I have decided to record somewhat curious ‘scoops’ to set minds on me because I have noticed that I make people laugh with my outlandish ways. Hope I contribute a lit bit to distract people from their own concerns even for the moment in touch with yours truly.
New Adventure in the Saga of My Life…
Sunday, December 21, 2025, at 5:00 am.
Happy Newspaper…
Check the ‘Scoops’ Often You Never Know What You’ll Find…
Today’s ‘Scoop’. This is the ‘scoop’ to begin this new adventure in this saga of mine. You know what? Today I have come to the conclusion that I am a multi-talented, multi-interested, or multi-passionate person—a multipotentialite. Like Nina Amir is who gave me this ‘scoop’ today.
Yes, we have many skills, passions, and creative pursuits. Historically, such people were called polymaths or Renaissance people.
But Me? O Well!…
I think the fun I have the most is playing dumb when I am not commiserating about my aches & pains along with offending whoever crosses my most crucial frustrations often assailing me. Besides, I make full use of my Schizophrenia, Bipolar, Manic-depressive diagnosis. Yes, I am crazy, but I am not dangerous.
O Well, I Am Not Sure About the Dangerous Part….
I do now recognize how much I have hurt so many loved ones. Even so, I now fully rejoice in the fact that my Loving Creator—the God of the whole earth He is called—He has mercifully granted me pardon giving me the power to forgive myself along everyone in the past as in the present.
Forgiveness Is Not a Feeling…
Forgiveness is an act of human will. It is amazing how such matter cannot get a hold of anyone for a long time. Least it took years to get hold of me. But what matters is the fact that these days I am living the best days of my life-giving space to all, accepting what it is without resistance. What a LIFE! Lov, thiaB.
Who am I again? Where did I come from? Where am I going? These are the mysteries revealed to me as I go along day by day, moment by moment living in the sacred Presence of my Creator. One thing I know for sure, I have nothing to fear and all to hope for.
The Externals Against the Internals …
Honestly, the externals reveal the acts of my carnal corrupt nature. The internals are the inner acts of my Creator’s nature within my being.
Interestingly, I started recording this matter on Tuesday, September 30, 2025, at 10:00 am’
Explanation: Ten in Scripture speaks of completeness in order, as the Ten Commandments set forth God’s moral law.
Thursday, October 9, 2025, at 12:04 am.
Frustrations
What is it my Master that is troubling me? It feels that I can not accomplish anything. I go from one thing to another looking for things that I cannot find. I know I intended to start recording anew from October 1st but evidently I lost that record.
What Is Happening Now …
I am frustrated with my health, with people and with myself. I am totally frustrated with the upcoming cataract surgery. On top of that it is fruiting for changes in in my working routine. I know without a shadow of a doubt that You are in control of everything in my life but I am hurting my Master, You know it. I wait on You.
Tuesday, October 14, 2025, at 10:02 am.
This matter is for whoever is concerned with our eternal souls. Will expounded later.
Peace, peace, when there is no peace …
(Jer 8:11) For they have healed the wound of the daughter of My people only lightly and slightingly, saying, Peace, peace, when there is no peace.
SAD! SAD! SAD! But …
That’s where we are right now. Is now Saturday, October 18, 2025, at 5:35 am. My heart is heavy. The weight of the past cannot be ignored despite many props at disposal in the theater of civilization.
Restoration for Israel and Judah …
Whether anyone believes or not God’s Word is written in the Bible. Right now I am fit to chew nails. Why? Well, past, present, and future in this so called ‘civilization’ is beating me soundly.
And I feel like weeping myself. I want to cry but my eyes are dry. I am angry. To hear the predominant chit-chat rampart on the daily basis wherever I turn around is devastating! But then again everybody is doing the best they can. Am I?
Yahushua Wept …
There are two verses in the Scriptures stating this matter. To repeat a previous quote:
John 11:35 Jesus wept.
Luke 19:41-44 Luk 19:41-48
The Hope of Restoration …
Yes, I am coping with our human nature’s degradation for the most, but there are moments when the result of my own degradation hits me hard. Who am I to tell anyone how to run their lives? Anyhow, pain is a hard master, it drives anyone to the depth of insanity! No matter, as it is written, there is hope. There is always hope.
Restoration for Israel and Judah: Jer 30:1-24 Jer 30:11.
There is Hope. There is ALWAYS HOPE …
Well? Just about now I am getting rid of my anger. Saturday, October 18, 2025, at 11:37 am. Later! It is now Sunday, October 19, 2025 at 7:42 pm. Reading the Scriptures that my Master inspires me to read does wonders for my soul.
Quote: Romans 8:18-28
Closing for now. Sunday, October 19, 2025, at 7:47 pm.
Why Am I So Angry …?
Monday, October 20, 2025, at 12:55 pm. Ha! I was so angry yesterday I could not even think but that was a good thing. Thinking out the answers has been my problem. Like many times before I quit the mad thoughts. The answer came eventually.
Eph 4:26-27. Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath, neither give place to the devil.
Jeremiah 15:17-21
Why The Quotes …?
Well, some 29 years ago I found myself in the same conundrum I found myself yesterday. Conundrum? It is a word for puzzle, problem, riddle, enigma, etc. But in truth, I was consumed by my need for control.
The Need for Control …?
The need for control is the chain around our necks threatening to suffocate life out of us. We want to control not only our lives but everything near and far from us.
Friday, October 31, 2025, at 6:06 am.
Last day of the 10th month …?
This is the end of the 10th month of 2025. Ten months have passed but it feels like an eternity. How strange. What are You doing with my life O Master of my being? Much to reflect on today. I wait on You.
Sunday, November 2, 2025, at 4:32 am—5:45 am.
Monday, November 3, 2025, at 7:50 am.
My Soul & You …
Only You, my Fa can deal with my soul. You are my Beloved. Only You alone can satisfy the divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages within my being.
What A Realization! …
Since the 1st day of this 11th month, I have realized that I am entering a time for me of stability and somewhat a partnership and balance in my life.
It has taken the courage You have ingrained within my being for it all to be the reality of my life. All in all, this is changing my life not only for my good but also for the good of all involved in my life.
This Is a Message of Hope not of Fear!
Growth and expansion.
Ready to level up in life. New opportunities are coming my way to help me on my journey.
Creativity and self-expression.
Sharing my gifts with the world.
Now is the time to pursue creative projects or start that hobby you’ve always wanted for me to explore.
Optimism and joy.
This new stage of my earthly journey brings an uplifting message of hope, faith and positivity.
That means happier times are ahead, so I must maintain an optimistic spirit in absolute knowledge of Your Set-Apart Spirit guidance and support to fulfil my life purpose and soul’s mission.
I am not alone on my path, You never leave nor forsake me.
It is amazing how You are opening communication, self-expression and community motivating me to interact with others through casual talk and sharing ideas.
I am now able to reach out to people who share my interests or values.
Knock down all around. Raising up above the ground.
Survivors’ forwards! Up & up on to eternity bound!
It’s my time to shine naturally.
No need to put on airs.
For I know who I am.
I know what to do.
I know how to do it.
The beauty of it all?
I haven’t got the slightest how I know it all!
Yet, I find myself still looking for approval, limiting myself to a particular way of life, not letting go of the ‘shoulds’.
It is inevitable that my mind races none stop like an unbridled horse.
Regardless of such limitations I am evolving along with my dreams.
I can find greater happiness, I am sure.
Life is beautiful when I see it with the Master’s mind on me.
I choose to focus on good as per my Master’s desire.
I am attracting more positiveness into my life.
It’s the revelation of my Master He is my refuge and my fortress.
Summary …
I will Never Cave In Under Any Circumstances! The Scriptures back me up. I am repeatedly attacked. Pain. Frustration. Doubting my sanity. FEARS! The attacks last sometimes for a long time, other times only a few moments before it comes to me exactly which way to go. Mourning comes by night, but joy comes by day.
Every single verse quoted here is indelible written in my heart not only the verse, but the whole chapter is ingrained within my being by my Creator. He means to strengthen me in gloom or glee. That’s the LIFE!
New PC today Tuesday, December 24, 2024, at? Thursday, December 26, 2024 at 1:23 pm off. Monday, December 30, 2024, at 6:38 pm. Tuesday, December 31, 2024, at 4:35 am. This is the last day of 2024. I am ready to accept my senior position in the society of mankind not by word but my example. I am ready to listen, to refrain from hasty comments and ACT as per my convictions without imposing such on others. Tuesday, December 31, 2024, at 4:44 am.
Here I am Wednesday, January 1, 2025, at 12:22 am …
Indeed! I am ready to give & to receive the power from on high TO BELIEVE in the reality of the Almighty Creator of Everything in existence like I have never done before. Far away the sound of firecrackers to welcome 2025 lingers on. I wonder who’s awake & who’s asleep physically as well as spiritually.
A Cry from the Depth of My Soul …
Unto You, Almighty Creator of Everything in existence I lift my being with thanksgiving in my heart. Let Your joy be my strength this year onward like it never has been before. Let the plan in Your mind to restore Your creation including Your loving family prosper. Let it prosper in the mind & heart of each one of children of Your heart. Let these be, NOT JUST PRETTY WORDS. Instead let them be the prayer You are ingraining in my heart to remain from there on to the end of time as we know time to be. So be it.
God Alone Can Satisfy The Yearning Of Our Souls …
Ecclesiastes 3:9-15 AMPC+
(9) What profit remains for the worker from his toil?
(10) I have seen the painful labor and exertion and miserable business which God has given to the sons of men with which to exercise and busy themselves.
(11) He has made everything beautiful in its time. He also has planted eternity in men’s hearts and minds [a divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun but God alone can satisfy], yet so that men cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.
Lack of Knowledge of God …
Hosea 4:6 AMPC+
(6) My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge; because you [the priestly nation] have rejected knowledge, I will also reject you that you shall be no priest to Me; seeing you have forgotten the law of your God, I will also forget your children.
Abomination Of Self- Righteousness …
Matthew 5:20 AMPC+
(20) For I tell you, unless your righteousness (your uprightness and your right standing with God) is more than that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
If My People Pray …
(13) If I shut up heaven so no rain falls, or if I command locusts to devour the land, or if I send pestilence among My people,
(14) If My people, who are called by My name, shall humble themselves, pray, seek, crave, and require of necessity My face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven, forgive their sin, and heal their land.
Jesus Foretells Destruction of the Temple …
Matthew 24:1-2 AMPC+
(1) JESUS DEPARTED from the temple area and was going on His way when His disciples came up to Him to call His attention to the buildings of the temple and point them out to Him.
(2) But He answered them, Do you see all these? Truly I tell you, there will not be left here one stone upon another that will not be thrown down.
Signs of the End of the Age …
Matthew 24:37-39 AMPC+
(37) As were the days of Noah, so will be the coming of the Son of Man.
(38) For just as in those days before the flood they were eating and drinking, [men] marrying and [women] being given in marriage, until the [very] day when Noah went into the ark,
(39) And they did not know or understand until the flood came and swept them all away–so will be the coming of the Son of Man. [Gen_6:5-8; Gen_7:6-24]
Where to worship? …
John 4:23-24 AMPC+
(23) A time will come, however, indeed it is already here, when the true (genuine) worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth (reality); for the Father is seeking just such people as these as His worshipers.
(24) God is a Spirit (a spiritual Being) and those who worship Him must worship Him in spirit and in truth (reality).
Repentance …
Matthew 4:17 AMPC+
(17) From that time Jesus began to preach, N1crying out, Repent (N2change your mind for the better, heartily amend your ways, with abhorrence of your past sins), for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.
The Sermon on the Mount …
Matthew 5:21 AMPC+
(21) You have heard that it was said to the men of old, You shall not kill, and whoever kills shall be liable to and unable to escape the punishment imposed by the court. [Exo_20:13; Deu_5:17; Deu_16:18]
Watch Yourselves …
Luke 21:34-36 AMPC+
(34) But take heed to yourselves and be on your guard, lest your hearts be overburdened and depressed (weighed down) with the N1giddiness and headache and N2nausea of self-indulgence, drunkenness, and worldly worries and cares pertaining to [the N3business of] this life, and [lest] that day come upon you suddenly like a trap or a noose;
(35) For it will come upon all who live upon the face of the entire earth.
(36) Keep awake then and watch at all times [be discreet, attentive, and ready], praying that you may have the full strength and ability and be accounted worthy to escape all these things [taken together] that will take place, and to stand in the presence of the Son of Man.
Put On God’s Whole Armor …
Ephesians 6:10-24 AMPC+
(10) In conclusion, be strong in the Lord [be empowered through your union with Him]; draw your strength from Him [that strength which His boundless might provides].
(11) Put on God’s whole armor [the armor of a heavy-armed soldier which God supplies], that you may be able successfully to stand up against [all] the strategies and the deceits of the devil.
From October 21, 2024 Until Thanksgiving 2024 The Power Continues Upwards Not Backwards …
Friday, November 29, 2024, at 12:54 am. Yesterday was Thanksgiving Day 2024. Bountiful blessings showered us the year past. It is time now to post the shower of joy that continues to rain on us with its ups & downs like the waves of the sea. It seemed to me that I was procrastinating but I was not. All this since I posted last it has been coming to me how I am to continue aligning my will to the will of my Heavenly Father. Besides posting His Word I am printing small booklets that can be read quickly against a long book that can take longer to read. One more way to spread His Word. Furthermore, the words that I write do not come from my mind, instead, when I am writing is like writing dictation from the voice ingrained within by the Almighty Creator of everything in existence including my being.
The Silence of Death …
It’s now Monday, October 21, 2024, at 5:08 pm. Silence. I am celebrating my death. Death to my demanding ways. Death to my building castles on the morrow. I am grateful to be alive today. Tomorrow might never be.
Today my heart flourished with the Liberating Power of Love. I am loved so I am empowered to love. Experience. Wisdom. Life. Joy. Peace. The infinite Power to love forevermore. What else could I ever want for. To be honest with myself, I do not feel liberated by the power of a love so ever elusive to me.
Baffled. Lacking Understanding …
But I know I love. Intense love. Let that be sufficient. I refuse to complain. I know I am blessed. I also know I have blessed many people. Well? Yesterday was gone. Today is here. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. Repeat over and over again for thousands of years. I don’t want to think about it but inevitably I do.
Reflecting In Retrospect …
Yes. We are abused. There is no respect for our golden years. Evil times have made hideous cartoons of our once beautiful bodies. Programmed minds, including my own mind, have destroyed not only our bodies, but our potential as well as our morals. Such revelation came to me so ever unexpectedly between Saturday, October 19, 2024, and Monday, October 21, 2024.
It’s now Tuesday, October 22, 2024, at 3:53 pm. The more things come to my mind the more perplexed I become. The best thing I can do is to be still. To wait until Almighty’s enlightenment comes to me. It’s now 5:55 am on Wednesday, October 23, 2024. Today, Thursday, October 24, 2024, at 6:19 am is here not there.
The Sound of Time. Tic. Tack. Tic. …?
Nay. Time has no sound. Or? It could be described as noisy times. Boisterous times. The times of Noah? The times of good & evil. There comes GOOGLE! The naked truth? Colossal confusion! But I would rather write about the Kingdom Foundations. The Kingdom Restoration While I sit still waiting for the Almighty to continue developing the plan in his mind for me, He is making an impact in the world to promote the Kingdom Foundations. The Kingdom Restoration.
Blessed be Your name, Father Yahuwah! Blessed be Yahushua, my Savior, and my Master! I come boldly to Your throne of grace with thanksgiving in my heart, to ask for Your help.
Father Yah, may Your will be done in my life and the life of Your people. May Your kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our supplies both spiritual and physical.
And Father, deliver us from the evil of our wicked beings’ will to live our lives as we see fit to live them. Give us the discernment necessary to survive in these days of confusion and endure until the end.
There is so much confusion going on that unless You intervene, we don’t know which way to turn. Show us Your salvation even Yahushua our Savior. Teach us Father how to lift our eyes to You and follow Your instructions. Deliver us from false doctrines.
Teach us what it means to die to ourselves and live unto You. Give us Your strength to live Yahushua’s life.
Are we willing to sacrifice our comforts to follow Yahushua? Or, do we insist to live our life in comfort just like everybody else?
Am I willing? Yes, I am my Father, You know it. And I thank for my past of lack and anxiety as for my present of abundance of all supplies needed for my comfort. Deliver me from regressing to the fear of mankind and the slavery of money. Deliver me from the reasoning of man and lift me up to Your reasoning.
This is a temporary life, let me live in my eternal life. Let me act and do so in line with Your commandments of love.
You said to be anxious for nothing, I refuse anxiety regardless of the attacks from it. I will not harbor anxiety. I lift my eyes to You to receive Your peace.
I trust myself to You for You care for me. I will not harbor doubt and unbelief in You. And I thank You for the measure of faith You have given unto me.
You know how the lack of money affects me and each one of Your children. You know how money causes us to falter in so many ways, how it affects our reasoning.
You say, we cannot serve money and You, and yet, we are slaves to money at every turn of the way. Everywhere we turn we need money.
We cannot free ourselves, set us free my Father, I plead. Deliver us from the slavery to money and teach us to live without our obsession for money.
His answer?
“My child, your attitude towards money is what makes you slave to it. You don’t need any money that I don’t supply for you. You don’t need to go after money to supply yourself. All I want from you is your willingness to wait on Me for your supplies. Do not destroy your body with anxiety and worldly worries and cares pertaining to the business of this life. Wait on Me even for the words you are to speak about money and such. Do not be afraid of the lack or the abundance of money. Your attitude towards money is to be a complete trust on Me for your supply of it. Sit still and wait on Me for your deliverance. Do not change the course I have marked for you because of money. Again, sit still and wait on Me.”
Thank You for hearing, for answering my prayer.
Praying—Talking to My Master. Reflecting. Sharing …
It’s now 6:30 am on Friday, October 25, 2024. Saturday, October 26, 2024, at 7:48 am, what are You showing me by maintaining me in a reflective mood, my Beloved Master? Minutes are ticking, tic tac time tics by exactly as it tic tack yesterday. I wait. It’s now Sunday, October 27, 2024, at 9:19 am. It’s 5:30:am on Monday, October 28, 2024. Tuesday, October 29, 2024, at 11:15 am. No NET. It’s now 3:03 am on Wednesday, October 30, 2024. Still, no NET. I turned the computer off. Wednesday, October 30, 2024, at 4:22 am. I turned the computer on. The NET is on! Wonderful.
What a reminder that was!
What are we to do when all mediums of communication fail to no avail of restoration? Impossibly we say? Oh? Let’s think. What about if the workers, the experts are struck by lightning? Okay, laugh at me. But I can no longer laugh or cry without considering the possibilities in all that I do or say. I tremble. I am waiting for what? I do not know but it is imperative for me to wait like a servant for the Master’s instructions. Back to my reading task. Time? It’s 4:45 am on Wednesday, October 30, 2024. The day went by , nothing recorded on the last day of Pam’s care for me. It’s now Friday, November 1, 2024, at 4:04 am.
Wow! Here We Are! The 11th Month …???
It started off with a visit from Teri—the case manager. Change of company for my care. Wow! What a way to start this month. How prompt! Saturday, November 2, 2024, at 7:47 pm. This was a day to take care of myself with a good heart refusing to complain or feel sorry for myself. There is peace within my being, for I come to the throne of grace to ask for help continuously as it is written for me to do.
For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning.
Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God’s unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it]. Hebrews 4:15-16 AMPC+
The Ingrained Voice Within …
It’s a joy to live by the ingrained voice within my being, the voice of the Almighty Creator of everything in existence including my being. It’s now Sunday, November 3, 2024, at 1:21 am. Time to begin my day. Alright! Is it time to raise my voice. Not really raise my voice or anything hysterical. Again, life is a process of learning. We all have a choice to learn the truth about knowledge or we choose to emphasize our bias knowledge programmed in our minds is up to each individual. For myself? My choice has been seared within my being since 1985. I continue to learn about the truth about everything including what is happening right here in this room as well as the truth about everything happening globally. But what am I to do with such knowledge? I just hear from within,
Laugh Like Your Father Up Above Laughs …?
Ha! Ha! Ha! HalleluYah! It is written:
WHY DO the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme? The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Lord and His Anointed One (the Messiah, the Christ). They say, [Act 4:25-27] Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.
He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Lord has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them].He speaks to them in His deep anger and troubles (terrifies and confounds) them in His displeasure and fury, saying,
Yet have I anointed (installed and placed) My King [firmly] on My holy hill of Zion. I will declare the decree of the Lord: He said to Me, You are My Son; this day [I declare] I have begotten You. [Heb 1:5; Heb 3:5-6; 2Pe 1:17-18]
Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth as Your possession. You shall break them with a rod of iron; You shall dash them in pieces like potters’ ware. [Rev 12:5; Rev 19:15]
Now therefore, O you kings, act wisely; be instructed and warned, O you rulers of the earth. Serve the Lord with reverent awe and worshipful fear; rejoice and be in high spirits with trembling [lest you displease Him]. Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled.
O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him! Psalms 2:1-12 AMPC+.
A Day to Reflect …
It’s now 8:07 am on Tuesday, November 5, 2024. Waiting. It’s now Wednesday, November 6, 2024, at 2:00 am. Must I continue to laugh? I know there is a time to laugh and a time to cry. Now, for what I am experiencing I am beginning to see that those times for the most part happen in a single moment. Indeed, I am grieving the death of my friend plus the state and condition of the younger generation but at the same time I am laughing at the stupidity of mankind. 5:13 pm on Wednesday, November 6, 2024.
Wow! There Is Hope for America! …
But then again, what do I know? Nothing is like it seems to me. So? I am aware of the futility of making statements based on what it seems to me. Time will tell. It’s now Wednesday, November 6, 2024, at 11:03 pm. I do pray on high with all intensity, Deliver me from self-righteousness’. Thursday, November 7, 2024, at 4:17 pm. I am out of sorts. It’s now Saturday, November 9, 2024, at 2:54 am, almost 3:00 am. It’s the 7th Day of Rest again. I remain resting in bosom of my Heavenly Father. Yesterday I was not inclined to record anything; I am simply in wonder letting all things happen like a gentle rain to refresh the depth of my soul. Today? It seems that I am to change direction. I am not sure yet in which way I am to go. I wait.
The Dream
Or was it a vision? Regardless, I had just settled in bed when I saw a black/yellow butterfly on the center of 3 layers. I meant to create a graphic, but I got side tracked until this morning. Here is more or less what I saw:
It’s now Monday, November 11, 2024, at 2:12 am. My body is not responding but my soul is free. I wait. Feeling better. Tuesday, November 12, 2024, at 3:47 am. Computer setup completed yesterday. More organizing today, Wednesday, November 13, 2024, at 6:08 am. Thursday, November 14, 2024, at 3:24 am.
I created a graphic portraying my journey & helpers at this moment:
Tee Jones = Kindness & Love …
Acts of kindness for Denise’s mom on Denise’s birthday 2024. Thursday, November 14, 2024, at 7:55 pm, bed. Up and about on Friday, November 15, 2024, at 4:35 am. It’s now Saturday, November 16, 2024, at 2:35 am. Denise’s birthday.
Beautiful inside & out, that’s my daughter!
Silence. I no longer make statements to incriminate or implicate myself.
Date & time now is 5:44 am on Saturday, November 16, 2024. Sleep from 5-9. It’s now 9:20 pm on Saturday, November 16, 2024. Sunday, November 17, 2024, at 12:52 am. Bed. Sunday, November 17, 2024, at 4:08 am.
We Must Return to the 10 Commandments …
Quote:
Mat 16:24-28
(24) Then Jesus said to His disciples, If anyone desires to be My disciple, let him deny himself [disregard, lose sight of, and forget himself and his own interests] and take up his cross and follow Me [cleave steadfastly to Me, conform wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying, also].
Proverbs 14:26-29
Just As I Have Been Sensing for it All to Be …
Up and about. Wednesday, November 20, 2024, at 3:12 am. I have no desire to chit-chat. In the chit-chat I sense those written words become the idle words I will have to give an account of in the day of judgment. I tremble. Yes, laughter is good medicine but, right now? I just don’t sense laughing is the thing to do. I wait. Here I am 2 days later Friday, November 22, 2024, at 2:50 am.
Much To Think About …?
To start with why does my friend insist in showing up without teeth in her mouth? But why am I so appalled at my own sight without teeth? In fact, why am I so appalled at the sight of any deformity? Really, I make fun of everything but the truth about the whole spectrum of my humankind is pathetic to me. We are putting a tough face but inside of us? O well! Anyhow, my eyes are set up high on the ONE Creator of our beings as well as the Creator of everything in existence. A reminder of what I have written before,
Yet, I find myself still looking for approval, limiting myself to a particular way of life, not letting go of my ‘shoulds’.
It is inevitable that my mind races none stop like an unbridled horse.
Regardless of such limitations I am evolving along with my dreams.
I can find greater happiness, I am sure.
Life is beautiful when I see it with the Master’s mind on me.
I choose to focus on good as per my Master’s desire.
I am attracting more positiveness into my life.
The universe, that includes the host of heaven, is working in my favor.
I live each moment hoping to discover the promised revelation of my Master,
I am not ashamed of quoting the Bible because I am watching it coming to pass exactly as it is written. Thus, even if at first sight readers turn away from what I share, eventually more and more writings on the same vein shall flood the Internet for the Almighty Creator of everything in existence aims to restore His creation, including us human beings to the original intent for its creation.
Such is my legacy for the rest of my days on these earthly grounds expressed in Proverbs 3.
His own Word is written not only in the Bible but also in the heart of His selected human beings as well as in the heart of each one of His beloved children individually.
And His Word shows what immense care He has for His whole creation, and especially for each one of us people individually.
He cares for us, has a plan for us, will not forsake us, and wants us to spend eternity with Him!
That’s the LIFE I am set in looking forwards to.
New World! Wonderfully Free Of The Fears That Been Suffocating Me All Of My Life …
Wow! What a way to start this Friday, November 22, 2024, at 4:00 am. Bless my heart. Saturday, November 23, 2024, at 5:17 am. Up and about. Today signifies one more 7th Day of Rest. Resting on my Maker I wait. It’s now Sunday, November 24, 2024, at 2:33 am. What is my Master implying to me right now? I got it!
Harmony And Unity
The power of harmony and unity that can be achieved when we embrace both our nurturing nature and our creative expression. It reminds us that we have the power to balance our relationships, careers, and personal growth by tapping into our inner wisdom and strength, otherwise, tapping the Almighty Creator of Everything in Existence’s ingrained within our beings. Wow! What a way to start this last week of November 2024.
Discovery!
Well? I have discovered the source of my computer problems. Indeed! I have been murdering it unmercifully! How? By never giving it proper rest. But what is at the root of this discovery? The need to update myself! Wow! I am not old, I am outdated. What a relief! There is no way to remedy old age, but the remedy for my present computer? Get a new computer and give much rest the present computer before it conks out and I lose important information like it happened with the old computer. Monday, November 25, 2024, at 2:25 am. Tuesday, November 26, 2024 at 1:30 am.
Discovery Conclusion …?
It’s now 6:24 am on Tuesday, November 26, 2024. I have been led to discover that regardless all astonishing discoverers we shall never discover the ultimate all discoveries until the Almighty Creator of Everything in Existence’s timing for any of us to do so. Scriptures coming to mind.
Quote:
Ecclesiastes 3:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He also has planted eternity in men’s hearts and minds [a divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun but God alone can satisfy], yet so that men cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.
Wisdom of God Once Hidden …
1 Corinthians 2:6-16 AMPC+
(6) Yet when we are among the full-grown (spiritually mature Christians who are ripe in understanding), we do impart a [higher] wisdom (the knowledge of the divine plan previously hidden); but it is indeed not a wisdom of this present age or of this world nor of the leaders and rulers of this age, who are being brought to nothing and are doomed to pass away.
(7) But rather what we are setting forth is a wisdom of God once hidden [from the human understanding] and now revealed to us by God–[that wisdom] which God devised and decreed before the ages for our glorification [to lift us into the glory of His presence].
(8) None of the rulers of this age or world perceived and recognized and understood this, for if they had, they would never have crucified the Lord of glory.
(9) But, on the contrary, as the Scripture says, What eye has not seen and ear has not heard and has not entered into the heart of man, [all that] God has prepared (made and keeps ready) for those who love Him [N1who hold Him in affectionate reverence, promptly obeying Him and gratefully recognizing the benefits He has bestowed]. [Isa_64:4; Isa_65:17]
(10) Yet to us God has unveiled and revealed them by and through His Spirit, for the [Holy] Spirit searches diligently, exploring and examining everything, even sounding the profound and bottomless things of God [the divine counsels and things hidden and beyond man’s scrutiny].
(11) For what person perceives (knows and understands) what passes through a man’s thoughts except the man’s own spirit within him? Just so no one discerns (comes to know and comprehend) the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.
(12) Now we have not received the spirit [that belongs to] the world, but the [Holy] Spirit Who is from God, [given to us] that we might realize and comprehend and appreciate the gifts [of divine favor and blessing so freely and lavishly] bestowed on us by God.
(13) And we are setting these truths forth in words not taught by human wisdom but taught by the [Holy] Spirit, combining and interpreting spiritual truths with spiritual language [to those who possess the Holy Spirit].
(14) But the natural, nonspiritual man does not accept or welcome or admit into his heart the gifts and teachings and revelations of the Spirit of God, for they are folly (meaningless nonsense) to him; and he is incapable of knowing them [of progressively recognizing, understanding, and becoming better acquainted with them] because they are spiritually discerned and estimated and appreciated.
(15) But the spiritual man tries all things [he examines, investigates, inquires into, questions, and discerns all things], yet is himself to be put on trial and judged by no one [he can read the meaning of everything, but no one can properly discern or appraise or get an insight into him].
(16) For who has known or understood the mind (the counsels and purposes) of the Lord so as to guide and instruct Him and give Him knowledge? But we have the mind of Christ (the Messiah) and do hold the thoughts (feelings and purposes) of His heart. [Isa_40:13]
Who Knows? …
The Scriptures above are only a glimpse of the reason for our ignorance these days that seem to be the last days of time as we know time to be. REALTY: I know who I am. I know what to do. I know how to do it. Shame on me if I don’t apply myself to do what I know and do it. But guess what? Without an inkling of I have been doing, I have been doing exactly what I am supposed to do. How can that be?
Time & Timing That’s How …
Wednesday, November 27, 2024, at 6:49 pm. Thursday, November 28, 2024, at 2:14 am. Thanksgiving Day, so much to give thanks for. Let us give thanks to the Almighty Creator of our beings for the joy of our salvation. His joy is our strength. So be it. Going to Diana’s to celebrate. It’s now Thursday, November 28, 2024, at 3:51 pm. I am back. I will now prepare what needs to be posted. Thursday, November 28, 2024, at 4:30 pm. Lov, thia.
Silence is our defense. We are abused. There is no respect for our golden years. Evil times have made hideous cartoons of our once beautiful bodies. Programmed minds have destroyed not only our bodies, but our potential as well as our morals. We are the victims of well-meaning trained health care givers set up by the Government in power..
Unfortunately, we are all under the authority of the powers of hell. What are we to do? We are to quit complaining, asking for help, demanding anything. We are to sit still, and, wait. What? Have I lost my mind? No. I have not lost anything.
Reality! I Have Found It All at Once …
Yes, this is about my journey. It was October 21, 1986. Over a year since June 20, 1985. A remarkable change began on the 20th day of June 1985, which I chose as the first chapter of my Autobiography. The change started on that glorious morning. It was slow, it was a change from within that goes on perpetually.
It’s now Monday, October 21, 2024, at 4:09 am. How interesting it to find myself in the exact predicament today as it was that day some 38 years ago. O well! What can I say? The way my children and good friends and care givers treat me drive me bananas. I could just smack them a good one and send them flying to the moon if only I had the strength to do so.
It’s a good thing that I fear their power to condemn me to a home and let the government take my SS check, force me to take all those chemicals, reprogram my mind to OBEY! I tremble! I weep for days. I quit eating. I am determined to help myself by showing them I can help myself! Then? …
The Power of Silence …
Phew! What a relief! What’s the sense to retaliate? It only shows my stupidity. Have I not learned to be still, to wait in these many years of misery? Of course I have learned. I don’t need to explain. Let the power of my silence restore the joy of my Creator within my heart.
The Joy of My Creator? …
Surely! I’m so joyful as I travel on the bright road to Kingdom land and I’m living so my life so Yahushua might shine! There! I’ll wait for the next time to post. Lov, thia.
What Is All About? Is It Just for This or That We Live? …
It’s 5:45 am on Saturday, October 19, 2024. I do not want to think about it. Let it be. Be still. Wait. For what I am experiencing the reality of life is marked by the ˈstupidness of mankind. No kidding, that’s the infallible truth. So? Why should I get all bent out of shape when my stupidity is exposed to my face? Am I not of the humankind? Ridiculous.
Cliché or the Reality of Love …
…. PLATITUDE
1. A trite or banal remark or statement, especially one expressed as if it were original or significant. See Synonyms at cliché.
2. Lack of originality; triteness: “a passage of platitude which no critical prejudgment can force us to admire” (Edgar Allan Poe). ….
Guilty!
Am I? Have I made a cliché out of the ancient words written in the ancient manuscripts? It’s Sunday, October 20, 2024, at 6:24 am. Perhaps. That’s what it looks like. I see myself amid the stupid spectrum of the world at large. I weep, I wait, until the reality of the Liberating Power of Love from the Almighty resonates within me. All is well with my soul.
Friday, October 18, 2024, at 4:03 am. It’s another day in this wacky journey of mine trying to make a point. Big deal! But isn’t everybody, including my mother-in-law trying to do the same? Well? For sure debates, likes, dislikes, compliments or caustic gibes are out of the question. Been there done that.
Even so? The inscrutable workings of the Almighty Creator of everything in existence in His mysterious doings, words, revelations, commands, and what have you to the numerous human beings proclaiming one thing or the other turn out to encompass all the dim origins of life.
Anyhow, I already made my point in ‘The Liberating Power of Love!’ I posted yesterday. I haven’t got the slightest how that post was received. No matter. By intuition or the faculty of knowing or understanding something without reasoning or proof I record my impressions or insights gained by faith, trust, and hope in the Almighty Creator.
The Almighty Creator or The Unknown God Are the Same …
Simply, it’s only lately that I realized the naked truth, I don’t know my Creator. I only know that His love is The Liberating Power of Love as it is implied in the Scriptures, He inspired me to post yesterday.
I am enthralled as I glide through the pages of the books I have been inspired to read. No kidding, this is the searing of the completeness of my being. How blessed I am! It’s now Friday, October 11, 2024, at 6:51 pm. Slept on the recliner for a while. The man whoever he was, was after my picture album I was clutching to my chest, he reached, pulled my picture and left waving it; I was screaming, ‘I’ll kill you!’.
I got up intending to go to bed. I went to the door, turned on the porch light, opened the door, grabbed the screen handle, open it but someone grabbed it, I could not close it, then I found myself indoor but I had to push with my whole body to close the door and lock it. I headed for bed. I was scared like a little child. I guess I was still asleep.
I laid on the bed. I quoted scriptures to comfort me. I slumbered only to sense a presence over my face. I opened my eyes; a sort of golden reddish metallic face was about to kiss me. I spoke in other languages commanding it to get out of my house. It left. By this time, I was trembling in fear. I called Denise. Denise comforted me.
Next, I opened my eyes at 2:22 am. There is a knot in my stomach that has been there for the last few days. It comes and goes. I don’t know what this is all about. It’s now Saturday, October 12, 2024, at 3:23 am. The 2nd 7th Day of rest in the 10th month in 2024. Into Your hands I commend my spirit Almighty Yahuwah. This is a day You have made for me. I will rejoice, be glad about Sunday, October 13, 2024, at 2:10 am. It’s now Monday, October 14, 2024, at 5:33 am. Enlightenment from on High.
Indeed! Enlightenment from on High. No kidding, for a while I felt I was doing better every day, then, I began to feel worse. I cried in pain, I was angry, short tempered, I didn’t care for anything, until it came to me the meaning of my dream clearly. I had searched for the meaning of it to no avail. But then I let go of my search, I lifted my spirit into the hands of the Almighty.
Little by little I noticed improvements in my body, in my mood, even the knot in my stomach was gone. Suddenly! It came to me; I want to kill my angry impatience because things are not developing as I expect them to develop! Phew! Joy busted from within me. Laughter.
But most importantly, the Almighty’s Grace & Favor Descended Upon this fallen creature I was on my way to descend. It’s now time to get back to my reading on Monday, October 14, 2024, at 4:06 pm. And so? For the rest of the story later. It’s now Tuesday, October 15, 2024, at 7:26 am. Later came after a week of wrestling.
Calmly I Wait for Whatever Happens Next …
It’s now Wednesday, October 16, 2024, at 12:30 am. What am I to think or do, how am I to discern what comes from You my Master, what comes from my imagination from programmed fears in my mind? I see the veil over some people’s eyes that scares me somehow. Right now, I refuse to pay attention to anything disturbing my peace. I surrender all happenings into Your loving hands. In my mind the next came to me.
The God-Given Task
Ecclesiastes 3:9-15 AMPC+
(9) What profit remains for the worker from his toil?
(10) I have seen the painful labor and exertion and miserable business which God has given to the sons of men with which to exercise and busy themselves.
(11) He has made everything beautiful in its time. He also has planted eternity in men’s hearts and minds [a divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun but God alone can satisfy], yet so that men cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.
(12) I know that there is nothing better for them than to be glad and to get and do good as long as they live;
(13) And also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor–it is the gift of God.
(14) I know that whatever God does, it endures forever; nothing can be added to it nor anything taken from it. And God does it so that men will [reverently] fear Him [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is]. [Psa 19:9; Jas 1:17]
(15) That which is now already has been, and that which is to be already has been; and God seeks that which has passed by [so that history repeats itself].
The Way of the Righteous and the Wicked
Psalms 1:1-6 AMPC+
(1) BLESSED (HAPPY, fortunate, prosperous, and enviable) is the man who walks and lives not in the counsel of the ungodly [following their advice, their plans and purposes], nor stands [submissive and inactive] in the path where sinners walk, nor sits down [to relax and rest] where the scornful [and the mockers] gather.
(2) But his delight and desire are in the law of the Lord, and on His law (the precepts, the instructions, the teachings of God) he habitually meditates (ponders and studies) by day and by night. [Rom 13:8-10; Gal 3:1-29; 2Ti 3:16]
(3) And he shall be like a tree firmly planted [and tended] by the streams of water, ready to bring forth its fruit in its season; its leaf also shall not fade or wither; and everything he does shall prosper [and come to maturity]. [Jer 17:7-8]
(4) Not so the wicked [those disobedient and living without God are not so]. But they are like the chaff [worthless, dead, without substance] which the wind drives away.
(5) Therefore the wicked [those disobedient and living without God] shall not stand [justified] in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous [those who are upright and in right standing with God].
(6) For the Lord knows and is fully acquainted with the way of the righteous, but the way of the ungodly [those living outside God’s will] shall perish (end in ruin and come to nought).
The Reign of the Lord’s Anointed
Psalms 2:1-12 AMPC+
(1) WHY DO the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme?
(2) The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Lord and His Anointed One (the Messiah, the Christ). They say, [Act 4:25-27]
(3) Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.
(4) He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Lord has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them].
(5) He speaks to them in His deep anger and troubles (terrifies and confounds) them in His displeasure and fury, saying,
(6) Yet have I anointed (installed and placed) My King [firmly] on My holy hill of Zion.
(7) I will declare the decree of the Lord: He said to Me, You are My Son; this day [I declare] I have begotten You. [Heb 1:5; Heb 3:5-6; 2Pe 1:17-18]
(8) Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth as Your possession.
(9) You shall break them with a rod of iron; You shall dash them in pieces like potters’ ware. [Rev 12:5; Rev 19:15]
(10) Now therefore, O you kings, act wisely; be instructed and warned, O you rulers of the earth.
(11) Serve the Lord with reverent awe and worshipful fear; rejoice and be in high spirits with trembling [lest you displease Him].
(12) Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled. O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him!
The Remnant of Israel
Romans 11:1-10 AMPC+
(1) I ASK then: Has God totally rejected and disowned His people? Of course not! Why, I myself am an Israelite, a descendant of Abraham, a member of the tribe of Benjamin! [1Sa 12:22; Jer 31:37; Jer 33:24-26; Php 3:5]
(2) No, God has not rejected and disowned His people [whose destiny] He had marked out and appointed and foreknown from the beginning. Do you not know what the Scripture says of Elijah, how he pleads with God against Israel? [Psa 94:14; 1 Kings 19]
(3) Lord, they have killed Your prophets; they have demolished Your altars, and I alone am left, and they seek my life.
(4) But what is God’s reply to him? I have kept for Myself seven thousand men who have not bowed the knee to Baal! [1Ki 19:18]
(5) So too at the present time there is a remnant (a small believing minority), selected (chosen) by grace (by God’s unmerited favor and graciousness).
(6) But if it is by grace (His unmerited favor and graciousness), it is no longer conditioned on works or anything men have done. Otherwise, grace would no longer be grace [it would be meaningless].
(7) What then [shall we conclude]? Israel failed to obtain what it sought [God’s favor by obedience to the Law]. Only the elect (those chosen few) obtained it, while the rest of them became callously indifferent (blinded, hardened, and made insensible to it).
(8) As it is written, God gave them a spirit (an attitude) of stupor, eyes that should not see and ears that should not hear, [that has continued] down to this very day. [Deu 29:4; Isa 29:10]
(9) And David says, Let their table (their feasting, banqueting) become a snare and a trap, a pitfall and a just retribution [rebounding like a boomerang upon them]; [Psa 69:22]
(10) Let their eyes be darkened (dimmed) so that they cannot see, and make them bend their back [stooping beneath their burden] forever. [Psa 69:23]
Gentiles Grafted In
Romans 11:11-24 AMPC+
(11) So I ask, Have they stumbled so as to fall [to their utter spiritual ruin, irretrievably]? By no means! But through their false step and transgression salvation [has come] to the Gentiles, so as to arouse Israel [to see and feel what they forfeited] and so to make them jealous.
(12) Now if their stumbling (their lapse, their transgression) has so enriched the world [at large], and if [Israel’s] failure means such riches for the Gentiles, think what an enrichment and greater advantage will follow their full reinstatement!
(13) But now I am speaking to you who are Gentiles. Inasmuch then as I am an apostle to the Gentiles, I lay great stress on my ministry and magnify my office,
(14) In the hope of making my fellow Jews jealous [in order to stir them up to imitate, copy, and appropriate], and thus managing to save some of them.
(15) For if their rejection and exclusion from the benefits of salvation were [overruled] for the reconciliation of a world to God, what will their acceptance and admission mean? [It will be nothing short of] life from the dead!
(16) Now if the first handful of dough offered as the first fruits [Abraham and the patriarchs] is consecrated (holy), so is the whole mass [the nation of Israel]; and if the root [Abraham] is consecrated (holy), so are the branches. [Num 15:19-21]
(17) But if some of the branches were broken off, while you, a wild olive shoot, were grafted in among them to share the richness [of the root and sap] of the olive tree,
(18) Do not boast over the branches and pride yourself at their expense. If you do boast and feel superior, remember it is not you that support the root, but the root [that supports] you.
(19) You will say then, Branches were broken (pruned) off so that I might be grafted in!
(20) That is true. But they were broken (pruned) off because of their unbelief (their lack of real faith), and you are established through faith [because you do believe]. So do not become proud and conceited, but rather stand in awe and be reverently afraid.
(21) For if God did not spare the natural branches [because of unbelief], neither will He spare you [if you are guilty of the same offense].
(22) Then note and appreciate the gracious kindness and the severity of God: severity toward those who have fallen, but God’s gracious kindness to you–provided you continue in His grace and abide in His kindness; otherwise you too will be cut off (pruned away).
(23) And even those others [the fallen branches, Jews], if they do not persist in [clinging to] their unbelief, will be grafted in, for God has the power to graft them in again.
(24) For if you have been cut from what is by nature a wild olive tree, and against nature grafted into a cultivated olive tree, how much easier will it be to graft these natural [branches] back on [the original parent stock of] their own olive tree.
The Mystery of Israel’s Salvation
Romans 11:25-36 AMPC+
(25) Lest you be self-opinionated (wise in your own conceits), I do not want you to miss this hidden truth and mystery, brethren: a hardening (insensibility) has [temporarily] befallen a part of Israel [to last] until the N1full number of the ingathering of the Gentiles has come in,
(26) And so all Israel will be saved. As it is written, The Deliverer will come from Zion, He will banish ungodliness from Jacob. [Isa 59:20-21]
(27) And this will be My covenant (My agreement) with them when I shall take away their sins. [Isa 27:9; Jer 31:33]
(28) From the point of view of the Gospel (good news), they [the Jews, at present] are enemies [of God], which is for your advantage and benefit. But from the point of view of God’s choice (of election, of divine selection), they are still the beloved (dear to Him) for the sake of their forefathers.
(29) For God’s gifts and His call are irrevocable. [He never withdraws them when once they are given, and He does not change His mind about those to whom He gives His grace or to whom He sends His call.]
(30) Just as you were once disobedient and rebellious toward God but now have obtained [His] mercy, through their disobedience,
(31) So they also now are being disobedient [when you are receiving mercy], that they in turn may one day, through the mercy you are enjoying, also receive mercy [that they may share the mercy which has been shown to you–through you as messengers of the Gospel to them].
(32) For God has consigned (penned up) all men to disobedience, only that He may have mercy on them all [alike].
(33) Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unfathomable (inscrutable, unsearchable) are His judgments (His decisions)! And how untraceable (mysterious, undiscoverable) are His ways (His methods, His paths)!
(34) For who has known the mind of the Lord and who has understood His thoughts, or who has [ever] been His counselor? [Isa 40:13-14]
(35) Or who has first given God anything that he might be paid back or that he could claim a recompense?
(36) For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. [For all things originate with Him and come from Him; all things live through Him, and all things center in and tend to consummate and to end in Him.] To Him be glory forever! Amen (so be it).
Words Beyond Human Understanding …?
Indeed! Joy. Peace Beyond Human Understanding fills my heart. I can return to my reading now. Yes, I weep as the stark reality of the condition of my human nature, but I take heart as I realize that the end of slavery to my human nature is right within my being.
Indeed! The Liberating Power of Love!
I’ll post these reflections as soon as I edit them. Then I’ll wait for the next time to post. Lov, thia.
Well? I went ahead, I posted the introduction to the book. This is neat. I posted the introduction Tuesday, September 10, 2024, only 3 day ago, but so much has happened to change everything I had planned to format the book. Even so?. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2024, at 3:22 am. I am ready to start this day waiting on You, my Master, even for the words I am to use to handle the difficult situations that daily develop.
Difficult Situations that Daily Develop? …
Ha! Now I am getting a handle of how to craft this book! It Is My Journey—my journey no one else’s journey. So? It is the story of the journey I am traveling on from defeat to recovery. Is the story of a journey in the process of transformation.
My Soul Is Free. It’s a wonderful life for us, not just for me.’
Vacillating. No problem. My soul is free from anxieties. Besides, certainty, resolution, decisiveness, confidence, trust, belief, faith, far outweigh my vacillating. The truth is that I am waiting for things to develop without my acting from my ideas of helping others or myself. When is time for me to act, I will act with certainty. But!
I Am Concerned …
You know it, my Master. I am concerned about my eating and working habits. I am beginning to see that what troubles me when I see the trend in this generation fits me as well. Is my heart overburdened and depressed (weighed down) with the giddiness and headache and nausea of SELF-INDULGENCE, drunkenness, and worldly worries and cares pertaining to the business of this life? I need to hear from You, my Master. I wait.
Ah! The Wiles Of The Devil! …
Yes! The devil exists despite the skeptics, atheists, agnostics, etc. the worst part? The devil exists within me! What? O me! I just thought about it! No kidding! No wonder why I am in the predicament I am in. That ego inside my brain! That’s the one whispering to me all these evil thoughts against me! And me? O me! Yesterday? My ego whispered to me that I was self-indulgent! And the Scripture was quoted to me. Why? Because I aim to distribute that Scripture big time! I created a graphic frame and set that Scripture in it with the title “A Loving warning”.
Ha! Ha! Ha! I Am Now To Become A Crusader! …
Let it be! This is too good! I asked for it. Yes, I did! Do you, dear reader, take notice of my predicament yesterday? After quoting the Scripture, I prayed, “I need to hear from You, my Master. I wait”.
Well? It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2024, at 1:00 am. I have been up for about an hour. I woke up feeling pretty good. I think I woke up dreaming that I was eating brisket with Patsy. But as soon as I entered the living room, I saw the empty hook where my house key is to hang. I remember that Maya put the key in her pocket when we went to check the mailbox. No problem. Maya was distracted yesterday and forgot to return the key to the hook, but of course, doubt, fearful whispers began to rumble in my ears about what people could think of my carelessness to guard my key. I thought to myself, “Who cares! I don’t have to fear anything! My Master is in control!”
Suddenly! It All Came Together For Me! …
Honestly? I am my worst enemy. Correction, I have been my worst enemy until this moment of time. I know now Who is Who for sure. No kidding, there are two natures within my being, one is my carnal nature, the other is the nature that the Creator breathed within my being when He created me.
What Now? What Am I To Do? …
Be still. Surrender my will to the Master of my being. Wait. The whole matter of this situation with the two natures within the human being will come to light for each individual as we progress to the end of time. No need for me to express anymore than how it has come to me.
What? What is a crusade? Crusade: A concerted effort or vigorous movement for a cause or against an abuse. Crusader: a disputant who advocates reform. The question is, Am I Supposed To Become A Crusader? Dear me! Not ‘become’, I have been crusading for my Master since 1985 when He commission me to journal my life. But that is not the same as a crusader today.
No need for me to take matters into my own hands to exhibit my colossal ignorance of what really goes on with the rest of human beings. I am not in this world to change the world with such campaigns. Indeed! I am not that wacky at all! I am wise as a serpent, innocent, harmless, guileless, and without falsity as a dove. Matthew 10 is a reality for me.
It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2024, at 2:07 am. I am on to Post this matter as the first chapter of My Journey. My Soul Is Free. It’s a wonderful life for us, not just for me. That is not what I had in mind to do, but now I understand why I was not inclined to publish only what I published last. I am now really enthused; I don’t have to publish what has already been published. This is truly ANEW, AFRESH in a new but different way. As I am inspired to, I will post this entry as Chapter 1. lov, thia.
Saturday, September 14, 2024, at 9:15 pm. Bed. Up around 2 am on Sunday, September 15, 2024. It’s now Sunday, September 15, 2024, at 9:19 am. I just concluded that I am refraining from ordering things indiscriminately. Big step forward for me. I can hear the clamor from the peanut gallery! Ha! Ha! Now what should I expect a reward? Oh! But it is so hard to be a saint!
Seriously, I Tremble When …?
When I get the picture of what is happening in this crazy world I inhabit, and me? Obsessed with things like crazy! I need this or that, every day I invent another thing needed. And Yes! That is my ego sucking me in into materialism. But of course, the same ego is telling me that I am too hard on myself. That my problem is I do not love myself. Or another suggestion or approach to distract or to push me in whatever direction I choose.
No, I am not rambling on. I am as serious as a heart attack. And no, I am not attempting to practice stoicism or to vest myself in sac clothes. Or to walk on pins and needles. I don’t have to, I have surrendered my choices to my Maker as He commands me to do. Thus, He knows better than me what are my needs, and He is providing those needs superabundantly.
Indeed! It’s Better Than Expected …
It’s now Sunday, September 15, 2024, at 9:44 pm. I have been sleeping since around 5 pm. I don’t feel good. Evil thoughts of sickness and disease flash through my carnal mind. No matter. I fear not. Now I know which way the cookie crumbles. I refuse to pay mind to the evil within, without me. I hear quite clear, “Do not be seized with alarm and struck with fear; only keep on believing.” That was a request for the impossible, the daughter was dead, why trouble the Master?
In my case? I have been suffering with chronic pain for years. Everything has been done to relieve my malady to no avail, but the Master has promised me to restore my health and my wealth. The truth? He is doing so, only He is fulfilling His promises to me in His way and on His time. And when I am feeling down and out with pain, dizziness, and all kind of evil threats in my mind, He speaks encouraging words to me.
All Is Well in My Paradise, Sitting On Top of The Mountain Alone With Him. lov, thia.
I spent many hours researching what it is that people wants to read about. I noticed that for the most people is no longer interested in any guidance into divine revelations. It turns out that for the most what we offer each other is only words without knowledge. Unless like in the Book of Job, the Almighty Creator of everything in existence has dealt with that person like He has done with me. It is totally a personal matter.
Indeed! I searched and researched until it came to me the futility of my search with the mire to attract many readers. For goodness’s sake! The posts tell the saga, if people is not interested in my saga so far, I know that not even the best crafted headline shall make the difference if my content is only ‘words without knowledge.
It’s Results in the Content Of a Book That People Enjoys Reading …
It’s now Wednesday, September 11, 2024, at 8:00 pm. Everybody is excited. Not I. Hurricane talk prevails. That’s what it is. Be still. Faith. trust. Aline my will to my Master’s will. His plan in His mind is in effect for me. It’s now Thursday, September 12, 2024. At 3:30 am. Will continue with my work.
Wow! Today? Big Day Promised …
No kidding, from the moment I woke up my mood became neutral. Sure, the cramps in my legs that woke me up could have thrown me in the usual, ‘help me’ but instead at the suggestion to relax I got up to move around thinking, ‘how can I relax? That doesn’t make sense, as I headed to find something to drink. The cramps stopped. I fix my usual cup of coffee while my thinking is kind of in neutral grounds. I remember the storm. Headed to check what was happening out my door. Turn on the news on the computer. Nothing as dramatic as Katrine and other big storms, but the reporters are looking for the drama to attract readers. Me? I concluded, “Why am I wasting my time reading the news? Guess I am looking for the same drama that excites others. Silly me! I need to get back to my work.”
Big Day Promised …?
Indeed! I am already bubbling; things are working perfectly with the formatting & editing. Then? My body is responding to my good mood. The reward? Revelation as the cause of my pain & misery! It came to me, ‘I don’t fear death, what is it that I fear?’ Fear of rejection. WHAT?
I Fear, I Crave For Approval, For Love …
This is the first time I have come to face this fact with flying colors of conquering this fear. But the question is, How? That’s it! I don’t know how to conquer it. Yeah, I can just hear the multitude of assertions on how, not only to conquer one fear or all fears but! None of those assertions have helped me one iota. The fears continued to affect my living until today to my own amazement. Why? Timming.
A Time for Everything …
How many times have I heard such a quote? How many times have I proclaimed it with vain airs of wisdom? Too numerous to count. I preached but I did not convert. In practice, I forgot all about it. No kidding, that’s the fact. All those quotes I flung indiscriminately only made things worse for me. I could not understand it until today. Can you believe it dear friend reading these lines? I am now penning with such confidence beyond my understanding.
Well? From now on …
I know for sure that I am loved to love. What is it that this sentence I have been proclaiming over and over for quite a while? It means that to be loved means to be taken care of like a mother takes care of her child. I have only thought of our Creator taken care of us, of being loved by our Creator but today I realized how I have been loved by my parents and the many ones who have taken care of me, including my children, teachers, doctors, care givers, faithful friends and so forth. Isn’t that an amazingly healing revelation? Let me go on with this post.
This Post Is The Introduction Of The Book …?
I am inspired by the voice inside of me to blog the book before I published it. This way I will establish my credentials as a worthy to read writer. Who knows? Perhaps in the future I’ll be familiar with the ropes to gain many readers to love me, and I to love them.
Reality …
As it turned out yesterday nothing happened as I wanted to happen. Finally, at 5:30 pm I gave up waiting for something to happen so I could exhibit my enthusiasm with my experience of the day, but nothing happened. So? I went to bed. I slept from 5:30 pm until now on Thursday, September 12, 2024, at 11:00 pm. I find myself in a sober mood waiting on the Master of my soul. Ha! It’s a good thing for me to wait on my Master instead of rushing with my elevated moods that come and go as daily living develops.
Conclusion …
I must accept myself as I am. Up and down as the waves of daily living affect my emotions. Yes, I am inspired to blog about the book before I publish it. But right away I am blurring out my hope for my gain in doing so. Silly me! I must remember that my Master has made it clear to me that I am not in this world to change the world or myself with the power of my own wits. On the contrary, He aims to change the world with His power to transform me into a genuine human being despite my wacky ways. Moreover, I am not the only one He is working on. Daily He is showing me the work He is doing all around me.
Humbling Experience …
Humbling and valuable experience entitling me to accept myself as I am, a human being wacky but honest at the core. Indeed! I am a genuine human being grateful to be loved so that I can love in return, period. lov, thia.
