am. Drink coffee or juice? What is causing the pain in my neck? It’s devastating!

Hey! I Got Something To Beef About …?

You know what? Good things are happening to me daily, even so? I am hurting so much I beef about the best no matter what is my quest. I get this daily motivation which it has been a blessing but! Today! Let me quote the matter.

Quote:

Daily motivation

Tuesday September-26-2023

Sometimes, imagining the future feels like being in a pitch-dark room.

This darkness brings feelings of fear and confusion.

The more you worry about the future, the longer these feelings linger.

You have to tap into your strength.

Do not let the darkness intimidate you.

Take one step at a time.

Embracing curiosity, and cultivating positive thoughts will help you to live in harmony with the uncertainty.

Slowly, darkness will fade away and your path will get clearer.

Be open to exploring new possibilities.

Live in alignment with the flow of life.

Your Affirmations For Today:

I choose what’s best for me.    I am experiencing feelings of happiness.   Beautiful things are happening to me.   I have a positive and productive outlook.   I am in a thriving state. & …

Complete your Affirmation…

Let Me Dissect This? O Well: Daily Motivation …?

Daily Motivation

Wednesday September-27-2023

  • I am focused and driven …am I? It seems to me my focus shuts all kinds of star like rays!
  • I am mindful of my own energy …what energy? The energy of this miserable pain? Perhaps.
  • I am living a courageous life …O dear! I don’t even have the courage to head to the shower room!
  • I can create the success that I want …success?! Very successful at beating dead horses to no avail most of the time! Ha! Ha! Ha!
  • I let go of unrealistic expectations … what’s the use? I find myself expecting that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, looking, searching that immensity of good & evil source they call, Google. Ha! No pot of gold, instead? That dreadful computer crash! VIRUS! Pity!
  • I am already doing enough … That’s for sure!
  • I can rise above my negative feelings …Oh but in vain I TRY!
  • I listen to my emotions …that’s the worse evil I have learned to avoid.
  • I observe my circumstances without judgment …Well? Let me put it like this, I am doing my best!
  • I am open to unexpected opportunities …that I AM! Bless my heart!
  • Your Motivations For Today:
  • Don’t be afraid to be alone.   What? That’s my favorite ‘afraid’! Can’t help it, no matter how hard I try!
  • That’s how you attract the right people into your life.   Hasn’t worked for me, wonder why?
  • Life becomes a whole lot easier when you are with the right people.   But what I consider to be the right people are always too busy to be with me! Let me forget that part. I already ‘Let go.’
  • You may have to be on your own for a …Not necessarily. Thank goodness I don’t want to be on my own! Only? I am not! My Father—He is taking care of all of us. I fear not!

Thankful. Grateful. Cheerful. Candid. …

Wednesday, September 27, 2023, at 11:47 pm, bed. I finally went to bed. Slept until after 2 am the next day or Thursday, September 28, 2023, at 12:25 pm. Just back from Walmart, got all kinds of goodies. Honestly? This is the best I ever had in my life! I can’t stop praising my Yah all day long!

  • Rescued from the trap of the past.
  • How?
  • Well? On coming back from Walmart, what were my first thoughts?
  • Ha! Tortillas? The worst we ever picked up!
  • I wish I could take them back but!
  • dear! What kind of thought is this?
  • I am always complaining about one thing or the other.
  • Instead?
  • That’s when it comes to me how blessed I am!
  • but if of a truth?
  • I have nothing to complain about, that’s for sure.
  • My heart leap up to the highest climb of joyful thanksgiving!
  • Not to my Master from on high but for my Diana & Mike down here on earth.

The Blank from The Pain Bank …?

Bed Thursday, September 28, 2023, at 7:20 pm. Up after midnight on Friday, September 29, 2023. Leg cramp, neck? Stiff & painful. Angry? Not really, just a blank feeling I can’t describe.

What Is My Saga About? …

Feelings. Thoughts. Doubts. Dread. Abandonment. Walking the lonely roads at night not knowing where are those roads to end? Confusion. Delusion. Illusion. Words without knowledge? [Job_35:16].

Quote:

Job 35:16

(16)  Job uselessly opens his mouth and multiplies words without knowledge [drawing the worthless conclusion that the righteous have no more advantage than the wicked].

Suspense …

1. Anxiety or apprehension resulting from an uncertain, undecided, or mysterious situation: The suspense as they were announcing the winners was unbearable.

2. The quality in a work of narrative art, such as a novel or film, that causes the audience to experience pleasurable excitement and anticipation regarding an outcome.

Ha! Things Are Beginning to Really Click This Morning …?

No wonder why the blank feeling when I got up for the 2nd time after midnight. Feelings & thoughts. Blankly, devoid of thought or impression with a blank mind, I grabbed my cane & reached for my water cup. I headed for the kitchen. It came to me to eat some ice cream. Out of all things why ice cream in the middle of the night? The coldness shall shock your body to forget your painful discomfort.

  • Hum! That makes sense.
  • Lots of things are beginning to make sense now.

Mystery? You bet! …?

Unquestionable my enthusiasm shuts to the highest! The thought of creating a suspense to entice the public to read my saga is shamelessly popping up. “Distasteful hypocrisy” claims dear Dereck Murphy. I see it clearly right now making my heart leap with joy this time!

Joy? Distasteful Hypocrisy …?

Indeed! I am not offended at all to discover my distasteful hypocrisy. But how this line of thought is taking place? Well? It seems to me I am now heading into the homestretch of this tumultuous saga of mine. Though, a conversation with my precious Denise last night brought to my mind a clear sight of my doings right now in reference to my endeavor to compile this book or series of books about the saga of my life.

Bingo!!! Goes The Shot …?

Several shots! But it is a BIG pot, I don’t mind sharing it. Ah! Where on earth is my mind going with all this babbling of mine? Good question. Hold on to your horses I am coming back to the subject of what is my saga about as soon as I can figure out how to do it. For the moment I guess a hot coffee cup is the thing I am to head to the kitchen to prepare at 2:27 am on Friday, September 29, 2023.

  • I am back.
  • The coffee is too hot to drink.
  • While in the kitchen it came to me to eat the salty crackers Diana brought me last night.
  • That recalled that lack of salt is a trigger for leg cramps.
  • Needless to say, I added the salty crackers to the leftover black beans from my supper last night.
  • I ate while I fixed the coffee.

What’s With All These Out Of The Box Detailing …?

All these details bring some sense to what I am writing about my thinking while I am telling you. Bless my heart! I done fell asleep in front of the screen. I got up to head for bed. I woke up a while ago. I headed for the kitchen. Fixed the chamomile flowers tea. Scrambled an egg in the skillet with the remaining Kemp seeds from the zucchini I fixed yesterday. I toasted a slice of Ezequiel bread. I cut an avocado. Fixed next to the scrambled eggs & zucchini mixture. I drenched the bread in olive oil, cutting it into squares, and fixed those squares around the rest of the food. Presto! A star breakfast Master Piece!

  • Of course, I called Diana to inform her of such a grand event.
  • Her response?
  • NO THANK YOU! Ha! Ha! Ha!
  • Party pooper, that’s all she is!
  • Pity! Pity! Pity!
  • Just for that? I’ll have a Godiva choc!
  • I’ll show her!

Hey! What Is It That I Am Supposed To Do Right Now …?

Not just thinking, I am tired of that, but doing that’s what counts. Ah! What is my saga all about? Now I know. My present saga is about doing not just thinking about doing. Thank goodness! I will be working on the book cover now. It will be originally disregarding all conventions, after all! I am non-conventional—that’s what makes so especial to the point of having fun rejoicing in my infirmities. That’s the fact, let me leave at that.

A Day Of Significance Before I Close …

So tired! Could go no more. Headed for bed on Friday, September 29, 2023, at 9:28 pm. We spent the afternoon taking care of the legal matters to establish me under Diana’s care. Saturday, September 30, 2023, at 2:04 am. Up. This is the 5th and last 7th Day of Rest, the last day of the 10th month. Significant enough is the fact that the number 10 is when things get serious? When will reality begins to sink in? When the number ten is reached it seems as if the realization that whatever is about to happen is now going to REALLY, REALLY happen.

How Appropriate …?

I am now officially ending this chapter in thiaBasilia Saga’s as it was as it is. As this page is closed my hope remains set on the Loving Creator arising from His throne to grant us all His mercy as in Isaiah 30:8-33—the passage of Scripture that vividly describes my own personal doings as it is related in the previous chapters.

The end.

Hey! Did I Post This Before? Who Knows? …

I have been so intense working on a new way of posting and writing and living and? Trying not to complain that I have forgotten to post since the last post. I thought my last post was sooo good but I only got 1 like which really broke my heart, but then? The Voice from Iran mended that broken heart of mine, she was my only like. Bless my heart!

  • Anyhow? I’ll take a break from my endeavor and shall post again right now.

Lov, thia

It’s Time For My Tall Tales …?

A Long Time Ago …?

That Was The Time …

That was the time I was humbled but not humiliated.  For me anyhow when there was only phone support to solve my forever computer problems were needed. The techs for the most from India, most patient and quite knowledgeable. This specific time, the blessed tech asked me to read to him the apps I had installed in the Programs feature, I started with the ‘a’ for apple until I got to the ‘n’ ‘e’ ‘s’ …=”nescafe” I pronounced. “I never hear of that app” says the blessed tech, spell it for me again” I said, ‘n’ for no, ‘e for eye’ ‘s for sam’ ‘c’ for cat ‘p’ for Peter ‘e’ for eye= NETSCAPE! Exclaimed the tech with a chuckle.

I used to thank them for their patience but they inevitable would respond, “no it is us to thank you, you are teaching us a lot!”

Saturday, September 2, 2023, at 9:45 pm. Bed. Sunday, September 3, 2023, at 1:00 pm. I

Your Site Is Ancient …?

What? I just perfected my use of boxes, how dare you call my site ‘ancient’?! “Why don’t you download Joomla?” “What on earth is that?” I exclaimed quite peeved with the young punk. “Joomla! is a free and open-source content management system (CMS) for publishing web content. Download it, you will see.” He told me. Mercy me!

CMS stands for open-source content management system, something I had never heard of, bless my heart! Talking about ‘ancient’ to say the least. O well! I downloaded Joomla but I could not make it out, but? Somehow I had discover Wilks Community College offering free continuing education for seniors, of course I enrolled. Needless to say, I discovered the famous WordPress.com and? I have been hooked since.

Regardless, for the life of me I can’t remember how I got into the Internet even before I enrolled in Wilks. I do remember creating websites with Frontpage.com. also, I remember how the techs practically did my menu bar. Only thing I made the mistake of checking the ‘update automatically’ thus I have not been able to find out when I created those so unique sites about my autobiography but, I can still pull and enjoy my humble beginning building websites.

file:///G:/Wanted%20files/My%20Web%20Sites/my%20site2/chapter1.htm

This link only works for me, but I am diligently working on making those writings available to others. Will see.

Embracing Discernment Without Condemning Others …

Perhaps that is what now is called ‘unconditional love’. Perhaps. Still, no need to argue. No need to prove myself as well as others right or wrong. No need to defend the Almighty Creator of everything in existence.

And the biggest? No need to be incensed with anger however justified such anger could be. Only need for me is to let go. Fear not! I am not alone; I am not abandoned. I never have been. I never shall be!

How blessed I am despite my fat ankles, my faulty hearing, my expensive loose dentures & equally expensive eyeglasses that don’t stay in place, plus looking at my hanging belly in the mirror as I disrobe to ready myself to the shower; and running to the toilet like in a marathon. Let alone my inability to follow instructions to take care of my concept of creating artistic beauty. And the infernal itch? And my painful back? And the lurking fears attempting to defeat me? O well! bless my heart.

I will just go on reminiscing about my tall tales that tell on me! Humor instead of anger is the motto to come out smelling like a rose to my own self. And the privilege to sing to my heart’s desire without disturbing the delicate human ears? Hahaha! HalleluYah! Whatever more could I want for? Lov, mom.

Diana says:

Yesterday, we ate out for our 44th wedding anniversary. The young waitress asked what our secret is. After thinking for a moment, I said, “Work”. She replied, “And love.”

Nope. It’s work. Daily working on yourself, your relationship, your goals, etc. Most anyone can love another to start with. The effort that it takes to keep that person as a life partner is the “secret”.

  • Right on the money I should say if it was indispensably to have my say.

O Well! Guess There Is No Cure For My Going On And On …

I guess as well is best for me to quit this unending drive to be what I am not supposed to be. Can you imagine that? I quit! Chilled out!

Until the next post, lov thia.

Rationalizing-Finding Out-And? …

Stagnation Is Bound To Be One’s Station …

 

 

 

Miracles Are Not Subject To The Rationalizing Shackles …

Why not just acknowledge, enjoy, deploy the weapons to destroy the stagnation of my life’s saga in any station? Fear not!

  • I’m alive!
  • Free from the stagnant waters in the shackles of rationalizing in the fear of mankind.

What’s ahead?

Only the Master knows, but I am living free from stagnation with much progression towards eternity.

What Is Eternity? …

That’s the thing I am about to find out. It’s now Thursday, August 31, 2023, at 1:03 am. The last day of the 8th month of 2023. Time to know the unknown things of eternal value. The necessary division to enter to remain in my eternity.

  • Eternity: ethereal or impossible for the human mind to grasp.
  • What time is it now?
  • Time as we know time to be but soon to be no more: 6:27 am on Thursday, August 31, 2023.
  • Otherwise?
  • The last day of the 8th month.
  • Tomorrow?
  • Anew, afresh the 9th month shall be upon us all. And what shall it be on that 9th month we are tomorrow see? No man knows for sure. The numerous theories, timelines, doom sayers shall continue with desperation now on the time of inevitable separation of the tares and the wheat as it has been written for once in Matthew 13:24-30.

Quote:

Matthew 13:24-30

(24)  Another parable He set forth before them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field.

(25)  But while he was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed also darnel (weeds resembling wheat) among the wheat, and went on his way.

(26)  So when the plants sprouted and formed grain, the darnel (weeds) appeared also.

(27)  And the servants of the owner came to him and said, Sir, did you not sow good seed in your field? Then how does it have darnel shoots in it?

(28)  He replied to them, An enemy has done this. The servants said to him, Then do you want us to go and weed them out?

(29)  But he said, No, lest in gathering the wild wheat (weeds resembling wheat), you root up the [true] wheat along with it.

(30)  Let them grow together until the harvest; and at harvest time I will say to the reapers, Gather the darnel first and bind it in bundles to be burned, but gather the wheat into my granary.

Why The Parables …?

Nothing is left amidst for us to remain ignorant of the truth to set us free. Read on—you will find that truth.

Quote:

Matthew 13:10-17

(10)  Then the disciples came to Him and said, Why do You speak to them in parables?

(11)  And He replied to them, To you it has been given to know the secrets and mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given.

(12)  For whoever has [spiritual knowledge], to him will more be given and he will be furnished richly so that he will have abundance; but from him who has not, even what he has will be taken away.

(13)  This is the reason that I speak to them in parables: because having the power of seeing, they do not see; and having the power of hearing, they do not hear, nor do they grasp and understand.

(14)  In them indeed is the process of fulfillment of the prophecy of Isaiah, which says: You shall indeed hear and hear but never grasp and understand; and you shall indeed look and look but never see and perceive.

(15)  For this nation’s heart has grown gross (fat and dull), and their ears heavy and difficult of hearing, and their eyes they have tightly closed, lest they see and perceive with their eyes, and hear and comprehend the sense with their ears, and grasp and understand with their heart, and turn and I should heal them. [Isa_6:9-10]

(16)  But blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are your eyes because they do see, and your ears because they do hear.

(17)  Truly I tell you, many prophets and righteous men [men who were upright and in right standing with God] yearned to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it.

Until the next post, lov, thia

Classes. Nobility. The Masses …?

Instead Of Anger. Laughing At My Arrogant Ignorance? Humility Sure to Gain To sustain ….?

I’m Humbled Not Humiliated …

I will continue posting parts as my life harmonizes to share with all the simplicity of the creator’s ways.

Waiting. Watching. Caring …

What are the possibilities right now? Don’t ever agree to take a picture of yourself. The ugliness of distortion is, to say the least, terrifying! Why am I saying this first thing on waking up from a dream? Dreams: the most important thing to happen to ourselves as well as the most important detail about us all. For myself?

  • The cleansing results are just now coming into perfect lighting.

Into Another Day …

I am starting with a cup of coffee. Hopefully the results from the cleansing are not anything like it happened yesterday. Will see. What happened yesterday? Sleep became impossible when night came. I finally crashed in bed. Somehow the itching painful moment ceased. I fell asleep around 2 am. It’s now Friday, August 18, 2023, at 8:35 am. I feel pretty decent after the evil moment receded.

  • As of this moment?
  • I woke up a few minutes ago.
  • I wondered what to do under the circumstances.
  • It came to me to drink a cup of coffee, to wait a couple of hours before I put anything else into my mouth.
  • That’s the way to find out what coffee shall tell my body.

One of my Families in Jordan in the Middle East …

Adeeb Khoury, a heart of gold. I am so blessed to have holden that heart of gold. In return I joyfully gave him my own heart. I can still see that blessed smile to smooth off his gruffy face the minute I walked in Human Market. So proud to belong in his family by his choice. I am just now coming to terms with the fact that though he is gone I still see him in you, dear Human—his oldest son.

Mysterious Dream …?

This day has been preloaded in a strange dream last night. Who knows? Like reading in a book, a girl had sneaked into the library to send a series of emails to warn people of major disaster coming. Somehow, she is writing ashore a great body of water. There was a man fishing with a string fastened to a plain stick from a tree branch. Next scene she is fishing but she does not see that the string is gone. Bad omen: an incredible sound of an explosion as she sends the email. Somehow, she is back into the library sending the emails while the whole matter is stirring up people in all kinds of ways.

  • Who knows? Perhaps this dream is telling what is going on with my saga.
  • Glutton for punishment, starting off with a cup of coffee again.
  • Bless my heart.
  • I haven’t bothered to even search for meaning of the dream.
  • But the cleanse?
  • It remains a mystery to me yet.
  • Time shall tell.
  • It’s now Sunday, August 20, 2023, at 7:00 am.
  • Back to stomach cramps.
  • Not to worry.
  • Not too bad this time.
  • I’ll live, hopefully.
  • This is when faith avails.

My Intestinal System Is In Bad, Bad Shape …?

That’s why the cleansing is taking longer to work. My gut has been leaking into my blood causing me not only the miserable itching along cramps, painful muscles, et all. But I am so grateful to know exactly what’s the problem is, to have the strength to take care of it.

  • Thankfully, Diana is providing all the necessary staples to take care of the problem.
  • In the meantime?
  • I’ll occupy myself with the tall tales in the saga of my life.

Well? What Is Coming To Me …

To tell the ridiculous in my saga without any regrets for the tragic results due to the innate drive to do whatever I thought best to do despite any authority. Honest to goodness! I was convinced. I thought myself to be a natural! The truth? I have lots of tall tales to tell.

  • That’s what I’ll do.
  • I’ll tell on me.
  • Then I’ll tell on them related to me.
  • Especially my computer tales.
  • Those are the best, the humblest of them all.
  • Rude awakening when I discovered I was not a computer genius!

You Site Is Ancient …?

Download Joomla! O well! I’ll tell about that tale in the next post.

Until then …

 

Happiness versus Joy …

What Is Happiness? What Is Joy? …

Humor Instead Of Anger Shall My Motto From Now On …

Question I Must Ask For Myself …

Especially at times like I am going through when it seems to me the whole human race is intent on searching for that elusive happiness coveted gold. The truth? I find myself excluded for the most. Why? I find such gold is not in my Master’s plan for me in His mind. Still, I wonder why I feel excluded, why not just be ‘happy’ like everybody else?

Happiness Is A Temporal External Emotional Feeling …

Joy is a stronger, less common feeling than happiness. Witnessing or achieving selflessness to the point of personal sacrifice frequently triggers this emotion. Feeling spiritually connected to a god or to people. This is a fact that has come to my knowledge only recently. I speak by my earthly experiences based on the following recent knowledge:

  • Joy, Spiritual experiences: caring for others, gratitude, thankfulness an outward expression of elation—inward peace and contentment.
  • Happiness, earthly experiences: temporary, based on outward circumstances, aka, happy celebrations religious as well as secular. Outward emotional excitement not lasting instead quite changeable any time.

Recent Knowledge Always at the Appropriate Time …

My Heavenly Father’s pattern to come to my aid whenever in doubt or indecision. His answers always come in the most unexpected knowledge. This time? Not only about my exclusion but also further knowledge about my father’s history. Why my earthly father’s history? I don’t know. But one thing it has come to mind is that a while ago my Father up above instructed what was to be my motto from now on:

  • Humor Instead Of Anger Shall My Motto From Now On …

Quote.

This happened while in Jordan in the Middle East:

Children’s Chanting? How Annoying To Me. Why? Well? I do not speak the language so, it’s annoying to hear the tune of repetition.

It’s distracting. Impossible to ignore it. Not knowing what to do, but! Today it came to me. I heard that lovely voice from within me,

“No need to worry, My child. No need for your annoyance. These people are living accordingly to My old commandments. Those commandments are still in full force, but! Not according to the ancient times. Times have changed. The grand event I promised from the beginning of your creation has taken place in the conception, birth, earthly life, and resurrection of Yahushua—the Messiah.

It’s now a new era. It’s now the time of the end. It’s now the Messianic time prophesied from the beginning of your creation. The old commandments? Now encompassed in two: You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind (intellect). [Deu_6:5] This is the great (most important, principal) and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as [you do] yourself. [Lev_19:18] These two commandments sum up and upon them depend all the Law and the Prophets.  Matthew 22:28-40. End of quote.

  • Give them space. Refrain from judging or condemning.

Until the next post.

What’s The Deal With The Viral Posts …?

The Emotional Upheaval Of The Times …


I Am Just A Watcher—An Observer …

A watcher, observer to record my experience of life both eternal as well as temporal life. I am not into any kind of religion, crusade, group or the likes at all! But the Truth of Life eternal or temporal has always fascinated me.

  • This is 6th day of the cleansing.

This Cleansing Is Working On My Mind As Well As My Body …?

I continue to be intrigued by the whole emotional spectrum of the world. It seems to me that the negative as well as the positive have reached its peak. Thinking about the numerous viral posts with thousands of emotional followers online on the subject of food, & drink, nutrition, health, rules, regulations and more, it came to mind to check what the Scriptures say about the matter.

Why the Scriptures? …

I am aware of the controverse about the Scriptures. It is not my intention to defend or condemn the Scriptures. My aim is simply to witness the impact the Scriptures have had within my being.  From the moment I first began to read the Scriptures in 1974 those words became alive to me. The way things began to happen it halted my reading them.

I Lost My Mind …

I was taken to the mental hospital. I was coerced to sign myself in, once I did, they injected a drug in me that knocked me down for 3 days. On waking up it was told that I might never recover my mind, but? Miraculously I was rushed out of that place as soon as I woke up. Unfortunately, I halted my reading of the Scriptures until supernatural things began to happen that prompted me to turn to my reading again.

My Life Was In Shambles …

At my wits end, I turned to the Scriptures. It is all recorded in my autobiography published in 2005. Anyhow? After half a century experience of the Scripture it is time to share my experience for the honor and praise and to glorify the Author of those Scriptures Who I now recognize as my Father Who is in heaven.

Rendezvous With My Father Who Is In Heaven …

Otherwise, my experience of life and truth is as it written in Matthew 5:5: Blessed (happy, blithesome, joyous, spiritually prosperous–with life-joy and satisfaction in God’s favor and salvation, regardless of their outward conditions) are the meek (the mild, patient, long-suffering), for they shall inherit the earth!

  • Also written in Psalms 37:23-24 The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Lord when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord grasps his hand in support and upholds him.
  • Psalms 37:29: [Then] the [consistently] righteous shall inherit the land and dwell upon it forever.

Regardless Of My Outward Conditions …

I am blessed. Of course, it is hard for me to believe that when my health is not up the par. Even though, I cannot deny the truth about my life for as I reflect it always comes the reminder of my Father’s providence. He has been faithful to inscribed within my heart His Word of promise as per the Scriptures.

My Future …?

I am keeping my mind set on the Creator or of my being or My Father Who Is In Heaven, but He send His only Son Master Yahushua to redeem me from the present life. In my future He tells me in more ways than one there shall be no more tears, no pain or sorrow. What bliss!

I Used To Believe. Now I Know Instead …

Indeed! I used to believe all sorts of things about God and myself but none of my beliefs avail me to change my lifestyle for the best. I kept living a productive worldly life abiding by the rules and regulations of my religion as was expected of me. Instead of belief, by experience I know now how to live a superior life far over the worldly life than I used live. I now live by the supernatural power of the laws of My Father Who Is In Heaven. I can’t emphasize this matter enough mainly for my own self.

So? The Scriptures Are Reliable …

As soon as I quit taking things out of content depending on my programed mind as well as the mind of my worldly leaders my life radically changed. But even my quitting was done out of conviction not by the power of my mind. What a difference has it made.

Wisdom To Discern Not To Condemn …

So? Let the emotional upheaval with thousands of followers & leaders go on and on, it is no longer my concern. I am only a watcher, an observer. I march along fearless, resolute to fulfill the purpose of my life in my Heavenly Father’s plan in His mind for me.

  • Yes, I am blessed to live an enviable life.

Until the next post.

Family Matters On These Uncertain Days …?

Personal Words From My Heavenly Father Come To Mind …

These words keep me going & going without fear regardless all adversities that come my way. Quoting a short excerpt from my repertoire,

  • “And in My appointed time I will act on your behalf; only do not speculate that my answer would be to satisfy the carnal self of mankind both within you and within all of your concern! But I will fulfill My promise to you to deliver and restore all your children—both your flesh & blood children and all the other children that I have given unto you including the families that have blessed you especially the newest families in this Land.” Isaiah 48.

Isaiah 41:9-16

  • You whom I [the Master] have taken from the ends of the earth and have called from the corners of it, and said to you, You are My servant–I have chosen you and not cast you off [even though you are exiled].
  • Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice. [Act_18:10]
  • Behold, all they who are enraged and inflamed against you shall be put to shame and confounded; they who strive against you shall be as nothing and shall perish.
  • You shall seek those who contend with you but shall not find them; they who war against you shall be as nothing, as nothing at all.
  • For I the Master your God hold your right hand; I am the Master, Who says to you, Fear not; I will help you!
  • Fear not, you worm Jacob, you men of Israel! I will help you, says the Master; your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel.
  • Behold, I will make you to be a new, sharp, threshing instrument which has teeth; you shall thresh the mountains and beat them small, and shall make the hills like chaff.
  • You shall winnow them, and the wind shall carry them away, and the tempest or whirlwind shall scatter them. And you shall rejoice in the Master, you shall glory in the Holy One of Israel.

From my Heavenly Father:

  • Fear not, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, fear not. For I have already taught you the fact about feelings. Feelings are only fleeting emotions that come & go like the waves of the sea. Those feelings are temporary. They recede in due time. At times when negative & disturbing feelings recede you feel like a superwoman. But when those feeling surface again, you feel like a mere nothing, emotionally depleted & depressed.
  • How to handle such situation? By the power of My love from on high. My power of love sustains you whether you are up or down. Fear not, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, fear not. there is nothing to fear, for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your Almighty Father/Creator of your being. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My victorious right hand of rightness and justice.

On the rapture & more:

Wow! O my Father—O Father of mine? You really do speak to me at the most needed times. This is not my imagination at all, it does not matter what anyone chooses to label such a matter between You and me. You are a reality in my daily journey. It’s a pity to see my loved ones hanging on to their ways and concepts of good and evil; of right & wrong.

Regardless, there is hope. For You are working all things for our good. I have a vision of myself as a mother with arms of immense length arched and opened ready to embrace all of my children. Why? Because I have thought my loved ones were to come to Jordan to wait for Yahushua’s return as per the written words.

Quote:

Restrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears, for your work shall be rewarded, says the Master; and your children shall return from the enemy’s land. And there is hope for your future, says the Master; your children shall come back to their own country.

Those written words were referring to Rachel. But before You sent me to Jordan You spoke to me in a dream. In that dream I was at the airport at the counter to get my papers approved to load the plane. I lifted my eyes above the counter. In huge letters I read aloud, “I am Rachel.”. I woke up.

O my Father—O Father of mine, You are an awesome Yah. The way You are working things out surely does fit with these words You repeatedly spoken to me during these last years in that region of the world. I had assumed that You were to do something like the famous rapture that lots of misguided souls are expecting but, again my suppositions and assumptions are proving to be wrong.

Why Am I Back In The USA? …

You send me back to be Your witness as per Acts 1:7-8.

Quote:

He said to them, It is not for you to become acquainted with and know what time brings [the things and events of time and their definite periods] or fixed years and seasons (their critical niche in time), which the Father has appointed (fixed and reserved) by His own choice and authority and personal power.

But you shall receive power (ability, efficiency, and might) when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you shall be My witnesses in Jerusalem and all Judea and Samaria and to the ends (the very bounds) of the earth.

So? How Does It All Fit Together …?

Well, You have guided me to reconsider Mathew 24. After the great tribulation there shall be a rapture. The trumpet shall sound in the four corners of the earth, we shall be raptured to meet the Master in the air but? He shall not lead us to Heaven instead heaven—the New Jerusalem shall come down to earth to establish Yahushua’s Kingdom.

Quote:

Revelation 21:2-8

(2)  And I saw the holy city, the new Jerusalem, descending out of heaven from God, all arrayed like a bride beautified and adorned for her husband;

(3)  Then I heard a mighty voice from the throne and I perceived its distinct words, saying, See! The abode of God is with men, and He will live (encamp, tent) among them; and they shall be His people, and God shall personally be with them and be their God. [Eze_37:27]

(4)  God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish (sorrow and mourning) nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away. [Isa_25:8; Isa_35:10]

(5)  And He Who is seated on the throne said, See! I make all things new. Also He said, Record this, for these sayings are faithful (accurate, incorruptible, and trustworthy) and true (genuine). [Isa_43:19]

(6)  And He [further] said to me, It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I [Myself] will give water without price from the fountain (springs) of the water of Life. [Isa_55:1]

(7)  He who is victorious shall inherit all these things, and I will be God to him and he shall be My son.

(8)  But as for the cowards and the ignoble and the contemptible and the cravenly lacking in courage and the cowardly submissive, and as for the unbelieving and faithless, and as for the depraved and defiled with abominations, and as for murderers and the lewd and adulterous and the practicers of magic arts and the idolaters (those who give supreme devotion to anyone or anything other than God) and all liars (those who knowingly convey untruth by word or deed)–[all of these shall have] their part in the lake that blazes with fire and brimstone. This is the second death. [Isa_30:33]

Next? The Kingdom Is Established On The Earth Not In Heaven …

I see it now. That is the reason why I am back to the USA to reestablish my relationships and to be a witness of Yahushua’s presence within my being as per Acts 1:7-8 quoted above.

This Master Cleansing Is Already Clearing My Mind …?

And it’s only the 2nd day. Who knows what wonders I shall be posting as things develop in the next 8 days. Will post as things develop.

Love to all, thiaBasilia.

Where Did It All Begin …?

And Where Does It All End, If, There Is An End …?

It’s now Thursday, July 27, 2023, at 10:02 am. I placed my order for the things I need to recover my health. I am making progress to overcome my cravings, praise Yah! Back to prepare for the next post.

You Know What? The Unexpected Is For Real …

A call from Diana to invite me for lunch. Ha! Post and all tossed aside. I pretty up myself within a few minutes. Never miss an invite from Diana, that’s for sure. A couple hours later, back to check the goings in my inbox. Hum! Two Facebook emails.

I Have Detached Myself From Facebook For A Long Time Now, Why? …

Well, I have gone through a period of purification and transformation in my life as in Hebrews 4:12-13. Anyone who has gone through this kind of transformation can appreciate the reason for my detachment.

  • Regardless, this period has culminated for me in the last 8 months since I came back to the USA after 13 years in Jordan in the Middle East.

Considering The Things That Trouble Me …

The purpose of my life is to wake up Self-consciousness in my fellow human beings. Self-consciousness or to become aware of oneself as an individual or of one’s own being, actions, or thoughts. This subject is largely ignored to the detriment of the human race.

But How Am I To Fulfill The Purpose For My Life …?

That’s the thing that troubles me. I read all sorts of things. I search and research likewise. The more I do so, the more inclined I am to discover the proper way to do whatever without condescendence or bias of any kind. It is so easy to become patronizing or condescending assuming equality with a person regarded as inferior. I know, I ‘been there, that I know as I check my past writings and behavior.

  • I cringe when I realize how I have alienated not only my children but practically all my friends even acquaintances from the past.
  • The fact: how did I fall into that trap?

O Mine! O Me! I Did Not Fall Into It—I Was Born Trapped! …

Indeed! We human beings are born trapped in the huge cage of our natural birth. Now, now, I am not stating this matter as if it is a fact deducted from my high intellect. The truth of the matter is that such a fact has been brought to light from the beginning of our creation but! For myself? Automatically, I rebelled against such a fact.

  • I mounted my own horse—a runaway stead.
  • I broke the bars imprisoning me.
  • I was free!
  • Glorious freedom until the horse bolted me.

That’s Me I Don’t Know About Anyone Else …

But in my enthusiasm, I jumped to preaching the matter. Eventually, I became condescending provoking the alienation that justly deserve, but! It all served well at the end.

  • No regrets.
  • Love—true love only engendered from the supernatural loving Creator of our beings.
  • It all at last at the end gained.
  • An ornament (a garland or diadem) of beauty instead of ashes.
  • The oil of joy instead of mourning.
  • The garment [expressive] of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit.
  • That I may be called oak of righteousness, lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice, and right standing with my Creator.
  • I am the planting of the Master, that He may be glorified.
  • (A paraphrase of Isaiah 61:1-3.)

Are You Ready For Judgment? The Question?

It comes from authorities placed over us. I used to tremble as that question landed on my soul. I would device all kinds of ways to forgive and to repent to no avail. Then?

  • When I was convicted to repent, in my enthusiasm:
  • I made myself an authority.
  • I began to preach.
  • What do I mean by preaching?
  • I mean with good intentions I began to tell others what to do.
  • I preached repentance, salvation, warnings and so far, backing it all with quoted Scriptures, until?
  • Actually a few days as in the previous post.
  • Mercy! Mercy! Mercy!
  • Bless my heart.
  • I have some explanations to do.

Why Do I Use Different Words Than The Norm To Address God …

The word ‘God’ can signify any God or higher power. But Almighty Creator of everything in existence including humankind can leave no doubt of Who I am referring to.

Why Master instead of Lord? The word ‘Lord’ implies the lordship in the world which demands innate superiority over inferiority. But the word ‘Master’ implies the ownership to love and protect not only a family but the whole creation itself.

Why Yahushua instead of Jesus. Common sense should tell the fact that we name our children in lieu of our nationality as a rule, but especially if one comes to learn something about the costumes and traditions of what is misnomer ‘Jewish’ people, definitely in no way the Savior would have been named by the Spanish Jesus.

Why The Misunderstanding? …

It is now coming to light how the ancient translators translated all things including history under mandate of their kings under penalty of death. Whoever differed was eliminated as a heretic creating the huge controverse, the confusion persistent until today.

Is It A Wonder?

How I have been the victim of the general confusion of the times? Yet, no regrets! Death where is your sting? No more preaching just the joy and comfort of my fellow human beings fellowship.

Until the next post? Lov to ye all, thia.