Fear Of Man. Fear Of Failure. Struggle To Succeed. Search For Happiness? …

The Powerful Forces Driving Mankind To The Top Or Bottom Of These Earthly Grounds That We Inhabit …

Why Are You Reading This Saga? Why Do I Continue Writing It? …

Tuesday, November 10, 2020 at 3:17 pm.

Here I am my Master! It’s another day. You continue to reveal much to me. No two ways about it, you are with and for me! I fear not.

  • My eyes, itching, pain, and despair at times are still a problem but!
  • You have revealed to me much as to Your reason for things to be the way they are.
  • You have given me this moment of relief enough to keep record of the day.
  • But I have yet to assimilate within my being the things You are revealing to me about myself.
  • One main thing is my insidious try to make myself good to please the public.
  • Then? When I fail and burst in anger the sorry and guilt take over the moment.
  • I become despondent, forsaken, and despair.
  • Just at that moment when the tears of despair flow, You open my ears to hear Your words address to Jacob then but now addressed to me. Quote:

“Fear not My precious thiaBasilia! Fear not, there is nothing to fear, for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your Everlasting Almighty Yahuwah. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My victorious right hand of rightness and justice. [Act_18:10]. Isaiah 41:10 AMPC+. End of quote.

  • I am hurting. Heading for bed. Waiting on You. 4:17 pm.

Master? I’m Up But Still Not Feeling Up To Recording …

Tuesday, November 10, 2020 at 10:46 pm.

My eye still bothering me. I can hardly see. But You know all about it. I will go back to bed and submit to You.

Well? O My Master! The Light Is Out. Waiting On Your Daylight …

Wednesday, November 11, 2020 at 5:06 am.

I still have no garlic, my eye not improved, I am running out of tissues and toilet paper. But You are strengthening me to such difficulties. I refuse to despair. I do not know at times whether I am awake or asleep, but You do.

  • “Fear not My precious thiaBasilia! Fear not! I am strengthening and hardening you to the inevitable daily difficulties in your way.
  • Do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your Beloved Master Yahushua.
  • I am strengthening and hardening you to difficulties, yes, I am helping you; yes, I am holding you up and retaining you with My victorious right hand of rightness and justice.
  • Do not establish any routine for your daily living.
  • Live your life for today ready to bid My will on the spot.
  • Do not worry about your mind churning continuously.
  • I am in control of your mind and soul for your good and the good of all of your concern.
  • On My time and discretion, I will provide over and above all the healthy and delicious eats I have set in your dreams.
  • Do not worry about your health.
  • I am restoring your health and your wealth.
  • No need to continue your obsession to wash your hands.
  • It is impossible for you to prevent contamination.
  • Be still. Let go of it all. Wait.
  • All supplies needed for your comfort will soon materialize.
  • Your apartment shall be properly repaired sooner than expected.
  • Do not worry about any skim to get money.
  • I will come through with all monies promised.
  • My words are penetrating the depth of your being to relax and empower you to go on.
  • Go on my precious thiaBasilia.
  • From your face on the ground your praise and adoration—your worship is ascending to the center of My heart.
  • Your obedience is the delight of My Being.
  • Do not ever forget it!
  • For My delight in your obedience is your strength.
  • Relax! Be still. Let go. Rejoice! Go on and on!
  • My grace and favor are sufficient unto you from this moment on.” End of Your precious words for the moment.

Thank You. O My Master! Thank You …

Wednesday, November 11, 2020 at 7:59 am.

Your words are the light to light my way to Your Kingdom even now while the misery of this valley of death that I am traveling on rages.

HalleluYah! Your Joy Is My Strength …

Wednesday, November 11, 2020 at 8:26 am.

The gas is out. The light is out. The toilet and tissues are out. My eyes keep tearing. My nose keeps dripping. Still no garlic. No avocados, and? I am rejoicing far from my panic of the past! HalleluYah!

  • Photoshop? Here I come! Would you be responsive?
  • I shall see what You have for me while I wait on Thee!

Great Inspiration! Light To Shine …

Wednesday, November 11, 2020 at 3:27 pm.

The light to shine on the mind’s intense darkness of those who dwelt in the land of and the shadow of death, upon them has the Light shined. Quote:

The people who walked in darkness have seen a great Light; those who dwelt in the land of intense darkness and the shadow of death, upon them has the Light shined. (Isaiah 9:2). End of quote.

Your Word Shall Not Return Void …

No kidding! Looking around without a clue of when or how pain and misery personal and at large is coming to an end? It is hard to believe Your written words. But it is written throughout the whole of the Scriptures. One quote:

Seek, inquire for, and require the Master while He may be found [claiming Him by necessity and by right]; call upon Him while He is near.

Let the wicked forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts; and let him return to the Master, and He will have love, pity, and mercy for him, and to our Almighty Creator, for He will multiply to him His abundant pardon.

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Master.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.

For as the rain and snow come down from the heavens, and return not there again, but water the earth and make it bring forth and sprout, that it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, [2Co_9:10]

So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to Me void [without producing any effect, useless], but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:6-11 AMPC+. End of quote.

Master? Your Light Shines In The Darkness Of My Place …

Wednesday, November 11, 2020 at 5:43 pm.

Well? Your light and peace shines from within while darkness is set from without. Still there is no gas for heat, it is out. Light bulb above my head is out as well. No garlic. No onions. No avocados. No problem. No worries. HalleluYah!

  • Will lay down while I wait on You.

Thank You For The Gas To Heat Me Up …

Wednesday, November 11, 2020 at 10:44 pm.

Silence all around. Not an inkling of You sending me some help. But You know all about it. You are in control. My face to the ground. I refuse to question Your Sovereign Authority. I fear not. You are with me.

Revealed Answers As The Almighty Develops The Tale …

Thursday, November 12, 2020 at 4:50 am.

Master? You have chosen this 12th day on the 11th month of this 2020 year to lift Yourself up and be gracious to us. You have been lifting Yourself up to me for the last 35 years or so on the ladder to reach the center of Your heart.

  • The saga of my life reveals how each crisis in my daily living has brough me up and up in that ladder.
  • But the one memorable crisis happened in 2009—the moment You took possession of the key to enter the deepest chamber of my heart at my request for You to do so.
  • Since that moment You raised me up to Your Mountain Top there to remain forever.
  • Even so? The way You have developed all happenings has been beyond my human ability to grasp until now.
  • The development of this 11th month of judgement and order have been rather drastic but!
  • You know all about it.

The Thing Is My Master That Checking The Highlights Of The Saga? …

Thursday, November 12, 2020 at 2:59 pm.

The highlights of my saga? Enough to fling me down to the pit of discouragement, yet, I refuse to despair despite the fact that nothing has come to pass the way You had me to record it.

  • I cannot go on on this state of my affairs.
  • I cannot continue to write I just can’t!
  • You know it.
  • It is of no use to keep myself going without You.
  • Without You giving me a definite leg to stand on.
  • Without the evidence of Your intervention.
  • This is only the beginning
  • How can I hope to make it to the end?
  • I am troubled with the minor inevitable difficulties.
  • No light. Running out of tissues to wipe my tears.
  • No garlic and onions to help to fight the infection.
  • No sight of Ahmad even calling much less showing up to take care of things he should have taken care days ago.
  • Just such small difficulties throwing me down to the bottom.
  • What is to happen when the worst come upon us?
  • Despite the way I am feeling and thinking I refuse to give up.
  • I wait on You.

Master? Thank You For Carrying Me Through The Whole Long Night …

Friday, November 13, 2020 at 7:34 am.

A night in the darkness of my soul. I was wrong to insist that I could not see because I could see enough to get around. The main light is out but I still have the kitchen light to give some light.

  • Even so? The darkness of fear and what have you set up in my soul.
  • Thank You for letting me vent out such darkness for You to dispel.
  • And You did so.
  • After precious six hours of sleep I woke up with a totally new perspective.

Your Perspective Of Order In My Life …

Your order in my life is nothing at all like my concept of order acquire in the public bays of this so loved world of Yours. A world completely out of the order in Your affairs.

The State And Condition Of My Affairs Has Been Dispel Again. This Time? …

This time for good again I should say. For You have revealed to me the fact that the state of my affairs in no way interferes with Your plan to restore my health and my wealth as well as the same for all of my concern.

  • The fact?

Your Sovereign Authority Coupled With Your Unfathomable Wisdom And Passionate Love For Your Creation …

Friday, November 13, 2020 at 8:20 am.

Nothing! Absolutely nothing! Not a thing or a human or a devil is to thwart You perfect plan regardless of how gruesome it looks like to us human beings.

And So? I Wait On You For What Is Next In Your Agenda For My Day …

Ahmad called promising to come with the light when he wakes up. Perhaps. It is not for me to set myself to wait on Ahmad anymore.

  • Furthermore? You compel me not to premeditate whatever I am to say or do or act or react in any given occasion.
  • Therefore? I am staying put waiting on You.
  • Meanwhile? I am heading to Photoshop while I wait on You.

Order And Beauty On The Way To The Top …

Friday, November 13, 2020 at 12:24 pm.

You inspired me to illustrate my stand with You as per John 10 and provided the graphics for the illustration. Wow! What A Marvel!

  • But the best part?
  • You settle my mind and soul once and for all.
  • You are my Shepherd.
  • I am Your sheep.
  • I hear and am listening to Your voice.
  • And You know me, and I follow You
  • You have given me eternal life.
  • I shall never lose it or perish throughout the ages.
  • To all eternity I shall never by any means be destroyed.
  • And no one is able to snatch me out of Your hand.
  • So it is written. Quote:

The sheep that are My own hear and are listening to My voice; and I know them, and they follow Me.

And I give them eternal life, and they shall never lose it or perish throughout the ages. [To all eternity they shall never by any means be destroyed.] And no one is able to snatch them out of My hand.

I ASSURE you, most solemnly I tell you, he who does not enter by the door into the sheepfold, but climbs up some other way (elsewhere, from some other quarter) is a thief and a robber.

But he who enters by the door is the shepherd of the sheep.

The watchman opens the door for this man, and the sheep listen to his voice and heed it; and he calls his own sheep by name and brings (leads) them out.

When he has brought his own sheep outside, he walks on before them, and the sheep follow him because they know his voice.

They will never [on any account] follow a stranger, but will run away from him because they do not know the voice of strangers or recognize their call.

Yahushua used this parable (illustration) with them, but they did not understand what He was talking about.

So Yahushua said again, I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, that I Myself am the Door N1for the sheep.

All others who came [as such] before Me are thieves and robbers, but the [true] sheep did not listen to and obey them.

I am the Door; anyone who enters in through Me will be saved (will live). He will come in and he will go out [freely], and will find pasture.

The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows).

I am the Good Shepherd. The Good Shepherd risks and lays down His [own] life for the sheep. [Psalms 23]

But the hired servant (he who merely serves for wages) who is neither the shepherd nor the owner of the sheep, when he sees the wolf coming, deserts the flock and runs away. And the wolf chases and snatches them and scatters [the flock].

Now the hireling flees because he merely serves for wages and is not himself concerned about the sheep [cares nothing for them].

I am the Good Shepherd; and I know and recognize My own, and My own know and recognize Me–

Even as [truly as] the Father knows Me and I also know the Father–and I am giving My [very own] life and laying it down on behalf of the sheep.

And I have other sheep [beside these] that are not of this fold. I must bring and impel those also; and they will listen to My voice and heed My call, and so there will be [they will become] one flock under one Shepherd. [Eze_34:23]

For this [reason] the Father loves Me, because I lay down My [own] life–to take it back again.

No one takes it away from Me. On the contrary, I lay it down voluntarily. [I put it from Myself.] I am authorized and have power to lay it down (to resign it) and I am authorized and have power to take it back again. These are the instructions (orders) which I have received [as My charge] from My Father.

Then a fresh division of opinion arose among the Jews because of His saying these things.

And many of them said, He has a demon and He is mad (insane–He raves, He rambles). Why do you listen to Him?

Others argued, These are not the thoughts and the language of one possessed. Can a demon-possessed person open blind eyes?

After this the Feast of Dedication [of the reconsecration of the temple] was taking place at Jerusalem. It was winter,

And Yahushua was walking in Solomon’s Porch in the temple area.

So the Jews surrounded Him and began asking Him, How long are You going to keep us in doubt and suspense? If You are really the Messiah, tell us so plainly and openly.

Yahushua answered them, I have told you so, yet you do not believe Me [you do not trust Me and rely on Me]. The very works that I do by the power of My Father and in My Father’s name bear witness concerning Me [they are My credentials and evidence in support of Me].

But you do not believe and trust and rely on Me because you do not belong to My fold [you are no sheep of Mine].

The sheep that are My own hear and are listening to My voice; and I know them, and they follow Me.

And I give them eternal life, and they shall never lose it or perish throughout the ages. [To all eternity they shall never by any means be destroyed.] And no one is able to snatch them out of My hand.

My Father, Who has given them to Me, is greater and mightier than all [else]; and no one is able to snatch [them] out of the Father’s hand.

I and the Father are One.

Again the Jews brought up stones to stone Him.

Yahushua said to them, My Father has enabled Me to do many good deeds. [I have shown many acts of mercy in your presence.] For which of these do you mean to stone Me?

The Jews replied, We are not going to stone You for a good act, but for blasphemy, because You, a mere Man, make Yourself [out to be] God.

Yahushua answered, Is it not written in your Law, I said, You are gods? [Psa_82:6]

So men are called gods [by the Law], men to whom God’s message came–and the Scripture cannot be set aside or cancelled or broken or annulled–

[If that is true] do you say of the One Whom the Father consecrated and dedicated and set apart for Himself and sent into the world, You are blaspheming, because I said, I am the Son of God?

If I am not doing the works [performing the deeds] of My Father, then do not believe Me [do not adhere to Me and trust Me and rely on Me].

But if I do them, even though you do not believe Me or have faith in Me, [at least] believe the works and have faith in what I do, in order that you may know and understand [clearly] that the Father is in Me, and I am in the Father [One with Him].

They sought again to arrest Him, but He escaped from their hands.

He went back again across the Jordan to the locality where John was when he first baptized, and there He remained.

And many came to Him, and they kept saying, John did not perform a [single] sign or miracle, but everything John said about this Man was true.

And many [people] there became believers in Him. [They adhered to and trusted in and relied on Him.]. John 10:1-42 AMPC+. End of quote.

That Is The Fact. That Is My Stand For Eternity …

Friday, November 13, 2020 at 4:07 pm.

Thank You my Master for Your faithfulness to Your words. My fears and worries have dispelled. Ahmad has not showing up yet. Perhaps he is ill. Whatever is the case You are in control. It is not up to me to meddle now.

  • Darkness is setting in as well as the cooler weather.
  • I will crawl under the cover and rest underneath Your everlasting arms for a spell.
  • It is Friday, November 13, 2020 at 8:31 pm.
  • No sign of anyone coming to help.
  • Still, I wait on You.

Master? Another 7th Day To Rest On And In You …

Saturday, November 14, 2020 at 7:45 am.

Your so loved world does not revolve around me. I have no business assuming that it does when I take it upon myself to worry about what goes on in it.

  • All worries and fears amount to sinful lack of trust in Your Sovereign Authority over Your creation.
  • I am deeply ashamed of my past worries and fears.
  • My face is down to the ground never to raise up again.
  • For You sustain me with Your hand of rightness and justice as it is written.
  • Things are not peachy pink now in the human sense.
  • Whatever I had thought to be needed before You are revealing to me it is not necessarily so.
  • I thank You for delivering me from my misconceptions and aberrations.
  • I thank You for returning to me the joy of Your deliverance.
  • I will now go on to illustrate my walk on this earthly highway in Your loving Presence.

Your Plan Is Perfect Regardless Of How Gruesome It Looks Like To Us Human Beings …

Saturday, November 14, 2020 at 9:18 am.

As human beings our ignorance surpasses our lust for the things this deceived world of Your has to offer us rather than what seems a gruesome plan of Yours. But!

There is a way which seems right to a man and appears straight before him, but at the end of it is the way of death. Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful, and the end of mirth is heaviness and grief. Proverbs 14:12-13 AMPC+. End of quote.

  • My life’s journey started in the wide end of that earthly highway.
  • Even so? Now? You are my Shepherd.
  • I walk on this earthly highway in Your loving Presence.
  • I exist on these earthly grounds of Your now deceived world, but!
  • I do not belong to it.
  • I belong to You my Beloved Shepherd—Master Yahushua Redeemer of my soul.
  • Again and again! I thank You for delivering me from my misconceptions and aberrations.
  • I thank You for returning to me the joy of Your deliverance.
  • In You I move and have my being.
  • In You shall now move on and on even on this earthly highway that seems right but it is not.

Against You I Have Sinned. I Must Never Forget It. Psalms 51 Comes In Play Now …

Saturday, November 14, 2020 at 1:15 pm.

Master? You continue to lead me in the authority of Your written words. Psalms 51 expresses my stand—the way I am feeling and thinking.

  • Perhaps Ahmad could be feeling rejected.
  • Even so? The truth is far from the way we feel or think it to be.
  • I have not sin against Ahmad.
  • I have sin against You my Master and Redeemer of my soul as it is written.

Create in Me a Clean Heart, O my Master …


Have mercy upon me, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua, according to Your steadfast love; according to the multitude of Your tender mercy and loving-kindness blot out my transgressions.

Wash me thoroughly and repeatedly from my iniquity and guilt and cleanse me and make me wholly pure from my sin!

For I am conscious of my transgressions and I acknowledge them; my sin is ever before me.

Against You, You only, have I sinned and done that which is evil in Your sight, so that You are justified in Your sentence and faultless in Your judgment.

Behold, I was brought forth in a state of iniquity; my mother was sinful who conceived me and I too am sinful.

Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart.

Purify me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall in reality be whiter than snow.

Make me to hear joy and gladness and be satisfied; let the bones which You have broken rejoice.

Hide Your face from my sins and blot out all my guilt and iniquities.

Create in me a clean heart, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/ Yahushua, and renew a right, persevering, and steadfast spirit within me.

Cast me not away from Your Presence and take not Your Set Apart Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your deliverance and uphold me with a willing spirit.

Then will I teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted and return to You.

Deliver me from blood-guiltiness and death, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua, the Almighty of my deliverance, and my tongue shall sing aloud of Your righteousness—Your rightness and Your justice.

O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua, open my lips, and my mouth shall show forth Your praise.

For You delight not in sacrifice, or else would I give it; You find no pleasure in burnt offering.

My sacrifice the sacrifice acceptable to You O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/ Yahushua is a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart broken down with sorrow for sin and humbly and thoroughly penitent, such, O my Master—my Beloved Yahuweh/Yahushua, You will not despise.

Do good in Your good pleasure to Zion; rebuild the walls of Jerusalem. Then will You delight in the sacrifices of righteousness, justice, and right, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering; then bullocks will be offered upon Your altar. Psalms 51:1-19. End of quote.

Your Kingdom Down On Earth As It Is In Heaven? …

Saturday, November 14, 2020 at 1:54 pm.

No comparison to the kingdoms on this deceived world of Yours, but You know it my Master. And that is what You are now revealing to us.

For thus says the Master of hosts: Yet once more, in a little while, I will shake and make tremble the [starry] heavens, the earth, the sea, and the dry land; [Heb_12:26]]. Haggai 2:6 AMPC+. End of quote.

Garden Seed Of Faith …

Sunday, November 15, 2020 at 4:55 am.

Master? You have planted the seed of faith in my soul to expect avocados to materialize in my trees against all odds. By the same token? You have ingrained in my soul to live behind the glamor of the world and head for brighter grounds.

  • Power To Head For Brighter Grounds …
  • Power To Live Behind The Glamor Of The World …
  • Onward!!!
  • Never Before The Power Was Mine!

Well? O My Master! This Is My Worry/Fear/Free Second Day …

Sunday, November 15, 2020 at 3:32 pm.

It is estrange. Something I have not experience before. A sense of security. A powerful sense never experienced before. What is it? The actual sense of Your Presence within the deepest chamber of my heart.

  • The winter is just now beginning—cold and rain, but!
  • The winter in my soul has ended.
  • Once again O my Beloved You speak and say to me the written words in the Song of Solomon.


Song of Solomon 2:8-15 AMPC+

[Vividly she pictured it] The voice of my beloved [shepherd]! Behold, he comes, leaping upon the mountains, bounding over the hills. [Joh_10:27]

My beloved is like a gazelle or a young hart. Behold, he stands behind the wall of our house, he looks in through the windows, he glances through the lattice.

My beloved speaks and says to me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.

For, behold, the winter is past; the rain is over and gone.

The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds has come, and the voice of the turtledove is heard in our land.

The fig tree puts forth and ripens her green figs, and the vines are in blossom and give forth their fragrance.

Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away.

So I went with him, and when we were climbing the rocky steps up the hillside, my beloved shepherd said to me

O my dove, while you are here in the seclusion of the clefts in the solid rock, in the sheltered and secret place of the cliff, let me see your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely.

My heart was touched and I fervently sang to him my desire Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards of our love, for our vineyards are in blossom. End of quote.

Crystal Pure Love. In My Human Capacity? Beyond My Grasp …

Sunday, November 15, 2020 at 11:38 pm.

Even so? The Crystal Pure Love in the Song of Solomon is now set in the crystal clean heart of mine. And this love shall avail me to endure until the end of the prophesied great tribulation.


Matthew 24:11-13 AMPC+

And many false prophets will rise up and deceive and lead many into error.

And the love of the great body of people will grow cold because of the multiplied lawlessness and iniquity,

  • But he who endures to the end will be saved.

Matthew 24:21-22 AMPC+

For then there will be great tribulation (affliction, distress, and oppression) such as has not been from the beginning of the world until now–no, and never will be [again]. [Dan_12:1; Joe_2:2]

And if those days had not been shortened, no human being would endure and survive, but for the sake of the elect (the Almighty’s chosen ones) those days will be shortened. End of quote.

On Que This Day Ends. A New Day Immersed In Your Crystal Pure Love Begins …

Monday, November 16, 2020 at 12:10 am.

Your order is now set within my being. The Number Twelve – Governing Order and Rulership is to be set not only within but for all practical purposes of my daily affairs as well.

  • A memorable day on the day of my Denise’s birthday.

Your crystal pure love now in my heart for all. thiaBasilia.

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I'm an inspirational writer—in the daily journal of my life lived in the Presence of the Almighty Creator of our beings I write about Truth & Life: eternal as well as temporal life. I am not into any kind of religion, crusade, group or the likes at all! For no one can find Truth or Life eternal in such way. So I am blogging this matter in the journal of my life for all to see the reflection of both lives as I record the daily interchange between my Maker & I.
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