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Can You Believe It # 2 …

My Life in Shambles Built Into A Beautiful Vessel.

A Vessel To Hold The Flowers Of His Love …

Fluctuation: Constant Change; Vacillation; Instability on The Way to…???

Who knows? Yes, the question remains in my mind constantly. Is beginning to amuse instead of angering me. Better yet, I have begun to check myself before I check the world around me. Wow! What a mouth full of such statement. But is the truth. What do I mean by checking myself? Well? Take for example my waking up today.

  • Secrets were on my mind as I woke up.
  • Thinking back & forth about what secrets buried deep within us are causing us such damage to our minds & bodies.
  • Then I thought about the fact that I have no longer secrets within my being for I have exposed them all in my writings.
  • Or? Have I done so?
  • What? Now?
  • That is something for me to explore before I talk with my mouth full.

Talking With My Mouth Full …?

What a finding as I checked the meaning of talking with one’s mouth full. Part of table manners that for the most is no longer in mode these days. From an etiquette expert I found something that applies to what came to me at this point of my journey.

Quote:

This rush-rush culture also translates into talking with a mouthful. Instead of swallowing first before expressing a view, the assumed wisdom is that it can’t wait; that everything is so fast-paced, we have no time to think, therefore we speak. End of quote.

No Time to Think …

Go! Go! Go! Step out of my way or I step over you!  It’s Wednesday, December 20, 2023, at 5:57 am, time for break to eat & reflect. Ha! I thought for sure I was to succeed in making a big batch of delicious pralines, wrong thinking! Hahaha! Major mess-up I have no idea how to get rid of it, maybe tossed it?

  • Anyhow at least I got the mess isolated, I fixed and ate my breakfast, and I brushed my teeth, all I need to do is to finish the cleanup.
  • But it is now 9:40 am, which means I have been at it for over 3 hours.
  • That’s enough to put it all on hold until I recoup to plan how I will engage in the same task again.
  • I just can’t be defeated by my failures.
  • Get up and try again!
  • Will do!

But Getting Back to The Point …?

You know what? Perhaps this mess-up is a lesson to think about any project that comes to my mind. O what a predicament! I guess this thinking bit is different than assuming anything you think about. I guess should have swallowed my thought about successful praline making. O well! Live & learn.

Back to Fluctuation: Constant Change; Vacillation; Instability on The Way to…?

Who knows? Honestly, whatever is my answer the truth is that I don’t know. Yes, I am experiencing the fluctuation of my earthly journey as well as I am experiencing a rise in the elevation of my hope for a promised future ingrained within my heart and mind. But, that doesn’t mean that I know. The question remains, who knows?

My Sense of Humor? O Well! …?

I find it amusing to hear the answer that indicates how wrong I am to express such a question, answer given by so many people. In other words, I should know that it is this way or that way. “I know the Word!” Some exclaim.

  • Oops! Time for me to shut up.
  • I know better than to state my stand like I used to do.
  • Never mind that I no longer claim to “know” anything because like Job I was in the past speaking words without knowledge.
  • But? Here lately, I have come to see that it is not up to me to correct any issue.
  • All issues in this world are under the perfect control of the Almighty Creator of everything in existence.
  • It’s now Wednesday, December 20, 2023, at 7:53 pm.
  • Maybe head for bed?
  • Up at 3:16 am on Thursday, December 21, 2023.
  • In my mind: My life in shambles built into a beautiful vessel.
  • Ha! That’s the headline for the post today or whenever it comes to me to post again.
  • It’s now Friday, December 22, 2023, at 4:58 am

At The Umbral of Complete Healing …

Yesterday was a turning point in my healing progress. And this morning seem to me there is a turning point with my computer problems. But this is a mouth full, and I need to chew it up before I swallow it. I’ll wait to see what develops in the next few hours. For now, I shall lay down to rest, perhaps I’ll fall asleep. Friday, December 22, 2023, at 5:45 am. 8:09 am.

  • New day, Saturday, December 23, 2023, at 5:20 am. Feeling much better.
  • It’s now Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 2:24 am.
  • I have been up for about 1 hour.
  • I had an awful time falling asleep for the pain and congestion.
  • When I fell asleep it did not feel like I had slept at all and I don’t know how long I slept.
  • So much has transpired with this painful bout, hopefully it’ll be over today.
  • I am starting fresh in the computer on Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 3:07 am.
  • I don’t know what shall develop today, it is Christmas eve, much excitement and preparation for the party later and right now I don’t feel up the part to participate but I pray for the best.
  • The stabs in my head and the congestion are still a problem, I don’t know what to do about it.
  • Maybe I’ll laydown to rest perhaps I fall asleep.
  • It’s now Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 3:30 am.
  • Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 9:16 am.

My Christmas Gift 2023 …

I have been empowered to truly and for good forgive others as I forgive myself for hurts inflicted on each other in the past and in the present. Thus, my eyes have been opened to clearer see whatever was so obscure before. My mind & heart are now set supernaturally beyond my ability to explain. This is a gift for me of love, peace, joy inexplicable and full of esteem to be opened daily for the rest of my earthly days. How blessed I am!

  • Monday, December 25, 2023, at 3:52 pm.
  • It has been a wonderful day.
  • Showered with gifts!
  • Heading for bed.
  • Up on Monday, December 25, 2023, at 11:14 pm.
  • Working on graphic, My life was in shambles. Tuesday, December 26, 2023, at 8:08 am.

Can You Believe It …

The first words the Almighty spoke to my heart on August 8, 1985 coming to mind.

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love. These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please. You are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding. Some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others. Rest in Me and hold My flowers.

The uprooted of my soul to a chaos world …

Building, shaping, shaping, until perfection

completes the building making …

Built Into a Beautiful Vessel

To Hold the Flowers of His Love …

From Shambles to The Perfect Foundation Of Love, Peace, Abundance, & Joy …

Inexplicable Full Of His Esteem …

Indeed! My life was in shambles, uprooted, fallen. That was in 1985. Steady the Master’s hand at work all those years to complete the restoration of the devastation. Victoriously now along with my girls on we are heading to the end of 2023 joyfully expecting 2024 to be as it may one way or another however it could sway, it shall be the best for the three & me.

Until the next post, lov, thia

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Can You Believe It? …

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Can You Believe It? …

Can You Believe It? …

Real Life Before They Were 5 Yrs. Old …

Combing Hair …

I was happily combing the middle one’s hair. The first born was somewhere in the corner of the room carefully watching the situation. Suddenly the high-pitched voice of my middle child was heard, “Mommy, where is God?” I began my display of such an ethereal answer hard to believe, but I was such dramatic one that I raised my free arm and exclaimed, “God is in the trees, God is in the flowers, God is in the birds that fly in the sky!” “God is everywhere!!!” then I stuck my finger on her belly saying, “God is in youuuu!”

  • Well? My oldest one caught the ghist of my display and quietly she came close to the scene of my display to assist and quite convincingly pointing her finger in her own belly said, “Yeah! I cut myself right here and saw his head sticking out!” Can you believe it?

Why Am I Going on With This Issue? …

Because it is quite significant, but! A new discovery! All these things running through my mind must be written down rather than talking it over. Why? The emotional machine installed within everyone is programmed to reject anything against the program written in that individual machine.

  • What time is it?
  • It’s 2:05 am on Friday, December 15, 2023.
  • Time continues to run.
  • And so does my mind.
  • I am taking a break to catch up with both.
  • Of course, I know it is a futile attempt, but all attempts are necessary to at least get an idea of what is and what it is not.

The Idea of My Life’s Reality …

What is the reality I must live by today? Jackpot! Indeed! I hit a big one right now. This pot shall supply me for the rest of my born days. Come on with it, thiaBasilia! What on earth are you talking about? Hahaha! I can afford to laugh whether I anger or amuse you! But that’s enough. I just found out that I am no longer codependent! But! Let me get a hold of this, to cement it in my mind for good.

Quote:

Dependency. Some level of dependency is healthy in relationships. It may be tough to make it through life alone, and most people thrive with companionship and social support.

Phew! I had Just Ruined a Brand-New Ink Cartridge, And? …

I began to get disgusted and furious with myself. The horrendous feeling of being a failure without redemption came upon me! First thing? The dread of facing Diana! Anger! Blame! Why Diana cannot understand that I NEED to print! Why didn’t she change the cartridge as I asked her to do? Now she is going to be angry, and I just don’t know how to cope with the least thing I do that could offend Diana … ???

  • That’s the moment when it came to me to look up how to get rid of such painful thoughts.
  • And that’s when I hit the jackpot!
  • I am not codependent!
  • I am not mentally ill!
  • I am not deluded!
  • I am not looking for approval!
  • I am hoping for a healthy relationship with my children.
  • And for that to happen we need to depend on each other for support.
  • And that is the support from my children that I am receiving and giving in return.

Alright! I Am Talking to Myself …

Enough talk. We are all traveling on the same track. No worries. Best of all? Fearlessly, I have made up my mind not to send out Christmas cards. It’s a waste any way that we can look about it. That was one of the stupidest thing that came upon me unexpectedly. I don’t remember ever sending Christmas cards before. O well? I’ll keep the package of cards marked with a big RED X! Hahaha! That is ought to do it! Well? Nothing is happening as I wish for it to happen. Diana grabbed the cards, guess she intends to mail them herself, bless her heart! Hahaha! Back to the drawing board. Heading for bed on Friday, December 15, 2023, at 7:54 pm.

Back To My Saga. Where Was I? …

Here I am! Another 7th Day of Rest! This one on Saturday, December 16, 2023, at 8:46 am. One more clue to the way we are going on the road we are all traveling in. Some think they are all set on the spot. Others tend to lean on the notion this is the end of the road. A good number are waiting to be raptured to Heaven. The atheist seems to me to be more Iamist. Lol! On and on the beliefs & doctrines are so numerous it boggles one’s mind. And me? My eyes are peeled looking forwards. For now? Photoshop.

  • Saturday, December 16, 2023, at 11:30 pm.
  • Bed. Up at 6:14 am on Sunday, December 17, 2023.
  • Woke up from a strange dream again.
  • The dream:
  • It seems that we were running an institution for the needy. We had run out of supplies and had no money. The one in charge of the distribution became deathly ill because of the situation. When it was brought the matter to the leaders one of them reach into his pocket and ordered that bread be bought.
  • I don’t know what it all means. It’s now Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 7:15 am.

Funny! My Last Post Was Ignored for The Most …

Maybe the dream has something to do with the situation I find myself in. What situations that could be? Ha! Good question! I must think about that answer. Maybe it got something to do with Codependency. I’ll see what develops next. In the meantime, I’ll continue to work towards putting it all together in a book as I have been inspired to do. Time now, Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 7:45 am.

A Surprise Shock …

A phone call. I will write about it after I finish setting up the book that I am working on. Actually, let it suffice that it all wound up for the good. Shock is over. Right now, is Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 3:08 pm. I am saving this file for now. I aim to work on setting the book that have been in my mind for a while now.

Well? Acceptance—Quite A Word …

I must accept the span of time from 1985 until this day on Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 5:15 pm to be exact. This covers the time since I have been writing, writing, and writing about myself and my relationship with the Almighty Creator of everything in existence. This is a fact that I must accept no matter what the cost.

Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 5:55 pm. Can you believe it?

Here it is!

Big change in the horizon! I let you know if whenever I shall post next to expand the issue, lov, thia