Codependency. Unforgiveness. Mental Insanity. Breaking The Shackles.

Journal—An ongoing dialog between thia/Basilia and Master Yahuwah/Yahushua. …

Friday, May 12, 2017 at 6:43 am

O my Father—O Father of mine? It looks like people got so much grammar and knowledge under their skull, it is impossible for them to accommodate one more single character much less too many exclamation marks. Let them be. I can’t let it disturb me. I am going on. Marks or not. Grammatically or aesthetically correct or not. Your words I must post. Otherwise? All hope could be lost.

Friday, May 12, 2017 at 11:33 am

Down I am. Stuck on my thoughts. What is it going to take for the people to Your call to respond? Second day alone with such thoughts. Lift me up. O lift me up, my Father, lift me up!

What am I to expect? Have not conception in that respect. You the One Who set up the authorities over me. You the One Who tells me I must respect the authorities. Are those authorities failing me? Or am failing to respect those authorities? Am I wanting to control? Am I in distress because You won’t let such control of me get a hold?

I must obey Your words to me, but! The controlling thoughts won’t rest to my distress. I want free to be. O wretched me! I cannot myself set free! Lift me up. O lift me up, my Father, lift me up!

Friday, May 12, 2017 at 5:07 pm

Father? Perhaps what I am striving with is, again, the issues You do not resolve for me on the dot! How dare I? But that seems to be the case. Over & over the same tedious issue. “I am down! Do something to get me up!” Never once realizing the impertinence of the mandate. Who am I? The clay mandating the Potter?

O my Father—O Father of mine? Thanks for Your everlasting patience with this child of Yours. Thanks for this private place where I can pitch my fits for Your eyes only. Thanks for setting me from codependency on Ahmad or anyone else. What? Where that word ‘codependency’ popped into my mind and then unto the keyboard?

That word so freely used in my psychiatric treatment time, not once before now, the thought of it came into my mind.

Definition of codependency

:  a psychological condition or a relationship in which a person is controlled or manipulated by another who is affected with a pathological condition (such as an addiction to alcohol or heroin); broadly :  dependence on the needs of or control by another

So that’s what this whole episode been about. So that’s been the hold up between Ahmad & I? Wow! What a revelation! And how timely!

  • The truth to set me free dawn on me.
  • Perhaps, just perhaps that’s the sneaky hold keeping so many in the shackles of unforgiveness! Wow!

I freely pitched my fit. “I can’t forgive Ahmad!” I shouted up high!

I wept in the agony of another broken relationship! Bitter memories clouded my shining flame of motherly love for Ahmad.

“Family? Loving family? I have no family. I have no one! I am alone!”

My weeping ceased. My world became still. Wisdom knocking at the door of my heart.

Are you hungry? Your cooking is ready. Go ahead and eat. You’ll feel better and more together. There are Kindred Spirits knocking at your Inbox. Ha!

Dear friends—my Kindred Spirits, the tears of joy are moistening my eyes with this amazing opportunity to add the most essential information about this post.


Breaking the shackles.

How can we bring a better world around of forgiveness and love, if we cannot even forgive ourselves or hold grudges to those who have wronged us?

On and off half of my life, from 1962-2007, was spent in the Mental Health world seeking for relief of my mental insanity. The last 12 years of that period almost destroyed me for good, but!

Behold! The Power Of Love From On High Descending Upon Us All. It Never Fails. It Always Avails!

In June 20, 1985, our Messiah stepped into my life. He began my transformation. He also called me to follow Him. He instructed me to journal my life as a witness of the work He will do in me.

Thus, here I am, in the Middle East in Amman, Jordan. My story & history of mental illness/deliverance is told in the blog

Why should you check that blog?

  • Because to break the shackles of unforgiveness we must first recognize our own mental illness.
  • Not just recognize it, but! We must humble ourselves and recognize the futility of our doings to get rid of it.
  • We must come to the END of the matter as it is written:

But about going further [than the words given by one Shepherd], my son, be warned. Of making many books there is no end [so do not believe everything you read], and much study is a weariness of the flesh. All has been heard; the end of the matter is:

  • Fear the Almighty Creator [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments,
  • for this is the whole of man [the full,
  • original purpose of his creation,
  • the object of THE Creator’s providence,
  • the root of character,
  • the foundation of all happiness,
  • the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man.

For the Almighty Creator shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it is good or evil. Ecclesiastes 12:12,13

Dear Friends, I am a witness that unforgiveness has its roots in Mental Insanity as per the Father/Creator has instructed me to proclaim. All sins are rooted in the Mental Insanity we inherited at our births.

May you be empowered to talk to the Spirit of our Father/Creator in your heart to confirm what here I am stating as per His leading for me to do.

His love in my heart for all, thiaBasilia.

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