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At My Prime Again!!! Winning the Itching Battle …

  • Greetings to my friends in the USA, S. Africa, Jordan, United Arab Emirates, India, and the four corners of the earth.

Really? What On Earth Makes Me So Sure It Is So? …

I am Practicing being happy for no reason. Everything is temporary in life…Go figure it, lol.

Indeed! I Am Sure This Time. I Am As Serious About It As A Massive Heart Attack …?

How this can be? That’s what I am asking myself. How this can be my prime again? Last night I developed a massive headache. I racked my brain searching my memory for relief. A cup of coffee would do, I thought. I headed to the kitchen. O me! I got the bright idea to fix me a cappuccino. Yeah, I enjoyed it.

  • After a while the headache subsided.
  • I went to sleep.
  • Suddenly ferocious itching woke me.
  • for heaven’s sake!
  • The itching had stopped.
  • What is going on with my body, with my mind?

Stark Realizations …

My body is reacting to my mind. What is in my mind twisting my body with painful extremely uncomfortable reactions that is driving me to insanity?

Have You Ever Questioned Your Reactions …?

I wonder and ponder. Crazy me. Why wonder about you? Why not let go, leave you to your own self?

What Are You To Me? What Are The Realities I Am Dealing With …?

Well? For now I, you, and the rest of the worldlings are beginning to merge into a beautiful tapestry, intriguing but emanating the light of healing the horrors of a buried sulking past.

O Well! That’s Just Me! …?

What’s the matter with me? Ah! Don’t you see what you are doing to yourself. Why don’t you quit all the nonsense and accept the fact that you are old, and you are not going to be young again?

Ha! Ha! Ha! Wait Until Your Turn Comes …?

Do you really think you will enjoy turning into an invalid? … Silence. Hum! That’s enough! I don’t want to talk about such things. I’m busy …? End of conversation, but!

The Bright Shinny Spark Of The Meeting Of Our Minds …?

Ah! Maybe, just maybe this miserable itching shall turn tails away to the land of no return. Hope. There is ALWAYS hope …

  • It’s now Friday, September 8, 2023, at 4:55 am. Just finish drinking my cup of coffee, just coffee no cappuccino for me, that’s for sure …least for a time, eh?

Until the next post, lov, thia for short.

What Do You Think When Washing Dishes? …

I Think About All Sorts Of Things …

Some Things Are Worth My While …

Encouraging me to start my day free of vile. Some are quite troublesome. Some are gruesome. Anyhow? Most of the time, whichever way the things I think about while I’m washing dishes or walking or eating or socializing do not fit with the world at large. So I pray, not regular repetitious prayers, what I mean is that I talk to the Almighty Creator of our beings no matter what I am thinking or whatever the circumstances may be as per Matthew 6:5-8 & 1 Thessalonians 5:17-25.

I Do Whatever Like Everybody Else Do …

In other words, I socialize. But for the life of me I can’t help but see the futility of it all. Of course, the things I have been recording, the things I talk about are preposterous, yet? I am aware that such is only an appearance of human thinking. Even so? I was troubled about the matter not knowing what to do about it.

  • Funny thing, upon reflection on the matter?
  • A message popped in the inbox.

“The way you speak to yourself matters. Smile. Sparkle. Shine. It is not about who you impress. It is about who you impact. What is meant for you will make its way to you. Be YOURSELF.

How Neat! Exactly What I Have Been Knowing For A Long Time …

Yes, I know who I am. I know what to do. I know how to do it. The beauty of it all? I haven’t got the slightest how I know it all!

  • Bed: Wednesday, July 26, 2023, at 7:14 pm.
  • Up: Wednesday, July 26, 2023, at 10:15 pm.
  • Date & time now: Thursday, July 27, 2023, at 12:34 am.

That’s The Problem! Bless My Heart …

Because I haven’t got the slightest how I know it all, I despair. Fear & doubt knocks at my door. I become despondent. I lose my cool. The tears flow. Smile, Sparkle, Shine? Gone!

  • What’s wrong with you?
  • Take a deep breath!
  • Drink water!
  • Eat!
  • Take the pill!
  • You got to change your ways!

Poor Soul That I’m …

But only at times. Times when I guess I ‘been deceived. I got to be normal like everybody else!. I cringe! Down, down under the brown ground I almost plunge, suddenly! Like magic, up, up I go! Like the eagles mounting up closer to that One Wo loves so. Smile, Sparkle, Shine again like never before.

And That’s What The World Calls ‘Bipolar’ …

No problem anymore. I am proud to be able to appreciate the North/South poles. Better yet, as I posted a long time ago,

Quote:

We, ‘Bipolars’ are the envy of the town. Whether up or down? We can keep the audience in derision. Gloom or glee? We can operate in both poles—North or South. Why not?

Positive and Negative? The two extremes captivating the human attention and retention. Bipolar! The doctor concludes. The Big Pharma? “I think I need a bigger box!” with glee explodes, and?

The wacky journey on this valley of death that we call ‘life’ begins in all earnest. The Bipolar, schiz, manic depressive amidst? O well! I top the list.

POSITIVE versus NEGATIVE Connect the two and you will find the battery that runs this machine of the world that we inhabit!

What about me? Me? I am BIPOLAR! I run in either pole! Rather I can make people run away from or to me in either pole! Ha! Ha! HalleluYah!

Humor instead of anger is my own conclusion not at all an illusion! Done fix myself a logo with my ‘brand’ new motto. Isn’t beautiful?

Soon, very soon, sooner than our human minds complicated state? Sooner than our fancy imaginations can fancy? The Loving Father Creator of our beings will shout and sing, “Death, where is your sting?” End of quote.

No Kidding! Freedom Is Not Just A Feeling …

Nor is it knowledge. It is not what we say it is from our engaging memories. The truth? It is useless to define the etherealness of freedom, love, and many other words I used to so flippantly defined. Mea culpa. But the experience of such words? Dumbfounded! But delighted!

Meantime and until the next post? Lov to all, thia.

 

Indeed! Courage To Begin Anew New In A Different Way …

Life’s New Perspective …

Trust In The Master With All Your Heart …

(Updating the previous post.)

I am not ashamed of quoting the Bible because I am watching it coming to pass exactly as it is written. Thus, even if at first sight readers turn away from what I share, eventually more and more writings on the same vein shall flood the Internet for the Almighty Creator of everything in existence aims to restore His creation, including us human beings to the original intent for its creation. Such is my legacy for 2023 expressed in Proverbs 3.

The Almighty Creator Of Everything In Existence’s Thoughts Toward Us …

His own Word, written not only in the Bible but also in the heart of His selected human beings shows what an immense care He has for His whole creation, and especially for each one of us people individually.

  • He cares for us, has a plan for us, will not forsake us, and wants us to spend eternity with Him!
  • In this post He compels the writer to express the complete experience of the immensity of His love and care for us.

Unexpected Developments …

Nothing is happening the way I had in mind. The Master is turning mourning to Joy as per Jeremiah 31, but? So far, I myself have not quite got much of an idea anymore of how it is all going to happen. On waking up this morning I found myself reflecting on Mike & Diana’s short visit yesterday afternoon. While fixing my 3-wave radio I began to explain my reason for the radio. Of course, Diana made fun of my reasoning which made me realize that she made sense.

  • Monday, July 17, 2023, at 3:50 am.
  • To bed: Monday, July 17, 2023, at 8:20 pm.
  • Up: Tuesday, July 18, 2023, at 12:40 am.
  • Ready for this day: Tuesday, July 18, 2023, at 7:44 am.

What Makes Sense? …

Why am I so apprehensive about socializing? Heavy, heavy thinking. Perhaps because it seems to me that we are all in a futile attempt to evade what is the purpose for our lives. We stick to our present innated beliefs come hail, rain or snow. I do see the necessity to take a break from the toll of the daily difficulties of life, but? It’s taking me a long time to grasp and adapt wisely.

  • Tuesday, July 18, 2023, at 9:57 pm.
  • To bed: Wednesday, July 19, 2023, at 12:15 am.
  • Up: Wednesday, July 19, 2023, at 6:35 am.
  • Bed: Wednesday, July 19, 2023, at 9:04 pm.
  • Up: Thursday, July 20, 2023, at 1:57 am.
  • Bed: At 8:57 pm.
  • Up: Friday, July 21, 2023, at 1:35 am.
  • Bed: 10:51 pm.
  • Up: Saturday, July 22, 2023, at 3:00 am.

Reflecting …

I thought about it all day. Thinking about all the wonderful uplifting expressions we use to convey our beliefs and feelings. Always trying to communicate, to express the best or even the worst of our thoughts and feelings about any subject. I was thinking about the futility about it all yet, what about my convictions, my testimony seems so out of place. That was in my mind when I went to bed.

The Dream …

Strange moment: I dreamed that I had died. I watched what I thought to be a funeral of myself. I saw a dirt road. I knew it was my funeral on the way to the cemetery, but it looked like I was anonymous. No one to honor me. On waking up or perhaps I was still dreaming, I felt like dead. I set my glasses on, recorded the time, turned to the tablet, resumed my reading. Around 5 am I got up. Began to prepare to take a shower. Then, I found myself sitting down totally despondent in a fog. I stumbled on to bed, drifted to sound sleep until 8:30 am.

  • Saturday, July 22, 2023, at 9:18 pm.
  • One more 7th Day of Rest has come & gone!
  • I remain resting.
  • Bed: Saturday, July 22, 2023, at 9:30 pm.
  • Up: Sunday, July 23, 2023, at 1:10 am.
  • Date & time now: Sunday, July 23, 2023, at 2:15 am.

What Was That Dream About? …

Meaning of dream? Eventually I began to search for it. It took a couple of days, but I can now assess that it has to do with reconsidering my present beyond my past. My present life represents the super abundance promised to me for a long time. I had almost despaired, then? A drastic turn of events: ‘Return to the USA to reestablish your relationship with your children.’ Within 6 weeks I returned to the USA after 13 years residing in Jordan in the Middle East.

Magical Encounter …

No words to describe the magic to withhold my Diana’s beautiful smiling face. To feel the physical impact of the embrace is quite fresh as is happening now. Eight months have passed. Funny thing: to watch my funeral exactly one day past my 8th month since that memorable encounter when I arrived in the USA on November 21, 2022.

My Convictions Testing Grounds. …

Do I give them up to fit in this amazing turn of events? That’s what has been weighting me down. And that’s what the dream was about. To give up my convictions is out of the question. My life is significant to the Almighty Creator of my being.

Indeed! He Has Lifted Me Up. He Has Made My Life Significant for a Worthy Purpose …

Well? In the last few days, I have done a lot of thinking about my personal relationship with the Almighty Creator of my being. He has been leading me all the way despite my willful ways. He has never let me down even in the worst moments of my life. He has transformed me from a forsaken woman into a woman with a purpose.

  • Nonetheless, I had a lot of hidden prejudices about the way people act or live out what I considered to be moral or proper.
  • But I tried to ignore my feelings, not realizing how much the matter was weighting on me until yesterday.

The Email That Set Me Free …

I don’t remember Pat ever forwarded anything to me but yesterday she forwarded me a link without any explanation. I called her to confirm that it was her email. She confirmed it. I clicked. Wow! All my prejudices came tumbling down, down all the way buried, gone to return no more eternally! An amazing musical display. The song? You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban. The dancers. The beautiful voices. Young people, tattoos and all, such genuineness, such love and gratitude addressed to the Loving Almighty Creator of our beings!

Quote:

Faith, hope, love abide, faith—conviction and belief respecting man’s relation to God and divine things; hope—joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love—true affection for God and man, growing out of God’s love for and in us, these three; but the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13:13.

Ready Again To Begin Anew. New Life. Afresh. Anew, …

Yes indeed! Anew, afresh, completely free of all prejudices. Totally unexpected development. Far above whatever I had imagined.

Until the next post, lov to all.