My Life in Shambles Built Into A Beautiful Vessel.

A Vessel To Hold The Flowers Of His Love …

Fluctuation: Constant Change; Vacillation; Instability on The Way to…???

Who knows? Yes, the question remains in my mind constantly. Is beginning to amuse instead of angering me. Better yet, I have begun to check myself before I check the world around me. Wow! What a mouth full of such statement. But is the truth. What do I mean by checking myself? Well? Take for example my waking up today.

• Secrets were on my mind as I woke up.
• Thinking back & forth about what secrets buried deep within us are causing us such damage to our minds & bodies.
• Then I thought about the fact that I have no longer secrets within my being for I have exposed them all in my writings.
• Or? Have I done so?
• What? Now?
• That is something for me to explore before I talk with my mouth full.

Talking With My Mouth Full …?

What a finding as I checked the meaning of talking with one’s mouth full. Part of table manners that for the most is no longer in mode these days. From an etiquette expert I found something that applies to what came to me at this point of my journey.

Quote:

This rush-rush culture also translates into talking with a mouthful. Instead of swallowing first before expressing a view, the assumed wisdom is that it can’t wait; that everything is so fast-paced, we have no time to think, therefore we speak. End of quote.

No Time to Think …

Go! Go! Go! Step out of my way or I step over you!  It’s Wednesday, December 20, 2023, at 5:57 am, time for break to eat & reflect. Ha! I thought for sure I was to succeed in making a big batch of delicious pralines, wrong thinking! Hahaha! Major mess-up I have no idea how to get rid of it, maybe tossed it?

• Anyhow at least I got the mess isolated, I fixed and ate my breakfast, and I brushed my teeth, all I need to do is to finish the cleanup.
• But it is now 9:40 am, which means I have been at it for over 3 hours.
• That’s enough to put it all on hold until I recoup to plan how I will engage in the same task again.
• I just can’t be defeated by my failures.
• Get up and try again!
• Will do!

But Getting Back to The Point …?

You know what? Perhaps this mess-up is a lesson to think about any project that comes to my mind. O what a predicament! I guess this thinking bit is different than assuming anything you think about. I guess should have swallowed my thought about successful praline making. O well! Live & learn.

Back to Fluctuation: Constant Change; Vacillation; Instability on The Way to…?

Who knows? Honestly, whatever is my answer the truth is that I don’t know. Yes, I am experiencing the fluctuation of my earthly journey as well as I am experiencing a rise in the elevation of my hope for a promised future ingrained within my heart and mind. But, that doesn’t mean that I know. The question remains, who knows?

My Sense of Humor? O Well! …?

I find it amusing to hear the answer that indicates how wrong I am to express such a question, answer given by so many people. In other words, I should know that it is this way or that way. “I know the Word!” Some exclaim.

• Oops! Time for me to shut up.
• I know better than to state my stand like I used to do.
• Never mind that I no longer claim to “know” anything because like Job I was in the past speaking words without knowledge.
• But? Here lately, I have come to see that it is not up to me to correct any issue.
• All issues in this world are under the perfect control of the Almighty Creator of everything in existence.
• It’s now Wednesday, December 20, 2023, at 7:53 pm.
• Maybe head for bed?
• Up at 3:16 am on Thursday, December 21, 2023.
• In my mind: My life in shambles built into a beautiful vessel.
• Ha! That’s the headline for the post today or whenever it comes to me to post again.
• It’s now Friday, December 22, 2023, at 4:58 am

At The Umbral of Complete Healing …

Yesterday was a turning point in my healing progress. And this morning seem to me there is a turning point with my computer problems. But this is a mouth full, and I need to chew it up before I swallow it. I’ll wait to see what develops in the next few hours. For now, I shall lay down to rest, perhaps I’ll fall asleep. Friday, December 22, 2023, at 5:45 am. 8:09 am.

• New day, Saturday, December 23, 2023, at 5:20 am. Feeling much better.
• It’s now Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 2:24 am.
• I have been up for about 1 hour.
• I had an awful time falling asleep for the pain and congestion.
• When I fell asleep it did not feel like I had slept at all and I don’t know how long I slept.
• So much has transpired with this painful bout, hopefully it’ll be over today.
• I am starting fresh in the computer on Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 3:07 am.
• I don’t know what shall develop today, it is Christmas eve, much excitement and preparation for the party later and right now I don’t feel up the part to participate but I pray for the best.
• The stabs in my head and the congestion are still a problem, I don’t know what to do about it.
• Maybe I’ll laydown to rest perhaps I fall asleep.
• It’s now Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 3:30 am.
• Sunday, December 24, 2023, at 9:16 am.

My Christmas Gift 2023 …

I have been empowered to truly and for good forgive others as I forgive myself for hurts inflicted on each other in the past and in the present. Thus, my eyes have been opened to clearer see whatever was so obscure before. My mind & heart are now set supernaturally beyond my ability to explain. This is a gift for me of love, peace, joy inexplicable and full of esteem to be opened daily for the rest of my earthly days. How blessed I am!

• Monday, December 25, 2023, at 3:52 pm.
• It has been a wonderful day.
• Showered with gifts!
• Heading for bed.
• Up on Monday, December 25, 2023, at 11:14 pm.
• Working on graphic, My life was in shambles. Tuesday, December 26, 2023, at 8:08 am.

Can You Believe It …

The first words the Almighty spoke to my heart on August 8, 1985 coming to mind.

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love. These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please. You are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding. Some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others. Rest in Me and hold My flowers.

The uprooted of my soul to a chaos world …

Building, shaping, shaping, until perfection

completes the building making …

Built Into a Beautiful Vessel

To Hold the Flowers of His Love …

From Shambles to The Perfect Foundation Of Love, Peace, Abundance, & Joy …

Inexplicable Full Of His Esteem …

Indeed! My life was in shambles, uprooted, fallen. That was in 1985. Steady the Master’s hand at work all those years to complete the restoration of the devastation. Victoriously now along with my girls on we are heading to the end of 2023 joyfully expecting 2024 to be as it may one way or another however it could sway, it shall be the best for the three & me.

Until the next post, lov, thia