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Anew Afresh Today for Me …?

I can’t get tired of writing about it. An Odysey. It was June 20, 1985. What day it was? I don’t remember. The hour? Indeed! It was 3 am. What was I doing? I had subscribed to a creative writing course. I have gotten my first review. Suddenly! My thoughts drifted to myself. A sort of film strip began to roll. My whole life in sight … It is all recorded in my autobiography published in 2005. https://anewthiabasilia.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/12/c5573-my-life.pdf

But Today? …

It’s Wednesday, June 19, 2024, at 2:53 pm. I saw 4:44 pm. The ultimate spiritual significance of the numbers 444 is that you were born to fulfill a bigger purpose in life. The Mighty One Creator is aware of this. He is and has been helping you to realize the same capacity and opportunities He has ingrained within yourself. He is assisting you in achieving your goals if you focus your attention on where you want to go in life and make an effort to get there.

The Significance of Numbers in My Journey …

I find it peculiar to notice certain numbers at certain times. This happens when I am waiting for directions on what to write next. Results. A past which shall remain in history with no repeat. But it points to the direction I am to go. I am heading home where I belong. My home. The Almighty’s power and authority in a loving environment. A perfect governmental foundation. Perhaps the war going on shall end in the completeness or the nation of Israel as a whole. Who knows?

But I Am Writing About My Journey …

So? It’s now Thursday, June 20, 2024, at 8:12 am. It’s been 39 years since that famous June 20, 1985—Yahushua stepped into my tumultuous life. My journey began. I was 46 then, I am now 85. I noticed the 8 & the 12 then the 3 & the 9. Interesting, 3+9=12. The number 12, it stands for God’s power and authority.

My Attention Is Touched …?

There is a Supreme Being Creator of everything in existence like is well known. He has led me all those years until this instant of my present moment. He is the only One Who well knows about my fears, my doubts, my discouragements, still, He always is with and within me, He never leaves nor forsakes me. That’s the fact. Nothing else matters.

Anyhow Here I Am Now …?

It’s Saturday, June 22, 2024, at 4:47 am. It’s the 7th Day of Rest or the 4th day of rest of rest on the the 6th month of the year. What am I doing? That is something I am always asking. Focus. On what? Ah! Now I remember! Yesterday was Friday, June 21, 2024—a frustrating day. Of course, I bury myself in my romantic classics reading forgetting even my own existence. I do remember fixing me a big breakfast before my frustrations took root. I finally headed for bed around 9 pm. I slept until 2:15 am on Saturday, June 22, 2024. On getting up I collected myself. I guess those 6 hours of sleep did me good.

What Did I Rediscovered Yesterday? …

The futility of the knowledge craving in my natural nature. I wanted to know. I had it was a must know. The frenzy consuming me most of my life. Knowledge. It was my god. It came to me again, so what? What have I done with all that knowledge in my possession? The truth? Just made a fool of myself. Indeed! I was an educated fool!

What I Am Now? Least, Not A Fool Anymore …

I am part sunshine and part hurricane, shiny as ever since my birth. So states my Denise, bless her heart! But I am beginning to appreciate the truth of such a statement. Sunshine in my face for all to enjoy when the going is good. Suddenly the hurricane! No good anymore! No more sunshine on my face! The shine fades away. Darkness in my bay.

  • Bless my heart!
  • Just like that!
  • What?
  • The hurricane lands.
  • Silence.
  • Calm.
  • Peace.
  • Stillness.
  • No more temper illness.
  • Sunshine.
  • Shiny as ever since my birth.
  • Anew.
  • Afresh.
  • Not just a new life.
  • But my new life is in a different way.
  • Humor & laughter in my bay.
  • Joyfully leaping & skipping.
  • The Liberating Power of Love?
  •  Indeed, in my keeping!
  • Love?
  • Not quite just the romantic word we fancy.
  • But true love?
  • That’s the golden key magically shining in that keyhole to open the door of the earthly stall of my imprisonment.
  • So, it is written, though it is symbolically written, for me?
  • I have finally come to understand how those words apply in my earthly journey.
  • And no, again I am not ashamed of the Gospel.
  • I remember how it is written.
  • “But unto you who revere and worshipfully fear My name shall the Sun of Righteousness arise with healing in His wings and His beams, and you shall go forth and gambol-like calves released from the stall and leap for joy.”
  • So be it.

It’s now Saturday, June 22, 2024, at 10:11 pm. When shall I post again? Who knows?   lov, thia

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It’s Time for Me to Post Again …

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Indeed! …

My mind is set on the plan for me in the Creator’s mind. It has been a moment of waiting, a moment of suspense. Even so, a magical miraculous moment daily, monthly, yearly forever sear erasing all fears! What an experience!

Funny Thing …

No kidding, it is funny the way life develops in our stay on this earthly bay. The lonely road. The cup I had to drink. The scroll I had to eat. We are all the actors in the eternal amphitheater built without the human mind in hand. Such is the place where contests are held, the arena of the human theme.

Indeed! Funny Thing, Bless My Heart …

On waking up yesterday after a sleepless night horror presented itself in the most unexpected way. Giving up the bed wobbling like a drunken sailor, I made it to wherever until I sat in front of the computer screen intending to continue with my reading to forget my miserable state. Forget? Indeed!

  • I can’t pinpoint where the horror set in.
  • The keyboard, the mouse refused to move.
  • The Internet decided to follow suit.
  • Then to my utter frustration the computer refused to respond when I pushed the button to turn it of.
  • I headed to unplug it of course but!
  • I could not reach the back of the computer without disassembling my clever dried flower arrangement I had set up ignoring the reason why I had left that empty space so I could reach the back of the computer.
  • O well! I have not bothered to take care of computer problems since I have been captivated reading romantic classics. That’s another story.

To The Point …

I finally successfully rearranged it all. Once the computer restarted, I began to troubleshoot. Began with the mouse, then the keyboard. Plug, unplug. Tried again & again. Tried a different mouse. Then? The horror escalated!

  • I made up my mind to give up my new modern keyboard & mouse gifted from Diana.
  • Determinate grabber on hand I headed for the closet storing my old keyboard.
  • I grabbed it. Oops!
  • It slipped from the grabber clashing on the floor all keys scattered!
  • I managed to collect the whole mess.
  • Keyboard restored I plugged in. Beautiful!
  • Now the mouse.
  • I examined the old cordless mouse.
  • I changed the battery and plugged the USB for it.
  • Bingo! What a pleasure!
  • Recording is no longer a drag.
  • It seems like the doors keeping my physical being imprisoned all these years have been boasted.
  • What a miracle!
  • Let me explain this keyboard & mouse issue.

One of the Issues That Has Plagued Me for Quite a While But! …

This issue along with all issues & fears strangling the life out of me is ending now as I seriously start to live up my 85th birthday shining like the sun in a clear blue sky! How is that possible? In the same way that all miracles are possible.

  • And that’s the beginning of this new stage that I am traveling happily engaged with my children and beloved friends.
  • Where are we heading?
  • We are heading to our eternal home to our Loving Heavenly Father.
  • He will swallow up death forever and tears and sorrow shall be no more. So, it is written.

Quote:

Isaiah 25:1-9

(1)  O MASTER, You are my God; I will exalt You, I will praise Your name, for You have done wonderful things, even purposes planned of old [and fulfilled] in faithfulness and truth.

(2)  For You have made a city a heap, a fortified city a ruin, a palace of aliens without a city [is no more a city]; it will never be rebuilt.

(3)  Therefore [many] a strong people will glorify You, [many] a city of terrible and ruthless nations will [reverently] fear You.

(4)  For You have been a stronghold for the poor, a stronghold for the needy in his distress, a shelter from the storm, a shade from the heat; for the blast of the ruthless ones is like a rainstorm against a wall.

(5)  As the heat in a dry land [is reduced by the shadow of a cloud, so] You will bring down the noise of aliens [exultant over their enemies]; and as the heat is brought low by the shadow of a cloud, so the song of the ruthless ones is brought low.

(6)  And on this Mount [Zion] shall the Master of hosts make for all peoples a feast of rich things [symbolic of His coronation festival inaugurating the reign of the Master on earth, in the wake of a background of gloom, judgment, and terror], a feast of wines on the lees–of fat things full of marrow, of wines on the lees well refined.

(7)  And He will destroy on this mountain the covering of the face that is cast over the heads of all peoples [in mourning], and the veil [of profound wretchedness] that is woven and spread over all nations.

(8)  He will swallow up death [in victory; He will abolish death forever]. And the Master God will wipe away tears from all faces; and the reproach of His people He will take away from off all the earth; for the Master has spoken it. [1Co_15:26, 1Co_15:54; 2Ti_1:10]

(9)  It shall be said in that day, Behold our God upon Whom we have waited and hoped, that He might save us! This is the Master, we have waited for Him; we will be glad and rejoice in His salvation. End of quote.

I dare to say: That is the Master speaking, not thia …

Tuesday, June 18, 2024, came & went. It’s now Wednesday, June 19, 2024, at 5:03 am. Here I am! I didn’t fade out after all. Instead, I am back shinning like the rising sun, least that’s how I feel. Hope for all likewise to shine.  lov, thia

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Beginning Anew/afresh After Settling Down In the USA in 2024…

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Let The Tale of The Interesting Saga begin …

It’s now Thursday, March 21, 2024, at 8:16 pm. I need to quit and sleep. I need to work on my business cards. O well! Here I am on Friday, March 22, 2024, at 10:36 am. I think I have almost accomplished the effect I want in my new crest. Now what? Diana gave me a fancy keyboard. It is really nice, only I need to learn how to use it, but right now I am heading for bed on Friday, March 22, 2024, at 8:36 pm.

  • This keyboard works.
  • Of course it works!!!
  • Thanks a million!

It All Began with Don Miguel …

All things are working on our Almighty Creator’s loving will and on His timing. I am looking forward to whatever develops on this 7th Day of Rest. Time now, Saturday, March 23, 2024, at 4:01 am.

This Is the Present to Begin My New Life …

In the present, some 65 years later to begin my new life after the brief recollection only mentioned as the steppingstone into my present future. So much to consolidate the 84 years of my earthly presence, but it is all coming together for good use. I remain attuned to the inner voice within my being.

Here I am! …

I have been up since about 2:14 am on Sunday, March 24, 2024. Yesterday I met a delightful one Jacqueline. I am looking forward to establishing a friendship with her. I am so intense in creating new graphics for the new approach to my posting as per the new perspective is now established for me. It’s now 6:12 am on Sunday, March 24, 2024, looking forward not backwards.

What’s The Scoop? …

A dysfunctional journey timely turning out functioning full speed ahead. I repeat, so much to consolidate the 84 years of my earthly presence, but it is all coming together for good use. I remain attuned to the inner voice within my being on Sunday, March 24, 2024, at 10:50 am.

  • Created To Be Loved to Love.
  • Functional roots stemming from the Word.

A Dysfunctional Family’s Journey …

A saga of interest … I am beginning to get a hold of what I am supposed to do. But it is now Sunday, March 24, 2024, at 8:45 pm, time to hit the sack. It’s now Monday, March 25, 2024, at 12:44 am. I am up. This is one more day of surprises. Going to the foot doctor. Maybe Jacqueline shows up to get acquainted. Who knows? It’s Monday, March 25, 2024, at 7:31 am and I am already tense, frustrated in the depth of despair whether I want to admit it or not. Why not after 7 hours of futile search for what seems to be non-existent elusive files. Is enough to curse!

Well? All Is Well Again, So Glad! …

It’s now Monday, March 25, 2024, at 6:32 pm. This really was a day for surprises, the first surprise the long visit from Jacqueline, truly delighted to find such a loving person. Then? It was not the foot doctor I was to visit. I went to an Ear Nose & Throat specialist. Met a delightful doctor and staff. Soon I’ll be able to be set up with a hearing aid to fit my hearing problems. Then? I received my lifeline device in case I fall or have an emergency. But I think I will not be able to work on the business cards before I crash in bed.

What Shall It Be Today, I Wondered …?

Reading the information on the events that are prophesied to happen now and, in the future, makes me wonder but, I remain still and waiting for the voice within my being to lead me forward and steady to that future the Master Creator of everything in existence has reserved not just for me but for all and every individual child of His beloved family roaming in the 4 corners of this earth.

No, I Am Not a Witch or A Psychic by Far …

Much less a doom sayer. But I am gifted with knowledge beyond what the human mind can conceived. Some consider me to be a prophet, but I do not consider myself to be so. So? What do I consider myself to be? That’s a good question that I have not come up with quite the right response to. But really? Is it not enough to know what I am not? And how do I know what I am not? By the preponderance of the evidence, I know what I am not.

 What Evidence?

The fact that I am not in any way shape or form able to come up with performing miracles or the magic tricks such persons in that lot of life perform. Can you imagine me coming up with a magic wand turning a frog into a prince?

What I Know for Sure Is That …?

O well! But one thing I know for sure is that I am a blessed child of my Heavenly Father. He has given me at this point of my journey here on these earthly grounds as those exist right now, the evidence of the abundance He has promised to me since 1985. Chee-Whiz! That was a long sentence! Anyhow, this was also a long scoop! I’ll continue in the next scoop. lov, thiaBasilia.

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No Longer Set on My Beliefs To My Credit …

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No Longer Set on My Beliefs To My Credit …

Can You Believe It? …

Anyhow? That’s My Reality to Begin 2024 …

  • Monday, January 1, 2024, at 4:44 am.

How appropriate! I don’t believe in numbers, but I pay attention to the Author of the numbers recorded in the Bible and appearing to me often enough at the appropriate times. As I began to record a moment ago, my eyes sat on the hour at 4:44 am. The meaning of number 444 is without a doubt a confirmation of what I just posted. Coincidence? Perhaps that is what it is in the human’s mind, but!

My Human’s Mind Is Unreliable …

That has been my discovery for quite some time, but it is only in the past year that this matter has been confirmed to me to the point that I cannot any longer rely on my human mind. For it has been a shocking matter to discover that practically all stored information has been misinterpreted by my human mind. No kidding! Even so, the whole issue is under the control of the Master of my being.

  • Therefore? No regrets. No fears. No worries. Instead?
  • Courage to state what I am inspired to state about the truth to set us free in an inoffensive way.

About My Goals …

What are ‘my goals’? From the beginning my goal was to make piles of money to eliminate poverty in this world, what a joke! Time! There is humor in the course of time, no doubt about it. Of course, time & timing sense of humor march together determinate to knock some sense into our nonsensical cranial cavities.

  • Tuesday, January 2, 2024, at 5:48 am.
  • The 2nd day in 2024.
  • What’s the meaning of 2024?

Number 2024 Meaning: Listen to The Inner Voice …

This is my prayer now more than ever before. So many wonderful things are developing in our midst! It’s most important to me to continue listening to the inner voice within my being, specially at the times of illness & discouragement. Yesterday was one of those times, but? After midnight things turned to announcing health & riches coming my way.

What Am I To Make Out of All These Happenings …

I am still not feeling well. Fear & doubt somewhat lingering dragged me down. I have all the means to be what I meant to be, yet? My body is not responding giving way to doubt and fear that is all a pie in the sky. Time for a break. I cannot sit here feeling the way I am feeling. Something has to change for the best of that, I am sure.

  • Tuesday, January 2, 2024, at 8:44 am.
  • Humor instead of anger, why not?
  • Right now, I don’t feel a bit humorous.
  • Tuesday, January 2, 2024, at 9:16 am.
  • But I decided to pull up some jokes to cheer me up.
  • It did not work.
  • It’s now Tuesday, January 2, 2024, at 11:24 am.
  • I am still in a funk.
  • I have not hear from anyone which makes me feel worse.
  • But then Diana called to invite me to lunch.
  • Tuesday, January 2, 2024, at 2:14 pm.
  • Back from lunch.
  • Still in the funk.
  • All seems hopeless right now.
  • I am beginning to see the cause of it all has to do with my perspective.
  • I need Your help Almighty Yahuwah!
  • Unless You come through for me there is no one nor any way that I can overcome this moment of anguish.
  • Thank You for hearing & answering my prayer.
  • It’s now Tuesday, January 2, 2024, at 5:25 pm.
  • I will head for bed now with good thoughts in my mind.
  • Wednesday, January 3, 2024, at 2:09 am.
  • Getting up for a bit perhaps go back to bed after a while.
  • I have all the means to conquer myself and accept the change from my past failures to the present triumphs.
  • For by the power invested upon me I aim to conquer the fear, the dread and great trembling after I had come among my loved ones a year ago.

Quoting The Scriptures To Conquer My Dread …

Paraphrased:

And my language and my message were not set forth in persuasive (enticing and plausible) words of wisdom, but they were in demonstration of the Almighty Spirit and power a proof by the Spirit and power of God, operating on me to give witness of the Presence of Yahushua within me. Whether my testimony has had any impact is not for me to worry about. Instead, I resolved to know nothing (to be acquainted with nothing, to make a display of the knowledge of nothing, and to be conscious of nothing) among my people except Yahushua the Messiah and Him crucified.

Hopefully, by the hearing of my testimony their faith might not rest in the wisdom of men (human philosophy), but in the power of God, as per 2 Corinthians 2:1-5.

NOW FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things we hope for, being the proof of things we do not see and the conviction of their reality faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses, as per Hebrews 11:1.

(5)  Also when [the old] are afraid of danger from that which is high, and fears are in the way, and the almond tree [their white hair] blooms, and the grasshopper [a little thing] is a burden, and desire and appetite fail, because man goes to his everlasting home and the mourners go about the streets or marketplaces. [Job_17:13]

(6)  [Remember your Creator earnestly now] before the silver cord [of life] is snapped apart, or the golden bowl is broken, or the pitcher is broken at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern [and the whole circulatory system of the blood ceases to function];

(7)  Then shall the dust [out of which God made man’s body] return to the earth as it was, and the spirit shall return to God Who gave it.

(8)  Vapor of vapors and futility of futilities, says the Preacher. All is futility (emptiness, falsity, vainglory, and transitoriness)!

(9)  And furthermore, because the Preacher was wise, he [Solomon] still taught the people knowledge; and he pondered and searched out and set in order many proverbs.

(10)  The Preacher sought acceptable words, even to write down rightly words of truth or correct sentiment.

(11)  The words of the wise are like prodding goads, and firmly fixed [in the mind] like nails are the collected sayings which are given [as proceeding] from one Shepherd. [Eze_37:24]

(12)  But about going further [than the words given by one Shepherd], my son, be warned. Of making many books there is no end [so do not believe everything you read], and much study is a weariness of the flesh.

(13)  All has been heard; the end of the matter is: Fear God [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments, for this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation, the object of God’s providence, the root of character, the foundation of all happiness, the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man.

(14)  For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it is good or evil. [Mat_12:36; Act_17:30-31; Rom_2:16; 1Co_4:5]. Ecclesiastes 12:5-14. End of quotes.

In Conclusion, What Is It That I Am Dreading? …

Ha! I am dreading the quoting of Scriptures might turn people away setting me as another religious fake. Wow! There it is! The fear shocking the life of me. No wonder I am so miserably sick! All I have to do now is to hope in You Almighty Yahuwah, Master of my being. My hope in You is my lifeline. I wait, confident that You are working all things as You intend all things to fit together for our good.

  • It is now 4:50 am on Wednesday, January 3, 2024.
  • I am cold.
  • Heading for bed to warm up perhaps I fall asleep.
  • Up again on Wednesday, January 3, 2024, at 7:50 am.
  • It’s now 10:16 am on Wednesday, January 3, 2024, things are progressing.
  • I am no longer confessing how bad I feel.
  • I am doing so.
  • I am concentrating on the fact that I am doing well despite my bad feelings.

What’s The Sense to The Continuous Checking Things Out …

Perhaps that is my futile attempt to understand. But! I do not need to understand if I am to live by faith as it is written. Time to let go of the old and concentrate on enjoying the new. What a wonderful thought to avail me for the rest of my days.  It’s written:

Ecclesiastes 3:11

(11)  He has made everything beautiful in its time. He also has planted eternity in men’s hearts and minds [a divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun but God alone can satisfy], yet so that men cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end. End of quote.

Learning To Laugh at Myself Despite Pain & The Rain as It Is All In Vain …

Fun message in 2024. Humor instead of anger. Red hat: reminder I love you. And the apron? Reminder to work on myself! It’s now Wednesday, January 3, 2024, at 2:00 pm. Graphic to illustrate complete. Time for a break.

  • It’s now Wednesday, January 3, 2024, at 7:05 pm.
  • I have succeeded in baking my chicken tights & legs.
  • I enjoyed a piece but now I am sleepy, I shall head to bed.
  • Slept until 1:30 am on Thursday, January 4, 2024.
  • Got up since I could not sleep anymore.
  • I have been putting my cooking away.
  • It’s now Thursday, January 4, 2024, at 3:15 am.
  • Ready to close and post this record.

Until the next post, lov, thia.

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Welcome 2024 … Hope …

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Welcome 2024 … Hope …

It Is Just As Easy To Believe A Truth As It Is To Believe A Lie …

Hope …My Lifeline …

Thursday, December 28, 2023, at 7:20 am. More and more I am beginning to see the fallacy of our beliefs. This is something that is happening near & far from me. It seems to me that the older we get the better we can see things for what they are and for what they are not.

So Much for Statements …

Then again, those statements serve a good purpose to avail my own self. Such statements reassure me of the reality of my life’s journey concluding at the last chapter of Ecclesiastes.

The Way I Must Go …

The journey continues hour by hour, moment by moment, day by day up to this day. And hour by hour, moment by moment, day by day the way I must go is supernaturally shown to me. There is no way any longer for me to get lost in this world’s jungle. I am not alone as I am forging myself ahead to the end when time as we know time to shall be no more.

Until the next post, lov, thia

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Can You Believe It # 2 …

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Can You Believe It # 2 …

My Life in Shambles Built Into A Beautiful Vessel.

A Vessel To Hold The Flowers Of His Love …

Fluctuation: Constant Change; Vacillation; Instability on The Way to…???

Who knows? Yes, the question remains in my mind constantly. Is beginning to amuse instead of angering me. Better yet, I have begun to check myself before I check the world around me. Wow! What a mouth full of such statement. But is the truth. What do I mean by checking myself? Well? Take for example my waking up today.

  • Secrets were on my mind as I woke up.
  • Thinking back & forth about what secrets buried deep within us are causing us such damage to our minds & bodies.
  • Then I thought about the fact that I have no longer secrets within my being for I have exposed them all in my writings.
  • Or? Have I done so?
  • What? Now?
  • That is something for me to explore before I talk with my mouth full.

Talking With My Mouth Full …?

What a finding as I checked the meaning of talking with one’s mouth full. Part of table manners that for the most is no longer in mode these days. From an etiquette expert I found something that applies to what came to me at this point of my journey.

Quote:

This rush-rush culture also translates into talking with a mouthful. Instead of swallowing first before expressing a view, the assumed wisdom is that it can’t wait; that everything is so fast-paced, we have no time to think, therefore we speak. End of quote.

No Time to Think …

Go! Go! Go! Step out of my way or I step over you!  It’s Wednesday, December 20, 2023, at 5:57 am, time for break to eat & reflect. Ha! I thought for sure I was to succeed in making a big batch of delicious pralines, wrong thinking! Hahaha! Major mess-up I have no idea how to get rid of it, maybe tossed it?

  • Anyhow at least I got the mess isolated, I fixed and ate my breakfast, and I brushed my teeth, all I need to do is to finish the cleanup.
  • But it is now 9:40 am, which means I have been at it for over 3 hours.
  • That’s enough to put it all on hold until I recoup to plan how I will engage in the same task again.
  • I just can’t be defeated by my failures.
  • Get up and try again!
  • Will do!

But Getting Back to The Point …?

You know what? Perhaps this mess-up is a lesson to think about any project that comes to my mind. O what a predicament! I guess this thinking bit is different than assuming anything you think about. I guess should have swallowed my thought about successful praline making. O well! Live & learn.

Back to Fluctuation: Constant Change; Vacillation; Instability on The Way to…?

Who knows? Honestly, whatever is my answer the truth is that I don’t know. Yes, I am experiencing the fluctuation of my earthly journey as well as I am experiencing a rise in the elevation of my hope for a promised future ingrained within my heart and mind. But, that doesn’t mean that I know. The question remains, who knows?

My Sense of Humor? O Well! …?

I find it amusing to hear the answer that indicates how wrong I am to express such a question, answer given by so many people. In other words, I should know that it is this way or that way. “I know the Word!” Some exclaim.

  • Oops! Time for me to shut up.
  • I know better than to state my stand like I used to do.
  • Never mind that I no longer claim to “know” anything because like Job I was in the past speaking words without knowledge.
  • But? Here lately, I have come to see that it is not up to me to correct any issue.
  • All issues in this world are under the perfect control of the Almighty Creator of everything in existence.
  • It’s now Wednesday, December 20, 2023, at 7:53 pm.
  • Maybe head for bed?
  • Up at 3:16 am on Thursday, December 21, 2023.
  • In my mind: My life in shambles built into a beautiful vessel.
  • Ha! That’s the headline for the post today or whenever it comes to me to post again.
  • It’s now Friday, December 22, 2023, at 4:58 am

At The Umbral of Complete Healing …

Yesterday was a turning point in my healing progress. And this morning seem to me there is a turning point with my computer problems. But this is a mouth full, and I need to chew it up before I swallow it. I’ll wait to see what develops in the next few hours. For now, I shall lay down to rest, perhaps I’ll fall asleep. Friday, December 22, 2023, at 5:45 am. 8:09 am.

  • New day, Saturday, December 23, 2023, at 5:20 am. Feeling much better.
  • It’s now Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 2:24 am.
  • I have been up for about 1 hour.
  • I had an awful time falling asleep for the pain and congestion.
  • When I fell asleep it did not feel like I had slept at all and I don’t know how long I slept.
  • So much has transpired with this painful bout, hopefully it’ll be over today.
  • I am starting fresh in the computer on Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 3:07 am.
  • I don’t know what shall develop today, it is Christmas eve, much excitement and preparation for the party later and right now I don’t feel up the part to participate but I pray for the best.
  • The stabs in my head and the congestion are still a problem, I don’t know what to do about it.
  • Maybe I’ll laydown to rest perhaps I fall asleep.
  • It’s now Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 3:30 am.
  • Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 9:16 am.

My Christmas Gift 2023 …

I have been empowered to truly and for good forgive others as I forgive myself for hurts inflicted on each other in the past and in the present. Thus, my eyes have been opened to clearer see whatever was so obscure before. My mind & heart are now set supernaturally beyond my ability to explain. This is a gift for me of love, peace, joy inexplicable and full of esteem to be opened daily for the rest of my earthly days. How blessed I am!

  • Monday, December 25, 2023, at 3:52 pm.
  • It has been a wonderful day.
  • Showered with gifts!
  • Heading for bed.
  • Up on Monday, December 25, 2023, at 11:14 pm.
  • Working on graphic, My life was in shambles. Tuesday, December 26, 2023, at 8:08 am.

Can You Believe It …

The first words the Almighty spoke to my heart on August 8, 1985 coming to mind.

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love. These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please. You are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding. Some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others. Rest in Me and hold My flowers.

The uprooted of my soul to a chaos world …

Building, shaping, shaping, until perfection

completes the building making …

Built Into a Beautiful Vessel

To Hold the Flowers of His Love …

From Shambles to The Perfect Foundation Of Love, Peace, Abundance, & Joy …

Inexplicable Full Of His Esteem …

Indeed! My life was in shambles, uprooted, fallen. That was in 1985. Steady the Master’s hand at work all those years to complete the restoration of the devastation. Victoriously now along with my girls on we are heading to the end of 2023 joyfully expecting 2024 to be as it may one way or another however it could sway, it shall be the best for the three & me.

Until the next post, lov, thia

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Can You Believe It? …

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Can You Believe It? …

Real Life Before They Were 5 Yrs. Old …

Combing Hair …

I was happily combing the middle one’s hair. The first born was somewhere in the corner of the room carefully watching the situation. Suddenly the high-pitched voice of my middle child was heard, “Mommy, where is God?” I began my display of such an ethereal answer hard to believe, but I was such dramatic one that I raised my free arm and exclaimed, “God is in the trees, God is in the flowers, God is in the birds that fly in the sky!” “God is everywhere!!!” then I stuck my finger on her belly saying, “God is in youuuu!”

  • Well? My oldest one caught the ghist of my display and quietly she came close to the scene of my display to assist and quite convincingly pointing her finger in her own belly said, “Yeah! I cut myself right here and saw his head sticking out!” Can you believe it?

Why Am I Going on With This Issue? …

Because it is quite significant, but! A new discovery! All these things running through my mind must be written down rather than talking it over. Why? The emotional machine installed within everyone is programmed to reject anything against the program written in that individual machine.

  • What time is it?
  • It’s 2:05 am on Friday, December 15, 2023.
  • Time continues to run.
  • And so does my mind.
  • I am taking a break to catch up with both.
  • Of course, I know it is a futile attempt, but all attempts are necessary to at least get an idea of what is and what it is not.

The Idea of My Life’s Reality …

What is the reality I must live by today? Jackpot! Indeed! I hit a big one right now. This pot shall supply me for the rest of my born days. Come on with it, thiaBasilia! What on earth are you talking about? Hahaha! I can afford to laugh whether I anger or amuse you! But that’s enough. I just found out that I am no longer codependent! But! Let me get a hold of this, to cement it in my mind for good.

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Dependency. Some level of dependency is healthy in relationships. It may be tough to make it through life alone, and most people thrive with companionship and social support.

Phew! I had Just Ruined a Brand-New Ink Cartridge, And? …

I began to get disgusted and furious with myself. The horrendous feeling of being a failure without redemption came upon me! First thing? The dread of facing Diana! Anger! Blame! Why Diana cannot understand that I NEED to print! Why didn’t she change the cartridge as I asked her to do? Now she is going to be angry, and I just don’t know how to cope with the least thing I do that could offend Diana … ???

  • That’s the moment when it came to me to look up how to get rid of such painful thoughts.
  • And that’s when I hit the jackpot!
  • I am not codependent!
  • I am not mentally ill!
  • I am not deluded!
  • I am not looking for approval!
  • I am hoping for a healthy relationship with my children.
  • And for that to happen we need to depend on each other for support.
  • And that is the support from my children that I am receiving and giving in return.

Alright! I Am Talking to Myself …

Enough talk. We are all traveling on the same track. No worries. Best of all? Fearlessly, I have made up my mind not to send out Christmas cards. It’s a waste any way that we can look about it. That was one of the stupidest thing that came upon me unexpectedly. I don’t remember ever sending Christmas cards before. O well? I’ll keep the package of cards marked with a big RED X! Hahaha! That is ought to do it! Well? Nothing is happening as I wish for it to happen. Diana grabbed the cards, guess she intends to mail them herself, bless her heart! Hahaha! Back to the drawing board. Heading for bed on Friday, December 15, 2023, at 7:54 pm.

Back To My Saga. Where Was I? …

Here I am! Another 7th Day of Rest! This one on Saturday, December 16, 2023, at 8:46 am. One more clue to the way we are going on the road we are all traveling in. Some think they are all set on the spot. Others tend to lean on the notion this is the end of the road. A good number are waiting to be raptured to Heaven. The atheist seems to me to be more Iamist. Lol! On and on the beliefs & doctrines are so numerous it boggles one’s mind. And me? My eyes are peeled looking forwards. For now? Photoshop.

  • Saturday, December 16, 2023, at 11:30 pm.
  • Bed. Up at 6:14 am on Sunday, December 17, 2023.
  • Woke up from a strange dream again.
  • The dream:
  • It seems that we were running an institution for the needy. We had run out of supplies and had no money. The one in charge of the distribution became deathly ill because of the situation. When it was brought the matter to the leaders one of them reach into his pocket and ordered that bread be bought.
  • I don’t know what it all means. It’s now Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 7:15 am.

Funny! My Last Post Was Ignored for The Most …

Maybe the dream has something to do with the situation I find myself in. What situations that could be? Ha! Good question! I must think about that answer. Maybe it got something to do with Codependency. I’ll see what develops next. In the meantime, I’ll continue to work towards putting it all together in a book as I have been inspired to do. Time now, Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 7:45 am.

A Surprise Shock …

A phone call. I will write about it after I finish setting up the book that I am working on. Actually, let it suffice that it all wound up for the good. Shock is over. Right now, is Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 3:08 pm. I am saving this file for now. I aim to work on setting the book that have been in my mind for a while now.

Well? Acceptance—Quite A Word …

I must accept the span of time from 1985 until this day on Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 5:15 pm to be exact. This covers the time since I have been writing, writing, and writing about myself and my relationship with the Almighty Creator of everything in existence. This is a fact that I must accept no matter what the cost.

Sunday, December 17, 2023, at 5:55 pm. Can you believe it?

Here it is!

Big change in the horizon! I let you know if whenever I shall post next to expand the issue, lov, thia

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What Do I, Do You, Do Us Do With Our Problems? …

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What Do I, Do You, Do Us Do With Our Problems? …

Let’s See. My Problems? They Go Up High, Why? …

One Year Ago …?

One year ago, Jordan time, I left Amman, Jordan. I arrived at the airport in Mobile, AL some 22 hours later. I beheld the beautiful face smiling big time of my first-born child! Joy inexplicably flooded my heart. Determination but uncertainty in my mind. The onset for the rest of my days on this earth as it is now. What has transpired since then?

Problems, Solutions & Healing …?

For myself, what did I do with the problems? Sit still. Wait. Go with the ethereal flow. Of course, that took a while to get a hold of me. The result? Stated in the DM of today.

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Conclusion. Decisions …

Wednesday November 22, 2023

  • You’re about to make some important decisions in your life.
  • Stick to your core values.
  • Don’t let social norms make you doubt your worth.
  • You’re going to do well.
  • You have gained the wisdom and perspective to make the right decision.
  • You’ve got this. You have learned the lessons.
  • You have gone through the preparation phase.
  • You’ve already done the inner work.
  • Release the fears about messing things up.
  • You’re going to be on a new path.
  • You’re going to meet new people, make meaningful connections, and find the right opportunities.
  • Your Affirmations For Today:
  • I feel safe and secure.
  • I am becoming physically and mentally more healthy.
  • Am I making myself a priority? In a way, yes & no.
  • I am focusing on making small changes every day.
  • All of my problems are going upwards, higher …
  • To the only One Who can solve them all.
  • What a blessing!

The First Thing to Marvel About …?

Healing. The marvel of the restoration of our health, for me, the restoration of the wealth inherited from my father. It is a marvelous thing the way everything is developed. In reality, no human hand could have developed such a plan. What a marvel!

Memories …?

Sweets memories to cherish of a lifelong gone for me. But for my children those memories of a life still going on are the healing elements to cherish.

  • Thursday, November 23, 2023, at 12:54 am.

Thanksgiving Day in 2023 …?

What an appropriate Thanksgiving Day to fall on the anniversary of my return to the USA. “Ah! But your anniversary was on the 21st!” would my Diana insist. Well? That opens the door to discuss time & timing for our memories to affect our lives.

Time & Timing …?

Perhaps that is a subject only from the mouth of the old ones who had survived the time enough to put together the exactitude of timing. Reading the history of my earthly roots in the book ‘Los Amates Amor y trópico’ by Edgar Barahona Pineda opened my eyes to see the immensity of my heritage. History way back to 1889. I am talking about my roots in my birth registered in Los Amates, Izabal in Guatemala Central America.

Time & Uncertainty …?

The mystery. Why is it that in this generation of prodigious humans the mysteries of life have become only flimsy cliché that is not worthy to mind? Ah! But the tide is changing! I see a glimpse of subtle interest in the gestures of several that bear with my attempts to proclaim my findings on these matters. Time shall tell.

In the Meantime …?

It’s 2:00 am on Thursday, November 23, 2023, time for me to start the arduous task to get ready for the trip. We are leaving at 6:00 am in route to Tallahassee, Fl, to celebrate Thanksgiving Day with my three seniors girls, Diana, Denise & Roxana & mates. I am looking forward to an exiting time to create new memories to last for the rest of our days on this earth as it is right now.

Well? It’s 5:22 am on Thursday, November 23, 2023, Thanksgiving Day. I am ready, we shall be leaving soon. The computer shut off to rest for the next 3 days.

Recorded by hand in Tallahassee, Fl. …

Friday, November 24, 2023, around 3 am. What a wonderful day my Thanksgiving Day was! My lovely Emily sparked my day, but the rest did no less. Much came to me about why we are the way we are? The answer came to me. Even so, it’s a delicate subject to bring about on Thanksgiving Day.

Saturday, November 25, 2023, at down, my mind was set on our reactions of the last 3 days. Emotions? Feelings? Anger! All deeply implanted within our beings. It’s now Saturday, November 25, 2023, at 8:46 pm, time for bed, will continue when awake. It was 3:27 am on Sunday, November 26, 2023, when I woke up. It’s now Sunday, November 26, 2023, at 5:53 am. What has transpired since I woke up? A wealth of true knowledge from above. What am I to do with such wealth?

Keep it for now. Don’t push anything on anyone. It’s Sunday, November 26, 2023, at 7:20 pm. Currently I am no longer interested in talking about anything with anyone. I had enough. I need to digest it all before I continue recording.

Well? A New Day Has Arrived …?

So? How is today to differentiate from yesterday? Have I digested my frustration of last night? It’s Monday, November 27, 2023, at 4:33 am. The accumulated rubbish of the week has been collected in and out of the house. How about the rubbish in my mind? How can I rid myself of such stink? O but I am exhausted with the insidious task to take control of things one way or another. And what? Am I the only one so set in accomplishing that control? Indeed! The whole race is intent in such a task. It drives me nuts!

What To Do? Where To Turn? …

Thank goodness! I can turn my head, my eyes, way up high! Past the stars the mun & the sun, on to the infinity of eternity. Why not? I have practically & unequivocally exhausted all the means to achieve, to relieve what cannot by any terrestrial means can be achieved or relieved. Why not lift my all form whence comes my help?

A Song of Ascents. I WILL lift up my eyes to the hills [around Jerusalem, to sacred Mount Zion and Mount Moriah]–From whence shall my help come? [Jer_3:23]

My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip or to be moved; He Who keeps you will not slumber. [1Sa_2:9; Psa_127:1; Pro_3:23, Pro_3:26; Isa_27:3]

Behold, He who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand [the side not carrying a shield]. [Isa_25:4]

The sun shall not smite you by day, nor the moon by night. [Psa_91:5; Isa_49:10; Rev_7:16]

The Lord will keep you from all evil; He will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore. [Deu_28:6; Pro_2:8; Pro_3:6] Psalms 121:1-8. End of quote.

Master Versus Lord or Lord Versus Master? …

A subject giving way to numerous debates all claiming supremacy over the other. For myself I have opted Master because Lord to me denotes a term of condescending superiority ownership. As per Master to be an ownership of loving protection—ownership of my being to take care and protect me from the inevitable daily terrestrial perils in my journey.

Thus, Has Been My Experience Of The Great I AM …?

But then again, my experience is not to be imposed on anyone. Even more so, one year’s experience of Diana & Mike’s company has confirmed that fact to me. Therefore, I can now digest all my frustrations to my benefit instead of clamping inwards to store such frustrations in the cove of silent retaliation like I felt doing last night.

Mules Stuck in The Mud Pile Of The Beautiful Side Of Evil …

“Let them be My thiaBasilia, child of my heart, let them be stuck in such a mud. In time the torrential rain of blessings on them and curses for those not of your lot shall ease the mud they are trapped in. it is then when shall be released to gamble from their entrapment like calves from the stall”

  • Monday, November 27, 2023, at 8:50 am.
  • Readying for my day.
  • Monday, November 27, 2023, at 5:50 pm, I am back.
  • I need to take a break from recording right now.
  • Perhaps some reading is in place before I head for bed.
  • Monday, November 27, 2023, at 6:49 pm headed for bed.
  • Tuesday, November 28, 2023, at 4:21 am.

Pain, Doubt, Uncertainty, But No Fear …

Yes, I am down again. I spent a slumbering night; half-awake half sleep trying to piece together all I have learned about myself in the last few weeks. Pain, doubt, uncertainty, but at the same time no fear for I know, I trust my Creator with my whole being. Of that I have no doubt whatsoever. It’s really an uncanny, mysterious, or impossible to explain thing, especially when causing uneasiness or astonishment.

What’s Going On, What’s Wrong? …

Why I am down, obsessed with putting together the pieces of my past? That is something I have yet to figure out. Even so, right now I am somewhat reluctant to rush on any conclusion to answer such question. I am so tired of the continuous analyzing trying to figure out things ahead of time.

Trying To Figure Out Things Ahead of Time? …

Ha! That’s the PROBLEM! That’s the mud pile I get stuck in my own self! No wonder why the pain, doubt, and uncertainty. Am I deaf? Not really, I just put a deaf ear when it comes to the mules stuck in the mud pile. It does not occur to me that I could be one of those mules.

Just At That Moment, I Hear That Lovely Voice From Within …?

“O My precious child, My thiaBasilia how you delight My Being as you perceive the fact of your humanity. Indeed, My child, you are human subject to all the maladies the human kind deserve because of their insistence of self-sufficiency.

Regardless, I am Who I AM.

I have never given up My heart desire for a loving family to look up to Me with the loveliness of a baby looks up to loving parents doting on him.

Even so, I had to pay the price for such a family with My blood.

And there is the stumbling block, or the mud pile my beloved children including yourself get stuck in.

But soon, sooner than expected it will all become clear to all My children as clear as it has become to you.

Go on My precious child, you have nothing to fear but all to look forward to no matter the circumstances of the moment.”

Alright! Alright! So that voice from within is my Father Creator’s voice. He speaks to us all individually & collectible but, the majority of His children He has become what it amounts to a cliché or an expression that has lost much of its force through overexposure. Of course, I speak in hindsight. But, as I observe the jargon of these days, I am not far from the fact.

The Almighty Creator of Everything In Existence Is Relegated To: …

The Universe, my energy, my true self, I am love, I am free, there is no wrong or right, unconditional love, on and on goes the tirade of words without the knowledge of the Unknown God. Indeed! The Almighty is unknown so, His children have opted to adopt their own standards for what they assumed to be the reality of eternal love. The thing is, they are more convincing than ignored. Why?

Reflecting in the Creator’s Presence Before I Record Further …

Tuesday, November 28, 2023, at 6:48 pm. Headed for bed mainly to reflect on the matter. I woke up almost at 2 am on Wednesday, November 29, 2023. I do not wish to impose any of my beliefs or agenda on anyone because I do not possess either of them. I no longer believe anything that I believed before the Almighty stepped into my life and straitened my crooked beliefs. What I possess now is a relationship with the Creator gifted to me for His own purposes for my life. (Jeremiah 15:19-20) The Creator knows each one of His children as well as every single creature of His creation. (Hebrews 4:12-13) In short, what I write is what transpires between the Creator and me.

What Is the Purpose for My Writings …?

I have expounded on this matter before, but the human mind does not retain all that is heard, so, the need for a reminder. From the beginning of my writings

Why The Trend of The Days? The Insatiable Need To Control …

Plus anger—fear. The why of the matter has been revealed to me for my own edification. It took a long time to sear these things into my being to empower me to fulfill the purpose of my life as it’s written in  Luke 22:31-32 & Jeremiah 15:19-20.

Quote: (I was inspired to put my name instead of Peter because Yahushua (Jesus) was talking to Simon then but now He was speaking to me.

Simon, Simon (thia, thia), listen! Satan has asked excessively that [all of] you be given up to him [out of the power and keeping of God], that he might sift [all of] you like grain, [Job_1:6-12; Amo_9:9] But I have prayed especially for you [thia], that your [own] faith may not fail; and when you yourself have turned again, strengthen and establish your brethren. (Luke 22:31-32)

  • Wednesday, November 29, 2023, at 4:30 am.
  • At this point sleep overtook me.
  • I headed for bed.
  • Slept until 6:30 am.
  • I am awake now on Wednesday, November 29, 2023, at 7:14 am, ready to continue the narration.

Under Satan’s Power I Lost My Faith for A Moment …?

For Yahushua (Jesus) had prayed for me that my faith would not fail me. Therefore, on October 21, 1986, things were against me. I complained. His words to respond to my complaint hit me like a ton of bricks. He got my attention. My faith in Him was restored.

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(17-18) I have not joined the people in their merry feasts. I sit alone beneath the hand of God. I burst with indignation at their sins. Yet you have failed me in my time of need! You have let them keep right on with all their persecutions. Will they never stop hurting me? Your help is as uncertain as a seasonal mountain brook—sometimes a flood, sometimes as dry as a bone.”

The Lord replied: “Stop this foolishness and talk some sense! Only if you return to trusting me will I let you continue as my spokesman. You are to influence them, not let them influence you! They will fight against you like a besieging army against a high city wall. But they will not conquer you, for I am with you to protect and deliver you, says the Lord. Yes, I will certainly deliver you from these wicked men and rescue you from their ruthless hands.” (Jeremiah 15:17-21 TLB)

Your words were found, and I ate them; and Your words were to me a joy and the rejoicing of my heart, for I am called by Your name, O Lord God of hosts.

I sat not in the assembly of those who make merry, nor did I rejoice; I sat alone because Your [powerful] hand was upon me, for You had filled me with indignation. Why is my pain perpetual and my wound incurable, refusing to be healed? Will you indeed be to me like a deceitful brook, like waters that fail and are uncertain?

Therefore thus says the Lord [to Jeremiah]: If you return [and give up this mistaken tone of distrust and despair], then I will give you again a settled place of quiet and safety, and you will be My minister; and if you separate the precious from the vile [cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning God’s faithfulness], you shall be My mouthpiece. [But do not yield to them.] Let them return to you–not you to [the people]. And I will make you to this people a fortified, bronze wall; they will fight against you, but they will not prevail over you, for I am with you to save and deliver you, says the Lord. And I will deliver you out of the hands of the wicked, and I will redeem you out of the palms of the terrible and ruthless tyrants. (Jeremiah 15:16-21 AMPC). End of quotes.

Well? For A Refresher To The Readers …

The quotes above set the basis for the content of my writings since 1985. Since then, absolutely everything in my life has come to pass exactly as it is written in all versions of the Bible. Since 1974 I had acquired several versions of the Bible frantically trying to make sense of all that I was reading. But the more I read the worse things got for me at the expense of my precious children. For I had become a religious bigot—strongly intolerant of those who differed with my agenda to force my children to comply without any consideration of their tender natures. By 1986 I quit reading those versions. I was inspired to get the Amplified version for better understanding of what I was reading.

Honestly? My children have gone through horrors beyond whatever my deluded imagination had conceived! But! From the mud I was willingly stuck in, my prayer was not to get unstuck but to plead with my Heavenly Father to take care of my precious children because I could not do it myself.

Anyhow, Change Was in The Way For Me …

The change started on that 21st day of October in 1986 with the above Scriptures penetrating the depth of my soul. Yahushua (Jesus) had to pull quite hard to get me unstuck from the mud pile that was about to extinguish the life out of me.

  • With His first pull of the rope around my neck He jerked me all the way to Waveland MS, to the home of my beloved Neen & Skee Picone.
  • Another jerk back to New Orleans to the home of Pauline who was the mother of my sponsor to reside in the USA.
  • Then? The final jerk to the place of quiet and rest my Heavenly Father had promised to me.
  • That was the apartment beyond the house of Norman Joseph Martinez, My Honey or N. J. Martinez Only To Me when I wanted to get his full attention.
  • Under the loving care of this truly unique gentleman, I remained from 1987 to 1992 when he was taken from me.
  • I went into a shock for about a year.
  • Even so, the metamorphosis from a caterpillar into a butterfly had already taken the form of the butterfly that now in 2023 is showing off its beauty in full splendor.

What Truly Matters to Me Now …

To stay aligned to the will of my Master, owner of my soul. By all means, I do not want to be free and on my own. No! No! No! I’ll be the greatest fool should I even think of such freedom! I been there I done that! Ten million religions, beliefs, religious as secular, as well what is understood as spiritual, Md’s, PH’s, Philosophers, Dali this Mohamad’s that, Yoga, and what have you, none, absolutely none can pluck me out of Yahushua’s heart where I reside. How blessed I am!

What Is to Happen Next …

Next? The unexpected blessings that I could not see much less appreciate when I was stuck in the mud pile of my staunch deranged beliefs. I am no longer trying to figure out what is to happen next. I am finally sitting still but working in perfect peace expressing myself with clarity, the type which engages the attention of whomever is attracted to read my posts.

Until the next post, lov, thia.

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Family Affairs–NEW DOORS …

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New Doors Are Opening for US …

The new year will bring an abundance of good news for us. For myself, I have been feeling stuck for so long, But things are starting to fall into place.

  • Friday, November 17, 2023, at 6:52 pm. Bed.
  • Up at 2:14 am on Saturday, November 18, 2023.
  • Things are starting to fall into place despite the inevitable daily difficulties the world can handle for me, for us.
  • For it is no longer just me, is US for sure.

Well? It Seems to Me …?

It seems to me that I can’t get away from regression at times, but! It never ceases to amaze me how quickly my regression turns into progression. I need to reflect some more about this matter. It is now Saturday, November 18, 2023, at 10:58 am. Time for a lunch break.

  • I appreciate everything I have. I am curious about the lessons I can learn in this chapter of my life.    I let life surprise me.    I am attracting enriching experiences.   It’s easy for me now to see clearer than ever before.
  • Saturday, November 18, 2023, at 9:50 pm.
  • This 7th Day of Rest found me unable to rest.
  • That is unable to rest the way I conceive rest to be.
  • I see.
  • What does it mean to rest from the work of one’s hand as in the book of Hebrews 4 on to the end of the book?
  • Sunday, November 19, 2023, at 12:03 am.
  • I will head for bed.
  • I will expound later what I have been reading again in the book of Hebrews.
  • I got up about an hour ago.
  • It’s now Sunday, November 19, 2023, at 4:24 am.
  • I trembled as I read again such fearful words, how those words are speaking to me in a personal way.
  • Even right at this moment I am in suspense.

Am I Still Catering to My Human Nature? …

That is something that leaves me in suspense. Anxious, apprehensive, I dare not decide for myself what is the answer to my question. The answer must come from on high. I’ll sit still, I’ll wait for the answer. I’ll halt my doings for now. I am remembering to finish reading Edgar’s book about Los Amates in Guatemala.

  • Time to quit. Sunday, November 19, 2023, at 9:42 pm.
  • It was 3:22 am on Monday, November 20, 2023, when I got up to do my Monday chores.
  • It’s now Monday, November 20, 2023, at 4:35 am.

What’s So Interesting in This Saga of Mine? …

Why am I bothering to record over and over the same boring details every single day? That’s my mood right now. Now I see it. Now I don’t! Then I won’t. On goes that song, “nobody loves me, everybody hates me, I’m gone eat some worms….!!!”

But Why, Why, Why!!! …?

Why not? O PLEASE! Ruffle not my fleece! DM. Religionistically, pray! Pray you say? Religionistically pray! Pray! Pray! O mine! And I used to pray, pray, pray! All kinds of prayers I prayed on my knees for hours I prayed, until? …I heard say, “Why do you change your voice and do all those pantomimes when you pray?” What? Who’s talking to me to say that? “Well, who are you praying to? I am answering you, don’t you know?” Oh? And how am I supposed to pray to You? “Just talk to Me, talk to Me as you would talk to your natural father, for I Am your Father Who created you to be loved or take care of you as your natural father should do. I created you to be loved to love Me first and uppermost so I would empower you to love yourself then love your neighbor as you would love yourself.”

Suspense. A Moment of Suspense …?

I am just bug off! I read in FB someone quoting all the Scriptures telling all to pray, pray, and pray! Goodness’ sake! That brought to mind how such quotes drove me to pray, pray, and pray with my own conception of what prayer was all about. But I had read several books about prayer and how to pray. I was zealous to follow such instructions confident that I was moving the hands of my God to bid my every wish in my natural mind.

Well? Isn’t That What Is Generally Understood Prayer to Be? …

Hum! Maybe I am wrong and everybody else is right, who knows? I dare say today! Anyhow, that day, I had prayed, I mean prayed! Bible opened in front. On my knees, on my face, my hands raised, tears flowing from my eyes, pious voice supplicating, praying in that way was my custom every single morning when I would jump out of bed to my ready pillow on the side of my bed was my daily custom to pray. That day? I was sure to get all that I had prayed for, instead, it came from within me, as I wrote above, “Why do you change your voice and do all those pantomimes when you pray?” That’s what came to me that exact day. I quickly answered, “And how You want me to pray?” “Just talk to Me as if I was right there with you. For that I Am. I Am with you, inside of you. I never leave nor forsake you. I never will forsake you, no, not ever will I forsake you. Talk to Me continuously as your day advances with all its implications. Talk to Me. Ask for My directions at every step of your way.”

Well? How Clearly, I See It Even Today …

Even today I am not feeling that much better physically as I keep hoping to happen. Then also as I read all those prayer quotes on FB. Yes, it reminded me of my religious days and It Just Bugs Me! Why? O well! We are all doing the best we can do. No need for me to let the doings in FB bug Me! I am off to fix whatever for my early eats on Monday, November 20, 2023, at 6:34 am. I’ll figure out how to continue this line of thought.

Okay! I Figure It Out, I Think …?

Leave me alone! Let me be! For the last few days, I have figured out that everything that I do, I do it to please or to impress others! That is what is bugging me! And the bugging infects everything that comes my way, what I read other doings, bugs me. What good, wonderful people like Diana, are doing to help me in all facets of my life, bugs me. I am just BUGGED! Keep away from me!

On Second Thought …?

May the Almighty have mercy on me! May He put that mercy within my children and all who are acquainted with me including whoever bumps into these posts I publish. The truth? When I come to my healthy loving senses, I realize big time how WE are all doing the best we can do to help ourselves and everybody else on these perilous days that we are going through. May these days be shortened for our sakes.

Go With the Ethereal Flow …?

Earthly flow could mean to go along with people’s doings to find out what people or trends are like among other meanings. Go with the Ethereal Flow means to find out the unexpected blessings I could not see when I was going along the earthly flow.

Indeed! All My Blessings Come from Above …?

Human hands deliver those blessings to me. For that I am grateful. Monday, November 20, 2023, at 9:33 pm. As usual I am tired, time to head for bed. Up at 2:12 am on Tuesday, November 21, 2023, at the sound of copious rain. Rain is a blessing as well as a curse. Thank goodness for the many ways to protect ourselves and property from the harm that rain can cause. Tomorrow in Jordan time, shall be a year since my arrival back to the USA.

Should I Say Back Home Where I Belong? …

Where is home? And can we ever go back home where we belong? In retrospect, reading Los Amates book puts the question in my mind. So many solid homes—families that have managed to keep together preserving the legacy of their ancestors. For the most, we are like sheep without a pastor roaming about the shores of this earth. Even so, numerous are the souls that by now have awakened the urge to find out where is the home where we belong.

Where Are the Roots of The Tree …?

Where are the roots of so many dysfunctional families? That is the subject to consume my time from now on. I am on to a good start reading Edgar Barahona Pineda’s historical book. Back to the book on Tuesday, November 21, 2023, at 4:22 am. Restart for updates on Tuesday, November 21, 2023, at 9:45 am.

To Gain Insight into That Which We Cannot See …?

I have waited on the Almighty for that insight. Now I have it. He has developed all things in perfect sequence since He first stepped into my tumultuous life in 1985. Astonished I remain. His peace floods my being. He has turned on a supernatural switch to light up my whole being with the Light of His matchless unbroken companionship. How blessed I am!

What Are the Goals Supernaturally Set in My Mind? …

It is set in my mind to build large works that benefit society for a long time. And from now on I’ll do get things done not by my power and might but by the Almighty’s Set Apart Spirit within my being.

  • My senses and mental faculties are trained by practice to discriminate and distinguish between what is morally good and noble and what is evil and contrary either to divine or human law as per Hebrews 5:14.
  • That’s what I need to report in the anew, afresh HAPPINESS NEWSPAPER—thiaBasilia Reporting. And that’s what I am doing despite my fears & misgivings.

So be it , period, lov, thia.