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What Do I, Do You, Do Us Do With Our Problems? …

Let’s See. My Problems? They Go Up High, Why? …

One Year Ago …?

One year ago, Jordan time, I left Amman, Jordan. I arrived at the airport in Mobile, AL some 22 hours later. I beheld the beautiful face smiling big time of my first-born child! Joy inexplicably flooded my heart. Determination but uncertainty in my mind. The onset for the rest of my days on this earth as it is now. What has transpired since then?

Problems, Solutions & Healing …?

For myself, what did I do with the problems? Sit still. Wait. Go with the ethereal flow. Of course, that took a while to get a hold of me. The result? Stated in the DM of today.

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Conclusion. Decisions …

Wednesday November 22, 2023

  • You’re about to make some important decisions in your life.
  • Stick to your core values.
  • Don’t let social norms make you doubt your worth.
  • You’re going to do well.
  • You have gained the wisdom and perspective to make the right decision.
  • You’ve got this. You have learned the lessons.
  • You have gone through the preparation phase.
  • You’ve already done the inner work.
  • Release the fears about messing things up.
  • You’re going to be on a new path.
  • You’re going to meet new people, make meaningful connections, and find the right opportunities.
  • Your Affirmations For Today:
  • I feel safe and secure.
  • I am becoming physically and mentally more healthy.
  • Am I making myself a priority? In a way, yes & no.
  • I am focusing on making small changes every day.
  • All of my problems are going upwards, higher …
  • To the only One Who can solve them all.
  • What a blessing!

The First Thing to Marvel About …?

Healing. The marvel of the restoration of our health, for me, the restoration of the wealth inherited from my father. It is a marvelous thing the way everything is developed. In reality, no human hand could have developed such a plan. What a marvel!

Memories …?

Sweets memories to cherish of a lifelong gone for me. But for my children those memories of a life still going on are the healing elements to cherish.

  • Thursday, November 23, 2023, at 12:54 am.

Thanksgiving Day in 2023 …?

What an appropriate Thanksgiving Day to fall on the anniversary of my return to the USA. “Ah! But your anniversary was on the 21st!” would my Diana insist. Well? That opens the door to discuss time & timing for our memories to affect our lives.

Time & Timing …?

Perhaps that is a subject only from the mouth of the old ones who had survived the time enough to put together the exactitude of timing. Reading the history of my earthly roots in the book ‘Los Amates Amor y trópico’ by Edgar Barahona Pineda opened my eyes to see the immensity of my heritage. History way back to 1889. I am talking about my roots in my birth registered in Los Amates, Izabal in Guatemala Central America.

Time & Uncertainty …?

The mystery. Why is it that in this generation of prodigious humans the mysteries of life have become only flimsy cliché that is not worthy to mind? Ah! But the tide is changing! I see a glimpse of subtle interest in the gestures of several that bear with my attempts to proclaim my findings on these matters. Time shall tell.

In the Meantime …?

It’s 2:00 am on Thursday, November 23, 2023, time for me to start the arduous task to get ready for the trip. We are leaving at 6:00 am in route to Tallahassee, Fl, to celebrate Thanksgiving Day with my three seniors girls, Diana, Denise & Roxana & mates. I am looking forward to an exiting time to create new memories to last for the rest of our days on this earth as it is right now.

Well? It’s 5:22 am on Thursday, November 23, 2023, Thanksgiving Day. I am ready, we shall be leaving soon. The computer shut off to rest for the next 3 days.

Recorded by hand in Tallahassee, Fl. …

Friday, November 24, 2023, around 3 am. What a wonderful day my Thanksgiving Day was! My lovely Emily sparked my day, but the rest did no less. Much came to me about why we are the way we are? The answer came to me. Even so, it’s a delicate subject to bring about on Thanksgiving Day.

Saturday, November 25, 2023, at down, my mind was set on our reactions of the last 3 days. Emotions? Feelings? Anger! All deeply implanted within our beings. It’s now Saturday, November 25, 2023, at 8:46 pm, time for bed, will continue when awake. It was 3:27 am on Sunday, November 26, 2023, when I woke up. It’s now Sunday, November 26, 2023, at 5:53 am. What has transpired since I woke up? A wealth of true knowledge from above. What am I to do with such wealth?

Keep it for now. Don’t push anything on anyone. It’s Sunday, November 26, 2023, at 7:20 pm. Currently I am no longer interested in talking about anything with anyone. I had enough. I need to digest it all before I continue recording.

Well? A New Day Has Arrived …?

So? How is today to differentiate from yesterday? Have I digested my frustration of last night? It’s Monday, November 27, 2023, at 4:33 am. The accumulated rubbish of the week has been collected in and out of the house. How about the rubbish in my mind? How can I rid myself of such stink? O but I am exhausted with the insidious task to take control of things one way or another. And what? Am I the only one so set in accomplishing that control? Indeed! The whole race is intent in such a task. It drives me nuts!

What To Do? Where To Turn? …

Thank goodness! I can turn my head, my eyes, way up high! Past the stars the mun & the sun, on to the infinity of eternity. Why not? I have practically & unequivocally exhausted all the means to achieve, to relieve what cannot by any terrestrial means can be achieved or relieved. Why not lift my all form whence comes my help?

A Song of Ascents. I WILL lift up my eyes to the hills [around Jerusalem, to sacred Mount Zion and Mount Moriah]–From whence shall my help come? [Jer_3:23]

My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip or to be moved; He Who keeps you will not slumber. [1Sa_2:9; Psa_127:1; Pro_3:23, Pro_3:26; Isa_27:3]

Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand [the side not carrying a shield]. [Isa_25:4]

The sun shall not smite you by day, nor the moon by night. [Psa_91:5; Isa_49:10; Rev_7:16]

The Lord will keep you from all evil; He will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore. [Deu_28:6; Pro_2:8; Pro_3:6] Psalms 121:1-8. End of quote.

Master Versus Lord or Lord Versus Master? …

A subject giving way to numerous debates all claiming supremacy over the other. For myself I have opted Master because Lord to me denotes a term of condescending superiority ownership. As per Master to be an ownership of loving protection—ownership of my being to take care and protect me from the inevitable daily terrestrial perils in my journey.

Thus, Has Been My Experience Of The Great I AM …?

But then again, my experience is not to be imposed on anyone. Even more so, one year’s experience of Diana & Mike’s company has confirmed that fact to me. Therefore, I can now digest all my frustrations to my benefit instead of clamping inwards to store such frustrations in the cove of silent retaliation like I felt doing last night.

Mules Stuck in The Mud Pile Of The Beautiful Side Of Evil …

“Let them be My thiaBasilia, child of my heart, let them be stuck in such a mud. In time the torrential rain of blessings on them and curses for those not of your lot shall ease the mud they are trapped in. it is then when shall be released to gamble from their entrapment like calves from the stall”

  • Monday, November 27, 2023, at 8:50 am.
  • Readying for my day.
  • Monday, November 27, 2023, at 5:50 pm, I am back.
  • I need to take a break from recording right now.
  • Perhaps some reading is in place before I head for bed.
  • Monday, November 27, 2023, at 6:49 pm headed for bed.
  • Tuesday, November 28, 2023, at 4:21 am.

Pain, Doubt, Uncertainty, But No Fear …

Yes, I am down again. I spent a slumbering night; half-awake half sleep trying to piece together all I have learned about myself in the last few weeks. Pain, doubt, uncertainty, but at the same time no fear for I know, I trust my Creator with my whole being. Of that I have no doubt whatsoever. It’s really an uncanny, mysterious, or impossible to explain thing, especially when causing uneasiness or astonishment.

What’s Going On, What’s Wrong? …

Why I am down, obsessed with putting together the pieces of my past? That is something I have yet to figure out. Even so, right now I am somewhat reluctant to rush on any conclusion to answer such question. I am so tired of the continuous analyzing trying to figure out things ahead of time.

Trying To Figure Out Things Ahead of Time? …

Ha! That’s the PROBLEM! That’s the mud pile I get stuck in my own self! No wonder why the pain, doubt, and uncertainty. Am I deaf? Not really, I just put a deaf ear when it comes to the mules stuck in the mud pile. It does not occur to me that I could be one of those mules.

Just At That Moment, I Hear That Lovely Voice From Within …?

“O My precious child, My thiaBasilia how you delight My Being as you perceive the fact of your humanity. Indeed, My child, you are human subject to all the maladies the human kind deserve because of their insistence of self-sufficiency.

Regardless, I am Who I AM.

I have never given up My heart desire for a loving family to look up to Me with the loveliness of a baby looks up to loving parents doting on him.

Even so, I had to pay the price for such a family with My blood.

And there is the stumbling block, or the mud pile my beloved children including yourself get stuck in.

But soon, sooner than expected it will all become clear to all My children as clear as it has become to you.

Go on My precious child, you have nothing to fear but all to look forward to no matter the circumstances of the moment.”

Alright! Alright! So that voice from within is my Father Creator’s voice. He speaks to us all individually & collectible but, the majority of His children He has become what it amounts to a cliché or an expression that has lost much of its force through overexposure. Of course, I speak in hindsight. But, as I observe the jargon of these days, I am not far from the fact.

The Almighty Creator of Everything In Existence Is Relegated To: …

The Universe, my energy, my true self, I am love, I am free, there is no wrong or right, unconditional love, on and on goes the tirade of words without the knowledge of the Unknown God. Indeed! The Almighty is unknown so, His children have opted to adopt their own standards for what they assumed to be the reality of eternal love. The thing is, they are more convincing than ignored. Why?

Reflecting in the Creator’s Presence Before I Record Further …

Tuesday, November 28, 2023, at 6:48 pm. Headed for bed mainly to reflect on the matter. I woke up almost at 2 am on Wednesday, November 29, 2023. I do not wish to impose any of my beliefs or agenda on anyone because I do not possess either of them. I no longer believe anything that I believed before the Almighty stepped into my life and straitened my crooked beliefs. What I possess now is a relationship with the Creator gifted to me for His own purposes for my life. (Jeremiah 15:19-20) The Creator knows each one of His children as well as every single creature of His creation. (Hebrews 4:12-13) In short, what I write is what transpires between the Creator and me.

What Is the Purpose for My Writings …?

I have expounded on this matter before, but the human mind does not retain all that is heard, so, the need for a reminder. From the beginning of my writings

Why The Trend of The Days? The Insatiable Need To Control …

Plus anger—fear. The why of the matter has been revealed to me for my own edification. It took a long time to sear these things into my being to empower me to fulfill the purpose of my life as it’s written in  Luke 22:31-32 & Jeremiah 15:19-20.

Quote: (I was inspired to put my name instead of Peter because Yahushua (Jesus) was talking to Simon then but now He was speaking to me.

Simon, Simon (thia, thia), listen! Satan has asked excessively that [all of] you be given up to him [out of the power and keeping of God], that he might sift [all of] you like grain, [Job_1:6-12; Amo_9:9] But I have prayed especially for you [thia], that your [own] faith may not fail; and when you yourself have turned again, strengthen and establish your brethren. (Luke 22:31-32)

  • Wednesday, November 29, 2023, at 4:30 am.
  • At this point sleep overtook me.
  • I headed for bed.
  • Slept until 6:30 am.
  • I am awake now on Wednesday, November 29, 2023, at 7:14 am, ready to continue the narration.

Under Satan’s Power I Lost My Faith for A Moment …?

For Yahushua (Jesus) had prayed for me that my faith would not fail me. Therefore, on October 21, 1986, things were against me. I complained. His words to respond to my complaint hit me like a ton of bricks. He got my attention. My faith in Him was restored.

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(17-18) I have not joined the people in their merry feasts. I sit alone beneath the hand of God. I burst with indignation at their sins. Yet you have failed me in my time of need! You have let them keep right on with all their persecutions. Will they never stop hurting me? Your help is as uncertain as a seasonal mountain brook—sometimes a flood, sometimes as dry as a bone.”

The Lord replied: “Stop this foolishness and talk some sense! Only if you return to trusting me will I let you continue as my spokesman. You are to influence them, not let them influence you! They will fight against you like a besieging army against a high city wall. But they will not conquer you, for I am with you to protect and deliver you, says the Lord. Yes, I will certainly deliver you from these wicked men and rescue you from their ruthless hands.” (Jeremiah 15:17-21 TLB)

Your words were found, and I ate them; and Your words were to me a joy and the rejoicing of my heart, for I am called by Your name, O Lord God of hosts.

I sat not in the assembly of those who make merry, nor did I rejoice; I sat alone because Your [powerful] hand was upon me, for You had filled me with indignation. Why is my pain perpetual and my wound incurable, refusing to be healed? Will you indeed be to me like a deceitful brook, like waters that fail and are uncertain?

Therefore thus says the Lord [to Jeremiah]: If you return [and give up this mistaken tone of distrust and despair], then I will give you again a settled place of quiet and safety, and you will be My minister; and if you separate the precious from the vile [cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning God’s faithfulness], you shall be My mouthpiece. [But do not yield to them.] Let them return to you–not you to [the people]. And I will make you to this people a fortified, bronze wall; they will fight against you, but they will not prevail over you, for I am with you to save and deliver you, says the Lord. And I will deliver you out of the hands of the wicked, and I will redeem you out of the palms of the terrible and ruthless tyrants. (Jeremiah 15:16-21 AMPC). End of quotes.

Well? For A Refresher To The Readers …

The quotes above set the basis for the content of my writings since 1985. Since then, absolutely everything in my life has come to pass exactly as it is written in all versions of the Bible. Since 1974 I had acquired several versions of the Bible frantically trying to make sense of all that I was reading. But the more I read the worse things got for me at the expense of my precious children. For I had become a religious bigot—strongly intolerant of those who differed with my agenda to force my children to comply without any consideration of their tender natures. By 1986 I quit reading those versions. I was inspired to get the Amplified version for better understanding of what I was reading.

Honestly? My children have gone through horrors beyond whatever my deluded imagination had conceived! But! From the mud I was willingly stuck in, my prayer was not to get unstuck but to plead with my Heavenly Father to take care of my precious children because I could not do it myself.

Anyhow, Change Was in The Way For Me …

The change started on that 21st day of October in 1986 with the above Scriptures penetrating the depth of my soul. Yahushua (Jesus) had to pull quite hard to get me unstuck from the mud pile that was about to extinguish the life out of me.

  • With His first pull of the rope around my neck He jerked me all the way to Waveland MS, to the home of my beloved Neen & Skee Picone.
  • Another jerk back to New Orleans to the home of Pauline who was the mother of my sponsor to reside in the USA.
  • Then? The final jerk to the place of quiet and rest my Heavenly Father had promised to me.
  • That was the apartment beyond the house of Norman Joseph Martinez, My Honey or N. J. Martinez Only To Me when I wanted to get his full attention.
  • Under the loving care of this truly unique gentleman, I remained from 1987 to 1992 when he was taken from me.
  • I went into a shock for about a year.
  • Even so, the metamorphosis from a caterpillar into a butterfly had already taken the form of the butterfly that now in 2023 is showing off its beauty in full splendor.

What Truly Matters to Me Now …

To stay aligned to the will of my Master, owner of my soul. By all means, I do not want to be free and on my own. No! No! No! I’ll be the greatest fool should I even think of such freedom! I been there I done that! Ten million religions, beliefs, religious as secular, as well what is understood as spiritual, Md’s, PH’s, Philosophers, Dali this Mohamad’s that, Yoga, and what have you, none, absolutely none can pluck me out of Yahushua’s heart where I reside. How blessed I am!

What Is to Happen Next …

Next? The unexpected blessings that I could not see much less appreciate when I was stuck in the mud pile of my staunch deranged beliefs. I am no longer trying to figure out what is to happen next. I am finally sitting still but working in perfect peace expressing myself with clarity, the type which engages the attention of whomever is attracted to read my posts.

Until the next post, lov, thia.

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And So You, I Got Our ‘Say So’. Is Anyone Impressed? …

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Much To Do In 2020. Forget About Our Say So. It’s All Much Greater! Full Size Beyond My Conception.

 

A flat version of the book I am working on, and the cover for the book. It’s slow in coming, but! In due time? For sure! :-)

Wow! O My Master! How Timely You Remind Me Of Your Written Words …

While I was vacillating on how to continue recording Your words a like to a post I posted back in January 2020 popped in my inbox. I clicked. WOW!

I Am Dumb Found! Your Leading Is Beyond My Grasp …

Tuesday, July 21, 2020 at 5:50 am.

Copious tears begin to flow. How amazing are Your ways! Way beyond my grasp are they but! Amazingly good and loving ways beyond my grasp as well.

I Have Been In Suspense From July 4 To July 19 To This Moment, Why? …

I posted in all sites on July 4th, but the last post on July 19 I have not been led to post it in all sites. Why? So much haze in my mind with all going on in this world that I inhabit.

But You Are In Control Even Of That Haze …

That’s the reason for my copious tears of joy. Who am I to count in the immensity of Your love and care for me?

Words Can Be Deceiving Especially The Word ‘Love’ …

Tuesday, July 21, 2020 at 7:45 am.

Love is defined as a feeling in the dictionary but! I am learning that love is above feelings. That is true love or the love from and for You first of all and then true love for others.

Indeed! As A Rule The Only Love We Know Is The Romantic Love That We Practice …

And that is the cause of ALL our earthly problems with no exception! No kidding! But! You are turning all things around on this 2020 year.

True Love Is An Attitude Of Obedience Or Submission To Authority …

This is the truth about love to set us free from the grip of such volatile inconstant fickle word as the word love that we know.

  • Submission to authority is the key to experience true love.

That Is What Is Happening In My World For The Benefit Of Your So Loved World …

What a marvel it is to experience true love or submission to Your Sovereign Authority—the first and most important of all the commandments.

  • Thus? The rest of the commandments become the reality of our lives.

So? That’s How The Saga Continues Victoriously On This 2020 Year Of COVID-19 Fear …

Tuesday, July 21, 2020 at 8:20 am.

I am ready to close but I need now re-check Your leading to proceed. After reading the post You sent to me in the inbox it came to me to post it before I post anything else in all the sites.

On to the task with a glad heart.

Let’s Get On With The Show in that post back in the middle of January 2020 …?

Thanks, My Master! For What Now? For It All You Are In Control …

Saturday, January 18, 2020 at 10:30 pm.

Been sleeping the whole afternoon. Disgusted. Not knowing what to do in view of all that goes on with my thinking and feelings. Guess I just don’t want to be human anymore.

But Here Is The Riff, I Am Human. I Think And Feel Like Any Other Human …?

Ha! I woke up about and hour ago. One word in my mouth: Laugh. Hum! That brought to mind Sarah’s laugh at the announcement she was to give birth to Issac at her age.

  • Master? Been reflecting on the matter. Ha! Sarah’s laugh applies to me now. Indeed! All Your amazing promises makes me laugh because of the impossibilities as humanly speaking I see, but!
  • You did not withdrew Your promise for Sarah to bare Issac. Only You reinforced it. It’s the same with me now. Humanly speaking, I nearly despair. The human’s neglect to obey or to listen to You just gets to me.

Even So? You Are In Control Of It All Including My Humanity In Its Whole …

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The Family In Mind On Waking Up This Time …

Where Are The Basis For The Human Family? …

Let’s Start At The Very Beginning. A Good Place To Start …

Wednesday, February 19, 2020 at 3:47 am.

The way You are leading me from the onset of my journey in Your sight is about You and Your intent for our creation.

No Kidding! The Family Is In Your Mind Forever Time …

Wednesday, February 19, 2020 at 4:02 am.

You have me now to finish with the posting I started before You sent me to sleep. Then? I’ll work on a new graphic You set in my mind about the family.

This Has Been A Frustrating Day, But! …

Wednesday, February 19, 2020 at 10:50 pm.

I am not letting get to me. I know You’ll show me the way to go that I cannot find. From the graphics to the book formatting nothing is working as I would like it to work. I’ll try the bed. I wait on You.

It’s Rough My Master, Help …?

Thursday, February 20, 2020 at 3:33 am.

My body is not colloborating. There is much to do but I am stuck with the book format. How the styles got all messup, beats me? I’ll take a break. I wait on You.

Unexpected Miracle …

Thursday, February 20, 2020 at 11:47 am.

I slept for a couple hours. On waking up I noticed the NET was working fast. It came to me to call Microsoft support for help with the problems.

  • Well? It was decided to repair the program. That didn’t work. Next to reinstall it.
  • I cringed! Wirh the faulty NET it has been nearly impossible to reinstall any big program.
  • Besides, even if the NET would work it would take about 1-1/2hours and longer to download and install the program.
  • And that was the big problem. The NET would quit before the download could finish.
  • Hum! This time? Half hour. Program downloaded. Install completed. Wow!
  • And? It came to me how to resolve my formatting problem with the styles.
  • Master! You unstuck me big time!
  • Unbelievable! Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Much To Do But! No Longer Overwhelming …

I know exactly what needs to be done thanks to the instructions You send my way. But why did all of this happen? The support tech needed the few in between remarks made about Your strenght always availing me.

Drunk With Chocolates Big Time! …

Thursday, February 20, 2020 at 9:47 pm.

O my Master! You are healing my body without drugs! You are teaching me all about how to regulate the sugar and salt intake for my body’s stability. So today?

  • In my enthusiasm about Your teaching, I overdone the chocolates a bit.
  • To no avail I had the sense my indulgence to quit.
  • Next? Ahmad came with a worker to clean the roof.
  • Not realizing the effect of my overindulgence, I walked aloof
  • What were they doing to see, and? O me!
  • Kapum! Shaloom! Down my body swoom!
  • Swift six arms lifted me up like a feather.
  • My sun chair pushed under
  • Me well to be in the coldness of the weather
  • Despite my chocolate spree.
  • Two hours since now
  • Still oozy and fussy got busy
  • In my task if one may ask.
  • It’s 10:51 pm will lay down.
  • Will wait on You my body to settle down.

Awake But Going Back To Sleep …

Friday, February 21, 2020 at 1:47 am to 4:40 am.

And so, the saga goes, my Master. All could be a disaster. but You turn it well to be for me, for Thee. Underneath Your everlasting arms sleep takes over to set me free from weeping to be.

I’m going on this day by the power of Your love, wisdom, and Your everlasting faithfulness.

Your promises are the only sound matter to grab on go on. Quote:

Isaiah 55:1-13

“Oh everyone who thirsts, come to the waters. And you who have no silver, come, buy and eat. Come, buy wine and milk without silver and without price.

“Why do you weigh out silver for what is not bread, and your labour for what does not satisfy? Listen, listen to Me, and eat what is good, and let your being delight itself in fatness.

“Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, so that your being lives. And let Me make an everlasting covenant with you, the trustworthy kindnesses of Dawiḏ.

“See, I have given Him as a witness to the people, a Leader and a Commander for the people.

“See, a nation you do not know you shall call, and a nation who does not know you run to you, because of Yahuweh your Elohim, and the Set-apart One of Yisrael, for He has adorned you.”

Seek Yahuweh while He is to be found, call on Him while He is near. Let the wrong forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts.

Let him return to Yahuweh, who has compassion on him, and to our Elohim, for He pardons much.

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways,” declares Yahuweh.

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.

“For as the rain comes down, and the snow from the heavens, and do not return there, but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, and give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so is My Word that goes forth from My mouth – it does not return to Me empty, but shall do what I please, and shall certainly accomplish what I sent it for.

“For with joy you go out, and with peace you are brought in – the mountains and the hills break forth into singing before you, and all the trees of the field clap the hands.

“Instead of the thorn the cypress comes up, and instead of the nettle the myrtle comes up. And it shall be to Yahuweh for a name, for an everlasting sign which is not cut off.” End of quote.

And with this note, I am to close and post. For the quote says it all better than what I could ever with such authority myself done and plan.

As You are restoring my family You are restoring all families scattered in the four corners of the earth ignorant of their rightful identity with You.

I’ll have the whole day ahead to let You lead the way on whatever I am to do the go to honor and proclaim Your name to be Sovereign.

  • Your family business on this 2020 year forever eternally to flourish.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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This Is The Year Not To Fear Our Fears …

The Year To Come Boldly To The Throne Of Grace For The Much-Needed Help To Abandon Our Fears …?

Fear Of You, Only Fear Needed …

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 12:12 am.

This subject came to me on this midnight. It is the experience of my moment while I am enjoying Your victory in my life as well as Your unbroken fellowship.

For The Fear Of You Is The Beginning Of All Wisdom …

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 7:38 am

O my Master! Words. Same words with different implications. I often wondered the mention of the word ‘fear’ in the Scriptures. Fear not. Fear the Master.

  • This morning You lead me to search the meaning of words. Here is what I found. Quote:

fear (fɪə)

n

  1. a feeling of distress, apprehension, or alarm caused by impending danger, pain, etc
  2. a cause of this feeling
  3. awe; reverence: fear of God.
  4. concern; anxiety
  5. possibility; chance: there is no fear of that happening.
  6. for fear of for fear that for fear lest to forestall or avoid
  7. no fear certainly not
  8. put the fear of God into to frighten

vb

  1. to be afraid (to do something) or of (a person or thing); dread
  2. (tr) to revere; respect
  3. (tr; takes a clause as object) to be sorry: used to lessen the effect of an unpleasant statement: I fear that you have not won.
  4. (foll by: for) to feel anxiety about something
  5. an archaic word for frighten

Why This Is The Year Not To Fear Our Fears …

There are two meanings among 13 that answers my question: 3. awe; reverence: fear of God. 10. (tr) to revere; respect.

So? This Year You Will Ingrain The Fear Of You By The Power Of Your Love …

Therefore? All other fears shall vanish giving way to the awe; reverence; respect due to You alone first and uppermost.

Well? This Is A Subject That So Far People Have Not Wanted To Talk About, But!

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 8:23 am.

Now? The tide has turned big time! HalleluYah! O my Master! You getting to Your people’s heart and mind. Every post here lately? Your people are responding. Will now spend the day creating a graphic on this matter.

Great! The Graphic Is Finished. The NET Is Working. Ready To Post …

Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 11:38 pm.

Just a few minutes to midnight. Much accomplished today, but! The best? One of my stranged children, Daniel, got in touch with me with love and gratitude. Thanks, my Master!

You Are Harmonizing All The Inharmonious Circumstances Of My Life As Promised …

Quote:

Wait. Relax. No matter what you see, feel, and think, I am harmonizing all the inharmonious circumstances of your life.

Wait. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Wait. You will soon see My Deliverance!

Pause. Reflect. Your gaze set on Me, wait with hope. It is as written in Romans 8

On To Posting Grounds On This Blessed Midnight on Tuesday, February 18, 2020 at 12:07 am

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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Posting Done! The NET Held Up, And? …

And I Got My Oil! Whoopee!


Did my accomplishments and getting my oil Add An Iota To My Stature? …

Friday, February 14, 2020 at 5:07 pm.

Hardly, but! it’s only because of Your loving discipline that You finally convinced me to quit whining about the least inconvenience that came my way and go on.

It’s Past Midnight On A New Day …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 1:12 am.

Here I am. I written a lot in an email to Roxana since I woke up last night at 11:40 pm. Now I don’t feel good. I am cold even with the heat on. I don’t know what to do, what to eat what to drink. Maybe go back to sleep?

Ah! Sunshine Out There As It Is In Here In My Heart …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 6:30 am.

Yeap! The sun is shinning in my heart even when the winter darkens the skies out there, but! You give us a break from that darkness. You never give us any more than what we can take.

O Mine! Gas Is Waving The Signal To Quit, My Master …

I’m sure glad You are giving me a sunny day. Maybe there will be gas replacement today. Maybe there will not be. Either way? It does not affect my well-being.

It’s The 7th Day Of Rest. Resting In You I Remain Sunshine Or Wintertime …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 12:50 pm.

Been working on the graphic to illustrate the matter. You gave me the idea as You do with all graphics. It looks beautiful to me. Who knows but You whether others think the same as me.

Legend For The Graphic …

Sun shining on the Planets

2020

Sun shining on my Heart

Sun shining on ALL Hearts

Master! Help Me To Truly Love My Brother …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 2:00 am.

The sun is shining on my heart, but You know how I feel when I read headlines from leaders that have offended me for exposing the truth. The thing is that these leaders continue with their timelines, and?

  • I have not read yet one single testimony of Your dealings with them.
  • All I see in the leadership is their pompous authority over many followers.
  • Following each other, but!
  • Not following Yahushua as they claim to do.
  • Am I guilty?
  • Am I telling anyone what to do?
  • Am I judging my brother?

O My Master! A Few Hours Of Sleep Did Me Good …

Saturday, February 15, 2020 at 5:52 am.

As if You didn’t know it. But You tell me to always come to You, to come to reason things out with You, and? I have discovered how wonderful it is to answer Your beckoning.

Questions That Only You Can Answer My Master …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 3:30 am.

Your answer? Habakkuk’s Prayer. Wow! How have I missed this most important prayer? But! not to fear. In the economy of our lives You do not waste a second. Anyhow, now?

You Sent Me To Read The Entire Chapter To Reprogram My Mind …

This matter is by far most critical moment at this stage of Your Presence in my heart. Your Presence for real in my daily living.

Well? You Sent. I Went. My Life’s Onset For Me To Vent …?

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 5:35 am.

Honest to goodness! You are leading me 100%. You led me to an entry on Saturday, January 08, 2011 (5:22 am). Wow! The consistence of Your message is uncanny. Strong words. they knocked the socks off my feet. Who knows? Those words might do the same for you should you be inclined to read them. Here is the link:

UPDATED WORDS FROM 1986

  • Did I write those words?
  • Phew! My hand wrote not my will.
  • All I could say was, “Not me! I been a sinful woman. They not going to listen to me!” But!
  • You said, “I don’t want them to listen to YOU!!! I want them to listen to ME!!!”

That Happened On February Of 1986. O me And YOU …

Me with the little letters. YOU with the capitals. Since then? You have had me vent out my sinful life unmercifully. Did my venting out my sinful life humiliated and shamed me? Not at all! Quote:

James 4:4-12

You [are like] unfaithful wives [having illicit love affairs with the world and breaking your marriage vow to God]! Do you not know that being the world’s friend is being God’s enemy? So whoever chooses to be a friend of the world takes his stand as an enemy of God.

Or do you suppose that the Scripture is speaking to no purpose that says, The Spirit Whom He has caused to dwell in us yearns over us and He yearns for the Spirit [to be welcome] with a jealous love? [Jer 3:14; Hos 2:19ff]

But He gives us more and more grace (power of the Holy Spirit, to meet this evil tendency and all others fully). That is why He says, God sets Himself against the proud and haughty, but gives grace [continually] to the lowly (those who are humble enough to receive it). [Pro 3:34]

So be subject to God. Resist the devil [stand firm against him], and he will flee from you.

Come close to God and He will come close to you. [Recognize that you are] sinners, get your soiled hands clean; [realize that you have been disloyal] wavering individuals with divided interests, and purify your hearts [of your spiritual adultery].

[As you draw near to God] be deeply penitent and grieve, even weep [over your disloyalty]. Let your laughter be turned to grief and your mirth to dejection and heartfelt shame [for your sins].

Humble yourselves [feeling very insignificant] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up and make your lives significant].

[My] brethren, do not speak evil about or accuse one another. He that maligns a brother or judges his brother is maligning and criticizing the Law and judging the Law. But if you judge the Law, you are not a practicer of the Law but a censor and judge [of it].

One only is the Lawgiver and Judge Who is able to save and to destroy [the One Who has the absolute power of life and death]. [But you] who are you that [you presume to] pass judgment on your neighbor?

My Venting Out My Sinful Life Humbled Not Humiliated Me …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 6:17 am – 8:38 am

Today marks the 34th anniversary of my surrender to You. At 3:30 am today You sent me to Habakkuk’s Prayer. Then, you sent me to read the entire chapter to reprogram my mind. Next?

You led me to an entry on Saturday, January 08, 2011 (5:22 am) to vent out my sinful life as in James 4:4-12. Next? You led me to February 16 of 1986. Next? Today.

You Answered The Questions That Only You Can Answer My Master …:

  • Am I guilty?
  • Am I telling anyone what to do?
  • Am I judging my brother?

Wow! The Consistence Of Your Message Is Uncanny. Strong Words, But! …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 9:46 am.

Strong words consistent with the work You been doing in my life to the exact moment. Thirty-four years. Now? You are leading me back to the meaning of number 34. Quote:

Meaning of Number 34

The number 34 has clear access to inner wisdom. 34 is also intuitive. It interprets its wisdom and intuition creatively, seldom getting bogged down in unworkable details when considering solutions to problems.

For 34, alone time to think through a problem or to meditate is important. The number finds its answers within. Even when answers or solutions are found somewhere else, 34 looks inward to validate them.

It approaches life with an understanding filtered through its own inner awareness and certainties.

The numerology essence of the number 34 generally is comfortable interacting with others, although doesn’t actively seek such opportunities. Its participation in social interactions often inspire other participants.

The Basic or Core Essence of 34

The deep down basic essence of the numerology number 34 is introspection, finding answers within. Other meanings of the number 34 must take that vibration into account.

To better understand the essence of 34, let’s have a look at its composition and the number it is reduced to. The number 34 is composed of the digits 3 and 4, and is reduced to the single digit 7:

3+4 = 7

Thus, the numerology number 34 essence is based on the essence of the number 7. It also contains the essence of the individual digits. See these articles for number interpretations of the single-digit essence of the number 34 and the digits 34 is composed of:

Number 3 Meaning

Number 4 Meaning

Number 7 Meaning

The digit the number is reduced to (the digit 7 in this case) always has more force or capacity than the digits of the number being reduced.

The relative amount each contributes to the whole could be represented by this graph: :

7-3-4

Thus, the 34 essence contains the 7’s essence, such as introspection, intuition, and wisdom.

Plus a dose of the 3’s essence, such as creative expression, inspiration, and tolerance.

Plus a dose of the 4’s essence, such as pragmatism, conscientiousness, and a focus on building a secure foundation for the future, this blend resulting in an essence unique.

The 34 essence is knowledge of self. There is introspection and study and analyzing and accumulation of wisdom. There’s also imagination, creativity, optimism, and a dynamism that’s felt by others.

In social situations with a 34 present, others find their energy and outlook on life uplifted, their inner creativeness awakened, their future appearing brighter.

The number 34 has wisdom gained through knowledge of self as its priority. There’s an ongoing urge to accumulate wisdom. Perfection and beauty are important. Quality is appreciated.

Goals generally have specific steps associated with them for their accomplishment.

Imagine being intuitively connected to ancient wisdom and knowing yourself in relation to that wisdom. Both the analytical and spiritual aspects of yourself are known and accepted. Issues in life are approached with an element of creativity, especially when expressing concepts to others. There is continuing analysis of self in relation to events and circumstances.

That’s 34. End of quote.

Granted, This Is Not A Biblical Meaning Of Number 34, But! …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 11:01 am

This is what You led me to check out. It describes the essence of the work You have now declared finished. It describes the present experience of my life in Your Presence as per Your words You brought to my remembrance. Quote:

“Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

And So? That’s My Life. No Worldly Cares Whatsoever …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 10:30 pm.

Ah but my interpretation of worldly cares! Is it for me to become a stoic recluse aloof from the basic needs in life? Nay! Nay! Nay! The truth?

  • At times I had in mind to become such, but O how depressing.
  • Other times, I’ll figured something different, but!
  • I never could figure out how to live but not love the world!
  • All the time You have been at work transforming and enabling me to live but not to love the world.

Phew! Saved By The Bell I Hear So Well Now …

Sunday, February 16, 2020 at 11:00 pm.

What bell? The bell of Your exact time for all to happen. The bell that rang for me on the last day of 2019. The day when the lust for the things of this world vanished forever by the power of Your love. Wow!

I Never Realized The Weight Of Such Lusts On My Being, But! …

Now I do. I do realize it. For You have lifted that weight from my beign now to be from it set free. Better yet? You have transformed me into the joy and rejoicing You created me to be.

Ha! I’m A Joy To Ahmad Even When I’m Threatening To Kill Him …

“Hellooo! I hear you now.”

“I’m glad you do. I need to remind you that I am out of gas since I called you yesterday. I am cold. I need gas! Also, I need for you to tell me at what time I am supposed to go to the welcome line?”

“Welcome line? What means Basilia?”

“The welcome line to welcome all to the death of Ahmad xxx!”

“Ha! Ha! Ha! Everybody wants to kill me! Ha! Ha! Ha!”

O My Master! Finally! You Have Empowered Me To Enjoy This Strange Culture …

No kidding! This strange culture has been nothing but trouble for me until now. It never fails. When I am waiting for Ahmad’s help somebody dies. That means 3 days I do not hear from Ahmad. Where is my gas or this or that?

“Basilia, my cousin die. It’s mandatory that I go to the family for 3 days to welcome all the mourners that must come to mourn the death of my cousin for 3 days.”

What about Basilia? Basilia could be dead but she has to wait for 3 days for them to come find me dead and I’ll have my 3 days of welcoming all to mourn my death! What a trip.

“But that’s mandatory, Basilia. I have no choice.”

“What is it that you all do for 3 days, Ahmad?”

“Well? The close family stands in line. The visitors come. The family must shake hands and say, Welcome!”

“You do that for 3 days?”

“Well, yes because different people come each day. Then you are not supposed to talk to or visit anyone for 3 days. You are supposed to mourn for 3 days. That’s why I could not call you.”

O My Master! You Are In Control Of It All, Why Then …?

Monday, February 17, 2020 at 4:03 am.

Well? I attempted to sleep at 12:19 am to no avail. Sleep evaded me. So? I got up. Continued my creation in Photoshop. Fixed my hair. Back and forth while Photoshop is doing its thing. And?

Goodness Sake! Four Hours Done Flew Past Me …

It’s a wonder how You work things out for me. Four hours of learning new techniques in the older version of Photoshop that You resuscitated for me.

No Kidding! You Have Resolved My Photoshop Troubles …

As good as the technicians from Photoshop support are, they have not been able to solve my problem because I did not know how to explain the problem. Anyhow?

I’m Fully Enjoying Your Gifts, My Master …?

Monday, February 17, 2020 at 4:01 pm.

The sun is shinning. Photoshop is working like a charm. You are giving me much needed sleep. There is abundance of food. I have gas. Ahmad and family continue to take care of my supplies the best way they can. And?

My Body Is On The Mend. I Am Comfortable, and? …

Monday, February 17, 2020 at 6:03 pm.

Finally! I started the dreadful dish washing chore! You know how I enjoy washing my dishes, but! when Your hand is heavy upon me, all I can do is graphics. Even writing is nearly impossible.

O Well! The Beauty Of It All? It’s All For A Super Ending …?

Your purpose for all written is to show that is it not about our self-efforts to please period. It’s all about Your faithfulness to Your Word.

  • I for one? I get all excited when things go well. I get bent out of shape when things go not so well.
  • Either way? Your faithfulness to Your promises to me prevail.

And With This Note, I Am Ready To Close And Post This Matter.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

 

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What A Life To Live On! No Need To Be ‘Smug’ About It. Just Live It With Fear And Trembling …

There Is Gold At The End Of The Rainbow In This Post To Understand The Headline …



Almost Miss Recording Today. …

Tuesday, January 21, 2020 at 5:13 pm

I started to go to bed, but! I noticed the last time I recorded was when I went to bed at 11:34 pm last night. Suddenly! I realized that the day is almost gone, and? I didn’t record any dates or times. So?

Instead Of Going To Bed I Decided On Piecing Things Together …

I closed the writing at 10:51 pm.

Went to bed at 11:34 pm.

Woke up around 4 am.

I worked on the post. Had a hard time aligning the graphics.

I finally succeeded. Published on the main site on Tuesday, January 21, 2020 at 7:33 am.

Ahmad surprised me with some goodies. Again, a good visit.

I think I slept the rest of the morning.

Then I spent a long time preparing the cilantro that Ahmad brought me earlier.

It looks like I published the post in all sites around 2 pm because the responses began around 3:30 pm.

What did I do for the next 2 hrs. is a mystery to me? But!

Since 5:13 pm I been piecing things together.

What To Do Next? The Net Is Not Working. Maybe Sleep?

Tuesday, January 21, 2020 at 6:48 pm.

I am not sleepy. The heat is on but I am cold. I am not hungry. I am not expecting anyone because Ahmad came in the morning and my little friend came this afternoon. Ah! They brought me some extra cilantro. I’ll work on it until? Sleep came my way at 8:13 pm hit the bed. Up at 12:39 am.

Another Day Yet. Still Under The Misery Of Pain …

Wednesday, January 22, 2020 at 12:45 am.

Relief is not to be found. No matter. I wait on You. Patiently I wait. You never give anymore than what I can take. The NET still out. don’t know whether to eat or drink. Perhaps on back to bed?

Uncanny. My Master! The NET Worked Enough To Hear Such Amazing Words From You In A Comment From 2016 …?

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Harmony And Sense Versus?

Harmony And Sense Versus?

Conflict, Discord, Strife, Contention, Dissension, Clash …


Well? Steady Goes It …?

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 6:38 pm.

It feels good to be steady. Thanks, my Master. It’s the hour that I used to feel pretty unsteady, but now? No problem anymore. Your promise is fulfilled. Quote:

Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step].

Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

The Midnight Approaching Again …

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 11:37 pm.

Slept from 8 to 10 pm. My little friend brought me some goodies. Been checking the inbox. New followers and likes in one of the websites I have not been keeping up. I went ahead and updated it.

Now? Not Sure Of What Is Next, But!

No problem. I’ll wait on You. Did not hear from Ahmad today. You know what’s going on there, my Master. I no longer trouble myself with Ahmad’s absence. What a relief!

Ahmad’s Decreed Time? Not As Per My Pleasure …?

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 7:03 am.

Numbers tell. The 2nd day. Meaning of number two? Division! Dividing my willful pleasures from Your decreed Laws. What a revelation to start this 2nd day of the 10th month. Wow!

Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endure! The End? Saved! …

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 2:13 pm.

Master? You have given me 7 hours since I recorded this headline. Meantime? You led me to illustrate the post. You gave me the incentive to catch up with my chores. Lastly?

Let It Go! In The Subject Line. I Clicked …?

Wow! The command from the leaders of Your flock. O my Master! You flashed into my mind my whole life of bondage to such command.

What A Heavy Burden Imposed Upon Unsuspecting Me, But! …

Not without my willing consent. I am the one who placed the leaders of Your flock ahead of You. What a revelation! And on this 2nd day meant to divide the precious from the vile.

Skip The Dividing of The Human Willful Pleasures From Your Decreed Laws? …

There you have the core of all Conflicts, Discords, Strives, Contentions, Dissensions, Clashes in the human’s lives. WHAT?

O Well! Must Wait On You To Give Me Exactly What I Need To Write Next …

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 6:24 pm.

O my Master! I know this is incredible! The whole world’s system is set on the ‘Let It Go!’, but! The whole system is now bankrupt! More and more people are realizing it does not work! Even so?

The Leaders Are Now More Than Ever Before Intent In Making It Work …?

History repeating itself. It’s happening all over like it happened at the beginning. The blaming game. Anger. Rebelliousness. We have become our own gods, and declare:

Divine Self. The Universe. Unconditional Love …?

Master? What are You showing to me? Ha! The three words now household words mixed with the words ‘God’, Positive Thinking, and Your written words? The sure recipe for the predicted great falling away.

O My Master! This Is Not A Welcome Subject, I Fear, But! …

Despite my fears? You are still in control of it all. Those words encompass the Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields Your people is set on. You know it. What to do now, my Master?

“Fear Not! Do Exactly As You Been Doing—Write, Publish, And Optimize …

I am doing the rest no matter how it looks to you. This time? My people are responding to Me not to you. Remember, you are the product in My business not the owner of the business.”

Phew! What A Relief! No Need For My Concerns …

No need to concern myself with the likes or comments or followers. You have already told me it is beyond my imagination the multitude of souls You have reached with these writings You inspire to me.

On To My Task. Let You Do Your Task …

Tried. Purified. Refined. Chosen On High Seas. Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endure! The End? Saved! On lower seas. Sing! Rejoice! Aboard The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on!

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

 

 

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Could You See This World? A Huge Field Of Dry Grass Under!

A Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields …

 

Is There Hope For LIFE &STRENGTH To Overcome? …

Saturday, September 28, 2019 at 8:13 am.

O man! Master? You know how easy it is for a drunkard or a whore to see, but! Not so for the ones living on the veneer of green luscious fields. It’s impossible for a human to give up such veneer. Even so?

Nothing Is Impossible With You. Dry Field? Stamped With? …

Saturday, September 28, 2019 at 2:07 pm.

Stamped with the turquoise fertility stamp! Wow! That just came to me. Been thinking all day about what I saw before I woke up this morning.

  • I saw a vast dry grass field. Somehow, I had a huge stamp in my hand. I began to stamp the field. It was so real, but I couldn’t figure it all out.
  • It came to me This World is a huge field of dry grass but all we can see is a Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields. So? I wrote the headline for the post. Next I recorded what came to me until I recorded the headline about stamped with.
  • I left it there because I didn’t know with what the field was stamped. I had a sense that the stamp in my hand had something to do with the turquoise rose allegory, but I didn’t know how to connect the field with the stamp until it just now.
  • I remember to come to record in the journal. I had no idea of what I was to record. I recorded date and time. I began to write with what was the field stamped to my own amazement. So simple. As if I should have known it all the while.

And So? My History Been Recorded In The Journal , And…?

Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 9:06 am.

O my Master! And You are now revealing it to me. Whatever for? For the benefit of all readers present as well as former and future. What has taken place from the time You called me to journal my life until this very moment?

Harmony And Sense In My Life Is And Has Been A Reality …

Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 10:58 pm.

Things worked out pretty well today. Thanks, my Master! Will go to sleep now. Hope to catch up. Awake at 3:47 am.

A New Day Waiting On You My Master …

Monday, September 30, 2019 at 3:53 am.

Like a maiden wait for her mistress so my soul waits on You. Illustrating my history recorded in this journal is the task consuming my time while I wait on You.

Talking About Harmony And Sense In My Life Is A Reality …?

Monday, September 30, 2019 at 4:01 pm.

Master? The truth is You are the Author of harmony and sense. Yes, the reality of my life has always been in harmony and much sense, but!

As A Human Being? All Inharmonious Circumstances And Conditions Known To Me, Until…?

Your decreed time to unravel and harmonize my life came to me. But why all known to me before has been all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun?

All Is Crystal Clear To Me Now, No Kidding! …

The Harmony And Sense In My Life? Totally opposite of what the world knows for harmony and sense! Wow! NOW! This moment. IT ALL FIT TOGETHER! What am I talking about?

My Former Life Of Conflict, Discord, Strife, Contention, Dissension, Clash …?

That’s what I am talking about. No kidding! My family and the people that known me in the past can all testify about it all. No wonder why most all are skeptics about this miraculous transformation of my being!

The Best Part? JOY Inexplicable Full Of Your Esteem Bubbles Up Within Me …?

Master! Master! Master! Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! No more anger. No more conflicts. No more regrets. No more wondering. No more sorriest! What a marvel!

Your Work Is Done! The Adjustment To All Is For Real! …

That shall be the subject for future posts. For now? I am finished optimizing the illustration for this post. Lead me as I am preparing to post again. Quote:

Ecclesiastes 12:13

13  All has been heard; the end of the matter is: Fear God [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments, for this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation, the object of God’s providence, the root of character, the foundation of all happiness, the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man. End of quote.

Ha! I Started To Insert The Post In The Site, But!

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 12:46 am.

I had to hit the bed. Slept for 6 hours! Wow! I needed that! Midnight. Woke up. Another day. Another month. The first day of 10th month. The 12th hour. The minutes? I noticed, the number 46 or 4+6=10. The number 10?

Master! You Telling Me What Is To Happen It’s Really, Really Happening Now? …

O but what can I say, my Master? There are no words, no ways of any kind to figure You out. I never know what You got in store for me until You see fit to show it to me. Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Master?. Am I To End This Post With Another Quote From Your Written Words I Got In The E-Mail Inbox Just Now?

I happen to check my inbox as I was editing the published post. I read the important email. Didn’t know what to make of it until I read the ending Scripture. How appropriate to quote it to end this post!

“Let them shout for joy and rejoice, who favour my vindication; and let them say continually, ‘The Lord be magnified, Who delights in the prosperity of His servant.’” (Psalm 35:27, NASB)

On to post now for sure.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Effective Ways To Produce The Integrity Of One’s Character …

Effective Ways To Produce The Integrity Of One’s Character …

Perfect Timing! All Over The World The Spirit Is Moving …

 

 

 

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Monday, September 23, 2019 at 5:43 am.

I have only read your introduction. Astonished! The year was 1985. The Master Creator of our beings decreed me as a writer for His honor. He then began the process to mold me into what I was born to be—His child to be loved to love. The process is now completed. A new life has begun at my 80th birthday on this 2019 year, but! It was only this week that I came to terms with my reality, and? Here you appear! What’s next? Nothing but the best for us all! Glad for our crossing. Much love for all. thiaBasilia. 😊

“Yes, My Ways To Deal With You Are Effective To Produce The Integrity Of Your Character” The Master said to me …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 10:15 am.

Now You tell me! It’s about time! Either the nut house or the cemetery would have been my end! Phew! Thank goodness! You are neither late nor tardy. You always on time!

And The Things You Hate? Exactly The Things We Humans Love …?

O but how we love to look good to others! Our goodness? A cover up for the bad things deep in our gut. No kidding. I know this is offensive to hear, but!

It’s The Truth To Set Us All Free …?

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 11:09 am.

It’s the truth that set me free. The hour is coming and it’s here now for that truth to set us all free by the power of Your love and wisdom for them and me.

The Midday Hour Is Coming, And? …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 11:55 am.

I am free, but! I am still human. I do wonder. I have a hard time waiting on You to act in our behalf. In reality? I have a hard time waiting for things to change, but it’s not happening. No change.

The Sad Part? It’s Not Really Hard At All, But!…?

It’s just sad to see Ahmad et all struggling, struggling, struggling. No time to stop. No time to smell Your roses. All the time? Smelling the smell of carnal pleasures, whether religious or otherwise— success, food, vacations, entertainment the list goes on.

Even So? You Bless Some Of Us With The Fragrance Of Your Presence In Our Lives …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 3:41 pm.

Well? This is some four hours later. Slept for about three hours. Feeling surprisingly good. Updated files and links. Absolute silence. No news from Ahmad. But the fragrance of Your Presence? Sustains me in peace.

What A Difference From The Turmoil In My Past …?

Yeah. It’s not altogether smooth sailing 100%. No. there are waves of panic. Moments of mind churning junkie carnal thoughts, but! O my Master! You control those thoughts of mine now. What a blessing!

My Life In A Turquoise World Of Fertility …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 7:20 pm.

Life goes on. No change that I can tell. Am I struggling to make things better? O my Master! My life now? You have filled me to capacity with Your love and wisdom. No need to struggle anymore.

To Sleep On Monday, September 23, 2019 At 11:56 Pm.

Slept for more hours than usual. Got up to take care of myself. Finished around 6 am. Watered my plants. Been reading Dereck’s long email. Started reading his free book. Reading it all? I wondered.

Here We Go. Where Are We Going? Nobody Really Knows …

Tuesday, September 24, 2019 at 7:48 am.

Honest to goodness! We are all going, going, going. Yeah, going to one place or the other. We are all searching. Searching, searching, searching for what? We don’t really know.

Happy Times. Bad Times. There Is A Solution For Either One. Really? …

Indeed! We humans think of many solutions for the least to the greatest circumstances in our lives, are those solutions worth it? That remains to be seen. Food for thought.

Me? The Almighty Done Plucked Me Out Of The Solution Department, And? …

Tuesday, September 24, 2019 at 9:47 am.

It’s a good thing He did! None of my solutions came close at all to resolve the basic unsolvable human’s problem, but!

The Only Solution I Am Now Compelled to Proclaim? It’s Reaching Its Aim …?

Therefore? No need for me to complain in disdain to the blatant human arrogance to pretend to solve from the least to the greatest needing solution. Why?

Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation? …

It’s now shinning for. It’s no longer just a metaphor. O my Master! Every single moment You come forth. You let the shinning light of Your plan shine over my human mind, and?

I Take Courage To Overcome The Darkness Surrounding Me …

Wednesday, September 25, 2019 at 6:33 am.

Yes, this a world of darkness even in the light of human wisdom but You know it my Father! No matter. Your words are a lamp unto my feet to always point the way.

As A Human? I Panic. I Despair, But! …

Thursday, September 26, 2019 at 3:25 am.

The Ever Existent One has lifted me up to live above my human nature. He has wakened up His nature within me to live by. A mouth full of an unexplainable phenom. Even so?

After My Human’s Nature Panic And Despair? Grace. Favor …?

Behold! His Power Of Love and Wisdom From On High Descending Upon Us All. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation!

By Your Power Of Love And Wisdom? I Am Living And Going On …?

Is that something that I can brag and take it for granted? By no means. It’s a humbling experience. A power and wisdom way beyond my human’s imagination, yet!

As Simple As Becoming Like A Little Child …

Even so? Becoming like a little child? A process. We live in a world of spiritual darkness not suited for a little child. Thus?

A Supernatural Process Must Take Place …

There you have another mouth full an unexplainable phenom, but! I spent the whole day yesterday attempting to illustrate the matter. Guess what? Going back to the task. Got a better perspective now.

Would You Want To Know Your History?

A Simple Way To Find It Out.

True History! Worth Checking Into …

Friday, September 27, 2019 at 11:42 am.

It’s as simple as taking a second look about the way we look at things. But of course, we are so set in our ways that it’s nearly impossible for us to consider any other way. Even worse?

We Resist Change Of Our Way With A Purple Passion! Why? …

Because our ways really define ourselves. True. Many of us try and try to change our ways. There are numerous of institutions and individuals set to help anyone in that department, but!

The World Has Yet To Find A Solution As Much As Problem Solutions Are Hailed Effective …

Effective yes, for that specific problem, but! The basic or source of all our problems remains unsolved until the time comes for each one of us individually.

The Time? The Appointed Time That Is. That Time? …

Supernaturally decreed. I know I sound ‘goofy’—religious—out on the left field—insane—or whatever label could be saddled on me. Regardless! It’s not about me.

True History Stands. Regardless All Objections And Biases …

The heading graphic encompasses our whole history. Been working on it for many days. I pause from my writing. I reflect on all written. I wait to hear that voice from within to change, add, or take from it.

Finally! The Moment Of Truth. Finished? We’ll See …

Friday, September 27, 2019 at 2:49 pm.

Master? Am I to take for an answer the words You spoke to me in 2013? I am beginning to see Your order and ways with my life. My life’s history? Repeats itself. A crucial moment in 2013 repeat?  Let me see.

Still On The Second Day Of This Crucial Moment Of My Life…

The heading caught my attention. I began to read the same thoughts and feelings I ‘been going through for the last few days. Strange. It did not hit me until this moment the meaning of pulling that file by accident.

Now I See. There Are No Accidents In My Life …?

Every minute detail of my life has been carefully planned by the Master Creator of my being’s invisible power of love and unfathomable wisdom.  No two ways about it. His words? My proof. Quote:

“Indeed! My child, I have given you as much wisdom as I gave to King Solomon and from now on I will show the world that indeed such is the case.

“Remain in this room in silent until I open your mouth to speak the words of My wisdom that I will put in your mouth when the time comes for Ahmad to approach you.

“From now on fear no longer shall assail you. For I’m injecting within your being more courage than the most courageous man in this world and cringing fear will be a thing of the past in your daily existence.

“On the contrary, from now on your enemies shall fear you and all the rats in this world will not dare to attack or frighten you with their unwanted presence.

“And because of the work that I am now consummating between you and Ahmad many people shall learn the meaning of fearing Me!

“For I am Almighty Yahuwah and this time all nations shall know and fear My name. And My people shall learn what it is to offer Me a pleasing service and acceptable worship, with modesty and pious care and righteous fear and awe!

“Again, remain in this room in silent & composure for I am with you to strengthen & sustain you under any and all circumstances that I allow to develop in your midst.”

Who Am I? What Do I Do?

Friday, September 27, 2019 at 1:20 am

  • I am thiaBasilia. Was called to journal my life since 1985. Have not missed a day since March 1987. My life’s Journal? To tell my story. The purpose? To proclaim the Master Creator of our being’s Name for the work of transformation from a cringing fearful creature I once was to a new fearless one that I am now.
  • Started blogging since 2006. I have created several sites, but the main one is https://www.thia-basilia.com/. Have posted all my writings. The following post is one of my latest. Much is written, but! Don’t be surprised if you bump into one of the other sites to a post that speaks directly to you.

Why Am I Telling You About Me? …

Simple. I know the answer about our history by my own personal experience of it. But? Regardless! It’s not about my knowledge at all!

May Your  Spirit O Mighty One, Enlighten Each One Of Your Children …

What is all about? This time? Your children will respond. So You have decreed it to be. Me? Waiting, waiting, waiting on You with patience and composure now more than ever before.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Truth Can Be Offensive/Insulting …

Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?

Big Time! Wished To Die, But!

That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.

Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.

No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …

Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:

Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!

The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”

Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,

“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”

Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.

“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”

Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!

“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!

No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”

O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!

“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.

From now on all your doings shall become sensible and your feelings for goodness shall intensify as well as your feelings for badness.

And your thoughts shall be under the captivity of My thoughts. This drastic change within your being shall soon take hold of the hearts of many who would turn to Me and esteem My name as they see your good works.”

Master, what about these festivals and different things that Your people are so deep into? What am I to do? What am I to respond to inquires as to my behavior on these days of excitement for Your people?

And, Master, what am I to do about my health? What about all the body discomforts I suffer all the time? Am I to do anything about my body? How am I to take care of my body?

“My beloved, say and do exactly as I have been leading you to say and do. Do not relent in speaking My WORD as it is written.

Truly, My Thia, your time has come to delight Me and from here on out ALL things and ALL matters shall come to pass in your life as it is written and as I have been telling you personally.

My beloved Thia, I am well aware of your physical condition. Your body is continuously decaying on account of the environmental conditions caused by the sin of mankind under the evil influence of our enemy.

Nonetheless, you have nothing to worry about because My grace is sufficient unto you; that means that you are able to withstand all and any discomfort in your body and rejoice rather than complain about it.

You are in excellent health and I will keep your body in healthy conditions until the time comes to invest you with a new body immune to decay.

My beloved Thia, from now on you will be sitting still and yet your activity in the realm of My invisible Kingdom shall intensify ten fold.

As of this instant I am taking control of your imaginations. Your steps shall be steady as you move in any direction.

And the song of praise and adoration to Me shall intensify to the point of the highest heaven.

Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

Wow! I guess I won’t post this amazing word fulfilled today because I am sleepy. By the time I wake up the Net won’t work. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 am.

Absolutely Awesome! Those Words?  …

Sailing the turbulent waves of these lower seas? I had even forgotten those words until this moment. Ten years beaten by the treacherous waves this world could to me thrust me under.

Even So? My Master Lives In My Deepest Chamber! …

Nothing and no one have been able to really disturb me despite all my lapses and preoccupations. Brutal pain and lack of gain? Almost to the exact day I am typing these lines without pain—no worries about my lack of gain.

MIRACLE!

Let’s go to the details if we must.

 

Introduction

 

What’s With This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory Been Writing About? …

Will Do My Best To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 1:56 pm.

Why do I keep regressing instead of progressing? Day by day the answer is coming clear to me but not to thee, dear Reader follower.

Therefore? This Introduction …

Let me summarize the sequence of events. Our lives come in cycles. In my life? I don’t know exactly when each cycle begins and ends except for this last cycle starting with An Extended Adventurous Voyage—the present cycle I am living in.

Here is the list of post from present to previous for your reference to understand this introduction.

Strange, But! Since I Started The Present Cycle? Not Many Clicks …

What is happening? I already explained the matter in the An Extended Adventurous Voyage post, but! It looks like it made no difference to my readers.

I Not Concerned About The Clicks, But!? …

I am concerned with how I am coming through to my readers. What came to me just this morning? To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain.

  • It is plain to me how everything that happens in the physical realm has its source in the spiritual realm.

Our Physical Pain Has Its Source In What Is Buried In Our Spirits—The Deepest Part Of Our Beings …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 3:49 pm.

I am learning these things on the daily and moment to moment basis with every stage of my physical condition. The fluctuation of my physical condition troubles me big time.

That’s Why I Keep Regressing Instead Of Progressing, Until This Morning …?

What happened this morning? I had been in the gutter of my own negative thinking since yesterday when I came into the knowledge of being a ‘lame duck’ for lack of Ahmad’s support.

Down I Went! All Day. All Night. Until The Master Lift Me Up Earlier Today …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 10:52 pm.

Earlier today I got up from bed because I could not sleep. My mind kept churning with Ahmad’s lack of support. I kept begging for help. The answer came to my inbox.

Just Out Of Curiosity? I Clicked The Headline …

Wow! First glimpse of the people’s coming to terms with reality. I was impressed. Though that not in total agreement with the author of the post? I replied to comment. Quote:

I’m impressed! Radical Judgement of one’s self is the one thing, perhaps the only thing to solve our problems. Over and over I must radically judge myself.

Dear Reader, I will give you a bulleted summary of how this renewal of mine has been on the making for the last 45 years since 1974 when I discover the Scriptures.

  • The year was 1974—I discovered the Scriptures. Got into the unknown spiritual realm. Lost my mind. Stopped reading the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1979—amazing healing experience from deep wound inflicted upon me in my childhood. The result? Regain my physical health. Back in the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1983—Gruesome divorce. Felt apart. Lost hope. Lost all morals. Hit the top of immoral living.
  • The year was 1985—Suddenly! Unexpectedly! My whole life was run like a film strip in my view. What did I realize as I viewed the film?
  • I had gone through life unaware of the secret saving power of the Spirit of the Almighty Creator of my being, taking everything and everybody for granted without consideration of anything other than my own understanding of life, and the raw feelings of my emotions.
  • Restored,
  • A second mental breakdown.
  • Called to journal my life, but! Did not listen.
  • The year was 1986—convicted. Power to quit my work. Power to listen.
  • The year was 1987—began new life under my gifted friend’s care. Began to journal my life consistently.
  • The year was 1992—saddest year for me, my gifted friend died. I became lost. I felt abandoned. Back to my old life of family and church.
  • The year was 1994—bought property. Became sort of independent. Happy time.
  • The year was 1995—depression treatment? Electric shocks. Almost destroyed me. My daughter rescued me, but that’s the year my prescription drug addiction began.
  • The year was 1999—inspired to go live with family. Sold my property. Things did not work out. I felt spiritually dead.
  • The year was 2001—back on my own again. Got beautiful apartment, but! Got involved in helping seniors instead of my call to journal my life as instructed to do.
  • The year was 2007—that’s the year I dropped unconscious, victim of misdiagnose. Rushed to the emergency room at the point of death. Convicted. Repented. Restored.
  • The year was 2008—called to go to the ‘lost sheep of Israel. Power to accept the call.
  • The year was 2009—called to get out of the USA. Destination? The wilderness of people to judge me face to face.
  • The year was 2015—call to go with my gifted son Ahmad. He is to be my authority while we wait for Yahushua’s return.
  • The year was 2017—got the roof apartment of my dreams. My renewed life began.
  • The year is now 2019—WOW! What a year it has been. This is to be the year of our jubilee, but! O well?

It Surely Doesn’t Look Like Jubilee At All! But!

The Almighty Creator is in control of His creation. I am committed and submitted to Him as my supreme Authority. He has declared me to be His messenger. So? End of quote.

Reading And Commenting On That Post? It Brought Me To My Senses …

Reflecting on what I read? That’s what stopped the flow of negative thoughts. Then? I was able to hear my Master’s instructions to call Ahmad.

It Does Not Matter How It Looks To Us All …

Me? I’m, I have been going through another rough period of my journey. Don’t know what is to be even in the next moment. I go up and down, but!

O My Master! You Are Faithful To Your Word To Sustain Me …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 12:04 am.

One more 7th Day of Rest. Things don’t look too good between Ahmad and me. I am somewhat dejected, but! I am resting on You. I keep remembering Your recent words to comfort me. Quote:

“Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

The Sting Of Ahmad’s Words To Release His Anger? …

Enough fuel for my dejection, but! I’m taking what I give. I spit out similar words to him to release my own anger, and?

That’s A Good Thing! Be Ye Angry And Sin Not …?

Wow! Thanks, my Master! How amazing are Your words when You apply them to my inner being. To release one’s anger keeps one from the festering resentment that causes all our physical pain and misery.

Now I Am Beginning To Understand The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

Perhaps this introduction will help my readers to understand such power as well. On to the details of what is going on in my journey.

 

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on!

Human Integrity? Limited. Questionable Big Time …?

No Kidding! That’s Not My Idea, Dear Readers …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 3:57 am.

I wish it was because then you would be justified in abandoning this blog, but! The truth is now coming to light in many blogs/books and such other than this single post.

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on! …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:11 am.

How can that be? Everybody thinks highly of me. I’m faithful. I live by the word. I help the orphans and the widows. I support the Church and ministers. I – I – I – am a good Christian woman.

Me? How Can That Be? Talking about offended? Until …

Until the reality of truth hit my gut! It’s Wednesday, September 11, 2019 at 10:36 pm. Know what? I’m having an awful time writing about this issue.

Insults, Or What Is Considered As An Insult? Turns A One Away …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:26 am.

Indeed! Turns a one away from the source of the insult without hesitation. Thus? Many of my followers have abandoned this blog offended by the truth that will set them free. Even so?

The Almighty Sole Creator Of Our Beings Has Not Abandoned Them …?

Not a single one of His begotten children shall be lost. He plans to restore every single one of us. Only? His ways to do it all? Simple but! Illogical!

The Human Mind Cannot Grasp Such Ways …

That’s the fact to be exact. There is no need for me to be concerned about the followers of this blog. There is no need for me to be concerned about my loved one’s present behavior.

Master? You Are Lifting Me Up To Sail The High Seas …

The high seas away from any country’s jurisdiction. Away from my preoccupation with the human element. Your plan of restoration is coming to pass exactly as You have decreed it to pass despite all my preoccupations.

That’s The Fact To Be Exact. On To High Seas This Day I’ll Sail …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at.4:47 am.

O my Master! You have set me free from all my preoccupations. All around me I see, I read all the goings on of my people near and far. On this moment of time?

My Soul Is Free—On To High Seas I’ll Sail—Holding On To My Master’s Rail …

Clarity is in my mind to see far and beyond the furthest realm my imagination could find. The splendid future? Not so far away now.

It Might Be Days-Weeks-Months-Even Years, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:25 am.

The splendid future is already here. In my heart. In my mind. Because in Your Presence? That future I find. Because You live? I can live that future. Because You live? All fear is gone!

I Am Sailing On High Seas Away From The Storms Of Lower Seas Because …?

You have risen in my mind to calm it down. On high seas I am sailing while You are at the helm. No need to be overwhelmed because You are at the helm. Even so?

Reality! On Lower Seas? I’m A Lame Duck …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 12:53 pm.

A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.

What Is A Lame Duck? …

It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!

O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?

I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.

What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.

I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.

Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?

Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …

I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.

Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.

I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.

You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.

I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.

Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.

First? I sense You calling me to sleep. Well? I guess You were not calling me to sleep. I could not sleep. I got up. All kinds of things been running through my mind because of pain, lack of appetite and now lack of sleep.

You Have Shown To Me All Physical Conditions Are Rooted In The Spiritual …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 8:44 am.

Every single day You demonstrate what You show to me. My body reacts to what is going on in my spirit. A Lame Duck? That revelation threw me for spin downwards.

I Reverted To My Old Way Of Thinking Big Time, But! …

You kept me from staying there. Even so? A Lame Duck? Because Ahmad is not supporting me. From that thinking? Because. Because. Because kept churning in my mind until a moment ago.

It Came To Me, Why Are Sitting Here Imagining All Sorts Of Because? …

Call Ahmad. Find out what’s going on. Sure enough, I called. Didn’t have in mind to blow up in anger but that’s exactly what I did. Next? I began to think of jumping ship, but then?

I Lift Up My Voice, Where Can I Go From Your Spirit My Master? …

Behold! Your Power Of Love and wisdom. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! I began to reason, You have planted me here. I am established. I am safe and secure. What nonsense is this of ‘jumping ship’?

Back To Your Track. Holding On To Your Rail On High Sea Waters …

High Sea Waters? Treacherous waters! Unless I hold on to Your rail? I’ll be drowning without fail, but! You are at the helm. Should I let go of Your rail? You tilt the ship to save my tail—a take from Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

Where Am I Going From Here On? I Don’t Know. My Master Knows …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 5:39 am.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? You know all about Your purpose and plan for these writings. Whether I sound pretensions or not? True or false? It’s Your plan to make it known to all.

Me? You Know I Can’t Take Much More …

Between suffering the consequences of my human reactions to fly/flies to ants annoying me while awake or sleep, plus the troubles between Ahmad and me? I am simply worn out. At my wits end again.

Even So? You Are Holding Me Up. I Cannot Jump Ship …?

I am staying put. Sometimes sober. Sometimes I lose it. For the most? Busy searching my writings for files I cannot find, but! One thing I know for sure.

Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

To that end You have drastically dealt with me. I am appalled at my own self’s distasteful hypocrisy! But I am thankful for Your hand of discipline to set me free. A take from Psalms 139. Quote:

Psalms 139:2-5

You know my down-sitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. [Mat 9:4; Joh 2:24-25]

You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Master, You know it altogether. [Heb 4:13]

You have beset me and shut me in–behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.

My Distasteful Hypocrisy In Chasing Millions …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 6:46 am.

Reflecting on what I read that jolted me back on my Master’s track? Besides the admonishing to judge myself radically, a quote shone a beam of Your light to really expose that hypocrisy. Quote:

“Ego is the absolute impediment to Dao. The sin is pride. If it thrills you that you’re enlightened then you’re ruined. Forget sharing it. You’re not pure enough to share it.” — Terence McKenna

Even So? It All Comes To Me From Your Hand Of Mercy …

O my Master! I am not any longer thrilled about my enlightenment on the matter of receiving any enticing emails from Ray Edward et all. In fact? I am appalled! But!

Even That—Appalled? Could Be A Thrill Of My Carnal Nature, So? …

Therefore? I quit. I am letting go of everything. Including my thinking. My ideas and concepts. You are filling my mind with the opposite of all of that as You promised to do a long time ago. Quote:

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua You spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985. You said to me at that moment:

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love.  These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others.

Rest in Me and hold My flowers. Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”

And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. And You said to me:

“You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY flowers and not your flowers.”

Then You spoke to me a second Word to answer my dilemma at that time. I asked, ‘Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just to rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be Okay, Father?’ And You answered me,

“I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you. I am telling you just that.

You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off of ME.

Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying. You are being self-conscious.

Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.

Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for My own reasons, even if you don’t understand My reasons.

You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.

Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.

Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings.

That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor.

It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So, don’t worry about anything.

Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.

Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of.

You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

Serious Reflection On The Last Paragraphs You Bring To My Mind …

Quote:

“Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings. That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor. It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

“I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So don’t worry about anything.

“Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being. Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

So Be It. Though I Feel Like Crying For I Am Sad? …

No matter. Because my feelings are on this world’s shores, but! You have lifted me up to sail the high seas away from this world’s shores.

Whether I Sadly Cry Or Not? All It Matters Is To Be Near You On High Or Lower Seas …?

I’m going on. I’ll post these lines with my hope and expectation set on You by the power of Your love and wisdom, but! Before I post I must add the latest as I woke up this morning.

Continuous Constant Change …?

  • Cycles Of Life Repeating It Selves Precisely …

The First Day With No Pain …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 pm

I slept until 2:54 am. Thank Goodness! The end of my 7th Day of Rest came with the realization of Your Presence manifestation in a day without pain.

Twelve Years Since? This Cycle Of My Journey Began …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 3:22 am.

The year was 2007. Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Alone I sat reading the recent acquired article on Daniel 8. I began to see the parallel. Suddenly! I was called to the carpet. Quote:

It was a Saturday on September 15, 2007. I was keeping the 7th Day of Rest all by my lonesome. I was reading an article written by Yedidah on Daniel 8. Suddenly! It came to me something to this effect,

  • “Such is the message I have given to you to proclaim to the world. You are no longer doing so. You cannot hear Me any longer because, you are too busy taking care of the home bound. Because your spirit is sleeping and your mind is dull with all those pills that you are taking.”

Immediately, I got up. I headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my pill big box. I headed to the toilet. I proceeded to flush nearly $1000.00 of prescription drugs I have been faithfully swallowing for that many years.

I came back to the computer. I wrote a resignation letter to my position as a volunteer in the Senior Companion Program. I picked up the phone and cancelled all appointments with 5 specialists in-charged of my health. I made a note to prepare to sell my Kia Sophia.

Then I dropped the bomb on my children. “You are insane!” some of them retorted and quit their mom.

They had had enough of my crazy whims and mental insanity but, this was not insanity nor a whim after all. Years later it has proven it not to be so.

To conclude, for the record, it is now Thursday, October 20, 2016. Tomorrow will mark 30 years since October 21, 1986.

That is another remarkable date in my journey of life in the Presence of my Father/Creator. That was the date when Father marked me as a writer to honor His name.

The honor of our Father/Creator’s name. what does that mean? A mouth full of misunderstanding but, not outside of the Father/Creator’s control & dominion & knowledge.

His wisdom is unfathomable. That will be the subject for subsequent posts on this line. Why?

What the honor of the Father/Creator’s name got to do with mental insanity? The answer to that question gives way to the Innovative Approach to Mental Health that needs to be proclaim to the whole world if there is to be any hope to restore our sanity to avail us for eternity. End of quote.

Much Reflection Needed …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 8:26 am.

I cannot by any stretch of my imagination regress to any resemble of my old ways. But how on earth can I do what I intent to do? Inevitable, I do as I done before at the least provocation.

You Are Being Self Conscious. Quit Trying To Perfect My Work …?

Oops! I hear You big time! What a trip am I! No wonder why the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. O but Your faithfulness to Your words.

I Am In Control, Relax …?

  • O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
  • Today is your 12th anniversary of your return to do what I called you to do since 1985.
  • I am aware of your misgivings as you read Yedidah’s article on Daniel 8. You can now confirm all stated in that article, but!
  • The backlash from Yedidah and her followers still lingers inside of you. The reading of the article brought that backlash to the surface.
  • Thus, the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. Even so?
  • Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being even before you met Yedidah.
  • No need for you to hold on to that backslash. Yedidah and her followers cannot comprehend what goes on with your life in My Presence. Let go. I am in control.
  • Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.
  • I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake, but! You are human.
  • In your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time.
  • That is why I have had to pour the life in My written words slowly and gently in order to fill you with My Spirit in those words.
  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Dear Reader, I am sure you now have a better understanding of this journey of mine. Ready now to post for sure.

Here are the links to my last two books in case anyone is inclined to find out the details of what’s happening and it’s all happening in my life’s journey:

Click to access AN-EXTENDED-ADVENTUROUS-VOYAGE-1.pdf

Click to access Ahoy-The-Turquoise-Ship-Booklet.pdf

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.