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Strange Followers Of The Sites. Are They Following You? I Sure Hope So …

I Feel Strange Myself. Unusual, Peculiar Is The Way I Am Feeling More So Every Single Day …

Who Cares How I Feel? You Do My Master, And? …

Your Concern With Me Is All That Counts, But!

You Compel Me To Share Such Concern …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

Your concern with me is all that counts, but! You compel me to share such concern. Should I brag or feel smug because You care for me? Nay! Your care for me is not private or exclusive.

It Was Past Midnight. Silence All Around …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 12:43 am.

Master? What to do? Strange followers of the sites. Are they following You? I sure hope so. Perhaps I’ll try to sleep even that I do not feel sleepy. I feel strange myself.

O My Master, You Know How Strange I Feel …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 4:00 am.

Out of the ordinary, difficult to account for; unusual or peculiar is the way I am feeling more so every single day. I simply no longer fit in the society of mankind.

A Reminder Of What You Inspired Me To Write Before …

You have a reason for bringing this matter to light again. It’s quite fitting to the reason for the way I am feeling. Here it is:

Believe me! Mathew 10 is the reality of my life: “Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved from spiritual disease and death in the world to come.”
Of course, in the natural my children & brothers & sisters all would tell me, “Who is trying to kill you? We love you but you have chosen a different life than ours!” And on they go to live their lives with as much gusto as ever before defying the Creator Himself!
For the fact is that they love old thiaBasilia but do not respect or recognize at all what I stand for and I am hated by all for the sake of standing in Yahushua’s name just like it’s written!
As the flash of the happy life of my children and most inhabitants of this earth—the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices in the society of mankind, all I can do is to bow my head and plead for mercy! Why?
Because all the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices of this world have no eternal value.
On the contrary, those who laugh now shall cry later as it is written. But mainly the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices in the society of mankind are mostly to please the flesh.
The joy and peace and well-being of the soul flourish in the waters of affliction. But that is not talking about self-pity or self-abasement in a false state of humility.
On the contrary the waters of affliction tempers & strengthens the character to overcome and gain the victory over all the miseries as well as all the seemingly good & beautiful conditions that this world can deal to us to destroy our witness for Yahushua.
The famous Sermon of the Mountains in Matthew 5-7 is a confirmation for my statement.

Reminders Of Your Written Words? The How You Sustain And Keep Me Going Upwards To Rest In You. Quote …

Matthew 10:21, 22.

Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death.

And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved from spiritual disease and death in the world to come.

2 Thessalonians 2:3

Let no one deceive or beguile you in any way, for that day will not come except the apostasy comes first, unless the predicted great falling away of those who have professed to be Christians has come, and the man of lawlessness (sin) is revealed, who is the son of doom (of perdition), [Dan 7:25; Dan 8:25; 1Ti 4:1]

Matthew 7:21-23.

Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father Who is in heaven.

Many will say to Me on that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name and driven out demons in Your name and done many mighty works in Your name?

And then I will say to them openly (publicly), I never knew you; depart from Me, you who act wickedly [disregarding My commands]. [Psa 6:8]

(4:46 am. Thundering again at 7:19 am. Will turn off. On again at 9:09 am. It’s supposed to be a sunny day. Thanks, my Master for good weather or even what I would call bad weather.)

Following Him May Mean We Lose Relationships, Dreams, Material Things, Or Even Our Lives With No Regrets …

Master? I continue to be amazed at Your REALITY in my life. The good part? This issue is not private or exclusive for me. I hear, “I could never endure what you are going through!” Yippee! Light!

Your Light Shone. I Said, “But You Are Enduring What You Are Supposed To Endure.” …

Wow! How long I felt sort of hopeless when I would read the horrors Your ancient workers endured? What a revelation! How encouraging! We are all enduring! You never give us any more than what we can take!

A Post From The Past. It Covers More Than One Issue, But!

It all connects with the present. It’s a crucial but lengthy essay, so? The format in PDF for your convenience. Read On: Strange Followers Of The Sites

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do Again …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 1:58 am.

Whether to go to bed and try to sleep or continue working on the site’s cleanup or end the post You are leading me to publish, what? Guess I’ll go to bed. I’ll wait to hear from You.

Thanks, My Master! Sleep Can Do Wonders Sometimes …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 6:13 am.

I’m ready now to start this 7^th Day of Rest in Your Presence. You are leading me to close the post with the formatted PDF version. I will work now on the cover and format.

And So? That’s My Life Nowadays. Glamour? NAY! But!

O my Master! What is glamour compared to the reality of Your matchless, unbroken companionship? No comparison. Not a smidgen of regret for the lack human’s ways in my life.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Why My Thirty Some Years Testimonial Journal …

October 17, 2019

Ha! The Matter It’s Just Now In 2019 Revealed To Me To Pass On To You …

Well? I Had A Full Day Gone By. Another Day Now …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 12:44 am.

And a Monday at that. Ahmad’s visit? Meaningful at best. Things are in the looking up between us again. He left. I finished with the posting.

Meanwhile? Midnight Came And Went Along With All My Fears …

Ready now to hit the bed again. Thanks, my Master for the few more hours of sleep. This is another day in the up and up despite of whatever comes my way.

Fearless? A Supernatural State Meant To Be, But! …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 3:40 am.

Indeed! Supernatural fear is the beginning of all wisdom. Natural fear? The hindrance to such wisdom. Ha! I never thought about that! Didn’t quite understood all those ‘fear’ and ‘fear not’ until this moment.

Naturally Fearless I Tried Every And All Things …?

I simply did not know what fear was. Perhaps impulsive nature is the fitting word. No idea of what it was to pause or think before I acted.

My Medical Label? Bipolar. Manic Depressive. Schizophrenia …

Man O man! And all the time? O my Master! I was supernaturally gifted big time; it was Your secret to me. Why? Obviously, should You not kept Your secret? No telling the heights I would have ascended to dethrone You.

Wow! You Cut The Wings Of This Eagle! You Kept Me In The Chicken Pen …

Hahaha! I was born an eagle, but! You cut my wings to keep me in the chicken pen to teach me the life of the chickens was not to be my life.

Amazing moment …?

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 5:19 am.

Master? You are simply AWESOME! The way You are unraveling my life? It’s just a wonder to me. I woke up in pain almost two hours ago this morning. Had no clue on what to do. Suddenly!

My Truncated Attempts To Ascend The Ladder Of Success Pops Into My Mind, And?

You opened my eyes to see clearly Your loving hand underlying all those truncated attempts of mine with the story of the eagle in the chicken pen.

Wow! I Been Quoting From This Story For The Longest But! …

This day? The story popped up with the spiritual connection to it. I don’t remember reading the version that popped as I searched for it in my files. Even so?

I’m Beginning To Think You Inserted That Version Supernaturally In My Files …

Honestly. I been knowing the story to the point of the eagle flying up to meet its kind. The added amazing spiritual significance of the story? First time You set my eyes on it.

Wow! Talking About Another Day In The Up And Up Despite Of Whatever Comes My Way …?

This is that day! This is that moment of eternal time in my life. This is Yourself revealing, showing, making Yourself real to me. Quote:

John 14:20-21

At that time when that day comes you will know for yourselves that I am in My Father, and you are in Me, and I am in you.

The person who has My commands and keeps them is the one who really loves Me; and whoever really loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I too, will love him and will show, reveal, manifest Myself to him. I will let Myself be clearly seen by him and make Myself real to him.

O My Master! The Effect Of Your Power Of Love And Wisdom Is A Sheer Bliss! No Kidding …

Beauty, delight, hope joy happiness and renewal in the present earth as it is as well as in the future restored one. Nothing like I ever imagined to be. Unimaginable but real!

Quote of this supernatural version in my files. Don’t know who wrote it or how it is in my files. Wow! That’s Your supernatural ways if I ever thought about it before. Quote:

The story was about a farmer who stumbled upon an eagle’s nest with an egg in it. Not wanting the little eagle to die he took it home with him and places it under one of his chickens that was setting eggs.

But right from day one the little eagle didn’t fit into the barnyard scene even though that was all he had ever known.

All he was sure of was somewhere deep inside something was telling him, “This isn’t home”. The farmer kept his wings clipped in hopes he would become a pet so unable to fly he set it on a post in the barnyard looking up into the sky.

His body confined to the earth his heart in the heavens. He didn’t know why nor he could understand his feelings, but he knew there that something deep within him that wanted to be free.

As time went by the farmer forgot to clip the eagle’s wings and one-day as the eagle set on his post looking upward a great gust of wind caught him under his wings and he was lifted from his perch.

With a scream of victory and freedom he left the barnyard seen forever and soared into the heavens to meet his own kind.

Isa.40: 31, I loved this story and saw how it related to all we have experienced and are experiencing in our walk with the Lord. Eagles here are symbolic of certain Christians. The “mount up” process is important and necessary for those who are called to go higher, Philp.3:14. To those who are willing to wait in His presence, Ps.27:14; Ps.37:34; Ps.62:5; Rom.8:25.

Not everyone who enjoys God’s blessings, grace will want to destroy the idols of this world that have been set in the temple of their hearts. Nor will they want to pay the price to soar with the Father. Only those who know they have been called to a higher calling will want to consider this.

Chickens are earthbound, they keep their eyes on the things of this world, Jam.4:4; 1Jh.2:15-16. They scratch out an existence and never lift their heads to look any higher then where they are.

They scratch in the dirt, eat whatever is thrown to them and search greedily in their crowed barnyards for more to fill their bellies, much of it unclean. By nature chickens are an unclean bird, they are bound to their existence and are satisfied with it.

But not the eagle, he has an inherited nature that will not survive confinement. To fulfill his purpose in life he must be free to soar the heavens. It may look lonely up there because not many will dare to rise to such heights. But the eagle doesn’t care; it’s not in his nature to need the approval of the majority. Deut.32:11;

Its time for these “willing eagles” to soar and our “Mother”, the Holy Spirit, is the one who will make our nest very uncomfortable. Just like the mother eagle that tears up the soft bed of her little one and breaks the twigs so that the jagged ends stick him. In short his life becomes miserable in the place he was once comfortable and safe.

Are “Heavenly Parents”, do much the same things in our lives in order to get us to do what is best for us, thus fulfilling our purpose for being here or should I say, fulfilling the will and purpose of our Father. 1Cor.13:11; Gal.4:1-2; Heb.5:12-6:2;

Has your place in the Father, the place that once met the needs in your life now seem rough, tight or uncomfortable?

Don’t worry; your Father is just getting you ready to be pushed off a cliff and into new heights.

Are the jagged edges of that which was once such a comfort to you now starting to prick you?

Maybe you have even asked if you were in the Fathers will. Well, wonder no more, accept it in faith, because a great work is about to come forth in your life and it’s not the Father’s wrath it’s His love and wisdom, making you willing to take the next big step, off that cliff.

By nature we love security so God has to make us sick of our “nest”, so that we will willingly let Him take us on our spiritual journey.

Unfortunately some do not want to leave the nest. When the little eagle rebels the mother eagle starts to beat her wings and the wings that once protected him from danger have now become his enemy.

To escape this danger the little eagle climbs onto her back and now wherever she goes, he will go. He holds on for dear life as his mother soars higher and higher when suddenly without warning she dives out from under him.

He screams and falls; instinctively his wings stretch out to try to catch the air but try as he must he feels like all hope is gone, then out of no where mother eagle swoops under him and carries him up on her wings. Ps.139:10; Josh1:5.;

But just as the little eagle feels safe once more the bottom falls out from under him and the process starts all over again, until he finely learns to soar.

Sometimes the flutter of our Fathers wings makes us think He is going to beat us to death but the bible says if we do not receive correction we are not His sons, Heb.12:5-8.

When we are willing He takes us to great heights. Then sometimes when everything seems wonderful the bottom suddenly drops out from under us again and we wonder Father where are you? But just who do you think that is holding you up and restoring your strength?

Only to find out this process may start all over again as we grow, until we come into that fullness He has prepared for us, the place where we learn to soar in the Father. Eph.4:13-16

When a baby eagle flat refuses to learn after all of his mother’s attempts to teach him she takes him high into the heavens and lets him fall to his death as she screeches in pain, knowing he must either fly or die on the rocks below.

In the kingdom there are those who flat refuse to grow, Jer.10:2; Matt.11:29-30. They resent the furnace of affliction and its purifying fire, Isa.48:10; Pro.17:3; Heb.12:29, they love the safety of the nest but hate the discipline.

But God is always patient, 1Cor.13:4-8; Jam.5:7; 2Thes.3:5, and long-suffering. He works with them, giving them chance after chance. Until He finely let’s them fall to the rocks of religion, worldly desires, or home to save their souls, Isa.57:1-2.

If Jesus had to learn through what He suffered then so will all of us, Heb.5:8. We have seen some of these great ministries come in, soar and then crash.

This does not lessen the true revelations they received or the gifts they walked in. But the word says Lk.9:62, it would have been better for them if they had stayed with the chickens in the safety of the barnyard.

God’s tests are carefully designed to show us what is in our hearts and to bring our rebellion to the surface to be dealt with. Heb.4:12; Jer.17:9-10;.

God’s chosen are coming through these fires. I loved what Isaiah said when he saw his heart, Isa.6:5. End of quote.

Wow! Now Is The Time For The Material To Decrease. For The Spiritual To Increase …?

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 8:43 am.

Master? My heart is heavy. Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance? It’s a heavy subject. Even so? You are carrying the weight for me. Don’t let me ever forget it. Don’t let me ever think that I am anything on my own.

I Am Going On Propelled By Your Power Of Love And Wisdom …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 3:15 pm.

Master? I can’t overcome this heaviness in my soul because the statement I read, something like, “I am love. When I enter a room? Love covers that room.”

I Fear The Repercussions From Such Statement …

I am? Mercy my Father. Only You are. In essence to state “I am love” we are setting ourselves in Your Place. We are usurping Your Authority.

Have Mercy. O My Master! I Refuse To Doubt You …

The fear of rejection is driving Your children to this insane attempt to take Your place, and? You knew it all along. Yet You promised to bring us back. I wait on Your mercy.

New Life Really Began On 2017, But!

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 11:28 pm.

Three years later I find myself heavy with the realization that things at large are quite frightening. This 2019? The year of my Jubilee! My 80^th birthday marks that beginning as my eternal reality. Even so?

O My Master? You Know Exactly The Solution To My Heaviness …

Every inch of my body hurts, but? I am not disturbed about it because I know You are in control of it all. Been sleeping hoping for relief to no avail. I hear thunder. Computer off. 11:53 pm.

Where Was I, My Father? I’m Feeling Better …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 2:09 am.

What’s the meaning of this fly literally attacking me? How can a fly be so distracting? Thankfully You gave it to me. It’s dead. Anyhow?

You Have A Reason For Bringing Up This File From 2017 …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 3:25 am.

It was written in January of 2017. Your reason? A reminder of how my new life is developing under Your careful plan. Amazing work within me in less than two years.

Comes January 2020? Will Begin My 3^rd Year Living A New Life …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 4:39 am

Thunder! Computer off!

Back! The Storm Subsided Around 6 Am. But! …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 10:23 am.

I been updating the header for the main site. I don’t know exactly what to do? Reformat the newfound file or work in the Promised Land book. I am now sleepy. I wait of Your lead.

Master? My Arm Is Getting Worse Instead Of Better …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 3:21 pm.

You are the only One I wish to help me. Unless You heal me, I refuse to seek for help from the human element. Why? Because the human element does not know my body. Maybe sleep could help.

Yes! Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! The End? Saved! Restored! But!

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 7:00 pm. – 9:34 pm.

I Must Count The Cost. The Cost Is High. Nothing Is Free …?

Everywhere one turns around nowadays one gets the big sign pushed, FREE! Me? I been a sucker for free stuff ever since I got wind of the Internet.

Well? All That Is In A Past I Now See Objectively …

Yeah, my books are free for lack of a better word: Valuable. The thing is that nowadays the name of the game is ‘Marketing!’ everything is about buy and sell.

My eyes are closing. Sleep 10:07 pm. Woke up around midnight. Couldn’t stay up. Back to bed slept until around 1:30 am. My life’s pattern of sleep anyhow.

Thinking On The Counting The Cost Issue …

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 2:24 am.

What is the connection between free and counting the cost? What does it mean to count the cost? To count the cost means to count what is the cost of whatever given for free or without money payment, but!

O My Master! You Are Opening My Eyes To See That Nothing Is Really Free …?

Even our salvation is by no means a freebie. In fact? Our salvation has the highest price tag in this world despite all the fanfare about grace and unconditional love.

The Unbiased Truth: What Is Our Salvation Cost? Our Present Worldly Lifestyle …?

Honestly? I never realized this matter before. Even so? This matter is not news. I have heard it before. The only confusing matter to me is that many of the ones preaching the matter to me in the past do not live it themselves now.

Even So? Despite What I See You Have The Perfect Number Who Are Living It And?…

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 9:49 am.

You have blessed me with their testimony. Those are the instruments You have used to bring me to where I am now. Like them? I have not bowed my knees to kiss the glory of a worldly life.

A Worldly Life? Not Necessarily A Sinful Life …?

That’s what has made it so confusing until now that You are revealing these matters to me. It’s been devastating for me to see the ones that once quietly and humbly helped me are now in the lime-light and no longer have any time for me.

Ha! The Matter Is Clear Now. It’s No Longer Confusing To Me, Why? …

O my Master! Because You are now unraveling these matters to me. Every single incident in the human’s life happens to fulfill the Scriptures.

The Rejection In Mathew 10. The Great Fallen Away In 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7? …

Must Be Fulfilled. Even so? There is hope. O my Master! You are now revealing to me, it’s all written for examples for us now to avoid the final judgement.

Wow! What A Revelation! It Dispelled All My Fears’ Spell …?

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 3:20 pm.

O my Master! Moment by moment You make Yourself real to me. It came to me to illustrate how You have dispelled all my fears, so? Been looking for words You inspired to me before on the matter to no avail.

Frustrating! On Top Of That? Ahmad Not Answering My Calls …?

As usual? I gave up. I went to bed to try to sleep. I called on You. Sure enough. Within minutes my phone rang. Ahmad on the line.

“My father is seriously ill. My brothers and me been with him. He does not want to go to the hospital. The wife taking care of him, no time to cook.”
Me? “No problem Ahmad! I understand. I’m OK. Don’t worry about me. Take care of your father.”

All Fears And Frustrations? Gone! Then? …

It came to me where to look for the words I been looking for to no avail. I got up. Turned the computer on. Went straight where it came to me to look.

Wow! You Are Faithful To Your Promise To Reveal Yourself To Me …

And so? The rejection in Mathew 10. The great fallen away in 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7 have been three fears that troubled me until now.

Those Scriptures Must Be Fulfilled. Even So? There Is Hope.

O my Master! Yes! It’s all Happening now as it’s written to fulfill those words, but! Behold! You Power Of Love despite our rebellious doings.

No Matter What? The Power Of Your Love And Unfathomable Wisdom? It Never Fails. It Always Avails!

Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation!? To be loved to love in return. Loved to love.

This Day You Revealed Yourself To Me To Dispel All Fears By Your Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 9:59 pm.

Master? You know I don’t feel good. Slept from around 4 pm to 7:28 pm. Could not stay up. Hurting bad. Went back to bed. Slept until my little friend woke me up with food around 9:17 pm.

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do. I’ll Go Back To Bed And Wait On You …

It’s now Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 10:11 pm.

I’ll wait. I’m sure You have a purpose for all details of my daily living. Perhaps Ahmad’s situation with his Father at the point of death is why I am feeling this way. You’ll show me. I am sure.

Through The Wilderness Of Life You Have Brought Me To Yourself …

Thursday, October 17, 2019 at 3:25 am.

Through much tribulation I have entered Your Kingdom even now while on these forsaken grounds. Your Presence illuminates and dispels the darkness of all fears in my mind.

Fears Dispelled You Make Me Well. Pain At Bay A Bright Smile I Can Now In Your Presence Display …

Thursday, October 17, 2019 at 3:48 am.

The fear of repercussion for all our rebelliousness sayings and doings caused me much pain in the last couple of days, but! You showed me Yourself. You made Yourself real to me as You promised to do.

Yes! There Is Repercussion From Our Present Actions …?

Repercussion or an effect or result of some previous action or event is inevitable, but! Your unfathomable wisdom and passionate love for us is also inevitable.

Thus? Though You Feed Us The Bread Of Affliction Because Of Our Sins …

Our Teacher does not hide Himself from us anymore. So? We learn how to be loved, how to love in return. Nothing like all the notions of love we humans have conjured!

That’s Why My Thirty Some Years Testimonial Journal …?

That’s The Matter Just Now In 2019 You are Revealing To Me To Pass On To Your loved ones scattered in the four corners of the earth.

Wow! Time To Close This Post On Thursday, October 17, 2019 At 4:09 Am.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Am I Looking For Your Approval? Are You Looking For My Approval? …

October 13, 2019

Do I Feel You Are Trying To Convince Me. Do You Feel I Am Trying To Convince You? …

No Problem! That’s Human, And? Surprise! We Are Humans ….

No kidding! We are all humans …

Thursday, October 10, 2019 at 8:55 am.

No kidding! We are all humans. Basically, we think and feel alike, but! We rally ourselves in the fact that we are all a ‘little different’. Hahaha!

I’m Having Me Some Fun Indeed! A ‘Little Different’? …

A ‘Little Different’? What an understatement! Me? I feel smug right now. Why? The truth? I don’t know why I feel smug about making fun of our human ways, but! It’s something that’s natural with me.

Hey! Maybe. O Maybe! Could It Be My ‘Gift From Above’? C’mon! Give Some Slack! …

Here is the scoop. In my social interchange? I talk, talk, talk, and? Talk some more. It seems that all I want is to convince or impose myself upon others not giving them a chance to do the same to me.

Ha! That’s The Truth In A Nut Shell, But! …?

The real truth about me? I been Tried. Purified. Refined. Chosen On High Seas or? Should I say, Hot waters? Or? The furnace of affliction?

No Kidding! But The Same Is Truth About You Et All, Only? …

We are ‘a little different’! Hum! I should say, a LOT different! And that’s what makes me laugh now more than ever before. Why? because!

Little Did I Know 33 Years Ago …?

About all that ‘Tried. Purified. Refined.’ Affair! If I would have known? I would have never gone there! That’s for sure!

But ‘FATHER’ Knows Best. That’s The Truth For The Rest …

O my Master! How simply You are unraveling all suffering, evil, corruption and whatever we must go through to shape us as genuine human beings. Otherwise?

Perish The Thought! We Would Have Been Just Like Rabbits Eating Carrots And Making Babies …?

Hahaha! That just came to me! Master? You are funny. We would have replenished the earth with rabbits digging for carrots. And no one to plant those carrots!

No One To Tend To The Garden …?

Isn’t that funny? But Master? Couldn’t You had come up with something different than that evil monster You use to Try. Purify. Refine these humans You created to be loved to love? I wonder.

Ooo! It’s written, quote:

And if we are His children, then we are His heirs also: heirs of Our Creator and fellow heirs with Messiah sharing His inheritance with Him; only we must share His suffering if we are to share His esteem.

But what of that? For I consider that the sufferings of this present time (this present life) are not worth being compared with the esteem that is about to be revealed to us and in us and for us and conferred on us!

For even the whole creation (all nature) waits expectantly and longs earnestly for Our Creator’s sons to be made known waits for the revealing, the disclosing of their sonship.

For the creation (nature) was subjected to frailty (to futility, condemned to frustration), not because of some intentional fault on its part, but by the will of Him Who so subjected it—yet with the hope that nature (creation) itself will be set free from its bondage to decay and corruption and gain an entrance into the esteemed freedom of Our Creator’s children.

We know that the whole creation of irrational creatures has been moaning together in the pains of labor until now.

And not only the creation, but we ourselves too, who have and enjoy the firstfruits of the Set Apart Spirit a foretaste of the blissful things to come groan inwardly as we wait for the redemption of our bodies from sensuality and the grave, which will reveal our adoption (our manifestation as Our Creator’s sons).

For in this hope we were saved. But hope the object of which is seen is not hope. For how can one hope for what he already sees?

But if we hope for what is still unseen by us, we wait for it with patience and composure.

Honest To Goodness! I Am Not Trying To Convince, Convert, Or Change Anyone Anymore…

O but You know it, my Master. I talk, talk, talk, and talk some more to share not to convince, convert, or change anyone, but only to share what You reveal and compel me to share with Your people

You Are A Loving Father Not A Tyrant. Your Wisdom? Unfathomable, But! …

Friday, October 11, 2019 at 5:06 am.

We humans have taken it upon ourselves to judge You. The worst? To outguess Your wisdom. To gain the advantage over You by cleverness or forethought—to outwit You.

How True! How Emphatically The Humans Deny Such Truth …

Therefore? The human becomes really touchy about the subject. Everybody is in the defense or push mode, but!

We Do Not Realize That We Are Either Pushing Or Defending Ourselves, Why? …

Friday, October 11, 2019 at 7:02 am.

Why? because we are humans. We possess a mind of our own. We always do what we think is best, and? Push our best on others or, defend ourselves because our best does not agree with the pushers’ best.

What A Revelation! Have I Figure Out Those Matters On My Own? Nay! …

O my Master! Honestly, You have opened my eyes to see my error or my sin since You called me into Your service in 1985. Now? I neither push or defend. I share whatever You compel me to share.

What About ‘Unconditional’ Love? The Unbiased Truth …

To claim unconditional love means a love without limitations or restrains. As romantic as such seems to be, it is a misleading term to say the least. Why?

Limitations And Restrains Are Necessary To Truly Love …?

Friday, October 11, 2019 at 4:24 pm.

Master? This is a crucial subject. I do not want to write anything about it bound to my former bias. I wait on You for a clue to write verbatim what it comes from You.

Hey! About The Graphics …

Friday, October 11, 2019 at 4:29 pm.

I been working on this graphic the whole day. But You know it my Master. You have given me to create the perfect background, but I am stuck on how to add the text. I wait on You.

Those are mini books my Master inspires unto me. Windows into my soul to illustrate the content of whatever is written there.

Master? It’s Another Day But You Know It …?

Will it be another day of waiting, my Master? I weary of waiting to no avail, but! You sustain me. So? I loose my temper with inconsiderate selfish people.

Do I Worry About It? I Do For A Moment, Then? …

I fume in anger. I think of all the sort of things I’ll say and do to retaliate. Suddenly! I hear, “The people do not consider you, but! You do not consider them.”

Pause. Reflect. I Do Not Consider Them? …

Hum! I never thought about it, my Master, but! You are so ever right! I just think of what I need. Other people’s needs? Maybe as an afterthought.

Yeap! An Afterthought—A Thought After You Have Them Supply For Me …

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 1:11 am.

Ha! So that’s the lesson You have taught me about my outburst of anger today. Wow! Help! My Master! Help! How can I consider the aggressor infringing pain and discomfort to me?

Sleep?

Not Possible With Me, But! With You …?

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 4:20 am.

All things ARE possible. Master? I am not angry anymore. Your wisdom is prevailing me, but! I feel so sad! I wish to cry but my eyes are dry. I come to You for help.

Automatically The Tears Begin To Flow Along With Blessings …

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 9:38 am.

I lift up my voice to plead for blessings for my Ahmad. I implore forgiveness for my lack of consideration for my beloved son.

Automatically As Well Your Peace Along With Power To Overcome My Sadness Returns To My Soul …

What an amazing way to lead and teach me Your ways. I am now enjoying Your peace that surpasses all understanding.

Afternoon Ends. No Clue Of What’s Going On Out Here, Perhaps …

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 6:34 pm.

Perhaps whatever is going on out there is not any of my business. Thanks, O thanks my Master! It feels good to mind my own business—to let You mind Yours. One more graphic completed, I think.

All Things Are Working Together For Our Not Just For Mine Good …

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 7:23 pm.

With that thought in mind? I’ll try to sleep again. It’s the end of one more 7^th Day of Rest. I remain resting in You for all matters and purposes.

Your Power To Overcome Is A Mystery To Me …

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 9:13 pm.

Actually? You are a mystery to me despite Your undeniable Presence within me and in all details of my life. I see the futility in this worldly life. Is inevitable to see it.

What I Don’t See? Inevitable Troubles Me, But! …

I must endure by that unfathomable power of love You have invested on me. Moreover? I must proclaim that matter I do not yet see. Why? Because You compel me to do so.

What Is It That I Don’t See, My Master? Why It Troubles Me? …

Saturday, October 12, 2019 at 9:47 pm.

I’m going back to bed. Need to reflect. I wait on You. Slept for 3 more hours. Woke up about an hour ago on this next day. My body in pain. My mind at peace.

I Am Not Appealing To Any Human Being For Help. I Am Appealing To You …

Sunday, October 13, 2019 at 2:27 am.

This is to be my year of Jubilee. All my debts forgotten. Yet? The agony of painful misery continues to drive me insane.

No Matter. In Sickness Or In Health I Refuse To Doubt You …?

It’s so easy to believe in You when things are going well, but! With the least twitch of pain? I wail in doubt of You. Even so?

You Are Teaching Me The Difference Between Lip And Genuine Service …

That’s the difference I do not see around me. That’s what troubles me. Master? Where am I at in that issue. Am I concerned with others thinking I am only giving You lip service as I see it done around me?

Ha! I Get It! My Only Concern Should Be Your Approval Of Me …

Wow! How easy it is to stumble on the trap of human’s approval. The fear of rejection is innate in my human nature. Wow!

So? That’s The Fear That Troubles Me With Ahmad’s Absence …

And that’s what I have not been able to see until now that You are revealing it to me. Funny thing! When things go well between Ahmad and me that fear lurks away, but! It remains at bay, until?

The Next Negative Episode Pops Up …?

It’s been a vicious circle not only with my gifted son but with all my relationships in the past. And here is fitting to talk about the new trend of ‘Unconditional Love’.

‘Unconditional Love’ The Human’s Solution To Human’s Rejection …

Wow! The wounds we inflict upon each other because of the fear of rejection are monumental to the point of insanity.

‘Unconditional Love’ Is The Insane Reaction To The Fear Of Rejection …

Wow! So that’s how I am to expose this monstrous issue that’s on fire from all angles of the human life. The worst of it all?

To Confuse Moral Laws And Conditions With Tyranny and You …?

How far from the Loving Mighty One that You are, but! That does not rattle Your Mighty love and unfathomable wisdom to create and discipline or mold us into Your image.

Create And Discipline Or Mold Someone …?

Isn’t that what we parents do with our children? Hahaha! What a revelation! We certainly knock ourselves out to discipline our children in an attempt to mold them in our image.

Unfortunately? Our Children Grow Up To Do Whatever Suits Them To Be The Best …

O my Master! Exactly Your predicament with us Your children doing whatever we think is best. And what is what we think is best is?

Unconditional Love. No Discipline. No Conditions. No Rules …?

Ah but You are not a man that we should judge You like one. Yes, there is a comparison between Your ways and our ways. No doubt about that comparison. Quote:

And have you completely forgotten the sacred word of appeal and encouragement in which you are reasoned with and addressed as sons?

My son, do not think lightly or scorn to submit to the correction and discipline of the Master, nor lose courage and give up and faint when you are reproved or corrected by Him; for the Master corrects and disciplines everyone whom He loves, and He punishes, even scourges, every son whom He accepts and welcomes to His heart and cherishes.

You must submit to and endure correction for discipline; the Almighty is dealing with you as with sons. For what son is there whom his father does not thus train and correct and discipline?

Now if you are exempt from correction and left without discipline in which all of the Almighty’s children share, then you are illegitimate offspring and not true sons at all.

Moreover, we have had earthly fathers who disciplined us and we yielded to them and respected them for training us. Shall we not much more cheerfully submit to the Father of spirits and so truly live?

For our earthly fathers disciplined us for only a short period of time and chastised us as seemed proper and good to them; but He disciplines us for our certain good, that we may become sharers in His own set-apartness. End of quote.

Reading the whole chapter after witnessing the results of the Spirit at work within me? It should encourage anyone tenfold to be whatever that one is created to be.
To bed at 3:59 am. Could not sleep. This time? Joyfully absorbing what You have in Your mind for this area and how Ahmad and I fit in Your plan of restoration.

Back To ‘Unconditional Love’ The Aim? Break All Restrains …

Sunday, October 13, 2019 at 4:51 am.

Master? You know all about my shock to come face to face with what this wave of ‘unconditional love’ is bringing ashore—Pollyanna relationships, living together without legal commitment, homosexuality, nothing is wrong or right, tolerance of immorality in lieu of Unconditional Love.

Strange. The First Trade In This Wave? Sexual Immorality …

Hahaha! It just came to me, this should be called, Immoral Love Instead Of Unconditional Love, but! I guess that would be brutal honesty not as appealing to sophisticated souls engaged in this wave.

But Really? What Is The Aim Of This ‘Unconditional Love’?

O The Trickery Of Our Human Minds! To Break All misunderstood restrains imposed by the tyrant ‘God’ they have made You out to be is the aim of this ‘Unconditional Love’.

Your Aim? To Restore Us To The Original Intent For Our Creation To Be Loved To Love In Return …

That’s the truth and reality of the matter, but! YOU, Ever Existent O Mighty One of Israel are still in control of it all, and? You compel me now to let go of all concerns about this and all issues going on with Your people.

As You Compel All Fears Are Dispelled …

I can now post this matter to encourage not to discourage. I no longer have an opinion or bias in all that I write. I am only reporting what applies to me in all written in the Scriptures misnomer the Bible. On to post.

On to post.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Well? It Feels Good To Mind My Own Business …?

October 7, 2019

On To Mind My Eats, My Chores Galore …

Talking About Galore …?

Thursday, October 3, 2019 at 6:25 am.

Galore of everything, including the usual mundane irritations like ants that do not cease to trouble me! Hahaha! HalleluYah! And right now? Ahmad to eat breakfast with me. Hum! Maybe?

How Can You Catch A Cloud And Pin It Down? …

Thursday, October 3, 2019 at 1:45 pm.

O my Master! I guess one can capture it with a camera or create it in a graphic, but! Physically that I can touch it? Impossible! And so are my thoughts and my imaginings. You know it, my Master.

What Thoughts And Imaginings Are Running In My Mind Right Now? …

Ha! You know it my Master. It’s another pay day and no ATM card to get the monies for my monthly keep. The thought of calling to get the monies via Western Union are not pleasant thoughts. I dread to ask. Even so?

You Are In Control Of My Dreadful Thoughts And Imaginings …

I wait on You. I refuse to dwell on my thoughts. I have one more hour before I must make that call. I call on You now to take it all in Your control as a whole.

Master? Is This Happening To Show Me The Difference …?

The difference between the past and the present in my life’s attitude. In the past? Panic! Begging for help from the human element. In the present? No panic. Wisdom. Calling on help from You.

Wow! From Where Comes My Help? My Help Comes From You …

And Your written words continue to guide and light the way ahead of me. What a way to let go of my thoughts without any efforts of my own. Just the sound of Your voice from within dispels those thoughts away! Quote:

Psalms 121:1-8

I WILL lift up my eyes to the hills around Jerusalem, to sacred Mount Zion and Mount Moriah—From whence shall my help come?

My help comes from the Master, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip or to be moved; He Who keeps you will not slumber.

Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Master is your keeper; the Master is your shade on your right hand, the side not carrying a shield.

The sun shall not smite you by day, nor the moon by night. The Master will keep you from all evil; He will keep your life.

The Master will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore.

I Am Dumbfound Once Again! I Caught The Cloud, And? …

Pin it down for sure! What cloud? The cloud of my dreadful thoughts and imaginings. Did I really catch that cloud and let it go? Nay!

The Master Is My Keeper. The Master Keeps Me From All Evil …

O my Master! What a way to keep me from all evil. It is evil to trust or depend on the human mind train of thought., but?

No Need To Board That Train Anymore! Aboard The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m Sailing On Now! …

What to expect while sailing on this ship? The sun shall not smite me by day, nor the moon by night. The Master will keep me from all evil; He will keep my life.

The Master Will Keep My Going Out And My Coming In From This Time Forth And Forevermore …

What an enviable life! Indeed! You have implanted Your written words within me to produce LIFE & STRENGTH to live accordingly to Your will and desire. Whatever for?

To Be Envied. Envious Not Jealous …?

Master? It totally amazes me the way You unravel the meaning of Your written words to me nowadays. In the past? I had a tacit understanding implied or inferred without direct expression of the word ‘envied’, but!

Right Now? I Understand. I See. O My Master! You Have Shown Me …

Thursday, October 3, 2019 at 4:09 pm.

For the last two hours I been looking for the meaning of envy, envied, and jealous jealousy. Wow! What a finding. From the dictionary:

Traditional usage holds that we are jealous when we fear losing something that is important to us and envious when we desire that which someone else has
You use enviable to describe a possession, quality, or ability that someone has, and that you wish you had yourself.
Jealousy: Jealous resentment against a person enjoying success or advantage; anger or fear of losing something or someone to a rival.

From That Meaning You Firmly Implanted In My Soul The Sermon Of The Mount …

Excerpts from Matthew 5:

SEEING THE crowds, He went up on the mountain; and when He was seated, His disciples came to Him. Then He opened His mouth and taught them, saying:

Blessed (happy, to be envied, and spiritually prosperous—with life-joy and satisfaction in our Father in the heaven’s favor and deliverance, regardless of their outward conditions) are the poor in spirit (the humble, who rate themselves insignificant), for theirs is the kingdom of heaven! …

… Blessed and fortunate and happy and spiritually prosperous (in that state in which the born-again child of our Father in the heaven enjoys His favor and deliverance) are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness (uprightness and right standing with our Father in the heaven), for they shall be completely satisfied! Isa. 55:1, 2.

…. Blessed and happy and enviably fortunate and spiritually prosperous (in the state in which the born-again child of our Father in the heavens enjoys and finds satisfaction in our Father in the heaven’s favor and salvation, regardless of his outward conditions) are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake (for being and doing right), for theirs is the kingdom of heaven!

Blessed (happy, to be envied, and spiritually prosperous–with life-joy and satisfaction in our Father in the heaven’s favor and salvation, regardless of your outward conditions) are you when people revile you and persecute you and say all kinds of evil things against you falsely on My account.

Be glad and supremely joyful, for your reward in heaven is great (strong and intense), for in this same way people persecuted the prophets who were before you. II Chron. 36:16.

You are the salt of the earth, but if salt has lost its taste (its strength, its quality), how can its saltness be restored? It is not good for anything any longer but to be thrown out and trodden underfoot by men.

You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do men light a lamp and put it under a peck measure, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all in the house.

Let your light so shine before men that they may see your moral excellence and your praiseworthy, noble, and good deeds and recognize and honor and praise and esteem your Father Who is in heaven.

Do not think that I have come to do away with or undo the Law or the Prophets; I have come not to do away with or undo but to complete and fulfill them.

For truly I tell you, until the sky and earth pass away and perish, not one smallest letter nor one little hook [identifying certain Hebrew letters] will pass from the Law until all things [it foreshadows] are accomplished.

Whoever then breaks or does away with or relaxes one of the least [important] of these commandments and teaches men so shall be called least [important] in the kingdom of heaven, but he who practices them and teaches others to do so shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.

For I tell you, unless your righteousness (your uprightness and your right standing with the Creator) is more than that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. End of quote.

Now? About My Own Business …?

What You told to the ancient workers? You are now telling it to me, and? I got it, my Master! I really, really got it this time! No longer a problem. You set me to mind my own business on high seas. WHAT?

Indeed! The High Seas? Dangerous Waters Away From This World’s Shores And Business…?

The world’s business? What about that man or this one woman? Forget it! No time to worry about that business. Must mind my own business to follow You unto the High Seas Dangerous Waters. Whatever for?

O! O! My Eyes Set On You At The Helm Of The Ship Or Else! …

Talking about Your ways? Master? You know how I am stuck with the last lines I been writing. I think I done lost the thread of this writing. I’ll go to sleep. I’ll wait to see how You’ll unstuck me. It’s Thursday, October 3, 2019 at 9:52 pm.

Ah! You Unstuck Me! How?

Friday, October 4, 2019 at 1:40 am.

Master? You are awesome! You let me fret in bed for a couple of hours. Next? You led me to get up. What to do? Tried to call my friends Jan Caddell, June, Fanny Mae to no avail. Finally? Call Pat.

Bless My Beloved Pat—You Always Give Me Clues When I Call Her …

I ramble on and on about what I am recording now and how I feel lost. She did not say much, until the end. In response to our ages and my beginning to live at eighty, she said, “We are all different.”

Ha! Your Clue To Unstick Me! …

Somehow? I sense the same response from all corners, and? It throws me for a loop! I find myself lost. The response does not match with Your word about my life to be envied, but!

I Saw The Light! It Shined On My Enthusiasm About Beginning To Live At Eighty! …

Friday, October 4, 2019 at 5:11 am.

Master? You know that I am up but I sure don’t feel up the part. I don’t know what to ask of You. I don’t know how to pray, but I take comfort because Your Spirit knows what to ask as per Your will. I wait. Back to bed

Two More Hours Of Sleep Did Me Good …

Friday, October 4, 2019 at 8:31 am.

Thank You, my Master. I woke up around 7 am. Been reading about the racial hate. Whites against blacks and vice versa then. Now? Religion against religion it’s at its peak. That kind of hate makes me cringe, but!

Behold! The Power Of Your Love And Unfathomable Wisdom …

My mind and imagination are not capable to grasp one smidgen of such power and wisdom. Even so? You seen fit to gift me with The Secret Of Your Sweet, Satisfying Companionship.

Moreover? You Seen Fit To Show Me Your Covenant, And? …

Reveal to me its deep, inner meaning as per written in Psalms 25. The Truth? You Know It My Master. The more I read Your written words? The more my mind wails!

My Mind Cannot Grasp Your Awesome Words, But! …

I am beginning to see more and more the importance to let go of my mind. Even so? I find myself in trouble knowing that I must let go of my mind and not being able to let go.

O What A Wretched Woman Am I Until …?

You see fit to empower me to do so in the most unexpected way. And so? The incident with my friend Pat came about this time.

Alright! Why Mind My Own Business …?

Master! What about my friend Pat as well as Ahmad, my children and family? “WHAT is that to you? O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? YOU FOLLOW ME!

Unstuck! HalleluYah! Where Is The Key To Unstick My Close Mind? …

In Your hand, my Master. At Your decreed time You place that key in the lock’s hole that lacks my mind, and? Turn it. Yippee! My mind opens up to let Your words penetrate my being. Thus, I heard, and?

Power To Obey. Power To Follow You. Power To Let Go. The Only Way To Avail Eternally …

Numerous human’s lists on how to let it go. How to do one thing or the other. Millions of success inspirers. Millions of success accomplishers. Untold number of satisfied souls in good standing with themselves and with the world.

Turning off cmp to update Friday, October 4, 2019 at 4:23 pm

What About You, My Master? …

Your Wisdom To Shine From My Heart And Mind …

Saturday, October 5, 2019 at 4:21 am.

What about You? Ha! This time? All nations. Each individual child of Yours. The whole kit and caboodle are fixing to know and respect Your Majesty and sovereignty over Your whole creation. And me?

What About Me? Who Wants To Know About Me? …

O my Master! Who wants to know about me? YOU! You want to know, what? What do You want to know about me that You already know, my Master?

Could It Be? O Man! What Could It Be? …

Saturday, October 5, 2019 at 7:58 am.

O my Master! If I had any doubts lingering in my mind and soul about the accuracy of what I write? You have now dispelled them for good and forever. A vision:

I could not figure out what You wanted to know about me that You already knew, so? As usual I left the headline there. Went ahead to the graphics. Suddenly! I found myself attempting to reach Denise’s heart with the accuracy of all that I write because it does not come from me, but! She was adamant to shut me off not wanting to hear my opinion she kept repeating. Even so? I prevailed. I firmly and calmly stated: “I do not have an opinion. I am only reporting what is written in the Bible.” I opened my eyes. So real. I could almost touch my Denise. But? Only the mouse I was touching.

Ha! So That’s What You Wanted To Know! Wow! …

Sunday, October 6, 2019 at 9:22 am.

I left the headline there. Went about the graphics. Chores. Site optimizing. Suddenly! Thunder! Storm! Quickly shut all programs. Turn off/unplug computer. The time? 2:52 pm turning off machine went to sleep.

Time For Your Wisdom To Shine From My Heart And Mind …

No kidding! Wisdom instead of panic. O my Master! By the power of your love and unfathomable wisdom? Emotional upheavals are a thing of the past! Amazing!

Wisdom Instead Of Panic …

Sunday, October 6, 2019 at 10:15 am.

Master? You know I am sensing the need to respond in all situations with wisdom instead of emotional upheavals of any kind, but? I don’t know how to start

Alight! New Day. Ready To Start In Your Presence …?

Monday, October 7, 2019 at 5:25 am.

O my Master! What was the hold up to record the most important thoughts that I am to record right now? A hold up to demonstrate our human innate behavior.

Human Behavior? Beating A Dead Horse? …

That’s what we humans do. Instead of listening to You, my Master? We mount our own horses to do our own thing until the horse bolts us down. Then? We still don’t listen. We begin to beat the horse. O well! Go figure it.

Encouragement To My Baby Child …

Ha! O my baby? Your mom been beating a dead horse in hope to resuscitate it. Guess what? As soon as I quit beating the animal? It came ALIVE to my eye! What am I talking about?

The Update About Your Health That’s What I’ll Talk About …?

Monday, October 7, 2019 at 5:48 am.

It thrilled me big time to see the amazing progress of the Master’s work in your life, but! No more emotional upheaval and panicky reactions. The graphic animal is the thing to beat while I wait on the Master before I react nowadays.

Anyhow? Here Is The Scoop …?

Your symptoms? My exact ones. You been dabbling in the hereditary thing. You wonder about what you inherited from me? Your health condition period.

Let Me Share With You And With All What Has Been Revealed To Me About Our Health …

Our ill health has its source in one nasty hole in our gut. It’s called LEAKY GUT! Hooray! My hole? Esophageal hernia is labeled. Little did I know what that meant at the time the x-ray show it up.

What Was Done About? Aciphex At The Tune Of $100 Bucks A Month …

O man! If only I would have known! That hole was the portal to my blood system. Wow! We have come a long way by the power and design of our Master. What am I talking about?

TO EVERYTHING There Is A Season, And A Time For Every Matter Or Purpose Under Heaven: …

No kidding. Ecclesiastes 3 tells it plainly, but? How do that apply to the moment we are living? As per it’s written. I have quoted before, now? More than just quoting it. Living it.

Indeed! The Promised Abundant Life Begins At Eighty For Me…

It’s a miracle. My health. My wealth? RESTORED! After a life of suffering the consequences of my ignorance about the root of my ill health, physical, mental, and spiritual health I am talking about.

And? It All Because Of That Hole …?

No kidding. Humor instead of anger. The open or close holes in our bodies and in our minds are the root of all our inharmonious circumstance in our lives.

Baby, I Refuse To Tell You What You Should Do But! …

My task? Write, Publish. Optimize. The Master Creator is doing the rest with all He inspires me to write. One thing He is inspiring to me to share right now?

All My Efforts To Alleviate My Suffering Only Made Things Worse …?

From the specialists to the human wisdom to the money factor? I went close to the point of death and the poverty line.

Encouragement. No Fooling. You Know All About Your Mom’s History …?

I cannot for the life of me tell you what you should do, but! To share with you the bounty in my present life? That I am compelled to do!

You Know How I Talk With Innuendos, So Ask If You May …

Here is the legal explanation of the word ‘Innuendo’:

a. an explanation of the construction put upon words alleged to be defamatory where the defamatory meaning is not apparent
b. the words thus explained

Lov, mom.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Harmony And Sense Versus?

October 3, 2019

Harmony And Sense Versus?

Conflict, Discord, Strife, Contention, Dissension, Clash …

Well? Steady Goes It …?

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 6:38 pm.

It feels good to be steady. Thanks, my Master. It’s the hour that I used to feel pretty unsteady, but now? No problem anymore. Your promise is fulfilled. Quote:

Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step].

Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

The Midnight Approaching Again …

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 11:37 pm.

Slept from 8 to 10 pm. My little friend brought me some goodies. Been checking the inbox. New followers and likes in one of the websites I have not been keeping up. I went ahead and updated it.

Now? Not Sure Of What Is Next, But!

No problem. I’ll wait on You. Did not hear from Ahmad today. You know what’s going on there, my Master. I no longer trouble myself with Ahmad’s absence. What a relief!

Ahmad’s Decreed Time? Not As Per My Pleasure …?

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 7:03 am.

Numbers tell. The 2^nd day. Meaning of number two? Division! Dividing my willful pleasures from Your decreed Laws. What a revelation to start this 2^nd day of the 10^th month. Wow!

Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endure! The End? Saved! …

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 2:13 pm.

Master? You have given me 7 hours since I recorded this headline. Meantime? You led me to illustrate the post. You gave me the incentive to catch up with my chores. Lastly?

Let It Go! In The Subject Line. I Clicked …?

Wow! The command from the leaders of Your flock. O my Master! You flashed into my mind my whole life of bondage to such command.

What A Heavy Burden Imposed Upon Unsuspecting Me, But! …

Not without my willing consent. I am the one who placed the leaders of Your flock ahead of You. What a revelation! And on this 2^nd day meant to divide the precious from the vile.

Skip The Dividing of The Human Willful Pleasures From Your Decreed Laws? …

There you have the core of all Conflicts, Discords, Strives, Contentions, Dissensions, Clashes in the human’s lives. WHAT?

O Well! Must Wait On You To Give Me Exactly What I Need To Write Next …

Wednesday, October 2, 2019 at 6:24 pm.

O my Master! I know this is incredible! The whole world’s system is set on the ‘Let It Go!’, but! The whole system is now bankrupt! More and more people are realizing it does not work! Even so?

The Leaders Are Now More Than Ever Before Intent In Making It Work …?

History repeating itself. It’s happening all over like it happened at the beginning. The blaming game. Anger. Rebelliousness. We have become our own gods, and declare:

Divine Self. The Universe. Unconditional Love …?

Master? What are You showing to me? Ha! The three words now household words mixed with the words ‘God’, Positive Thinking, and Your written words? The sure recipe for the predicted great falling away.

O My Master! This Is Not A Welcome Subject, I Fear, But! …

Despite my fears? You are still in control of it all. Those words encompass the Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields Your people is set on. You know it. What to do now, my Master?

“Fear Not! Do Exactly As You Been Doing—Write, Publish, And Optimize …

I am doing the rest no matter how it looks to you. This time? My people are responding to Me not to you. Remember, you are the product in My business not the owner of the business.”

Phew! What A Relief! No Need For My Concerns …

No need to concern myself with the likes or comments or followers. You have already told me it is beyond my imagination the multitude of souls You have reached with these writings You inspire to me.

On To My Task. Let You Do Your Task …

Tried. Purified. Refined. Chosen On High Seas. Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endure! The End? Saved! On lower seas. Sing! Rejoice! Aboard The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on!

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Could You See This World? A Huge Field Of Dry Grass Under!

September 30, 2019

A Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields …

Is There Hope For LIFE &STRENGTH To Overcome? …

Saturday, September 28, 2019 at 8:13 am.

O man! Master? You know how easy it is for a drunkard or a whore to see, but! Not so for the ones living on the veneer of green luscious fields. It’s impossible for a human to give up such veneer. Even so?

Nothing Is Impossible With You. Dry Field? Stamped With? …

Saturday, September 28, 2019 at 2:07 pm.

Stamped with the turquoise fertility stamp! Wow! That just came to me. Been thinking all day about what I saw before I woke up this morning.

I saw a vast dry grass field. Somehow, I had a huge stamp in my hand. I began to stamp the field. It was so real, but I couldn’t figure it all out.
It came to me This World is a huge field of dry grass but all we can see is a Veneer Of Green Luscious Fields. So? I wrote the headline for the post. Next I recorded what came to me until I recorded the headline about stamped with.
I left it there because I didn’t know with what the field was stamped. I had a sense that the stamp in my hand had something to do with the turquoise rose allegory, but I didn’t know how to connect the field with the stamp until it just now.
I remember to come to record in the journal. I had no idea of what I was to record. I recorded date and time. I began to write with what was the field stamped to my own amazement. So simple. As if I should have known it all the while.

And So? My History Been Recorded In The Journal , And…?

Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 9:06 am.

O my Master! And You are now revealing it to me. Whatever for? For the benefit of all readers present as well as former and future. What has taken place from the time You called me to journal my life until this very moment?

Harmony And Sense In My Life Is And Has Been A Reality …

Sunday, September 29, 2019 at 10:58 pm.

Things worked out pretty well today. Thanks, my Master! Will go to sleep now. Hope to catch up. Awake at 3:47 am.

A New Day Waiting On You My Master …

Monday, September 30, 2019 at 3:53 am.

Like a maiden wait for her mistress so my soul waits on You. Illustrating my history recorded in this journal is the task consuming my time while I wait on You.

Talking About Harmony And Sense In My Life Is A Reality …?

Monday, September 30, 2019 at 4:01 pm.

Master? The truth is You are the Author of harmony and sense. Yes, the reality of my life has always been in harmony and much sense, but!

As A Human Being? All Inharmonious Circumstances And Conditions Known To Me, Until…?

Your decreed time to unravel and harmonize my life came to me. But why all known to me before has been all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun?

All Is Crystal Clear To Me Now, No Kidding! …

The Harmony And Sense In My Life? Totally opposite of what the world knows for harmony and sense! Wow! NOW! This moment. IT ALL FIT TOGETHER! What am I talking about?

My Former Life Of Conflict, Discord, Strife, Contention, Dissension, Clash …?

That’s what I am talking about. No kidding! My family and the people that known me in the past can all testify about it all. No wonder why most all are skeptics about this miraculous transformation of my being!

The Best Part? JOY Inexplicable Full Of Your Esteem Bubbles Up Within Me …?

Master! Master! Master! Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! No more anger. No more conflicts. No more regrets. No more wondering. No more sorriest! What a marvel!

Your Work Is Done! The Adjustment To All Is For Real! …

That shall be the subject for future posts. For now? I am finished optimizing the illustration for this post. Lead me as I am preparing to post again. Quote:

Ecclesiastes 12:13

13 All has been heard; the end of the matter is: Fear God [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments, for this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation, the object of God’s providence, the root of character, the foundation of all happiness, the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man. End of quote.

Ha! I Started To Insert The Post In The Site, But!

Tuesday, October 1, 2019 at 12:46 am.

I had to hit the bed. Slept for 6 hours! Wow! I needed that! Midnight. Woke up. Another day. Another month. The first day of 10^th month. The 12^th hour. The minutes? I noticed, the number 46 or 4+6=10. The number 10?

Master! You Telling Me What Is To Happen It’s Really, Really Happening Now? …

O but what can I say, my Master? There are no words, no ways of any kind to figure You out. I never know what You got in store for me until You see fit to show it to me. Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Master?. Am I To End This Post With Another Quote From Your Written Words I Got In The E-Mail Inbox Just Now?

I happen to check my inbox as I was editing the published post. I read the important email. Didn’t know what to make of it until I read the ending Scripture. How appropriate to quote it to end this post!

“Let them shout for joy and rejoice, who favour my vindication; and let them say continually, ‘The Lord be magnified, Who delights in the prosperity of His servant.’” (Psalm 35:27, NASB)

On to post now for sure.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Effective Ways To Produce The Integrity Of One’s Character …

September 27, 2019

Effective Ways To Produce The Integrity Of One’s Character …

Perfect Timing! All Over The World The Spirit Is Moving …

A Post’s Comment …

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Monday, September 23, 2019 at 5:43 am.

I have only read your introduction. Astonished! The year was 1985. The Master Creator of our beings decreed me as a writer for His honor. He then began the process to mold me into what I was born to be—His child to be loved to love. The process is now completed. A new life has begun at my 80^th birthday on this 2019 year, but! It was only this week that I came to terms with my reality, and? Here you appear! What’s next? Nothing but the best for us all! Glad for our crossing. Much love for all. thiaBasilia. 😊

“Yes, My Ways To Deal With You Are Effective To Produce The Integrity Of Your Character” The Master said to me …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 10:15 am.

Now You tell me! It’s about time! Either the nut house or the cemetery would have been my end! Phew! Thank goodness! You are neither late nor tardy. You always on time!

And The Things You Hate? Exactly The Things We Humans Love …?

O but how we love to look good to others! Our goodness? A cover up for the bad things deep in our gut. No kidding. I know this is offensive to hear, but!

It’s The Truth To Set Us All Free …?

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 11:09 am.

It’s the truth that set me free. The hour is coming and it’s here now for that truth to set us all free by the power of Your love and wisdom for them and me.

The Midday Hour Is Coming, And? …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 11:55 am.

I am free, but! I am still human. I do wonder. I have a hard time waiting on You to act in our behalf. In reality? I have a hard time waiting for things to change, but it’s not happening. No change.

The Sad Part? It’s Not Really Hard At All, But!…?

It’s just sad to see Ahmad et all struggling, struggling, struggling. No time to stop. No time to smell Your roses. All the time? Smelling the smell of carnal pleasures, whether religious or otherwise— success, food, vacations, entertainment the list goes on.

Even So? You Bless Some Of Us With The Fragrance Of Your Presence In Our Lives …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 3:41 pm.

Well? This is some four hours later. Slept for about three hours. Feeling surprisingly good. Updated files and links. Absolute silence. No news from Ahmad. But the fragrance of Your Presence? Sustains me in peace.

What A Difference From The Turmoil In My Past …?

Yeah. It’s not altogether smooth sailing 100%. No. there are waves of panic. Moments of mind churning junkie carnal thoughts, but! O my Master! You control those thoughts of mine now. What a blessing!

My Life In A Turquoise World Of Fertility …

Monday, September 23, 2019 at 7:20 pm.

Life goes on. No change that I can tell. Am I struggling to make things better? O my Master! My life now? You have filled me to capacity with Your love and wisdom. No need to struggle anymore.

To Sleep On Monday, September 23, 2019 At 11:56 Pm.

Slept for more hours than usual. Got up to take care of myself. Finished around 6 am. Watered my plants. Been reading Dereck’s long email. Started reading his free book. Reading it all? I wondered.

Here We Go. Where Are We Going? Nobody Really Knows …

Tuesday, September 24, 2019 at 7:48 am.

Honest to goodness! We are all going, going, going. Yeah, going to one place or the other. We are all searching. Searching, searching, searching for what? We don’t really know.

Happy Times. Bad Times. There Is A Solution For Either One. Really? …

Indeed! We humans think of many solutions for the least to the greatest circumstances in our lives, are those solutions worth it? That remains to be seen. Food for thought.

Me? The Almighty Done Plucked Me Out Of The Solution Department, And? …

Tuesday, September 24, 2019 at 9:47 am.

It’s a good thing He did! None of my solutions came close at all to resolve the basic unsolvable human’s problem, but!

The Only Solution I Am Now Compelled to Proclaim? It’s Reaching Its Aim …?

Therefore? No need for me to complain in disdain to the blatant human arrogance to pretend to solve from the least to the greatest needing solution. Why?

Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation? …

It’s now shinning for. It’s no longer just a metaphor. O my Master! Every single moment You come forth. You let the shinning light of Your plan shine over my human mind, and?

I Take Courage To Overcome The Darkness Surrounding Me …

Wednesday, September 25, 2019 at 6:33 am.

Yes, this a world of darkness even in the light of human wisdom but You know it my Father! No matter. Your words are a lamp unto my feet to always point the way.

As A Human? I Panic. I Despair, But! …

Thursday, September 26, 2019 at 3:25 am.

The Ever Existent One has lifted me up to live above my human nature. He has wakened up His nature within me to live by. A mouth full of an unexplainable phenom. Even so?

After My Human’s Nature Panic And Despair? Grace. Favor …?

Behold! His Power Of Love and Wisdom From On High Descending Upon Us All. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation!

By Your Power Of Love And Wisdom? I Am Living And Going On …?

Is that something that I can brag and take it for granted? By no means. It’s a humbling experience. A power and wisdom way beyond my human’s imagination, yet!

As Simple As Becoming Like A Little Child …

Even so? Becoming like a little child? A process. We live in a world of spiritual darkness not suited for a little child. Thus?

A Supernatural Process Must Take Place …

There you have another mouth full an unexplainable phenom, but! I spent the whole day yesterday attempting to illustrate the matter. Guess what? Going back to the task. Got a better perspective now.

Would You Want To Know Your History?

A Simple Way To Find It Out.

True History! Worth Checking Into …

Friday, September 27, 2019 at 11:42 am.

It’s as simple as taking a second look about the way we look at things. But of course, we are so set in our ways that it’s nearly impossible for us to consider any other way. Even worse?

We Resist Change Of Our Way With A Purple Passion! Why? …

Because our ways really define ourselves. True. Many of us try and try to change our ways. There are numerous of institutions and individuals set to help anyone in that department, but!

The World Has Yet To Find A Solution As Much As Problem Solutions Are Hailed Effective …

Effective yes, for that specific problem, but! The basic or source of all our problems remains unsolved until the time comes for each one of us individually.

The Time? The Appointed Time That Is. That Time? …

Supernaturally decreed. I know I sound ‘goofy’—religious—out on the left field—insane—or whatever label could be saddled on me. Regardless! It’s not about me.

True History Stands. Regardless All Objections And Biases …

The heading graphic encompasses our whole history. Been working on it for many days. I pause from my writing. I reflect on all written. I wait to hear that voice from within to change, add, or take from it.

Finally! The Moment Of Truth. Finished? We’ll See …

Friday, September 27, 2019 at 2:49 pm.

Master? Am I to take for an answer the words You spoke to me in 2013? I am beginning to see Your order and ways with my life. My life’s history? Repeats itself. A crucial moment in 2013 repeat? Let me see.

Still On The Second Day Of This Crucial Moment Of My Life…

The heading caught my attention. I began to read the same thoughts and feelings I ‘been going through for the last few days. Strange. It did not hit me until this moment the meaning of pulling that file by accident.

Now I See. There Are No Accidents In My Life …?

Every minute detail of my life has been carefully planned by the Master Creator of my being’s invisible power of love and unfathomable wisdom. No two ways about it. His words? My proof. Quote:

“Indeed! My child, I have given you as much wisdom as I gave to King Solomon and from now on I will show the world that indeed such is the case.

“Remain in this room in silent until I open your mouth to speak the words of My wisdom that I will put in your mouth when the time comes for Ahmad to approach you.

“From now on fear no longer shall assail you. For I’m injecting within your being more courage than the most courageous man in this world and cringing fear will be a thing of the past in your daily existence.

“On the contrary, from now on your enemies shall fear you and all the rats in this world will not dare to attack or frighten you with their unwanted presence.

“And because of the work that I am now consummating between you and Ahmad many people shall learn the meaning of fearing Me!

“For I am Almighty Yahuwah and this time all nations shall know and fear My name. And My people shall learn what it is to offer Me a pleasing service and acceptable worship, with modesty and pious care and righteous fear and awe!

“Again, remain in this room in silent & composure for I am with you to strengthen & sustain you under any and all circumstances that I allow to develop in your midst.”

Who Am I? What Do I Do?

Friday, September 27, 2019 at 1:20 am

I am thiaBasilia. Was called to journal my life since 1985. Have not missed a day since March 1987. My life’s Journal? To tell my story. The purpose? To proclaim the Master Creator of our being’s Name for the work of transformation from a cringing fearful creature I once was to a new fearless one that I am now.
Started blogging since 2006. I have created several sites, but the main one is https://www.thia-basilia.com/. Have posted all my writings. The following post is one of my latest. Much is written, but! Don’t be surprised if you bump into one of the other sites to a post that speaks directly to you.

Why Am I Telling You About Me? …

Simple. I know the answer about our history by my own personal experience of it. But? Regardless! It’s not about my knowledge at all!

May Your Spirit O Mighty One, Enlighten Each One Of Your Children …

What is all about? This time? Your children will respond. So You have decreed it to be. Me? Waiting, waiting, waiting on You with patience and composure now more than ever before.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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I Done Lost My Mind, But! …

September 22, 2019

I Found A Better One! …

A Mind Of Power And Wisdom …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 8:25 am.

A rare mind not freely given at random. Such is the fact of life I am finding while the high seas sailing on A Turquoise Rose under the expertise from on high minding.

No Kidding! Unfathomable Power And Wisdom …?

Such power and wisdom are nothing like I can fathom! I am beginning to accept such reality. It’s of no use for me to sit or laid down to figure things out in self-consciousness.

Power And Wisdom To Recognize Self-Consciousness …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 2:00 pm.

It’s 2 pm. The number Two stands for division. Amazing how what I am to record came to mind at exactly 2 pm. Recognizing self-consciousness? Power and wisdom to overcome it.

Understanding? Nay! Experiencing The Scriptures I Hope …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 5:44 pm.

No kidding! I am careful now of all statements I record. Perhaps at this hour of the day? All things seem bleak unto me. Even so? No matter how bleak things seem to be, You are in control, my Master. I wait on You.

2:49 pm chk inbox. Msge from Deene 3:51 pm sleep?

This Day Is Over. So Are My Worries/Preoccupations …

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

Ahmad did not come or called. No one called. No one came. Other than hearing from my old friend Deene, all people of my concern are far from me. But I did talk to Joyce.

The Internet Is Working. The Weather Is Pleasant. Food And Water OK …?

I am sad but not dejected anymore. I must face it, I am human. The lack of human fellowship saddens me. But I rather have no fellowship than the former fellowship I craved.

The Former Fellowship? Full Of Carnal Cravings I Thought To Be ‘Love’ …?

What a prison I was in unaware. The saddest part? Now that I am out of prison? I really do care. I’m full of the power of love and wisdom from You, but! O well!

No Need For Me To Go There. I Am Here …?

I am here present in Your Presence. I am not alone. You are with me regardless my feelings. My sadness? Your sadness. For You have accomplished Your Oneness with You within me. Quote:

That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
What is happening to you now?
I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Wow! How Neat You Are Putting My Life Together …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 12:24 am.

How can I say thanks? No words to express my gratitude at this midnight hour. I am here. I was lost over there. A lost sheep thorn and mangled. Death hovering over me. But just then? You found me.

Almost Dead. You Carried Me Upon Your Shoulders …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 1:13 am.

Amazing! In looking for the record on this matter, I found two most revealing files of what is going on with me right now. Astonished!

You Are For Real My Master! …

You are not only putting my life together, but! You are showing me how to reach to my children by the power of Your loving care for me. Here are the links:

What I Really Wanted Wanted Found Me The Father Creator Of My Being He Found Me His Prodigal One His Little Sheep

You Are My Shepherd. You Care For Me …?

You Lead Me To The Still Waters From The Highest Sea …

Your Presence Is Real To Me …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 6:00 pm. To 10:25 pm.

All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You.

Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.

Indeed! Your Presence Is Real To Me …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:13 am.

It seems to me to be a fact of life to take strange things for granted. Even so? You are showing me those strange things to either help or to disturb us. So?

You Are Revealing Yourself To Me As Promised …

I never saw it before. My idea of You revealing Yourself? In person. I somehow been expecting for You to knock on my door any time. How disappointing!

You Been Revealing Yourself In My Heart All This Time! Duh!

The saddest part? Every knock on my door is just Ahmad or one of his sons, no Yahushua, but! Yahushua is already in and I ignore Him. How rude!

O My Master! The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

You been knowing all this time what was in my heart, but! You didn’t hold it against me. You waited until this moment to reveal this matter to me in the most gracious way—humorously, but!

Effective. What? Yes. Effective …

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Once again, pause, reflect. What happened yesterday? Let’s summarize your day.

·       This Day Is Over. So Are My Worries/Preoccupations …

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

·       The Internet Is Working. The Weather Is Pleasant. Food And Water OK …?

·       The Former Fellowship? Full Of Carnal Cravings I Thought To Be ‘Love’ …?

·       No Need For Me To Go There. I Am Here …?

I am here present in Your Presence. I am not alone. You are with me regardless my feelings. My sadness? Your sadness. For You have accomplished Your Oneness wit You within me. Quote:

That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.

What is happening to you now?

I have filled you to capacity, therefore?

This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

·       Wow! How Neat You Are Putting My Life Together …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 12:24 am.

How can I say thanks? No words to express my gratitude at this midnight hour. I am here. I was lost over there. A lost sheep thorn and mangled. Death hovering over me. But just then? You found me.

·       Almost Dead. You Carried Me Upon Your Shoulders …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 1:13 am.

Amazing! In looking for the record on this matter, I found two most revealing files of what is going on with me right now. Astonished!

·       You Are For Real My Master! …

You are not only putting my life together, but! You are showing me how to reach to my children by the power of Your loving care for me. Here are the links:

At that point you emailed the entry to Denise on Wed, Sep 18, 2:10 AM. My child, My beloved thiaBasilia, let me show you what and why your pain and misery returned after you emailed that entry to Denise.

Your heart was set in reconnecting with your child, but! It did not happen. By daybreak? You were hoping for Ahmad to show up but it did not happen. You kept working on the book cover hoping to ignore your pain and discomfort.

You laid down hoping for sleep. You could not sleep. Finally! The phone rang. Ahmad on the line in a euphoric state announcing he now had time for you. In your turn? You spill out all the things you have listed needing replenish.

You thought Ahmad would get your things and come to bring those things to you. By the time you realized Ahmad was not coming your pain had accelerated. You kept ignoring the pain, but you recorded:

All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You. Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.

My child, O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Your willingness to endure rather than return to your old ways delight My Being.

Yes, My ways to deal with you are effective to produce the integrity of your character.

Today, Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 8:13 am I am revealing to you how the ills that Ahmad have caused you are still festering your being. Why? Because, Ahmad has never once recognized such ills.

The time is coming now for Ahmad to level up with you. That’s what he was trying to tell you yesterday when he told you he now had time for you.

Now My child, I’m going to level up with you. I am the One Who, actually, have caused you all the ills you have suffered not only here but through your whole existence.

I am the One Who have fed you with the bread of affliction because of your sins.

And I am the One Who is now fully exonerating you.

This is your Jubilee year. All your debts are cancelled.

How are you feeling right now? Is your pain fading away? Are you wondering if this is all for real? Go to fix your breakfast. Relax. Keep waiting on Me.”

Well? I’m Still Feeling Pretty Decent Despite? …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:20 pm.

Despite the hour. Despite the fact there is no change in my situation with Ahmad. Since breakfast time I have accomplish much—the apartment is clean. All things are in order, and?

I Am Beginning To Really Grasp Your Meaning …

Even in my dreams. While I slept earlier today I had a very strange dream. I cannot quite get the interpretation because it is so strange, but in one possibility I remember that it could mean someone is trying to trick me.

Master? This Whole World Is Set On Tricks …

They call it A special skill; a knack among other labels but! The whole idea is to persuade people to buy or do something that ultimately is for the benefit of the trickster. So? in my dream:

I found myself walking to get something someone had sent to me. Suddenly! A trash can. In it? An envelope sealed and address to me. Talking to whoever I said, Look at this. Why is in the trash? What is it? I pick it up. Open it. Up comes some greenish new trousers. It seems that what I was waiting for could have been wrapped in the trouser, so, I began to shake it up, nothing came out. I woke up.

None Of The Interpretation Rang A Bell Except For The Trick Suggestion …

Eventually? I caught on Your meaning. It’s all about the situation with Ray Edwards. They never answer my email with my miracles’ testimony, but! I did register for the free webinar coming up today.

Ha! It Just Dawn On Me! O My Master You Are So Real! …

I have really, really quit chasing millions, but! Because Ray is talking about Your miracle in his life and he mentions Yahushua (Jesus) I thought that perhaps that was from You. And?

It Could Be. But That Is For Ray And All Interested In The Betterment Of Their Business …

I do not have a business. I am the product of Your business. It’s not up to me to promote Your business. My task is to write, publish, and optimize in that order. You are doing the rest with all that I write and publish.

So? In Short? I Will Not Attend The Webinar …?

In the dream You are warning me of the trick to persuade me to come up with big money to get big money. What a trick! But!

You Are In Control Of It All …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 4:15 pm.

I have no doubt in my mind something good shall come out of all this. Even so? that’s not for me to be concerned about. Thank Goodness! And?

About Ahmad And My Supplies? …

No need to set my hope for comfort on Ahmad. You are my supplier. Perhaps I don’t need to be addicted to coffee or honey or to anything of this world. I am addicted to You only and altogether. You know that, my Master. Back to my optimizing graphics.

Midnight. Woke up. Back to sleep …?

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 12:26 am. 2:56 am.

Are we fishing in muddy waters, my Master? In the dream we were fishing. First we were standing up. Then? We sat with our legs hanging over the cliff. Suddenly! I was falling down into the muddy waters way down us, but! You grabbed me. I did not fall. I woke up hurting big time my Master, but You know all about it.

Waiting, My Master, Waiting …

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 6:24 am.

Thanks for sleep while You work things out for us all. For whatever reason Ahmad has not shown up is no longer to disturb me. For You are in control. I must decrease. You must increase.

Whatever Is Happening Out There …?

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 11:43 am.

It’s not to disturb Your peace within me. You are really, really in control of it all. Even so? You are aware of my feelings as well as of my thinking. I do wonder what is happening out there, but!

Once You Remind Me Of Your Written Words …?

Your written words, not only written in the Scriptures but in my heart as well. Once those words resound within me? Your peace returns to me big time, and? I take courage to go on.

Well? More And More The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom Is A Reality For Me …

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 3:09 pm.

You have ingrained within me Your power of love and wisdom. Such power is opposite to the known human love and wisdom that we are all know and practice. Even so?

This Matter Is Now Coming To Light …

Saturday, September 21, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

Master? You know how intent I am in creating the most descriptive graphics of my reality You have decreed for me. Quote:

I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

The Best Part? It’s By Your Inspiration That I Am Creating …?

You lead me to the exact graphics I am to use in those creations. Day by day I am getting better at it. I look, I exclaim, “That’s so beautiful, my Master!” Soon? It’s lacking something, my Master, what would it be?

One More Day Gone. Another One Here …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 3:31 am.

And life on these earthly grounds continue to move on. Success. Prosperity. Failure. Poverty? Hand on hand the band marches on.

Me? Under Your Throne Pleading For Mercy I’m On Hold …

Soon. Whatever will be will be. Time will tell. Meantime time? You are guarding me to keep me well. You are here with me. You are there with them.

Whatever Will Be? It’s Now …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 7:00 pm.

Humor instead of panic. Master, You are so neat! In the midst of my wailing as I imagined my baby in death row? You stopped right and quick. Here is a reply to my baby’s email telling me not to worry. Quote:

Well? Panic over just as soon as it started! lol Thank goodness for your two kidneys! No problem with my kidneys at all! My pain comes from gas packets in my body. Once i spell the gas the pain is over.

In the other hand? I am healed. Really, really healed! My body and my mind are functioning again. Is really neat the way Father has put my life together. I can now face the highest mountain and overcome it! No kidding, including my one kidney baby. One kidney? Crazy? Talking about a mountain? I could picture you in line for a kidney transplant, and i wail! Suddenly! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? IT’S JUST YOUR EMOTIONAL UPHEAVAL! NOTHING IS WRONG! QUIT IT!

ah! I thought, You are working all things for our good! no problem. I went back to my business and forgot all about you and your one kidney. Ate. Slept. and? Your email! Case closed! Mountain overcome! HAHAHA! HALLELUJAH!

No Kidding! That Kind Of Mountain? Not Rare In Most Of Our Lives, Why? …

Because our lives are lived on emotional grounds even in the most reasonable scenery. Even the most level-headed ones do wail should a child is stricken with a fatal illness, but!

There Is Hope For Such Train Of Thought To Stop …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 11:08 pm.

Master? Will continue sharing whatever You are sharing with me and compel me to share with whomever You send to this site. Closing for now.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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Tried At High Seas …

September 17, 2019

Tried, Smelted, And Refined!
No Problem! Expert Captain At The Helm!…

What Am I To Do The Rest Of This Day? …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 1:09 pm.

Everywhere I turn is about money, health, success, food, pleasure, number one, religion, politics, opinions, what to do lists, work, work, work and now ‘God’, miracles, great quotes, and? The Universe!

Me? All Those Things? The Things That We Lost When We Died Spiritually …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 5:26 pm.

That’s not new revelation. And I for one? I am worn out from talking about it. You know it my Master. That’s why You are compelling me to let go. And You know that I am more than willing to let go, but!

This Thing With Ray Edwards And Miracles In Business? …

It keeps coming back. It has me baffled. You know my determination as I stated in the last post, Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

Now? I Fear I’m Bound By That Determination, Why? …

Well? I am beginning to see a pattern in Your written words. From the beginning You have been the One talking to us first telling us what to do. Quote:

Genesis 2:15-17

And the Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to tend and guard and keep it.

And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, You may freely eat of every tree of the garden; but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and blessing and calamity you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.

Even So? Now? We Humans Not Only Speak First But Also Tell You What We Intent To Do …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 10:16 pm.

Wow! My determination? My insolent response to my distasteful hypocrisy. Now I understand why You brought to my remembrance Your words in 1985. Quote:

“You are being self-conscious. Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Self-Conscious. No Humility Whatsoever. The Present Motto At Large …?

No kidding! Self-consciousness is hailed from all directions whether in piety disguise or openly proclaiming self to be supreme king to reign in a euphoric world of our own.

I’m Dumbfound! My Face To The Ground. Naked I Am Found, But! …?

Thank goodness! Your infinite mercy to cover me and lifting and making my life significant. Your words come to life right at this midnight hour. Quote:

James 4:8-10

Come close to God and He will come close to you. [Recognize that you are] sinners, get your soiled hands clean; [realize that you have been disloyal] wavering individuals with divided interests, and purify your hearts [of your spiritual adultery].

[As you draw near to God] be deeply penitent and grieve, even weep [over your disloyalty]. Let your laughter be turned to grief and your mirth to dejection and heartfelt shame [for your sins].

Humble yourselves [feeling very insignificant] in the presence of the Master, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up and make your lives significant].

What A Way To Start A New Day. Tried, Smelted, And Refined! …

Monday, September 16, 2019 at 12:09 am.

Once again? The earlier discomfort is gone. I can now rest underneath Your everlasting arms. Your Word is a lamp under my feet to show me the way to eternity. Your Presence is so ever real. Quote:

Daniel 12:10

Many shall purify themselves and make themselves white and be tried, smelted, and refined, but the wicked shall do wickedly. And none of the wicked shall understand, but the teachers and those who are wise shall understand. [Dan 11:33-35]

No Kidding! Tried, Smelted, And Refined!

This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now my reality. I slept from midnight until around 3:18 am but! I didn’t feel good at all. I went back to bed for more sleep.

In My Mind? Why Am I Not Feeling Good? …

Tried at high seas came to me. Ha! As usual? I was not counting on more tries onward. Was only hoping for the manifestation of my rewards.

That, Too? Blowing In The Wind Of Self-Exaltation, Mind You …

U hoo! Does that ring my bell? Big time as well as my ankles swell! Humor instead of anger. The Master’s kind of humor in Psalms 2. Quote:

Psalms 2:1-12.

WHY DO the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme?

The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Lord and His Anointed One (the Messiah, the Christ). They say, [Act 4:25-27]

“Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.”

He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Master has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them].

He speaks to them in His deep anger and troubles (terrifies and confounds) them in His displeasure and fury, saying,

Yet have I anointed (installed and placed) My King [firmly] on My holy hill of Zion.

I will declare the decree of the Master: He said to Me, You are My Son; this day [I declare] I have begotten You. [Heb 1:5; Heb 3:5-6; 2Pe 1:17-18]

Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth as Your possession.

You shall break them with a rod of iron; You shall dash them in pieces like potters’ ware. [Rev 12:5; Rev 19:15]

Now therefore, O you kings, act wisely; be instructed and warned, O you rulers of the earth.

Serve the Master with reverent awe and worshipful fear; rejoice and be in high spirits with trembling [lest you displease Him].

Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled.

O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him! End of quote.

Wow! Earlier In The Afternoon? I Laid In Bed …

Thinking of all temporal preoccupations of mine and at large. Considering my distress and unrest about such spectacle, I asked, what is eternity? Ha! John 17 popped in mind.

I Grabbed My Scriptures And My Spectacles Within The Reach Of My Hands …

I began a loud carefully each verse reading as if to hear what I have not heard before. Wow! Each word resonated deep within washing me clean from all doubts, fears, and misconceptions. Quote:

John 17

When Yahushua had spoken these things, He lifted up His eyes to heaven and said,

“Father, the hour has come. Esteem and exalt and honor and magnify Your Son, so that Your Son may esteem and extol and honor and magnify You. Just as You have granted Him power and authority over all flesh (all humankind), now esteem Him so that He may give eternal life to all whom You have given Him.

“And this is eternal life: it means to know (to perceive, recognize, become acquainted with, and understand) You, the only true and real Mighty One, and likewise to know Him, Yahushua as the Messiah, Whom You have sent.

“I have esteemed You down here on the earth by completing the work that You gave Me to do. And now, Father, esteem Me along with Yourself and restore Me to such majesty and honor in Your Presence as I had with You before the world existed.

“I have manifested Your Name—I have revealed Your very Self, Your real Self to the people whom You have given Me out of the world. They were Yours, and You gave them to Me, and they have obeyed and kept Your word.

“Now at last they know and understand that all You have given Me belongs to You is really and truly Yours. For the uttered words that You gave Me I have given them; and they have received and accepted them and have come to know positively and in reality to believe with absolute assurance that I came forth from Your Presence, and they have believed and are convinced that You did send Me.

“I am praying for them. I am not praying (requesting) for the world, but for those You have given Me, for they belong to You. All things that are Mine are Yours, and all things that are Yours belong to Me; and I am esteemed in (through) them. They have done Me honor; in them My esteem is achieved.

“And now I am no more in the world, but these are still in the world, and I am coming to You. Set Apart Father, keep in Your Name in the knowledge of Yourself those whom You have given Me, that they may be one as We are one.

“While I was with them, I kept and preserved them in Your Name in the knowledge and worship of You. Those You have given Me I guarded and protected, and not one of them has perished or is lost except the son of perdition—Judas Iscariot–the one who is now doomed to destruction, destined to be lost, that the Scripture might be fulfilled.

“And now I am coming to You; I say these things while I am still in the world, so that My joy may be made full and complete and perfect in them that they may experience My delight fulfilled in them, that My enjoyment may be perfected in their own souls, that they may have My gladness within them, filling their hearts.

“I have given and delivered to them Your word (message) and the world has hated them, because they are not of the world do not belong to the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not ask that You will take them out of the world, but that You will keep and protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world (worldly, belonging to the world), just as I am not of the world.

“Set them apart—purify, consecrate, separate them for Yourself, make them clean by the Truth; Your Word is Truth. Just as You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. And so for their sake and on their behalf I dedicate, consecrate, set Myself apart, that they also may be set apart, dedicated, consecrated, made clean in the Truth.

“Neither for these alone do I pray it is not for their sake only that I make this request, but also for all those who will ever come to believe in—trust in, cling to, rely on Me through their word and testimony, That they all may be one, just as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be one in Us, so that the world may believe and be convinced that You have sent Me.

“I have given to them the esteem and honor which You have given Me, that they may be one even as We are ONE: I in them and You in Me, in order that they may become ONE and perfectly united, that the world may know and definitely recognize that You sent Me and that You have loved them even as You have loved Me.

“Father, I desire that they also whom You have entrusted to Me as Your gift to Me may be with Me where I am, so that they may see My esteem, which You have given Me Your love gift to Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.

“O just and righteous Father, although the world has not known You and has failed to recognize You and has never acknowledged You, I have known You continually; and these men understand and know that You have sent Me.

“I have made Your Name known to them and revealed Your character and Your very Self, and I will continue to make You known, that the love which You have bestowed upon Me may be in them felt in their hearts and that I Myself may be in them.” End of quote.

Dear Readers and followers, I have no words to describe the effect of reading those words at that precise moment of time. All I can say is that the reading humbled me big time!

The Oneness Of My Being With The Master? A Humbling Realization …?

I mean humbling in all the meaning of the word. Truly? No need for a humble person to be concerned with the business of this world. Quote:

Watch Yourselves

Luke 21:34-36

But take heed to yourselves and be on your guard, lest your hearts be overburdened and depressed (weighed down) with the giddiness and headache and nausea of self-indulgence, drunkenness, and worldly worries and cares pertaining to [the business of] this life, and [lest] that day come upon you suddenly like a trap or a noose;

For it will come upon all who live upon the face of the entire earth.

Keep awake then and watch at all times [be discreet, attentive, and ready], praying that you may have the full strength and ability and be accounted worthy to escape all these things [taken together] that will take place, and to stand in the presence of the Son of Man. End of quote.

A Personal Warning For Me, For Anyone Who Wishes To Mind It …

The concern of the humble is found in the verse: O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him! In Yahushua the Messiah.

The Time Has Come For Me To Settle Down As Per The Master’s Decree For Me …?

The Master means business! Reality! No need for me to indulge in vain speculations and preoccupations about the reality of my existence. This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now my reality, period.

O My Master! You Really Are At The Helm Of My Earthly Existence …?

Should I humor myself on this miraculous realization? Indeed! Humor instead of anger is to be my motto from now on as You instituted way back when this stage of my journey began.

Humorous Memories Of Motherhood …

A sizable repertoire of my mothering seven precious little humans. Each one of them with their unique personalities. It would take a book to describe each one of them, but!

The Mention Of These Memories? The Basis For My Humor Instead Of Anger Motto …

Our parenthood is a replica of our Creator’s parenthood. Even so? Such fact never dawned on me. I was too busy playing my life’s role that it never occurred to me to investigate where such role came from.

Well? Perhaps I Am Not Alone. Not Many Humans Bother With Such Matters …?

But the truth of the matter is that the Scriptures, misnomer the Bible are not a myth or a book only for religious matters. Despite all scholars present and past?

The Scriptures Are Our History …

Monday, September 16, 2019 at 12:41 pm.

That is not my idea or opinion. Is the fact of life that is now coming to light for the benefit of the chosen people of the Almighty Sole Creator of everything in existence.

Who Is The Chosen People And Do You Belong There? …

That is also a fact that is now coming to light on the individual basis. Right now? We are all scattered in the four corner of the earth each one with their own choice of lifestyle, but!

The Decreed Time For All To Change Is Soon To Materialize …?

Me? Let me see what the Master says about me that I am to pass on to thee, shall we? O well! The Master done let it be known what exactly He thinks about me, even to my own self! Thank goodness!

Next post?

I Done Lost My Mind, But! …

I Found A Better One! …

A Mind Of Power And Wisdom …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 8:25 am.

A rare mind not freely given at random. Such is the fact of life I am finding while the high seas sailing on A Turquoise Rose under the expertise from on high minding.

Enjoy! Deploy!

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Truth Can Be Offensive/Insulting …

September 14, 2019

Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?

Big Time! Wished To Die, But!

That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.

Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.

No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …

Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:

Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!

The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”

Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,

“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”

Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.

“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”

Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!

“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!

No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”

O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!

“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.

From now on all your doings shall become sensible and your feelings for goodness shall intensify as well as your feelings for badness.

And your thoughts shall be under the captivity of My thoughts. This drastic change within your being shall soon take hold of the hearts of many who would turn to Me and esteem My name as they see your good works.”

Master, what about these festivals and different things that Your people are so deep into? What am I to do? What am I to respond to inquires as to my behavior on these days of excitement for Your people?

And, Master, what am I to do about my health? What about all the body discomforts I suffer all the time? Am I to do anything about my body? How am I to take care of my body?

“My beloved, say and do exactly as I have been leading you to say and do. Do not relent in speaking My WORD as it is written.

Truly, My Thia, your time has come to delight Me and from here on out ALL things and ALL matters shall come to pass in your life as it is written and as I have been telling you personally.

My beloved Thia, I am well aware of your physical condition. Your body is continuously decaying on account of the environmental conditions caused by the sin of mankind under the evil influence of our enemy.

Nonetheless, you have nothing to worry about because My grace is sufficient unto you; that means that you are able to withstand all and any discomfort in your body and rejoice rather than complain about it.

You are in excellent health and I will keep your body in healthy conditions until the time comes to invest you with a new body immune to decay.

My beloved Thia, from now on you will be sitting still and yet your activity in the realm of My invisible Kingdom shall intensify ten fold.

As of this instant I am taking control of your imaginations. Your steps shall be steady as you move in any direction.

And the song of praise and adoration to Me shall intensify to the point of the highest heaven.

Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

Wow! I guess I won’t post this amazing word fulfilled today because I am sleepy. By the time I wake up the Net won’t work. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 am.

Absolutely Awesome! Those Words? …

Sailing the turbulent waves of these lower seas? I had even forgotten those words until this moment. Ten years beaten by the treacherous waves this world could to me thrust me under.

Even So? My Master Lives In My Deepest Chamber! …

Nothing and no one have been able to really disturb me despite all my lapses and preoccupations. Brutal pain and lack of gain? Almost to the exact day I am typing these lines without pain—no worries about my lack of gain.

MIRACLE!

Let’s go to the details if we must.

Introduction

What’s With This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory Been Writing About? …

Will Do My Best To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 1:56 pm.

Why do I keep regressing instead of progressing? Day by day the answer is coming clear to me but not to thee, dear Reader follower.

Therefore? This Introduction …

Let me summarize the sequence of events. Our lives come in cycles. In my life? I don’t know exactly when each cycle begins and ends except for this last cycle starting with An Extended Adventurous Voyage—the present cycle I am living in.

Here is the list of post from present to previous for your reference to understand this introduction.

Ahoy! The Turquoise Rose Ship!
Posted on September 11, 2019by thiaBasilia
An Extended Adventurous Voyage …
Posted on September 7, 2019by thiaBasilia
What Troubles Me? What Troubles You? Have You Been Face To Face With The Cause Not The Matter? …
Posted on August 23, 2019by thiaBasilia
You Might Enjoy Learning The Same One Who Sustains Me Sustains You …
Posted on August 17, 2019by thiaBasilia
You Might Enjoy Learning Who Sustains Me …
Posted on August 16, 2019by thiaBasilia
Announcing Or Announcement? I Chose Announcement …
Posted on July 30, 2019by thiaBasilia

Strange, But! Since I Started The Present Cycle? Not Many Clicks …

What is happening? I already explained the matter in the An Extended Adventurous Voyage post, but! It looks like it made no difference to my readers.

I Not Concerned About The Clicks, But!? …

I am concerned with how I am coming through to my readers. What came to me just this morning? To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain.

It is plain to me how everything that happens in the physical realm has its source in the spiritual realm.

Our Physical Pain Has Its Source In What Is Buried In Our Spirits—The Deepest Part Of Our Beings …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 3:49 pm.

I am learning these things on the daily and moment to moment basis with every stage of my physical condition. The fluctuation of my physical condition troubles me big time.

That’s Why I Keep Regressing Instead Of Progressing, Until This Morning …?

What happened this morning? I had been in the gutter of my own negative thinking since yesterday when I came into the knowledge of being a ‘lame duck’ for lack of Ahmad’s support.

Down I Went! All Day. All Night. Until The Master Lift Me Up Earlier Today …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 10:52 pm.

Earlier today I got up from bed because I could not sleep. My mind kept churning with Ahmad’s lack of support. I kept begging for help. The answer came to my inbox.

Just Out Of Curiosity? I Clicked The Headline …

Wow! First glimpse of the people’s coming to terms with reality. I was impressed. Though that not in total agreement with the author of the post? I replied to comment. Quote:

I’m impressed! Radical Judgement of one’s self is the one thing, perhaps the only thing to solve our problems. Over and over I must radically judge myself.

Dear Reader, I will give you a bulleted summary of how this renewal of mine has been on the making for the last 45 years since 1974 when I discover the Scriptures.

The year was 1974—I discovered the Scriptures. Got into the unknown spiritual realm. Lost my mind. Stopped reading the Scriptures.

The year was 1979—amazing healing experience from deep wound inflicted upon me in my childhood. The result? Regain my physical health. Back in the Scriptures.

The year was 1983—Gruesome divorce. Felt apart. Lost hope. Lost all morals. Hit the top of immoral living.

The year was 1985—Suddenly! Unexpectedly! My whole life was run like a film strip in my view. What did I realize as I viewed the film?

I had gone through life unaware of the secret saving power of the Spirit of the Almighty Creator of my being, taking everything and everybody for granted without consideration of anything other than my own understanding of life, and the raw feelings of my emotions.

Restored,

A second mental breakdown.

Called to journal my life, but! Did not listen.

The year was 1986—convicted. Power to quit my work. Power to listen.

The year was 1987—began new life under my gifted friend’s care. Began to journal my life consistently.

The year was 1992—saddest year for me, my gifted friend died. I became lost. I felt abandoned. Back to my old life of family and church.

The year was 1994—bought property. Became sort of independent. Happy time.

The year was 1995—depression treatment? Electric shocks. Almost destroyed me. My daughter rescued me, but that’s the year my prescription drug addiction began.

The year was 1999—inspired to go live with family. Sold my property. Things did not work out. I felt spiritually dead.

The year was 2001—back on my own again. Got beautiful apartment, but! Got involved in helping seniors instead of my call to journal my life as instructed to do.

The year was 2007—that’s the year I dropped unconscious, victim of misdiagnose. Rushed to the emergency room at the point of death. Convicted. Repented. Restored.

The year was 2008—called to go to the ‘lost sheep of Israel. Power to accept the call.

The year was 2009—called to get out of the USA. Destination? The wilderness of people to judge me face to face.

The year was 2015—call to go with my gifted son Ahmad. He is to be my authority while we wait for Yahushua’s return.

The year was 2017—got the roof apartment of my dreams. My renewed life began.

The year is now 2019—WOW! What a year it has been. This is to be the year of our jubilee, but! O well?

It Surely Doesn’t Look Like Jubilee At All! But!

The Almighty Creator is in control of His creation. I am committed and submitted to Him as my supreme Authority. He has declared me to be His messenger. So? End of quote.

Reading And Commenting On That Post? It Brought Me To My Senses …

Reflecting on what I read? That’s what stopped the flow of negative thoughts. Then? I was able to hear my Master’s instructions to call Ahmad.

It Does Not Matter How It Looks To Us All …

Me? I’m, I have been going through another rough period of my journey. Don’t know what is to be even in the next moment. I go up and down, but!

O My Master! You Are Faithful To Your Word To Sustain Me …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 12:04 am.

One more 7^th Day of Rest. Things don’t look too good between Ahmad and me. I am somewhat dejected, but! I am resting on You. I keep remembering Your recent words to comfort me. Quote:

“Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

The Sting Of Ahmad’s Words To Release His Anger? …

Enough fuel for my dejection, but! I’m taking what I give. I spit out similar words to him to release my own anger, and?

That’s A Good Thing! Be Ye Angry And Sin Not …?

Wow! Thanks, my Master! How amazing are Your words when You apply them to my inner being. To release one’s anger keeps one from the festering resentment that causes all our physical pain and misery.

Now I Am Beginning To Understand The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

Perhaps this introduction will help my readers to understand such power as well. On to the details of what is going on in my journey.

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on!

Human Integrity? Limited. Questionable Big Time …?

No Kidding! That’s Not My Idea, Dear Readers …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 3:57 am.

I wish it was because then you would be justified in abandoning this blog, but! The truth is now coming to light in many blogs/books and such other than this single post.

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on! …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:11 am.

How can that be? Everybody thinks highly of me. I’m faithful. I live by the word. I help the orphans and the widows. I support the Church and ministers. I – I – I – am a good Christian woman.

Me? How Can That Be? Talking about offended? Until …

Until the reality of truth hit my gut! It’s Wednesday, September 11, 2019 at 10:36 pm. Know what? I’m having an awful time writing about this issue.

Insults, Or What Is Considered As An Insult? Turns A One Away …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:26 am.

Indeed! Turns a one away from the source of the insult without hesitation. Thus? Many of my followers have abandoned this blog offended by the truth that will set them free. Even so?

The Almighty Sole Creator Of Our Beings Has Not Abandoned Them …?

Not a single one of His begotten children shall be lost. He plans to restore every single one of us. Only? His ways to do it all? Simple but! Illogical!

The Human Mind Cannot Grasp Such Ways …

That’s the fact to be exact. There is no need for me to be concerned about the followers of this blog. There is no need for me to be concerned about my loved one’s present behavior.

Master? You Are Lifting Me Up To Sail The High Seas …

The high seas away from any country’s jurisdiction. Away from my preoccupation with the human element. Your plan of restoration is coming to pass exactly as You have decreed it to pass despite all my preoccupations.

That’s The Fact To Be Exact. On To High Seas This Day I’ll Sail …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at.4:47 am.

O my Master! You have set me free from all my preoccupations. All around me I see, I read all the goings on of my people near and far. On this moment of time?

My Soul Is Free—On To High Seas I’ll Sail—Holding On To My Master’s Rail …

Clarity is in my mind to see far and beyond the furthest realm my imagination could find. The splendid future? Not so far away now.

It Might Be Days-Weeks-Months-Even Years, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:25 am.

The splendid future is already here. In my heart. In my mind. Because in Your Presence? That future I find. Because You live? I can live that future. Because You live? All fear is gone!

I Am Sailing On High Seas Away From The Storms Of Lower Seas Because …?

You have risen in my mind to calm it down. On high seas I am sailing while You are at the helm. No need to be overwhelmed because You are at the helm. Even so?

Reality! On Lower Seas? I’m A Lame Duck …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 12:53 pm.

A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.

What Is A Lame Duck? …

It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!

O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?

I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.

What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.

I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.

Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?

Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …

I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.

Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.

I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.

You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.

I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.

Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.

First? I sense You calling me to sleep. Well? I guess You were not calling me to sleep. I could not sleep. I got up. All kinds of things been running through my mind because of pain, lack of appetite and now lack of sleep.

You Have Shown To Me All Physical Conditions Are Rooted In The Spiritual …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 8:44 am.

Every single day You demonstrate what You show to me. My body reacts to what is going on in my spirit. A Lame Duck? That revelation threw me for spin downwards.

I Reverted To My Old Way Of Thinking Big Time, But! …

You kept me from staying there. Even so? A Lame Duck? Because Ahmad is not supporting me. From that thinking? Because. Because. Because kept churning in my mind until a moment ago.

It Came To Me, Why Are Sitting Here Imagining All Sorts Of Because? …

Call Ahmad. Find out what’s going on. Sure enough, I called. Didn’t have in mind to blow up in anger but that’s exactly what I did. Next? I began to think of jumping ship, but then?

I Lift Up My Voice, Where Can I Go From Your Spirit My Master? …

Behold! Your Power Of Love and wisdom. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! I began to reason, You have planted me here. I am established. I am safe and secure. What nonsense is this of ‘jumping ship’?

Back To Your Track. Holding On To Your Rail On High Sea Waters …

High Sea Waters? Treacherous waters! Unless I hold on to Your rail? I’ll be drowning without fail, but! You are at the helm. Should I let go of Your rail? You tilt the ship to save my tail—a take from Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

Where Am I Going From Here On? I Don’t Know. My Master Knows …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 5:39 am.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? You know all about Your purpose and plan for these writings. Whether I sound pretensions or not? True or false? It’s Your plan to make it known to all.

Me? You Know I Can’t Take Much More …

Between suffering the consequences of my human reactions to fly/flies to ants annoying me while awake or sleep, plus the troubles between Ahmad and me? I am simply worn out. At my wits end again.

Even So? You Are Holding Me Up. I Cannot Jump Ship …?

I am staying put. Sometimes sober. Sometimes I lose it. For the most? Busy searching my writings for files I cannot find, but! One thing I know for sure.

Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

To that end You have drastically dealt with me. I am appalled at my own self’s distasteful hypocrisy! But I am thankful for Your hand of discipline to set me free. A take from Psalms 139. Quote:

Psalms 139:2-5

You know my down-sitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. [Mat 9:4; Joh 2:24-25]

You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Master, You know it altogether. [Heb 4:13]

You have beset me and shut me in–behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.

My Distasteful Hypocrisy In Chasing Millions …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 6:46 am.

Reflecting on what I read that jolted me back on my Master’s track? Besides the admonishing to judge myself radically, a quote shone a beam of Your light to really expose that hypocrisy. Quote:

“Ego is the absolute impediment to Dao. The sin is pride. If it thrills you that you’re enlightened then you’re ruined. Forget sharing it. You’re not pure enough to share it.” — Terence McKenna

Even So? It All Comes To Me From Your Hand Of Mercy …

O my Master! I am not any longer thrilled about my enlightenment on the matter of receiving any enticing emails from Ray Edward et all. In fact? I am appalled! But!

Even That—Appalled? Could Be A Thrill Of My Carnal Nature, So? …

Therefore? I quit. I am letting go of everything. Including my thinking. My ideas and concepts. You are filling my mind with the opposite of all of that as You promised to do a long time ago. Quote:

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua You spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985. You said to me at that moment:

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love. These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others.

Rest in Me and hold My flowers. Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”

And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. And You said to me:

“You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY flowers and not your flowers.”

Then You spoke to me a second Word to answer my dilemma at that time. I asked, ‘Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just to rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be Okay, Father?’ And You answered me,

“I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you. I am telling you just that.

You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off of ME.

Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying. You are being self-conscious.

Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.

Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for My own reasons, even if you don’t understand My reasons.

You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.

Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.

Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings.

That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor.

It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So, don’t worry about anything.

Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.

Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of.

You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

Serious Reflection On The Last Paragraphs You Bring To My Mind …

Quote:

“Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings. That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor. It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

“I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So don’t worry about anything.

“Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being. Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

So Be It. Though I Feel Like Crying For I Am Sad? …

No matter. Because my feelings are on this world’s shores, but! You have lifted me up to sail the high seas away from this world’s shores.

Whether I Sadly Cry Or Not? All It Matters Is To Be Near You On High Or Lower Seas …?

I’m going on. I’ll post these lines with my hope and expectation set on You by the power of Your love and wisdom, but! Before I post I must add the latest as I woke up this morning.

Continuous Constant Change …?

Cycles Of Life Repeating It Selves Precisely …

The First Day With No Pain …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 pm

I slept until 2:54 am. Thank Goodness! The end of my 7^th Day of Rest came with the realization of Your Presence manifestation in a day without pain.

Twelve Years Since? This Cycle Of My Journey Began …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 3:22 am.

The year was 2007. Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Alone I sat reading the recent acquired article on Daniel 8. I began to see the parallel. Suddenly! I was called to the carpet. Quote:

It was a Saturday on September 15, 2007. I was keeping the 7th Day of Rest all by my lonesome. I was reading an article written by Yedidah on Daniel 8. Suddenly! It came to me something to this effect,

“Such is the message I have given to you to proclaim to the world. You are no longer doing so. You cannot hear Me any longer because, you are too busy taking care of the home bound. Because your spirit is sleeping and your mind is dull with all those pills that you are taking.”

Immediately, I got up. I headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my pill big box. I headed to the toilet. I proceeded to flush nearly $1000.00 of prescription drugs I have been faithfully swallowing for that many years.

I came back to the computer. I wrote a resignation letter to my position as a volunteer in the Senior Companion Program. I picked up the phone and cancelled all appointments with 5 specialists in-charged of my health. I made a note to prepare to sell my Kia Sophia.

Then I dropped the bomb on my children. “You are insane!” some of them retorted and quit their mom.

They had had enough of my crazy whims and mental insanity but, this was not insanity nor a whim after all. Years later it has proven it not to be so.

To conclude, for the record, it is now Thursday, October 20, 2016. Tomorrow will mark 30 years since October 21, 1986.

That is another remarkable date in my journey of life in the Presence of my Father/Creator. That was the date when Father marked me as a writer to honor His name.

The honor of our Father/Creator’s name. what does that mean? A mouth full of misunderstanding but, not outside of the Father/Creator’s control & dominion & knowledge.

His wisdom is unfathomable. That will be the subject for subsequent posts on this line. Why?

What the honor of the Father/Creator’s name got to do with mental insanity? The answer to that question gives way to the Innovative Approach to Mental Health that needs to be proclaim to the whole world if there is to be any hope to restore our sanity to avail us for eternity. End of quote.

Much Reflection Needed …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 8:26 am.

I cannot by any stretch of my imagination regress to any resemble of my old ways. But how on earth can I do what I intent to do? Inevitable, I do as I done before at the least provocation.

You Are Being Self Conscious. Quit Trying To Perfect My Work …?

Oops! I hear You big time! What a trip am I! No wonder why the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. O but Your faithfulness to Your words.

I Am In Control, Relax …?

O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
Today is your 12^th anniversary of your return to do what I called you to do since 1985.
I am aware of your misgivings as you read Yedidah’s article on Daniel 8. You can now confirm all stated in that article, but!
The backlash from Yedidah and her followers still lingers inside of you. The reading of the article brought that backlash to the surface.
Thus, the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. Even so?
Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being even before you met Yedidah.
No need for you to hold on to that backslash. Yedidah and her followers cannot comprehend what goes on with your life in My Presence. Let go. I am in control.
Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.
I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake, but! You are human.
In your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time.
That is why I have had to pour the life in My written words slowly and gently in order to fill you with My Spirit in those words.
That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
What is happening to you now?
I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Dear Reader, I am sure you now have a better understanding of this journey of mine. Ready now to post for sure.

Here are the links to my last two books in case anyone is inclined to find out the details of what’s happening and it’s all happening in my life’s journey:

https://www.thia-basilia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/AN-EXTENDED-ADVENTUROUS-VOYAGE-1.pdf

https://www.thia-basilia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Ahoy-The-Turquoise-Ship-Booklet.pdf

booklet Sailing On High Seas

The Turquoise Rose Allegory My Lifes RealityEnjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

Strange Followers Of The Sites. Are They Following You? I Sure Hope So …

I Feel Strange Myself. Unusual, Peculiar Is The Way I Am Feeling More So Every Single Day …

Who Cares How I Feel? You Do My Master, And? …

You Compel Me To Share Such Concern …

It Was Past Midnight. Silence All Around …

O My Master, You Know How Strange I Feel …

A Reminder Of What You Inspired Me To Write Before …

Reminders Of Your Written Words? The How You Sustain And Keep Me Going Upwards To Rest In You. Quote …

Following Him May Mean We Lose Relationships, Dreams, Material Things, Or Even Our Lives With No Regrets …

Your Light Shone. I Said, “But You Are Enduring What You Are Supposed To Endure.” …

A Post From The Past. It Covers More Than One Issue, But!

It all connects with the present. It’s a crucial but lengthy essay, so? The format in PDF for your convenience. Read On: Strange Followers Of The Sites

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do Again …

Thanks, My Master! Sleep Can Do Wonders Sometimes …

And So? That’s My Life Nowadays. Glamour? NAY! But!

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Ha! The Matter It’s Just Now In 2019 Revealed To Me To Pass On To You …

Well? I Had A Full Day Gone By. Another Day Now …

Meanwhile? Midnight Came And Went Along With All My Fears …

Fearless? A Supernatural State Meant To Be, But! …

Naturally Fearless I Tried Every And All Things …?

My Medical Label? Bipolar. Manic Depressive. Schizophrenia …

Wow! You Cut The Wings Of This Eagle! You Kept Me In The Chicken Pen …

Amazing moment …?

My Truncated Attempts To Ascend The Ladder Of Success Pops Into My Mind, And?

Wow! I Been Quoting From This Story For The Longest But! …

I’m Beginning To Think You Inserted That Version Supernaturally In My Files …

Wow! Talking About Another Day In The Up And Up Despite Of Whatever Comes My Way …?

O My Master! The Effect Of Your Power Of Love And Wisdom Is A Sheer Bliss! No Kidding …

Wow! Now Is The Time For The Material To Decrease. For The Spiritual To Increase …?

I Am Going On Propelled By Your Power Of Love And Wisdom …

I Fear The Repercussions From Such Statement …

Have Mercy. O My Master! I Refuse To Doubt You …

New Life Really Began On 2017, But!

O My Master? You Know Exactly The Solution To My Heaviness …

Where Was I, My Father? I’m Feeling Better …

You Have A Reason For Bringing Up This File From 2017 …

Comes January 2020? Will Begin My 3rd Year Living A New Life …

Back! The Storm Subsided Around 6 Am. But! …

Master? My Arm Is Getting Worse Instead Of Better …

Yes! Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! The End? Saved! Restored! But!

I Must Count The Cost. The Cost Is High. Nothing Is Free …?

Well? All That Is In A Past I Now See Objectively …

Thinking On The Counting The Cost Issue …

O My Master! You Are Opening My Eyes To See That Nothing Is Really Free …?

The Unbiased Truth: What Is Our Salvation Cost? Our Present Worldly Lifestyle …?

Even So? Despite What I See You Have The Perfect Number Who Are Living It And?…

A Worldly Life? Not Necessarily A Sinful Life …?

Ha! The Matter Is Clear Now. It’s No Longer Confusing To Me, Why? …

The Rejection In Mathew 10. The Great Fallen Away In 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7? …

Wow! What A Revelation! It Dispelled All My Fears’ Spell …?

Frustrating! On Top Of That? Ahmad Not Answering My Calls …?

All Fears And Frustrations? Gone! Then? …

Wow! You Are Faithful To Your Promise To Reveal Yourself To Me …

Those Scriptures Must Be Fulfilled. Even So? There Is Hope.

No Matter What? The Power Of Your Love And Unfathomable Wisdom? It Never Fails. It Always Avails!

This Day You Revealed Yourself To Me To Dispel All Fears By Your Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do. I’ll Go Back To Bed And Wait On You …

Through The Wilderness Of Life You Have Brought Me To Yourself …

Fears Dispelled You Make Me Well. Pain At Bay A Bright Smile I Can Now In Your Presence Display …

Yes! There Is Repercussion From Our Present Actions …?

Thus? Though You Feed Us The Bread Of Affliction Because Of Our Sins …

That’s Why My Thirty Some Years Testimonial Journal …?

Wow! Time To Close This Post On Thursday, October 17, 2019 At 4:09 Am.

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Do I Feel You Are Trying To Convince Me. Do You Feel I Am Trying To Convince You? …

No Problem! That’s Human, And? Surprise! We Are Humans ….

No kidding! We are all humans …

I’m Having Me Some Fun Indeed! A ‘Little Different’? …

Hey! Maybe. O Maybe! Could It Be My ‘Gift From Above’? C’mon! Give Some Slack! …

Ha! That’s The Truth In A Nut Shell, But! …?

No Kidding! But The Same Is Truth About You Et All, Only? …

Little Did I Know 33 Years Ago …?

But ‘FATHER’ Knows Best. That’s The Truth For The Rest …

Perish The Thought! We Would Have Been Just Like Rabbits Eating Carrots And Making Babies …?

No One To Tend To The Garden …?

Ooo! It’s written, quote:

Honest To Goodness! I Am Not Trying To Convince, Convert, Or Change Anyone Anymore…

You Are A Loving Father Not A Tyrant. Your Wisdom? Unfathomable, But! …

How True! How Emphatically The Humans Deny Such Truth …

Comes January 2020? Will Begin My 3^rd Year Living A New Life …