Prepare! Prepare For What? Prepare To Be Spared …

For What I Read Here And There, People Are Talking About Blessings In 2020 In A Mixed Way.

• Mixed way? Yes, they mention ‘God’ and faith, but they exalt the over comer heroes that have turned failure into success by their human efforts, and? They exalt the blessings. They do not exalt You.
• Am I doing the same thing?
• Is there still any wicked way in me?
• Search me, my Master!

On Waking Up I Got The Title For This Post And More …?

Wednesday, February 5, 2020 at 3:24 am.

O my Master! Your response to search my heart? You have so done. You have so continue to do.

• Funny thing; first You tell me to write down all evil going on for all to see.
• Now? You are turning the tables on me.
• What evil goes on within my heart?

You Are Human. All Evil Going On In The Human’s Heart Is Going On Within Your Heart …

Wednesday, February 5, 2020 at 4:11 am.

Oops! And I was so smug writing and thinking that as I look around the blessings of 2020 are proclaiming but! The great tribulation. Not a mention of it much less preparing for it.

• So? I got the tiles for this post:
• The Great Tribulation? Don’t Despair! Don’t Despair! But? …
• Prepare! Prepare For What? Prepare To Be Spared.
• All I Hear At Every Turn Is The Blessings Pouring On Us In 2020 …?

All I Hear At Every Turn Is The Blessings Pouring On Us In 2020 …?

Ha! what about me? Isn’t it what I am doing? O my Master! You are so real in my life. Just like I did with my children You do to me. I wouldn’t let them get away with anything; neither do You with me.

• Let me now go on to post what I originally intended to post. But it came to me to post the last entries first. So be it.

Well? I Published, But! The Net Done Quit …?

Wednesday, January 29, 2020 at 9:00 pm.

Help me my Master to accept these things that are continuously aggravating me. The Net. The lack of visits or even phone calls from Ahmad and family?

• Ha! it’s this late, no sign of anyone coming; the Net quit; I am not really comfortable; I am not quite certain on what to do; eat or sleep, and? I am NOT bent out of shape like I used to be. Wow!

Here I Am My Master Been Working On The Site. As If You Didn’t Know It …

Thursday, January 30, 2020 at 9:03 am.

I slept on and off from 9:45 pm to around 2:30 am this morning. I am not bent out of shape but, the cold is affecting my sleep. I just can’t get warm. You know it , my Master.

• Anyhow? I changed themes again. This time I hope is for keeps at least for a while.
• Now? I’ll go on to finish with the posting.
• Time to quit. Sleep. 4:40 pm
• Slept until about 10:14 pm.

Thank You My Master For Letting Me Vent Out My Frustrations On You …

Thursday, January 30, 2020 at 10:54 pm.

You know how rough it is when all one’s sins pop to torment one’s soul; in the midst of such torment one wonders why You allow such evil after Your promise not to let evil torment one anymore?

• Why You, a loving Father let Your Son suffer such horrors.
• Why Your ancient workers suffered 100% worse horrors than the present horrors I am suffering?.
• What am I doing wrong now?
• Why my body is such a painful wreck?
• Why the bitter winter?
• I soak my pillow with agonizing tears.
• Why I was not able to take care of my precious children?
• Why have You chopped me off from my loved ones?
• Why no one cares for me?
• Why? why? why?
• Will this suffering ever end?

Sleep Follows My Lengthy Tirade. Wake Up To The Sound Of My Name …

Thursday, January 30, 2020 at 11:14 pm.

Ah! My welcomed little friend. Up! He turns on the heat.

• “Did you get me some coffee?”
• “Nay!” He says.
• He lays out the first set of goodies.
• “Good?”
• “Yeah, looks good!”
• Next? The fruit.
• Next? Big jar of honey!
• Still? No coffee.
• He waits a minute. Then?
• The coffee! Hahaha!
• We chatted about the cleaning.
• He promised to come tomorrow to clean.
• Will see. By tomorrow? He done forgot his promise, but!
• I never know until tomorrow comes.
• Why worry about tomorrow?
• He leaves.
• I proceed to take care of things.
• Suddenly! What do I hear?

“No One Takes Care Of You? What About Your Suffering?” …

Friday, January 31, 2020 at 1:13 am.

Midnight came. Me? Reflecting on Your questions. You took me back all the way to that place and moment of my birth. That happened over 80 years ago, but!

• The memories are just as it was today.
• My father siting his rocking chair ledger and calendar on hand waiting.
• The grandfather clock struck the three chimes for 3 am.
• Mama Lucila comes out of the adjacent room.
• “Es nina!” for It’s a girl! She announced.
• My father recorded my name: Basilia Licona Sarceno plus the date and hour of my birth and to whom I was born.
• Why did my Father pick my name to be Basilia? Because he picked the names from the Catholic calendar that recorded the births of many considered ‘saints’ in the Cathoic Church. That 14^th day of June was the birth of Saint Basilio.
• So Strange my birth circumstances were!

Master? I See Your Purpose For Such Vivid Memory …

You are demonstrating to me how from my birth until this day You have assigned my caretakers. Why my suffering? Your response:

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? I gave you a mighty man for a father to take care of you. Didn’t you rebel against your father?

Now, My child, think back. At your father’s death, didn’t I place you under the care of his older son? But you rebelled against him as well.”

• You send me to sleep from 2:10 am to 4:12 am

On Waking Up, I Hear, Quite Clear, Your Answer To My Suffering …

Friday, January 31, 2020 at 5:04 am.

Why my life’s sufferings? Because I was a person who resists any authority, control, or tradition. You brought me back all the way to the beginning of my rebellion. In retrospect?

• The time was somewhere between June and October 1985. I had begun to write what became my autobiography which I published in 2005 against Your will.
• You will now have me to quote chapter 3 from that autobiography to illustrate how my rebellion continued from my birth to that memorable day when You called me into account on June 20, 1985.
• This is a long chapter. I need to edit it. Then, I will break it into pages for easy reading. Quote:

CHAPTER 3

A HEAVENLY WHIPPING

This chapter is about the end of the darkest period of Thia’s life and the trip to Vegas. Such trip was the heavenly whipping that caught her attention!

A long time ago the Scriptures were written for us nowadays. And under the leading of the Holy Spirit we are supposed to learn, apply, and experience the Scriptures in our lives.

For the incidents that occurred to each individual in the Bible are real. And those incidents were written for an example to us.

“Alas!” sighs Thia, “I did not allow the Holy Spirit to lead me. And I had read the following Scriptures under my own leading many of times; but, I never did think to apply them to myself.

I thought those Scriptures were about something to be applied only to Peter or any of the old-time people.

I did not think that the Scriptures written in the Psalms or about Peter or about anybody else in those days applied to myself nowadays, but they do!

If only I would have put my name instead of Simon Peter or anybody else, it would have been perfectly valid. Alas, I didn’t, therefore, I suffered in ignorance.” For it is written,

Luke 22:31-34

Simon, Simon (Peter), listen! Satan has asked excessively that (all of) you be given up to him—out of the power and keeping of Almighty Yahuwah— that he might sift (all of) you like grain, (Job 1:6-12; Amos 9:9)

But I have prayed especially for you (Peter) that your (own)  faith may not fail; and when you yourself have turned again, strengthen and establish your brethren.

And (Simon Peter) said to Him, Master, I am ready to go with You both to prison and to death.

But Yahushua said, I tell you, Peter, before a (single) cock shall crow this day, you will three times (utterly) deny that you know  Me.

Psalms 109:30,31 (LBV)

But I will give repeated thanks to Almighty Yahuwah, praising him to everyone. For he stands beside the poor and hungry to save them from their enemies.

Psalms 110:1. (LBV)

JEHOVAH SAID to my Master the Messiah, “Rule as my regent— I will subdue your enemies and make them bow low before you” End of quote

But Thia was totally in the dark that such Scriptures applied also to herself, and she suffered a period of utter darkness in ignorance of her Savior’s faithfulness to pray and to stand by to save her.

And Thia was ignorant also of her Savior’s power to subdue and to make bow low before Him the enemies of fear and confusion which were Thia’s enemies.

Anyhow, in 1974 Thia had a mental breakdown. She fell into the trap of her enemies of fear and confusion and she was taken to the mental ward and given a dose of Terrazin that made her lose her mind for three days.

During the three days when she lost her mind, she had several visions and in those visions she had seen then, in 1974, everything that was happening to her now, in 1983.

And among those things happening to her now was the end of her second marriage which was the most exhilarating and emotionally violent decade of her life and the beginning of a relationship with a gentleman called “Mr. Coo.

At that time, in 1974, she did not even have an inkling that this gentleman, Mr. Coo, existed. Therefore, in her visions that year of 1974, she mistook him for her second husband at an older age, because at that period of time her second husband happened to have a striking resemblance to Mr. Coo.

But the man in her vision was not her husband at all, for in her vision she foresaw Mr. Coo as she found out at the appointed time of her life.

In her visions she also foresaw the trip to Vegas which she was about to undertake.

It was now 1983 and by then she had divorced from her second husband and she had forgotten all about those visions. Though that for a while after the breakdown she tried to figure out what she had seen, by 1983 she had given up trying to decipher what she foresaw in 1974, and she didn’t even think about it anymore.

Yet, nearing the end of that period of utter darkness and despair which she foresaw in 1974, and around the middle of 1983 when  the roof cave in and she ran, she came to understand all those things that she had seen during those three days in which she had lost her mind back in 1974.

For the roof of her world’s castle began to cave in around July of 1983 and she panicked and ran about two months later, when she realized that her whole castle was tumbling down around October of 1983.

To begin with, her youngest daughter and her son-in-law were supposed to buy Thia’s house because Thia could not meet the mortgage payments.

Thia was awfully glad when the loan was approved for them to buy the house—around July.

But, to Thia’s utter disbelief, her son-in-law backed off the deal, and Thia was caught with three mortgage payments behind. Such was the first stage of the cave in!

At the time Thia was working for a pittance in Mr. Coo’s neighborhood bar. But in a desperate attempt to make money to catch up with the mortgage payments she switched work to a barroom that offered her more money.

Then she went back to work her Real Estate License plus she got a part-time job in a fabric store.

For Thia was desperately trying to make money not only to pay her mortgage payments but also for her car payments as well because she was also late with those; but it was too late.

There was no way to catch up with so much back-up. She was running herself to insanity and in vain.

And so, around the end of September or perhaps October of 1983 Thia decided to get roommates and work hard on Real Estate to make enough money to take care of the mortgage and the car payment without losing her sanity.

So, she quit the barroom altogether and the part-time job at the fabric store to dedicate herself to Real Estate completely.

However, to Thia’s utter shock, when she came in that day to the Real Estate Company with all her eggs in that one basket, determined and resolved to make money, her Real Estate Manager called her to the office and Squoosh! every one of those freshly laid eggs.

Thia was told to hang it up for Real Estate was not productive for her or for them because of Thia’s emotional situation.

Thia was told that it was best that she would remove her license from the active list.

Such was the second and final stage to the cave in! Thia was shocked to numbness. Later on she confided,

“I have no recollection as to what I did at that immediate moment. But afterwards, for a little while, I refused to give up.

I purposed in my heart to run a good distance to make a lot of money, and from far away, rebuild my house, rebuild my life! …”

Thia decided to run to Vegas to make money in the casinos!

• “Oh! Almighty Yahuwah!” Thia was to confess much later in her life’s pilgrimage, “I can see now how I ran in a hoof of rebellion, determined to out will even Almighty Yahuwah Himself! The will to survive was driving me hard but I was totally blind and oblivious to that fact!”

And Almighty Yahuwah, in His infinite mercy and wisdom, just watched Thia run. About those times Thia says,

• “It seems like Almighty Yahuwah just stood there, just like I had seen Him in the visions of those three days in 1974, as a Mighty and Powerful Giant with His arms cross around His chest, and His feet planted firmly on the ground!”

In Thia’s vision of Almighty Yahuwah in 1974 Almighty Yahuwah stood up, just waiting for Thia to wear out and come to the end of Thia’s carnal affairs and willful ways.

The sad irony was that Thia’s conception of Almighty Yahuwah at the time of those visions, was a conception of power and power only, she never saw the tears of the loving Father through the prophet saying,

Quote:

• Do you still refuse to listen? Then in loneliness my breaking heart shall mourn because of your pride. My eyes will overflow with tears because Almighty Yahuwah’s flock shall be carried away as slaves. Jeremiah 13:17.(LBV)

Thia didn’t think about love at all. As far back as Thia could remember Thia had one thing in mind and that was power!

Mind and will power that is! Love didn’t enter into Thia’s mind unless, one deserved to be loved because of one’s excellent ways.

Well, as things developed just about that time, right before Thia took off for Vegas, Mr. Coo’s wife died and Thia was exhorted to go and give to Mr. Coo her condolences.

Mr. Coo was Thia’s former employer. (Coo is not his legal name but Coo he was called from childhood on up and everybody in the business called him Coo or Mr. Coo.)

Now, Mr. Coo has always been a well-liked and respectable senior citizen with a heart of gold. And, of course, everybody knew how ill his wife had been for the past year or so, and it was common knowledge how much Mr. Coo loved his wife, how devoted he was to her and how well he took care of her.

Thia, personally, admired Mr. Coo greatly for that reason, and Thia longed, in many occasions, to have a husband like him.

Nevertheless, it never occurred to Thia to make any advances to Mr. Coo. Besides, Mr. Coo was so preoccupied with his wife that, for a while, when Thia had started working at his place only a few months back, Mr. Coo did not even know that Thia was working for him.

For Thia was hired by one of Mr. Coo’s regular workers who didn’t feel like working for a while and who didn’t want to disturb Mr. Coo with her resignation.

Then, when Mr. Coo realized that Thia was working for him, he was outwardly spiteful to Thia.

Also, to top Mr. Coo’s spitefulness, Thia was only working for him for a pittance in comparison with what she needed to earn.

So, when Thia decided to attempt to make enough money to meet the mortgage payments, she went to work for somebody else.

In fact, at the time of his wife’s death, Thia was still working for one of Mr. Coo’s competitors and she had no intentions to go and offer any condolences to Mr. Coo at all.

But a common friend of Thia and Mr. Coo insisted that Thia should go, and Thia went. Because, at that time Thia was intoxicated most of the time, and Thia did things just to keep her from doing nothing.

Shortly after Mr. Coo’s wife was buried Thia had quit all her jobs, the one at Mr. Coo’s competitor and the one at the fabric store. And since she felt rejected by the Real Estate industry, she was on her way to Vegas—to the land of shattered fortunes and dreams.

But Thia was determined to make her own way. Yes, her car was packed and she was on her way to Vegas. Yet, I guess like a zombie she went to give her condolences to Mr. Coo, and she wound up giving a date to Mr. Coo.

Well, that date set her trip back for about a week or two for Mr.  Coo took a liking to Thia and felt sorry for her. And the day when Thia decided to take off, Mr. Coo begged her not to go, but she had made up her mind, and she took off anyhow. For she was determined to rebuild her own life without anybody’s help, most specially without the help from a man.

Even though she didn’t want his help, Mr. Coo offered it and he told her to call him during her trip and let him know how she was getting along.

On her way to Vegas she stopped to visit her first Bible teacher, Jean, whom she had known and trusted for several years. Jean tried desperately to stop Thia from going to Vegas, even reminding Thia what the Bible says about follies and such. But in this period of her life, almost a whole year during which period she have been intoxicated most of the time, it did not occur to Thia that Almighty Yahuwah was not with her.

As far as Thia was concerned Almighty Yahuwah was closer to her than He was to most regular Christians, and she felt justified following her own inclinations for she did not trust any Christian, except for Jean. In spite of Thia’s condition, Jean did not give up on Thia. She was unable to convince Thia about the trouble ahead, but she did not reject Thia, nor did she quit showing love and friendship for her.

Regardless of Jean’s objections Thia continued on her journey though. She stopped to call Mr. Coo in Houston, and after she talked to him, and learned that he really wanted her to come back, she felt somehow weak about continuing the trip. So, she went in the lounge of the hotel from where she had made the call to Mr. Coo and she had one drink.

She finished that one drink and with doubtful feelings she got in the car and started on her way again only to take the wrong route. On top of that the highway patrol stopped her because she was speeding and wobbling. They accused her of drinking and searched her car for the alcohol. She was not totally innocent, but, “My goodness!” she said, “I am not carrying alcohol in the car!” (not  this time anyhow).

Thia was horribly embarrassed for they took her in to take the alcohol test! Fortunately, she passed the test and did not go to jail. “Oh the beasts!” she thought to herself, “Why don’t they go to do some kind of useful work like defending the battered woman and the abused children instead of relishing their wicked selves and harassing poor souls like me!” For Thia was still ignorant of the Holy Scriptures. She did not know the Scriptures written by the apostle Peter under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit which say,

For Almighty Yahuwah’s sake, OBEY every law of your government: those of the king as head of the state, 14 and those of the king’s officers, for he has sent them to PUNISH ALL who do wrong, and to honor those who do right. I Peter 2:13,14. (LBV)

So, grumbling and complaining against the patrolmen she continued on with renewed determination and by night fall she arrived at what she thought to be Vegas, Nevada, her destination. But, to her utter consternation she had arrived at Vegas, New Mexico!

It was late at night when she arrived at Vegas, New Mexico, so, she found a place to park and slept in her car. The next day she took off again and finally made it to Vegas, Nevada. By this time she was scared, discouraged and flat broke. In her despair, she called Mr. Coo and asked him to lend her some money to come back  to New Orleans. Immediately, Mr. Coo wired the necessary money for Thia to come back.

Thia picked up the money at the Western Union station and then she decided to check in at a hotel to freshen up, catch up with some sleep. She figured that she could then start on the way back the following day.

But once she was settled in the hotel, she figured that as long as she was there, she might as well do what she came there to do anyhow, and that was, to look for a job in the casinos.

Thia figured she could investigate the job market, perhaps secure a job, go back to New Orleans and pack things up, and then come back to live in Vegas to make piles of money.

Almighty Yahuwah, in His infinite mercy, provided two young men who were staying at the hotel, for Thia to be escorted in the hunt for a job. That night they went from casino to casino. These young men wise Thia up on things to watch out for. “Prostitution is legal in this part of town and it is common for black pimps to solicit white woman.” They informed Thia. It was appalling to her, but she had re-determined to hunt for a job, so the hunt continued.

They found out that you have to join the union in order to work in most casinos. So, Thia decided to get all the information about the union and find out what would cost to join it. She figured she could do all of that early in the morning the very next day and start out to New Orleans in the afternoon. She filled up her car with gasoline. And they all returned to the hotel and retired to their respective rooms.

Early in the morning the next day she loaded her car. The young men drew her a map to hunt for the Union building. She gave them a ride to their work, and she started out on her way to the Union office. It was too early for any offices to be opened. She decided to go in one of the casinos to eat breakfast and wait for the offices to open.

On her way to the food counter she figured that there was no harm in playing $5.00 in the slot machine. “Perhaps I could win some money to pay Mr. Coo for the loan.” She thought as she stuck a quarter in one of the machines.

Automatically, she stuck another quarter. The machine fed her back a few quarters. She stuck those quarters back. The machine gave her a good win.

So, she began to stick one quarter after another, and another, and another, and another, and another, ‘till, there was not even one more quarter left.

That was some thirteen hours later after she had won and lost better than $1000.00 including every penny that Mr. Coo had kindly wired her for her return to New Orleans!

As Thia relates her story she says, “There was another lady next to me doing the same thing which I was doing. There was a continual pulling of that handle without ceasing.

“We never took a break. I never ate breakfast, or lunch, or supper. My hands were sore from all that pulling and black from the dirt in the handle.

“Never once did I think about the time, in fact I didn’t think of anything at all. I was fascinated with that machine. The ringing of all those quarters in every win was like a charm that hypnotized me into a compulsion that I had never experienced before.

“It was exhilarating, and exciting, and fun! I laughed, and laughed, and laughed so much that my stomach muscles were as sore as my hands.

“And when the last quarter was gone, I still laughed for I did not realized what I had done `till I stepped outside.

It was nighttime. The twinkling lights of every casino in that strip were twinkling with incredible mischievousness. The night was dark as a background for the myriad of twinkling mischievous little lights.

“And then, suddenly! The laugh died within me! The monstrous reality rose in front of me and I gasped in panic! In a brief moment the spectrum of 1974 flashed in front of me and I realized that what I saw back in 1974 in those days that I was out of my mind in a Terrazin trip was exactly what I was going through at that very moment.

“And, at that very instant, I realized also that the man that I saw in those visions, the man who I thought to be my husband at an older age, that man was not my husband at all. That man that I saw then was none other but Mr. Coo, my new friend.

“I was just about 2,000 miles away from home without a nickel in my pocket for I gambled even my last quarter and, I was completely alone! For I had betrayed every relationship in my life even to my new friend Mr. Coo.

“I stood there. For a brief moment I was simply petrified. And then, I began to walk. My feet were heavy, and my whole body felt like giving in under a heavy load. I made my way to the automobile. I unlocked the door got in and just sat there behind the steering wheel.

“My panic gave way to numbness. I was numb. I could not think about anything or feel any emotions. I just sat there. After a while, my reasoning power returned somehow and I thought, `Now, what to do? Perhaps a phone call if only I had a quarter!…

“It was then when I saw the change in my cup holder by the driver’s seat. I scooped it all up and counted it. All of a sudden, I perked up a bit for I had 98 cents! I was not completely broke, after all. `Miracle of miracles!’ I thought, `Almighty Yahuwah must still be with me. I can make it!’

“I started the car and began to drive away. But just before I got out of the parking lot there was a black man waving his hand. I thought that he was some kind of parking lot attendant or a valet or something like that. Therefore, I stopped.

“The man came over to my car, and I rolled down my window to find out what was the matter. The man bend over to my car window and said, `Are you going to your hotel, sugar?’

“Quickly I remembered how those two young men had warned me about black pimps, so, I rolled up my window and sped up my car. My heart began to beat fast, I remembered everything and forgot everything at the same time!

“It was a vivid recollection of how I felt in 1974 right before I woke up from that 3-day Terrazin trip in which I had embarked at the time they committed me to the mental ward when I had the mental breakdown.

“It was a vivid recollection of how I felt then when I ran to my Heavenly Father and said, `I don’t ever want to be separated from You again.’ And at that moment I became aware of what it was that I had run from scared stiff out of my bones in my visions of 1974.

“It was at that moment when I found out the awfulness which I couldn’t remember when I woke up from that awful Terrazin trip in 1974. It was such awfulness which I had given up even trying to think about any longer.

“I sped out of the parking lot and I drove like crazy. Then, gradually, I slowed down and began to regain some composure. I figured, `Late as it is I better find me a place where I can rest.’

“And as I tried to figure out where to go or where to stay I realized that I hardly had enough money to pay for a hotel, `Ninety eight cents!’ I sighed.

“Sleeping in the car was not new to me but now, I was scared out of my wits! I remembered the two young men at the hotel, but I was lost and had no idea how to get to the hotel.

“And from the depth of my being I uttered a prayer, `Oh Almighty Yahuwah, let me find that hotel! And let me remember what was the room number for those two young men. I have no other alternative but those two, Oh my Almighty Yahuwah!’

“As I uttered that prayer, I turned the corner and there, sticking right up above the other signs, was the sign for the hotel. I cried.

I drove in the hotel’s parking lot. I went straight to the young men’s room. I knocked on the door.

The young men were already asleep, but they woke up, and urged me to come in. `Don’t worry,’ they said. `It happens to most everybody that comes to Vegas in search of fortune. We are stuck, too, we had to hack our car and that’s why we are working to redeem it. But we have learned our lesson, as soon as we can redeem the car we are getting out of here. There is plenty work here, you are going to be alright.’

“`I believe so,’ I said, `but the first thing that I am going to do tomorrow is to go to that Church I saw in the Strip. I know that I must get to a Church before I do anything else.’

“They offered me a bed to sleep but I chose to sleep in my sleeping bag. Thank Almighty Yahuwah that I had a roof over my head I didn’t need a bed.

“The next day, after the farewells and good wishes, I made way to the Church of the Strip. Almighty Yahuwah truly is an Almighty Yahuwah of mercy.

`I need help.’ I said when I walked in. `I am a Christian and I have fallen, I am flat broke, I am from New Orleans, and I don’t know a soul in this town. I have not eaten in three days and I have lost all my money in the casinos.’

“Not too many more words were spoken. But, within five minutes, the young lady—the one who greeted me when I walked in— said,

`First things first. The first thing that we must do is to feed you and then we can clear our heads to figure out what to do.’

“She brought me to the restaurant across the street and fed me. Next, she told me to relax and have some quiet time with Almighty Yahuwah before we decided on what to do.

“`I could easily look for a temporary job to make money to go back to New Orleans.’ I said when the time came.

“`Could you call on friends? Perhaps you could raise the money through some friends. Do you have any friends that you could call on?’ She suggested. For she was not sure that I should stay there at all.

“`I have a lot of friends, but I have betrayed them all and I don’t think anybody would want to help me!’ I said in hopeless despair.

“`You would be surprised how friends can respond,’ she said, `use the phone and call. Do you recall any numbers?’

“`I need to call Mr. Coo,’ I said, `but there is no way that I am going to ask him for any more money, I’ll die first!’ I picked up the phone, and I dialed Mr. Coo’s number.

“`I am coming back towards the end of the week, I ran into some problems and I am staying a little longer.’ I said with a quick tone of voice to Mr. Coo.

“`What happened with the money I sent you? Never mind! Don’t tell me!’ He said like a wise old owl. Then after a pause he shouted at me, `I would like to send you some more money; but, I want you to get your butt right out of there now! not later. Do you have any money left to get out of there?’

“`For an answer I said `Just a minute, hold on for a minute. And I whispered to the young lady, `Where is the next big town on the way to New Orleans?’ Quickly, she consulted a map in the wall.

`Phoenix,’ she whispered back. `How far?’ I whispered again, trying to figure out how far my tank full of gas would carry me.

`About 300 miles,’ she whispered.

“And back on the phone I said to Mr. Coo, `Yeah, I can get out of here right now. I have a tank full of gas and I can get as far as Phoenix.’ But I was unaware that I was giving myself out.

“Almighty Yahuwah Almighty! A tank full of gas! You lost all the money,’ he said with resignation. Then he said, `As soon as you get to Phoenix, call me. Make sure that you get out of there right away, you understand me?’

“I hung up the phone and the young lady was already opening a cash box.  She handed me $27.00 and a box of Kleenex.  I said,

`Almighty Yahuwah bless you.’ And walked to my car. I sat behind the steering wheel once again but this time I wasn’t numb in my mind or emotions; but, once again I wanted to run and run fast like I did in my visions. I wanted to take refuge right into my Heavenly Father’s arms.

“I cried, and cried, and cried all the way from that spot in Vegas, Nevada, to New Orleans, Louisiana. If there ever was a time that I wished for wings this was that time.

“Only problem was that instead of running to my Heavenly Father I was running to Mr. Coo. For the Scriptures read,

‘So don’t be afraid, O Jacob my servant; don’t be dismayed, O Israel; for I will bring you home again from distant lands, and your children from their exile. They shall have rest and quiet in their own land, and no one shall make them afraid. For I am with you and I will save you, says Almighty Yahuwah. Even if I utterly destroy the nations where I scatter you, I WILL NOT EXTERMINATE YOU; I WILL PUNISH YOU, YES- YOU WILL  NOT GO UNPUNISHED. Jeremiah 30:10-11′ (LBV. My own capitalizing.)

“But I didn’t know the Scriptures. Anyhow by the time I arrived at New Orleans I had died a thousand deaths and I had made just as many resolutions.

“At one point in the road I got lost and wound up in a desert road. It was a rainy and dreary day and I had no idea of where I was or how to get out of there.

“I kept driving though I was scared out of my wits and with only the vultures for company. There was not a single soul driving on that dessert road for miles and miles.

“I cried to Almighty Yahuwah, I said, `Master, if I die over here, the vultures are going to get me before anybody can find me! Please Almighty Yahuwah, get me out of here! I’ll never go away from You again.’ And before I knew it, I was back in the main highway.

“It seems to me now, as I look back, that it rained almost all the way from Vegas to New Orleans. It was a dreadful and long ride, the kind that one never wants to take again.

“That trip was, truly, the heavenly whipping that got my attention and delivered me from Satan’s open territory. But I still did not learn my lesson.

“For I did not perceive the knowledge of Almighty Yahuwah, the knowledge of the corruption of the flesh, and the knowledge of the way of the cross by faith.

“Although I changed my direction, I still turned towards the wrong way. And instead of going to Church for help, I went to my psychiatrist. Instead of drawing nigh to Almighty Yahuwah’s world, I drew nigh to Mr. Coo’s world.

“I drew to Mr. Coo’s world which is the way of the moral and good world, the good life of the world. But still, the world.

“Therefore, my mind remained in the stronghold of the enemy for a couple more years. For the Scriptures says,

My people perish for lack of knowledge. My people are destroyed because they don’t know me, and it is all your fault, you priests, for you yourselves refuse to know me; therefore, I refuse to recognize you as my priests. Since you have forgotten my laws, I will “forget” to bless your children. Hosea 4:6(LBV).

“For a couple of years I lived a mixed life. For when I came back from Vegas I gave up the struggle to make a go of a life of financial success. I humbled myself and gave up all my pretensions. I turned in my car and my house. And I made up my mind to work and to live according to my means. I started to look for work other than barmaid’s work because whether good or bad or whether I or anybody approves or disapproves of it, in reality barmaid’s work and everything included to make a barroom business prosperous is against Almighty Yahuwah’s commandments period.

“I also started to look for an affordable place to live. But I was unable to find either work or a place to live. I could not find work for lack of self-esteem. And I could not find a place to live because of lack of work.

“I was like a “whipped dog” in the outskirts of Satan’s open territory, rather than a welcomed “prodigal child” in my Father’s house. I needed help and I realized that I could not make it alone. “And in ignorance on how to get help from Almighty Yahuwah I compromised all my Christian principles and I began to live a mixed life.

“To begin with I went to the Mental Health Center and turned myself in to receive assistance to acquire some skill to enable me to earn a living other than barmaid’s work. But since I needed money right away and I couldn’t find work I compromised and started to work at Mr. Coo’s barroom again.

“Of course, at the Mental Health Center I was diagnosed as disabled to work because of emotional problems and referred to the Rehabilitation Center for job training.

“But my emotional disability required much more than just job training. For I was far more disturbed that I, myself, had ever thought to be. And so, because of the severity of my emotional disability, when I was supposed to be learning a skill just to earn  my living, I actually wanted to accomplish many unrealistic goals based on mere dreams and illusions of grandeur, which dreams  were only a perversion of my true Almighty Yahuwah given gifts and abilities.

“And from the false and shallow ground of unrealistic dreams, I began to read all kinds of self-improvement literature to begin with the struggle and arduous task to improve myself. I even attempted to practice mind control.

“For I wanted to improve myself to supersede in whatever I did merely for the sake of my ultimate glory. Such was the thriving pride and vanity in my carnal self!

“Socially and morally my views were very liberal. As long as I was discreet, I felt that I could do whatever I wanted to do.

“Spiritually, I was reaching out to Almighty Yahuwah only for my own gain and comfort. Thus, I was living a mixed life. A life of compromise.

“It was a very shallow life. I was still in the grip of Satan. Only now I was deceived into a self-improved life. A life fairly enviable. A life of liberal morals.

“A life of respectability, yet, with the comfort of a lover-friend; but, without the responsibility of a husband. With all the fringe benefits of compromise; but, without the responsibility of commitment.

“I had the world in front of me just mine for the asking. And no one could understand why I was still so miserable and gloomy and unable to grab on to that world. Why I could not go along like everybody else and settle down.

“Settle down to be Mr. Coo’s lady friend and enjoyed it. Settle down to a productive life in a lucrative career. Settle down on the climbing ladder of materialistic success at any cost!

“`Why, why, why!’ I would wonder to my own self. And I cried and I searched. I did this and I did that. I would talk about this great hoped-for break through today Tomorrow? I would be talking about a greater one yet to be realized. For I was swimming in the great pond of secular humanism philosophy.

“I was living well in a mixed life of liberal morals and idealistic humanitarian principles. That was a period of my life from the Vegas return around the end of October and beginning of November of 1983 to the 13th day of October 1985 when I had the second breakdown. Appropriately the Scriptures read,

• “For your sin is an incurable bruise, a terrible wound. There is no one to help you or to bind up your wound and no medicine does any good. All your lovers have left you and don’t care anything about you anymore; for I have wounded you cruelly, as though I were your enemy; mercilessly, as though I were an implacable foe; for your sins are so many, your guilt is so great.” Jeremiah 30:12- 14(LBV.)
• Establishing and strengthening the souls and the hearts of the disciples, urging and warning and encouraging them to stand firm in the faith, and telling them that it is through MANY HARDSHIPS AND TRIBULATIONS WE MUST ENTER THE KINGDOM OF ALMIGHTY YAHUWAH. Acts 14:22 (LBV.)

“Yes, the wound in my flesh under the dictates of my carnal self was incurable because my flesh was not to profit anything to give life to my carnal self.

“For Almighty Yahuwah was not interested in making my flesh good under the dictates of my carnal self. Almighty Yahuwah’s sole and only interest was in making me realize that I was no good and to cause me to lift up my eyes to Him and see and receive Yahushua Messiah by faith.

“By faith means to trust in Almighty Yahuwah and His Word made flesh in Yahushua Messiah which is Almighty Yahuwah’s merciful provision to free us from our wicked carnal self.

“Almighty Yahuwah’s purpose was to convict me and bring me to accept the fact that He did the work of crucifixion or ending the life of my flesh on the cross in Yahushua Messiah. To that end I suffered the punishment so deserved because of my pride and stubborn UNBELIEF.

“That trip to Vegas was indeed the heavenly whipping that caught my attention. But it was not until the morning of the twentieth day of June in 1985 when Almighty Yahuwah touched me and began to break my stubborn ways to restore me into His kingdom. It was then when I began to receive and to hear, to perceive and to heed the voice of my Almighty Yahuwah.

“Nevertheless, this was so after much tribulation. For I did not go unpunished because of the greatness of my pride and stubbornness. And as it is written we must suffer the consequences of our sins. But my true deliverance was on the way, for so it was written.

“But I did not know what was written and during the first two weeks of October of 1985 I began to suffer the destruction and loss which I had to suffer. But it is written,

• But in that coming day, all who are destroying you shall be destroyed, and all your enemies shall be slaves. Those who rob you shall be robbed; and those attacking you shall be attacked. I will give you back your health again and heal your wounds. Now you are called “The Outcast” and “Jerusalem, the Place Nobody Wants” But, says Almighty Yahuwah, when I bring you home again from your captivity and restore your fortunes, Jerusalem will be rebuilt upon her ruins; the palace will be reconstructed as it was before. The cities will be filled with joy and great thanksgiving, and I will multiply my people and make of them a great and honored nation. Jeremiah 30:16-19 (LBV.)

“I was to suffer a child of Almighty Yahuwah’s agony in the grip of Satan. That suffering was to be the beginning of my end and it began on October 13, 1985 when I lost my mind for the second time. But also, I was to experience the love of a loving Father that never leaves us nor forsakes us. The Abba Father.

“I was to suffer in the grip of Satan. I was to experience the love of Almighty Yahuwah because with my mind I gave up my job and everything else which I thought could hinder me in my walk with Almighty Yahuwah.

“But Almighty Yahuwah was not calling me to leave my job and everything else which I thought could hinder me in my walk with Him. Such was not the will of Almighty Yahuwah for me. Almighty Yahuwah was calling me to rest in Him. But it took a whole year before I would turn around and hear my Father calling me into His rest. A whole year before I would begin to learn what it meant to rest and rely on Almighty Yahuwah alone.

“A whole year to abandon my wicked and self-righteous ways and put my whole confidence and trust in Almighty Yahuwah and His plan of salvation for me and for the whole world, through Yahushua Messiah Almighty Yahuwah’s only-begotten Son.” End of Chapter 3  quote.

Restoration for Israel and Judah

Jeremiah 30:1-19

THE WORD that came to Jeremiah from the Master:

Thus says the Master, the Mighty One of Israel: Write all the words that I have spoken to you in a book.

For, note well, the days are coming, says the Master, when I will release from captivity My people Israel and Judah, says the Master, and I will cause them to return to the land that I gave to their fathers, and they will possess it.

And these are the words the Master spoke concerning Israel and Judah:

Thus, says the Master: We have heard a voice of trembling and panic–of terror, and not peace.

Ask now and see whether a man can give birth to a child? Why then do I see every man with his hands on his loins like a woman in labor? Why are all faces turned pale?

Alas! for that day will be great, so that none will be like it; it will be the time of Jacob’s [unequaled] trouble, but he will be saved out of it. [Mat 24:29-30; Rev 7:14]

For it will come to pass in that day, says the Master of hosts, that I will break [the oppressor’s] yoke from your neck, and I will burst your bonds; and strangers will no more make slaves of [the people of Israel].

But they will serve the Master their Mighty One and David’s [descendant] their King, Whom I will raise up for them. [Jer 23:5]

Therefore, fear not, O My servant Jacob, says the Master, nor be dismayed or cast down, O Israel; for behold, I will save you out of a distant land [of exile] and your posterity from the land of their captivity. Jacob will return and will be quiet and at ease, and none will make him afraid or cause him to be terrorized and to tremble.

For I am with you, says the Master, to save you; for I will make a full and complete end of all the nations to which I have scattered you, but I will not make a full and complete end of you. But I will correct you in measure and with judgment and will in no sense hold you guiltless or leave you unpunished.

For thus says the Master: Your hurt is incurable, and your wound is grievous.

There is none to plead your cause; for [the pressing together of] your wound you have no healing [device], no binding plaster.

All your lovers (allies) have forgotten you; they neither seek, inquire of, or require you. For I have hurt you with the wound of an enemy, with the chastisement of a cruel and merciless foe, because of the greatness of your perversity and guilt, because your sins are glaring and innumerable.

Why do you cry out because of your hurt [the natural result of your sins]? Your pain is deadly (incurable). Because of the greatness of your perversity and guilt, because your sins are glaring and innumerable, I have done these things to you.

Therefore, all who devour you will be devoured; and all your adversaries, every one of them, will go into captivity. And they who despoil you will become a spoil, and all who prey upon you will I give for a prey.

For I will restore health to you, and I will heal your wounds, says the Master, because they have called you an outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no one seeks after and for whom no one cares!

Thus says the Master: Behold, I will release from captivity the tents of Jacob and have mercy on his dwelling places; the city will be rebuilt on its own [old] mound like site, and the palace will be dwelt in after its former fashion.

Out of them [city and palace] will come songs of thanksgiving and the voices of those who make merry. And I will multiply them, and they will not be few; I will also glorify them, and they will not be small. End of quote.

O Mighty One! You? Your Ways? Do Not Fit In The Human Mind. …

Saturday, February 1, 2020 at 3:45 am.

Therefore, the human has invented so many theories that stagers the human mind. The results?

• Confusion.
• Division.
• Emotionalism.
• Hate.
• Human’s concept of a volatile love.
• All futility; striving after the wind of an elusive happiness is the lot of mankind. BUT!

The Power Of Your Love, Unfathomable Wisdom, And Faithfulness? Beyond Conception …?

Even so? On this 2020 year? You are rolling out Your doings in the lives of many witnesses of Your existence and Your doings in their lives. Your purpose for such exposure?

To Enlighten Your People To Prepare Spiritually As Well As Physically …

Prepare? For what? You are returning but! Before Your return there shall be the greatest tribulation ever known to mankind.

• It is for this tribulation that we are to prepare spiritually as well as physically otherwise, no human shall survive.
• Short and simple.

The Way You Are Fulfilling Your Promises To Me? Beyond My Conception …?

Saturday, February 1, 2020 at 11:50 am.

Master? I do not know any longer how to offer a worthy prayer, but! Your Spirit within me yearns for You to touch Your people’s heart on this 2020 with this realization.

• For You promise supper abundance of blessings, but You reserve the time and the kind of blessings for Yourself.
• Even so? We ignore such fact, and? We proceed to avail us of Your promised blessings.
• That’s what I am just realizing since my last bout with pain and the rigid cold weather.
• I brought it all to You, nowadays? That’s what I do.
• I drenched my pillow with tears because instead of blessings as I interpret them to be, I felt curses instead of blessings day after day.
• I could not understand, I still don’t, the extreme way You deal to Your servants, even to Your own Son, but!

You Blessed Me In A Way That I Just Had Not Seeing Before …?

You know that I have not missed acknowledging Your blessings, but! No sooner the least difficulty comes my way, I return to complaining grounds. The vicious circle I could no longer stand, so?

You Brought Me Back To My Beginnings …

Saturday, February 1, 2020 at 1:19 pm.

You brought me back to my beginnings on the last day of the first moth of the 2020 year. What transpired as I progressed editing Chapter 3 of my autobiography? (Still working on it.)

Master! I Simply Cannot Come Close To Describe It. Nothing That Ever Happen Before …

Saturday, February 1, 2020 at 11:45 pm.

O my Master! it’s the end of this first 7^th day of rest in 2020. What a blessed day! I rested underneath Your everlasting arms the whole afternoon until 9 pm.

1. I woke up sort of hazy not knowing the time. I put on my glasses. I saw the time. I noticed important emails in my inbox. I clicked, and!
2. Wow! The money I was supposed to get on Monday is here today!
3. Email from Roxana inviting to chat.
4. Strange email from Denise announcing her upping her money gift to me.
5. The Internet is working.
6. Wow!

No Need To Describe What Is Transpiring From Your Instructions To Lead My Way …

You alone shall demonstrate the transpiration of all Your doings in my life. No need to figure thins out any longer.

• So far? All my figuring’s have been off track.
• Your doings are unfathomable.
• The human mind cannot figure You out, but!
• We try. Insidiously we try to figure out not only You but also everything under and above the sun.
• What is happening now in 2020?

Enlightenment. You Are Giving Us Spiritual And Intellectual Insight Individually …?

Sunday, February 2, 2020 at 4:23 pm.

No need for any of us to figure things out. No need to live as per our figuring’s. Only need? Your Presence in the actuality of our daily living.

How Simple It All Becomes When You Are Present In Our Actual Living …

Sunday, February 2, 2020 at 9:09 pm.

Of course, we humans are masters at complicating things with our own figuring’s. Even so? You are at work to deliver each one of us from our own figuring’s.

Summary Of Your Doings Yesterday To Illustrate The Matter …

Denise sent me some extra money to help with my expenses. I responded to her. Quote:

Excerpt of email.

Child of mine! My blessings leave me DUMBFOUND! LOL. On the 30-31st I had it out with Father. Why? Here is the details. Strange? Yes, I wanted to share these things with you, but! I did not want to make you think that I was pushing you. Besides? I no longer do whatever. I am just letting things happen.

So? what happened? After I had it out with Father, let me quote the beginning of what happened and continues to happen. I copy/paste the entries. Here is an excerpt of those entries:

• You will now have me to quote chapter 3 from that autobiography to illustrate how my rebellion continued from my birth to that memorable day when You called me into account on June 20, 1985.
• This is a long chapter. I need to edit it. Then, I will break it into pages for easy reading. Quote:

That was the beginning of His response. Yesterday? I slept away the whole afternoon. When I woke at 9 pm? I was fuzzy didn’t know the time, so, I put on my glasses. Check the time. my inbox was glaring important emails. I clicked! Wow!

1. Your strange email.
2. Joyce sent me the number to pick my money at western union. My check was not supposed to come until Monday, but it came yesterday.
3. Roxana inviting me for a chat, and?
4. The NET that has not been working now working. WHAT?

Baby, NOTHING! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING is what I or anyone else figures it to be! I am totally blown away with my new gifted freedom from my own figuring and conclusions. the best part?

This is not an emotional state. It’s something I have no words to describe. A permanent state of security and peace and love to last me for eternity!

Hope you read all of this. No matter. Whether you do or don’t no longer disturbs this amazing state and condition of my being.

l love you with an intensity never experienced before. lov mom:-).

Hahaha! Your mom? Thinking already: ‘what can I do with that extra moolash? Oops! I hear, loud and clear! “Let go! Be still! I am at work!”

So? Quit thinking. Going on with the cleaning I haven’t done for weeks. It’ll be sunny today out there and in here? Sunny in my heart!

Blessings! Lov mom

It’s All So Real Now More Than Ever Before …

Monday, February 3, 2020 at 6:36 am.

You put me to sleep from midnight to 6 am. A prayer on waking up: ‘Take my eyes off myself. Placed them on You. Let me not look at pain and discomfort. Let me be attentive to Your voice always unto eternity’

Your Answer While I Yet My Cry Goes Up To You …?

Sure enough. I get up. Do my business. Not knowing what to drink to relieve the unusual pain in my head, it came to me to fix a ginger tea.

• Well? Ginger tea? That don’t seem to be a good idea, but! Ginger tea it is at the sound of Your voice.
• Next? The graphic I am working on is missing something, don’t know what?
• Ha! it came to me to overlay it with the words, HIS LOVE’S POWER! In huge print on the background I am using now.
• Next? The minute I began to record the door opens. In comes my little friend with the bananas he was supposed to bring last night.
• “No jacuzzi for you! Hahaha!”
• What a way to start my day!
• Sipping the delicious tea You prescribed for me I’m on my way to start this new day!
• This new day for me ended with a visit for my estranged friend, Yazeed.
• At 10:22 pm I started to bed, but! I couldn’t get away from working on the graphic.
• Worked until 1:30am today.

Today? One More Day Of Expectant Wonder …?

Tuesday, February 4, 2020 at 6:14 am.

O my Master! it really is a wonder to expect from You. In my heart there rings a melody of Your intense and passionate love for us all! Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Master? All I Hear Is The Blessings In 2020, But! …

Tuesday, February 4, 2020 at 2:56 pm.

I do not hear anyone talking about the reason for the blessings. I am now hearing, ‘Why should you be stricken and punished any more [since it brings no correction]? You will revolt more and more.’

For What I Read Here And There, People Are Talking About Blessings In 2020 In A Mixed Way.

• Mixed way? Yes, they mention ‘God’ and faith, but they exalt the over comer heroes that have turned failure into success by their human efforts, and? They proclaim the blessings. They do not exalt You.
• Am I doing the same thing?
• Is there still any wicked way in me?
• Search me, my Master!

6:25 pm to 9 pm 9:50 pm to 3 am.

On Waking Up I Got The Title For This Post And More …?

Wednesday, February 5, 2020 at 3:24 am.

O my Master! Your response to search my heart? You have so done. You have so continue to do. Funny thing; first You tell me to write down all evil going on for all to see. Now? You are turning the tables on me.

• What evil goes on within my heart?

You Are Human. All Evil Going On In The Human’s Heart Is Going On Within Your Heart …

Wednesday, February 5, 2020 at 4:11 am.

Oops! And I was so smug writing and thinking that as I look around the blessings of 2020 are proclaiming but! The great tribulation. Not a mention of it much less preparing for it.

• So? I got the tiles for this post:
• The Great Tribulation? Don’t Despair! Don’t Despair! But? …
• Prepare! Prepare For What? Prepare To Be Spared.
• All I Hear At Every Turn Is The Blessings Pouring On Us In 2020 …?

All I Hear At Every Turn Is The Blessings Pouring On Us In 2020 …?

Ha! what about me? Isn’t it what I am doing? O my Master! You are so real in my life. Just like I did with my children You do to me. I wouldn’t let them get away with anything; neither do You with me.

Master? I Haven’t Got A Clue As To What Is Coming Next, But! …

Wednesday, February 5, 2020 at 9:08 am.

You have done the work in me for keeps this time. I don’t need a clue on next. I must live on present. So? when my mind attempts to get a clue on what comes next? Automatically I reject the attempt. Automatically I go on with the present.

Miracle? Yes It Is. All My Life I Have Heard, ‘Forget The Past! Go On With The Present To No Avail! So? …

I lived a frustrated miserable life unable to do what I could not do. Here lately? My past drove me almost back to the loony kooky bench, but!

Miraculous Victory! On The Last Day Of The First Moth Of The 2020 Year …?

O my Master! My sordid past troubles me no more! That’s the reality You enlightened to me on Saturday, February 1, 2020 at 3:45 am of my first 7^th Day of Rest in this 2^nd month of 2020, as I find myself resting in You.

O Me! What A Jolly Time It Now Is. Let Me Put It Like This …?

Great victory? A miracle? Indeed! That’s the fact to be exact. Now what? One would thin to enjoy the ride at that. Really?

• Enjoying? By all means! But nothing like I had in mind joy to be. That’s for sure. This kind of joy I am experiencing is beyond any emotional explanation.
• But it is something that will attract many souls like a magnet because of its nature.
• As it is for me, shall be for thee, dear reader, Latest words?
• “Wait. Relax. No matter what you see, feel, and think, I am harmonizing all the inharmonious circumstances of your life.
• Let me now go on with the posting of this most timely matter. I am ending this post with the beginning of it. Why?
• The great tribulation is coming, but it is not the will of our Creator that any should perish. Therefore? This post is one step up towards the Creator’s will to be accomplished.
• BTW It’s coming to me to format all these pages into a PDF download.
• I’ll see where the Spirit leads me. Perhaps work on a series.
• Whatever book I’m led to format I’ll publish it in the True Life Books page. Need to update that page anyhow.
• Meantime?

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.