Now what? …
Who am I again? Where did I come from? Where am I going? These are the mysteries revealed to me as I go along day by day, moment by moment living in the sacred Presence of my Creator. One thing I know for sure, I have nothing to fear and all to hope for.
The Externals Against the Internals …
Honestly, the externals reveal the acts of my carnal corrupt nature. The internals are the inner acts of my Creator’s nature within my being.
Mysteries Revealed …
Interestingly, I started recording this matter on Tuesday, September 30, 2025, at 10:00 am’
Explanation: Ten in Scripture speaks of completeness in order, as the Ten Commandments set forth God’s moral law.
- Thursday, October 9, 2025, at 12:04 am.
Frustrations
What is it my Master that is troubling me? It feels that I can not accomplish anything. I go from one thing to another looking for things that I cannot find. I know I intended to start recording anew from October 1st but evidently I lost that record.
What Is Happening Now …
I am frustrated with my health, with people and with myself. I am totally frustrated with the upcoming cataract surgery. On top of that it is fruiting for changes in in my working routine. I know without a shadow of a doubt that You are in control of everything in my life but I am hurting my Master, You know it. I wait on You.
- Tuesday, October 14, 2025, at 10:02 am.
This matter is for whoever is concerned with our eternal souls. Will expounded later.
Peace, peace, when there is no peace …
(Jer 8:11) For they have healed the wound of the daughter of My people only lightly and slightingly, saying, Peace, peace, when there is no peace.
SAD! SAD! SAD! But …
That’s where we are right now. Is now Saturday, October 18, 2025, at 5:35 am. My heart is heavy. The weight of the past cannot be ignored despite many props at disposal in the theater of civilization.
Restoration for Israel and Judah …
Whether anyone believes or not God’s Word is written in the Bible. Right now I am fit to chew nails. Why? Well, past, present, and future in this so called ‘civilization’ is beating me soundly.
And I feel like weeping myself. I want to cry but my eyes are dry. I am angry. To hear the predominant chit-chat rampart on the daily basis wherever I turn around is devastating! But then again everybody is doing the best they can. Am I?
Yahushua Wept …
There are two verses in the Scriptures stating this matter. To repeat a previous quote:
- John 11:35 Jesus wept.
- Luke 19:41-44 Luk 19:41-48
The Hope of Restoration …
Yes, I am coping with our human nature’s degradation for the most, but there are moments when the result of my own degradation hits me hard. Who am I to tell anyone how to run their lives? Anyhow, pain is a hard master, it drives anyone to the depth of insanity! No matter, as it is written, there is hope. There is always hope.
Restoration for Israel and Judah: Jer 30:1-24 Jer 30:11.
There is Hope. There is ALWAYS HOPE …
Well? Just about now I am getting rid of my anger. Saturday, October 18, 2025, at 11:37 am. Later! It is now Sunday, October 19, 2025 at 7:42 pm. Reading the Scriptures that my Master inspires me to read does wonders for my soul.
Quote: Romans 8:18-28
Closing for now. Sunday, October 19, 2025, at 7:47 pm.
Why Am I So Angry …?
Monday, October 20, 2025, at 12:55 pm. Ha! I was so angry yesterday I could not even think but that was a good thing. Thinking out the answers has been my problem. Like many times before I quit the mad thoughts. The answer came eventually.
- Tuesday, October 21, 2025, at 9:02 am.
- It was October 21, 1986.
Be Angry and Sin Not …?
Quote:
Eph 4:26-27. Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath, neither give place to the devil.
Jeremiah 15:17-21
Why The Quotes …?
Well, some 29 years ago I found myself in the same conundrum I found myself yesterday. Conundrum? It is a word for puzzle, problem, riddle, enigma, etc. But in truth, I was consumed by my need for control.
The Need for Control …?
The need for control is the chain around our necks threatening to suffocate life out of us. We want to control not only our lives but everything near and far from us.
- Friday, October 31, 2025, at 6:06 am.
Last day of the 10th month …?
This is the end of the 10th month of 2025. Ten months have passed but it feels like an eternity. How strange. What are You doing with my life O Master of my being? Much to reflect on today. I wait on You.
- Sunday, November 2, 2025, at 4:32 am—5:45 am.
- Monday, November 3, 2025, at 7:50 am.
My Soul & You …
Only You, my Fa can deal with my soul. You are my Beloved. Only You alone can satisfy the divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages within my being.
What A Realization! …
Since the 1st day of this 11th month, I have realized that I am entering a time for me of stability and somewhat a partnership and balance in my life.
It has taken the courage You have ingrained within my being for it all to be the reality of my life. All in all, this is changing my life not only for my good but also for the good of all involved in my life.
- This Is a Message of Hope not of Fear!
- Growth and expansion.
- Ready to level up in life. New opportunities are coming my way to help me on my journey.
- Creativity and self-expression.
- Sharing my gifts with the world.
- Now is the time to pursue creative projects or start that hobby you’ve always wanted for me to explore.
- Optimism and joy.
- This new stage of my earthly journey brings an uplifting message of hope, faith and positivity.
- That means happier times are ahead, so I must maintain an optimistic spirit in absolute knowledge of Your Set-Apart Spirit guidance and support to fulfil my life purpose and soul’s mission.
- I am not alone on my path, You never leave nor forsake me.
- It is amazing how You are opening communication, self-expression and community motivating me to interact with others through casual talk and sharing ideas.
- I am now able to reach out to people who share my interests or values.
- Knock down all around. Raising up above the ground.
- Survivors’ forwards! Up & up on to eternity bound!
- It’s my time to shine naturally.
- No need to put on airs.
- For I know who I am.
- I know what to do.
- I know how to do it.
- The beauty of it all?
- I haven’t got the slightest how I know it all!
- Yet, I find myself still looking for approval, limiting myself to a particular way of life, not letting go of the ‘shoulds’.
- It is inevitable that my mind races none stop like an unbridled horse.
- Regardless of such limitations I am evolving along with my dreams.
- I can find greater happiness, I am sure.
- Life is beautiful when I see it with the Master’s mind on me.
- I choose to focus on good as per my Master’s desire.
- I am attracting more positiveness into my life.
- It’s the revelation of my Master He is my refuge and my fortress.
Summary …
I will Never Cave In Under Any Circumstances! The Scriptures back me up. I am repeatedly attacked. Pain. Frustration. Doubting my sanity. FEARS! The attacks last sometimes for a long time, other times only a few moments before it comes to me exactly which way to go. Mourning comes by night, but joy comes by day.
- Every single verse quoted here is indelible written in my heart not only the verse, but the whole chapter is ingrained within my being by my Creator. He means to strengthen me in gloom or glee. That’s the LIFE!