Life And Death Go On …?

And So Do I! Fabulous Life? Indeed! Indeed! …

Is It Up To Me To Control It All? …

Tuesday, February 19, 2019 at 10:41 am.

Contrary to general consent? It is not up to me to control it all. Goodness sake! I can’t even control the simple things that happen daily—not really.

Of Course! Thousands Upon Thousands Of ‘How To Control It All’, And?

One can spend a fortune plus time galore trying to control one thing or the other all for nothing. I for one? Guilty! I have spent a fortune trying one thing or the other to no avail. Why?

No Matter What? The Human Kind Is Under Control …?

The question is, Who is controlling me? O yeah, I can fool myself thinking I got it all under control, suddenly? Whoofff! A disaster. An intruder. A fatal accident. The end! Even so?

There Is A Way Out Of Our Predicament. But …?

People—human beings either do not believe the Scriptures or? Interpret those spiritual Scriptures with the carnal or natural mind.

We Are Told. We Are Admonished. We Are Instructed …

In all kinds of languages. In all kinds of examples, we are told, admonished, instructed but! We pay no mind. Business as usual. It’s written. Quote:

Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father Who is in heaven.

Many will say to Me on that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name and driven out demons in Your name and done many mighty works in Your name?

And then I will say to them openly (publicly), I never knew you; depart from Me, you who act wickedly [disregarding My commands]. [Psa 6:8]

So everyone who hears these words of Mine and acts upon them [obeying them] will be like a sensible (prudent, practical, wise) man who built his house upon the rock.

And the rain fell and the floods came and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock.

And everyone who hears these words of Mine and does not do them will be like a stupid (foolish) man who built his house upon the sand.

And the rain fell and the floods came and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell–and great and complete was the fall of it.

When Yahushua had finished these sayings [the Sermon on the Mount], the crowds were astonished and overwhelmed with bewildered wonder at His teaching, For He was teaching as One Who had [and was] authority, and not as [did] the scribes. (Matthew 7:21-29). End of quote.

Ah! That’s Not For Me! That’s For? …

It’s now Tuesday, February 19, 2019 at 3:00 pm.

O my Father? I’m coming boldly to Your throne of grace and favor to ask for help. You know how I am feeling and why? I do not know exactly why, but! I’m just down.

Perhaps Reading, Reconsidering The Sermon On The Mount …?

Perhaps reading, reconsidering the Sermon on the Mount under the Light of Your Spirit—my Teacher—my Shepherd? I will create a graphic to express this moment.

Don’t Know Which Way To Turn, My Father …

It’s now Tuesday, February 19, 2019 at 8:32 pm.

Not a sign of help at all. My feet are burning. My body is not collaborating. My spirit is willing to help myself, but the flesh is weak.

What A Sight I Am! even so?

You know it my Father. You are helping me. I refuse to worry. I refuse to complain. I refuse to feel sorry for myself. I’m blessed.

You Are With Me And For Me.

You are giving me the strength to wash my hair. I must prepare my clothes change. Then I will prepare all things in the bathroom. Thanks, my Father. I feel better already.

Unreasonable? No Matter …?

Tuesday, February 19, 2019 now at 11:20 pm.

Well, my Father? It looks like I was unreasonable asking Ahmad for help. He agreed he will come but! It has not happened yet. Now what? I hear, Let be. Be still.

His Power Of Love And Wisdom Avails …?

I guess I do not need to wash my hair tonight. I’ll wait until the morning. Hopefully there will be sunshine in the morning.

At least I got organized. Tomorrow? I’ll carry the hot water little by little to the bathroom. Hopefully? I will wash my hair and be done with it, but!

Resentment? Anger? …

O my Father? Deliver me from resentment. I do not want to harbor ill feelings towards Ahmad. You are our keeper. You are in control of it all.

Even so? I just as well come clean with You. The lurking question pops up again. Is all of this drama going on between Ahmad and I Your will or?

Doubt On Top Of That …?

Is it something that I have devised and now I am too stubborn to give it up? Just when I sense Your approval? Things get worse, and? I’m left in the blank.

I’m At The Point To Withstand All Inconveniences, But!

When it comes to the awful pain from my bones to my head and scalp? You know it, my Father. You know it. I can’t help but to feel sorry for myself.


This day is ending and so is my waiting for Ahmad. I’m ready to put my clothing away, turn off all things, and try to sleep.

Once Again? Your Power Of Love & Wisdom Prevails …

Wednesday, February 20, 2019 at 12:49 am.

Just as I was getting comfortable under the covers? Ahmad at the door! Wow! There was a minor car accident that detain him for a couple hours. The good part?

By The Time He Came?

The power of Your love and wisdom within my heart had taken over me. So? We had a good short visit, and? I now have the hair dryer to dry my hair as soon as I wake up.

I Go One Step Backwards …?

Thanks, my Father! Each time I go one step backwards with my fears and doubts? You grab my hand and lift me up two steps ahead.

You Have Planted Me Here.

You aim to accomplish Your purpose for my life. You have gifted my son Ahmad. That’s nothing at all that I have devised.

And my pain? When I got under the covers? No pain this time …?

I will now go on. I know You’ll give me the much-needed sleep to restore my body.

All Well Only For A Bit …?

Wednesday, February 20, 2019 now at 6:41 am.

Things are not going well with this program. I removed all extensions. I will again try to unplug and restart. Maybe? That fix the problem.

Nothing Works, But! …

Wednesday, February 20, 2019 now at 10:09 am.

Well? I’ll see in a little bit if the same pop up occurs. I hope the people from the Advanced Repair Pro issue me a refund. Father? You are in control of it all.

My Father Is In Control Of It All For Sure! No More Worries …?

Wednesday, February 20, 2019 now at 7:08 pm.

Indeed! So much! So many things to worry about! Winter lingers. The moisture from cooking. One thing function. Same thing? Quit functioning! What to do? Listen up! Over and over I hear:

Do not worry no matter what you feel or think or do at this crucial point of your journey in My Presence. I am in control of it all.

So? That’s What I Am Doing. I Am Listening Or, Am I?

I try one thing or the other to fix things up. Some things work for a while, then? Nothing works anymore. Sometimes? I am calm. Sometimes? I blow up! Down and up I go. Sometimes? Much help! Other times? No help at all! ALL the time? You are right here with me. How can that be?

The Mystery That Got All Humans Thrown Out Of Quilt For Sure …?

Ah! My Awesome Father? You are certainly here with me and for me, but! Your ways. Your thoughts? Way above mine! Mystery! Mysterious. O yes! That’s the way You are, and?

By Far? No One Can Figure Out You And Your Mysterious Ways …?

And a good thing that is! Can you imagine the confusion should we let our children become our parents to control us?

Well? No Need To Imagine It. It’s Happening!

Our children are now parenting us, and? Attempting to parent the Creator Himself. Our children intent to fix this world because the Creator done did a poor mess of things. Who can deny it?

The More I Think About It? The More Relaxed I Get … ?

Why? Because I am experiencing the power of love and unfathomable wisdom from my Heavenly Father Creator of my being. He promised:

The secret of the sweet, satisfying companionship of the Master have they who fear, revere and worship Him, and He will show them His covenant and reveal to them its deep, inner meaning. (Psa 25:14 )

That’s Exactly What He Is Doing Now Not Only For Me But!

For all who fear, revere and worship Him. One by one He is showing us His covenant and revealing to us its deep, inner meaning.

Wow! What more could I, could you ever want for?

  • Let’s all come into His Presence.
  • Let’s all let Him take over our lower lives.
  • Let’s all let Him set us up in His higher life.

Me? I can echo Habakkuk:

I heard and my [whole inner self] trembled; my lips quivered at the sound. Rottenness enters into my bones and under me [down to my feet]; I tremble. I will wait quietly for the day of trouble and distress when there shall come up against [my] people him who is about to invade and oppress them. Habakkuk 3:16

Habakkuk Rejoices in the Master

Though the fig tree does not blossom and there is no fruit on the vines, [though] the product of the olive fails and the fields yield no food, though the flock is cut off from the fold and there are no cattle in the stalls, 

Yet I will rejoice in the Master; I will exult in the [victorious] Mighty One of my salvation! [Rom_8:37

The Master Creator is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds’ feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]!

On Que! Woke Up Exactly At 3:00 Am. …?

It’s now Thursday, February 21, 2019 at 4:21 am.

O my Father! What have I been doing since I woke up? You know it. I woke up in excruciating pain. I hear to drink my pain apple cider mixture. I did, but! This time?

It Came To Me To Leave The Coffee Out.

I did. It also came to me to eat the rest of the avocado from last night. I did. Then? To check my emails. I saw email from Roxana, but when I went to reply?

The Email Is Gone! Can’t Find It Anywhere.

In the meantime? Check other emails, but! The error ERR_EMPTY_RESPONSE keeps popping up in several sites I click.


It’s frustrating! Pain. Errors that I can’t fix. Now losing Roxana’s email. Not finding help for anything? Is it frustrating? Not anymore. Not really.

My Frustrations Are Done Away By His Power Of Love-Wisdom-Faithfulness …?

No kidding! It’s now Thursday, February 21, 2019 at 4:49 am and? I’m still hurting/cold somehow, but! I’m going on quite well. Frustrated? Nay! How can I be frustrated?

How Can I Be Frustrated In Your Presence O Mighty One? …

Grateful! Could be proud/inflated/smug, but! I am not. Yes, all those things lurk in my natural human mind, but?

That Sneaky Snaky Human Nature Of Mine …?

I reject! I refuse! I denied my human nature with intense passion more so every single day! No kidding and? It feels good, powerful to do so! Why?

Nothing Else But Your Power Of Love, Wisdom, And Faithfulness Poured Upon Us …?

Indeed! Indeed! Break to refill my drinks and eats. Now? Thursday, February 21, 2019 at 5:06 am and I am cold, in need of more fuel to keep me warm.

Fabulous Life? Indeed! Indeed! …

In the pursuit of happiness? Nay! Nay! Nay! Rather?

In the pursuit of the only ONE who can harmonize our lives. Harmonize?

  • Lack and abundance.
  • Pain and relief of pain.
  • Victory and defeat.
  • ALL tribulation and trials and distress and frustration in this world of our existence.

Such Is My Life. Let Life And Death Go On. So Am I …?

It’s now Thursday, February 21, 2019 at 3:35 pm.

Will now work on the graphic. In time? This record shall be posted. Ha! It’s now Friday, February 22, 2019 at 5:33 am. Today is the day to post it,

Much love to all, thiaBasilia. 🙂

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