I Done Lost My Mind, But! …

I Found A Better One! …

A Mind Of Power And Wisdom …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 8:25 am.

A rare mind not freely given at random. Such is the fact of life I am finding while the high seas sailing on A Turquoise Rose under the expertise from on high minding.

No Kidding! Unfathomable Power And Wisdom …?

Such power and wisdom are nothing like I can fathom! I am beginning to accept such reality. It’s of no use for me to sit or laid down to figure things out in self-consciousness.

Power And Wisdom To Recognize Self-Consciousness …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 2:00 pm.

It’s 2 pm. The number Two stands for division. Amazing how what I am to record came to mind at exactly 2 pm. Recognizing self-consciousness? Power and wisdom to overcome it.

Understanding? Nay! Experiencing The Scriptures I Hope …?

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 5:44 pm.

No kidding! I am careful now of all statements I record. Perhaps at this hour of the day? All things seem bleak unto me. Even so? No matter how bleak things seem to be, You are in control, my Master. I wait on You.

  • 2:49 pm chk inbox. Msge from Deene 3:51 pm sleep?

This Day Is Over. So Are My Worries/Preoccupations …

Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

Ahmad did not come or called. No one called. No one came. Other than hearing from my old friend Deene, all people of my concern are far from me. But I did talk to Joyce.

The Internet Is Working. The Weather Is Pleasant. Food And Water OK …?

I am sad but not dejected anymore. I must face it, I am human. The lack of human fellowship saddens me. But I rather have no fellowship than the former fellowship I craved.

The Former Fellowship? Full Of Carnal Cravings I Thought To Be ‘Love’ …?

What a prison I was in unaware. The saddest part? Now that I am out of prison? I really do care. I’m full of the power of love and wisdom from You, but! O well!

No Need For Me To Go There. I Am Here …?

I am here present in Your Presence. I am not alone. You are with me regardless my feelings. My sadness? Your sadness. For You have accomplished Your Oneness with You within me. Quote:

  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

Wow! How Neat You Are Putting My Life Together …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 12:24 am.

How can I say thanks? No words to express my gratitude at this midnight hour. I am here. I was lost over there. A lost sheep thorn and mangled. Death hovering over me. But just then? You found me.

Almost Dead. You Carried Me Upon Your Shoulders …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 1:13 am.

Amazing! In looking for the record on this matter, I found two most revealing files of what is going on with me right now. Astonished!

You Are For Real My Master! …

You are not only putting my life together, but! You are showing me how to reach to my children by the power of Your loving care for me. Here are the links:

What I Really Wanted Wanted Found Me The Father Creator Of My Being He Found Me His Prodigal One His Little Sheep

You Are My Shepherd. You Care For Me …?

  • You Lead Me To The Still Waters From The Highest Sea …

Your Presence Is Real To Me …

Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 6:00 pm. To 10:25 pm.

All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You.

  • Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.

Indeed! Your Presence Is Real To Me …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:13 am.

It seems to me to be a fact of life to take strange things for granted. Even so? You are showing me those strange things to either help or to disturb us. So?

You Are Revealing Yourself To Me As Promised …

I never saw it before. My idea of You revealing Yourself? In person. I somehow been expecting for You to knock on my door any time. How disappointing!

You Been Revealing Yourself In My Heart All This Time! Duh!

The saddest part? Every knock on my door is just Ahmad or one of his sons, no Yahushua, but! Yahushua is already in and I ignore Him. How rude!

O My Master! The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom …?

You been knowing all this time what was in my heart, but! You didn’t hold it against me. You waited until this moment to reveal this matter to me in the most gracious way—humorously, but!

Effective. What? Yes. Effective …

“O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Once again, pause, reflect. What happened yesterday? Let’s summarize your day.

·       This Day Is Over. So Are My Worries/Preoccupations …

  • Tuesday, September 17, 2019 at 11:49 pm.

·       The Internet Is Working. The Weather Is Pleasant. Food And Water OK …?

·       The Former Fellowship? Full Of Carnal Cravings I Thought To Be ‘Love’ …?

·       No Need For Me To Go There. I Am Here …?

  • I am here present in Your Presence. I am not alone. You are with me regardless my feelings. My sadness? Your sadness. For You have accomplished Your Oneness wit You within me. Quote:
  • That is why also I have had to feed you with the bread of affliction to shape you to enlarge your opening so I could fill you.
  • What is happening to you now?
  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

·       Wow! How Neat You Are Putting My Life Together …

  • Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 12:24 am.
  • How can I say thanks? No words to express my gratitude at this midnight hour. I am here. I was lost over there. A lost sheep thorn and mangled. Death hovering over me. But just then? You found me.

·       Almost Dead. You Carried Me Upon Your Shoulders …

  • Wednesday, September 18, 2019 at 1:13 am.
  • Amazing! In looking for the record on this matter, I found two most revealing files of what is going on with me right now. Astonished!

·       You Are For Real My Master! …

  • You are not only putting my life together, but! You are showing me how to reach to my children by the power of Your loving care for me. Here are the links:

At that point you emailed the entry to Denise on Wed, Sep 18, 2:10 AM. My child, My beloved thiaBasilia, let me show you what and why your pain and misery returned after you emailed that entry to Denise.

Your heart was set in reconnecting with your child, but! It did not happen. By daybreak? You were hoping for Ahmad to show up but it did not happen. You kept working on the book cover hoping to ignore your pain and discomfort.

You laid down hoping for sleep. You could not sleep. Finally! The phone rang. Ahmad on the line in a euphoric state announcing he now had time for you. In your turn? You spill out all the things you have listed needing replenish.

You thought Ahmad would get your things and come to bring those things to you. By the time you realized Ahmad was not coming your pain had accelerated. You kept ignoring the pain, but you recorded:

  • All day spent in optimizing book cover. Much reflection while working. My arm hurts badly. I can’t go no more. Will try to sleep. I wait on You. Turning comp off. Something is not right. Will see. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 1:09 am. I’m back. Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:01 am. Strange things happening with the computer and the Internet, but! I am not troubled about it. You are in control of it all.

My child, O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Your willingness to endure rather than return to your old ways delight My Being.

Yes, My ways to deal with you are effective to produce the integrity of your character.

Today, Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 8:13 am I am revealing to you how the ills that Ahmad have caused you are still festering your being. Why? Because, Ahmad has never once recognized such ills.

The time is coming now for Ahmad to level up with you. That’s what he was trying to tell you yesterday when he told you he now had time for you.

Now My child, I’m going to level up with you. I am the One Who, actually, have caused you all the ills you have suffered not only here but through your whole existence.

I am the One Who have fed you with the bread of affliction because of your sins.

And I am the One Who is now fully exonerating you.

This is your Jubilee year. All your debts are cancelled.

How are you feeling right now? Is your pain fading away? Are you wondering if this is all for real? Go to fix your breakfast. Relax. Keep waiting on Me.”

Well? I’m Still Feeling Pretty Decent Despite? …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 3:20 pm.

Despite the hour. Despite the fact there is no change in my situation with Ahmad. Since breakfast time I have accomplish much—the apartment is clean. All things are in order, and?

I Am Beginning To Really Grasp Your Meaning …

Even in my dreams. While I slept earlier today I had a very strange dream. I cannot quite get the interpretation because it is so strange, but in one possibility I remember that it could mean someone is trying to trick me.

Master? This Whole World Is Set On Tricks …

They call it A special skill; a knack among other labels but! The whole idea is to persuade people to buy or do something that ultimately is for the benefit of the trickster. So? in my dream:

  • I found myself walking to get something someone had sent to me. Suddenly! A trash can. In it? An envelope sealed and address to me. Talking to whoever I said, Look at this. Why is in the trash? What is it? I pick it up. Open it. Up comes some greenish new trousers. It seems that what I was waiting for could have been wrapped in the trouser, so, I began to shake it up, nothing came out. I woke up.

None Of The Interpretation Rang A Bell Except For The Trick Suggestion …

Eventually? I caught on Your meaning. It’s all about the situation with Ray Edwards. They never answer my email with my miracles’ testimony, but! I did register for the free webinar coming up today.

Ha! It Just Dawn On Me! O My Master You Are So Real! …

I have really, really quit chasing millions, but! Because Ray is talking about Your miracle in his life and he mentions Yahushua (Jesus) I thought that perhaps that was from You. And?

It Could Be. But That Is For Ray And All Interested In The Betterment Of Their Business …

I do not have a business. I am the product of Your business. It’s not up to me to promote Your business. My task is to write, publish, and optimize in that order. You are doing the rest with all that I write and publish.

So? In Short? I Will Not Attend The Webinar …?

In the dream You are warning me of the trick to persuade me to come up with big money to get big money. What a trick! But!

You Are In Control Of It All …

Thursday, September 19, 2019 at 4:15 pm.

I have no doubt in my mind something good shall come out of all this. Even so? that’s not for me to be concerned about. Thank Goodness! And?

About Ahmad And My Supplies? …

No need to set my hope for comfort on Ahmad. You are my supplier. Perhaps I don’t need to be addicted to coffee or honey or to anything of this world. I am addicted to You only and altogether. You know that, my Master. Back to my optimizing graphics.

Midnight. Woke up. Back to sleep …?

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 12:26 am. 2:56 am.

Are we fishing in muddy waters, my Master? In the dream we were fishing. First we were standing up. Then? We sat with our legs hanging over the cliff. Suddenly! I was falling down into the muddy waters way down us, but! You grabbed me. I did not fall. I woke up hurting big time my Master, but You know all about it.

Waiting, My Master, Waiting …

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 6:24 am.

Thanks for sleep while You work things out for us all. For whatever reason Ahmad has not shown up is no longer to disturb me. For You are in control. I must decrease. You must increase.

Whatever Is Happening Out There …?

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 11:43 am.

It’s not to disturb Your peace within me. You are really, really in control of it all. Even so? You are aware of my feelings as well as of my thinking. I do wonder what is happening out there, but!

Once You Remind Me Of Your Written Words …?

Your written words, not only written in the Scriptures but in my heart as well. Once those words resound within me? Your peace returns to me big time, and? I take courage to go on.

Well? More And More The Power Of Your Love And Wisdom Is A Reality For Me …

Friday, September 20, 2019 at 3:09 pm.

You have ingrained within me Your power of love and wisdom. Such power is opposite to the known human love and wisdom that we are all know and practice. Even so?

This Matter Is Now Coming To Light …

Saturday, September 21, 2019 at 1:19 pm.

Master? You know how intent I am in creating the most descriptive graphics of my reality You have decreed for me. Quote:

  • I have filled you to capacity, therefore?
  • This Turquoise Rose Ship’s Allegory is now your reality.

The Best Part? It’s By Your Inspiration That I Am Creating …?

You lead me to the exact graphics I am to use in those creations. Day by day I am getting better at it. I look, I exclaim, “That’s so beautiful, my Master!” Soon? It’s lacking something, my Master, what would it be?

One More Day Gone. Another One Here …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 3:31 am.

And life on these earthly grounds continue to move on. Success. Prosperity. Failure. Poverty? Hand on hand the band marches on.

Me? Under Your Throne Pleading For Mercy I’m On Hold …

Soon. Whatever will be will be. Time will tell. Meantime time? You are guarding me to keep me well. You are here with me. You are there with them.

Whatever Will Be? It’s Now …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 7:00 pm.

Humor instead of panic. Master, You are so neat! In the midst of my wailing as I imagined my baby in death row? You stopped right and quick. Here is a reply to my baby’s email telling me not to worry. Quote:

Well? Panic over just as soon as it started! lol Thank goodness for your two kidneys! No problem with my kidneys at all! My pain comes from gas packets in my body. Once i spell the gas the pain is over.

In the other hand? I am healed. Really, really healed! My body and my mind are functioning again. Is really neat the way Father has put my life together. I can now face the highest mountain and overcome it! No kidding, including my one kidney baby. One kidney? Crazy? Talking about a mountain? I could picture you in line for a kidney transplant, and i wail! Suddenly! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? IT’S JUST YOUR EMOTIONAL UPHEAVAL! NOTHING IS WRONG! QUIT IT!

ah! I thought, You are working all things for our good! no problem. I went back to my business and forgot all about you and your one kidney. Ate. Slept. and? Your email! Case closed! Mountain overcome! HAHAHA! HALLELUJAH!

No Kidding! That Kind Of Mountain? Not Rare In Most Of Our Lives, Why? …

Because our lives are lived on emotional grounds even in the most reasonable scenery. Even the most level-headed ones do wail should a child is stricken with a fatal illness, but!

There Is Hope For Such Train Of Thought To Stop …?

Sunday, September 22, 2019 at 11:08 pm.

Master? Will continue sharing whatever You are sharing with me and compel me to share with whomever You send to this site. Closing for now.

Enjoy! Deploy!

Much love to all. thiaBasilia.

 

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