Hit Bottom! The Deepest Part Of My Soul …


What Was Dormant Down There? …

The Deepest Root Of All My Life’s Misery …

Flash Memories That Gives Chills To Our Bodies—Trauma In Our Brains …

The Creator At Work. Completion Of My Pain And Misery, I Hope …

Friday, April 5, 2019 at 7:11 pm.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? Only You know the strength of this painful circumstances on me. And You never give me any more than what I can take. Let it be.

No Need To Call For Human Help …

Friday, April 5, 2019 now at 7:38 pm.

Father? You know how I am feeling about my insidious calling on people for help and for company. No human is willing to help unless I return to their lifestyle.

That’s Not Going To Happen, And? …

You know it my Father. No human can effectively help another human without You anyhow. I’m going to bed. You alone are my Helper.

  • Ha! My pain? Accelerated to the max! I laid there unable to sleep. Tears flowing. Flashes of the most remote evils done long, long time ago.
  • Up and down the hours flew by. Help, my Father, help.

The time was around 1:30 am on Saturday, April 6, 2019.

Mercy! Let Me Forgive Myself. Let Them Forgive Me …

Mercy! Mercy! I pleaded in all earnest. The covers became heavier than ever. My left foot felt like something was cutting it off. My body? Hot! Up went arms and feet. Off went the heavy covers!

Freedom! Like Magic? The Pain And Misery Ceased …

Phew! What a relief! I laid there for a moment enjoying the comfort of my body. I got up. My mind? Absorbing the love and wisdom from on high. I headed to the kitchen. I washed the dishes. Then?

I Heard Quite Clearer Than Ever Before That Lovely Voice From Within My Heart …

“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect.”

Sleep. Could Not Keep My Eyes Opened. I Headed For Bed …

Did not record the time, but! Next? Woke up refreshed! The time? Saturday, April 6, 2019 at 7:41 am. It’s now Saturday, April 6, 2019 at 9:42 am.

Which Way To Go Now, My Father? …

Two hours since I woke up. Not a sound from Ahmad. Not a single email from my children or loved ones. Been reading about health and different issues of people’s concern.

Don’t Know What To Think. Not Sure On What To Do? I Wait On You …

Perhaps it’s time to clean up. Maybe fix some breakfast. Perhaps? Time to pause. Time to reflect. Time to give You my undivided attention? I want to cry but my eyes are dry. Help me, my Father, help me.

Ha! Your Words? Fulfilled Sooner Than I Could Have Ever Imagined …

“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? You have nothing to fear. You have all to rejoice.

Despite your human inability to comprehend this matter of pain and suffering? The suffering of the moment is the substance for the purification of the deepest part of your soul.

Fear not. Soon, sooner than you could imagine? Your pain and suffering shall come to an end. Soon I will wipe your tears away.

Soon I will reveal Myself to you. I will show—reveal, manifest Myself to you. I will let Myself be clearly seen by you and make Myself real to you.”

You Have Made Yourself Be Clearly Seen By Me, And? Made Yourself Real To Me For Sure! …

Wow! How real! Your manifestation? In awe I comfortable sit here. In fear of Your Majesty? I dare not make any conclusions. In silence, I worship You. I wait on Your conclusions.

Timely? You Speak To Me In A Train Dream …

Sunday, April 7, 2019 at 4:00 am.

What an amazing day You made for me of yesterday. Much accomplished in which direction to go. Not only with the blog/the books, but mainly? With my life.

Wow! It’s All Coming To Light Now. Father Has Always Been In Control Of It All …

I held my peace despite my view of all that goes on in my present circumstances. I did not make any conclusions. Ahmad finally called sometime in the afternoon.

Strange Explanations About His Life And Doings Do Not Rattle Me Anymore …

Strange explanation of the reason for him not to check with me since the day before. Such explanation left me with questions in my mind about Ahmad and his two brothers, but!

I Declined To Assume Anything About Anything That Goes On Around Me …

Wow! What power on me You bestow! Ahmad and his doings? Out of my mind, instead? Enhancing the created book covers. Editing. Finding the books to edit. My eyes set on Yahushua I spent my whole day!

The Internet Prevented Me To Properly Continue With My Work, So?

I headed for bed and slept for a couple of hours. Got up at the knock on my door. My friend brought me food. I ate. Tried the Internet again for a bit. Nothing working. Back to bed. Slept until 2:44 am.

Woke Up From A Train Dream.

  • “To dream that you are on a train symbolizes your life’s journey. It suggests that you are on the right track in life and headed in the right direction.”

It’s now Sunday, April 7, 2019 at 4:33 am. Must return to bed. Can’t keep my eyes open. I laid in bed reflecting on the reality of Yahushua within me. At last I drifted into sound sleep.

I Clearly See Yahushua Now. He Is Real In All My Doings …

For so long I have followed Yahuahua’s instructions to pray to the Father, ‘Our Father in the heavens’, but now? His words touched the center of my heart. Quote:

John 14:15-21

If you really love Me, you will keep obey My commands. And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, and Standby), that He may remain with you forever–

  • The Spirit of Truth, Whom the world cannot receive (welcome, take to its heart), because it does not see Him or know and recognize Him. But you know and recognize

I will not leave you as orphans [comfortless, desolate, bereaved, forlorn, helpless]; I will come back to you.

Just a little while now, and the world will not see Me any more, but you will see Me; because I live, you will live also.

At that time [when that day comes] you will know [for yourselves] that I am in My Father, and you [are] in Me, and I [am] in you.

  • The person who has My commands and keeps them is the one who [really] loves Me; and whoever [really] loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I [too] will love him and will show (reveal, manifest) Myself to him. [I will let Myself be clearly seen by him and make Myself real to him.]

Wow! What A Revelation. Totally Revolutionized My Whole Being …

Sunday, April 7, 2019 now at 11:38 am.

Faint is my past. Even my past before yesterday. Clear and real is my present. Even the moment of His real appearance?

Clear. Real. Vivid In My Heart And Mind Shall Be Forever!

Song of Solomon 2:10-13

My beloved speaks and says to me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.

For, behold, the winter is past; the rain is over and gone.

The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds has come, and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land.

The fig tree puts forth and ripens her green figs, and the vines are in blossom and give forth their fragrance. Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away.

Song of Solomon 2:14-16

So I went with him, and when we were climbing the rocky steps up the hillside, my beloved shepherd said to me, O my dove, while you are here in the seclusion of the clefts in the solid rock, in the sheltered and secret place of the cliff, let me see your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.

My heart was touched and I fervently sang to him my desire, Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards [of our love, for our vineyards are in blossom.

She said distinctly, My beloved is mine and I am his! He pastures his flocks among the lilies. [Mat 10:32; Act 4:12]

Song of Solomon 2:4

He brought me to the banqueting house, and his banner over me was love, for love waved as a protecting and comforting banner over my head when I was near him.

Let Me Remain Faithful To You Forever! ….

Let all my past lovers deem away from my mind and heart. Let them all fix their gaze in You. Let me decrease. Let Yourself increase. Let me remain in awe of You and no one else.

For In Loving You? I Love Them All …

Dear Reader, this is the end of my life as it always been. A radical change is taking place within my being. A change I cannot tamper with. I cannot continue to post for a time.

My Times Are In His Hands Now Literally …

It’s now Sunday, April 7, 2019 at 9:58 pm.

I’m heading for bed, my Master but You know it. Hope for sound sleep. I wait on You. Up at 2 am on Monday, April 8, 2019.

We are all like shadows on the earth …

Monday, April 8, 2019 at 3:36 am.

O My Father—O Father Of Mine? What is there for a human to do? We are all like a shadow on this earth. Quote:

1Ch 29:14  But who am I, and what are my people, that we should retain strength and be able to offer thus so willingly? For all things come from You, and out of Your own [hand] we have given You.

1Ch 29:15  For we are strangers before You, and sojourners, as all our fathers were; our days on the earth are like a shadow, and there is no hope or expectation of remaining.

It’s now Monday, April 8, 2019 at 4:57 am. Can’t keep my eyes open. Heading for bed. Well? Instead of heading for bed? As I got up I woke up, and?

That Lovely Voice From Within Came To My Ears:

“Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? Pause. Reflect. What makes this site not only beautiful but unique and genuine?

How is your life already making a global impact?

Why one moment you are up and confident.

The next moment? Frustrated. Discouraged. Unable to see the Reality of My Being within you, and now?

Yahushua’s real appearance to take over your life is a reality, but! You are already questioning that matter as per the way your body continues to suffer, and?

The agony of doubt and fear is knocking at your door.

O thiaBasilia—O Child Of My Heart? FEAR NOT! This time?

Yahushua is in complete control of every minute detail of your life.

His desire for you?

The song of Solomon Yahushua is singing to you now. Therefore?

For a time in your life now you must remain aloof from this world and all goings on therein. You must bind your mind, soul, and body as in the Song of Solomon.

At Your Master’s discretion?

He will present you to this world in a way far beyond your imagination.

From here on? You have nothing to worry about.

Your times are in His hands.

From now on?

Yahushua shall lead and direct you in the task I have assigned unto you.

I know how overwhelming your task has become, but!

Your Master shall now make it all a joy and a delight as He will make your task to be.

Remember, after this post?

Refrain from posting until Yahushua releases you to post again.

This is a time exclusively for your Master and you.

I am at work.

You have written. You have published. You have optimized.

I have been and will continue to do the rest in the heart of each one of the readers of the posts.

Rejoice! Enjoy your Master’s Presence forevermore!”

The Truth, Dear Reader? Checkmate! …

The complicated game of my worldly life is ended. Instead? The reality of my soul’s longings for that One with Whom to endlessly share my tears and my joys? All games pale. No need to play anymore.

The Reality To Be Someone’s Delight …

Who is so blessed? At last I am! I have no longer need to play the worldly game of life. I will now live the reality of my Master’s delight by the power of His love and wisdom for me.

Much love to all, thiaBasilia. 🙂

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