It Is Hard To Follow What I Post. Why? …

My Writings Are The Continuing Story Of My Life


It Began In 1985 Continuing Until Today …

Now? Each one of us have our life story to be concerned about. So?

  • If you happen to read the latest post? You might have a hard time following my moment to moment recorded.
  • Therefore? It came to me to quote what is written in the autobiography of my life about my story.


Encouraging Words

Encouraging Words from one of Thia’s Pastors

While reading this manuscript I became impressed that it contains a message that can be used of the Lord to give the child of God insight into their own spiritual journey. In this volume is to be found the ups and downs of the author’s own pilgrimage through a life that has taken many turns.

Everyone of us, who are on our own spiritual journey, know that life is filled with many pitfalls that at times may cause us to be side-tracked and even to at times fall. Yet, in the adventure of this author’s life, one can see the grace, mercy and love of our Father God for one of His own. We are reminded in these writings of just how faithful He is to see us through the darkness of hell that may come against us and bring us to the marvelous light of His love.

I commend this book to all who may find strength for the journey from the insights here given.

May it all bring honor, glory, and praise to our Lord.

Homer G. McKeithan, Jr. Pastor Preface


From The Author

It is my hope and prayer that as you read on my story, dear reader, the Almighty Holy Spirit of God may enlighten you to perceive that the purpose of my writing is not just to write an story about the interesting and somehow exciting at times yet tumultuous life which I have lived so far.

But rather the motif and message of this story are to exhort and give hope to all who read it. It has been written about my carnal self’s life to make us all realized the wickedness and futility in such a life regardless of the attractions and excitement in it.

And it has been written with the purpose to exhort us all to examine our lives and turn to the Almighty God Who created us.


Encouraging Words from Juanita…

I had the pleasure of reading this autobiography as a work in progress. I saw it grow from a few thoughts on the page into the work you now have before you. As I read it, I waited with anticipation for each subsequent addition.

Thia’s journey is fascinating. She takes us through her life in a captivating way. She bares her heart and soul in this work. You will find the message of her growth with God and our savior, the Lord Jesus Christ as she tells of everything she has endured. She shows how He guided her, held her up in His precious hands and saw her through tough times. He never failed her.

This work is not only a journey through Thia’s life but a journey of faith. I truly believe that anyone who reads this will be blessed to see how God’s love and mercy can sustain us and see us through anything that life throws our way.

I am sure you will be richly blessed by the reading of this wonderful woman’s story of her life. As you will see, if God brings you to it, He really will bring you through it.


A Sober Message from Thia…

A sober message to a country caught in the revelry of success.

An introduction to the life story of an unknown writer willing to strip herself naked to expose her utter shame as well as her utter dignity. May this country pause, in the midst of its success’ revelry, to hear, to heed the warning coming from above.

For the writer has exposed her utter shame as well as her utter dignity through her life’s story. This the writer has done as testimony that, by the power of the Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ remains our Messiah, the Good News from heaven, and our only hope for glory. For God, the Almighty God of the new and Old Testaments of the Holy Bible, gave us His very life to save us even from our own selves. Ah! Testimonials like this are not written for naught.

For once the Author, like a worm, crawled wingless in these earthly grounds. Now, like a butterfly, her beautiful wings among men she can display. To God be the glory! End of quote.

  • That should give anyone an incentive to follow up this saga of my life.

What Happened And How The Saga Developed …?

The autobiography did not fly for reasons from on high. But the story continues in the inspired websites since 2006.

The Websites? O Mine! Even I Have A Hard Time …?

But once anyone gets hook up in just one of the posts? The rest is history.

  • But why the immensity of words written on the same subject over and over again?
  • Beats me!

Beats Me? O Well! You Only Have To Read For A Bit Before …?

Before you can realize my dilemma. To begin with? My grammar and crude graphics.

  • Then comes my ups and downs.
  • Next my going forward and then backwards.
  • Now I see it.
  • Now I don’t.

For Heaven’s Sake Woman, What Is Your Point? …

Point? I ain’t got a point. The truth? I am not writing for myself. I am writing for the Master Creator of our beings.

No Kidding. That Is The Fact To Be Exact …

But it is just nowadays that our Creator has chosen to clearly reveal such fact to this so loved world of His.

  • So? It is now Wednesday, June 2, 2021 at 3:23 pm.
  • And? I am now ready to proceed with what I am to post after all these preliminaries of the moment.

Master? You Helped Me To Sort Out What To Post Next…?

It has been somewhat discouraging to read so much of the recorded writings. Over thirty years recorded!

  • It has thrown me in something like a shock, but! I remain calm and composed, why?
  • Because You have let me know You are sorting out every bit of the words You have inspired to me through those thirty years.

So? My Thoughts On Sunday, May 30, 2021 At 12:10 Am …?

Thinking on what to do with what I thought You intended me to do. I thought that perhaps I was to format it all in PDF and set a link to it?

  • I had me some maqluba.
  • I got me some belly ache.
  • I headed for Photoshop.
  • Tweaked the dove illustration.
  • Belly ache forgotten.
  • Heading for bed at 1:48 am on Sunday, May 30, 2021.
  • Up on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 5:28 am.

Master? Help! Only You Can Help Me …

Cramps. I hurt all over my body. I don’t know what to drink or eat. I don’t know what is causing me these miserable moments.

  • Unless You intervene?
  • Will try back to bed at 6:25 am.
  • Thank You. I am feeling much better.
  • It is now Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 10:16 am.
  • I done watered the plants.
  • Fixed and ate breakfast.
  • Now ready to tackle the PDF file.
  • I wait on Your leading.
  • It is now Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 3:58 pm.
  • I have been working on sorting out what has been published or not.
  • A hard task.
  • But the Internet was connected around 3 pm.
  • So that is helping me to sort things out.
  • Now I must restart the computer for update.
  • Back on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 4:15 pm.
  • Now? Monday, May 31, 2021 at 3:43 am.
  • Will record when up.
  • Up on Monday, May 31, 2021 at 6:22 am.
  • Thank You my Beloved!
  • Sleep is good.
  • You are healing my body.
  • Ready to continue the task You have assigned unto me.
  • I spent the whole day working on the post.
  • The header looks nice, but the Internet is acting up again.
  • So? I only published in the main site.

End Of The Day As Well As The Month …

Master? Monday was quite a day! Midnight came and went while I was intent tweaking the new header for the site.

  • My day started with Ahmad coming to breakfast with me.
  • That did not go anything like in the past.
  • I spent my day on my task.
  • Then? A knock at my door.
  • The owner of the building.
  • No English, but!
  • I understood that a young lady with the owner wants to come and help me with the cleaning of my place.
  • So? I called Ahmad to translate for me.
  • Ahmad told me they wanted to use my roof to dry their clothes.
  • But I did not quite understood what Ahmad was telling me until this morning.
  • The young woman wanted to help me in exchange for them to use my roof to dry their clothes.
  • That’s why my tears began to flow.
  • Nothing is the way it seems to me.
  • It seemed to me that You were sending me the help I have been asking for, but!
  • How can these people think nothing about respecting my living style?
  • Fear knocked at my door, but!
  • I did not open!
  • My response?

“I live in Your Secret Place under Your protection. Your power no foe can withstand.

Only goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my and I shall in Your Presence now and forever.”

New Day. New Month …

Date and time now? Tuesday, June 1, 2021 at 1:05 am. It is now the first day of the 6th month, the month of my birthday.

  • I notice the hour and minutes as I began to record right now.
  • A One for unity, a Zero for inclusiveness, and a Five for grace and preparation.
  • I need sleep.
  • Bed on Tuesday, June 1, 2021 at 1:38 am.
  • Up on Tuesday, June 1, 2021 at 5:34 am.
  • Back to sleep about an hour later.
  • Up around 9 am.

Reflecting In Your Presence The Tears Began To Flow …

  • It is now Tuesday, June 1, 2021 at 8:06 pm. Why the tears? To realize the evil that has surrounded me all the days of my life brought tears to my eyes, but!
  • You dried my tears as I confessed Your protection.
  • I got up and continued searching my files for a picture that seemed to have disappeared from my files.
  • Even so? My search took me to where You were leading me to.
  • That file is 51 pages long, but it is exactly what You have put in my mind to publish next.
  • That is what I thought You intended for me to do, but!
  • My miss givens? I thought:
  • I have my work cut out for a while.
  • For it is going to take me a while to edit such writings recorded in 2009 while You had sent me from Aqaba in Jordan back to BeiJala part of Bethlehem in Jerusalem.
  • It is now Tuesday, June 1, 2021 at 10:07 pm.
  • Heading for bed.

Just Tired! Not Able To Understand Or Comprehend …?

It is now Wednesday, June 2, 2021 at 3:03 am. Honest to goodness my Master, just as tired as I am, so is everybody else.

  • I don’t know whether to sit or stand.
  • Sleep or eat.
  • Go or come.
  • Speak or shut up.
  • Just tired! Worn out!
  • But You know it, and?
  • You have made provision for me and for all.

It Is All Coming To Pass As It Is Written …

That is the meaning of the hour and minutes as I began to record just now.

  • The Number Three – Completion and Manifestation.
  • The Zero for the all-inclusive message.
  • Emphasis on the Completion and Manifestation of the times.

O But How Clear Are Your Instructions To Overcome …?

Just when the evil surrounding us all gets to me? You lift Yourself up to be gracious to remind me of Your written words.


(Revelation 5:5 AMPC+)

Then one of the elders of the heavenly Sanhedrin said to me, Stop weeping! See, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root (Source) of David, has won (has overcome and conquered)! He can open the scroll and break its seven seals! [Gen_49:9-10; Isa_11:1, Isa_11:10; Rev_22:16]

(Revelation 12:11 AMPC+)

And they have overcome (conquered) him by means of the blood of the Lamb and by the utterance of their testimony, for they did not love and cling to life even when faced with death [holding their lives cheap till they had to die for their witnessing].

(Revelation 13:7 AMPC+)

He was further permitted to wage war on God’s holy people (the saints) and to overcome them. And power was given him to extend his authority over every tribe and people and tongue and nation, [Dan_7:21, Dan_7:25]. Matthew 24:21-25 AMPC+

For then there will be great tribulation (affliction, distress, and oppression) such as has not been from the beginning of the world until now–no, and never will be [again]. [Dan_12:1; Joe_2:2]

And if those days had not been shortened, no human being would endure and survive, but for the sake of the elect (God’s chosen ones) those days will be shortened.

If anyone says to you then, Behold, here is the Christ (the Messiah)! or, There He is!–do not believe it.

For false Christs and false prophets will arise, and they will show great signs and wonders so as to deceive and lead astray, if possible, even the elect (God’s chosen ones).

See, I have warned you beforehand. End of quote.

So? Here I Am. Another Today For Me …?

The evil of yesterday and days past is now neutralized. It is rendered ineffective in this war for our souls by the power of Your written words.

Master? What Are We To Set Our Minds On …?

But You know that we are helpless without You even when we think we can help ourselves.

  • It is now Wednesday, June 2, 2021 at 10:22 am.
  • You sent me to sleep as usual.
  • Woke up.
  • Reflecting while I took care of some neglected chores.
  • Back to sleep.
  • Woke up around 8:30 am.
  • Watered the plants.
  • Fixed my coffee and eats.

Reflecting In Your Presence The Tears Began To Flow Again …?

A flash back to the ones that hurt Your child so deeply, fear at my door! I wept. I prayed.

“My Beloved Yahushua, I am scared! Will I have to see such ones in that eternal future? Such thought I cannot bear!

Hold me my Beloved! Your Beloved is scared!

And The Tears Flow …?

A flash back to yesterday and the past few days. It is all coming to pass with amazing precision. It is not my derision.

  • Derision?
  • Mockery, laughter, contempt, ridicule, scorn, insult, sneering, disdain, scoffing, disrespect, denigration, disparagement, contumely, raillery.
  • All of that is what is rampart in Your so loved world.
  • All of that is why my tears flow, but!

You Are In Loving Control Of It All …

Indeed! O my Beloved Yahushua! You are so real to me. You knew how yesterday I was troubled with the work ahead of me.

  • So? You let me sleep on it.
  • You knew that my trouble was not just the work ahead of me but mainly my trouble was with the content of that file.
  • I sensed a negative influence in my children’s mind if that content was published now.
  • For my precious children are now in tune with Your doings in our lives.
  • They are on the way back to You along all who belong to You.
  • No problem though.
  • You are in control of it all.
  • You flashed yesterday back to me.
  • I spent part of yesterday creating the illustration You had in mind for me to create.

Blessings And Thanks To My Gifted From Above …?

Wow! How neatly You are threading it all. My Roxana expressed to me how she had a hard time following my post, maybe she was just tired!

  • Ha! The light shone on me! Just tired as myself.
  • There! My tears dried.
  • I came to record it all.
  • It is now Wednesday, June 2, 2021 at 12:28 pm.
  • Ahmad called.
  • You opened my mouth to speak Your words to him.
  • Next?
  • Is it time for me to post this latest development?
  • I wait on You.

It Is Hard To Follow What I Post. Why? …

That’s the headline that quickened all the preliminaries to post next. I am waiting to see what You will have me to do next.

  • It is now Wednesday, June 2, 2021 at 4:10 pm.
  • All is quiet.
  • One thing I remember from the first of the month?
  • After a few hours of working, it came to me to go and check the roof.
  • Ha! My good friends were at their roof looking for me!
  • What a blessing!
  • They let me know they were to come today, but it is already 4:37 pm and they have not come yet.
  • I’ll see what happens next.
  • The Internet is not connected anyhow.
  • Maybe check Photoshop?
  • It is now Wednesday, June 2, 2021 at 8:10 pm.
  • No sign of any visitors.
  • I am sleepy.
  • Heading for bed.
  • It is now Thursday, June 3, 2021 at 2:13 am.
  • Will attempt to post, but!
  • The connection is still acting up.
  • No matter.
  • At the right time, You will fix the trouble.

The Flesh Profits Nothing. Moods? The Waves In The Flesh …?

  • Those moods rise and recede. So what if my mood is wherever or whenever? Life goes on in this world and the world to come.
  • What right do I have to point my finger and play the blame game?
  • And what is the sense of my sorrows and complaints?
  • What do I mean with all my moods, sorrows, complaints, and the ultimate blame gameplay?
  • What?
  • Ah! But that is a heavy loaded question.
  • What do I mean?
  • I mean to justify myself, and?
  • Ultimately, blame You!
  • Wow!
  • But Your lovingkindness!
  • You have lifted Yourself up.
  • For what?
  • To be gracious to this creature of Yours that I am.
  • You saw me stuck out of my rebellious pluck.
  • You saw there was no human intercessor.
  • I was out of luck.
  • So? Clad with zeal and furious divine jealousy as a cloak?
  • You own arm brought You victory.
  • Over the human flesh natural trickery.

Enough Is Enough! The Time Is NOW! …

Eternal doom coming to the powers to be along this satanic chaos of their creation.

  • Fact: it is written. No man or devil can change one iota on the fact to be exact.
  • It is now Thursday, June 3, 2021 at 12:00 pm.

Let Me Be Frank And Honest. Let Me Speak The Naked Truth …?

I woke up in a mood this morning. So, I went back to sleep. Did not wake up again until 9:30 am in a worse mood.

  • I watered the plants.
  • I fixed a cup of tea and heat up my breakfast.
  • All the time?
  • A vile mood! Why?
  • I ran out of coffee.
  • The lack of needed things?
  • Mood fluctuation!
  • Breakfast and tea on hand.
  • Headed to my garden.
  • Began to feed my belly with a halfhearted thanks.
  • My belly or my carnal human nature.
  • Hum! That is all my concern!
  • How I am feeling?
  • What am I to eat or drink?
  • Why the neglect to supply what I need?
  • How much money am I to get today?
  • What?
  • But that is the exact thing in all humans mind!
  • And I am human.
  • Mercy! Mercy! Mercy!

My Mind Programmed With Rubbish …

Am I fed up with the rubbish ingrained in my human nature by the powers to be? Yes, I am! Full to the brim of calling good evil and evil good.

  • And that is good!
  • Excellent as a matter of fact.
  • So it is written.


  • Isaiah 59:1-21

  • BEHOLD, THE Master’s hand is not shortened at all, that it cannot save, nor His ear dull with deafness, that it cannot hear.

  • But your iniquities have made a separation between you and your the Father, and your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear.

  • For your hands are defiled with blood and your fingers with iniquity; your lips have spoken lies, your tongue mutters wickedness.

  • None sues or calls in righteousness [but for the sake of doing injury to others–to take some undue advantage]; no one goes to law honestly and pleads [his case] in truth; they trust in emptiness, worthlessness and futility, and speaking lies! They conceive mischief and bring forth evil!

  • They hatch adders’ eggs and weave the spider’s web; he who eats of their eggs dies, and [from an egg] which is crushed a viper breaks out [for their nature is ruinous, deadly, evil].

  • Their webs will not serve as clothing, nor will they cover themselves with what they make; their works are works of iniquity, and the act of violence is in their hands.

  • Their feet run to evil, and they make haste to shed innocent blood. Their thoughts are thoughts of iniquity; desolation and destruction are in their paths and highways.

  • The way of peace they know not, and there is no justice or right in their goings. They have made them into crooked paths; whoever goes in them does not know peace. [Rom_3:15-18]

  • Therefore are justice and right far from us, and righteousness and salvation do not overtake us. We expectantly wait for light, but [only] see darkness; for brightness, but we walk in obscurity and gloom.

  • We grope for the wall like the blind, yes, we grope like those who have no eyes. We stumble at noonday as in the twilight; in dark places and among those who are full of life and vigor, we are as dead men.

  • We all groan and growl like bears and moan plaintively like doves. We look for justice, but there is none; for salvation, but it is far from us.

  • For our transgressions are multiplied before You [O Master], and our sins testify against us; for our transgressions are with us, and as for our iniquities, we know and recognize them [as]:

  • Rebelling against and denying the Master, turning away from following our the Father, speaking oppression and revolt, conceiving in and muttering and moaning from the heart words of falsehood.

  • Justice is turned away backward, and righteousness (uprightness and right standing with the Father) stands far off; for truth has fallen in the street (the city’s forum), and uprightness cannot enter [the courts of justice].

  • Yes, truth is lacking, and he who departs from evil makes himself a prey. And the Master saw it, and it displeased Him that there was no justice.

  • And He saw that there was no man and wondered that there was no intercessor [no one to intervene on behalf of truth and right]; therefore His own arm brought Him victory, and His own righteousness [having the Spirit without measure] sustained Him. [Isa_53:11; Col_2:9; 1Jn_2:1-2]

  • For [the Master] put on righteousness as a breastplate or coat of mail, and salvation as a helmet upon His head; He put on garments of vengeance for clothing and was clad with zeal [and furious divine jealousy] as a cloak. [Eph_6:14, Eph_6:17; 1Th_5:8]

  • According as their deeds deserve, so will He repay wrath to His adversaries, recompense to His enemies; on the foreign islands and coastlands He will make compensation.

  • So [as the result of the Messiah’s intervention] they shall [reverently] fear the name of the Master from the west, and His glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Master will lift up a standard against him and put him to flight [for He will come like a rushing stream which the breath of the Master drives]. [Mat_8:11; Luk_13:29]

  • He shall come as a Redeemer to Zion and to those in Jacob (Israel) who turn from transgression, says the Master.

  • As for Me, this is My covenant or league with them, says the Master: My Spirit, Who is upon you [and Who writes the law of the Father inwardly on the heart], and My words which I have put in your mouth shall not depart out of your mouth, or out of the mouths of your [true, spiritual] children, or out of the mouths of your children’s children, says the Master, from henceforth and forever. [Jer_31:33; Rom_11:26-27; Gal_3:29; Heb_12:22-24]. End of quote.

And That Is Good! Excellent As A Matter Of Fact ..?

Why? BEHOLD! The Plan Of Restoration To The Original Intent For Our Creation!? To be loved to love in return. Loved to love.

  • Nothing and no one no human or devil can ever thwart such plan. It stands forever in the land.
  • As quoted above:
  • …. •         So [as the result of the Messiah’s intervention] they shall [reverently] fear the name of the Master from the west, and His glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Master will lift up a standard against him and put him to flight [for He will come like a rushing stream which the breath of the Master drives]. [Mat_8:11; Luk_13:29]
  • He shall come as a Redeemer to Zion and to those in Jacob (Israel) who turn from transgression, says the Master.
  • As for Me, this is My covenant or league with them, says the Master: My Spirit, Who is upon you [and Who writes the law of the Father inwardly on the heart], and My words which I have put in your mouth shall not depart out of your mouth, or out of the mouths of your [true, spiritual] children, or out of the mouths of your children’s children, says the Master, from henceforth and forever. [Jer_31:33; Rom_11:26-27; Gal_3:29; Heb_12:22-24]. End of quote.

Believe It Or Not? The Last Cycle Is Here On This Year.

Again, and again, such is not my prediction or my derision or my belief of any kind. I do not write for myself.

I Write For The One We All Have To Mind Or Not …

The choice is individual and voluntary. The Master Creator of our beings shall never violate our own wills.

Until the next post? Your crystal pure love now in my heart for all. thiaBasilia.

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