Lamenting. Complaining. Judging You O Mighty One? …

Tuesday, April 10, 2018 at 7:51 am.

Thinking and reflecting on those lines? I came to think about the multitude of Your written words relating our history with a definite purpose.

Reflecting on the matter of the end time? I thought about us. I thought about all that many scholar researchers have been talking about. All the scare tactics. All the false alarms.

I thought about so many having the grand time of their lives. I thought about the ones having the worse of time. I thought about the nations along their history.

I thought about the earth. I said, Father? You call us to reason with You about all of these things. How all of this taken together causes us to sin?

Sin means to miss the mark that has been set for us to live eternally. O well! Everybody knows that. Nothing new. The question is, How can we get rid of our sin.

Ah! That’s what You want to reason with us about. We cannot get rid of our sin or be sinless unless, we give up the control of our lives to you, but!

There is that vicious circle and the redundancy in my writings. It’s now another day since I started this subject.

Wednesday, April 11, 2018 at 3:16 pm.

Been reflecting about all of these things while I write and read many views from so many sources. All sources are most occupied in the business of a good life on these earthly grounds.

No one is concerned with things about the end time. So, again, I ask, What’s the use? I see then I don’t see.

Up and down my humanity fluctuates. Am I concerned? Not a bit!

Wednesday, April 11, 2018 7:18 pm.

Done a lot of thinking on the structure of The Family—A True Story. Father? I need Your companionship. I guess I am just tired and in need of sleep.

It looks as if no one is coming. I’m going to bed and hope for sleep. Slept away until around 1 am today. Thursday, April 12, 2018 at 2:59 am.

Father? You know I am not feeling too good physically. You also know why. I don’t know exactly why I come to feeling so bad, but!

• I have a good idea that my feelings are a result of what I observe Perhaps. Regardless! No matter what I feel or what I think? You are in control of it all.

• It’s all a matter of my choosing to be nothing without you. I suppose the physical nature within me rebels against my choosing.

No matter. You alone gave me the power to choose to be nothing without You. So? You alone have the power to deliver me from the grip of my feelings and thinking.

What should I eat or drink, my Father to get rid of this discomfort caused by what I eat or don’t eat. I’m weary of the food and drink issue.

More and more everyday food and drink become less in importance for my well-being. That is because, not anything will take importance over my focus on Your will for me.

Your plans for me are good. Nothing can thwart or deviate those plans from the good You have reserved for me.

I must continue to write, publish, optimize, and? Sit still to let You do the rest not only on the readers of these lines but on me as well. That’s that. Nothing to worry about.