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Wow! “Poor Basilia”‘s life is coming to fruition. No kidding, read on…

Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Saturday, November 19, 2016 at 10:29 am
Why look around in terror when You, O my Father—O Father of mine are telling me not to do so? Why doubt Your solemn promise to help me in difficult times? Perhaps the times are not as difficult as they seem to be? O my Father—O Father of mine, help me to reason with You. Deliver me from this monologue of mine.

I see what the people is doing—struggling to make a living. Am I not doing or attempting to do the same thing? I ponder and wonder. How long am I to endure this carnal self of mine?

Saturday, November 19, 2016 at 8:56 pm
You see what goes on, O my Father—O Father of mine? Satan is coming after my belongings. He is destroying everything that can be destroyed. The few dishes I enjoy are almost all gone. Now my cherished new kettle is burnt. The electric burner failed—thanks for preventing a fire while I slept.

I know You are in control of Satan. He cannot do any more than what You allow him to do. Now, what do You require of this child of Yours? Unless You empower me to do whatever is to be done, You know that I can do nothing. Rather, I refuse to do anything not coming from You. I am willing to abide by Your will not mine.

To top it all, I am cold. The promised hitter has not yet materialized. Everything boils down to take care of me; you have to wait until tomorrow but, tomorrow never comes. I am weary of my carnal-self. In fact, I am fed up with the carnal-self in me and in others. We are concerned only with that ugly me and forget about thee! We make our own beds but we don’t want to lay on those. Yes! I am full to the brim. But You know all about it. So what’s the sense in the whole matter? What’s the use to kick against the pricks?

Sunday, November 20, 2016 at 1:58 am
Five hours of sleep. Still, I am cold, I have no more giddy up & go, I need to go back to bed and sleep some more. I wait on You no matter what happens next.

Sunday, November 20, 2016 at 4:33 am
Thanks my Father, O my Father—O Father of mine, thanks not only for the sleep in the last hours but also for the prosperity coming to us I saw in my dreams. I had come to be in a strange place. I had the urge to drink coffee but, there was none in the place. I could not see any shops or a place to get that coffee. I came out in the street. I saw a man. I asked, “Where can I get some coffee?” The man stretched his arm to point to the entrance of a market. I entered. Wow! Luscious fresh fruits & vegetables before the shelves to fetch me a jar of coffee!

In a second view, evidently, we had checked a placed for our residence. Somehow the place had either burnt or it was in ill repair. In this second view, there was a man showing us pictures of how they had rebuilt the place for us. I remember asking how many bedrooms? I heard, “Five bedrooms!” I woke up.

O my Father—O Father of mine! I am besides myself! I sense myself with the impulse to climb to the roof tops and proclaim the accuracy of all things I have written coming to pass but! You are in control of all my impulses. I must wait on You to give me the exact time to SHOUT! As I actually see the walls of man’s opposition coming down at Your feet! About the number ‘5’ it is written by Brad Scott,

The number five is generally agreed to be one of a handful of numbers similar to the church at Philadelphia. No bad things to say about it. Every source I have concerning this number associates the idea of God’s grace and life to it. The 5th word of scripture is shamayim, or heaven. There are not many bad things to say about heaven, and there is probably alot of grace and life there. The 5th day of restoration of the creation is the first appearance of life.
According to Ephesians 2:8-9, grace is a gift from YHVH. This gift is followed by eternal gratitude expressed through good works according to verse 10. Good works are defined only by the Word of God given to us from the beginning, or as Sha’ul puts it, from the foundation of the world. YHVH initiates the creative act and the objects of this act of grace respond. This is why the rest of the creation is seen going through the same process that human creation goes through. “In the beginning created God the heaven and the earth”. This was accomplished by YHVH ‘in the beginning’. Except for the soul and spirit of man and beast, so to speak, all things created in the beginning by the grace of God ‘respond’ in what we erroneously call the 6 days of creation. It was in the beginning that YHVH created heaven and earth in perfection, just as He did with man when he was created. Then in the second verse of scripture and the second recorded act, (remember the meaning of the number two?) the fall of hasatan takes place and the world is thrown into chaos and emptiness. Not so coincidently, the exact same thing happens to man in his first encounter with the evil one. But then the third recorded act (remember the meaning of the number three?) the Spirit of God moves over the face of the waters, and by an act of His own will, God restores His creation by ‘letting be’, ‘making’, ‘forming’, and ‘calling’. The creation responds to the Creator by producing fruit, shining light, and providing just the right atmosphere for God’s ultimate act to flourish. This same creation is waiting for it’s new body just as we are.

O my Father—O Father of mine? You are in control of my tongue. You are in control of my life and my whole being. There is no way, absolutely no way for me to return to the kingdom of darkness. No matter what threats or temptations Satan inflicts upon this child of Yours, You prevail in all instances of Satan’s wicked doings to this child of Yours.

The result? Power to overcome! Overcome? What, how? That is what I have been posting for quite a while now. That is the reason why I have quit everything and everybody of my acquaintance. What do I mean by quitting? I have quit depending on everything and everybody as I have been doing all of my life. I have quit attempting to do the same for the last few months. I have overcome it all by the power of love from on high.

Therefore, because I have quit, Satan is doing his best to destroy my few belongings that I so much enjoy; even threatening to set my place afire. Yesterday, after boiling some water for my drinking, I turned of the electric plate. I placed my precious new kettle on the plate to warn the water in it in the heat remaining in the plate after I turned it off.

I went to bed. I slept for better than two hours. I woke up. I headed to the bathroom. On the way, WHAT? The electric plate is red hot ready to explode! Quickly I removed my precious kettle. I disconnect the electric plate from the wall outlet. I proceeded to the bathroom in shock of the almost disaster.

I remained in shock not knowing what or why? Then anger. Then fear. Then doubt again. Then a song. “Don’t give up in the brink of a miracle! Don’t give up Yah is still on the throne! Don’t give up! Don’t give up! Don’t give up…my voice trailed to the very innards of my being.”

Ha! A knock on my door. Yahzeed. How are you? Not so good! What? Not so good Yahseed, I almost burnt this place! Precious Yahzeed is alarmed but does not show it. He tells me, “Here is food mama cooked for you, delicious!” He sets it all on the table. Then proceeds to check the electric plate. Then he warns me not to use it anymore, he will call papa and papa will take care of the situation.

Sunday, November 20, 2016 at 6:21 am
I hear Your loving voice in the cooing of that dove my Beloved Master, my Father, my King! O my Father—O Father of mine? How amazingly wonderful and loving are Your ways. Just at the right moment, that dove has not sing before. But now, why? Is it not obvious? To me, it is quite obvious. He is showing me His approval. He is showing me His delight with my response to all adversities of the moment.

He is confirming to me the veracity of all His promises. He is revealing Himself to me. He is calming and eliminating all my fears & doubts. He is preparing me to SHOUT the victory soon to materialize in this world of mine—the world inhabited by my loved ones. But also He is showing me how He is preparing the whole world inhabited by His children in a manner only known to Him. That the written words by the Prophet Jeremiah may now come to pass,

Jeremiah 3:14-16 Return, O faithless children [of the whole twelve tribes], says the Master, for I am the Almighty and Master and Husband to you, and I will take you [not as a nation, but individually]–one from a city and two from a tribal family–and I will bring you to Zion.
And I will give you [spiritual] shepherds after My own heart [in the final time], who will feed you with knowledge and understanding and judgment.
And it shall be that when you have multiplied and increased in the land in those days, says the Master, they shall no more say, The ark of the covenant of the Master. It shall not come to mind, nor shall they [seriously] remember it, nor shall they miss or visit it, nor shall it be repaired or made again [for instead of the ark, which represented the Almighty’s presence, He will show Himself to be present throughout the city].

So, here I am, ‘one from a city’—“Poor Basilia” with all her antics, the Almighty has brought me to His Mountain. Whatever for? To advance His plan of the restoration of His children. How He is doing it all? Little by little, every day He shows me His doings. Not everything that He is doing, nay, only what I need to know to go on executing His will in my life. Isn’t that neat? Hahaha! HalleluYah!
His love in my heart for all remains for now and for eternity, thiaBasilia.

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Why Look Around In Terror? No Need! …

Wow! “Poor Basilia”‘s life is coming to fruition. No kidding, read on…

Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Saturday, November 19, 2016 at 10:29 am
Why look around in terror when You, O my Father—O Father of mine are telling me not to do so? Why doubt Your solemn promise to help me in difficult times? Perhaps the times are not as difficult as they seem to be? O my Father—O Father of mine, help me to reason with You. Deliver me from this monologue of mine.

I see what the people is doing—struggling to make a living. Am I not doing or attempting to do the same thing? I ponder and wonder. How long am I to endure this carnal self of mine?

Saturday, November 19, 2016 at 8:56 pm
You see what goes on, O my Father—O Father of mine? Satan is coming after my belongings. He is destroying everything that can be destroyed. The few dishes I enjoy are almost all gone. Now my cherished new kettle is burnt. The electric burner failed—thanks for preventing a fire while I slept.

I know You are in control of Satan. He cannot do any more than what You allow him to do. Now, what do You require of this child of Yours? Unless You empower me to do whatever is to be done, You know that I can do nothing. Rather, I refuse to do anything not coming from You. I am willing to abide by Your will not mine.

To top it all, I am cold. The promised hitter has not yet materialized. Everything boils down to take care of me; you have to wait until tomorrow but, tomorrow never comes. I am weary of my carnal-self. In fact, I am fed up with the carnal-self in me and in others. We are concerned only with that ugly me and forget about thee! We make our own beds but we don’t want to lay on those. Yes! I am full to the brim. But You know all about it. So what’s the sense in the whole matter? What’s the use to kick against the pricks?

Sunday, November 20, 2016 at 1:58 am
Five hours of sleep. Still, I am cold, I have no more giddy up & go, I need to go back to bed and sleep some more. I wait on You no matter what happens next.

Sunday, November 20, 2016 at 4:33 am
Thanks my Father, O my Father—O Father of mine, thanks not only for the sleep in the last hours but also for the prosperity coming to us I saw in my dreams. I had come to be in a strange place. I had the urge to drink coffee but, there was none in the place. I could not see any shops or a place to get that coffee. I came out in the street. I saw a man. I asked, “Where can I get some coffee?” The man stretched his arm to point to the entrance of a market. I entered. Wow! Luscious fresh fruits & vegetables before the shelves to fetch me a jar of coffee!

In a second view, evidently, we had checked a placed for our residence. Somehow the place had either burnt or it was in ill repair. In this second view, there was a man showing us pictures of how they had rebuilt the place for us. I remember asking how many bedrooms? I heard, “Five bedrooms!” I woke up.

O my Father—O Father of mine! I am besides myself! I sense myself with the impulse to climb to the roof tops and proclaim the accuracy of all things I have written coming to pass but! You are in control of all my impulses. I must wait on You to give me the exact time to SHOUT! As I actually see the walls of man’s opposition coming down at Your feet! About the number ‘5’ it is written by Brad Scott,

The number five is generally agreed to be one of a handful of numbers similar to the church at Philadelphia. No bad things to say about it. Every source I have concerning this number associates the idea of God’s grace and life to it. The 5th word of scripture is shamayim, or heaven. There are not many bad things to say about heaven, and there is probably alot of grace and life there. The 5th day of restoration of the creation is the first appearance of life.
According to Ephesians 2:8-9, grace is a gift from YHVH. This gift is followed by eternal gratitude expressed through good works according to verse 10. Good works are defined only by the Word of God given to us from the beginning, or as Sha’ul puts it, from the foundation of the world. YHVH initiates the creative act and the objects of this act of grace respond. This is why the rest of the creation is seen going through the same process that human creation goes through. “In the beginning created God the heaven and the earth”. This was accomplished by YHVH ‘in the beginning’. Except for the soul and spirit of man and beast, so to speak, all things created in the beginning by the grace of God ‘respond’ in what we erroneously call the 6 days of creation. It was in the beginning that YHVH created heaven and earth in perfection, just as He did with man when he was created. Then in the second verse of scripture and the second recorded act, (remember the meaning of the number two?) the fall of hasatan takes place and the world is thrown into chaos and emptiness. Not so coincidently, the exact same thing happens to man in his first encounter with the evil one. But then the third recorded act (remember the meaning of the number three?) the Spirit of God moves over the face of the waters, and by an act of His own will, God restores His creation by ‘letting be’, ‘making’, ‘forming’, and ‘calling’. The creation responds to the Creator by producing fruit, shining light, and providing just the right atmosphere for God’s ultimate act to flourish. This same creation is waiting for it’s new body just as we are.

O my Father—O Father of mine? You are in control of my tongue. You are in control of my life and my whole being. There is no way, absolutely no way for me to return to the kingdom of darkness. No matter what threats or temptations Satan inflicts upon this child of Yours, You prevail in all instances of Satan’s wicked doings to this child of Yours.

The result? Power to overcome! Overcome? What, how? That is what I have been posting for quite a while now. That is the reason why I have quit everything and everybody of my acquaintance. What do I mean by quitting? I have quit depending on everything and everybody as I have been doing all of my life. I have quit attempting to do the same for the last few months. I have overcome it all by the power of love from on high.

Therefore, because I have quit, Satan is doing his best to destroy my few belongings that I so much enjoy; even threatening to set my place afire. Yesterday, after boiling some water for my drinking, I turned of the electric plate. I placed my precious new kettle on the plate to warn the water in it in the heat remaining in the plate after I turned it off.

I went to bed. I slept for better than two hours. I woke up. I headed to the bathroom. On the way, WHAT? The electric plate is red hot ready to explode! Quickly I removed my precious kettle. I disconnect the electric plate from the wall outlet. I proceeded to the bathroom in shock of the almost disaster.

I remained in shock not knowing what or why? Then anger. Then fear. Then doubt again. Then a song. “Don’t give up in the brink of a miracle! Don’t give up Yah is still on the throne! Don’t give up! Don’t give up! Don’t give up…my voice trailed to the very innards of my being.”

Ha! A knock on my door. Yahzeed. How are you? Not so good! What? Not so good Yahseed, I almost burnt this place! Precious Yahzeed is alarmed but does not show it. He tells me, “Here is food mama cooked for you, delicious!” He sets it all on the table. Then proceeds to check the electric plate. Then he warns me not to use it anymore, he will call papa and papa will take care of the situation.

Sunday, November 20, 2016 at 6:21 am
I hear Your loving voice in the cooing of that dove my Beloved Master, my Father, my King! O my Father—O Father of mine? How amazingly wonderful and loving are Your ways. Just at the right moment, that dove has not sing before. But now, why? Is it not obvious? To me, it is quite obvious. He is showing me His approval. He is showing me His delight with my response to all adversities of the moment.

He is confirming to me the veracity of all His promises. He is revealing Himself to me. He is calming and eliminating all my fears & doubts. He is preparing me to SHOUT the victory soon to materialize in this world of mine—the world inhabited by my loved ones. But also He is showing me how He is preparing the whole world inhabited by His children in a manner only known to Him. That the written words by the Prophet Jeremiah may now come to pass,

Jeremiah 3:14-16 Return, O faithless children [of the whole twelve tribes], says the Master, for I am the Almighty and Master and Husband to you, and I will take you [not as a nation, but individually]–one from a city and two from a tribal family–and I will bring you to Zion.
And I will give you [spiritual] shepherds after My own heart [in the final time], who will feed you with knowledge and understanding and judgment.
And it shall be that when you have multiplied and increased in the land in those days, says the Master, they shall no more say, The ark of the covenant of the Master. It shall not come to mind, nor shall they [seriously] remember it, nor shall they miss or visit it, nor shall it be repaired or made again [for instead of the ark, which represented the Almighty’s presence, He will show Himself to be present throughout the city].

So, here I am, ‘one from a city’—“Poor Basilia” with all her antics, the Almighty has brought me to His Mountain. Whatever for? To advance His plan of the restoration of His children. How He is doing it all? Little by little, every day He shows me His doings. Not everything that He is doing, nay, only what I need to know to go on executing His will in my life. Isn’t that neat? Hahaha! HalleluYah!
His love in my heart for all remains for now and for eternity, thiaBasilia.

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Confusing? Nay. Sort Of Comical …

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Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Monday, July 11, 2016 at 6:07 am

O my Father—O Father of mine? My day is starting with a smile bursting into laughter. You are an awesome Yah! Here is thiaBasilia—the child of Your heart. What’s she up to? Pausing. Reflecting. Smiling. Bursting into laughter. Oh?

Why not? thiaBasilia got her mind and perhaps also her heart set on, Dysfunctional. Dysfunctional Mother. Dysfunctional Family. Overcoming. And? Cacao.

The whole master piece chopped to pieces by the experts. While some experts say, I wish I could write like you? The other half of experts insists, You need professional editing. My Father? I’ll do the editing in your own heart. What to do now my Father? You done did the editing, now what? Call fiver. Ah! Ok. Fiver is editing my first 5 chapters for only 10 bucks. That’s good. I can afford that. I am sure Joyce won’t mind a bit when she sees the charge in my account first thing when she checks me out every morning.

And? Cacao. Where is Ahmad with my cacao? Ahmad. Let me call him. Where are you? Ah! Basilia I am shopping for shoes for me and my friend. WHAT? All day you shopping for shoes and not cacao for Basilia? No. No. Basilia, you no understand. Me and my friend looking for shoes from America. Where is my cacao, Ahmad? Basilia, me and my friend big shop, much dinars, is business! Ah! Ahmad, you mean to tell me you are looking for shops to sell your American shoes? Yes! Basilia. I’m so happy you understand me.

Comical? Indeed! Ahmad is out there drumming up thousands of dinars for his shoe shop and? Basilia is sitting quite comfortable in her beautiful roof apartment with no worries except for her cacao. Even her dilemma about editing is resolved, but, the cacao issue! Big issue when there is nothing else to make an issue of.

O pity, pity. Poor Ahmad. If only he could master my English language. But? Maybe is thiaBasilia the one who needs to master the art of listening. Aha! There! I hit the nail on my head! Hahaha!

I am seriously considering to write a comical essay about this life that I am now living. It’s a wonderful thing when one can laugh at small as well as at major disappointments in our small worlds. I am sure such an essay will be a great seller. Who knows? Father is leading all the way. Perhaps.

His love in my heart remains for Ahmad and for all, thiaBasilia.

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Ha! I Did Good Not To Speculate. Never Could Have I Connected Psalms 37 With Bryan Cohen’s Course. WOW! Here We Go!

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Wednesday, June 22, 2016 at 7:29 pm

Bipolar? Manic Depression? Schizophrenia? What’s your label? Scratch them all. There is one way to scratch them all. Some have found it. You too will find it. Conquer your worries. Overcome your sorriest. Overcoming Dysfunctional Mother? Worth its price in gold. Buy it.

Thursday, June 23, 2016 at 6:51 am

Am I doing the right thing? O my Father—O Father of mine? Is joining Bryan Cohen in Your will for me? I am trusting You. I have messed up so many times that? I cannot trust my judgement about any of these decisions I make. So? I cast this matter unto You for? I know that You are leading me all the way. I wait on You.

Why do I want to sell the book? Why have I written the book to begin with? I want to sell the book to obtain credibility and respect from the public. I have written the book at Your bidding and command to do so. What is to happen now that I have joined Bryan Cohen? I have to, I must wait on You to get an answer to this matter as the next two weeks come along.

Bryan Cohen is talking about pretty much the same way You have led me through all of these years since I been working on this book about my life and Your work within my being for the benefit of all of Yours and mine concern.

The difference between Bryan Cohen’s account about this writing & publishing & selling one’s book? Bryan Cohen as well as most all other experts in this matter attribute their success to what it seems to me is the mind or some Universal force and? Me? I attribute every minute detail of my doings to You and only to You O my Father—O Father of mine. Oh?

Do I belittle myself by attributing all details of my doings to You, O my Father—O Father of mine? Nay! Nay! Nay! If You, O my Father—O Father of mine, if You would not be in full control of myself? I would not be writing or even living at all but? You have lovingly taken control of myself even when You have not deprived me of the full use of my mind & emotional make up. Ha! What do ye’know? That’s the difference between the experts and myself.

Yes! By all means I have full use of my mind & emotions but? That mind & emotions of mine are fully submitted to our Father/Creator of our beings in practice not just by lip service.

Now? Here is the big question to all who read these lines. WHY the experts do not guarantee their followers to make the kind of income the experts are making? (Read the agreement—it attest to this matter.) Because the experts can easily assess the why a great majority of the followers for the most fail to achieve the coveted success and quit the experts?

Hum. Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Pause. Reflect. What is it that you observe at the sight of the experts?

What do I observe? In the face. In the voice. In the writings from all the experts? I observe, I sense a certain indescribable dissatisfaction in all the experts regardless their amazingly good endeavors and magnificent success. Oh? Oh? Oh?

What on earth kind of statement is that? Wait. Hold your opinion just a little while more. Another famous Scripture that most all are familiar with comes to mind. Let us read it and see how such Scripture that came to my mind unexpectedly much applies to this statement.

1 Corinthians 13:1-xx

IF I can speak in the tongues of men and even of angels, but have not love—that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by the Almighty Creator of our being’s love for and in us, I am only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.

And if I have prophetic powers (the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose), and understand all the secret truths and mysteries and possess all knowledge, and if I have sufficient faith so that I can remove mountains, but have not love—the Almighty Creator of our being’s love for and in me I am nothing (a useless nobody). Even if I dole out all that I have to the poor in providing food, and if I surrender my body to be burned or  in order that I may glory, but have not love the Almighty Creator of our being’s love for and in me, I gain nothing.

Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily. It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love—the Almighty Creator of our being’s love for and in us, does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it—it pays no attention to a suffered wrong. It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail. Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything—without weakening. Love never fails never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end.

O well! O my Father!—O Father of mine? How many times people has quoted those words to me to question my seemingly unloving attitude to most anyone that do not honor You but assume they do so? Too numerous to name yet? I cannot stress enough the fact—the naked truth of our inability to keep Your first commandment to love You above all things. Next?

Psalms 37 comes back to mind. Where did I leave the matter of Psalms 37. Ah! I am listening to Bryan Cohen and? These verses of Scripture go along with what he is saying but? With a different slant. Bryan is talking about the world’s way of doing things. I am walking on a different world but? Bryan’s suggestions? Still apply. Quoting the allured verses in the previous post.

“Commit your way to my Master—my Beloved Yahuwah /Yahushua—roll and repose each care of your load on Him; trust—lean on, rely on, and be confident also in Him and He will bring it to pass. And He will make your uprightness and right standing with our Almighty Creator go forth as the light, and your justice and right as the shining sun of the noonday.”

I pause. I reflect. The first thing Bryan is talking about, is the Selling Mentality. Three reasons why I am not selling.

1.       I am not confident that what I have is worth it. Self-confidence—Self-esteem.

2.       I don’t want to be a sell out.

3.       I don’t understand how to do it.

Self-confidence—Self-esteem for me in the past? NIL. Self-confidence—Self-esteem in the present? WOW! How did I become so confident and assertive as I now am? Honest, candid answer. Not by my own efforts but? By the power of love from on high. What am talking about?

Aha! That’s the incentive anyone reading these lines should have to buy my next title, Overcoming Dysfunctional Mother in order to connect with the meaning of my above statement.

The next two points in this course,

I don’t want to be a sell out.

I don’t understand how to do it.

Excellent suggestions. I am all ears. Will let you know my progress in the next posts.

His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia.

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Thursday, February 05, 2015 at 1:54 pm

Where, O where is the nobility of loving those that love and pamper us? So I was beaten with a horse whip for even the simple offense as not liking the food on hand and for major offenses or what was considered major to my beaters? I was dragged by my hair through dirt and rocks to face my deed and then further applying the beating of beatings to make of me what they considered a decent human being.

As I recall the gruesome part of my childhood, wonder of wonders! There is not today the least amount of anger or hurt feelings—only and understanding of how misguided my beaters were and how their end did not justify the means to achieve such an end! That’s what qualifies as true love!

Wonder of wonders such an attitude in my part is because, for half of my life, just to think of such gruesome childhood will cause me to weep and weep and weep and there were not a single human being, well-meaning as they were, capable to alleviate my pain much less heal the open wounds that my childhood left on me.

Until, one day, one awesome day in the year of 1979, while two dear sisters laid hands on me and one of them commanded me to talk about my childhood and I was practically forced to do so.

While I began to talk & recall the gruesome details of all that took place, the tears kept profusely flowing from my eyes and in my head I heard these words that with my mouth I pronounced,

“I saved you from all of that for My own glory!” and as I expressed what I had heard, a heavy weight was lifted from my chest and I knew from that instant of time that such things were not ever to hurt me anymore!

Time took its course. Lows & highs continued to be the norm of my life. Marriage, divorce, falling from the peak of self-righteousness to the pit of corruption.

Marriage & divorce again, and again, up to the pedestal of self-righteousness. Once again down to the pit of corruption! Then? My appointed time of conviction of the wicked nature ingrained in my being!

The wicked nature ingrained within my being? Yes, such nature that caused me to climb up to the pedestal of self-righteousness and down to the pit of corruption like a flimsy boat in turbulent seas!

Wow! Conviction! Repentance! Then? The esteem and beauty of the scar free life that I now live! But how did I gain such freedom? Not the efforts of my own!

I gained such freedom by the favor of my Father/Creator to give me the power to see or recognize my wicked self and shake the chains that had me living under the mandate of such evil thing within my being—that is repentance.

Why such conviction & repentance did not take place any sooner that it did? Beats me! And why I do not see such conviction & repentance taking place anywhere around me? Beats me as well!

Such knowledge is not a necessity for me to have! There is only a certain knowledge worth to have, namely, the knowledge that the Mighty Presence of my Father/Creator resides within my being!

The knowledge that I am privileged to live in the secret place of the Most High there to stay overcoming my wicked self, day by day and moment by moment!

His love in my heart for all, thia/Basilia