Yes! I’m Angry! Even More? I’m Disgusted, But!…
What’s The Sense In It All I Can’t Control? …
Why Am I So Angry And Disgusted? …
Thursday, March 7, 2019 at 9:23 am.
Angry and disgusted I am, but! O my Father? You have brought to my remembrance a humorous episode from my younger years.
The Angry Mare …
It might have been an ordinary mare, but! To me at that time? She looked so majestic and loving. Her colt beside her so wabbly and fragile. I began to approach such a beautiful pair, but!
Like lightening the mare lifted its head. It lurched towards me. Me? Like lightening as well hauled tail up the nearest tree.
There I sat on a branch watching that mare on her hind legs scratching the tree trunk trying to get to me. I watched holding tight to that branch.
Was I scare? I don’t remember. I think I was mostly glad that the mare could not reach me. How long was I in that predicament? A long time. The mare was angry. It was determinate to? Who knows?
Finally? A blessed field hand came by on his way to his bunk. He saw my predicament. He courageously grabbed the mare by its neck and led it away from the tree. He soothed it. Then?
He signaled me to come down. I came down and hail tail to my home where I belonged. I don’t remember anyone questioning me. Perhaps because? That’s was my free life to go and come as I pleased.
Why The Tell Of This Tale? …
The anger and retaliation of that mare? Similar to the bursts of anger and disgust I must go through at the sight of threatening circumstances to me.
What Threatening Circumstances? …
Well? It’s a matter of my human nature. A matter of my human nature’s lack of understanding of everything. So? What’s threatening to me?
The Human Nature In Others ….
Now? Am I analyzing this matter? NAY! But, I am about to relate what to do in the place of analyzing all things. You see? Living in the Presence of the Almighty Creator? No need to analyze anything. Why?
The Almighty Creator Is In Control Of It All, So? …
It’s His job to reveal to us the why of all our doings; the why of everybody’s doings. That’s not analyzing. That’s revelation.
Why This Post About Humor Instead Of Anger? …
Simple. I have been sharing the details of my life with several friends for years and years, but! It looks to me, again it looks to me like they have not profit one iota from the work Father is doing in my life.
Why Does It Look To Me To Be So?
Their insulting remarks. Yes, those remarks are insulting to me because? Those remarks are in fact highly arrogant. Those remarks only show the ignorance of the Almighty’s ways, but!
There Is No Need For Me To Get Angry, Instead? Humor Is The Way…
Where do I get that from? From Psalms 2. Quote:
WHY DO the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme?
The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Master and His Anointed One (the Messiah, Yahushua).
They say, [Act 4:25-27] Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.
He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Master has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them]. (Psalms 2:1-4)
So? Retaliate Or Humor The People …?
I’ll choose to humor my friend who replied to me: “I do my part and I KNOW that He will do His”. Why such remark was insulting to my carnal nature?
Simple. The Human Nature’s Tendency To Compete …?
Her remark is something that I repeatedly use in whatever I write to give the honor to my Creator, but! I never realized how stealthily I was competing for honor to myself, until?
Revealed Matter? Like The Mare I? And The Spirit …?
Humored my insulted carnal nature! Hahaha! The joke is on me. Like that mare? I was defending my own threatened colt—my human nature.
On The Other Hand? There Is Room To Learn From…?
Yes! There is room to learn from the Spirit of our Creator within us. Our Creator aims to be our only supreme Teacher above all human teachers. Quote:
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Come near to me and listen to this: I have not spoken in secret from the beginning; from the time that it happened, I was there.
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And now the Mighty Master has sent His Spirit in and with me. Thus says the Master, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
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I am the Master your Mighty One, Who teaches you to profit, Who leads you in the way that you should go.
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Oh, that you had hearkened to My commandments! Then your peace and prosperity would have been like a flowing river, and your righteousness [the holiness and purity of the nation] like the [abundant] waves of the sea.
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Your offspring would have been like the sand, and your descendants like the offspring of the sea; their name would not be cut off or destroyed from before Me. [Gen 13:16; Jer 33:22; Luk 19:42] (Isaiah 48:16-19) End of quote.
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Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; reverently fear and worship the Master and turn [entirely] away from evil. [Pro 8:13] (Proverbs 3:5-7)
No Secrets. Clearly Warned For Our Good …?
Indeed! We are clearly warned about what to do or not to do, but! Who cares? We’ll do whatever suits us to be the best not only for us individually but also for the whole world. So?
What’s The Use Of Quoting The Truth About The Human’s Mind And Heart?
Friday, March 8, 2019 at 5:07 am.
Well! To me at the point of time in my life? To me it’s useless, but! My times are in the hands of my Master—the Spirit of my Father/Creator. So?
I Must Continue To Proclaim The Truth In His Word Regardless …
Regardless my own thinking, feeling, or ideas, conclusions dictated by negative or positive circumstances, and? Regardless the same from any human being acquainted with me and my doings.
I Do Care, But! I Do Not Depend On Mine Or Anyone Else’s Cares …
The truth and fact? I care enough to get fed up with mine and the rest of the world’s arrogance, vainglory, and plumb stupidity. That’s that!
Here I Am Struggling With This Miserable Predicament I Am In, And? …
Who do I blame? O my Father! I blame You! Why? Because You are the only One Who can set me free from all the miseries driving me up the wall, but! You seem to pay no mind to my miserable predicament.
Even So? You Are Still My Loving Father, and …?
You instill enough confidence in me that it is so. Thus? I can talk to You. Really talk to You without the frilliest of lip talk. What? What am I hearing now?
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“Your misery is ending now, My beloved. I am delighted with your honesty. Moral evil comes from the enemy of your souls, but! Physical evil comes from Me as it’s written. Quote:
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I form the light and create darkness, I make peace [national well-being] and I create [physical] evil (calamity); I am the Master, Who does all these things. (Isaiah 45:7) (Must read the whole chapter!)
Wow! Who Could Have Spoken To Me Thus? …
Indeed! Most of my life? My Bible teachers told me the opposite. “God is not like that. He loves you. He won’t hurt you” If I heard such a claim a zillion time? It wont count enough. Why such claim?
We Have Created A ‘God’ In Our Image …?
The matter is obvious by now, but! Soon our creations? Halted! The Almighty Sovereign Creator of the Universe and all there in, including ourselves? He is now revealing Himself to each one of us individually.
AWESOME FRIDAY! …
Friday, March 8, 2019 now at 7:41 pm
Will try the bed now my Father! See if I catch me a long nap.
It was the end of such awesome Friday. I slept with no pain, but! Earlier, even after hearing my Father pronouncing the end of my misery? By the time day light came? The pain returned, and?
So Did My Panic, Fear, Anger, And Doubt …?
So did my panic as I realize that it was Friday—a holiday—no gas. How am I to withstand this miserable pain? You promised me my misery would end today but!
Though That I See No Such Thing? I Am Confident In You …?
I resigned myself to the situation. Somehow? Powerful moment of unshakable confidence in my Father caused me to withstand the misery. Next?
The Peace That Surpasses Human Understanding …?
I resumed my work. Suddenly! The unexpected knock. I open the door. Ephraim comes in. He quietly proceeds to work on the heater. Soon the gas vendor arrives. Gas on Friday!
A Miracle? My Father Honoring His Words To Me? …
No question about it, but! To Ahmad? Only because he talked to the vendor the night before. Poor fellow! Just a human being. Why didn’t he do that any other Friday that I had to suffer without heat?
O well! that’s how we humans miss and dismiss!
Saturday, March 9, 2019 at 12:35 am.
A new day. A new 7th Day of rest—a most especial Day for me it is. And the date? The 12th hour on this 9th day or this 2019 for sure to be our Jubilee year. The date meaning?
- The Number Twelve – Governing Order and Rulership
- The Number Nine – Fruitfulness and Giving. The number nine paints a picture of bearing fruit and giving.
Order—Bearing Fruit And Giving? My Now Reality! …
No question about it. My lifetime misery of pain and suffering? Is ending now says my Master! Has he confirmed His words? Indeed!
His Words Confirmed? Big time! …
Saturday, March 9, 2019 now at 11:22 am.
Here I am. Slept from midnight until 5:48 am. No pain when I got under the covers. No pain when I got up to start me day. The pain is my computer arm has diminished big time, and?
My Journey—My Existence In His Presence? Secured Forever! …
What more could I ever want for? No even a hint to turn back. Instead? Unbelievable power to go on and on despite the thoughts, feelings, ideas, and opinions of mine and others.
Conclusion …
Much to come in future posts. These days? Dark days they have been, and? The Master says: “What I say to you in the dark, tell in the light; and what you hear whispered in the ear, proclaim upon the housetops.”
Much love, thiaBasilia.