So? You Want To Know ‘WHY’? Encompassing Question In The Human Mind. An Answer? The Truth? There Is Not, But! There Is Hope. Read On…


Journal—An ongoing dialog between thiaBasilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Saturday, October 21, 2017 at 12:51 pm.

Father I am on to this next post. What will it be? I will work in Lorelle  On WordPress. I will see what develops from there.

Sunday, October 22, 2017 at 5:00 am.

Been awake for an hour or so. Father? You know how my body is feeling. You are my Healer. You know exactly what is going on with my body. I am listening to a series on the thyroid issue. I sense this information is coming from You. Let me absorb what You are given me to take care of my body.

For Now? Let’s Talk About The ‘Why’? From Us ….

Sunday, October 22, 2017 at 6:23 am.

  • Why am I who I am?
  • Why am judging this or that person?
  • Why did person tick me off?
  • Why is that person so mean?
  • Why people laugh or sarcastically makes negative comments about others?
  • Why do we think that we know so much?
  • Why do people accuse or excuse other people?
  • Why are we so self-centered?
  • Why are we so condescending?
  • Why we consider only what we know, the heck with what anybody else has to say?
  • Why is there so much evil in this world?

BUT! Most important ‘Why ME? What About ME?’ Am I Not Guilty Of It All?

Sunday, October 22, 2017 at 10:25 am.

Ha! Or Ah! Me? I had to pause. I had to reflect. What about me, my Father? You know I no longer intend to pay mind or to define my own self.

It’s now 1:08 pm. Been sleeping. Couldn’t keep my eyes opened. After the last sentence in the last paragraph? I found myself sleeping in front of the computer—just like one of the pictures I saw in the presentation that I am watching.

Sunday, October 22, 2017 at 10:02 pm.

It’s been a day of up and down. Didn’t come back to record anything until now. I need to go back to sleep. I will record on come back.

One thing I need to do right away is to correct the error in the subtitle of, My Journal—My Story. Enter Into My Journal—Partake In My Story, instead of …. Partake Of My Story….

Sure glad I caught the error before I publish the book. Father? You lead me all the way, in all matters, including my health both physically and mentally and professionally. Thanks. Right now? I’ll crash again. That’s what I need to do.

Ha! What did I do at 1:05 am? I think I woke up/went back to sleep. Anyhow, it seems to me that I woke up at the beginning of my Monday. All I recorded was the time.

To Deliberate Where Are You Leading Me?….

Monday, October 23, 2017 at 2:19 pm.

Goodness sake, my Father! Been in school all this time since, if I recall right, around 3 am. Why I pay attention to the dates and the hours of whatever I do? Because that’s what You instructed me to do.

O my Father, to keep the dates and the hours of whatever I do has been of much value to me, but! That’s the reason why You instructed me to do so. Your wisdom in unfathomable.

Father? You know I remain in awe of Your doings in my life. It is coming to me to investigate my beginnings in this site building adventure of mine. I will go now to 1985—my beginning under Your sight and direction. I will go to my files in PageMaker 4-7. I’ll see what I find. I will record later.

Monday, October 23, 2017 at 5:57 pm.

O well, my Father? So much You have given to me in the last 30 plus years. Perhaps Your lead is to somehow consolidate the immense repertoire. To set my eyes in the whole picture? Overwhelmed, is the word, but! I refuse to despair. You are in control. I wait on You. It’s now 6:09 pm. I need to take a nap.

Not A Good Feeling. Only A Temporary One ….

Monday, October 23, 2017 at 8:30 pm.

Father? I don’t feel good, and! You know it. I refuse to panic. Your grace is sufficient unto me. I think the food is my problem. Maybe some more sleep will do me good. Back to bed I go. Hope You give Your beloved sleep.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017 1:35 am.

Been up since 10:30 pm last night. Ahmad came to visit. He brought me some food and my mobile. Been setting it up for the last couple of hours. I’m now going to bed. Hope for sleep.

Your Directions Become Clear…

Tuesday, October 24, 2017 at 7:25 am.

Thanks, my Father for Your leadership and direction. I woke up this last time around 6 am. You led me or it came to me, to wash my dishes. To wash fruits and vegetables Ahmad brought last night. To fix and eat my breakfast.

While I am at the doings? Your directions became clear. About this post? In previous posts I recorded Your answer about my insidious ‘why’ about anything You send my way. Anything You send my way?

Dear Reader, perhaps a surprise to you as it was when it came to me. Many years ago, this matter of all things good or bad come to us by the hand of our Creator, was revealed to me. Never thought that way before I read the book:

Title: The Christian’s Secret of a Happy Life


Author(s): Smith, Hannah Whitall.

Funny thing! Why didn’t I think of this before? I have experienced all things stated in that book. Why did I not mention that book before? Ah! My Father? It looks like I never learn anything, but! You know that is not true. You have declared it not be so.

I have learned. Not just learned, but! I have experienced, and! I live an even more than just a ‘Christian Happy Life‘. I live, a greater life yet than a Christian or any other ‘Happy Life’! I live a Higher Life in in the Mountain Peak of Your Presence in my heart! What a blessed life!

Why then my questioning? The answer came a long time ago. I will quote some excerpts from previous posts as a reminder to me, to ye all. Quoting,

Wednesday, September 14, 2016 at 10:43 am

O my Father—O Father of mine, what top are You lifting me to?

Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, pause & reflect. Have I not created you to be the head not the tail?

Ah! My Father, O my Father—O Father of mine, that has been my pet-peeve for a long time. Why am I the tail of the monster that goes by the name of ‘society’, The Society Of Mankind? All The Big Chiefs, Doctors, Layers, Kings, Presidents And Indian Chiefs, Head Of This Or That Department, VIPs. Me? A nobody! O how humiliating it could be.

Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, pause and reflect on the fact of my first warning to your ancestor. Did I not commanded Adam not to eat from the Knowledge of Good & Evil? Why did I allowed Adam to disobey My commandment? After this many years of suffering the consequences of such knowledge, can you now understand My reason?

O my Father—O Father of mine, I surely do. What a way to teach me such lesson. But what if Adam had listened to You? What if Adam had refused such diet?

Then, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart, just the same, you would be wondering and pondering on the possibilities to become like or better than Me, just like Satan attempted and continues to attempt through the mind of every human being born under the curse of his dominion over mankind.

Ah! Why didn’t I think of that? I see it, O my Father—O Father of mine, I see it but, why others refuse to see it? Why are people the way they are? Why do you let me act & react with my human mind? I know, You have given me that answer before, why do I continue to repeat the same stupid actions over and over again? It does not make sense, O my Father—O Father of mine, it just does not make sense. Worse than that, it makes me look like You have not taught me better. Is Your name that is at stake.

Really? O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Is it My name that you are concerned about or is it your shame and reputation? Is it My name or your fear of man?

Ha! O my Father—O Father of mine? I kind of had a hunch that such was the case. Even so, I needed to hear it from You. If I just go to correct myself? I’ll be self-righteous. Right?

O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? You got it! Indeed, you got it! From now on, your reactions will be more than adequate to each occasion with the savor of the fun-loving personality that I have gifted unto you.

Hahaha! I am coming up smelling like a rose after all! How about that? Onward I am going, singing, and praising, voices are raising, I’ll not repine! Thanks, O my Father—O Father of mine, I’ll not repine, for I am Yours and You are mine! Hahaha! HalleluYah!

Not that anyone cares but, it sure makes a world of difference to me to be set free from the fear of man. Hum! Who has time to be concerned about anyone else than their own selves. The fear of man is only in the mind of the beholder! Dumb mumbo! There! The naked truth.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017 at 1:50 pm.

Wow! Dear Reader, I recorded it all over a year ago, how appropriate of a reminder! A reminder—an answer to our Why this or why that?

Jealousy/Competitiveness Pops Their Heads….

Tuesday, October 24, 2017 at 6:51 pm.

No fear. Just much sadness in my heart. No way to look away from the monster. The monster encompasses the human mind across the whole globe. No matter what I hear. No matter what I read? The Monster reality of the program in the human mind pops up!

If I mention to someone an instrumental book in my path, liken to the book I mention above? Later? That one reminds me how my mention caused them to buy the book, and now? That’s their devotional! Adding the remark how we are in the same page, but! Not realizing that we are not in the same page at all! How sad!

I no longer use that book as a devotional. No longer adhere to devotionals or quiet time or meditation or ‘church attendance’ or religion of any kind. I do reflect and devote my time on the 24/7 to my Father. He always leads me accordingly to His love and wisdom—much higher and mightier than whatever I could device for myself.

Then? I have another situation in the matter of female rivalry in relationships. If my loved one gives attention to someone else? Jealousy pops its head. What should I do? How am I to respond? Ha! It just came to me. Do nothing. Do not react. Wait.

Effective Self-Examination…

Wednesday, October 25, 2017 at 3:16 am.

Ha! I see it my Father! I hear, “Examining ourselves—our behavior does not mean self-condemnation at all. Rather, to examine our behavior is essential to the improvement of such behavior.

Only, to an effective examination? We must stand naked in the sight of our Maker. Otherwise? It could turn into radical and destructive self-condemnation. Hebrew 4 comes into mind.

It’s a long quote, but! It’s worth to carefully read it even if one has read it many times before. It holds the secret finding of help to avail us to resolve all our predicaments.

Dear Reader, no kidding, every time I now read it? It makes such an impact in my soul. I hope for it to do the same for you. I encourage you to read it for yourself. Quote,

Hebrews 4:1-16

  • THEREFORE, WHILE the promise of entering His rest still holds and is offered today, let us be afraid to distrust it, lest any of you should think he has come too late and has come short of reaching it.
  • For indeed we have had the glad tidings—Good News proclaimed to us just as truly as they—the Israelites of old did when the Good News of deliverance from bondage came to them; but the message they heard did not benefit them, because it was not mixed with faith—with the leaning of the entire personality on Yahuwah in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness by those who heard it; neither were they united in faith with the ones—Joshua and Kaleb who heard and did believe.
  • For we who have believed—adhered to and trusted in and relied on Yahuwah do enter that rest, in accordance with His declaration that those who did not believe should not enter when He said, As I swore in My wrath, They shall not enter My rest; and this He said although His works had been completed and prepared and waiting for all who would believe from the foundation of the world.
  • For in a certain place He has said this about the seventh day: And Yahuwah/Yahushua rested on the seventh day from all His works. And they forfeited their part in it, for in this passage He said, They shall not enter My rest.
  • Seeing then that the promise remains over from past times for some to enter that rest, and that those who formerly were given the good news about it and the opportunity, failed to appropriate it and did not enter because of disobedience, again He sets a definite day, a new Today, and gives another opportunity of securing that rest saying through David after so long a time in the words already quoted, Today, if you would hear His voice and when you hear it, do not harden your hearts. This mention of a rest was not a reference to their entering into Canaan. For if Joshua had given them rest, He Yahuwah would not speak afterward about another day.
  • So then, there is still awaiting a full and complete Sabbath-rest reserved for the true people of Yahuwah; for he who has once entered Yahuwah’s rest also has ceased from the weariness and pain of human labors, just as Yahuwah/Yahushua rested from those labors peculiarly His own.
  • Let us therefore be zealous and exert ourselves and strive diligently to enter that rest of Yahuwah, to know and experience it for ourselves, that no one may fall or perish by the same kind of unbelief and disobedience into which those in the wilderness fell.
  • For the Word that Yahuwah/Yahushua speaks is alive and full of power making it active, operative, energizing, and effective; it is sharper than any two-edged sword, penetrating to the dividing line of the breath of life (soul) and the immortal spirit, and of joints and marrow of the deepest parts of our nature, exposing and sifting and analyzing and judging the very thoughts and purposes of the heart.
  • And not a creature exists that is concealed from His sight, but all things are open and exposed, naked and defenseless to the eyes of Him with Whom we have to do.
  • Inasmuch then as we have a great High Priest Who has already ascended and passed through the heavens, Yahushua the Son of Yahuwah, let us hold fast our confession of belief in Him. For we do not have a High Priest Who is unable to understand and sympathize and have a shared feeling with our weaknesses and infirmities and liability to the assaults of temptation, but One Who has been tempted in every respect as we are, yet without sinning.
  • Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace—the throne of Yahuwah’s unmerited favor to us sinners, that we may receive mercy for our failures and find grace to help in good time for every need—appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it. End of quote.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017 at 4:16 am.

That’s exactly what I now do. Fearlessly and confidently and boldly I draw near to the throne of grace—the throne of Yahuwah’s unmerited favor to us sinners. There, for sure, receive mercy for my failures and find grace to help in good time for every need—appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when I need it.


For sure also? I find my ‘why this or that’ unnecessary. Redundant questions already resolved in the Presence of my Beloved Father/Creator of my being.
My life now? A Life Meant To Impact The Globe With HOPE….

The ways of mankind are insane, troublesome, heavy loads imposed on each one of us. Indeed! This world is ridden with ins anity.

Insanity Affect Us All! The Secret to Abolish Insanity? It’s in My Journal—My Story. Enter Into My Journal—Partake Of My Story….

The Journal of My Life holds the Secret to Abolish Insanity. Read on and on until you find that secret to avail you for eternity.

His love in my heart for all remains there to stay for eternity, thiaBasilia. 🙂

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