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I’m Eighty But I Sure Don’t Feel My Age …?

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I Feel Ageless, But! I Weight Out My Pitiful Stand Among The Young And Strong.

Seniors? Far From The Fountain Of Wisdom We Are To Be Among The Throng.

It’s more of a mud hole that we are among the throng of the young and strong. The seniors’ problem is a sore ashore the sandy beaches of the rich and famous as well as the regular ambitious human to become one of them.

What To Do With Mom And Dad? …

More or less the children take care of mom and dad. They feed, they cloth, they take care of all mom and dad’s physical deficiencies, but! Glean from their wisdom? No time to glean. All time to clean!

Well? At 6:xx Am I Wake Up. Is It Morning Or Night I Don’t See Any Light …?

Get up! Do your thing. Check the inbox for response to the post. What? Two people only responded? But why am I disappointed? Mercy! I’m still hook on human expectations bound to bring me down. Even so?

My Mind Bounces To My Age. I’m Eighty But I Sure Don’t Feel My Age …?

I feel ageless. I go on to think about the many seniors of my acquaintance. I weight out our pitiful stand among the young and strong. Far we are from the fountain of wisdom we could be among the throng.

What Happened, My Master? How Are We In Such Stand In The Land …?

We have become a puddle of mud far from even the resemble of the immensity of Your wisdom You have invested unto us throughout our many years. Heavy thought.

O My Master! What’s Your Purpose For My Waking Up With This Heavy Issue In My Mind …?

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 8:26 am.

No doubt. There is a lesson You aim to teach me today. I need to tune my ear to Your teaching. I need to reflect on the matter while I take care of my chores this morning.

Alright! Cain Came To Mind …?

What was wrong with Cain’s best? The same thing that is still wrong with my best, it was not what was ordered. How is about if I order apples but I get beautiful fancy oranges instead?

I Get It, My Master! On To Read The Story Of Cain Again …

This time I shall read under Your tutelage—the only way I am now assimilating the true meaning of my life’s history recorded in all written tales from the beginning of our time here on earth.

Genesis 4:3-16

And in the course of time Cain brought to the Master an offering of the fruit of the ground.

And Abel brought of the firstborn of his flock and of the fat portions. And the Master had respect and regard for Abel and for his offering, [Heb 11:4]

But for Cain and his offering He had no respect or regard. So Cain was exceedingly angry and indignant, and he looked sad and depressed.

And the Master said to Cain, Why are you angry? And why do you look sad and depressed and dejected?

If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin crouches at your door; its desire is for you, but you must master it.

And Cain said to his brother, Let us go out to the field. And when they were in the field, Cain rose up against Abel his brother and killed him. [1Jn 3:12]

And the Master said to Cain, Where is Abel your brother? And he said, I do not know. Am I my brother’s keeper?

And [the Master] said, What have you done? The voice of your brother’s blood is crying to Me from the ground.

And now you are cursed by reason of the earth, which has opened its mouth to receive your brother’s [shed] blood from your hand.

When you till the ground, it shall no longer yield to you its strength; you shall be a fugitive and a vagabond on the earth [in perpetual exile, a degraded outcast].

Then Cain said to the Master, My punishment is greater than I can bear.

Behold, You have driven me out this day from the face of the land, and from Your face I will be hidden; and I will be a fugitive and a vagabond and a wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.

And the Master said to him, Therefore, if anyone kills Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold. And the Master set a mark or sign upon Cain, lest anyone finding him should kill him.

So Cain went away from the presence of the Master and dwelt in the land of Nod [wandering], east of Eden.

Genesis 6:11-13

The earth was depraved and putrid in the Almighty’s sight, and the land was filled with violence (desecration, infringement, outrage, assault, and lust for power).

And the Almighty looked upon the world and saw how degenerate, debased, and vicious it was, for all humanity had corrupted their way upon the earth and lost their true direction.

The Almighty said to Noah, I intend to make an end of all flesh, for through men the land is filled with violence; and behold, I will destroy them and the land.

What A Lesson For This Day While I Muse In All That I Been Reading …?

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 11:06 am.

No kidding! It’s no longer boring to read all that far fetched genealogy. But still so much to muse about. Mainly? Where and how do I really and for all practical purposes fit in all of what I am reading?

Behold! The Mighty One Of Israel He’s King Over All!

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 6:38 pm.

The question still remains, Who then can be saved? If the rich cannot stand even the mention of Your name, how then can we be saved? Quote:

Matthew 19:23-30

And Yahushua said to His disciples, Truly I say to you, it will be difficult for a rich man to get into the kingdom of heaven.

Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to go into the kingdom of heaven.

When the disciples heard this, they were utterly puzzled (astonished, bewildered), saying, Who then can be saved [N1from eternal death]?

But Yahushua looked at them and said, With men this is impossible, but all things are possible with the Almighty. [Gen 18:14; Job 42:2]

Then Peter answered Him, saying, Behold, we have left [our] all and have become Your disciples [sided with Your party and followed You]. What then shall we receive?

Yahushua said to them, Truly I say to you, in the new age [the Messianic rebirth of the world], when the Son of Man shall sit down on the throne of His glory, you who have [become My disciples, sided with My party and] followed Me will also sit on twelve thrones and judge the twelve tribes of Israel.

And anyone and everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands for My name’s sake will receive many [even a hundred] times more and will inherit eternal life.

But many who [now] are first will be last [then], and many who [now] are last will be first [then]

Continue To Muse On All Read …

O my Master! How can I get excited about those words again? I also read the last two chapters in the Book of Revelations. Honestly, I can no longer get excited when I think about Your promises to me. Why?

How Can I Get Excited My Master When I Read The End Of The Wicked …?

How on earth can I contemplate for one second to see somebody burning and myself enjoying a happy life eternal. It’s a troublesome matter to me.

I See All The Evil Around. You Have Shown It To Me …

Day in and day out I search for signs of repentance, but! All I find is happy faces in a religious as well as in the non-religious world. Laughter is placed ahead of mourning.

You Promised, This Time All Nations Shall Know And Fear Your Name …?

What am I to expect my Master? What do You mean? Will the nations fear Your name enough to repent? I don’t want to think about it all but! I can’t stop my thinking and wailing.

Thanks For Your Peace. The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom Shall Prevail …

The most corrupted practices at the times of Noah are back. Only Your people have chosen to ignore such fact as well as Your warnings about them. Why?

I See It. You are aware of The Plight Of Your People …?

For You know, should Your people pay mind to the evil going on, mental insanity should be even more prevalent than it is now. So? They chose to amuse themselves to preserve their sanity.

But You Have Chosen Some Of Us To Do The Mourning …

What a realization! What an honor! Amazing are Your ways. You have cleansed and healed my mind and body, but! The wailing prevails because You have chosen me to mourn for the ones that fail to do so. Why?

You Aim To Restore Us To The Original Intent For Our Creation, But! …

Unless You intervene with Your example of the work You are doing in my life, many souls would be lost, and? It’s not the will of the Father that You should lose any of all that He has given You. Quote:

John 6:35-39

Yahushua replied, I am the Bread of Life. He who comes to Me will never be hungry, and he who believes in and cleaves to and trusts in and relies on Me will never thirst any more (at any time).

But [as] I told you, although you have seen Me, still you do not believe and trust and have faith.

All whom My Father gives (entrusts) to Me will come to Me; and the one who comes to Me I will most certainly not cast out [I will never, no never, reject one of them who comes to Me].

For I have come down from heaven not to do My own will and purpose but to do the will and purpose of Him Who sent Me.

And this is the will of Him Who sent Me, that I should not lose any of all that He has given Me, but that I should give new life and raise [them all] up at the last day.

John 6:63-65

It is the Spirit Who gives life [He is the Life-giver]; the flesh conveys no benefit whatever [there is no profit in it]. The words (truths) that I have been speaking to you are spirit and life.

But [still] some of you fail to believe and trust and have faith. For Jesus knew from the first who did not believe and had no faith and who would betray Him and be false to Him.

And He said, This is why I told you that no one can come to Me unless it is granted him [unless he is enabled to do so] by the Father. End of quote.

Master? I’m Coming To You. Reformatting? Tough Job…

Friday, October 25, 2019 at 4:14 pm.

Perhaps it’s the time of the day. I do need to sleep. I wait on You. Wow! I slept on and off until after 11 pm! I woke up from a dream. Ahmad standing by the window put a brand-new shinny fancy pocketknife in front of me. Amazing meaning!

O My Master! About The Changes Going On In My Relationships …?

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 12:52 am.

You are most certainly preparing me for all those changes. Before the dream, I laid in bed for a long time. Tears flowing copiously as I consider my relationship with Ahmad and my beloved children.

I Wailed In Bed Thinking That Ahmad Had Given Up On Me, Why? …

If Ahmad gives up on me that would mean that all the amazing work You have accomplished could be only a fantasy of mine and not true. That’s enough to make me wail in the agony of defeat.

But, O My Master! Though I Stumble In Agonizing Doubt And Fear Of Defeat …

You quickly grasp my hand to steady my steps. What a wonder! I woke up in wonder of Your meaning with such strange vivid dream. After a while I looked up the meaning. Your meaning straight to the point in mind. Quote:

To dream of a pocket-knife represents confidence that you can get rid of a problem should it arise. Preparedness.

The Problem With Ahmad? It Arose In My Mind Only, But!

Preparedness. I am prepared to get rid of all problems in my way. My confidence is set on You all the way. Therefore? You got rid of my problem this time with that strange dream of a pocket-knife.

I Waited On You For Solutions. You Came Through In That Dream …?

Ahmad is extremely sensitive of Your work in my life. He knows of the positive changes You are working for me. He is letting You do Your work. That’s why he is staying away from me. Wow!

Now What, My Master? Guess To Tackle That Reformatting Job? …

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 1:32 am.

Well? You know that I am cold. Also, I have too many irons on the fire. Plus? Can’t quit thinking about the awful state of the apartment comes wintertime, and other problems that only You can take care of.

Help Me My Master! Get Those Irons Off The Fire In My Mind …

Yes! My mind is like a burning furnace always devouring wild imaginations of mine. Only the power of Your love and wisdom can get that fire under control. Maybe I’ll go to bed, if nothing else to warm up. I’ll see.

No Bed. Instead? Back To The Beginning …?

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 5:58 am.

What beginning, my Master? The beginning from 27 years ago. The reminder of the best seven years You gave me. That was the time You gave me my first place of quiet and safety.

The Time Was October 21, 1986. You Promised Me That Place, And …?

You promised I was to be Your minister, Your mouthpiece if I separated the precious from the vile unwarranted auspiciousness about Your faithfulness.

I Responded Willing To Obey. Within 6 Weeks Your Promise Became My Reality …?

You placed me under the tutelage of my Honey—a senior gentleman of integrity. Seven years exactly, and? You took him away. Instead of bed, I searched and found the record. Quote:

On Sunday, the 18th day of October 1992 about 5 in the morning I heard him trying to cough and I hurried up to give him some ice chips and a few drops of morphine. As I did that, he spoke to me what was to be his last words, he said to me, “I love you.” He said nothing else. I remember comforting him, holding his hand, reading him the Scriptures. I remember my daughters Denise and Robin calling me by phone and I remember Genie coming in and sitting with him while I took a shower.

Then I remember being alone with him while Genie went to get dressed and I remember singing many songs to him while I held his hand. On his last moments he heard me sing to him, “When we all get to heaven, what a day of rejoicing that will be when we all see Yahushua and sing and shout the victory!” Then, he went into a coma. He was staring into the ceiling and Genie and I kept trying to close his eyes, but he wouldn’t close his eyes.

Suddenly! he took a long breath, and then another and with the last one… he closed his eyes, he was gone… The time was 12 minutes after 10 in the morning of that Sunday, October 18, 1992, exactly seven months since that 18th day of March, 1992 when I first took off with him towards the hospital…

There was a certain numbness that took a hold of me in a most peculiar way and I remember the wake and the funeral as if I was not really there. It seems to me that to this day, that numbness has persisted.

But, as I promised him, I know that Almighty Yahuwah kept me from falling apart with the assurance that my Honey’s spirit went to be with Almighty Yahuwah and my Honey was no longer suffering on these grounds but some day, when Almighty Yahuwah comes back to get us, my Honey shall rise first with the dead in Messiah. Thank Almighty Yahuwah for that assurance. Thank Almighty Yahuwah for my Honey’s salvation!

Then, everything happened really fast. I was packed and moved to Wilmington, North Carolina within 2 weeks. I left Westwego on November the 3rd and arrived in Wilmington on November the 4th. From there on my new life had begun. End of Quote.

And What A Life It Has Been …?

Lost. Destitute. Ill. Rejected. Abandoned. Struggling to fit in a world not meant for me to fit in, until? Your decreed time to end that period on Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Then? You told me,

“You Don’t Belong Here Any Longer!” And? Your Call On April 27, 2008 At 5:48 am.

Now? Wow! It’s 2019—my 80th year since my birth—the year of my jubilee. No longer Lost. Destitute. Ill. Rejected. Abandoned. Struggling to fit in a world not meant for me to fit in, but!

Perfectly Fitted In Your Presence …

Wow! Wow! Wow! O my Master! I am beginning to really like this tale of mine. So much tumult. So many turns all leading to my final destination—Your undeniable Presence in my life!

What An Enviable Life. What An Exciting Tale Has This Tale Of Mine Is Turning Out To Be …

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 6:54 am.

Least to me. Will the rest of Your people catch up with my excitement? That’s Your work. My confidence is set on You. No need for marketing. No need for me to struggle to get Your people’s attention. Anyhow?

This World Is At The Peak Of Carnal Glory …

The children that we seniors raised are now in the mountain top of productivity and success. We should be proud and enjoy the limelight with them, but! How can we?

Seniors? Dementia No Potentia In The Limelight Of Success Is Our Plight …?

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

True. There are seniors to be admired for their contribution to this world’s success, but! The average senior human? A problem not only for our children but also for the society of human beings.

So? In The Midst Of This Euphoric State Of Your People …

How can I expect for them to envy my life of mourning and weeping with joy inexplicable? It just not going to happen, but!

O The Mighty One Of Israel! His Banner Over Us Is Love!

Whether they envy my life or despise it is totally irrelevant for the progress of Your plan of restoration to the original intent for our creation!

So? No need to knock myself down with irrelevant concerns that only cause me pain and no gain. I’ll post this matter as soon as it’s ready. I am not to worry about any flatter.

Again and Again! O The Mighty One Of Israel His Banner Over Us Is Love!

I started to post today, but! It did not happen. You had other plans for me. As always it pays to flow with the wind of Your Spirit even when that wind roughens my tail while I sail.

Surprise Visit From Ahmad …

Sunday, October 27, 2019 at 1:03 pm.

He did not call all day long. Had forgotten about him. When I am creating graphics, I forget all about this world. Anyhow? He surprised me around 7 pm. He brought supper. We ate. We shared our hearts. He left. I got back to my graphics. Came 11:30 pm had to crash in bed, my eyes were closing up.

My Tale Is Never Stale. Open Book. Take A Look! …

It’s another day. I just don’t know how continue with my tale. I find myself stale! Not the first time, and? It won’t be the last. Anyhow? I ain’t worried about it. You’ll show me the way sooner or later.

Guess What? My Art Instructor Is Back! …

Sunday, October 27, 2019 at 4:48 pm.

It’s almost 5 pm on this Sunday. The graphic illustration just doesn’t connect with the post. I’m going to sleep. I’ll wait on You. And so?

Two hours later, I was sound sleep, but! A gentle touch. The sound of my name. I open my eyes, Ahmad! I exclaimed. I jumped out of bed! No pain I exclaimed again. What a surprise! But the best part?

Among His Many Talents Ahmad Is An Art Major, But! …

Monday, October 28, 2019 at 11:12 am.

Things have been so rough between us, it’s been a long time since I hear, “Basilia, no harmony!” Then the art lesson. Last night? Sure enough! He took one look at my colorful masterpiece and? No harmony again! Hahaha!

O What A Blessing! Thanks My Master! Making Artistic Progress For Your Honor …

I spent all the time since he left last night until now implement his lesson. The graphic illustration and my logo now connect. It’s all Your leading and direction, my Beloved Master; You are such a reality in my life!

Ready to post.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. 

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I’m Eighty But I Sure Don’t Feel My Age …?

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I Feel Ageless, But! I Weight Out My Pitiful Stand Among The Young And Strong.

Seniors? Far From The Fountain Of Wisdom We Are To Be Among The Throng.

It’s more of a mud hole that we are among the throng of the young and strong. The seniors’ problem is a sore ashore the sandy beaches of the rich and famous as well as the regular ambitious human to become one of them.

What To Do With Mom And Dad? …

More or less the children take care of mom and dad. They feed, they cloth, they take care of all mom and dad’s physical deficiencies, but! Glean from their wisdom? No time to glean. All time to clean!

Well? At 6:xx Am I Wake Up. Is It Morning Or Night I Don’t See Any Light …?

Get up! Do your thing. Check the inbox for response to the post. What? Two people only responded? But why am I disappointed? Mercy! I’m still hook on human expectations bound to bring me down. Even so?

My Mind Bounces To My Age. I’m Eighty But I Sure Don’t Feel My Age …?

I feel ageless. I go on to think about the many seniors of my acquaintance. I weight out our pitiful stand among the young and strong. Far we are from the fountain of wisdom we could be among the throng.

What Happened, My Master? How Are We In Such Stand In The Land …?

We have become a puddle of mud far from even the resemble of the immensity of Your wisdom You have invested unto us throughout our many years. Heavy thought.

O My Master! What’s Your Purpose For My Waking Up With This Heavy Issue In My Mind …?

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 8:26 am.

No doubt. There is a lesson You aim to teach me today. I need to tune my ear to Your teaching. I need to reflect on the matter while I take care of my chores this morning.

Alright! Cain Came To Mind …?

What was wrong with Cain’s best? The same thing that is still wrong with my best, it was not what was ordered. How is about if I order apples but I get beautiful fancy oranges instead?

I Get It, My Master! On To Read The Story Of Cain Again …

This time I shall read under Your tutelage—the only way I am now assimilating the true meaning of my life’s history recorded in all written tales from the beginning of our time here on earth.

Genesis 4:3-16

And in the course of time Cain brought to the Master an offering of the fruit of the ground.

And Abel brought of the firstborn of his flock and of the fat portions. And the Master had respect and regard for Abel and for his offering, [Heb 11:4]

But for Cain and his offering He had no respect or regard. So Cain was exceedingly angry and indignant, and he looked sad and depressed.

And the Master said to Cain, Why are you angry? And why do you look sad and depressed and dejected?

If you do well, will you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin crouches at your door; its desire is for you, but you must master it.

And Cain said to his brother, Let us go out to the field. And when they were in the field, Cain rose up against Abel his brother and killed him. [1Jn 3:12]

And the Master said to Cain, Where is Abel your brother? And he said, I do not know. Am I my brother’s keeper?

And [the Master] said, What have you done? The voice of your brother’s blood is crying to Me from the ground.

And now you are cursed by reason of the earth, which has opened its mouth to receive your brother’s [shed] blood from your hand.

When you till the ground, it shall no longer yield to you its strength; you shall be a fugitive and a vagabond on the earth [in perpetual exile, a degraded outcast].

Then Cain said to the Master, My punishment is greater than I can bear.

Behold, You have driven me out this day from the face of the land, and from Your face I will be hidden; and I will be a fugitive and a vagabond and a wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.

And the Master said to him, Therefore, if anyone kills Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold. And the Master set a mark or sign upon Cain, lest anyone finding him should kill him.

So Cain went away from the presence of the Master and dwelt in the land of Nod [wandering], east of Eden.

Genesis 6:11-13

The earth was depraved and putrid in the Almighty’s sight, and the land was filled with violence (desecration, infringement, outrage, assault, and lust for power).

And the Almighty looked upon the world and saw how degenerate, debased, and vicious it was, for all humanity had corrupted their way upon the earth and lost their true direction.

The Almighty said to Noah, I intend to make an end of all flesh, for through men the land is filled with violence; and behold, I will destroy them and the land.

What A Lesson For This Day While I Muse In All That I Been Reading …?

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 11:06 am.

No kidding! It’s no longer boring to read all that far fetched genealogy. But still so much to muse about. Mainly? Where and how do I really and for all practical purposes fit in all of what I am reading?

Behold! The Mighty One Of Israel He’s King Over All!

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 6:38 pm.

The question still remains, Who then can be saved? If the rich cannot stand even the mention of Your name, how then can we be saved? Quote:

Matthew 19:23-30

And Yahushua said to His disciples, Truly I say to you, it will be difficult for a rich man to get into the kingdom of heaven.

Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to go into the kingdom of heaven.

When the disciples heard this, they were utterly puzzled (astonished, bewildered), saying, Who then can be saved [N1from eternal death]?

But Yahushua looked at them and said, With men this is impossible, but all things are possible with the Almighty. [Gen 18:14; Job 42:2]

Then Peter answered Him, saying, Behold, we have left [our] all and have become Your disciples [sided with Your party and followed You]. What then shall we receive?

Yahushua said to them, Truly I say to you, in the new age [the Messianic rebirth of the world], when the Son of Man shall sit down on the throne of His glory, you who have [become My disciples, sided with My party and] followed Me will also sit on twelve thrones and judge the twelve tribes of Israel.

And anyone and everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands for My name’s sake will receive many [even a hundred] times more and will inherit eternal life.

But many who [now] are first will be last [then], and many who [now] are last will be first [then]

Continue To Muse On All Read …

O my Master! How can I get excited about those words again? I also read the last two chapters in the Book of Revelations. Honestly, I can no longer get excited when I think about Your promises to me. Why?

How Can I Get Excited My Master When I Read The End Of The Wicked …?

How on earth can I contemplate for one second to see somebody burning and myself enjoying a happy life eternal. It’s a troublesome matter to me.

I See All The Evil Around. You Have Shown It To Me …

Day in and day out I search for signs of repentance, but! All I find is happy faces in a religious as well as in the non-religious world. Laughter is placed ahead of mourning.

You Promised, This Time All Nations Shall Know And Fear Your Name …?

What am I to expect my Master? What do You mean? Will the nations fear Your name enough to repent? I don’t want to think about it all but! I can’t stop my thinking and wailing.

Thanks For Your Peace. The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom Shall Prevail …

The most corrupted practices at the times of Noah are back. Only Your people have chosen to ignore such fact as well as Your warnings about them. Why?

I See It. You are aware of The Plight Of Your People …?

For You know, should Your people pay mind to the evil going on, mental insanity should be even more prevalent than it is now. So? They chose to amuse themselves to preserve their sanity.

But You Have Chosen Some Of Us To Do The Mourning …

What a realization! What an honor! Amazing are Your ways. You have cleansed and healed my mind and body, but! The wailing prevails because You have chosen me to mourn for the ones that fail to do so. Why?

You Aim To Restore Us To The Original Intent For Our Creation, But! …

Unless You intervene with Your example of the work You are doing in my life, many souls would be lost, and? It’s not the will of the Father that You should lose any of all that He has given You. Quote:

John 6:35-39

Yahushua replied, I am the Bread of Life. He who comes to Me will never be hungry, and he who believes in and cleaves to and trusts in and relies on Me will never thirst any more (at any time).

But [as] I told you, although you have seen Me, still you do not believe and trust and have faith.

All whom My Father gives (entrusts) to Me will come to Me; and the one who comes to Me I will most certainly not cast out [I will never, no never, reject one of them who comes to Me].

For I have come down from heaven not to do My own will and purpose but to do the will and purpose of Him Who sent Me.

And this is the will of Him Who sent Me, that I should not lose any of all that He has given Me, but that I should give new life and raise [them all] up at the last day.

John 6:63-65

It is the Spirit Who gives life [He is the Life-giver]; the flesh conveys no benefit whatever [there is no profit in it]. The words (truths) that I have been speaking to you are spirit and life.

But [still] some of you fail to believe and trust and have faith. For Jesus knew from the first who did not believe and had no faith and who would betray Him and be false to Him.

And He said, This is why I told you that no one can come to Me unless it is granted him [unless he is enabled to do so] by the Father. End of quote.

Master? I’m Coming To You. Reformatting? Tough Job…

Friday, October 25, 2019 at 4:14 pm.

Perhaps it’s the time of the day. I do need to sleep. I wait on You. Wow! I slept on and off until after 11 pm! I woke up from a dream. Ahmad standing by the window put a brand-new shinny fancy pocketknife in front of me. Amazing meaning!

O My Master! About The Changes Going On In My Relationships …?

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 12:52 am.

You are most certainly preparing me for all those changes. Before the dream, I laid in bed for a long time. Tears flowing copiously as I consider my relationship with Ahmad and my beloved children.

I Wailed In Bed Thinking That Ahmad Had Given Up On Me, Why? …

If Ahmad gives up on me that would mean that all the amazing work You have accomplished could be only a fantasy of mine and not true. That’s enough to make me wail in the agony of defeat.

But, O My Master! Though I Stumble In Agonizing Doubt And Fear Of Defeat …

You quickly grasp my hand to steady my steps. What a wonder! I woke up in wonder of Your meaning with such strange vivid dream. After a while I looked up the meaning. Your meaning straight to the point in mind. Quote:

To dream of a pocket-knife represents confidence that you can get rid of a problem should it arise. Preparedness.

The Problem With Ahmad? It Arose In My Mind Only, But!

Preparedness. I am prepared to get rid of all problems in my way. My confidence is set on You all the way. Therefore? You got rid of my problem this time with that strange dream of a pocket-knife.

I Waited On You For Solutions. You Came Through In That Dream …?

Ahmad is extremely sensitive of Your work in my life. He knows of the positive changes You are working for me. He is letting You do Your work. That’s why he is staying away from me. Wow!

Now What, My Master? Guess To Tackle That Reformatting Job? …

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 1:32 am.

Well? You know that I am cold. Also, I have too many irons on the fire. Plus? Can’t quit thinking about the awful state of the apartment comes wintertime, and other problems that only You can take care of.

Help Me My Master! Get Those Irons Off The Fire In My Mind …

Yes! My mind is like a burning furnace always devouring wild imaginations of mine. Only the power of Your love and wisdom can get that fire under control. Maybe I’ll go to bed, if nothing else to warm up. I’ll see.

No Bed. Instead? Back To The Beginning …?

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 5:58 am.

What beginning, my Master? The beginning from 27 years ago. The reminder of the best seven years You gave me. That was the time You gave me my first place of quiet and safety.

The Time Was October 21, 1986. You Promised Me That Place, And …?

You promised I was to be Your minister, Your mouthpiece if I separated the precious from the vile unwarranted auspiciousness about Your faithfulness.

I Responded Willing To Obey. Within 6 Weeks Your Promise Became My Reality …?

You placed me under the tutelage of my Honey—a senior gentleman of integrity. Seven years exactly, and? You took him away. Instead of bed, I searched and found the record. Quote:

On Sunday, the 18th day of October 1992 about 5 in the morning I heard him trying to cough and I hurried up to give him some ice chips and a few drops of morphine. As I did that, he spoke to me what was to be his last words, he said to me, “I love you.” He said nothing else. I remember comforting him, holding his hand, reading him the Scriptures. I remember my daughters Denise and Robin calling me by phone and I remember Genie coming in and sitting with him while I took a shower.

Then I remember being alone with him while Genie went to get dressed and I remember singing many songs to him while I held his hand. On his last moments he heard me sing to him, “When we all get to heaven, what a day of rejoicing that will be when we all see Yahushua and sing and shout the victory!” Then, he went into a coma. He was staring into the ceiling and Genie and I kept trying to close his eyes, but he wouldn’t close his eyes.

Suddenly! he took a long breath, and then another and with the last one… he closed his eyes, he was gone… The time was 12 minutes after 10 in the morning of that Sunday, October 18, 1992, exactly seven months since that 18th day of March, 1992 when I first took off with him towards the hospital…

There was a certain numbness that took a hold of me in a most peculiar way and I remember the wake and the funeral as if I was not really there. It seems to me that to this day, that numbness has persisted.

But, as I promised him, I know that Almighty Yahuwah kept me from falling apart with the assurance that my Honey’s spirit went to be with Almighty Yahuwah and my Honey was no longer suffering on these grounds but some day, when Almighty Yahuwah comes back to get us, my Honey shall rise first with the dead in Messiah. Thank Almighty Yahuwah for that assurance. Thank Almighty Yahuwah for my Honey’s salvation!

Then, everything happened really fast. I was packed and moved to Wilmington, North Carolina within 2 weeks. I left Westwego on November the 3rd and arrived in Wilmington on November the 4th. From there on my new life had begun. End of Quote.

And What A Life It Has Been …?

Lost. Destitute. Ill. Rejected. Abandoned. Struggling to fit in a world not meant for me to fit in, until? Your decreed time to end that period on Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Then? You told me,

“You Don’t Belong Here Any Longer!” And? Your Call On April 27, 2008 At 5:48 am.

Now? Wow! It’s 2019—my 80th year since my birth—the year of my jubilee. No longer Lost. Destitute. Ill. Rejected. Abandoned. Struggling to fit in a world not meant for me to fit in, but!

Perfectly Fitted In Your Presence …

Wow! Wow! Wow! O my Master! I am beginning to really like this tale of mine. So much tumult. So many turns all leading to my final destination—Your undeniable Presence in my life!

What An Enviable Life. What An Exciting Tale Has This Tale Of Mine Is Turning Out To Be …

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 6:54 am.

Least to me. Will the rest of Your people catch up with my excitement? That’s Your work. My confidence is set on You. No need for marketing. No need for me to struggle to get Your people’s attention. Anyhow?

This World Is At The Peak Of Carnal Glory …

The children that we seniors raised are now in the mountain top of productivity and success. We should be proud and enjoy the limelight with them, but! How can we?

Seniors? Dementia No Potentia In The Limelight Of Success Is Our Plight …?

Saturday, October 26, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

True. There are seniors to be admired for their contribution to this world’s success, but! The average senior human? A problem not only for our children but also for the society of human beings.

So? In The Midst Of This Euphoric State Of Your People …

How can I expect for them to envy my life of mourning and weeping with joy inexplicable? It just not going to happen, but!

O The Mighty One Of Israel! His Banner Over Us Is Love!

Whether they envy my life or despise it is totally irrelevant for the progress of Your plan of restoration to the original intent for our creation!

So? No need to knock myself down with irrelevant concerns that only cause me pain and no gain. I’ll post this matter as soon as it’s ready. I am not to worry about any flatter.

Again and Again! O The Mighty One Of Israel His Banner Over Us Is Love!

I started to post today, but! It did not happen. You had other plans for me. As always it pays to flow with the wind of Your Spirit even when that wind roughens my tail while I sail.

Surprise Visit From Ahmad …

Sunday, October 27, 2019 at 1:03 pm.

He did not call all day long. Had forgotten about him. When I am creating graphics, I forget all about this world. Anyhow? He surprised me around 7 pm. He brought supper. We ate. We shared our hearts. He left. I got back to my graphics. Came 11:30 pm had to crash in bed, my eyes were closing up.

My Tale Is Never Stale. Open Book. Take A Look! …

It’s another day. I just don’t know how continue with my tale. I find myself stale! Not the first time, and? It won’t be the last. Anyhow? I ain’t worried about it. You’ll show me the way sooner or later.

Guess What? My Art Instructor Is Back! …

Sunday, October 27, 2019 at 4:48 pm.

It’s almost 5 pm on this Sunday. The graphic illustration just doesn’t connect with the post. I’m going to sleep. I’ll wait on You. And so?

Two hours later, I was sound sleep, but! A gentle touch. The sound of my name. I open my eyes, Ahmad! I exclaimed. I jumped out of bed! No pain I exclaimed again. What a surprise! But the best part?

Among His Many Talents Ahmad Is An Art Major, But! …

Monday, October 28, 2019 at 11:12 am.

Things have been so rough between us, it’s been a long time since I hear, “Basilia, no harmony!” Then the art lesson. Last night? Sure enough! He took one look at my colorful masterpiece and? No harmony again! Hahaha!

O What A Blessing! Thanks My Master! Making Artistic Progress For Your Honor …

I spent all the time since he left last night until now implement his lesson. The graphic illustration and my logo now connect. It’s all Your leading and direction, my Beloved Master; You are such a reality in my life!

Ready to post.

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Much love to all. 

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Nutrition! Waiter! Is There Pork Rinds In This Flan? …

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We Have Gone Bonkers With This Nutrition Fling …

About Laughter And Disaster …?

Now? Me? Forever Enjoy! Deploy!

Who me? Nuts? Seriously …

Laughter From The Master Gives Strength & Power

Humor Instead Of Anger Is Now My Motto In Toto…

Results? Enjoy! Deploy! Laughter From The Master?

Humor Instead Of Anger Remains My Motto!

Laughter from the Master is medicine to heal our bones

Laughter is disaster if in the place of our Master

It steals all heals. Poisons our motions

So it does to our notions

Me? It’s laughter from the Master NOT a disaster …

Here we go in a fun funny about our eats and defeats …

You Are What You Eat Is The Claiming Thing! …

“And what brought you to me?” Asked the psychiatrist to the squirrel. “Well? I heard say that you are what you eat. So? I realized that I’m NUTS! So? I came to you”.

A Lot Of Us Don’t Do Psychiatrists. We Are Googlers …

So? I read the story in Readers Digest a long time ago about the lady that believed in Google tests for everything. In short, this time, she looks herself in the mirror, she spotted some freckles on her nose. She Googled, ‘test for freckles on the nose’. She got a long list of possibilities. She wound up convinced she had leprosy caused by eating pork rinds. Well? She reasoned, I don’t eat pork rinds, but next time in the restaurant I will ask, “Waiter! Is There Pork Rinds In This Flan?”

Why Am I Quoting These Fun Tales? Because …

We are turning out to be a painfully funny-fun tale ourselves. One way or the other we are stuck in all kinds of bad habits, but! We refuse to get rid of them until we come to burn on the point of no return.

Master? It’s The End Of The Afternoon. Don’t Feel Funny Anymore …

Tuesday, October 22, 2019 at 5:00 pm.

That in itself is funny. Living by our feelings makes us do all kinds of funny or ridiculous things. But I am not living by my feelings, and? I’m tired of talking or writing about it.

I Wait On You To Get Me Out Of This Mood. I Need Your Ump! …

Tuesday, October 22, 2019 at 9:47 pm.

Master? You know that when I say that I do not live by my feelings I mean that I do not let my feelings control me any more. Even so? My feelings trouble me big time, but! You are in control of those feelings, and?

You Are Faithful! You Always Deliver Me Lots Of Time While I Yet Speak …

Most of the time You deliver me while I sleep. But the main thing is that no matter how I feel I do not lose my peace and joy to live in Your Presence.

Thanks, My Master! It’s All About Your Grace To Be Sufficient Unto Me …

Hum! Isn’t that something how You tied-up everything I write. Now we talk about Your grace. That’s another funny subject the way we think about Your grace. I never forget Bob Mumford’s dig about the matter. He said something like this, “So? You claim, ‘grace’ ‘grace’! Wait until your husband opens the closet’s door and all that junk you have been spending his hard-earned money on falls on his head. See if ‘grace’ will avail you in the divorce court!”

Hahaha! O My Master? You Have Blessed Me With Some Real Down To Earth Servants Of Yours …

That reminds me of another incident about our stinking carnal selves. I spent almost a year under the leadership of Homer McKeithen. Great servant of Yours.

I used to sit in the front pew, and I will AMEN! Every time his words will hit home with me. This time? O my Master! That was the time You were showing us the truth about our carnal selves.

Homer had a terrific deep strong voice. He would bring his sermon home, microphone on hand, off the preacher’s stand, down to our level, he announced this time, “Brothers and sisters, I STINK! And I exclaimed, AMEN! And he put the microphone almost to my face and whispered loudly, “AND YOU DO TOO!” Hahaha! What a wonderful way to make a point.

Fun Funny Memories To Relieve My ‘Pain In The Neck’ Hahaha! HalleluYah!

No kidding! Remembering those precious moments of my past makes me forget the pain of the moment. Hey! My neck is not hurting any more. Thanks, my Master!

Hey! What About My Nutrition Tonight? Let Me See …

O man! My nutrition? The world is falling apart. People are hurting. People are dying. People in trouble, and? Me? My belly! Pitiful, isn’t it?

Well? It’s A New Day, My Master! As If You Didn’t Know It …

Wednesday, October 23, 2019 at 12:32 am.

Hum! You know it, but! I didn’t! I spent the last couple of hours catching up with the neglected chores. I still have halfway to go. Even so? Maybe I should call it quits, I’m tired.

Caught Up! Ready For Whatever You Have For Me Next …?

Wednesday, October 23, 2019 at 5:34 pm.

The chores done! No more neck pain. My arm is better. And the graphics? Wow! I’m so smug with a guilty tug! But I see the improvement from many tries before. Of course!

It’s All Because Your Continuous Work And Leadership. But O My Master! What Am I To Do With Those Last Two Beauties? …

I’m thinking to use them for the background for future post’s illustrations. Yeah that sounds like a winner. Now that I am well, O my Master! Empower me to stay that way.

Indeed! I Am Well. This Last Bout With Neck Pain? Really A Pain In The Neck! …

Hahaha! HalleluYah! That’s my clue to post this hopefully fun funny post. For ten to one what is so fun funny to me? Makes no sense to the rest of the world.

Bless The Humorless World. Their Loss. I’ll Enjoy My Beauties To The Fulliest …

Wednesday, October 23, 2019 at 6:17 pm.

In the meantime? You are leading me to compose the illustration for this post. But right now I feel sleepy. I’ll work until.

Now! Sure, One Can Exist Without A Knowledge Of The Mighty One Of Israel, But! …

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 1:57 am.

No one can live without Him! He is the beginning and the end of EVERYTHING in existence including laughter! O my Master! You surely are. I’m so glad about that. What?

So Glad That You ARE The First And The Last—The EVER EXISTENT ONE Period …

So much for debates and explanations and theories and concepts and all those made stories! The GREAT I AM is at work to show us all that WE ARE NOT, but He is our bliss with a kiss! (Psalms 2.)

Later Gator!

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Nutrition! Waiter! Is There Pork Rinds In This Flan? …

We Have Gone Bonkers With This Nutrition Fling …

About Laughter And Disaster …?

Now? Me? Forever Enjoy! Deploy!

Who me? Nuts? Seriously …

Laughter From The Master Gives Strength & Power

Humor Instead Of Anger Is Now My Motto In Toto…

Results? Enjoy! Deploy! Laughter From The Master?

Humor Instead Of Anger Remains My Motto!

Laughter from the Master is medicine to heal our bones

Laughter is disaster if in the place of our Master

It steals all heals. Poisons our motions

So it does to our notions

Me? It’s laughter from the Master NOT a disaster …

Here we go in a fun funny about our eats and defeats …

You Are What You Eat Is The Claiming Thing! …

“And what brought you to me?” Asked the psychiatrist to the squirrel. “Well? I heard say that you are what you eat. So? I realized that I’m NUTS! So? I came to you”.

A Lot Of Us Don’t Do Psychiatrists. We Are Googlers …

So? I read the story in Readers Digest a long time ago about the lady that believed in Google tests for everything. In short, this time, she looks herself in the mirror, she spotted some freckles on her nose. She Googled, ‘test for freckles on the nose’. She got a long list of possibilities. She wound up convinced she had leprosy caused by eating pork rinds. Well? She reasoned, I don’t eat pork rinds, but next time in the restaurant I will ask, “Waiter! Is There Pork Rinds In This Flan?”

Why Am I Quoting These Fun Tales? Because …

We are turning out to be a painfully funny-fun tale ourselves. One way or the other we are stuck in all kinds of bad habits, but! We refuse to get rid of them until we come to burn on the point of no return.

Master? It’s The End Of The Afternoon. Don’t Feel Funny Anymore …

Tuesday, October 22, 2019 at 5:00 pm.

That in itself is funny. Living by our feelings makes us do all kinds of funny or ridiculous things. But I am not living by my feelings, and? I’m tired of talking or writing about it.

I Wait On You To Get Me Out Of This Mood. I Need Your Ump! …

Tuesday, October 22, 2019 at 9:47 pm.

Master? You know that when I say that I do not live by my feelings I mean that I do not let my feelings control me any more. Even so? My feelings trouble me big time, but! You are in control of those feelings, and?

You Are Faithful! You Always Deliver Me Lots Of Time While I Yet Speak …

Most of the time You deliver me while I sleep. But the main thing is that no matter how I feel I do not lose my peace and joy to live in Your Presence.

Thanks, My Master! It’s All About Your Grace To Be Sufficient Unto Me …

Hum! Isn’t that something how You tied-up everything I write. Now we talk about Your grace. That’s another funny subject the way we think about Your grace. I never forget Bob Mumford’s dig about the matter. He said something like this, “So? You claim, ‘grace’ ‘grace’! Wait until your husband opens the closet’s door and all that junk you have been spending his hard-earned money on falls on his head. See if ‘grace’ will avail you in the divorce court!”

Hahaha! O My Master? You Have Blessed Me With Some Real Down To Earth Servants Of Yours …

That reminds me of another incident about our stinking carnal selves. I spent almost a year under the leadership of Homer McKeithen. Great servant of Yours.

I used to sit in the front pew, and I will AMEN! Every time his words will hit home with me. This time? O my Master! That was the time You were showing us the truth about our carnal selves.

Homer had a terrific deep strong voice. He would bring his sermon home, microphone on hand, off the preacher’s stand, down to our level, he announced this time, “Brothers and sisters, I STINK! And I exclaimed, AMEN! And he put the microphone almost to my face and whispered loudly, “AND YOU DO TOO!” Hahaha! What a wonderful way to make a point.

Fun Funny Memories To Relieve My ‘Pain In The Neck’ Hahaha! HalleluYah!

No kidding! Remembering those precious moments of my past makes me forget the pain of the moment. Hey! My neck is not hurting any more. Thanks, my Master!

Hey! What About My Nutrition Tonight? Let Me See …

O man! My nutrition? The world is falling apart. People are hurting. People are dying. People in trouble, and? Me? My belly! Pitiful, isn’t it?

Well? It’s A New Day, My Master! As If You Didn’t Know It …

Wednesday, October 23, 2019 at 12:32 am.

Hum! You know it, but! I didn’t! I spent the last couple of hours catching up with the neglected chores. I still have halfway to go. Even so? Maybe I should call it quits, I’m tired.

Caught Up! Ready For Whatever You Have For Me Next …?

Wednesday, October 23, 2019 at 5:34 pm.

The chores done! No more neck pain. My arm is better. And the graphics? Wow! I’m so smug with a guilty tug! But I see the improvement from many tries before. Of course!

It’s All Because Your Continuous Work And Leadership. But O My Master! What Am I To Do With Those Last Two Beauties? …

I’m thinking to use them for the background for future post’s illustrations. Yeah that sounds like a winner. Now that I am well, O my Master! Empower me to stay that way.

Indeed! I Am Well. This Last Bout With Neck Pain? Really A Pain In The Neck! …

Hahaha! HalleluYah! That’s my clue to post this hopefully fun funny post. For ten to one what is so fun funny to me? Makes no sense to the rest of the world.

Bless The Humorless World. Their Loss. I’ll Enjoy My Beauties To The Fulliest …

Wednesday, October 23, 2019 at 6:17 pm.

In the meantime? You are leading me to compose the illustration for this post. But right now I feel sleepy. I’ll work until.

Now! Sure, One Can Exist Without A Knowledge Of The Mighty One Of Israel, But! …

Thursday, October 24, 2019 at 1:57 am.

No one can live without Him! He is the beginning and the end of EVERYTHING in existence including laughter! O my Master! You surely are. I’m so glad about that. What?

So Glad That You ARE The First And The Last—The EVER EXISTENT ONE Period …

So much for debates and explanations and theories and concepts and all those made stories! The GREAT I AM is at work to show us all that WE ARE NOT, but He is our bliss with a kiss! (Psalms 2.)

Later Gator!

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Negative Issues Keep Popping Up …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 3:48 pm.

Have not heard from anyone except from Ahmad. Things are, for the most, all negative if we really pay mind to what goes on in the world. Anyhow?

You Are Aware And In Control Of It All, My Master …

No matter what it all looks like, I refuse to despair. Sooner than I can imagine You will reveal Yourself to me. You will place me up one more rung in the ladder of steadiness. I wait.

My doings …

I have posted. Ate. Drank. Taken care of all chores. Perhaps You’ll bless me with more sleep now. That happened at 3:48 pm. I couldn’t sleep. Got up to drink turmeric ginger tea. Got busy creating graphics. Also, it took me a long time to find some links to send to Roxana for health reasons. I also talked to Ahmad a couple of times. It’s now Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 9:11 pm. Maybe I can sleep now. Awake at 12:13 am)

Now What, My Master? …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 1:16 am.

Tomorrow will mark my 33rd anniversary since You set me strait in the way You meant for me even before I was born. You are in control of every minute detail of my life. What a comfort! So?

Perhaps Begin The Reformat Of Meditating In The Promise Land? …

It’s coming to me to set in a series the latest written books for this stage of my journey in Your Presence. Where would I fit Meditating in the Promise Land in the series. Hum! Should it be titled and subtitled,

Meditating In The Promise Land … An Extended Adventurous Voyage On A Turquoise Rose … ?

It’s a long title but I’ll work on it. You’ll show me how to fit it all. I’m sure. Up at Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 5:49 am. Cold. Put on jacket. Ate. Troubled with all findings right now.

Master? Fears Are Knocking At My Mind’s Door …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 8:30 am.

You have brought me back to the issue of parasites in our bodies. I been aware of this issue, but I have not been able to do anything about it. I feel that now the issue is out of my control. Help! My Master, HELP!

The Truth? Our Life’s Styles On This Earth Are All Out Of Control …?

We know what to do about so many things, but we do not do them, so? our bodies are deteriorating because of our neglect.

What Is The Use Of Knowledge We Cannot Or Would Not Implement? …

I’m corralled in my own carnal self again. I’m so disgusted with my utter inabilities! I can’t take my eyes off of our human’s carnal nature.

  • The bugs biting me inside and outside. All the physical miseries I been going though all my life are actually caused by the parasite infection in my body.
  • Ahmad’s father dying because of the same problem with parasites I am sure, but!
  • We refuse to listen and turn away from our set ways of thinking and doing.

Three Major Fearful Issues Consuming My Mind …

O phooey! to all human’s way to get rid of our fears! I have been a sucker for paying mind to the human wisdom of help from the least to greatest issues in our lives. That’s the past. The present?

I Pay Mind To You And You As My First Priority. The Rest? …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 9:58 am.

It’s all subjected to Your leading and direction. No. I am not an Island. I am to keep to myself. I am to sit still in my great apartment. I am to keep silent for a time, but!

Sitting Still And Yet My Activity In The Realm Of The Creator’s Invisible Kingdom Shall Intensify Tenfold …

Your words to me on that memorable Shabbat in 2009—the day You asked for the key to the deepest part of my being. You keep that key unto eternity.

Unbelievable! Miracle! You Answered Me Verbatim! …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 11:44 am.

I heard of Ahmad’s father at the point of death suffering mini strokes or heart attacks not being able to control his bladder. Ahmad and family expecting his death, but it came to me,

  • You let Lazarus die to serve to demonstrate Your power when You raised him from the tomb. I beseech You my Master, Let Ahmad’s father get up and announce, “I’m well! I’m going to the bathroom!” that’s exactly what happened.

Master? This Miracle Happened Mainly For My Sake …?

I just talked to Ahmad. This amazing happening did not impress Ahmad at all. In fact? It sounds like it angered him. I hope I am wrong. I beseech You my Master, set me free from what it sounds to me.

Up And Down I Go With People. Just When I Think? I Regret My Thinking …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 2:41 pm.

It never fails. I get enthuse about someone who seems to connect only to find out there is no connection at all! But that’s OK. I am no longer looking to connect. You know it my Master.

Your Connection Is What Counts …

In Your time we will all be connected with You. It is then when the bliss won’t be amiss in our midst. Harmony and satisfaction instead of retaliation and competition.

True. I Am Human. I Do Miss Other Humans In My Life, But! …

I am now aware of the meaning of following You, my Master. It means the loss of relationships, dreams, material things, or even my life with no regrets. So?

The Lack Of Human Fellowship No Longer Really Affects Me …

The best part? When I make an attempt to establish a relationship with someone to no avail, I drop the matter immediately. No explaining. No retaliation. No sorrow. No guilt. Instead?

Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! In Whatever State I Am! …

That’s Your Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! That You have invested upon me—something totally out of the reach of the human’s imagination. Going to try to sleep again!

O My Master! My Neck Hurts! Help Me …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 7:02 pm.

I can’t concentrate. Perhaps the position of the monitor is causing me this pain? I don’t know. I am at my wits end. (I slept for a couple hours. Woke at the pounding on my door. Finally, Yazeed came in. he brought me food and fruit.).

Master? The Pain In My Neck It’s No Longer That Important …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 10:20 pm.

But the things You are revealing to me through all the latest happenings in our midst are particularly important. What is it that You are shown, demonstrating to me?

I Can’t Quite Find The Words To Describe What You Are Showing Me Again …

For I have seen this matter before and written about it. But now? It’s different because it’s coming from You not from my own observations of human behavior. What am I talking about?

I Am Talking About The Anger, Resentment, Envy, Jealousy In The Human’s Mind And Heart …

These ugly traits within us come to light whenever we spit out, “I told you so!” or “I knew it!” “I also pray!” And on goes the list where these traits surface, but!.

We Don’t Realize This Matter About Ourselves Until You Deal With Each One Of Us Individually …

O my Master? You are now dealing with me about this matter. I am not just sad because this people do not appreciate my answered prayers.

  • It’s more than just sadness, but! Unless You deal with the matter? I don’t even know exactly what to call what I am feeling.
  • Maybe be a ‘pain in the neck’ for real not just an expression? Hahaha!
  • Will sleep on it. 2:03 am

Wow! Woke At Last Renewed! Free! Hopeful! …

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 5:10 am.

I’m besides myself with joy and hope. My wicked human heart full of Anger, Resentment, Envy, Jealousy shall be no more! The best part?

Not shall be, but! It’s a reality right at this moment. WOW! …

AMAZING! I was so ever dejected when I first went to bed last night; to find out the truth about my wicked heart beyond all my miseries was just too much!

What Happened Next …?

I tried to laugh about it but the humor was not there at all. I crawled in bed practically screaming with the neck pain. On and off I slept. Little improvement each time I woke up, but the last waken up? Much improvement. It was around 4:30 am. I got up. Fixed in a ball the pomegranates and red grapes Yazeed brought me last night. In front of the computer now. Clicked to check the Net. Same old stuff from the human mind and heart in my inbox. Suddenly! I heard, “The wicked heart!” quickly I opened up the Scriptures. Wrote in the search line for the whole Bible: ‘new heart’. WOW! Only two verses in the whole Bible for response—the exact two verses addressed to me personally!

No Kidding! O My Master! You Are For Real In My Life! …

And You are simply AWESOME! I never know how You aim to end each dealing with my human wickedness in relation with the rest of my human fellows. But! You are pointing out even the order of the two verses You gave me. Wow!

About My Fellow Human Beings:

Ezekiel 11:17-21

Therefore say, Thus says the Mighty One of Israel: I will gather you from the peoples and assemble you out of the countries where you have been scattered, and I will give back to you the land of Israel.

And when they return there, they shall take away from it all traces of its detestable things and all its abominations, sex impurities and heathen religious practices.

And I will give them one heart—a new heart; and I will put a new spirit within them; and I will take the stony unnaturally hardened heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh sensitive and responsive to the touch of their Mighty One. [Eze 18:31; Eze 36:26; 2Co 3:3]

That they may walk in My statutes and keep My ordinances, and do them. And they shall be My people, and I will be their Mighty One.

But as for those whose heart yearns for and goes after their detestable things and their loathsome abominations [associated with idolatry], I will repay their deeds upon their own heads, says the Mighty One of Israel.

For My Own Self …

Ezekiel 36:23-29

And I will vindicate the holiness of My great name and separate it for its holy purpose from all that defiles it–My name, which has been profaned among the nations, which you have profaned among them; and the nations will know, understand, and realize that I am the Master—t he Sovereign Ruler, Who calls forth loyalty and obedient service, when I shall be set apart by you and My holiness vindicated in you before their eyes and yours.

For I will take you from among the nations and gather you out of all countries and bring you into your own land.

Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleanness; and from all your idols will I cleanse you.

A new heart will I give you and a new spirit will I put within you, and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

And I will put my Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you shall heed My ordinances and do them.

And you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and you shall be My people, and I will be your Mighty One.

I will also save you from all your uncleanness, and I will call forth the grain and make it abundant and lay no famine on you.

I Bow My Being To Worship You O Mighty One Of Israel …

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 7:29 am.

What is the human’s stumbling block here, my Master? Obviously for anyone to see. The stumbling block in all Scriptures is that we humans are reluctant to accept the fact that we are all the chosen Israelites.

Chosen Israelites? Chosen People? The Jewish! NAY! …?

Practically the whole world is infatuated—possessed by an unreasoning passion or the attraction to the idea of the Jews as Your chosen people, O Mighty One Of Israel, but!

O How Far From The Truth And Fact We Humans Can Be …

For the longest I thought like everybody thinks when we hear talk about the chosen people. Automatically, we think about the Jews in Jerusalem.

Ha! The Block Stumbling All Humans For The Most …

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 8:17 am.

O Mighty One Of Israel, it was not until You brought me to this region of Your world that You began to unravel all my misconceptions about You and Your chosen people. What have You shown to me so far?

  1. You have brought me here to judge me face to face.
  2. You have been dealing with all my misconceptions one by one since I came here.
  3. In short You have tried me in the furnace of affliction set for me on these grounds.
  4. You are wrapping it all to present it to Your people from here on.
  5. You have confirmed what You have revealed to me about the ‘Lost Sheep of Israel’.
  6. Absolutely no one human being can talk about You, Your ways, or Your people unless You choose to grant that privilege to someone indiscriminately.
  7. You have chosen to give me that privilege among several others of Your choice.
  8. You have empowered me to share it all through all posts published since 2006 when You instructed me to create the first website.
  9. Despite all my fears and miseries, You have kept and sustained me all these years since I came to this strange land and culture.
  10. Lastly? You compel me to share the stumbling blocks stumbling Your chosen people so far.

Now, Where Was I? Ah! My Uncleanness To Be The Cause Of My Pain And Misery …?

It’s a far-fetched notion but! O my Master! You are now demonstrating such fact to me. I cannot any longer doubt or deny it.

Thank Goodness! I Cannot Deny Your Mercy As Well …?

No kidding! That’s my daily fact of life in Your Presence my Master. You know it. Daily I go up or down depending on my reactions to whatever You send my way.

But! What Is Your Purpose For All Your Dealings With Me? …

Simple. You are demonstrating Your ways to deal with me as You are fixing to deal with each one of Your children even when Your children have not caught on to that matter.

Well? What Now? Close And Post? What To Headline It?

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 9:48 pm.

My soul is cast down as it was that October 21, 1986. I’m overwhelmed. Psalms 41-42 come to mind. Those words express more or less the way I am feeling and what I aim to do about it. Quote:

Psalms 141:1-10

MASTER, I call upon You; hasten to me. Give ear to my voice when I cry to You. Let my prayer be set forth as incense before You, the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. Set a guard, O Master, before my mouth; keep watch at the door of my lips. Incline my heart not to submit or consent to any evil thing or to be occupied in deeds of wickedness with men who work iniquity; and let me not eat of their dainties.

Let the righteous man smite and correct me–it is a kindness. Oil so choice let not my head refuse or discourage; for even in their evils or calamities shall my prayer continue. When their rulers are overthrown in stony places, their followers shall hear my words, that they are sweet (pleasant, mild, and just). The unburied bones of slaughtered rulers shall lie scattered at the mouth of Sheol, as unregarded as the lumps of soil behind the plowman when he breaks open the ground.

But my eyes are toward You, O Yahuwah/Yahushua—my Master; in You do I trust and take refuge; pour not out my life nor leave it destitute and bare.

Keep me from the trap which they have laid for me, and the snares of evildoers. Let the wicked fall together into their own nets, while I pass over them and escape.

Psalms 42:1-11

AS THE hart pants and longs for the water brooks, so I pant and long for You, O my Master! My inner self thirsts for the Mighty One Of Israel, for the living Mighty One.

When shall I come and behold the face of the Mighty One Of Israel? My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, Where is your Mighty One?

These things I earnestly remember and pour myself out within me: how I went slowly before the throng and led them in procession to the house of the Mighty One Of Israel, like a bandmaster before his band, timing the steps to the sound of music and the chant of song, with the voice of shouting and praise, a throng keeping festival.

Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me? Hope in the Mighty One Of Israel and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, my Help and my Mighty One.

O my Master, my life is cast down upon me and I find the burden more than I can bear; therefore, will I earnestly remember You from the land of the Jordan River and the summits of Mount Hermon, from the little mountain Mizar.

Roaring deep calls to roaring deep at the thunder of Your waterspouts; all Your breakers and Your rolling waves have gone over me.

Yet my Master will command His loving-kindness in the daytime, and in the night His song shall be with me, a prayer to the Mighty One of my life.

I will say to my Master—my Rock, Why have You forgotten me? Why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?

As with a sword crushing in my bones, my enemies taunt and reproach me, while they say continually to me, Where is your Mighty One?

Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me?

Hope in the Mighty One Of Israel and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, Who is the help of my countenance, and my Mighty One. End of quote.

I Hope And Wait Expectantly For You My Master. You Are My Help. You Alone Are My Mighty One …

You know that is the fact in my heart, but in my frail flesh I feel that You have forgotten me despite all the blessings You always bestow upon me.

The Flesh Profits Nothing From Your Spirit, That’s The Fact …

And that’s what You have whispered to me right now. I also hear, “But you are not living the life of the flesh, you are living the life of the Spirit.”

“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart! Wake up from your stupor—your state of reduced sensibility or consciousness!

There is nothing wrong with you despite the misery of the moment. Always remember, My grace is sufficient unto you to suffer all miseries courageously.

But what of such miseries? You must consider that the sufferings of this present time (this present life) are not worth being compared with the bliss that is about to be revealed to you all.

I am aware of the source of your stupor as you read the words of the prophesy about My descending to inhabit among you to be your Mighty One forever.

Once again you are frightened as you observe what goes with your loved ones and their lifestyles. Even so?

Relax. The power of My love and wisdom shall prevail over their lives no matter how it looks to you right now.

Relax! Wake up from your stupor! Go on! I am with you and for you. I never leave nor forsake you. I continue to work it all for your good.

Relax. Remember what I promised you some 33 years ago it’s now your reality:

  • a settled place of quiet and safety, and you to be My minister;
  • and if you separated the precious from the vile cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning My faithfulness, you to be My mouthpiece.

Relax. Go Back To Bed. Rest Under My Everlasting Arms. I Am At Work While You Rest …”

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 11:06 pm.

Thanks for the rest. And thanks for Your words. Hope and courage are back. But what is it that threw me into a stupor? Ha! It’s enough to see the corruption in all areas of this world’s life, but!

The Suggestion That I Should Read Good Love Stories As …?

Tuesday, October 22, 2019 from 3:01 am. to 3:46 am.

They are doing for whatever reason just blew me downwards!

Why not read the greatest love story between the Mighty One Of Israel and ourselves? Beats me!

Regardless! The whole incident is now removed from my vision. It is not forgotten. It’s overcome by the power of Your love and wisdom.

On now to post the matter. Let it all roll on the wheels of Your infinite and passionate love for us all wayward children of Yours that we are.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Do We Hate And Love Each Other At The Same Time? Definitely, So!

Our Relationships Are Lame Ducks. Harmony And Peace Are Elusive …

Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. Negative Issues Keep Popping Up …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 3:48 pm.

Have not heard from anyone except from Ahmad. Things are, for the most, all negative if we really pay mind to what goes on in the world. Anyhow?

You Are Aware And In Control Of It All, My Master …

No matter what it all looks like, I refuse to despair. Sooner than I can imagine You will reveal Yourself to me. You will place me up one more rung in the ladder of steadiness. I wait.

My doings …

I have posted. Ate. Drank. Taken care of all chores. Perhaps You’ll bless me with more sleep now. That happened at 3:48 pm. I couldn’t sleep. Got up to drink turmeric ginger tea. Got busy creating graphics. Also, it took me a long time to find some links to send to Roxana for health reasons. I also talked to Ahmad a couple of times. It’s now Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 9:11 pm. Maybe I can sleep now. Awake at 12:13 am)

Now What, My Master? …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 1:16 am.

Tomorrow will mark my 33rd anniversary since You set me strait in the way You meant for me even before I was born. You are in control of every minute detail of my life. What a comfort! So?

Perhaps Begin The Reformat Of Meditating In The Promise Land? …

It’s coming to me to set in a series the latest written books for this stage of my journey in Your Presence. Where would I fit Meditating in the Promise Land in the series. Hum! Should it be titled and subtitled,

Meditating In The Promise Land … An Extended Adventurous Voyage On A Turquoise Rose … ?

It’s a long title but I’ll work on it. You’ll show me how to fit it all. I’m sure. Up at Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 5:49 am. Cold. Put on jacket. Ate. Troubled with all findings right now.

Master? Fears Are Knocking At My Mind’s Door …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 8:30 am.

You have brought me back to the issue of parasites in our bodies. I been aware of this issue, but I have not been able to do anything about it. I feel that now the issue is out of my control. Help! My Master, HELP!

The Truth? Our Life’s Styles On This Earth Are All Out Of Control …?

We know what to do about so many things, but we do not do them, so? our bodies are deteriorating because of our neglect.

What Is The Use Of Knowledge We Cannot Or Would Not Implement? …

I’m corralled in my own carnal self again. I’m so disgusted with my utter inabilities! I can’t take my eyes off of our human’s carnal nature.

  • The bugs biting me inside and outside. All the physical miseries I been going though all my life are actually caused by the parasite infection in my body.
  • Ahmad’s father dying because of the same problem with parasites I am sure, but!
  • We refuse to listen and turn away from our set ways of thinking and doing.

Three Major Fearful Issues Consuming My Mind …

O phooey! to all human’s way to get rid of our fears! I have been a sucker for paying mind to the human wisdom of help from the least to greatest issues in our lives. That’s the past. The present?

I Pay Mind To You And You As My First Priority. The Rest? …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 9:58 am.

It’s all subjected to Your leading and direction. No. I am not an Island. I am to keep to myself. I am to sit still in my great apartment. I am to keep silent for a time, but!

Sitting Still And Yet My Activity In The Realm Of The Creator’s Invisible Kingdom Shall Intensify Tenfold …

Your words to me on that memorable Shabbat in 2009—the day You asked for the key to the deepest part of my being. You keep that key unto eternity.

Unbelievable! Miracle! You Answered Me Verbatim! …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 11:44 am.

I heard of Ahmad’s father at the point of death suffering mini strokes or heart attacks not being able to control his bladder. Ahmad and family expecting his death, but it came to me,

  • You let Lazarus die to serve to demonstrate Your power when You raised him from the tomb. I beseech You my Master, Let Ahmad’s father get up and announce, “I’m well! I’m going to the bathroom!” that’s exactly what happened.

Master? This Miracle Happened Mainly For My Sake …?

I just talked to Ahmad. This amazing happening did not impress Ahmad at all. In fact? It sounds like it angered him. I hope I am wrong. I beseech You my Master, set me free from what it sounds to me.

Up And Down I Go With People. Just When I Think? I Regret My Thinking …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 2:41 pm.

It never fails. I get enthuse about someone who seems to connect only to find out there is no connection at all! But that’s OK. I am no longer looking to connect. You know it my Master.

Your Connection Is What Counts …

In Your time we will all be connected with You. It is then when the bliss won’t be amiss in our midst. Harmony and satisfaction instead of retaliation and competition.

True. I Am Human. I Do Miss Other Humans In My Life, But! …

I am now aware of the meaning of following You, my Master. It means the loss of relationships, dreams, material things, or even my life with no regrets. So?

The Lack Of Human Fellowship No Longer Really Affects Me …

The best part? When I make an attempt to establish a relationship with someone to no avail, I drop the matter immediately. No explaining. No retaliation. No sorrow. No guilt. Instead?

Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! In Whatever State I Am! …

That’s Your Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! That You have invested upon me—something totally out of the reach of the human’s imagination. Going to try to sleep again!

O My Master! My Neck Hurts! Help Me …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 7:02 pm.

I can’t concentrate. Perhaps the position of the monitor is causing me this pain? I don’t know. I am at my wits end. (I slept for a couple hours. Woke at the pounding on my door. Finally, Yazeed came in. he brought me food and fruit.).

Master? The Pain In My Neck It’s No Longer That Important …

Sunday, October 20, 2019 at 10:20 pm.

But the things You are revealing to me through all the latest happenings in our midst are particularly important. What is it that You are shown, demonstrating to me?

I Can’t Quite Find The Words To Describe What You Are Showing Me Again …

For I have seen this matter before and written about it. But now? It’s different because it’s coming from You not from my own observations of human behavior. What am I talking about?

I Am Talking About The Anger, Resentment, Envy, Jealousy In The Human’s Mind And Heart …

These ugly traits within us come to light whenever we spit out, “I told you so!” or “I knew it!” “I also pray!” And on goes the list where these traits surface, but!.

We Don’t Realize This Matter About Ourselves Until You Deal With Each One Of Us Individually …

O my Master? You are now dealing with me about this matter. I am not just sad because this people do not appreciate my answered prayers.

  • It’s more than just sadness, but! Unless You deal with the matter? I don’t even know exactly what to call what I am feeling.
  • Maybe be a ‘pain in the neck’ for real not just an expression? Hahaha!
  • Will sleep on it. 2:03 am

Wow! Woke At Last Renewed! Free! Hopeful! …

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 5:10 am.

I’m besides myself with joy and hope. My wicked human heart full of Anger, Resentment, Envy, Jealousy shall be no more! The best part?

Not shall be, but! It’s a reality right at this moment. WOW! …

AMAZING! I was so ever dejected when I first went to bed last night; to find out the truth about my wicked heart beyond all my miseries was just too much!

What Happened Next …?

I tried to laugh about it but the humor was not there at all. I crawled in bed practically screaming with the neck pain. On and off I slept. Little improvement each time I woke up, but the last waken up? Much improvement. It was around 4:30 am. I got up. Fixed in a ball the pomegranates and red grapes Yazeed brought me last night. In front of the computer now. Clicked to check the Net. Same old stuff from the human mind and heart in my inbox. Suddenly! I heard, “The wicked heart!” quickly I opened up the Scriptures. Wrote in the search line for the whole Bible: ‘new heart’. WOW! Only two verses in the whole Bible for response—the exact two verses addressed to me personally!

No Kidding! O My Master! You Are For Real In My Life! …

And You are simply AWESOME! I never know how You aim to end each dealing with my human wickedness in relation with the rest of my human fellows. But! You are pointing out even the order of the two verses You gave me. Wow!

About My Fellow Human Beings:

Ezekiel 11:17-21

Therefore say, Thus says the Mighty One of Israel: I will gather you from the peoples and assemble you out of the countries where you have been scattered, and I will give back to you the land of Israel.

And when they return there, they shall take away from it all traces of its detestable things and all its abominations, sex impurities and heathen religious practices.

And I will give them one heart—a new heart; and I will put a new spirit within them; and I will take the stony unnaturally hardened heart out of their flesh, and will give them a heart of flesh sensitive and responsive to the touch of their Mighty One. [Eze 18:31; Eze 36:26; 2Co 3:3]

That they may walk in My statutes and keep My ordinances, and do them. And they shall be My people, and I will be their Mighty One.

But as for those whose heart yearns for and goes after their detestable things and their loathsome abominations [associated with idolatry], I will repay their deeds upon their own heads, says the Mighty One of Israel.

For My Own Self …

Ezekiel 36:23-29

And I will vindicate the holiness of My great name and separate it for its holy purpose from all that defiles it–My name, which has been profaned among the nations, which you have profaned among them; and the nations will know, understand, and realize that I am the Master—t he Sovereign Ruler, Who calls forth loyalty and obedient service, when I shall be set apart by you and My holiness vindicated in you before their eyes and yours.

For I will take you from among the nations and gather you out of all countries and bring you into your own land.

Then will I sprinkle clean water upon you, and you shall be clean from all your uncleanness; and from all your idols will I cleanse you.

A new heart will I give you and a new spirit will I put within you, and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

And I will put my Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you shall heed My ordinances and do them.

And you shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and you shall be My people, and I will be your Mighty One.

I will also save you from all your uncleanness, and I will call forth the grain and make it abundant and lay no famine on you.

I Bow My Being To Worship You O Mighty One Of Israel …

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 7:29 am.

What is the human’s stumbling block here, my Master? Obviously for anyone to see. The stumbling block in all Scriptures is that we humans are reluctant to accept the fact that we are all the chosen Israelites.

Chosen Israelites? Chosen People? The Jewish! NAY! …?

Practically the whole world is infatuated—possessed by an unreasoning passion or the attraction to the idea of the Jews as Your chosen people, O Mighty One Of Israel, but!

O How Far From The Truth And Fact We Humans Can Be …

For the longest I thought like everybody thinks when we hear talk about the chosen people. Automatically, we think about the Jews in Jerusalem.

Ha! The Block Stumbling All Humans For The Most …

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 8:17 am.

O Mighty One Of Israel, it was not until You brought me to this region of Your world that You began to unravel all my misconceptions about You and Your chosen people. What have You shown to me so far?

  1. You have brought me here to judge me face to face.
  2. You have been dealing with all my misconceptions one by one since I came here.
  3. In short You have tried me in the furnace of affliction set for me on these grounds.
  4. You are wrapping it all to present it to Your people from here on.
  5. You have confirmed what You have revealed to me about the ‘Lost Sheep of Israel’.
  6. Absolutely no one human being can talk about You, Your ways, or Your people unless You choose to grant that privilege to someone indiscriminately.
  7. You have chosen to give me that privilege among several others of Your choice.
  8. You have empowered me to share it all through all posts published since 2006 when You instructed me to create the first website.
  9. Despite all my fears and miseries, You have kept and sustained me all these years since I came to this strange land and culture.
  10. Lastly? You compel me to share the stumbling blocks stumbling Your chosen people so far.

Now, Where Was I? Ah! My Uncleanness To Be The Cause Of My Pain And Misery …?

It’s a far-fetched notion but! O my Master! You are now demonstrating such fact to me. I cannot any longer doubt or deny it.

Thank Goodness! I Cannot Deny Your Mercy As Well …?

No kidding! That’s my daily fact of life in Your Presence my Master. You know it. Daily I go up or down depending on my reactions to whatever You send my way.

But! What Is Your Purpose For All Your Dealings With Me? …

Simple. You are demonstrating Your ways to deal with me as You are fixing to deal with each one of Your children even when Your children have not caught on to that matter.

Well? What Now? Close And Post? What To Headline It?

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 9:48 pm.

My soul is cast down as it was that October 21, 1986. I’m overwhelmed. Psalms 41-42 come to mind. Those words express more or less the way I am feeling and what I aim to do about it. Quote:

Psalms 141:1-10

MASTER, I call upon You; hasten to me. Give ear to my voice when I cry to You. Let my prayer be set forth as incense before You, the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. Set a guard, O Master, before my mouth; keep watch at the door of my lips. Incline my heart not to submit or consent to any evil thing or to be occupied in deeds of wickedness with men who work iniquity; and let me not eat of their dainties.

Let the righteous man smite and correct me–it is a kindness. Oil so choice let not my head refuse or discourage; for even in their evils or calamities shall my prayer continue. When their rulers are overthrown in stony places, their followers shall hear my words, that they are sweet (pleasant, mild, and just). The unburied bones of slaughtered rulers shall lie scattered at the mouth of Sheol, as unregarded as the lumps of soil behind the plowman when he breaks open the ground.

But my eyes are toward You, O Yahuwah/Yahushua—my Master; in You do I trust and take refuge; pour not out my life nor leave it destitute and bare.

Keep me from the trap which they have laid for me, and the snares of evildoers. Let the wicked fall together into their own nets, while I pass over them and escape.

Psalms 42:1-11

AS THE hart pants and longs for the water brooks, so I pant and long for You, O my Master! My inner self thirsts for the Mighty One Of Israel, for the living Mighty One.

When shall I come and behold the face of the Mighty One Of Israel? My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, Where is your Mighty One?

These things I earnestly remember and pour myself out within me: how I went slowly before the throng and led them in procession to the house of the Mighty One Of Israel, like a bandmaster before his band, timing the steps to the sound of music and the chant of song, with the voice of shouting and praise, a throng keeping festival.

Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me? Hope in the Mighty One Of Israel and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, my Help and my Mighty One.

O my Master, my life is cast down upon me and I find the burden more than I can bear; therefore, will I earnestly remember You from the land of the Jordan River and the summits of Mount Hermon, from the little mountain Mizar.

Roaring deep calls to roaring deep at the thunder of Your waterspouts; all Your breakers and Your rolling waves have gone over me.

Yet my Master will command His loving-kindness in the daytime, and in the night His song shall be with me, a prayer to the Mighty One of my life.

I will say to my Master—my Rock, Why have You forgotten me? Why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?

As with a sword crushing in my bones, my enemies taunt and reproach me, while they say continually to me, Where is your Mighty One?

Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me?

Hope in the Mighty One Of Israel and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, Who is the help of my countenance, and my Mighty One. End of quote.

I Hope And Wait Expectantly For You My Master. You Are My Help. You Alone Are My Mighty One …

You know that is the fact in my heart, but in my frail flesh I feel that You have forgotten me despite all the blessings You always bestow upon me.

The Flesh Profits Nothing From Your Spirit, That’s The Fact …

And that’s what You have whispered to me right now. I also hear, “But you are not living the life of the flesh, you are living the life of the Spirit.”

“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart! Wake up from your stupor—your state of reduced sensibility or consciousness!

There is nothing wrong with you despite the misery of the moment. Always remember, My grace is sufficient unto you to suffer all miseries courageously.

But what of such miseries? You must consider that the sufferings of this present time (this present life) are not worth being compared with the bliss that is about to be revealed to you all.

I am aware of the source of your stupor as you read the words of the prophesy about My descending to inhabit among you to be your Mighty One forever.

Once again you are frightened as you observe what goes with your loved ones and their lifestyles. Even so?

Relax. The power of My love and wisdom shall prevail over their lives no matter how it looks to you right now.

Relax! Wake up from your stupor! Go on! I am with you and for you. I never leave nor forsake you. I continue to work it all for your good.

Relax. Remember what I promised you some 33 years ago it’s now your reality:

  • a settled place of quiet and safety, and you to be My minister;
  • and if you separated the precious from the vile cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning My faithfulness, you to be My mouthpiece.

Relax. Go Back To Bed. Rest Under My Everlasting Arms. I Am At Work While You Rest …”

Monday, October 21, 2019 at 11:06 pm.

Thanks for the rest. And thanks for Your words. Hope and courage are back. But what is it that threw me into a stupor? Ha! It’s enough to see the corruption in all areas of this world’s life, but!

The Suggestion That I Should Read Good Love Stories As …?

Tuesday, October 22, 2019 from 3:01 am. to 3:46 am.

They are doing for whatever reason just blew me downwards!

Why not read the greatest love story between the Mighty One Of Israel and ourselves? Beats me!

Regardless! The whole incident is now removed from my vision. It is not forgotten. It’s overcome by the power of Your love and wisdom.

On now to post the matter. Let it all roll on the wheels of Your infinite and passionate love for us all wayward children of Yours that we are.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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I Feel Strange Myself. Unusual, Peculiar Is The Way I Am Feeling More So Every Single Day …

 

Who Cares How I Feel? You Do My Master, And? …

  • Your Concern With Me Is All That Counts, But!

You Compel Me To Share Such Concern …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

Your concern with me is all that counts, but! You compel me to share such concern. Should I brag or feel smug because You care for me? Nay! Your care for me is not private or exclusive.

It Was Past Midnight. Silence All Around …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 12:43 am.

Master? What to do? Strange followers of the sites. Are they following You? I sure hope so. Perhaps I’ll try to sleep even that I do not feel sleepy. I feel strange myself.

O My Master, You Know How Strange I Feel …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 4:00 am.

Out of the ordinary, difficult to account for; unusual or peculiar is the way I am feeling more so every single day. I simply no longer fit in the society of mankind.

A Reminder Of What You Inspired Me To Write Before …

You have a reason for bringing this matter to light again. It’s quite fitting to the reason for the way I am feeling. Here it is:

  • Believe me! Mathew 10 is the reality of my life: “Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved from spiritual disease and death in the world to come.”
  • Of course, in the natural my children & brothers & sisters all would tell me, “Who is trying to kill you? We love you but you have chosen a different life than ours!” And on they go to live their lives with as much gusto as ever before defying the Creator Himself!
  • For the fact is that they love old thiaBasilia but do not respect or recognize at all what I stand for and I am hated by all for the sake of standing in Yahushua’s name just like it’s written!
  • As the flash of the happy life of my children and most inhabitants of this earth—the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices in the society of mankind, all I can do is to bow my head and plead for mercy! Why?
  • Because all the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices of this world have no eternal value.
  • On the contrary, those who laugh now shall cry later as it is written. But mainly the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices in the society of mankind are mostly to please the flesh.
  • The joy and peace and well-being of the soul flourish in the waters of affliction. But that is not talking about self-pity or self-abasement in a false state of humility.
  • On the contrary the waters of affliction tempers & strengthens the character to overcome and gain the victory over all the miseries as well as all the seemingly good & beautiful conditions that this world can deal to us to destroy our witness for Yahushua.
  • The famous Sermon of the Mountains in Matthew 5-7 is a confirmation for my statement.

Reminders Of Your Written Words? The How You Sustain And Keep Me Going Upwards To Rest In You. Quote …

Matthew 10:21, 22.

Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death.

And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved from spiritual disease and death in the world to come.

2 Thessalonians 2:3

Let no one deceive or beguile you in any way, for that day will not come except the apostasy comes first, unless the predicted great falling away of those who have professed to be Christians has come, and the man of lawlessness (sin) is revealed, who is the son of doom (of perdition), [Dan 7:25; Dan 8:25; 1Ti 4:1]

Matthew 7:21-23.

Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father Who is in heaven.

Many will say to Me on that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name and driven out demons in Your name and done many mighty works in Your name?

And then I will say to them openly (publicly), I never knew you; depart from Me, you who act wickedly [disregarding My commands]. [Psa 6:8]

(4:46 am. Thundering again at 7:19 am. Will turn off. On again at 9:09 am. It’s supposed to be a sunny day. Thanks, my Master for good weather or even what I would call bad weather.)

Following Him May Mean We Lose Relationships, Dreams, Material Things, Or Even Our Lives With No Regrets …

Master? I continue to be amazed at Your REALITY in my life. The good part? This issue is not private or exclusive for me. I hear, “I could never endure what you are going through!” Yippee! Light!

Your Light Shone. I Said, “But You Are Enduring What You Are Supposed To Endure.” …

Wow! How long I felt sort of hopeless when I would read the horrors Your ancient workers endured? What a revelation! How encouraging! We are all enduring! You never give us any more than what we can take!

A Post From The Past. It Covers More Than One Issue, But!

It all connects with the present. It’s a crucial but lengthy essay, so? The format in PDF for your convenience. Read On:  Strange Followers Of The Sites

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do Again …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 1:58 am.

Whether to go to bed and try to sleep or continue working on the site’s cleanup or end the post You are leading me to publish, what? Guess I’ll go to bed. I’ll wait to hear from You.

Thanks, My Master! Sleep Can Do Wonders Sometimes …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 6:13 am.

I’m ready now to start this 7th Day of Rest in Your Presence. You are leading me to close the post with the formatted PDF version. I will work now on the cover and format.

And So? That’s My Life Nowadays. Glamour? NAY! But!

O my Master! What is glamour compared to the reality of Your matchless, unbroken companionship? No comparison. Not a smidgen of regret for the lack human’s ways in my life.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Strange Followers Of The Sites. Are They Following You? I Sure Hope So …

Strange Followers Of The Sites. Are They Following You? I Sure Hope So …

I Feel Strange Myself. Unusual, Peculiar Is The Way I Am Feeling More So Every Single Day …

 

Who Cares How I Feel? You Do My Master, And? …

  • Your Concern With Me Is All That Counts, But!

You Compel Me To Share Such Concern …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

Your concern with me is all that counts, but! You compel me to share such concern. Should I brag or feel smug because You care for me? Nay! Your care for me is not private or exclusive.

It Was Past Midnight. Silence All Around …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 12:43 am.

Master? What to do? Strange followers of the sites. Are they following You? I sure hope so. Perhaps I’ll try to sleep even that I do not feel sleepy. I feel strange myself.

O My Master, You Know How Strange I Feel …

Friday, October 18, 2019 at 4:00 am.

Out of the ordinary, difficult to account for; unusual or peculiar is the way I am feeling more so every single day. I simply no longer fit in the society of mankind.

A Reminder Of What You Inspired Me To Write Before …

You have a reason for bringing this matter to light again. It’s quite fitting to the reason for the way I am feeling. Here it is:

  • Believe me! Mathew 10 is the reality of my life: “Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death. And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved from spiritual disease and death in the world to come.”
  • Of course, in the natural my children & brothers & sisters all would tell me, “Who is trying to kill you? We love you but you have chosen a different life than ours!” And on they go to live their lives with as much gusto as ever before defying the Creator Himself!
  • For the fact is that they love old thiaBasilia but do not respect or recognize at all what I stand for and I am hated by all for the sake of standing in Yahushua’s name just like it’s written!
  • As the flash of the happy life of my children and most inhabitants of this earth—the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices in the society of mankind, all I can do is to bow my head and plead for mercy! Why?
  • Because all the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices of this world have no eternal value.
  • On the contrary, those who laugh now shall cry later as it is written. But mainly the laughter, the beauty, the good & loving hearts full to the brim with what is seemingly wholesome & good customs & practices in the society of mankind are mostly to please the flesh.
  • The joy and peace and well-being of the soul flourish in the waters of affliction. But that is not talking about self-pity or self-abasement in a false state of humility.
  • On the contrary the waters of affliction tempers & strengthens the character to overcome and gain the victory over all the miseries as well as all the seemingly good & beautiful conditions that this world can deal to us to destroy our witness for Yahushua.
  • The famous Sermon of the Mountains in Matthew 5-7 is a confirmation for my statement.

Reminders Of Your Written Words? The How You Sustain And Keep Me Going Upwards To Rest In You. Quote …

Matthew 10:21, 22.

Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death.

And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved from spiritual disease and death in the world to come.

2 Thessalonians 2:3

Let no one deceive or beguile you in any way, for that day will not come except the apostasy comes first, unless the predicted great falling away of those who have professed to be Christians has come, and the man of lawlessness (sin) is revealed, who is the son of doom (of perdition), [Dan 7:25; Dan 8:25; 1Ti 4:1]

Matthew 7:21-23.

Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father Who is in heaven.

Many will say to Me on that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name and driven out demons in Your name and done many mighty works in Your name?

And then I will say to them openly (publicly), I never knew you; depart from Me, you who act wickedly [disregarding My commands]. [Psa 6:8]

(4:46 am. Thundering again at 7:19 am. Will turn off. On again at 9:09 am. It’s supposed to be a sunny day. Thanks, my Master for good weather or even what I would call bad weather.)

Following Him May Mean We Lose Relationships, Dreams, Material Things, Or Even Our Lives With No Regrets …

Master? I continue to be amazed at Your REALITY in my life. The good part? This issue is not private or exclusive for me. I hear, “I could never endure what you are going through!” Yippee! Light!

Your Light Shone. I Said, “But You Are Enduring What You Are Supposed To Endure.” …

Wow! How long I felt sort of hopeless when I would read the horrors Your ancient workers endured? What a revelation! How encouraging! We are all enduring! You never give us any more than what we can take!

A Post From The Past. It Covers More Than One Issue, But!

It all connects with the present. It’s a crucial but lengthy essay, so? The format in PDF for your convenience. Read On:  Strange Followers Of The Sites

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do Again …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 1:58 am.

Whether to go to bed and try to sleep or continue working on the site’s cleanup or end the post You are leading me to publish, what? Guess I’ll go to bed. I’ll wait to hear from You.

Thanks, My Master! Sleep Can Do Wonders Sometimes …

Saturday, October 19, 2019 at 6:13 am.

I’m ready now to start this 7th Day of Rest in Your Presence. You are leading me to close the post with the formatted PDF version. I will work now on the cover and format.

And So? That’s My Life Nowadays. Glamour? NAY! But!

O my Master! What is glamour compared to the reality of Your matchless, unbroken companionship? No comparison. Not a smidgen of regret for the lack human’s ways in my life.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Well? I Had A Full Day Gone By. Another Day Now …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 12:44 am.

And a Monday at that. Ahmad’s visit? Meaningful at best. Things are in the looking up between us again. He left. I finished with the posting.

Meanwhile? Midnight Came And Went Along With All My Fears …

Ready now to hit the bed again. Thanks, my Master for the few more hours of sleep. This is another day in the up and up despite of whatever comes my way.

Fearless? A Supernatural State Meant To Be, But! …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 3:40 am.

Indeed! Supernatural fear is the beginning of all wisdom. Natural fear? The hindrance to such wisdom. Ha! I never thought about that! Didn’t quite understood all those ‘fear’ and ‘fear not’ until this moment.

Naturally Fearless I Tried Every And All Things …?

I simply did not know what fear was. Perhaps impulsive nature is the fitting word. No idea of what it was to pause or think before I acted.

My Medical Label? Bipolar. Manic Depressive. Schizophrenia …

Man O man! And all the time? O my Master! I was supernaturally gifted big time; it was Your secret to me. Why? Obviously, should You not kept Your secret? No telling the heights I would have ascended to dethrone You.

Wow! You Cut The Wings Of This Eagle! You Kept Me In The Chicken Pen …

Hahaha! I was born an eagle, but! You cut my wings to keep me in the chicken pen to teach me the life of the chickens was not to be my life.

Amazing moment …?

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 5:19 am.

Master? You are simply AWESOME! The way You are unraveling my life? It’s just a wonder to me. I woke up in pain almost two hours ago this morning. Had no clue on what to do. Suddenly!

My Truncated Attempts To Ascend The Ladder Of Success Pops Into My Mind, And?

You opened my eyes to see clearly Your loving hand underlying all those truncated attempts of mine with the story of the eagle in the chicken pen.

Wow! I Been Quoting From This Story For The Longest But! …

This day? The story popped up with the spiritual connection to it. I don’t remember reading the version that popped as I searched for it in my files. Even so?

I’m Beginning To Think You Inserted That Version Supernaturally In My Files …

Honestly. I been knowing the story to the point of the eagle flying up to meet its kind. The added amazing spiritual significance of the story? First time You set my eyes on it.

Wow! Talking About Another Day In The Up And Up Despite Of Whatever Comes My Way …?

This is that day! This is that moment of eternal time in my life. This is Yourself revealing, showing, making Yourself real to me. Quote:

John 14:20-21

At that time when that day comes you will know for yourselves that I am in My Father, and you are in Me, and I am in you.

The person who has My commands and keeps them is the one who really loves Me; and whoever really loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I too, will love him and will show, reveal, manifest Myself to him. I will let Myself be clearly seen by him and make Myself real to him.

O My Master! The Effect Of Your Power Of Love And Wisdom Is A Sheer Bliss! No Kidding …

Beauty, delight, hope joy happiness and renewal in the present earth as it is as well as in the future restored one. Nothing like I ever imagined to be. Unimaginable but real!

  • Quote of this supernatural version in my files. Don’t know who wrote it or how it is in my files. Wow! That’s Your supernatural ways if I ever thought about it before. Quote:

The story was about a farmer who stumbled upon an eagle’s nest with an egg in it. Not wanting the little eagle to die he took it home with him and places it under one of his chickens that was setting eggs.

But right from day one the little eagle didn’t fit into the barnyard scene even though that was all he had ever known.

All he was sure of was somewhere deep inside something was telling him, “This isn’t home”. The farmer kept his wings clipped in hopes he would become a pet so unable to fly he set it on a post in the barnyard looking up into the sky.

His body confined to the earth his heart in the heavens. He didn’t know why nor he could understand his feelings, but he knew there that something deep within him that wanted to be free.

As time went by the farmer forgot to clip the eagle’s wings and one-day as the eagle set on his post looking upward a great gust of wind caught him under his wings and he was lifted from his perch.

With a scream of victory and freedom he left the barnyard seen forever and soared into the heavens to meet his own kind.

Isa.40: 31, I loved this story and saw how it related to all we have experienced and are experiencing in our walk with the Lord. Eagles here are symbolic of certain Christians. The “mount up” process is important and necessary for those who are called to go higher, Philp.3:14. To those who are willing to wait in His presence, Ps.27:14; Ps.37:34; Ps.62:5; Rom.8:25.

Not everyone who enjoys God’s blessings, grace will want to destroy the idols of this world that have been set in the temple of their hearts. Nor will they want to pay the price to soar with the Father. Only those who know they have been called to a higher calling will want to consider this.

Chickens are earthbound, they keep their eyes on the things of this world, Jam.4:4; 1Jh.2:15-16. They scratch out an existence and never lift their heads to look any higher then where they are.

They scratch in the dirt, eat whatever is thrown to them and search greedily in their crowed barnyards for more to fill their bellies, much of it unclean. By nature chickens are an unclean bird, they are bound to their existence and are satisfied with it.

But not the eagle, he has an inherited nature that will not survive confinement. To fulfill his purpose in life he must be free to soar the heavens. It may look lonely up there because not many will dare to rise to such heights. But the eagle doesn’t care; it’s not in his nature to need the approval of the majority. Deut.32:11;

Its time for these “willing eagles” to soar and our “Mother”, the Holy Spirit, is the one who will make our nest very uncomfortable. Just like the mother eagle that tears up the soft bed of her little one and breaks the twigs so that the jagged ends stick him. In short his life becomes miserable in the place he was once comfortable and safe.

Are “Heavenly Parents”, do much the same things in our lives in order to get us to do what is best for us, thus fulfilling our purpose for being here or should I say, fulfilling the will and purpose of our Father. 1Cor.13:11; Gal.4:1-2; Heb.5:12-6:2;

Has your place in the Father, the place that once met the needs in your life now seem rough, tight or uncomfortable?

Don’t worry; your Father is just getting you ready to be pushed off a cliff and into new heights.

Are the jagged edges of that which was once such a comfort to you now starting to prick you?

Maybe you have even asked if you were in the Fathers will. Well, wonder no more, accept it in faith, because a great work is about to come forth in your life and it’s not the Father’s wrath it’s His love and wisdom, making you willing to take the next big step, off that cliff.

By nature we love security so God has to make us sick of our “nest”, so that we will willingly let Him take us on our spiritual journey.

Unfortunately some do not want to leave the nest. When the little eagle rebels the mother eagle starts to beat her wings and the wings that once protected him from danger have now become his enemy.

To escape this danger the little eagle climbs onto her back and now wherever she goes, he will go. He holds on for dear life as his mother soars higher and higher when suddenly without warning she dives out from under him.

He screams and falls; instinctively his wings stretch out to try to catch the air but try as he must he feels like all hope is gone, then out of no where mother eagle swoops under him and carries him up on her wings. Ps.139:10; Josh1:5.;

But just as the little eagle feels safe once more the bottom falls out from under him and the process starts all over again, until he finely learns to soar.

Sometimes the flutter of our Fathers wings makes us think He is going to beat us to death but the bible says if we do not receive correction we are not His sons, Heb.12:5-8.

When we are willing He takes us to great heights. Then sometimes when everything seems wonderful the bottom suddenly drops out from under us again and we wonder Father where are you? But just who do you think that is holding you up and restoring your strength?

Only to find out this process may start all over again as we grow, until we come into that fullness He has prepared for us, the place where we learn to soar in the Father. Eph.4:13-16

When a baby eagle flat refuses to learn after all of his mother’s attempts to teach him she takes him high into the heavens and lets him fall to his death as she screeches in pain, knowing he must either fly or die on the rocks below.

In the kingdom there are those who flat refuse to grow, Jer.10:2; Matt.11:29-30. They resent the furnace of affliction and its purifying fire, Isa.48:10; Pro.17:3; Heb.12:29, they love the safety of the nest but hate the discipline.

But God is always patient, 1Cor.13:4-8; Jam.5:7; 2Thes.3:5, and long-suffering. He works with them, giving them chance after chance. Until He finely let’s them fall to the rocks of religion, worldly desires, or home to save their souls, Isa.57:1-2.

If Jesus had to learn through what He suffered then so will all of us, Heb.5:8. We have seen some of these great ministries come in, soar and then crash.

This does not lessen the true revelations they received or the gifts they walked in. But the word says Lk.9:62, it would have been better for them if they had stayed with the chickens in the safety of the barnyard.

God’s tests are carefully designed to show us what is in our hearts and to bring our rebellion to the surface to be dealt with. Heb.4:12; Jer.17:9-10;.

God’s chosen are coming through these fires. I loved what Isaiah said when he saw his heart, Isa.6:5. End of quote.

Wow! Now Is The Time For The Material To Decrease. For The Spiritual To Increase …?

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 8:43 am.

Master? My heart is heavy. Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance? It’s a heavy subject. Even so? You are carrying the weight for me. Don’t let me ever forget it. Don’t let me ever  think that I am anything on my own.

I Am Going On Propelled By Your Power Of Love And Wisdom …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 3:15 pm.

Master? I can’t overcome this heaviness in my soul because the statement I read, something like, “I am love. When I enter a room? Love covers that room.”

I Fear The Repercussions From Such Statement …

I am?  Mercy my Father. Only You are. In essence to state “I am love” we are setting ourselves in Your Place. We are usurping Your Authority.

Have Mercy. O My Master! I Refuse To Doubt You …

The fear of rejection is driving Your children to this insane attempt to take Your place, and? You knew it all along. Yet You promised to bring us back. I wait on Your mercy.

New Life Really Began On 2017, But!

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 11:28 pm.

Three years later I find myself heavy with the realization that things at large are quite frightening. This 2019? The year of my Jubilee! My 80th birthday marks that beginning as my eternal reality. Even so?

O My Master? You Know Exactly The Solution To My Heaviness …

Every inch of my body hurts, but? I am not disturbed about it because I know You are in control of it all. Been sleeping hoping for relief to no avail. I hear thunder. Computer off. 11:53 pm.

Where Was I, My Father? I’m Feeling Better …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 2:09 am.

What’s the meaning of this fly literally attacking me? How can a fly be so distracting? Thankfully You gave it to me. It’s dead. Anyhow?

You Have A Reason For Bringing Up This File From 2017 …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 3:25 am.

It was written in January of 2017. Your reason? A reminder of how my new life is developing under Your careful plan. Amazing work within me in less than two years.

Comes January 2020? Will Begin My 3rd Year Living A New Life …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 4:39 am

  • Thunder! Computer off!

Back! The Storm Subsided Around 6 Am. But! …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 10:23 am.

I been updating the header for the main site. I don’t know exactly what to do? Reformat the newfound file or work in the Promised Land book. I am now sleepy. I wait of Your lead.

Master? My Arm Is Getting Worse Instead Of Better …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 3:21 pm.

You are the only One I wish to help me. Unless You heal me, I refuse to seek for help from the human element. Why? Because the human element does not know my body. Maybe sleep could help.

Yes! Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! The End? Saved! Restored! But!

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 7:00 pm. – 9:34 pm.

I Must Count The Cost. The Cost Is High. Nothing Is Free …?

Everywhere one turns around nowadays one gets the big sign pushed, FREE! Me? I been a sucker for free stuff ever since I got wind of the Internet.

Well? All That Is In A Past I Now See Objectively …

Yeah, my books are free for lack of a better word: Valuable. The thing is that nowadays the name of the game is ‘Marketing!’ everything is about buy and sell.

  • My eyes are closing. Sleep 10:07 pm. Woke up around midnight. Couldn’t stay up. Back to bed slept until around 1:30 am. My life’s pattern of sleep anyhow.

Thinking On The Counting The Cost Issue …

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 2:24 am.

What is the connection between free and counting the cost? What does it mean to count the cost? To count the cost means to count what is the cost of whatever given for free or without money payment, but!

O My Master! You Are Opening My Eyes To See That Nothing Is Really Free …?

Even our salvation is by no means a freebie. In fact? Our salvation has the highest price tag in this world despite all the fanfare about grace and unconditional love.

The Unbiased Truth: What Is Our Salvation Cost? Our Present Worldly Lifestyle …?

Honestly? I never realized this matter before. Even so? This matter is not news. I have heard it before. The only confusing matter to me is that many of the ones preaching the matter to me in the past do not live it themselves now.

Even So? Despite What I See You Have The Perfect Number Who Are Living It And?…

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 9:49 am.

You have blessed me with their testimony. Those are the instruments You have used to bring me to where I am now. Like them? I have not bowed my knees to kiss the glory of a worldly life.

A Worldly Life? Not Necessarily A Sinful Life …?

That’s what has made it so confusing until now that You are revealing these matters to me. It’s been devastating for me to see the ones that once quietly and humbly helped me are now in the lime-light and no longer have any time for me.

Ha! The Matter Is Clear Now. It’s No Longer Confusing To Me, Why? …

O my Master! Because You are now unraveling these matters to me. Every single incident in the human’s life happens to fulfill the Scriptures.

The Rejection In Mathew 10. The Great Fallen Away In 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7? …

Must Be Fulfilled. Even so? There is hope. O my Master! You are now revealing to me, it’s all written for examples for us now to avoid the final judgement.

Wow! What A Revelation! It Dispelled All My Fears’ Spell …?

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 3:20 pm.

O my Master! Moment by moment You make Yourself real to me. It came to me to illustrate how You have dispelled all my fears, so? Been looking for words You inspired to me before on the matter to no avail.

Frustrating! On Top Of That? Ahmad Not Answering My Calls …?

As usual? I gave up. I went to bed to try to sleep. I called on You. Sure enough. Within minutes my phone rang. Ahmad on the line.

  • “My father is seriously ill. My brothers and me been with him. He does not want to go to the hospital. The wife taking care of him, no time to cook.”
  • Me? “No problem Ahmad! I understand. I’m OK. Don’t worry about me. Take care of your father.”

All Fears And Frustrations? Gone! Then? …

It came to me where to look for the words I been looking for to no avail. I got up. Turned the computer on. Went straight where it came to me to look.

Wow! You Are Faithful To Your Promise To Reveal Yourself To Me …

And so? The rejection in Mathew 10. The great fallen away in 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7 have been three fears that troubled me until now.

Those Scriptures Must Be Fulfilled. Even So? There Is Hope.

O my Master! Yes! It’s all Happening now as it’s written to fulfill those words, but! Behold! You Power Of Love despite our rebellious doings.

No Matter What? The Power Of Your Love And Unfathomable Wisdom? It Never Fails. It Always Avails!

Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation!? To be loved to love in return. Loved to love.

This Day You Revealed Yourself To Me To Dispel All Fears By Your Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 9:59 pm.

Master? You know I don’t feel good. Slept from around 4 pm to 7:28 pm. Could not stay up. Hurting bad. Went back to bed. Slept until my little friend woke me up with food around 9:17 pm.

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do. I’ll Go Back To Bed And Wait On You …

It’s now Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 10:11 pm.

I’ll wait. I’m sure You have a purpose for all details of my daily living. Perhaps Ahmad’s situation with his Father at the point of death is why I am feeling this way. You’ll show me. I am sure.

Through The Wilderness Of Life You Have Brought Me To Yourself …

Thursday, October 17, 2019 at 3:25 am.

Through much tribulation I have entered Your Kingdom even now while on these forsaken grounds. Your Presence illuminates and dispels the darkness of all fears in my mind.

Fears Dispelled You Make Me Well. Pain At Bay A Bright Smile I Can Now In Your Presence Display …

Thursday, October 17, 2019 at 3:48 am.

The fear of repercussion for all our rebelliousness sayings and doings caused me much pain in the last couple of days, but! You showed me Yourself. You made Yourself real to me as You promised to do.

Yes! There Is Repercussion From Our Present Actions …?

Repercussion or an effect or result of some previous action or event is inevitable, but! Your unfathomable wisdom and passionate love for us is also inevitable.

Thus? Though You Feed Us The Bread Of Affliction Because Of Our Sins …

Our Teacher does not hide Himself from us anymore. So? We learn how to be loved, how to love in return. Nothing like all the notions of love we humans have conjured!

That’s Why My Thirty Some Years Testimonial Journal …?

That’s The Matter Just Now In 2019 You are Revealing To Me To Pass On To Your loved ones scattered in the four corners of the earth.

Wow! Time To Close This Post On Thursday, October 17, 2019 At 4:09 Am.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.

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Well? I Had A Full Day Gone By. Another Day Now …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 12:44 am.

And a Monday at that. Ahmad’s visit? Meaningful at best. Things are in the looking up between us again. He left. I finished with the posting.

Meanwhile? Midnight Came And Went Along With All My Fears …

Ready now to hit the bed again. Thanks, my Master for the few more hours of sleep. This is another day in the up and up despite of whatever comes my way.

Fearless? A Supernatural State Meant To Be, But! …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 3:40 am.

Indeed! Supernatural fear is the beginning of all wisdom. Natural fear? The hindrance to such wisdom. Ha! I never thought about that! Didn’t quite understood all those ‘fear’ and ‘fear not’ until this moment.

Naturally Fearless I Tried Every And All Things …?

I simply did not know what fear was. Perhaps impulsive nature is the fitting word. No idea of what it was to pause or think before I acted.

My Medical Label? Bipolar. Manic Depressive. Schizophrenia …

Man O man! And all the time? O my Master! I was supernaturally gifted big time; it was Your secret to me. Why? Obviously, should You not kept Your secret? No telling the heights I would have ascended to dethrone You.

Wow! You Cut The Wings Of This Eagle! You Kept Me In The Chicken Pen …

Hahaha! I was born an eagle, but! You cut my wings to keep me in the chicken pen to teach me the life of the chickens was not to be my life.

Amazing moment …?

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 5:19 am.

Master? You are simply AWESOME! The way You are unraveling my life? It’s just a wonder to me. I woke up in pain almost two hours ago this morning. Had no clue on what to do. Suddenly!

My Truncated Attempts To Ascend The Ladder Of Success Pops Into My Mind, And?

You opened my eyes to see clearly Your loving hand underlying all those truncated attempts of mine with the story of the eagle in the chicken pen.

Wow! I Been Quoting From This Story For The Longest But! …

This day? The story popped up with the spiritual connection to it. I don’t remember reading the version that popped as I searched for it in my files. Even so?

I’m Beginning To Think You Inserted That Version Supernaturally In My Files …

Honestly. I been knowing the story to the point of the eagle flying up to meet its kind. The added amazing spiritual significance of the story? First time You set my eyes on it.

Wow! Talking About Another Day In The Up And Up Despite Of Whatever Comes My Way …?

This is that day! This is that moment of eternal time in my life. This is Yourself revealing, showing, making Yourself real to me. Quote:

John 14:20-21

At that time when that day comes you will know for yourselves that I am in My Father, and you are in Me, and I am in you.

The person who has My commands and keeps them is the one who really loves Me; and whoever really loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I too, will love him and will show, reveal, manifest Myself to him. I will let Myself be clearly seen by him and make Myself real to him.

O My Master! The Effect Of Your Power Of Love And Wisdom Is A Sheer Bliss! No Kidding …

Beauty, delight, hope joy happiness and renewal in the present earth as it is as well as in the future restored one. Nothing like I ever imagined to be. Unimaginable but real!

  • Quote of this supernatural version in my files. Don’t know who wrote it or how it is in my files. Wow! That’s Your supernatural ways if I ever thought about it before. Quote:

The story was about a farmer who stumbled upon an eagle’s nest with an egg in it. Not wanting the little eagle to die he took it home with him and places it under one of his chickens that was setting eggs.

But right from day one the little eagle didn’t fit into the barnyard scene even though that was all he had ever known.

All he was sure of was somewhere deep inside something was telling him, “This isn’t home”. The farmer kept his wings clipped in hopes he would become a pet so unable to fly he set it on a post in the barnyard looking up into the sky.

His body confined to the earth his heart in the heavens. He didn’t know why nor he could understand his feelings, but he knew there that something deep within him that wanted to be free.

As time went by the farmer forgot to clip the eagle’s wings and one-day as the eagle set on his post looking upward a great gust of wind caught him under his wings and he was lifted from his perch.

With a scream of victory and freedom he left the barnyard seen forever and soared into the heavens to meet his own kind.

Isa.40: 31, I loved this story and saw how it related to all we have experienced and are experiencing in our walk with the Lord. Eagles here are symbolic of certain Christians. The “mount up” process is important and necessary for those who are called to go higher, Philp.3:14. To those who are willing to wait in His presence, Ps.27:14; Ps.37:34; Ps.62:5; Rom.8:25.

Not everyone who enjoys God’s blessings, grace will want to destroy the idols of this world that have been set in the temple of their hearts. Nor will they want to pay the price to soar with the Father. Only those who know they have been called to a higher calling will want to consider this.

Chickens are earthbound, they keep their eyes on the things of this world, Jam.4:4; 1Jh.2:15-16. They scratch out an existence and never lift their heads to look any higher then where they are.

They scratch in the dirt, eat whatever is thrown to them and search greedily in their crowed barnyards for more to fill their bellies, much of it unclean. By nature chickens are an unclean bird, they are bound to their existence and are satisfied with it.

But not the eagle, he has an inherited nature that will not survive confinement. To fulfill his purpose in life he must be free to soar the heavens. It may look lonely up there because not many will dare to rise to such heights. But the eagle doesn’t care; it’s not in his nature to need the approval of the majority. Deut.32:11;

Its time for these “willing eagles” to soar and our “Mother”, the Holy Spirit, is the one who will make our nest very uncomfortable. Just like the mother eagle that tears up the soft bed of her little one and breaks the twigs so that the jagged ends stick him. In short his life becomes miserable in the place he was once comfortable and safe.

Are “Heavenly Parents”, do much the same things in our lives in order to get us to do what is best for us, thus fulfilling our purpose for being here or should I say, fulfilling the will and purpose of our Father. 1Cor.13:11; Gal.4:1-2; Heb.5:12-6:2;

Has your place in the Father, the place that once met the needs in your life now seem rough, tight or uncomfortable?

Don’t worry; your Father is just getting you ready to be pushed off a cliff and into new heights.

Are the jagged edges of that which was once such a comfort to you now starting to prick you?

Maybe you have even asked if you were in the Fathers will. Well, wonder no more, accept it in faith, because a great work is about to come forth in your life and it’s not the Father’s wrath it’s His love and wisdom, making you willing to take the next big step, off that cliff.

By nature we love security so God has to make us sick of our “nest”, so that we will willingly let Him take us on our spiritual journey.

Unfortunately some do not want to leave the nest. When the little eagle rebels the mother eagle starts to beat her wings and the wings that once protected him from danger have now become his enemy.

To escape this danger the little eagle climbs onto her back and now wherever she goes, he will go. He holds on for dear life as his mother soars higher and higher when suddenly without warning she dives out from under him.

He screams and falls; instinctively his wings stretch out to try to catch the air but try as he must he feels like all hope is gone, then out of no where mother eagle swoops under him and carries him up on her wings. Ps.139:10; Josh1:5.;

But just as the little eagle feels safe once more the bottom falls out from under him and the process starts all over again, until he finely learns to soar.

Sometimes the flutter of our Fathers wings makes us think He is going to beat us to death but the bible says if we do not receive correction we are not His sons, Heb.12:5-8.

When we are willing He takes us to great heights. Then sometimes when everything seems wonderful the bottom suddenly drops out from under us again and we wonder Father where are you? But just who do you think that is holding you up and restoring your strength?

Only to find out this process may start all over again as we grow, until we come into that fullness He has prepared for us, the place where we learn to soar in the Father. Eph.4:13-16

When a baby eagle flat refuses to learn after all of his mother’s attempts to teach him she takes him high into the heavens and lets him fall to his death as she screeches in pain, knowing he must either fly or die on the rocks below.

In the kingdom there are those who flat refuse to grow, Jer.10:2; Matt.11:29-30. They resent the furnace of affliction and its purifying fire, Isa.48:10; Pro.17:3; Heb.12:29, they love the safety of the nest but hate the discipline.

But God is always patient, 1Cor.13:4-8; Jam.5:7; 2Thes.3:5, and long-suffering. He works with them, giving them chance after chance. Until He finely let’s them fall to the rocks of religion, worldly desires, or home to save their souls, Isa.57:1-2.

If Jesus had to learn through what He suffered then so will all of us, Heb.5:8. We have seen some of these great ministries come in, soar and then crash.

This does not lessen the true revelations they received or the gifts they walked in. But the word says Lk.9:62, it would have been better for them if they had stayed with the chickens in the safety of the barnyard.

God’s tests are carefully designed to show us what is in our hearts and to bring our rebellion to the surface to be dealt with. Heb.4:12; Jer.17:9-10;.

God’s chosen are coming through these fires. I loved what Isaiah said when he saw his heart, Isa.6:5. End of quote.

Wow! Now Is The Time For The Material To Decrease. For The Spiritual To Increase …?

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 8:43 am.

Master? My heart is heavy. Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance? It’s a heavy subject. Even so? You are carrying the weight for me. Don’t let me ever forget it. Don’t let me ever  think that I am anything on my own.

I Am Going On Propelled By Your Power Of Love And Wisdom …

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 3:15 pm.

Master? I can’t overcome this heaviness in my soul because the statement I read, something like, “I am love. When I enter a room? Love covers that room.”

I Fear The Repercussions From Such Statement …

I am?  Mercy my Father. Only You are. In essence to state “I am love” we are setting ourselves in Your Place. We are usurping Your Authority.

Have Mercy. O My Master! I Refuse To Doubt You …

The fear of rejection is driving Your children to this insane attempt to take Your place, and? You knew it all along. Yet You promised to bring us back. I wait on Your mercy.

New Life Really Began On 2017, But!

Monday, October 14, 2019 at 11:28 pm.

Three years later I find myself heavy with the realization that things at large are quite frightening. This 2019? The year of my Jubilee! My 80th birthday marks that beginning as my eternal reality. Even so?

O My Master? You Know Exactly The Solution To My Heaviness …

Every inch of my body hurts, but? I am not disturbed about it because I know You are in control of it all. Been sleeping hoping for relief to no avail. I hear thunder. Computer off. 11:53 pm.

Where Was I, My Father? I’m Feeling Better …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 2:09 am.

What’s the meaning of this fly literally attacking me? How can a fly be so distracting? Thankfully You gave it to me. It’s dead. Anyhow?

You Have A Reason For Bringing Up This File From 2017 …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 3:25 am.

It was written in January of 2017. Your reason? A reminder of how my new life is developing under Your careful plan. Amazing work within me in less than two years.

Comes January 2020? Will Begin My 3rd Year Living A New Life …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 4:39 am

  • Thunder! Computer off!

Back! The Storm Subsided Around 6 Am. But! …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 10:23 am.

I been updating the header for the main site. I don’t know exactly what to do? Reformat the newfound file or work in the Promised Land book. I am now sleepy. I wait of Your lead.

Master? My Arm Is Getting Worse Instead Of Better …

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 3:21 pm.

You are the only One I wish to help me. Unless You heal me, I refuse to seek for help from the human element. Why? Because the human element does not know my body. Maybe sleep could help.

Yes! Peace. Power! Wisdom! Courage! Endurance! The End? Saved! Restored! But!

Tuesday, October 15, 2019 at 7:00 pm. – 9:34 pm.

I Must Count The Cost. The Cost Is High. Nothing Is Free …?

Everywhere one turns around nowadays one gets the big sign pushed, FREE! Me? I been a sucker for free stuff ever since I got wind of the Internet.

Well? All That Is In A Past I Now See Objectively …

Yeah, my books are free for lack of a better word: Valuable. The thing is that nowadays the name of the game is ‘Marketing!’ everything is about buy and sell.

  • My eyes are closing. Sleep 10:07 pm. Woke up around midnight. Couldn’t stay up. Back to bed slept until around 1:30 am. My life’s pattern of sleep anyhow.

Thinking On The Counting The Cost Issue …

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 2:24 am.

What is the connection between free and counting the cost? What does it mean to count the cost? To count the cost means to count what is the cost of whatever given for free or without money payment, but!

O My Master! You Are Opening My Eyes To See That Nothing Is Really Free …?

Even our salvation is by no means a freebie. In fact? Our salvation has the highest price tag in this world despite all the fanfare about grace and unconditional love.

The Unbiased Truth: What Is Our Salvation Cost? Our Present Worldly Lifestyle …?

Honestly? I never realized this matter before. Even so? This matter is not news. I have heard it before. The only confusing matter to me is that many of the ones preaching the matter to me in the past do not live it themselves now.

Even So? Despite What I See You Have The Perfect Number Who Are Living It And?…

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 9:49 am.

You have blessed me with their testimony. Those are the instruments You have used to bring me to where I am now. Like them? I have not bowed my knees to kiss the glory of a worldly life.

A Worldly Life? Not Necessarily A Sinful Life …?

That’s what has made it so confusing until now that You are revealing these matters to me. It’s been devastating for me to see the ones that once quietly and humbly helped me are now in the lime-light and no longer have any time for me.

Ha! The Matter Is Clear Now. It’s No Longer Confusing To Me, Why? …

O my Master! Because You are now unraveling these matters to me. Every single incident in the human’s life happens to fulfill the Scriptures.

The Rejection In Mathew 10. The Great Fallen Away In 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7? …

Must Be Fulfilled. Even so? There is hope. O my Master! You are now revealing to me, it’s all written for examples for us now to avoid the final judgement.

Wow! What A Revelation! It Dispelled All My Fears’ Spell …?

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 3:20 pm.

O my Master! Moment by moment You make Yourself real to me. It came to me to illustrate how You have dispelled all my fears, so? Been looking for words You inspired to me before on the matter to no avail.

Frustrating! On Top Of That? Ahmad Not Answering My Calls …?

As usual? I gave up. I went to bed to try to sleep. I called on You. Sure enough. Within minutes my phone rang. Ahmad on the line.

  • “My father is seriously ill. My brothers and me been with him. He does not want to go to the hospital. The wife taking care of him, no time to cook.”
  • Me? “No problem Ahmad! I understand. I’m OK. Don’t worry about me. Take care of your father.”

All Fears And Frustrations? Gone! Then? …

It came to me where to look for the words I been looking for to no avail. I got up. Turned the computer on. Went straight where it came to me to look.

Wow! You Are Faithful To Your Promise To Reveal Yourself To Me …

And so? The rejection in Mathew 10. The great fallen away in 2 Thessalonians 2. The dreadful end for the self-righteous in Matthew 7 have been three fears that troubled me until now.

Those Scriptures Must Be Fulfilled. Even So? There Is Hope.

O my Master! Yes! It’s all Happening now as it’s written to fulfill those words, but! Behold! You Power Of Love despite our rebellious doings.

No Matter What? The Power Of Your Love And Unfathomable Wisdom? It Never Fails. It Always Avails!

Behold! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation!? To be loved to love in return. Loved to love.

This Day You Revealed Yourself To Me To Dispel All Fears By Your Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …

Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 9:59 pm.

Master? You know I don’t feel good. Slept from around 4 pm to 7:28 pm. Could not stay up. Hurting bad. Went back to bed. Slept until my little friend woke me up with food around 9:17 pm.

Master? I Don’t Know What To Do. I’ll Go Back To Bed And Wait On You …

It’s now Wednesday, October 16, 2019 at 10:11 pm.

I’ll wait. I’m sure You have a purpose for all details of my daily living. Perhaps Ahmad’s situation with his Father at the point of death is why I am feeling this way. You’ll show me. I am sure.

Through The Wilderness Of Life You Have Brought Me To Yourself …

Thursday, October 17, 2019 at 3:25 am.

Through much tribulation I have entered Your Kingdom even now while on these forsaken grounds. Your Presence illuminates and dispels the darkness of all fears in my mind.

Fears Dispelled You Make Me Well. Pain At Bay A Bright Smile I Can Now In Your Presence Display …

Thursday, October 17, 2019 at 3:48 am.

The fear of repercussion for all our rebelliousness sayings and doings caused me much pain in the last couple of days, but! You showed me Yourself. You made Yourself real to me as You promised to do.

Yes! There Is Repercussion From Our Present Actions …?

Repercussion or an effect or result of some previous action or event is inevitable, but! Your unfathomable wisdom and passionate love for us is also inevitable.

Thus? Though You Feed Us The Bread Of Affliction Because Of Our Sins …

Our Teacher does not hide Himself from us anymore. So? We learn how to be loved, how to love in return. Nothing like all the notions of love we humans have conjured!

That’s Why My Thirty Some Years Testimonial Journal …?

That’s The Matter Just Now In 2019 You are Revealing To Me To Pass On To Your loved ones scattered in the four corners of the earth.

Wow! Time To Close This Post On Thursday, October 17, 2019 At 4:09 Am.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all.