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I Done Lost My Mind, But! …

I Found A Better One! …

A Mind Of Power And Wisdom …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 8:25 am.

A rare mind not freely given at random. Such is the fact of life I am finding while the high seas sailing on A Turquoise Rose under the expertise from on high minding.

No Kidding! Unfathomable Power And Wisdom …?

Such power and wisdom are nothing like I can fathom! I am beginning to accept such reality. It’s of no use for me to sit or laid down to figure things out in self-consciousness.

Power And Wisdom To Recognize Self-Consciousness …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 2:00 pm.

It’s 2 pm. The number Two stands for division. Amazing how what I am to record came to mind at exactly 2 pm. Recognizing self-consciousness? Power and wisdom to overcome it.

Understanding? Nay! Experiencing The Scriptures I Hope …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 5:44 pm.

No kidding! I am careful now of all statements I record. Perhaps at this hour of the day? All things seem bleak unto me. Even so? No matter how bleak things seem to be, You are in control, my Master. I wait on You.

  • 2:49 pm chk inbox. Msge from Deene 3:51 pm sleep?

This Day Is Over. So Are My Worries/Preoccupations …

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

Ahmad did not come or called. No one called. No one came. Other than hearing from my old friend Deene, all people of my concern are far from me. But I did talk to Joyce.

The Internet Is Working. The Weather Is Pleasant. Food And Water OK …?

I am sad but not dejected anymore. I must face it, I am human. The lack of human fellowship saddens me. But I rather have no fellowship than the former fellowship I craved.

The Former Fellowship? Full Of Carnal Cravings I Thought To Be ‘Love’ …?

What a prison I was in unaware. The saddest part? Now that I am out of prison? I really do care. I’m full of the power of love and wisdom from You, but! O well!

No Need For Me To Go There. I Am Here …?

I am here present in Your Presence. I am not alone. You are with me regardless my feelings. My sadness? Your sadness. For You have accomplished Your Oneness with You within me. Quote:

  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Wow! How Neat You Are Putting My Life Together …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 12:24 am.

How can I say thanks? No words to express my gratitude at this midnight hour. I am here. I was lost over there. A lost sheep thorn and mangled. Death hovering over me. But just then? You found me.

Almost Dead. You Carried Me Upon Your Shoulders …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 1:13 am.

Amazing! In looking for the record on this matter, I found two most revealing files of what is going on with me right now. Astonished!

You Are For Real My Master! …

You are not only putting my life together, but! You are showing me how to reach to my children by the power of Your loving care for me. Here are the links:

What I Really Wanted Wanted Found Me The Father Creator Of My Being He Found Me His Prodigal One His Little Sheep

You Are My Shepherd. You Care For Me …?

  • You Lead Me To The Still Waters From The Highest Sea …

Your Presence Is Real To Me …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 6:00 pm. To 10:25 pm.

All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You.

  • Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.

Indeed! Your Presence Is Real To Me …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:13 am.

It seems to me to be a fact of life to take strange things for granted. Even so? You are showing me those strange things to either help or to disturb us. So?

You Are Revealing Yourself To Me As Promised …

I never saw it before. My idea of You revealing Yourself? In person. I somehow been expecting for You to knock on my door any time. How disappointing!

You Been Revealing Yourself In My Heart All This Time! Duh!

The saddest part? Every knock on my door is just Ahmad or one of his sons, no Yahushua, but! Yahushua is already in and I ignore Him. How rude!

O My Master! The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

You been knowing all this time what was in my heart, but! You didn’t hold it against me. You waited until this moment to reveal this matter to me in the most gracious way—humorously, but!

Effective. What? Yes. Effective …

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Once again, pause, reflect. What happened yesterday? Let’s summarize your day.

·       This Day Is Over. So Are My Worries/Preoccupations …

  • Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

·       The Internet Is Working. The Weather Is Pleasant. Food And Water OK …?

·       The Former Fellowship? Full Of Carnal Cravings I Thought To Be ‘Love’ …?

·       No Need For Me To Go There. I Am Here …?

  • I am here present in Your Presence. I am not alone. You are with me regardless my feelings. My sadness? Your sadness. For You have accomplished Your Oneness wit You within me. Quote:
  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

·       Wow! How Neat You Are Putting My Life Together …

  • Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 12:24 am.
  • How can I say thanks? No words to express my gratitude at this midnight hour. I am here. I was lost over there. A lost sheep thorn and mangled. Death hovering over me. But just then? You found me.

·       Almost Dead. You Carried Me Upon Your Shoulders …

  • Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 1:13 am.
  • Amazing! In looking for the record on this matter, I found two most revealing files of what is going on with me right now. Astonished!

·       You Are For Real My Master! …

  • You are not only putting my life together, but! You are showing me how to reach to my children by the power of Your loving care for me. Here are the links:

At that point you emailed the entry to Denise on Wed, Sep 18, 2:10 AM. My child, My beloved thiaBasilia, let me show you what and why your pain and misery returned after you emailed that entry to Denise.

Your heart was set in reconnecting with your child, but! It did not happen. By daybreak? You were hoping for Ahmad to show up but it did not happen. You kept working on the book cover hoping to ignore your pain and discomfort.

You laid down hoping for sleep. You could not sleep. Finally! The phone rang. Ahmad on the line in a euphoric state announcing he now had time for you. In your turn? You spill out all the things you have listed needing replenish.

You thought Ahmad would get your things and come to bring those things to you. By the time you realized Ahmad was not coming your pain had accelerated. You kept ignoring the pain, but you recorded:

  • All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You. Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.

My child, O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Your willingness to endure rather than return to your old ways delight My Being.

Yes, My ways to deal with you are effective to produce the integrity of your character.

Today, Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 8:13 am I am revealing to you how the ills that Ahmad have caused you are still festering your being. Why? Because, Ahmad has never once recognized such ills.

The time is coming now for Ahmad to level up with you. That’s what he was trying to tell you yesterday when he told you he now had time for you.

Now My child, I’m going to level up with you. I am the One Who, actually, have caused you all the ills you have suffered not only here but through your whole existence.

I am the One Who have fed you with the bread of affliction because of your sins.

And I am the One Who is now fully exonerating you.

This is your Jubilee year. All your debts are cancelled.

How are you feeling right now? Is your pain fading away? Are you wondering if this is all for real? Go to fix your breakfast. Relax. Keep waiting on Me.”

Well? I’m Still Feeling Pretty Decent Despite? …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:20 pm.

Despite the hour. Despite the fact there is no change in my situation with Ahmad. Since breakfast time I have accomplish much—the apartment is clean. All things are in order, and?

I Am Beginning To Really Grasp Your Meaning …

Even in my dreams. While I slept earlier today I had a very strange dream. I cannot quite get the interpretation because it is so strange, but in one possibility I remember that it could mean someone is trying to trick me.

Master? This Whole World Is Set On Tricks …

They call it A special skill; a knack among other labels but! The whole idea is to persuade people to buy or do something that ultimately is for the benefit of the trickster. So? in my dream:

  • I found myself walking to get something someone had sent to me. Suddenly! A trash can. In it? An envelope sealed and address to me. Talking to whoever I said, Look at this. Why is in the trash? What is it? I pick it up. Open it. Up comes some greenish new trousers. It seems that what I was waiting for could have been wrapped in the trouser, so, I began to shake it up, nothing came out. I woke up.

None Of The Interpretation Rang A Bell Except For The Trick Suggestion …

Eventually? I caught on Your meaning. It’s all about the situation with Ray Edwards. They never answer my email with my miracles’ testimony, but! I did register for the free webinar coming up today.

Ha! It Just Dawn On Me! O My Master You Are So Real! …

I have really, really quit chasing millions, but! Because Ray is talking about Your miracle in his life and he mentions Yahushua (Jesus) I thought that perhaps that was from You. And?

It Could Be. But That Is For Ray And All Interested In The Betterment Of Their Business …

I do not have a business. I am the product of Your business. It’s not up to me to promote Your business. My task is to write, publish, and optimize in that order. You are doing the rest with all that I write and publish.

So? In Short? I Will Not Attend The Webinar …?

In the dream You are warning me of the trick to persuade me to come up with big money to get big money. What a trick! But!

You Are In Control Of It All …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 4:15 pm.

I have no doubt in my mind something good shall come out of all this. Even so? that’s not for me to be concerned about. Thank Goodness! And?

About Ahmad And My Supplies? …

No need to set my hope for comfort on Ahmad. You are my supplier. Perhaps I don’t need to be addicted to coffee or honey or to anything of this world. I am addicted to You only and altogether. You know that, my Master. Back to my optimizing graphics.

Midnight. Woke up. Back to sleep …?

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 12:26 am. 2:56 am.

Are we fishing in muddy waters, my Master? In the dream we were fishing. First we were standing up. Then? We sat with our legs hanging over the cliff. Suddenly! I was falling down into the muddy waters way down us, but! You grabbed me. I did not fall. I woke up hurting big time my Master, but You know all about it.

Waiting, My Master, Waiting …

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 6:24 am.

Thanks for sleep while You work things out for us all. For whatever reason Ahmad has not shown up is no longer to disturb me. For You are in control. I must decrease. You must increase.

Whatever Is Happening Out There …?

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 11:43 am.

It’s not to disturb Your peace within me. You are really, really in control of it all. Even so? You are aware of my feelings as well as of my thinking. I do wonder what is happening out there, but!

Once You Remind Me Of Your Written Words …?

Your written words, not only written in the Scriptures but in my heart as well. Once those words resound within me? Your peace returns to me big time, and? I take courage to go on.

Well? More And More The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom Is A Reality For Me …

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 3:09 pm.

You have ingrained within me Your power of love and wisdom. Such power is opposite to the known human love and wisdom that we are all know and practice. Even so?

This Matter Is Now Coming To Light …

Saturday, September 21, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

Master? You know how intent I am in creating the most descriptive graphics of my reality You have decreed for me. Quote:

  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

The Best Part? It’s By Your Inspiration That I Am Creating …?

You lead me to the exact graphics I am to use in those creations. Day by day I am getting better at it. I look, I exclaim, “That’s so beautiful, my Master!” Soon? It’s lacking something, my Master, what would it be?

One More Day Gone. Another One Here …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 3:31 am.

And life on these earthly grounds continue to move on. Success. Prosperity. Failure. Poverty? Hand on hand the band marches on.

Me? Under Your Throne Pleading For Mercy I’m On Hold …

Soon. Whatever will be will be. Time will tell. Meantime time? You are guarding me to keep me well. You are here with me. You are there with them.

Whatever Will Be? It’s Now …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 7:00 pm.

Humor instead of panic. Master, You are so neat! In the midst of my wailing as I imagined my baby in death row? You stopped right and quick. Here is a reply to my baby’s email telling me not to worry. Quote:

Well? Panic over just as soon as it started! lol Thank goodness for your two kidneys! No problem with my kidneys at all! My pain comes from gas packets in my body. Once i spell the gas the pain is over.

In the other hand? I am healed. Really, really healed! My body and my mind are functioning again. Is really neat the way Father has put my life together. I can now face the highest mountain and overcome it! No kidding, including my one kidney baby. One kidney? Crazy? Talking about a mountain? I could picture you in line for a kidney transplant, and i wail! Suddenly! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? IT’S JUST YOUR EMOTIONAL UPHEAVAL! NOTHING IS WRONG! QUIT IT!

ah! I thought, You are working all things for our good! no problem. I went back to my business and forgot all about you and your one kidney. Ate. Slept. and? Your email! Case closed! Mountain overcome! HAHAHA! HALLELUJAH!

No Kidding! That Kind Of Mountain? Not Rare In Most Of Our Lives, Why? …

Because our lives are lived on emotional grounds even in the most reasonable scenery. Even the most level-headed ones do wail should a child is stricken with a fatal illness, but!

There Is Hope For Such Train Of Thought To Stop …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 11:08 pm.

Master? Will continue sharing whatever You are sharing with me and compel me to share with whomever You send to this site. Closing for now.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

 

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Tried At High Seas …

Tried, Smelted, And Refined!
No Problem! Expert Captain At The Helm!…

What Am I To Do The Rest Of This Day? …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 1:09 pm.

Everywhere I turn is about money, health, success, food, pleasure, number one, religion, politics, opinions, what to do lists, work, work, work and now ‘God’, miracles, great quotes, and? The Universe!

Me? All Those Things? The Things That We Lost When We Died Spiritually …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 5:26 pm.

That’s not new revelation. And I for one? I am worn out from talking about it. You know it my Master. That’s why You are compelling me to let go. And You know that I am more than willing to let go, but!

This Thing With Ray Edwards And Miracles In Business? …

It keeps coming back. It has me baffled. You know my determination as I stated in the last post, Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

Now? I Fear I’m Bound By That Determination, Why? …

Well? I am beginning to see a pattern in Your written words. From the beginning You have been the One talking to us first telling us what to do. Quote:

Genesis 2:15-17

And the Lord God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to tend and guard and keep it.

And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, You may freely eat of every tree of the garden; but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and blessing and calamity you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.

Even So? Now? We Humans Not Only Speak First But Also Tell You What We Intent To Do …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 10:16 pm.

Wow! My determination? My insolent response to my distasteful hypocrisy. Now I understand why You brought to my remembrance Your words in 1985. Quote:

“You are being self-conscious. Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.  Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Self-Conscious. No Humility Whatsoever. The Present Motto At Large …?

No kidding! Self-consciousness is hailed from all directions whether in piety disguise or openly proclaiming self to be supreme king to reign in a euphoric world of our own.

I’m Dumbfound! My Face To The Ground. Naked I Am Found, But! …?

Thank goodness! Your infinite mercy to cover me and lifting and making my life significant. Your words come to life right at this midnight hour. Quote:

James 4:8-10

Come close to God and He will come close to you. [Recognize that you are] sinners, get your soiled hands clean; [realize that you have been disloyal] wavering individuals with divided interests, and purify your hearts [of your spiritual adultery].

[As you draw near to God] be deeply penitent and grieve, even weep [over your disloyalty]. Let your laughter be turned to grief and your mirth to dejection and heartfelt shame [for your sins].

Humble yourselves [feeling very insignificant] in the presence of the Master, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up and make your lives significant].

What A Way To Start A New Day. Tried, Smelted, And Refined! …

Monday, September 16, 2019 at 12:09 am.

Once again? The earlier discomfort is gone. I can now rest underneath Your everlasting arms. Your Word is a lamp under my feet to show me the way to eternity. Your Presence is so ever real. Quote:

Daniel 12:10

Many shall purify themselves and make themselves white and be tried, smelted, and refined, but the wicked shall do wickedly. And none of the wicked shall understand, but the teachers and those who are wise shall understand. [Dan 11:33-35]

No Kidding! Tried, Smelted, And Refined!

This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now my reality. I slept from midnight until around 3:18 am but! I didn’t feel good at all. I went back to bed for more sleep.

In My Mind? Why Am I Not Feeling Good? …

Tried at high seas came to me. Ha! As usual? I was not counting on more tries onward. Was only hoping for the manifestation of my rewards.

That, Too? Blowing In The Wind Of Self-Exaltation, Mind You …

U hoo! Does that ring my bell? Big time as well as my ankles swell! Humor instead of anger. The Master’s kind of humor in Psalms 2. Quote:

Psalms 2:1-12.

WHY DO the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme?

The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Lord and His Anointed One (the Messiah, the Christ). They say, [Act 4:25-27]

“Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.”

He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Master has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them].

He speaks to them in His deep anger and troubles (terrifies and confounds) them in His displeasure and fury, saying,

Yet have I anointed (installed and placed) My King [firmly] on My holy hill of Zion.

I will declare the decree of the Master: He said to Me, You are My Son; this day [I declare] I have begotten You. [Heb 1:5; Heb 3:5-6; 2Pe 1:17-18]

Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth as Your possession.

You shall break them with a rod of iron; You shall dash them in pieces like potters’ ware. [Rev 12:5; Rev 19:15]

Now therefore, O you kings, act wisely; be instructed and warned, O you rulers of the earth.

Serve the Master with reverent awe and worshipful fear; rejoice and be in high spirits with trembling [lest you displease Him].

Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled.

O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him! End of quote.

Wow! Earlier In The Afternoon? I Laid In Bed …

Thinking of all temporal preoccupations of mine and at large. Considering my distress and unrest about such spectacle, I asked, what is eternity? Ha! John 17 popped in mind.

I Grabbed My Scriptures And My Spectacles Within The Reach Of My Hands …

I began a loud carefully each verse reading as if to hear what I have not heard before. Wow! Each word resonated deep within washing me clean from all doubts, fears, and misconceptions. Quote:

John 17

When Yahushua had spoken these things, He lifted up His eyes to heaven and said,

“Father, the hour has come. Esteem and exalt and honor and magnify Your Son, so that Your Son may esteem and extol and honor and magnify You. Just as You have granted Him power and authority over all flesh (all humankind), now esteem Him so that He may give eternal life to all whom You have given Him.

“And this is eternal life: it means to know (to perceive, recognize, become acquainted with, and understand) You, the only true and real Mighty One, and likewise to know Him, Yahushua as the Messiah, Whom You have sent.

“I have esteemed You down here on the earth by completing the work that You gave Me to do. And now, Father, esteem Me along with Yourself and restore Me to such majesty and honor in Your Presence as I had with You before the world existed.

“I have manifested Your Name—I have revealed Your very Self, Your real Self to the people whom You have given Me out of the world. They were Yours, and You gave them to Me, and they have obeyed and kept Your word.

“Now at last they know and understand that all You have given Me belongs to You is really and truly Yours. For the uttered words that You gave Me I have given them; and they have received and accepted them and have come to know positively and in reality to believe with absolute assurance that I came forth from Your Presence, and they have believed and are convinced that You did send Me.

“I am praying for them. I am not praying (requesting) for the world, but for those You have given Me, for they belong to You. All things that are Mine are Yours, and all things that are Yours belong to Me; and I am esteemed in (through) them. They have done Me honor; in them My esteem is achieved.

“And now I am no more in the world, but these are still in the world, and I am coming to You. Set Apart Father, keep in Your Name in the knowledge of Yourself those whom You have given Me, that they may be one as We are one.

“While I was with them, I kept and preserved them in Your Name in the knowledge and worship of You. Those You have given Me I guarded and protected, and not one of them has perished or is lost except the son of perdition—Judas Iscariot–the one who is now doomed to destruction, destined to be lost, that the Scripture might be fulfilled.

“And now I am coming to You; I say these things while I am still in the world, so that My joy may be made full and complete and perfect in them that they may experience My delight fulfilled in them, that My enjoyment may be perfected in their own souls, that they may have My gladness within them, filling their hearts.

“I have given and delivered to them Your word (message) and the world has hated them, because they are not of the world do not belong to the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not ask that You will take them out of the world, but that You will keep and protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world (worldly, belonging to the world), just as I am not of the world.

“Set them apart—purify, consecrate, separate them for Yourself, make them clean by the Truth; Your Word is Truth. Just as You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. And so for their sake and on their behalf I dedicate, consecrate, set Myself apart, that they also may be set apart, dedicated, consecrated, made clean in the Truth.

“Neither for these alone do I pray it is not for their sake only that I make this request, but also for all those who will ever come to believe in—trust in, cling to, rely on Me through their word and testimony, That they all may be one, just as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be one in Us, so that the world may believe and be convinced that You have sent Me.

“I have given to them the esteem and honor which You have given Me, that they may be one even as We are ONE: I in them and You in Me, in order that they may become ONE and perfectly united, that the world may know and definitely recognize that You sent Me and that You have loved them even as You have loved Me.

“Father, I desire that they also whom You have entrusted to Me as Your gift to Me may be with Me where I am, so that they may see My esteem, which You have given Me Your love gift to Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world.

“O just and righteous Father, although the world has not known You and has failed to recognize You and has never acknowledged You, I have known You continually; and these men understand and know that You have sent Me.

“I have made Your Name known to them and revealed Your character and Your very Self, and I will continue to make You known, that the love which You have bestowed upon Me may be in them felt in their hearts and that I Myself may be in them.” End of quote.

Dear Readers and followers, I have no words to describe the effect of reading those words at that precise moment of time. All I can say is that the reading humbled me big time!

The Oneness Of My Being With The Master? A Humbling Realization …?

I mean humbling in all the meaning of the word. Truly? No need for a humble person to be concerned with the business of this world. Quote:

Watch Yourselves

Luke 21:34-36

But take heed to yourselves and be on your guard, lest your hearts be overburdened and depressed (weighed down) with the giddiness and headache and nausea of self-indulgence, drunkenness, and worldly worries and cares pertaining to [the business of] this life, and [lest] that day come upon you suddenly like a trap or a noose;

For it will come upon all who live upon the face of the entire earth.

Keep awake then and watch at all times [be discreet, attentive, and ready], praying that you may have the full strength and ability and be accounted worthy to escape all these things [taken together] that will take place, and to stand in the presence of the Son of Man. End of quote.

A Personal Warning For Me, For Anyone Who Wishes To Mind It …

The concern of the humble is found in the verse: O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him! In Yahushua the Messiah.

The Time Has Come For Me To Settle Down As Per The Master’s Decree For Me …?

The Master means business! Reality! No need for me to indulge in vain speculations and preoccupations about the reality of my existence. This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now my reality, period.

O My Master! You Really Are At The Helm Of My Earthly Existence …?

Should I humor myself on this miraculous realization? Indeed! Humor instead of anger is to be my motto from now on as You instituted way back when this stage of my journey began.

Humorous Memories Of Motherhood …

A sizable repertoire of my mothering seven precious little humans. Each one of them with their unique personalities. It would take a book to describe each one of them, but!

The Mention Of These Memories? The Basis For My Humor Instead Of Anger Motto …

Our parenthood is a replica of our Creator’s parenthood. Even so? Such fact never dawned on me. I was too busy playing my life’s role that it never occurred to me to investigate where such role came from.

Well? Perhaps I Am Not Alone. Not Many Humans Bother With Such Matters …?

But the truth of the matter is that the Scriptures, misnomer the Bible are not a myth or a book only for religious matters. Despite all scholars present and past?

The Scriptures Are Our History …

Monday, September 16, 2019 at 12:41 pm.

That is not my idea or opinion. Is the fact of life that is now coming to light for the benefit of the chosen people of the Almighty Sole Creator of everything in existence.

Who Is The Chosen People And Do You Belong There? …

That is also a fact that is now coming to light on the individual basis. Right now? We are all scattered in the four corner of the earth each one with their own choice of lifestyle, but!

The Decreed Time For All To Change Is Soon To Materialize …?

Me? Let me see what the Master says about me that I am to pass on to thee, shall we? O well! The Master done let it be known what exactly He thinks about me, even to my own self! Thank goodness!

Next post?

I Done Lost My Mind, But! …

I Found A Better One! …

A Mind Of Power And Wisdom …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 8:25 am.

A rare mind not freely given at random. Such is the fact of life I am finding while the high seas sailing on A Turquoise Rose under the expertise from on high minding.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.:-)

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Truth Can Be Offensive/Insulting …

Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?

Big Time! Wished To Die, But!

That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.

Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.

No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …

Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:

Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!

The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”

Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,

“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”

Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.

“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”

Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!

“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!

No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”

O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!

“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.

From now on all your doings shall become sensible and your feelings for goodness shall intensify as well as your feelings for badness.

And your thoughts shall be under the captivity of My thoughts. This drastic change within your being shall soon take hold of the hearts of many who would turn to Me and esteem My name as they see your good works.”

Master, what about these festivals and different things that Your people are so deep into? What am I to do? What am I to respond to inquires as to my behavior on these days of excitement for Your people?

And, Master, what am I to do about my health? What about all the body discomforts I suffer all the time? Am I to do anything about my body? How am I to take care of my body?

“My beloved, say and do exactly as I have been leading you to say and do. Do not relent in speaking My WORD as it is written.

Truly, My Thia, your time has come to delight Me and from here on out ALL things and ALL matters shall come to pass in your life as it is written and as I have been telling you personally.

My beloved Thia, I am well aware of your physical condition. Your body is continuously decaying on account of the environmental conditions caused by the sin of mankind under the evil influence of our enemy.

Nonetheless, you have nothing to worry about because My grace is sufficient unto you; that means that you are able to withstand all and any discomfort in your body and rejoice rather than complain about it.

You are in excellent health and I will keep your body in healthy conditions until the time comes to invest you with a new body immune to decay.

My beloved Thia, from now on you will be sitting still and yet your activity in the realm of My invisible Kingdom shall intensify ten fold.

As of this instant I am taking control of your imaginations. Your steps shall be steady as you move in any direction.

And the song of praise and adoration to Me shall intensify to the point of the highest heaven.

Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

Wow! I guess I won’t post this amazing word fulfilled today because I am sleepy. By the time I wake up the Net won’t work. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 am.

Absolutely Awesome! Those Words?  …

Sailing the turbulent waves of these lower seas? I had even forgotten those words until this moment. Ten years beaten by the treacherous waves this world could to me thrust me under.

Even So? My Master Lives In My Deepest Chamber! …

Nothing and no one have been able to really disturb me despite all my lapses and preoccupations. Brutal pain and lack of gain? Almost to the exact day I am typing these lines without pain—no worries about my lack of gain.

MIRACLE!

Let’s go to the details if we must.

 

Introduction

 

What’s With This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory Been Writing About? …

Will Do My Best To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 1:56 pm.

Why do I keep regressing instead of progressing? Day by day the answer is coming clear to me but not to thee, dear Reader follower.

Therefore? This Introduction …

Let me summarize the sequence of events. Our lives come in cycles. In my life? I don’t know exactly when each cycle begins and ends except for this last cycle starting with An Extended Adventurous Voyage—the present cycle I am living in.

Here is the list of post from present to previous for your reference to understand this introduction.

Strange, But! Since I Started The Present Cycle? Not Many Clicks …

What is happening? I already explained the matter in the An Extended Adventurous Voyage post, but! It looks like it made no difference to my readers.

I Not Concerned About The Clicks, But!? …

I am concerned with how I am coming through to my readers. What came to me just this morning? To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain.

  • It is plain to me how everything that happens in the physical realm has its source in the spiritual realm.

Our Physical Pain Has Its Source In What Is Buried In Our Spirits—The Deepest Part Of Our Beings …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 3:49 pm.

I am learning these things on the daily and moment to moment basis with every stage of my physical condition. The fluctuation of my physical condition troubles me big time.

That’s Why I Keep Regressing Instead Of Progressing, Until This Morning …?

What happened this morning? I had been in the gutter of my own negative thinking since yesterday when I came into the knowledge of being a ‘lame duck’ for lack of Ahmad’s support.

Down I Went! All Day. All Night. Until The Master Lift Me Up Earlier Today …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 10:52 pm.

Earlier today I got up from bed because I could not sleep. My mind kept churning with Ahmad’s lack of support. I kept begging for help. The answer came to my inbox.

Just Out Of Curiosity? I Clicked The Headline …

Wow! First glimpse of the people’s coming to terms with reality. I was impressed. Though that not in total agreement with the author of the post? I replied to comment. Quote:

I’m impressed! Radical Judgement of one’s self is the one thing, perhaps the only thing to solve our problems. Over and over I must radically judge myself.

Dear Reader, I will give you a bulleted summary of how this renewal of mine has been on the making for the last 45 years since 1974 when I discover the Scriptures.

  • The year was 1974—I discovered the Scriptures. Got into the unknown spiritual realm. Lost my mind. Stopped reading the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1979—amazing healing experience from deep wound inflicted upon me in my childhood. The result? Regain my physical health. Back in the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1983—Gruesome divorce. Felt apart. Lost hope. Lost all morals. Hit the top of immoral living.
  • The year was 1985—Suddenly! Unexpectedly! My whole life was run like a film strip in my view. What did I realize as I viewed the film?
  • I had gone through life unaware of the secret saving power of the Spirit of the Almighty Creator of my being, taking everything and everybody for granted without consideration of anything other than my own understanding of life, and the raw feelings of my emotions.
  • Restored,
  • A second mental breakdown.
  • Called to journal my life, but! Did not listen.
  • The year was 1986—convicted. Power to quit my work. Power to listen.
  • The year was 1987—began new life under my gifted friend’s care. Began to journal my life consistently.
  • The year was 1992—saddest year for me, my gifted friend died. I became lost. I felt abandoned. Back to my old life of family and church.
  • The year was 1994—bought property. Became sort of independent. Happy time.
  • The year was 1995—depression treatment? Electric shocks. Almost destroyed me. My daughter rescued me, but that’s the year my prescription drug addiction began.
  • The year was 1999—inspired to go live with family. Sold my property. Things did not work out. I felt spiritually dead.
  • The year was 2001—back on my own again. Got beautiful apartment, but! Got involved in helping seniors instead of my call to journal my life as instructed to do.
  • The year was 2007—that’s the year I dropped unconscious, victim of misdiagnose. Rushed to the emergency room at the point of death. Convicted. Repented. Restored.
  • The year was 2008—called to go to the ‘lost sheep of Israel. Power to accept the call.
  • The year was 2009—called to get out of the USA. Destination? The wilderness of people to judge me face to face.
  • The year was 2015—call to go with my gifted son Ahmad. He is to be my authority while we wait for Yahushua’s return.
  • The year was 2017—got the roof apartment of my dreams. My renewed life began.
  • The year is now 2019—WOW! What a year it has been. This is to be the year of our jubilee, but! O well?

It Surely Doesn’t Look Like Jubilee At All! But!

The Almighty Creator is in control of His creation. I am committed and submitted to Him as my supreme Authority. He has declared me to be His messenger. So? End of quote.

Reading And Commenting On That Post? It Brought Me To My Senses …

Reflecting on what I read? That’s what stopped the flow of negative thoughts. Then? I was able to hear my Master’s instructions to call Ahmad.

It Does Not Matter How It Looks To Us All …

Me? I’m, I have been going through another rough period of my journey. Don’t know what is to be even in the next moment. I go up and down, but!

O My Master! You Are Faithful To Your Word To Sustain Me …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 12:04 am.

One more 7th Day of Rest. Things don’t look too good between Ahmad and me. I am somewhat dejected, but! I am resting on You. I keep remembering Your recent words to comfort me. Quote:

“Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

The Sting Of Ahmad’s Words To Release His Anger? …

Enough fuel for my dejection, but! I’m taking what I give. I spit out similar words to him to release my own anger, and?

That’s A Good Thing! Be Ye Angry And Sin Not …?

Wow! Thanks, my Master! How amazing are Your words when You apply them to my inner being. To release one’s anger keeps one from the festering resentment that causes all our physical pain and misery.

Now I Am Beginning To Understand The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

Perhaps this introduction will help my readers to understand such power as well. On to the details of what is going on in my journey.

 

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on!

Human Integrity? Limited. Questionable Big Time …?

No Kidding! That’s Not My Idea, Dear Readers …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 3:57 am.

I wish it was because then you would be justified in abandoning this blog, but! The truth is now coming to light in many blogs/books and such other than this single post.

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on! …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:11 am.

How can that be? Everybody thinks highly of me. I’m faithful. I live by the word. I help the orphans and the widows. I support the Church and ministers. I – I – I – am a good Christian woman.

Me? How Can That Be? Talking about offended? Until …

Until the reality of truth hit my gut! It’s Wednesday, September 11, 2019 at 10:36 pm. Know what? I’m having an awful time writing about this issue.

Insults, Or What Is Considered As An Insult? Turns A One Away …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:26 am.

Indeed! Turns a one away from the source of the insult without hesitation. Thus? Many of my followers have abandoned this blog offended by the truth that will set them free. Even so?

The Almighty Sole Creator Of Our Beings Has Not Abandoned Them …?

Not a single one of His begotten children shall be lost. He plans to restore every single one of us. Only? His ways to do it all? Simple but! Illogical!

The Human Mind Cannot Grasp Such Ways …

That’s the fact to be exact. There is no need for me to be concerned about the followers of this blog. There is no need for me to be concerned about my loved one’s present behavior.

Master? You Are Lifting Me Up To Sail The High Seas …

The high seas away from any country’s jurisdiction. Away from my preoccupation with the human element. Your plan of restoration is coming to pass exactly as You have decreed it to pass despite all my preoccupations.

That’s The Fact To Be Exact. On To High Seas This Day I’ll Sail …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at.4:47 am.

O my Master! You have set me free from all my preoccupations. All around me I see, I read all the goings on of my people near and far. On this moment of time?

My Soul Is Free—On To High Seas I’ll Sail—Holding On To My Master’s Rail …

Clarity is in my mind to see far and beyond the furthest realm my imagination could find. The splendid future? Not so far away now.

It Might Be Days-Weeks-Months-Even Years, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:25 am.

The splendid future is already here. In my heart. In my mind. Because in Your Presence? That future I find. Because You live? I can live that future. Because You live? All fear is gone!

I Am Sailing On High Seas Away From The Storms Of Lower Seas Because …?

You have risen in my mind to calm it down. On high seas I am sailing while You are at the helm. No need to be overwhelmed because You are at the helm. Even so?

Reality! On Lower Seas? I’m A Lame Duck …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 12:53 pm.

A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.

What Is A Lame Duck? …

It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!

O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?

I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.

What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.

I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.

Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?

Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …

I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.

Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.

I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.

You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.

I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.

Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.

First? I sense You calling me to sleep. Well? I guess You were not calling me to sleep. I could not sleep. I got up. All kinds of things been running through my mind because of pain, lack of appetite and now lack of sleep.

You Have Shown To Me All Physical Conditions Are Rooted In The Spiritual …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 8:44 am.

Every single day You demonstrate what You show to me. My body reacts to what is going on in my spirit. A Lame Duck? That revelation threw me for spin downwards.

I Reverted To My Old Way Of Thinking Big Time, But! …

You kept me from staying there. Even so? A Lame Duck? Because Ahmad is not supporting me. From that thinking? Because. Because. Because kept churning in my mind until a moment ago.

It Came To Me, Why Are Sitting Here Imagining All Sorts Of Because? …

Call Ahmad. Find out what’s going on. Sure enough, I called. Didn’t have in mind to blow up in anger but that’s exactly what I did. Next? I began to think of jumping ship, but then?

I Lift Up My Voice, Where Can I Go From Your Spirit My Master? …

Behold! Your Power Of Love and wisdom. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! I began to reason, You have planted me here. I am established. I am safe and secure. What nonsense is this of ‘jumping ship’?

Back To Your Track. Holding On To Your Rail On High Sea Waters …

High Sea Waters? Treacherous waters! Unless I hold on to Your rail? I’ll be drowning without fail, but! You are at the helm. Should I let go of Your rail? You tilt the ship to save my tail—a take from Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

Where Am I Going From Here On? I Don’t Know. My Master Knows …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 5:39 am.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? You know all about Your purpose and plan for these writings. Whether I sound pretensions or not? True or false? It’s Your plan to make it known to all.

Me? You Know I Can’t Take Much More …

Between suffering the consequences of my human reactions to fly/flies to ants annoying me while awake or sleep, plus the troubles between Ahmad and me? I am simply worn out. At my wits end again.

Even So? You Are Holding Me Up. I Cannot Jump Ship …?

I am staying put. Sometimes sober. Sometimes I lose it. For the most? Busy searching my writings for files I cannot find, but! One thing I know for sure.

Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

To that end You have drastically dealt with me. I am appalled at my own self’s distasteful hypocrisy! But I am thankful for Your hand of discipline to set me free. A take from Psalms 139. Quote:

Psalms 139:2-5

You know my down-sitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. [Mat 9:4; Joh 2:24-25]

You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Master, You know it altogether. [Heb 4:13]

You have beset me and shut me in–behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.

My Distasteful Hypocrisy In Chasing Millions …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 6:46 am.

Reflecting on what I read that jolted me back on my Master’s track? Besides the admonishing to judge myself radically, a quote shone a beam of Your light to really expose that hypocrisy. Quote:

“Ego is the absolute impediment to Dao. The sin is pride. If it thrills you that you’re enlightened then you’re ruined. Forget sharing it. You’re not pure enough to share it.” — Terence McKenna

Even So? It All Comes To Me From Your Hand Of Mercy …

O my Master! I am not any longer thrilled about my enlightenment on the matter of receiving any enticing emails from Ray Edward et all. In fact? I am appalled! But!

Even That—Appalled? Could Be A Thrill Of My Carnal Nature, So? …

Therefore? I quit. I am letting go of everything. Including my thinking. My ideas and concepts. You are filling my mind with the opposite of all of that as You promised to do a long time ago. Quote:

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua You spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985. You said to me at that moment:

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love.  These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others.

Rest in Me and hold My flowers. Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”

And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. And You said to me:

“You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY flowers and not your flowers.”

Then You spoke to me a second Word to answer my dilemma at that time. I asked, ‘Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just to rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be Okay, Father?’ And You answered me,

“I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you. I am telling you just that.

You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off of ME.

Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying. You are being self-conscious.

Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.

Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for My own reasons, even if you don’t understand My reasons.

You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.

Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.

Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings.

That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor.

It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So, don’t worry about anything.

Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.

Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of.

You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

Serious Reflection On The Last Paragraphs You Bring To My Mind …

Quote:

“Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings. That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor. It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

“I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So don’t worry about anything.

“Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being. Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

So Be It. Though I Feel Like Crying For I Am Sad? …

No matter. Because my feelings are on this world’s shores, but! You have lifted me up to sail the high seas away from this world’s shores.

Whether I Sadly Cry Or Not? All It Matters Is To Be Near You On High Or Lower Seas …?

I’m going on. I’ll post these lines with my hope and expectation set on You by the power of Your love and wisdom, but! Before I post I must add the latest as I woke up this morning.

Continuous Constant Change …?

  • Cycles Of Life Repeating It Selves Precisely …

The First Day With No Pain …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 pm

I slept until 2:54 am. Thank Goodness! The end of my 7th Day of Rest came with the realization of Your Presence manifestation in a day without pain.

Twelve Years Since? This Cycle Of My Journey Began …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 3:22 am.

The year was 2007. Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Alone I sat reading the recent acquired article on Daniel 8. I began to see the parallel. Suddenly! I was called to the carpet. Quote:

It was a Saturday on September 15, 2007. I was keeping the 7th Day of Rest all by my lonesome. I was reading an article written by Yedidah on Daniel 8. Suddenly! It came to me something to this effect,

  • “Such is the message I have given to you to proclaim to the world. You are no longer doing so. You cannot hear Me any longer because, you are too busy taking care of the home bound. Because your spirit is sleeping and your mind is dull with all those pills that you are taking.”

Immediately, I got up. I headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my pill big box. I headed to the toilet. I proceeded to flush nearly $1000.00 of prescription drugs I have been faithfully swallowing for that many years.

I came back to the computer. I wrote a resignation letter to my position as a volunteer in the Senior Companion Program. I picked up the phone and cancelled all appointments with 5 specialists in-charged of my health. I made a note to prepare to sell my Kia Sophia.

Then I dropped the bomb on my children. “You are insane!” some of them retorted and quit their mom.

They had had enough of my crazy whims and mental insanity but, this was not insanity nor a whim after all. Years later it has proven it not to be so.

To conclude, for the record, it is now Thursday, October 20, 2016. Tomorrow will mark 30 years since October 21, 1986.

That is another remarkable date in my journey of life in the Presence of my Father/Creator. That was the date when Father marked me as a writer to honor His name.

The honor of our Father/Creator’s name. what does that mean? A mouth full of misunderstanding but, not outside of the Father/Creator’s control & dominion & knowledge.

His wisdom is unfathomable. That will be the subject for subsequent posts on this line. Why?

What the honor of the Father/Creator’s name got to do with mental insanity? The answer to that question gives way to the Innovative Approach to Mental Health that needs to be proclaim to the whole world if there is to be any hope to restore our sanity to avail us for eternity. End of quote.

Much Reflection Needed …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 8:26 am.

I cannot by any stretch of my imagination regress to any resemble of my old ways. But how on earth can I do what I intent to do? Inevitable, I do as I done before at the least provocation.

You Are Being Self Conscious. Quit Trying To Perfect My Work …?

Oops! I hear You big time! What a trip am I! No wonder why the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. O but Your faithfulness to Your words.

I Am In Control, Relax …?

  • O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
  • Today is your 12th anniversary of your return to do what I called you to do since 1985.
  • I am aware of your misgivings as you read Yedidah’s article on Daniel 8. You can now confirm all stated in that article, but!
  • The backlash from Yedidah and her followers still lingers inside of you. The reading of the article brought that backlash to the surface.
  • Thus, the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. Even so?
  • Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being even before you met Yedidah.
  • No need for you to hold on to that backslash. Yedidah and her followers cannot comprehend what goes on with your life in My Presence. Let go. I am in control.
  • Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.
  • I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake, but! You are human.
  • In your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time.
  • That is why I have had to pour the life in My written words slowly and gently in order to fill you with My Spirit in those words.
  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Dear Reader, I am sure you now have a better understanding of this journey of mine. Ready now to post for sure.

Here are the links to my last two books in case anyone is inclined to find out the details of what’s happening and it’s all happening in my life’s journey:

Click to access AN-EXTENDED-ADVENTUROUS-VOYAGE-1.pdf

Click to access Ahoy-The-Turquoise-Ship-Booklet.pdf

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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Truth Can Be Offensive/Insulting …

Have I Been Offended/Insulted By The Truth?

Big Time! Wished To Die, But!

That was the moment to face the truth about myself. That was the moment of my deliverance. The moment to set me free from the Truth about myself offending/insulting me.

Jerusalem was thriving with excitement. The Sukkoth Festival? Ha! she had coached me for several months since I left the USA. She had promised to perhaps meet me at the Festival in Jerusalem.

No Words To Described My Anticipation To Meet With What I Considered To Be My Mentor And Friend …

Word came. She had arrived in Jerusalem. At last the email. My heart pumping with anticipation? I clicked the email WHAT? What a shock! Quote:

Nothing wrong with your Theology. You are self-centered! I have no time to meet with you!

The end of the world came to me at that treacherous moment. I shut down the computer. I grabbed unto my Scriptures. I threw myself on the bed saying, “I’ll never again shall write one more word. I’m no good!”

Silence. Don’t remember crying. Just silence. Then? Suddenly! I heard,

“My Thia, My beloved, open the door of your chamber for I am knocking. I come to take you higher up to My Mountain to be alone with Me.”

Master, my door is open or is it not? Give me the eyes to see the door of my heart and the ability to open it wide to You.

“My beloved, in your heart there are many chambers and I have come to inhabit those chambers, but, now I wish to come in, in the most intimate and deepest chamber where no one else should be allowed.”

Master! My Beloved Master! By all means! Take the key that I can’t find and open the door for my secret chambers! By all means! My Beloved, take the key to my secret chambers and keep it as Your eternal property! I want no one else to invade such intimate quarters!

“My beloved, My Thia, the key to your secret chambers is now in My possession and I am taking residence in that deepest and most Set Apart chamber of your heart!

No one shall disturb you any longer, whether they come or go, whether they call or not, whether they are kind or un-kind, whether they are friend or foe, whether they are your flesh and blood or perfect strangers, NO ONE should ever disturb you anymore!”

O my Master! Are You now taking me to Your Mountain top? What am I to do? What am I to feel? What am I to think? Tell me my Master! Do unto me as it is pleasing in Your sight!

“My beloved Thia, you are now beyond the realm of disturbing feelings and emotions and imaginations.

From now on all your doings shall become sensible and your feelings for goodness shall intensify as well as your feelings for badness.

And your thoughts shall be under the captivity of My thoughts. This drastic change within your being shall soon take hold of the hearts of many who would turn to Me and esteem My name as they see your good works.”

Master, what about these festivals and different things that Your people are so deep into? What am I to do? What am I to respond to inquires as to my behavior on these days of excitement for Your people?

And, Master, what am I to do about my health? What about all the body discomforts I suffer all the time? Am I to do anything about my body? How am I to take care of my body?

“My beloved, say and do exactly as I have been leading you to say and do. Do not relent in speaking My WORD as it is written.

Truly, My Thia, your time has come to delight Me and from here on out ALL things and ALL matters shall come to pass in your life as it is written and as I have been telling you personally.

My beloved Thia, I am well aware of your physical condition. Your body is continuously decaying on account of the environmental conditions caused by the sin of mankind under the evil influence of our enemy.

Nonetheless, you have nothing to worry about because My grace is sufficient unto you; that means that you are able to withstand all and any discomfort in your body and rejoice rather than complain about it.

You are in excellent health and I will keep your body in healthy conditions until the time comes to invest you with a new body immune to decay.

My beloved Thia, from now on you will be sitting still and yet your activity in the realm of My invisible Kingdom shall intensify ten fold.

As of this instant I am taking control of your imaginations. Your steps shall be steady as you move in any direction.

And the song of praise and adoration to Me shall intensify to the point of the highest heaven.

Truly, My beloved, I AM in your deepest chambers! Nothing and no one can disturb you now!

Today is a very especial Sabbath and I shall teach you the way to come into My rest.

Your actions from here on shall be beyond your plans and ideas of what it should be done.

You will do the right and proper things without even thinking or premeditating ahead of time.

There will not any longer be any anxiety in your life even in the most arid places in the absence of human touch and care.

My Thia, My beloved, rejoice! Rejoice and be glad for your time has come to inhabit My Mountain top now and forever!”

Wow! I guess I won’t post this amazing word fulfilled today because I am sleepy. By the time I wake up the Net won’t work. It’s now Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 am.

Absolutely Awesome! Those Words?  …

Sailing the turbulent waves of these lower seas? I had even forgotten those words until this moment. Ten years beaten by the treacherous waves this world could to me thrust me under.

Even So? My Master Lives In My Deepest Chamber! …

Nothing and no one have been able to really disturb me despite all my lapses and preoccupations. Brutal pain and lack of gain? Almost to the exact day I am typing these lines without pain—no worries about my lack of gain.

MIRACLE!

Let’s go to the details if we must.

 

Introduction

 

What’s With This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory Been Writing About? …

Will Do My Best To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 1:56 pm.

Why do I keep regressing instead of progressing? Day by day the answer is coming clear to me but not to thee, dear Reader follower.

Therefore? This Introduction …

Let me summarize the sequence of events. Our lives come in cycles. In my life? I don’t know exactly when each cycle begins and ends except for this last cycle starting with An Extended Adventurous Voyage—the present cycle I am living in.

Here is the list of post from present to previous for your reference to understand this introduction.

Strange, But! Since I Started The Present Cycle? Not Many Clicks …

What is happening? I already explained the matter in the An Extended Adventurous Voyage post, but! It looks like it made no difference to my readers.

I Not Concerned About The Clicks, But!? …

I am concerned with how I am coming through to my readers. What came to me just this morning? To Explain What Is Only In My Mind So Plain.

  • It is plain to me how everything that happens in the physical realm has its source in the spiritual realm.

Our Physical Pain Has Its Source In What Is Buried In Our Spirits—The Deepest Part Of Our Beings …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 3:49 pm.

I am learning these things on the daily and moment to moment basis with every stage of my physical condition. The fluctuation of my physical condition troubles me big time.

That’s Why I Keep Regressing Instead Of Progressing, Until This Morning …?

What happened this morning? I had been in the gutter of my own negative thinking since yesterday when I came into the knowledge of being a ‘lame duck’ for lack of Ahmad’s support.

Down I Went! All Day. All Night. Until The Master Lift Me Up Earlier Today …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 10:52 pm.

Earlier today I got up from bed because I could not sleep. My mind kept churning with Ahmad’s lack of support. I kept begging for help. The answer came to my inbox.

Just Out Of Curiosity? I Clicked The Headline …

Wow! First glimpse of the people’s coming to terms with reality. I was impressed. Though that not in total agreement with the author of the post? I replied to comment. Quote:

I’m impressed! Radical Judgement of one’s self is the one thing, perhaps the only thing to solve our problems. Over and over I must radically judge myself.

Dear Reader, I will give you a bulleted summary of how this renewal of mine has been on the making for the last 45 years since 1974 when I discover the Scriptures.

  • The year was 1974—I discovered the Scriptures. Got into the unknown spiritual realm. Lost my mind. Stopped reading the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1979—amazing healing experience from deep wound inflicted upon me in my childhood. The result? Regain my physical health. Back in the Scriptures.
  • The year was 1983—Gruesome divorce. Felt apart. Lost hope. Lost all morals. Hit the top of immoral living.
  • The year was 1985—Suddenly! Unexpectedly! My whole life was run like a film strip in my view. What did I realize as I viewed the film?
  • I had gone through life unaware of the secret saving power of the Spirit of the Almighty Creator of my being, taking everything and everybody for granted without consideration of anything other than my own understanding of life, and the raw feelings of my emotions.
  • Restored,
  • A second mental breakdown.
  • Called to journal my life, but! Did not listen.
  • The year was 1986—convicted. Power to quit my work. Power to listen.
  • The year was 1987—began new life under my gifted friend’s care. Began to journal my life consistently.
  • The year was 1992—saddest year for me, my gifted friend died. I became lost. I felt abandoned. Back to my old life of family and church.
  • The year was 1994—bought property. Became sort of independent. Happy time.
  • The year was 1995—depression treatment? Electric shocks. Almost destroyed me. My daughter rescued me, but that’s the year my prescription drug addiction began.
  • The year was 1999—inspired to go live with family. Sold my property. Things did not work out. I felt spiritually dead.
  • The year was 2001—back on my own again. Got beautiful apartment, but! Got involved in helping seniors instead of my call to journal my life as instructed to do.
  • The year was 2007—that’s the year I dropped unconscious, victim of misdiagnose. Rushed to the emergency room at the point of death. Convicted. Repented. Restored.
  • The year was 2008—called to go to the ‘lost sheep of Israel. Power to accept the call.
  • The year was 2009—called to get out of the USA. Destination? The wilderness of people to judge me face to face.
  • The year was 2015—call to go with my gifted son Ahmad. He is to be my authority while we wait for Yahushua’s return.
  • The year was 2017—got the roof apartment of my dreams. My renewed life began.
  • The year is now 2019—WOW! What a year it has been. This is to be the year of our jubilee, but! O well?

It Surely Doesn’t Look Like Jubilee At All! But!

The Almighty Creator is in control of His creation. I am committed and submitted to Him as my supreme Authority. He has declared me to be His messenger. So? End of quote.

Reading And Commenting On That Post? It Brought Me To My Senses …

Reflecting on what I read? That’s what stopped the flow of negative thoughts. Then? I was able to hear my Master’s instructions to call Ahmad.

It Does Not Matter How It Looks To Us All …

Me? I’m, I have been going through another rough period of my journey. Don’t know what is to be even in the next moment. I go up and down, but!

O My Master! You Are Faithful To Your Word To Sustain Me …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 12:04 am.

One more 7th Day of Rest. Things don’t look too good between Ahmad and me. I am somewhat dejected, but! I am resting on You. I keep remembering Your recent words to comfort me. Quote:

“Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

The Sting Of Ahmad’s Words To Release His Anger? …

Enough fuel for my dejection, but! I’m taking what I give. I spit out similar words to him to release my own anger, and?

That’s A Good Thing! Be Ye Angry And Sin Not …?

Wow! Thanks, my Master! How amazing are Your words when You apply them to my inner being. To release one’s anger keeps one from the festering resentment that causes all our physical pain and misery.

Now I Am Beginning To Understand The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

Perhaps this introduction will help my readers to understand such power as well. On to the details of what is going on in my journey.

 

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on!

Human Integrity? Limited. Questionable Big Time …?

No Kidding! That’s Not My Idea, Dear Readers …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 3:57 am.

I wish it was because then you would be justified in abandoning this blog, but! The truth is now coming to light in many blogs/books and such other than this single post.

Self-Centered. Self-Righteous. Shallow. Me? Oh Com’on! …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:11 am.

How can that be? Everybody thinks highly of me. I’m faithful. I live by the word. I help the orphans and the widows. I support the Church and ministers. I – I – I – am a good Christian woman.

Me? How Can That Be? Talking about offended? Until …

Until the reality of truth hit my gut! It’s Wednesday, September 11, 2019 at 10:36 pm. Know what? I’m having an awful time writing about this issue.

Insults, Or What Is Considered As An Insult? Turns A One Away …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 4:26 am.

Indeed! Turns a one away from the source of the insult without hesitation. Thus? Many of my followers have abandoned this blog offended by the truth that will set them free. Even so?

The Almighty Sole Creator Of Our Beings Has Not Abandoned Them …?

Not a single one of His begotten children shall be lost. He plans to restore every single one of us. Only? His ways to do it all? Simple but! Illogical!

The Human Mind Cannot Grasp Such Ways …

That’s the fact to be exact. There is no need for me to be concerned about the followers of this blog. There is no need for me to be concerned about my loved one’s present behavior.

Master? You Are Lifting Me Up To Sail The High Seas …

The high seas away from any country’s jurisdiction. Away from my preoccupation with the human element. Your plan of restoration is coming to pass exactly as You have decreed it to pass despite all my preoccupations.

That’s The Fact To Be Exact. On To High Seas This Day I’ll Sail …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at.4:47 am.

O my Master! You have set me free from all my preoccupations. All around me I see, I read all the goings on of my people near and far. On this moment of time?

My Soul Is Free—On To High Seas I’ll Sail—Holding On To My Master’s Rail …

Clarity is in my mind to see far and beyond the furthest realm my imagination could find. The splendid future? Not so far away now.

It Might Be Days-Weeks-Months-Even Years, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:25 am.

The splendid future is already here. In my heart. In my mind. Because in Your Presence? That future I find. Because You live? I can live that future. Because You live? All fear is gone!

I Am Sailing On High Seas Away From The Storms Of Lower Seas Because …?

You have risen in my mind to calm it down. On high seas I am sailing while You are at the helm. No need to be overwhelmed because You are at the helm. Even so?

Reality! On Lower Seas? I’m A Lame Duck …?

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 12:53 pm.

A new pain. My right leg now hurts at my groin. I limp when I walk. It came to me, “You are a lame duck!” What? Coming to think about it that’s what my situation with Ahmad amounts to it.

What Is A Lame Duck? …

It can be an individual who has been elected for a definite purpose but! Is unable to fulfill his purpose for lack of support. I been elected to bring good news to Ahmad but Ahmad is no longer support me. Wow!

O My Master! What A Way To Sober Me Up …?

I been trying to live up to the allegory of The Turquoise Rose Ship! Been trying to sail on high seas away from the jurisdiction of this world. But I find myself sailing still on these lower seas of pain and lack of gain.

What Am I Now To Do With This Knowledge, My Master? …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 1:58 pm.

I hear You, “Let go. I am in control. You shall not be put shame. My power of love and wisdom? No foe can withstand. You live in My Presence under such power. Relax. Enjoy the moments of relief I gift to you.”

Thanks, My Master! The Oppression Of The Moment Is Brutal, But! …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 6:49 pm.

Relief. A cup of mint/basil tea helped. The time? In a moment this oppression shall be history. The noise around me. The silence inside. The pain in my right hand and shoulder?

Your Grace Is Sufficient Unto Me To Suffer It All Graciously …

I’m going on. Sober on lower seas. Fearless on higher ones. Either way? You are at the helm of The Turquoise Rose Ship I’m sailing on. No need to be overwhelm.

Open The Door! Turn On The Light. Hit The Sack. That’s That!

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 7:10 pm.

I did but it didn’t help. Guess that was not that! Excruciating pain. So be it. I refuse to complain. A cup of pure coffee with honey seems to be helping.

You Are In Control. No Matter What? I Refuse To Complain …

Thursday, September 12, 2019 at 10:56 pm.

I am not out of ideas to help myself, but! I’m replete with respect and fear for and of You. I will not repine. I wait on You with patience and composure. Shut off pc. 11:20 pm.

Ready To Talk Turkey Again, My Master. You Know It, But!

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 6:04 am.

First? I sense You calling me to sleep. Well? I guess You were not calling me to sleep. I could not sleep. I got up. All kinds of things been running through my mind because of pain, lack of appetite and now lack of sleep.

You Have Shown To Me All Physical Conditions Are Rooted In The Spiritual …

Friday, September 13, 2019 at 8:44 am.

Every single day You demonstrate what You show to me. My body reacts to what is going on in my spirit. A Lame Duck? That revelation threw me for spin downwards.

I Reverted To My Old Way Of Thinking Big Time, But! …

You kept me from staying there. Even so? A Lame Duck? Because Ahmad is not supporting me. From that thinking? Because. Because. Because kept churning in my mind until a moment ago.

It Came To Me, Why Are Sitting Here Imagining All Sorts Of Because? …

Call Ahmad. Find out what’s going on. Sure enough, I called. Didn’t have in mind to blow up in anger but that’s exactly what I did. Next? I began to think of jumping ship, but then?

I Lift Up My Voice, Where Can I Go From Your Spirit My Master? …

Behold! Your Power Of Love and wisdom. It Never Fails. It Always Avails! I began to reason, You have planted me here. I am established. I am safe and secure. What nonsense is this of ‘jumping ship’?

Back To Your Track. Holding On To Your Rail On High Sea Waters …

High Sea Waters? Treacherous waters! Unless I hold on to Your rail? I’ll be drowning without fail, but! You are at the helm. Should I let go of Your rail? You tilt the ship to save my tail—a take from Psalms 37:23-24.

The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Master when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Though he falls, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Master grasps his hand in support and upholds him.

Where Am I Going From Here On? I Don’t Know. My Master Knows …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 5:39 am.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? You know all about Your purpose and plan for these writings. Whether I sound pretensions or not? True or false? It’s Your plan to make it known to all.

Me? You Know I Can’t Take Much More …

Between suffering the consequences of my human reactions to fly/flies to ants annoying me while awake or sleep, plus the troubles between Ahmad and me? I am simply worn out. At my wits end again.

Even So? You Are Holding Me Up. I Cannot Jump Ship …?

I am staying put. Sometimes sober. Sometimes I lose it. For the most? Busy searching my writings for files I cannot find, but! One thing I know for sure.

Under No Circumstances Or Excuses Shall I Ever Use Your Name Or Your Word To Achieve Worldly Success …?

To that end You have drastically dealt with me. I am appalled at my own self’s distasteful hypocrisy! But I am thankful for Your hand of discipline to set me free. A take from Psalms 139. Quote:

Psalms 139:2-5

You know my down-sitting and my uprising; You understand my thought afar off. [Mat 9:4; Joh 2:24-25]

You sift and search out my path and my lying down, and You are acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue [still unuttered], but, behold, O Master, You know it altogether. [Heb 4:13]

You have beset me and shut me in–behind and before, and You have laid Your hand upon me.

My Distasteful Hypocrisy In Chasing Millions …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 6:46 am.

Reflecting on what I read that jolted me back on my Master’s track? Besides the admonishing to judge myself radically, a quote shone a beam of Your light to really expose that hypocrisy. Quote:

“Ego is the absolute impediment to Dao. The sin is pride. If it thrills you that you’re enlightened then you’re ruined. Forget sharing it. You’re not pure enough to share it.” — Terence McKenna

Even So? It All Comes To Me From Your Hand Of Mercy …

O my Master! I am not any longer thrilled about my enlightenment on the matter of receiving any enticing emails from Ray Edward et all. In fact? I am appalled! But!

Even That—Appalled? Could Be A Thrill Of My Carnal Nature, So? …

Therefore? I quit. I am letting go of everything. Including my thinking. My ideas and concepts. You are filling my mind with the opposite of all of that as You promised to do a long time ago. Quote:

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua You spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985. You said to me at that moment:

“I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love.  These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.

You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others.

Rest in Me and hold My flowers. Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”

And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. And You said to me:

“You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY flowers and not your flowers.”

Then You spoke to me a second Word to answer my dilemma at that time. I asked, ‘Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just to rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be Okay, Father?’ And You answered me,

“I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you. I am telling you just that.

You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off of ME.

Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying. You are being self-conscious.

Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me! I pleaded. And with Your infinite patience You told me,

“I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole. Quit trying to perfect My work.

Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.

Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for My own reasons, even if you don’t understand My reasons.

You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.

Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.

Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings.

That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor.

It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So, don’t worry about anything.

Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.

Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of.

You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

Serious Reflection On The Last Paragraphs You Bring To My Mind …

Quote:

“Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use your writings. That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to used it for My esteem and honor. It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.

“I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it. So don’t worry about anything.

“Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being. Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished—I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake!”

So Be It. Though I Feel Like Crying For I Am Sad? …

No matter. Because my feelings are on this world’s shores, but! You have lifted me up to sail the high seas away from this world’s shores.

Whether I Sadly Cry Or Not? All It Matters Is To Be Near You On High Or Lower Seas …?

I’m going on. I’ll post these lines with my hope and expectation set on You by the power of Your love and wisdom, but! Before I post I must add the latest as I woke up this morning.

Continuous Constant Change …?

  • Cycles Of Life Repeating It Selves Precisely …

The First Day With No Pain …

Saturday, September 14, 2019 at 10:23 pm

I slept until 2:54 am. Thank Goodness! The end of my 7th Day of Rest came with the realization of Your Presence manifestation in a day without pain.

Twelve Years Since? This Cycle Of My Journey Began …

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 3:22 am.

The year was 2007. Saturday, September 15, 2007 to be exact. Alone I sat reading the recent acquired article on Daniel 8. I began to see the parallel. Suddenly! I was called to the carpet. Quote:

It was a Saturday on September 15, 2007. I was keeping the 7th Day of Rest all by my lonesome. I was reading an article written by Yedidah on Daniel 8. Suddenly! It came to me something to this effect,

  • “Such is the message I have given to you to proclaim to the world. You are no longer doing so. You cannot hear Me any longer because, you are too busy taking care of the home bound. Because your spirit is sleeping and your mind is dull with all those pills that you are taking.”

Immediately, I got up. I headed to the kitchen. I grabbed my pill big box. I headed to the toilet. I proceeded to flush nearly $1000.00 of prescription drugs I have been faithfully swallowing for that many years.

I came back to the computer. I wrote a resignation letter to my position as a volunteer in the Senior Companion Program. I picked up the phone and cancelled all appointments with 5 specialists in-charged of my health. I made a note to prepare to sell my Kia Sophia.

Then I dropped the bomb on my children. “You are insane!” some of them retorted and quit their mom.

They had had enough of my crazy whims and mental insanity but, this was not insanity nor a whim after all. Years later it has proven it not to be so.

To conclude, for the record, it is now Thursday, October 20, 2016. Tomorrow will mark 30 years since October 21, 1986.

That is another remarkable date in my journey of life in the Presence of my Father/Creator. That was the date when Father marked me as a writer to honor His name.

The honor of our Father/Creator’s name. what does that mean? A mouth full of misunderstanding but, not outside of the Father/Creator’s control & dominion & knowledge.

His wisdom is unfathomable. That will be the subject for subsequent posts on this line. Why?

What the honor of the Father/Creator’s name got to do with mental insanity? The answer to that question gives way to the Innovative Approach to Mental Health that needs to be proclaim to the whole world if there is to be any hope to restore our sanity to avail us for eternity. End of quote.

Much Reflection Needed …?

Sunday, September 15, 2019 at 8:26 am.

I cannot by any stretch of my imagination regress to any resemble of my old ways. But how on earth can I do what I intent to do? Inevitable, I do as I done before at the least provocation.

You Are Being Self Conscious. Quit Trying To Perfect My Work …?

Oops! I hear You big time! What a trip am I! No wonder why the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. O but Your faithfulness to Your words.

I Am In Control, Relax …?

  • O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
  • Today is your 12th anniversary of your return to do what I called you to do since 1985.
  • I am aware of your misgivings as you read Yedidah’s article on Daniel 8. You can now confirm all stated in that article, but!
  • The backlash from Yedidah and her followers still lingers inside of you. The reading of the article brought that backlash to the surface.
  • Thus, the pain and discomfort been lingering on this morning. Even so?
  • Take everything in this day an know that My name will be esteemed because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being even before you met Yedidah.
  • No need for you to hold on to that backslash. Yedidah and her followers cannot comprehend what goes on with your life in My Presence. Let go. I am in control.
  • Therefore, every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.
  • I finished My work when Yahushua suffered for you at the stake, but! You are human.
  • In your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time.
  • That is why I have had to pour the life in My written words slowly and gently in order to fill you with My Spirit in those words.
  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Dear Reader, I am sure you now have a better understanding of this journey of mine. Ready now to post for sure.

Here are the links to my last two books in case anyone is inclined to find out the details of what’s happening and it’s all happening in my life’s journey:

https://www.thia-basilia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/AN-EXTENDED-ADVENTUROUS-VOYAGE-1.pdf

https://www.thia-basilia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Ahoy-The-Turquoise-Ship-Booklet.pdf

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The Turquoise Rose Allegory My Lifes RealityEnjoy! Deploy!

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Ahoy! The Turquoise Rose Ship!

All Aboard!

Enjoy The Trip!

Ahoy! The Turquoise Ship!

Swiftly, Effectively, Victoriously It Sails.

Destination?

The Shores Up Beyond The Sky So High

Your Heart And Mind to reach without fail

Hold on to the rail! Enjoy! Deploy!

 

 

First Item On The Ship’s Journal? I Don’t Give A Damn!

You Don’t? Are You Sure? Hum! …?

Embark! Ready!

Saturday, September 7, 2019 at 5:43 am.

Here I am my Master! You have ready Your thiaBasilia to Embark on Your ship. Destination? The heart and soul of each individual child of Yours.

Water Lack? The Adventurous Journey Begins …

Sunday, September 8, 2019 at 5:01 am.

O yeah, I squirmed a bit, frustrated I called, called, and called Ahmad to raise cane but then? Your wisdom! What’s the sense? What am I getting all worked up about? Let go! Then? I saw!

I Do Have Water! Thank Goodness! …

O my Master! This Adventurous Journey? Most certainly! I was not counting difficulties and troubles as an adventure for sure! Don’t really know what was I counting on? Duh!

But Your Unfathomable Wisdom! Who Can Fathom It? …

Not me for sure! My mind? A one-track mind—the track of trouble and frustration, but! O my Master? The power of Your love and wisdom to get me back on Your track.

Your Banner Over Me Is Love! That’s Your Track In Fact …?

Sunday, September 8, 2019 at 5:53 am.

What? O my Master! This is all beginning to make sense. My one-track mind is set on the world below, but! You have lifted me up from that track. You brought me back! Back, where?

You Brought Me To The Banqueting House …

Sunday, September 8, 2019 at 6:47 am.

Ha! Here I was yesterday. Surprised! No water! No Ahmad! No reason for cutting my water! These are horrible ways for these people to cut the water and do nothing about it! O well! I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!

Just Then? It Came To Me! YES! YOU DO CARE! And?…

First Item On The Ship’s Journal? I Don’t Give A Damn! Came to pass. Next? I thought long and hard on how this, ‘I don’t care—give a damn—and such has drastically affected me all of my life.

For the rest of the trip? Here is the link: Ahoy! The Turquoise Ship Booklet

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An Extended Adventurous Voyage …

On A Turquoise Rose …

Can Anyone Comprehend What’s Happening To Me …

I Can Hardly Comprehend It Myself.

How can I expect for others to comprehend? Each person in this world got their own comprehending to do. No need for my useless expectations.

It’s My Life. Is Happening To Me Not To Anyone Else …

Wow! Your voice resounds within my being. You are manifesting Yourself to me big time! I can hear. I can see. I can sense Your Presence—almost actually touch it. The reality?

Your Victory, Your Favor, Your Love, Your Peace, Your Joy, And Your Matchless, Unbroken Companionship …

The fulfillment of Your written words verbatim as written. What are You revealing to me now, my Master? Could it be a reminder of Your words in Matthew 5? Quote:

Matthew 5:17-18.

Do not think that I have come to do away with or undo the Law or the Prophets; I have come not to do away with or undo but to complete and fulfill them.

For truly I tell you, until the sky and earth pass away and perish, not one smallest letter nor one little hook [identifying certain Hebrew letters] will pass from the Law until all things [it foreshadows] are accomplished.

Matthew 5:19-20

Whoever then breaks or does away with or relaxes one of the least [important] of these commandments and teaches men so shall be called least [important] in the kingdom of heaven, but he who practices them and teaches others to do so shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven.

For I tell you, unless your righteousness (your uprightness and your right standing with God) is more than that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

To My Astonishment And Encouragement? You Are Revealing Now Why Am I Here …?

Why am I a voice in the Internet? Why the language barrier? Why my peculiar English? Why all these things are happening to me?  It’s all written! Quote:

Isaiah 28:9-11

To whom will He teach knowledge? [Ask the drunkards.] And whom will He make to understand the message? Those who are babies, just weaned from the milk and taken from the breasts? [Is that what He thinks we are?]

For it is [His prophets repeating over and over]: precept upon precept, precept upon precept, rule upon rule, rule upon rule; here a little, there a little.

No, but [the Master will teach the rebels in a more humiliating way] by men with stammering lips and another tongue will He speak to this people [says Isaiah, and teach them His lessons].

How ‘Bout That? And I Was So Ever Discouraged Wishing To Die Just Yesterday! …

Wow! It is humiliating to many USA citizens that I—a dumb one from little known Guatemala C.A. can put some of them down with the vast knowledge of their own language far beyond their comprehension.

Me? O Me! Honest! Not In The Least Desire To Show Off …

In my mind? They are all superior over me. Knocking myself over to please, to go along with all despite the things I see that they cannot see about themselves and myself, until?

This Moment. I Read. I See The Same Logic Running Without Cease, But! …

Tuesday, September 3, 2019 at 12:32 pm.

It all is no longer affecting me in the least. Why? Because You Are Revealing to me now not only why am I here but also the why in all my life, and?

You Have Encouraged Me To Go On Despite My Own Thinking …

So? I’m going on. Yesterday? I thought to quit. I wished to die. Today? I am going on. I am now thinking more on publishing rather than quitting.

Let me show you why in the following pages.

Click! Quickly click, click! AN EXTENDED ADVENTUROUS VOYAGE

It’s A New Day. A New Cycle In My Life’s Journey. Another Book Will Begin …

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What Troubles Me? What Troubles You? Have You Been Face To Face With The Cause Not The Matter? …

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It’s So Easy To Set My Eyes On The Matter Not What Matters …

Dear faithful followers,

Friday, August 23, 2019 at 9:26 am.

I been in the furnace of affliction big time since I posted last. You’ll read all about it should you be enticed to read what I’ll post next.

Phew! What A Relief! Let’s Sing A New Song Together Shall We? …

It’s A New Day!

Yes! I love you with the love of my Yah!

Yes! I love you with the love of my Yah!

For I see in you the esteem of His face!

Yes! I love you with the love of our Yah!

Shut the door to all bad

Be Glad!

The Only Choice?

Rejoice!

 

My troubles? For a worthy reason …?

Monday, August 19, 2019 at 11:55 am.

O but I am aggravated and troubled with my own self! You know it my Master. That’s the way You are bringing matters to light for the whole lot of Your created ones not only to see but!

To See The Cause Not The Matter …?

Let me put it like this, me—myself! I been great at hitting the like or making a beautiful positive or not so positive comment whenever a post hits my silly bone. Well? NO MORE! Why?

The Reality Of The Creator Has Stripped Me To The Bones And Marrow Of The Deepest Part Of My Soul …

There you have it in a nutshell. I been so quick to give my approval or disapproval of whatsoever came my way until? The last few days even to this moment.

I am the one who ate. I am the one who continued to eat until now …?

What am I talking about? I am talking about the blame game that we humans play and live by.

By George! The blame game that we humans play and live by …

The multitude of essays blaming the devil the moms and pops the democrats and monster rats is staggering!

What About Me? What About Me? What About Me? …

What about you? Well, thiaBasilia, speak for yourself! I am not like you. You are not? Thank goodness! For a minute there I thought you were in mind and thought aligned in perfect line with me.

Wrong Conclusion. My Own Delusion. My Own Assumption…?

O my Master! A few days ago You revealed to me the paradigm of my life or the veil covering my ignorance of the truth that set me free, and?

Since Then You Have Rented That Veil. I Can Now Clearly See. It’s Not About Them. It’s About Me! …?

The best part? I have quit putting in my two cents worth in likes and comments and responses and emotional upheavals about it all because? Because it’s not about them. It’s all primarily about me along my own delusions and conclusions.

Guess What? My Quit? Open Door For The Master To Step In The Stage Of The Age …?

But I’m getting stale with my tale. I’ll take a break. At last! Ahmad is supposed to bring me the dirt and plants for my garden. Things are beginning to progress in my recess. Hearty anticipation. Can’t hardly wait.

Endurance? It Takes A Different Face Day By Day …

Monday, August 19, 2019 at 4:05 pm.

Even moment by moment. I was so anticipating to get the so much needed dirt today, but! It did not happen! No dirt. No containers to transplant the few plants needing transplanting. Yet?

I Have The Power To Withstand This Hardship Or Stressful Situation …

That’s one of the faces of ‘endurance’. There is really nothing I can do about the situation. Calling Ahmad, telling him the problem? Useless. So?

I Come To You, My Master. I Cast The Frustration Under You Feet …

Not only my frustration and disappointment but also this feeling and thinking of mine—this miserable discomfort in my body.

  • Leg cramps—muscle pain—hurts to sit or stand—hurts to move—and?
  • My burning feet.
  • The Internet.
  • MS WORD acting up.
  • Hot smoldering weather.
  • Dread to lay down and sweat.
  • My mood swinging downward.
  • HELP! I’ll lay down. I’ll wait for Your help. 4:44 pm

And The Earth Keeps Rotating …

Monday, August 19, 2019 at 7:31 pm.

And so is my mood around my senses rotating. And my body? Aggravating! My mind? Over circulating. My feet another defeat. That all is the face of endurance.

Pray For Me. Pray For Me? What A Fallacy! Did We Not Read? …

The prayer and answer been gone on from the beginning of time, but! It did not change the course that mankind wanted to follow. So? Quote:

Jer 11:14  Therefore do not pray for this people or lift up a cry or prayer for them, for I will not listen when they cry out to Me in the time of their evil trouble.

Ah! But! Paul Say To Pray …?

Tuesday, August 20, 2019 at 9:22 am.

That was my stumbling block. I jumped from Yahushua’s to Paul’s words. For years on end, I followed Paul’s words, but You knew it my Master. No need for me to regret.

  • Working on graphics all day. Will continue recording when I wake up, perhaps. It’s now Tuesday, August 20, 2019 at 5:49 pm.

Woke Up To A Promising Comment …

Tuesday, August 20, 2019 at 9:11 pm.

O my Master! Your faithfulness! Just when I go so down thinking that no one cares? Up You quicken someone to show me they do care. What a blessing.

Pain And Sorrow Are Inevitable In This World …

But You overcome the world for me. Right now? Trouble. Ahmad’s phone is broke. No way to communicate. Have not heard from the family either, and? My body! From my head to my toes is wailing! I wait.

Time To Exercise The Power Of Endurance While I Wait On You …?

Where am I with the posting, my Master? Let  me see. Maybe the Net will cooperate. Nay! No Net. I’ll step out in the roof let the wind blow away even my troubled mind.

My Troubles Are Blown Away …?

Tuesday, August 20, 2019 at 11:41 pm.

By the Wind of Your Loving Spirit my troubles are blown away! Ahmad showed up at last bearing my containers and dirt and hot food as well as a troubled mind showing in his face.

He gathered the extra chair. He sat. I ate. We talked back and forth …

Whatever for we talked back and forth? The horror in his mind. His young neighbor’s tragic death last night. My troubles, but mainly? Our loving Father at work for our good regardless our own thinking.

Indeed! Despite All The Evil Coming Our Way? Your Mightiness Is At Work …?

At work without ceasing to restore Your creation, including us—Your so loved children. Ahmad left. His countenance? Relaxed. Smiling. Myself? No words to describe my awe of Your doings, my Master.

A New Promising Day Ahead …?

Wednesday, August 21, 2019 at 12:03 am.

Looking forward to a planting day. For now? I am not sleepy for a change. I’ll see about working on a slider for all the logos created.

  • Worked of the slides until around 2:00 am. Slept until around 4:30 am and? Began my planting spree! Forgot to drink or eat until around 9 am. Then? Got sidetracked with an offer to get the needed computer on time.

Are You Setting The Stage For A New Way For Me Here In Jordan?

August 21, 2019 at 10:47 am.

Master?  You know I need a computer, but! You also know that I will not take things into my own hands to get one. I also need a printer, a monitor, an extra tetra external drive.

Monthly Basis Seems Good To Me If …

I could get it here in Jordan. Only You can fix it so. I would be a miracle to solve all my computer problems if there would be a supplier here to provide that service for me. Even so?

O My Master? Deliver Me From Setting Myself In Futility …

It is really exciting to think of a possibility of getting new things that could resolve many problems, but!

We Can Easily Become Attached Bound By Pleasure And Comfort …

Speaking from the horse’s mouth again. Not only attached bound by such pleasure but also resentful when such things were not at my disposal. But that’s the past.

It’s A New Day For Me. Time To Sing With A Fling Even If Nothing Is My Thing …

Wednesday, August 21, 2019 at 5:28 pm.

O yeah! I will sing of Your mercies O my Yah! Forever I will sing. O my Yah reigns and blessed be His name, let the Yah of my deliverance be exalted!

  • Back to the graphics then to sleep when the weather cools off. Much reflection on the situation between Ahmad and myself. Conclusion. Slept for a while. My lil friend brought me some food. I cooked. I ate. Next?

Ray Edward’s Email Much Disturbed Me This Time. Why …?

I feel like crying but my eyes are dry. My heart is constricted. My mind is spinning. The question is again, ‘What about me, my Master?’

Yes! I Am Impressed, But! …?

Thursday, August 22, 2019 at 12:08 am.

I can’t shake off the horrible feeling of being left out. Ray Edwards is a big man in the eyes of the multitude that follows him. And now that You are dealing with him? He is becoming bigger yet.

Ha! That’s The Reason For My Heart Constriction …?

You have blessed Ray with millions. Me? Nothing. Zilch! Zero. Pain and lack it’s all I got to show for physically. That’s not a brainer. Ray is great among a multitude. Me?

What About Me, My Master? …

I was ready to sing Your praises with a fling. Suddenly? My song went ding o long. No longer in my heart a song. My heart is constricted. No room for a song.

I Want To Cry, But My Eyes Are Dry …

Sleep and wait. The only thing to do. It’s 4:11 am. Four hrs. of sleep did not do too good this time, my Master. I am hurting big time! But it is not about hurt pain or lack of it.

What Is It All About Then? It Came To Me Big Time On Waking Up …?

Thursday, August 22, 2019 at 4:18 am.

It’s about the power of Your love and wisdom or? Us human beings doing our own thing and following each other with a fling!

Been Following Ray Edwards Unaware. WHAT?

O set me free from my shock! Up to yesterday? Been hoping to get Ray Edwards attention to no avail. Been thinking You have raised Ray Edwards to materialize the preparation for the great tribulation, but!

Not Independent Of What You Have Been Doing With Me …?

That’s the clue for my distress at best! It does not make sense. You have done all this work in my life for people to see my good work of obedience and exalt Your name not mine, but!

In My Estimation? The Big Wheels Are Bypassing …?

O O O! Me or my good works of obedience? Distasteful hypocrisy’s visit in my quarters. How easy can I cater to hypocrisy. Yes! Indeed! What am I talking about?

Ray Edwards Emails Giving Me The Wrong Impression To Be Personal, And? …

My devastating shock to find out those emails are nothing else than the marketing technique that Ray Edwards teaches, but!

My Shock Is Passing. Your Wisdom Is Setting In Amidst My Painful Thing …?

O what a trip! I have no choice but to quit catering to my hypocritical desires for fame and fortune. Duh! O well! Humor instead of anger must come into place now. Here I am:

You got me set on testing grounds as I’m finding out just now.

What are You testing? I thought I had done passed the finals.

Passed the finals?

Long stretch yet before the final mark to get.

Many more tests yet.

Don’t fret.

Don’t fret?

When I don’t get?

Yes, I do get pain instead of gain, but!

Endure for sure.

Ah! Duh! Forgot all about that power!

What must I endure?

  1. Pain no gain and lack that’s what.
  2. Ahmad and family and customs in this forsaken area.
  3. My children.
  4. Frances and Jimmy.
  5. Yedidah.
  6. Don Esposito.
  7. Ray Edwards.
  8. Plus all gamut of leaders and followers doing their own thing.
  • Wow! And You have given me the power to endure them all? O man! Power to endure is not getting a hold on me, my Master! HELP!

I See It, My Master. I See It. You Are Helping Me To See …?

With the least provocation I tend to regress not to progress. What? Ahmad is Your business, but! Before I can blink an eye I want to take him back as my business. Pow! Hits the painful blow! And so?

How Are You To Remove This Blow?

Going to check the roof while I reconsider my demise. Back. It looks like rain. I covered the box with the jars with plastic. Maybe it’ll protect it from the rain.

A Humorous Life Not Necessary A Laughing Matter …?

Thursday, August 22, 2019 at 7:24 am.

Slight difference between humor and laughter. Humor can come with wisdom not with frivolously laughter. I am falling asleep in front of the screen. I saw a bright red background for graphics.

It Was Brief, But Red? Perhaps …

Not wanting to see truths that You are putting right in front of me. Just worn out! Today? Would have been Cory’s birthday. Perhaps I don’t want to see the truth in that whole affair.

Perhaps Not Wanting To See The Truth In All Affairs Going On …?

The truth? I must endure. I must not despair. Let all affairs go on and on. Let the power of Your love and wisdom take over it all. I’ll chill out! The pain is subsiding. Hope for a productive day in Your Presence.

Now what, my Master? I’m waiting on You …?

Thursday, August 22, 2019 at 9:35 am.

  • I refuse to premeditate what am I to say. I’ll try sleep.

Searching. Searching. Waiting. Waiting …?

Thursday, August 22, 2019 at 2:08 pm.

What is it that I am searching, waiting for? my Master. I am at my wits end again. Why? Because I cannot find whatever I am searching for nor have much of an idea of what am I waiting for.

The Development Of It All? Brings Me To This State And Condition Of Myself …?

Even so? I fear not. No matter my state and condition You know my determination to stay put—to remain steady in Your Presence. No matter what? I will not return to my old ways.

Why Am I So Sure? Sure To Stay Put …?

Because this time—this stage of my life? You are sustaining and maintaining me. You, not myself, not any other human prop. You—You alone sustain and maintain me in Your Presence under Your loving care.

That’s The Fact To Be Exact …

Friday, August 23, 2019 at 5:22 am.

The awful memories of a long gone past remain. No way to erase them, but! No need to fear them either. Those are the tyrants that held me imprisoned. As it’s written for Israel’s nation, so it is for me. Quote:

Isaiah 26:1-21

IN THAT day shall this song be sung in the land of Judah: We have a strong city; the Master sets up salvation as walls and bulwarks. Open the gates, that the uncompromisingly righteous nation which keeps her faith and her troth with YHWH may enter in.

You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind both its inclination and its character is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.

So trust in the Master—commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him forever; for the Master YHWH is an everlasting Rock—the Rock of Ages. For He has brought down the inhabitants of the height, the lofty city; He lays it low, lays it low to the ground; He brings it even to the dust. The foot has trampled it down–even the feet of the poor, and the steps of the needy.

The way of the consistently righteous—those living in moral and spiritual rectitude in every area and relationship of their lives is level and straight; You, O Master, Who are upright, direct aright and make level the path of the uncompromisingly just and righteous. Yes, in the path of Your judgments, O Master, we wait expectantly for You; our heartfelt desire is for Your name and for the remembrance of You.

My soul yearns for You O Master in the night, yes, my spirit within me seeks You earnestly; for only when Your judgments are in the earth will the inhabitants of the world learn righteousness—uprightness and right standing with YHWH.

Though favor is shown to the wicked, yet they do not learn righteousness; in the land of uprightness they deal perversely and refuse to see the majesty of the Master. Though Your hand is lifted high to strike, Master, they do not see it. Let them see Your zeal for Your people and be ashamed; yes, let the fire reserved for Your enemies consume them.

Master, You will ordain peace—YHWH’s favor and blessings, both temporal and spiritual for us, for You have also wrought in us and for us all our works. O Master, our YHWH, other masters besides You have ruled over us, but we will acknowledge and mention Your name only.

They the former tyrant masters are dead, they shall not live and reappear; they are powerless ghosts, they shall not rise and come back. Therefore You have visited and made an end of them and caused every memory of them—every trace of their supremacy to perish.

You have increased the nation, O Master; You have increased the nation. You are esteemed; You have enlarged all the borders of the land.

Master, when they were in trouble and distress, they sought and visited You; they poured out a prayerful whisper when Your chastening was upon them.

As a woman with child drawing near the time of her delivery is in pain and writhes and cries out in her pangs, so we have been before You—at Your Presence, O Master. We have been with child, we have been writhing and in pain; we have, as it were, brought forth only wind. We have not wrought any deliverance in the earth, and the inhabitants of the world of Israel have not yet been born.

Your dead shall live O Master; the bodies of our dead set apart ones shall rise. You who dwell in the dust, awake and sing for joy! For Your dew O Master is a dew of sparkling light—heavenly, supernatural dew; and the earth shall cast forth the dead to life again; for on the land of the shades of the dead You will let Your dew fall. As it is written in Ezek. 37:11-12.

Come, my people, enter your chambers and shut your doors behind you; hide yourselves for a little while until the Master’s wrath is past.

For behold, the Master is coming out of His place—heaven to punish the inhabitants of the earth for their iniquity; the earth also will disclose the blood shed upon her and will no longer cover her slain and conceal her guilt. End of quote.

I Leave It At That. A New Day. To Shut Behind My Past’s Door? That’s What My Mind Is Set For…

Friday, August 23, 2019 at 5:54 am.

For days now those ghostly memories flared up to trouble my mind, but! No need to fear. The reality? It’s set in my mind—those ghostly memories are only ghosts—they are dead, they shall not live and reappear.

Until the next time whenever!

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You Might Enjoy Learning The Same One Who Sustains Me Sustains You …

Also? Learning Why We Are Not To Recriminate Or Bash Each Other …

Me? Slow Learner. Slow Listener. Fast To Do My Own Thing. Duh! …

Saturday, August 17, 2019 at 5:26 am.

Yeah! I’m laughing now, but! The horrors I have gone through for doing my own thing? Not a laughing matter at all. Anyhow? No regrets! The Creator is at fault but! O well!

No Regrets? My Foot! I Do Regret Putting The Blame Instead Of Taking It …

Hahaha! That just came to me. I been blaming the Adams in the world, because of putting the blame instead of taking the blame for themselves. What on earth am talking about?

Talking About That Adam! What A Trip! A Wimp? My Limp! …

Yeah! My limp? That Adam is to blame for my limp—ing to the toilet as soon as I managed to raise my aching body from bed! Me? I’m the one who ate, but! O well! Innocent me?

The Serpents In The World Are To Blame For My Shame …?

And on and on goes the blaming tale to this day. It’s the evil Muslims! The Jews! The Russians. The Americans! What about me? Me? I’m just the innocent victim of all the evil ones!

Really? Innocent? Yeap! Innocent Until Proven Guilty! Hahaha! …

Why hahaha? Because that legal thing of ‘innocent until proven guilty’? It can work against one big time when the Judge slams the hammer, ‘GUILTY! And on the slammer’s door slam! But The Thing Here Is?

We Are Not Talking About This World’s Ridiculous Predicament Of Innocent Or Guilty. We Are Talking About: …

Who us sustain or? Retain, preserve, uphold, carry on, continue, bear on—keep or maintain in unaltered condition; cause to remain or last. Wow!

That Was A Job To Find All That The Word ‘Sustain’ Stands For …?

It’s a Metaphor or a figure of speech in which a word or phrase that ordinarily designates one thing is used to designate another, thus making an implicit comparison. That’s what the dictionary tells. So?

Why All These ‘Grammatical’ Exposes? To Make Me Look ‘Smart’? Perish The Thought! Nay! …

It’s only the Creator’s way to enlighten me how easily we misinterpret His meaning when He talks to us. Me? Guilty! Guilty! Guilty up to the last minutes of the hour of one recent day, but!

Am I Rambling On? Rambling? Power To Resist Not To Insist …?

The Books Tell It All Direct And To The Point. Will they be read? Who would be to read them led? That’s Your business O Master Creator. You compel me in those books all to tell.

You Alone Have The Power To Compel The Reading Of All In Them I Tell …

So be it. No need to recriminate or Bash myself or anyone coming to my mind’s confine. You sustain me. In the same vein? You sustain them all!

In silence? I worship You.

What’s The Use, My Master? They Know You Sustain Them, But! …

Saturday, August 17, 2019 at 10:45 pm.

This day of rest is ending with a note of bitter-sweet reality. You led me to post today, but! The Internet quit on me. Even so?  You allowed me to post in the main site—the site that my friend checks all the time.

You Have Gifted Me This Friend Since 1987 …

Her personality is opposite to mine and? I been bashing her because her vast knowledge of Your words that she flings at me all the time. I have not been able to understand why her flinging Your words to me just irks instead of encouraging me.

Your Timing Is Perfect …

The Internet worked just for me to call and share with her my guilt and Your restoration. I told her about the post for today. I hung up somewhat dejected because I sensed her lack of connecting with my sharing, so? I went to sleep. Sure enough. I woke up only to find her comment confirming the lack of connection.

No Humble Response …

Is like she knows You sustain her because she deserve it. No conviction. Just knowledge. Nothing like, “I thought I knew but now I see with my spiritual eyes and I repent in dust and ashes.”

O My Master But I Sense Your Sadness. What Am I To Do? …

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? You did well in not bashing your friend because of her natural comment. I delight in your coming to me instead. Now, like Elihu, you have given Me the stage to descend upon your friend. Quote:

Elihu Rebukes Job’s Three Friends

Job 32:1  SO THESE three men ceased to answer Job, because he was [rigidly] righteous (upright and in right standing with God) in his own eyes. [But there was a fifth man there also.]

Job 32:2  Elihu son of Barachel the Buzite, of the family of Ram, became indignant. His indignation was kindled against Job because he justified himself rather than God [even made himself out to be better than God].

Job 32:3  Also against [Job’s] three friends was [Elihu’s] anger kindled, because they had found no answer [were unable to show his real error], and yet they had declared him to be in the wrong [and responsible for his own afflictions].End of quote.

Do you see it, My child? Now? My wisdom is prevailing over your emotional responses. Send this entry to your friend, and? Let be. Be still. I will do the rest.

Remember, My precious child, remember, I delight in your obedience despite what you think and feel or what others think and feel. My delight in such obedience is your strength.”

Master? I am willing to obey You, but the Internet is not working.

I take it’s Your will to deliver this entry in Your time. So? I’m on to see if You open the Net for me to deliver this entry.

Nope! No Internet. No Problem. You Are In Control Of It All.

Saturday, August 17, 2019 at 11:20 pm.

You are my Reality—my Shepherd—my Master. You lead me to the still waters of Your Presence in my heart and in my life. You always open my eyes to see in the way I must go. I wait on You.

  • It’s new day! Sunday, August 18, 2019 at 1:44 am. Heading for bed.

My Mind Is Overactive. But You Know It My Master …

Sunday, August 18, 2019 at 9:39 am

Help! O my Master, help! The Internet is now working, but! I just have no desire to send that email or to continue with the posting anyway. I need Your push. Sleepy.

At The Crucial Road. How Many Times …?

Sunday, August 18, 2019 at 12:05 pm.

My experience? I done lost count, but! O my Master? You have not lost count even of one second of my journey of life. Why the question? Observation.

Observing People Under Your Watchful Eyes …?

It seems to me that people face a certain crucial road in their lives with either certainty to go on and on or with despair and uncertainty.

What Makes People Behave The Way They Do …?

What a question! For an answer the humankind have come up with a staggering number of organizations all geared to lead people in the pursuit of happiness.

Master! Help! What’s Triggering This Line Of Questions …?

Early this morning I stepped out in the roof. I looked down. Not a soul around except for a fat man dressed with a brown gown sitting on the side-walk his legs stretched, his head down, and?

My Mind Spun With The Question, ‘Why Was This Man Born?’ …

O my Master? You have a purpose for letting me see and question the situation. The thing is that, at that moment?  I lost my good intentions to obey Your instructions to send that email, but! .

I Have No Desire Whatsoever To Ask Questions Or Answer them Or To Debate Anything …

I’m stuck now. You know it. How on earth can I avoid looking at the evil surrounding me in this forsaken spot You have planted me in? Even so? It’s coming to me.

The Civilized World …

In the civilized areas of this world? The civilized human beings are not exposed to the ugliness of evil. They live in the beautiful side of evil. Ha! That’s the key to answer my questions.

What Makes The Civilized World Go-Round …?

No question. The beautiful side of evil—Self-righteousness. Self-sufficiency. Self-worth—SELF! The carnal mind. The carnal heart? The treason that makes the world go around on these earthly grounds. Even so?

Sunday, August 18, 2019 at 1:17 pm.

Again And Again! You Are In Control Of It All! …

No worries. I quit my thinking. Back to my graphics. In due time? I will email that letter; I will post whatever I am to post. I’ll do whatever is Your will for me to do.

In Suspense. Not Knowing What’s What Again! …?

Monday, August 19, 2019 at 1:22 am.

Been up since 12:00 am. Been optimizing the logo. I’m extremely uncomfortable, but! Not in despair. Not knowing what’s what? I headed for bed. Slept until 3:40 am. Nothing concretes in mind, but!

A Fuzzy Idea Of My Falling Down From The Mountain Of Self-Righteousness …

Monday, August 19, 2019 at 4:14 am.

It also came to me to add the response from my friend to the latest post instead of emailing to her. The Internet is up. O my Master? I must learn to be flexible with my thinking instead of getting stuck in the mud of my set ways.

How Easily We Can Set Up Our Own Way Of Doing Things …?

Things and circumstances in this world change on the daily even moment to moment basis, but? We humans are reluctant to change. Why?

Change Goes Against Our Logic –That’s Why …?

Phew! That just came to me! What a revelation and solution to my trouble of yesterday! Hahaha! Actually? When our logic is disturbed, we get ill—miserable uncomfortable—incapacitated to move on. WHAT?

Hold On! I’m Coming To A Logical Conclusion …?

My day was ruined yesterday with one look at a poor man. Silly? Perhaps. The thing is that all my intentions to obey You, my Master? My plan to obey You? It came to a halt!

How Did You Get Me Back On Track To Be Exact …?

O my Master? You are awesome. You have setup the ones that You are to use to bring about Your plan of restoration. Of course, they are in the 7000 number, but! My individual lot?

You Have Setup Three Of Them To Trouble Me With Their Love …

Or, should I say, Your love? For You are the One guilty of gifting me with those three that drive me up the wall on the daily basis.

That Could Be A Subject For The Next Post.

I leave the matter at that. Meantime? Power to endure graciously. Joy inexplicable. Double dose of Your love and wisdom not only for those three but for all in my toll has increased to not cease.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia. :-)

 

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You Might Enjoy Learning Who Sustains Me …

Also? Learning Why I Have Not Been Posting …

 

You, My Master, Are Sustaining Me …

Thursday, August 15, 2019 at 10:02 pm.

Otherwise? I’ll cave in. Things that seem to be so easy for other people are so hard for me, but! You are with me. I’m now heading for bed hoping You give me some sleep.

I’m Up. Now What? Not Feeling Up The Par …

Friday, August 16, 2019 at 1:45 am.

No Internet. Should go back to bed? Up again at 3:20 am. Hurting big time! Thanks for trusting me not to despair even at the peak of pain and lack of gain.

Yes! I Look Around Me. It’s All So Beautiful …?

Friday, August 16, 2019 at 3:36 am.

I look at my feet. My sandals? Perfect fit. I still see the mound of turmeric and the white glowing trees You showed me in my dream. I recall Your command to rejoice, and? Still not able to do so! Help! O my Master? Help!

Your Help? In The Meaning Of My Dreams …

Dream about seeing turmeric

Dream about seeing turmeric signifies technology, information and modern life. By recognizing the hidden aspects of yourself, you are able to move forward in life. You feel the need to defend yourself. The dream represents the start of a new love. You are experiencing total clarity in a situation or problem.

Seeing turmeric dream is a message for ability to express your desires or ideas. Perhaps you feel that you are giving more than you are getting back. You are ready to go through life with a fresh new outlook and attitude. Your dream states immortality, life and fertility. You are discovering a new aspect of yourself.

What does seeing a white tree mean?

White trees can appear in many ways, it could be covered in snow or a beech tree. Painting a tree truck white indicates a sense of protection in folklore, it is not dissimilar in your dream.

To see a white tree in your dream state means that your wishes are pure. A white pine tree in a dream means your heart and soul are pure and gentle. To plant a white tree means you are going to accomplish what you wish for so long.

Thanks, My Master! You Are The Reality Of My Life …

Friday, August 16, 2019 at 5:55 am.

Wow! Three fives in the hour/minutes of the date! Look for meaning of number 5, but! Need to sleep. Can’t keep my eyes opened. Headed for bed. Slept for another hour.

On Waking Up I Looked For The Meaning Of Number Five …?

Wow! I found the meaning on the Biblical Meaning of Numbers. It blew me away! Not just the meaning but Your faithfulness to help me to come up from the pit of pain. Quote:

The Meaning of Numbers: The Number 5

The number 5 symbolizes God’s grace, goodness and favor toward humans and is mentioned 318 times in Scripture. Five is the number of grace, and multiplied by itself, which is 25, is ‘grace upon grace’ (John 1:16). The Ten Commandments contains two sets of 5 commandments. The first five commandments are related to our treatment and relationship with God, and the last five concern our relationship with others humans.

How Exact And Accurate Your Leading And Instructions Can Be, And?

Friday, August 16, 2019 at 9:36 am.

You emphasized the matter to me 3 times. Wow! Could it be Your leading to post what I got formatted so far? After all? The first five commandments are related to our treatment and relationship with God, and the last five concern our relationship with other humans.

I Got It! Just Now, I Got It!

Friday, August 16, 2019 at exactly 9:52 am? I got it! How ‘bout that! Got to go and post. Appropriately? The Net is working. Thank goodness!

Dear Faithful Followers …

The truth of the matter is that I been worn out with the formatting of the books. It’s overwhelming the immensity of the Creator’s work recorded in all details, but!

The Master Leads The Way, And?

I am following Him all the way. So? I am posting what I got so far, but! I still need to further optimize what I am posting today. I welcome any suggestions to improve the posting. Thanks. Here are the links:

HELP. MERCY. LOVING-KINDNESS 4 the helpless

Little Known Ways To Overcome Life

Anger Explosion May 29 2019

Power to Endure

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Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

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Announcing Or Announcement? I Chose Announcement …

And A Great Announcement It Is ….

Dear Faithful Ones Waiting For Me To Grace You With These So Unique And Especial Posts …

Tuesday, July 30, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

Here I am at the end of this day. How am I doing? Should I lie to you telling you I am doing well? Hum! Well? I won’t be lying to tell the truth. I am doing supper! Supper over all my miserable pain and lack of honey. Can you believe it? No pain or lack of anything troubles me anymore. The power of His love and wisdom is the reality of my now life. That’s the ‘great announcement’ on this day. Enjoy! Deploy! Much love to all.

What Do I Have So Great To Announce? A Genuine Product Ahead …

Tuesday, July 30, 2019 at 2:22 pm.

My Inner Teacher been leading me to all kinds of great info that I have been implementing all along to no avail. Man! My implementation? I think it to be hilarious for the most. But I try! Anyhow?

Most Important Info About Branding? The Product MUST Be Genuine …

Well? What is my product? I cannot sell my books. Maybe Joyce’s candles? Been wondering for a lonnggg time! I think Joyce done got tired of waiting on me to promote her site.

Ah! Life And Strength! The Most Valuable Product I Have To Offer …

I been flowing with the wind of my Inner Teacher, but? I never really got the handle on promoting such product. It’s such ethereal, surreal, intangible matter, but! Reality to the Master. Quote:

“In the journey of your life in My Presence I have implanted My written words within you to produce LIFE & STRENGTH to live accordingly to My will and desire for you to live by! LIFE & STRENGTH to live the life that you are now experiencing is the HARVEST and the most valuable product that you have to offer to My children in all that you write.” said Father Yah to thiaBasilia.

Well? I Can Now More Than Just Quote Those Words …

What is the most valuable product that I have to offer to Your children in all that I write? The HARVEST! What Harvest? Sleepy at 6:34 pm.

The Harvest From The Seed You Planted In The Mother Of All Living …

Tuesday, July 30, 2019 at 9:49 pm.

Back to the beginning. The beginning coming now to the ending. So much written about it. So much said about it. So much beyond my understanding, but!

It’s All Coming To Light Now In The Most Personal Way …

  • “And I put enmity between you and the woman, and between your seed and her Seed. He shall crush your head, and you shall crush His heel.” Footnote: First promise of the Messiah. Genesis 3:15

Indeed! All Scholars Know That Is The First Promise Of The Messiah, But!

What about me? Phew! That SEED? It has always been an ethereal concept to me. No kidding. I never saw it like that until now.

A Concept? Not An Experience. What A Difference! …

Even so? No longer a need to expound. All it’s now found—made clear to me not by just words that go right over my head, but!

Clear! By The Actual Fruit From That SEED Planted In My Heart As It Was Planted In The First Created Human Being …

Wow! What a mouth full of reality—actuality—experience—otherwise? The apprehension of an object, thought, or emotion through the senses or mind.

In vain we try to explain experience. Why?

Simple. It’s un-explainable. So? What’s the use for the frantic search for human knowledge and wisdom? O MINE! Now I’m in trouble, but! Father knows all about my ‘troubles’ with the humankind. No problem.

Just Tell It To That Amazing Scholar Up on the Teacher’s hrone And Run For The Bathroom! …

“Got to go!” And that scholar lets you off the hook! Otherwise? You be a ‘dead duck’ for a fact. O but you got to be shrewd with those scholars. They do understand the bathroom urgency. Hahaha!

Humor Instead Of Anger. In Retrospect?

Because I know He holds the future? My life is worth the living just because He lives. No kidding. He’s alive. His fragrance now envelops me. But in the past? Take a look, enough to make me cry: But guess what?

Quotes:

God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish—sorrow and mourning,

…. nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away. See! I make all things new. Revelation 21:4-5

But, on the contrary, as the Scripture says, What eye has not seen and ear has not heard and has not entered into the heart of man, [all that] God has prepared (made and keeps ready) for those who love Him, who hold Him in affectionate reverence, promptly obeying Him and gratefully recognizing the benefits He has bestowed. [Isa 64:4; Isa 65:17] 1 Corinthians 2:9

The Master Will Be Gracious

And therefore, the Almighty Yahuwah earnestly waits expecting, looking, and longing to be gracious to you; and therefore, He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you and show loving-kindness to you.

For the Almighty Yahuwah is a Mighty One of justice. Blessed—happy, fortunate, to be envied are all those who earnestly wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy, and His matchless, unbroken companionship.

Now. Now? I Can Offer To All The Harvest At Last …

Humor instead of anger. Indeed! It’s humorous to take a look at the past me. Well? The past me? I don’t have a mirror to see the present me. So? I live on hope! The difference not physical yet. Hahaha!

Am I Talking Genuinely? You Bet! I’m Genuinely Me! Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.