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I Was Born Trapped! …

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Action Not Passive Knowledge …

Am I Talking Nonsensical Imaginations? …

Who Knows …?

At my ripe age I have learned to take all coming to me with a little grain of salt to enjoy the taste of whatever. I often wonder about the posts that go viral, why? It just bothered me enough to struggle to gain likes and comments big time as viral posts did. Pitiful! But that was me in the trenches of radical change about life’s existence on this earth aground. No kidding! Radical that change it was! Do I regret that troublesome past?

I Was Born Trapped! …

From the last post: Indeed! We human beings are born trapped in the huge cage of our natural birth. Now, now, I am not stating this matter as if it is a fact deducted from my high intellect. The truth of the matter is that such a fact has been brought to light from the beginning of our creation but! For myself? Automatically, I rebelled against such a fact.

No Regrets Instead?

Freedom to really love. Perennial joy burst from my heart. I know by experience what it means to be loved by my loving Creator, to love myself and my neighbor. Therefore, I have His love within my being to love. Love—the love of my Creator for sure.

I Can Proceed To Prove Myself …

But what’s the use? Isn’t that what I have been doing in the past? Action not passive knowledge trying to justify my doings is what matters. Therefore? From now on my resolve is to relate my present experiences free of biases of any kind whenever is appropriate to so.

Looking Forward …

Forward to the next moment whatever that moment brings to me. (Hopefully it won’t be the fire alarm announcing my burnt intended chicken broth. My dear Diana always tells me to remain next to the cooking but, I forget! It’s now 2:32 pm. Well? I just checked it, it got long to go, maybe another hour but I’ll keep checking it. Maybe, just maybe I’ll get me a couple of cups of good old chicken bone broth, won’t that be nice? Bless my heart.)

Until the next post, love to all, thia.

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Where Did It All Begin …?

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And Where Does It All End, If, There Is An End …?

It’s now Thursday, July 27, 2023, at 10:02 am. I placed my order for the things I need to recover my health. I am making progress to overcome my cravings, praise Yah! Back to prepare for the next post.

You Know What? The Unexpected Is For Real …

A call from Diana to invite me for lunch. Ha! Post and all tossed aside. I pretty up myself within a few minutes. Never miss an invite from Diana, that’s for sure. A couple hours later, back to check the goings in my inbox. Hum! Two Facebook emails.

I Have Detached Myself From Facebook For A Long Time Now, Why? …

Well, I have gone through a period of purification and transformation in my life as in Hebrews 4:12-13. Anyone who has gone through this kind of transformation can appreciate the reason for my detachment.

  • Regardless, this period has culminated for me in the last 8 months since I came back to the USA after 13 years in Jordan in the Middle East.

Considering The Things That Trouble Me …

The purpose of my life is to wake up Self-consciousness in my fellow human beings. Self-consciousness or to become aware of oneself as an individual or of one’s own being, actions, or thoughts. This subject is largely ignored to the detriment of the human race.

But How Am I To Fulfill The Purpose For My Life …?

That’s the thing that troubles me. I read all sorts of things. I search and research likewise. The more I do so, the more inclined I am to discover the proper way to do whatever without condescendence or bias of any kind. It is so easy to become patronizing or condescending assuming equality with a person regarded as inferior. I know, I ‘been there, that I know as I check my past writings and behavior.

  • I cringe when I realize how I have alienated not only my children but practically all my friends even acquaintances from the past.
  • The fact: how did I fall into that trap?

O Mine! O Me! I Did Not Fall Into It—I Was Born Trapped! …

Indeed! We human beings are born trapped in the huge cage of our natural birth. Now, now, I am not stating this matter as if it is a fact deducted from my high intellect. The truth of the matter is that such a fact has been brought to light from the beginning of our creation but! For myself? Automatically, I rebelled against such a fact.

  • I mounted my own horse—a runaway stead.
  • I broke the bars imprisoning me.
  • I was free!
  • Glorious freedom until the horse bolted me.

That’s Me I Don’t Know About Anyone Else …

But in my enthusiasm, I jumped to preaching the matter. Eventually, I became condescending provoking the alienation that justly deserve, but! It all served well at the end.

  • No regrets.
  • Love—true love only engendered from the supernatural loving Creator of our beings.
  • It all at last at the end gained.
  • An ornament (a garland or diadem) of beauty instead of ashes.
  • The oil of joy instead of mourning.
  • The garment [expressive] of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit.
  • That I may be called oak of righteousness, lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice, and right standing with my Creator.
  • I am the planting of the Master, that He may be glorified.
  • (A paraphrase of Isaiah 61:1-3.)

Are You Ready For Judgment? The Question?

It comes from authorities placed over us. I used to tremble as that question landed on my soul. I would device all kinds of ways to forgive and to repent to no avail. Then?

  • When I was convicted to repent, in my enthusiasm:
  • I made myself an authority.
  • I began to preach.
  • What do I mean by preaching?
  • I mean with good intentions I began to tell others what to do.
  • I preached repentance, salvation, warnings and so far, backing it all with quoted Scriptures, until?
  • Actually a few days as in the previous post.
  • Mercy! Mercy! Mercy!
  • Bless my heart.
  • I have some explanations to do.

Why Do I Use Different Words Than The Norm To Address God …

The word ‘God’ can signify any God or higher power. But Almighty Creator of everything in existence including humankind can leave no doubt of Who I am referring to.

Why Master instead of Lord? The word ‘Lord’ implies the lordship in the world which demands innate superiority over inferiority. But the word ‘Master’ implies the ownership to love and protect not only a family but the whole creation itself.

Why Yahushua instead of Jesus. Common sense should tell the fact that we name our children in lieu of our nationality as a rule, but especially if one comes to learn something about the costumes and traditions of what is misnomer ‘Jewish’ people, definitely in no way the Savior would have been named by the Spanish Jesus.

Why The Misunderstanding? …

It is now coming to light how the ancient translators translated all things including history under mandate of their kings under penalty of death. Whoever differed was eliminated as a heretic creating the huge controverse, the confusion persistent until today.

Is It A Wonder?

How I have been the victim of the general confusion of the times? Yet, no regrets! Death where is your sting? No more preaching just the joy and comfort of my fellow human beings fellowship.

Until the next post? Lov to ye all, thia.

 

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What Do You Think When Washing Dishes? …

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I Think About All Sorts Of Things …

Some Things Are Worth My While …

Encouraging me to start my day free of vile. Some are quite troublesome. Some are gruesome. Anyhow? Most of the time, whichever way the things I think about while I’m washing dishes or walking or eating or socializing do not fit with the world at large. So I pray, not regular repetitious prayers, what I mean is that I talk to the Almighty Creator of our beings no matter what I am thinking or whatever the circumstances may be as per Matthew 6:5-8 & 1 Thessalonians 5:17-25.

I Do Whatever Like Everybody Else Do …

In other words, I socialize. But for the life of me I can’t help but see the futility of it all. Of course, the things I have been recording, the things I talk about are preposterous, yet? I am aware that such is only an appearance of human thinking. Even so? I was troubled about the matter not knowing what to do about it.

  • Funny thing, upon reflection on the matter?
  • A message popped in the inbox.

“The way you speak to yourself matters. Smile. Sparkle. Shine. It is not about who you impress. It is about who you impact. What is meant for you will make its way to you. Be YOURSELF.

How Neat! Exactly What I Have Been Knowing For A Long Time …

Yes, I know who I am. I know what to do. I know how to do it. The beauty of it all? I haven’t got the slightest how I know it all!

  • Bed: Wednesday, July 26, 2023, at 7:14 pm.
  • Up: Wednesday, July 26, 2023, at 10:15 pm.
  • Date & time now: Thursday, July 27, 2023, at 12:34 am.

That’s The Problem! Bless My Heart …

Because I haven’t got the slightest how I know it all, I despair. Fear & doubt knocks at my door. I become despondent. I lose my cool. The tears flow. Smile, Sparkle, Shine? Gone!

  • What’s wrong with you?
  • Take a deep breath!
  • Drink water!
  • Eat!
  • Take the pill!
  • You got to change your ways!

Poor Soul That I’m …

But only at times. Times when I guess I ‘been deceived. I got to be normal like everybody else!. I cringe! Down, down under the brown ground I almost plunge, suddenly! Like magic, up, up I go! Like the eagles mounting up closer to that One Wo loves so. Smile, Sparkle, Shine again like never before.

And That’s What The World Calls ‘Bipolar’ …

No problem anymore. I am proud to be able to appreciate the North/South poles. Better yet, as I posted a long time ago,

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We, ‘Bipolars’ are the envy of the town. Whether up or down? We can keep the audience in derision. Gloom or glee? We can operate in both poles—North or South. Why not?

Positive and Negative? The two extremes captivating the human attention and retention. Bipolar! The doctor concludes. The Big Pharma? “I think I need a bigger box!” with glee explodes, and?

The wacky journey on this valley of death that we call ‘life’ begins in all earnest. The Bipolar, schiz, manic depressive amidst? O well! I top the list.

POSITIVE versus NEGATIVE Connect the two and you will find the battery that runs this machine of the world that we inhabit!

What about me? Me? I am BIPOLAR! I run in either pole! Rather I can make people run away from or to me in either pole! Ha! Ha! HalleluYah!

Humor instead of anger is my own conclusion not at all an illusion! Done fix myself a logo with my ‘brand’ new motto. Isn’t beautiful?

Soon, very soon, sooner than our human minds complicated state? Sooner than our fancy imaginations can fancy? The Loving Father Creator of our beings will shout and sing, “Death, where is your sting?” End of quote.

No Kidding! Freedom Is Not Just A Feeling …

Nor is it knowledge. It is not what we say it is from our engaging memories. The truth? It is useless to define the etherealness of freedom, love, and many other words I used to so flippantly defined. Mea culpa. But the experience of such words? Dumbfounded! But delighted!

Meantime and until the next post? Lov to all, thia.

 

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Indeed! Courage To Begin Anew New In A Different Way …

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Life’s New Perspective …

Trust In The Master With All Your Heart …

(Updating the previous post.)

I am not ashamed of quoting the Bible because I am watching it coming to pass exactly as it is written. Thus, even if at first sight readers turn away from what I share, eventually more and more writings on the same vein shall flood the Internet for the Almighty Creator of everything in existence aims to restore His creation, including us human beings to the original intent for its creation. Such is my legacy for 2023 expressed in Proverbs 3.

The Almighty Creator Of Everything In Existence’s Thoughts Toward Us …

His own Word, written not only in the Bible but also in the heart of His selected human beings shows what an immense care He has for His whole creation, and especially for each one of us people individually.

  • He cares for us, has a plan for us, will not forsake us, and wants us to spend eternity with Him!
  • In this post He compels the writer to express the complete experience of the immensity of His love and care for us.

Unexpected Developments …

Nothing is happening the way I had in mind. The Master is turning mourning to Joy as per Jeremiah 31, but? So far, I myself have not quite got much of an idea anymore of how it is all going to happen. On waking up this morning I found myself reflecting on Mike & Diana’s short visit yesterday afternoon. While fixing my 3-wave radio I began to explain my reason for the radio. Of course, Diana made fun of my reasoning which made me realize that she made sense.

  • Monday, July 17, 2023, at 3:50 am.
  • To bed: Monday, July 17, 2023, at 8:20 pm.
  • Up: Tuesday, July 18, 2023, at 12:40 am.
  • Ready for this day: Tuesday, July 18, 2023, at 7:44 am.

What Makes Sense? …

Why am I so apprehensive about socializing? Heavy, heavy thinking. Perhaps because it seems to me that we are all in a futile attempt to evade what is the purpose for our lives. We stick to our present innated beliefs come hail, rain or snow. I do see the necessity to take a break from the toll of the daily difficulties of life, but? It’s taking me a long time to grasp and adapt wisely.

  • Tuesday, July 18, 2023, at 9:57 pm.
  • To bed: Wednesday, July 19, 2023, at 12:15 am.
  • Up: Wednesday, July 19, 2023, at 6:35 am.
  • Bed: Wednesday, July 19, 2023, at 9:04 pm.
  • Up: Thursday, July 20, 2023, at 1:57 am.
  • Bed: At 8:57 pm.
  • Up: Friday, July 21, 2023, at 1:35 am.
  • Bed: 10:51 pm.
  • Up: Saturday, July 22, 2023, at 3:00 am.

Reflecting …

I thought about it all day. Thinking about all the wonderful uplifting expressions we use to convey our beliefs and feelings. Always trying to communicate, to express the best or even the worst of our thoughts and feelings about any subject. I was thinking about the futility about it all yet, what about my convictions, my testimony seems so out of place. That was in my mind when I went to bed.

The Dream …

Strange moment: I dreamed that I had died. I watched what I thought to be a funeral of myself. I saw a dirt road. I knew it was my funeral on the way to the cemetery, but it looked like I was anonymous. No one to honor me. On waking up or perhaps I was still dreaming, I felt like dead. I set my glasses on, recorded the time, turned to the tablet, resumed my reading. Around 5 am I got up. Began to prepare to take a shower. Then, I found myself sitting down totally despondent in a fog. I stumbled on to bed, drifted to sound sleep until 8:30 am.

  • Saturday, July 22, 2023, at 9:18 pm.
  • One more 7th Day of Rest has come & gone!
  • I remain resting.
  • Bed: Saturday, July 22, 2023, at 9:30 pm.
  • Up: Sunday, July 23, 2023, at 1:10 am.
  • Date & time now: Sunday, July 23, 2023, at 2:15 am.

What Was That Dream About? …

Meaning of dream? Eventually I began to search for it. It took a couple of days, but I can now assess that it has to do with reconsidering my present beyond my past. My present life represents the super abundance promised to me for a long time. I had almost despaired, then? A drastic turn of events: ‘Return to the USA to reestablish your relationship with your children.’ Within 6 weeks I returned to the USA after 13 years residing in Jordan in the Middle East.

Magical Encounter …

No words to describe the magic to withhold my Diana’s beautiful smiling face. To feel the physical impact of the embrace is quite fresh as is happening now. Eight months have passed. Funny thing: to watch my funeral exactly one day past my 8th month since that memorable encounter when I arrived in the USA on November 21, 2022.

My Convictions Testing Grounds. …

Do I give them up to fit in this amazing turn of events? That’s what has been weighting me down. And that’s what the dream was about. To give up my convictions is out of the question. My life is significant to the Almighty Creator of my being.

Indeed! He Has Lifted Me Up. He Has Made My Life Significant for a Worthy Purpose …

Well? In the last few days, I have done a lot of thinking about my personal relationship with the Almighty Creator of my being. He has been leading me all the way despite my willful ways. He has never let me down even in the worst moments of my life. He has transformed me from a forsaken woman into a woman with a purpose.

  • Nonetheless, I had a lot of hidden prejudices about the way people act or live out what I considered to be moral or proper.
  • But I tried to ignore my feelings, not realizing how much the matter was weighting on me until yesterday.

The Email That Set Me Free …

I don’t remember Pat ever forwarded anything to me but yesterday she forwarded me a link without any explanation. I called her to confirm that it was her email. She confirmed it. I clicked. Wow! All my prejudices came tumbling down, down all the way buried, gone to return no more eternally! An amazing musical display. The song? You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban. The dancers. The beautiful voices. Young people, tattoos and all, such genuineness, such love and gratitude addressed to the Loving Almighty Creator of our beings!

Quote:

Faith, hope, love abide, faith—conviction and belief respecting man’s relation to God and divine things; hope—joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love—true affection for God and man, growing out of God’s love for and in us, these three; but the greatest of these is love. 1 Corinthians 13:13.

Ready Again To Begin Anew. New Life. Afresh. Anew, …

Yes indeed! Anew, afresh, completely free of all prejudices. Totally unexpected development. Far above whatever I had imagined.

Until the next post, lov to all.