I am enthralled as I glide through the pages of the books I have been inspired to read. No kidding, this is the searing of the completeness of my being. How blessed I am! It’s now Friday, October 11, 2024, at 6:51 pm. Slept on the recliner for a while. The man whoever he was, was after my picture album I was clutching to my chest, he reached, pulled my picture and left waving it; I was screaming, ‘I’ll kill you!’.
I got up intending to go to bed. I went to the door, turned on the porch light, opened the door, grabbed the screen handle, open it but someone grabbed it, I could not close it, then I found myself indoor but I had to push with my whole body to close the door and lock it. I headed for bed. I was scared like a little child. I guess I was still asleep.
I laid on the bed. I quoted scriptures to comfort me. I slumbered only to sense a presence over my face. I opened my eyes; a sort of golden reddish metallic face was about to kiss me. I spoke in other languages commanding it to get out of my house. It left. By this time, I was trembling in fear. I called Denise. Denise comforted me.
Next, I opened my eyes at 2:22 am. There is a knot in my stomach that has been there for the last few days. It comes and goes. I don’t know what this is all about. It’s now Saturday, October 12, 2024, at 3:23 am. The 2nd 7th Day of rest in the 10th month in 2024. Into Your hands I commend my spirit Almighty Yahuwah. This is a day You have made for me. I will rejoice, be glad about Sunday, October 13, 2024, at 2:10 am. It’s now Monday, October 14, 2024, at 5:33 am. Enlightenment from on High.
Indeed! Enlightenment from on High. No kidding, for a while I felt I was doing better every day, then, I began to feel worse. I cried in pain, I was angry, short tempered, I didn’t care for anything, until it came to me the meaning of my dream clearly. I had searched for the meaning of it to no avail. But then I let go of my search, I lifted my spirit into the hands of the Almighty.
Little by little I noticed improvements in my body, in my mood, even the knot in my stomach was gone. Suddenly! It came to me; I want to kill my angry impatience because things are not developing as I expect them to develop! Phew! Joy busted from within me. Laughter.
But most importantly, the Almighty’s Grace & Favor Descended Upon this fallen creature I was on my way to descend. It’s now time to get back to my reading on Monday, October 14, 2024, at 4:06 pm. And so? For the rest of the story later. It’s now Tuesday, October 15, 2024, at 7:26 am. Later came after a week of wrestling.
Calmly I Wait for Whatever Happens Next …
It’s now Wednesday, October 16, 2024, at 12:30 am. What am I to think or do, how am I to discern what comes from You my Master, what comes from my imagination from programmed fears in my mind? I see the veil over some people’s eyes that scares me somehow. Right now, I refuse to pay attention to anything disturbing my peace. I surrender all happenings into Your loving hands. In my mind the next came to me.
The God-Given Task
Ecclesiastes 3:9-15 AMPC+
(9) What profit remains for the worker from his toil?
(10) I have seen the painful labor and exertion and miserable business which God has given to the sons of men with which to exercise and busy themselves.
(11) He has made everything beautiful in its time. He also has planted eternity in men’s hearts and minds [a divinely implanted sense of a purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun but God alone can satisfy], yet so that men cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.
(12) I know that there is nothing better for them than to be glad and to get and do good as long as they live;
(13) And also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor–it is the gift of God.
(14) I know that whatever God does, it endures forever; nothing can be added to it nor anything taken from it. And God does it so that men will [reverently] fear Him [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is]. [Psa 19:9; Jas 1:17]
(15) That which is now already has been, and that which is to be already has been; and God seeks that which has passed by [so that history repeats itself].
The Way of the Righteous and the Wicked
Psalms 1:1-6 AMPC+
(1) BLESSED (HAPPY, fortunate, prosperous, and enviable) is the man who walks and lives not in the counsel of the ungodly [following their advice, their plans and purposes], nor stands [submissive and inactive] in the path where sinners walk, nor sits down [to relax and rest] where the scornful [and the mockers] gather.
(2) But his delight and desire are in the law of the Lord, and on His law (the precepts, the instructions, the teachings of God) he habitually meditates (ponders and studies) by day and by night. [Rom 13:8-10; Gal 3:1-29; 2Ti 3:16]
(3) And he shall be like a tree firmly planted [and tended] by the streams of water, ready to bring forth its fruit in its season; its leaf also shall not fade or wither; and everything he does shall prosper [and come to maturity]. [Jer 17:7-8]
(4) Not so the wicked [those disobedient and living without God are not so]. But they are like the chaff [worthless, dead, without substance] which the wind drives away.
(5) Therefore the wicked [those disobedient and living without God] shall not stand [justified] in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous [those who are upright and in right standing with God].
(6) For the Lord knows and is fully acquainted with the way of the righteous, but the way of the ungodly [those living outside God’s will] shall perish (end in ruin and come to nought).
The Reign of the Lord’s Anointed
Psalms 2:1-12 AMPC+
(1) WHY DO the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme?
(2) The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Lord and His Anointed One (the Messiah, the Christ). They say, [Act 4:25-27]
(3) Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.
(4) He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Lord has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them].
(5) He speaks to them in His deep anger and troubles (terrifies and confounds) them in His displeasure and fury, saying,
(6) Yet have I anointed (installed and placed) My King [firmly] on My holy hill of Zion.
(7) I will declare the decree of the Lord: He said to Me, You are My Son; this day [I declare] I have begotten You. [Heb 1:5; Heb 3:5-6; 2Pe 1:17-18]
(8) Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth as Your possession.
(9) You shall break them with a rod of iron; You shall dash them in pieces like potters’ ware. [Rev 12:5; Rev 19:15]
(10) Now therefore, O you kings, act wisely; be instructed and warned, O you rulers of the earth.
(11) Serve the Lord with reverent awe and worshipful fear; rejoice and be in high spirits with trembling [lest you displease Him].
(12) Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled. O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him!
The Remnant of Israel
Romans 11:1-10 AMPC+
(1) I ASK then: Has God totally rejected and disowned His people? Of course not! Why, I myself am an Israelite, a descendant of Abraham, a member of the tribe of Benjamin! [1Sa 12:22; Jer 31:37; Jer 33:24-26; Php 3:5]
(2) No, God has not rejected and disowned His people [whose destiny] He had marked out and appointed and foreknown from the beginning. Do you not know what the Scripture says of Elijah, how he pleads with God against Israel? [Psa 94:14; 1 Kings 19]
(3) Lord, they have killed Your prophets; they have demolished Your altars, and I alone am left, and they seek my life.
(4) But what is God’s reply to him? I have kept for Myself seven thousand men who have not bowed the knee to Baal! [1Ki 19:18]
(5) So too at the present time there is a remnant (a small believing minority), selected (chosen) by grace (by God’s unmerited favor and graciousness).
(6) But if it is by grace (His unmerited favor and graciousness), it is no longer conditioned on works or anything men have done. Otherwise, grace would no longer be grace [it would be meaningless].
(7) What then [shall we conclude]? Israel failed to obtain what it sought [God’s favor by obedience to the Law]. Only the elect (those chosen few) obtained it, while the rest of them became callously indifferent (blinded, hardened, and made insensible to it).
(8) As it is written, God gave them a spirit (an attitude) of stupor, eyes that should not see and ears that should not hear, [that has continued] down to this very day. [Deu 29:4; Isa 29:10]
(9) And David says, Let their table (their feasting, banqueting) become a snare and a trap, a pitfall and a just retribution [rebounding like a boomerang upon them]; [Psa 69:22]
(10) Let their eyes be darkened (dimmed) so that they cannot see, and make them bend their back [stooping beneath their burden] forever. [Psa 69:23]
Gentiles Grafted In
Romans 11:11-24 AMPC+
(11) So I ask, Have they stumbled so as to fall [to their utter spiritual ruin, irretrievably]? By no means! But through their false step and transgression salvation [has come] to the Gentiles, so as to arouse Israel [to see and feel what they forfeited] and so to make them jealous.
(12) Now if their stumbling (their lapse, their transgression) has so enriched the world [at large], and if [Israel’s] failure means such riches for the Gentiles, think what an enrichment and greater advantage will follow their full reinstatement!
(13) But now I am speaking to you who are Gentiles. Inasmuch then as I am an apostle to the Gentiles, I lay great stress on my ministry and magnify my office,
(14) In the hope of making my fellow Jews jealous [in order to stir them up to imitate, copy, and appropriate], and thus managing to save some of them.
(15) For if their rejection and exclusion from the benefits of salvation were [overruled] for the reconciliation of a world to God, what will their acceptance and admission mean? [It will be nothing short of] life from the dead!
(16) Now if the first handful of dough offered as the first fruits [Abraham and the patriarchs] is consecrated (holy), so is the whole mass [the nation of Israel]; and if the root [Abraham] is consecrated (holy), so are the branches. [Num 15:19-21]
(17) But if some of the branches were broken off, while you, a wild olive shoot, were grafted in among them to share the richness [of the root and sap] of the olive tree,
(18) Do not boast over the branches and pride yourself at their expense. If you do boast and feel superior, remember it is not you that support the root, but the root [that supports] you.
(19) You will say then, Branches were broken (pruned) off so that I might be grafted in!
(20) That is true. But they were broken (pruned) off because of their unbelief (their lack of real faith), and you are established through faith [because you do believe]. So do not become proud and conceited, but rather stand in awe and be reverently afraid.
(21) For if God did not spare the natural branches [because of unbelief], neither will He spare you [if you are guilty of the same offense].
(22) Then note and appreciate the gracious kindness and the severity of God: severity toward those who have fallen, but God’s gracious kindness to you–provided you continue in His grace and abide in His kindness; otherwise you too will be cut off (pruned away).
(23) And even those others [the fallen branches, Jews], if they do not persist in [clinging to] their unbelief, will be grafted in, for God has the power to graft them in again.
(24) For if you have been cut from what is by nature a wild olive tree, and against nature grafted into a cultivated olive tree, how much easier will it be to graft these natural [branches] back on [the original parent stock of] their own olive tree.
The Mystery of Israel’s Salvation
Romans 11:25-36 AMPC+
(25) Lest you be self-opinionated (wise in your own conceits), I do not want you to miss this hidden truth and mystery, brethren: a hardening (insensibility) has [temporarily] befallen a part of Israel [to last] until the N1full number of the ingathering of the Gentiles has come in,
(26) And so all Israel will be saved. As it is written, The Deliverer will come from Zion, He will banish ungodliness from Jacob. [Isa 59:20-21]
(27) And this will be My covenant (My agreement) with them when I shall take away their sins. [Isa 27:9; Jer 31:33]
(28) From the point of view of the Gospel (good news), they [the Jews, at present] are enemies [of God], which is for your advantage and benefit. But from the point of view of God’s choice (of election, of divine selection), they are still the beloved (dear to Him) for the sake of their forefathers.
(29) For God’s gifts and His call are irrevocable. [He never withdraws them when once they are given, and He does not change His mind about those to whom He gives His grace or to whom He sends His call.]
(30) Just as you were once disobedient and rebellious toward God but now have obtained [His] mercy, through their disobedience,
(31) So they also now are being disobedient [when you are receiving mercy], that they in turn may one day, through the mercy you are enjoying, also receive mercy [that they may share the mercy which has been shown to you–through you as messengers of the Gospel to them].
(32) For God has consigned (penned up) all men to disobedience, only that He may have mercy on them all [alike].
(33) Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unfathomable (inscrutable, unsearchable) are His judgments (His decisions)! And how untraceable (mysterious, undiscoverable) are His ways (His methods, His paths)!
(34) For who has known the mind of the Lord and who has understood His thoughts, or who has [ever] been His counselor? [Isa 40:13-14]
(35) Or who has first given God anything that he might be paid back or that he could claim a recompense?
(36) For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. [For all things originate with Him and come from Him; all things live through Him, and all things center in and tend to consummate and to end in Him.] To Him be glory forever! Amen (so be it).
Words Beyond Human Understanding …?
Indeed! Joy. Peace Beyond Human Understanding fills my heart. I can return to my reading now. Yes, I weep as the stark reality of the condition of my human nature, but I take heart as I realize that the end of slavery to my human nature is right within my being.
Indeed! The Liberating Power of Love!
I’ll post these reflections as soon as I edit them. Then I’ll wait for the next time to post. Lov, thia.
