This is the draft for a booklet. Bear with me. It’s a worthy reading. Dear Reader, you have been reading and following this blog for quite a while now. I am confident by now you are most interested in what I write. I hope with all my heart the Spirit within me is reaching the Spirit within you. I am writing directly to you. Please, take note of the following:

  • The Scriptures quoted in this post are not anything I have learned in any ‘Bible Study’ or even from my own reading of such Scriptures. In addition, emphatically I proclaim: It is not my intention to teach or to impose such Scriptures to you or on anyone that happens to read such. My only intention is to share with all how the Almighty Spirit of our Creator has corrected my former understanding of the Creator, myself and people in general by my reading or studying the Scriptures.
  • Furthermore, the Scriptures quoted are necessary to understand what’s going on within ourselves first of all.
  • Then, the quoting of those Scriptures is necessary to understand where Mental Insanity has its roots.
  • In this knowledge rests the hope for recovery.

To your benefit.

Much love, thiaBasilia. 😊



  • The precious versus the vile.
  • The human nature versus the Creator’s nature.
  • Choose life.
  • Choose death.

My Bewilderment…

  • Why are the righteous sinning?
  • Why the righteous cannot recognize their sin?
  • Why so many beautiful things are sinful?
  • Why our search for that elusive happiness?
  • Why Mental Insanity besets this world that we inhabit?

Most Important…

  • How can I find the answer to my bewilderment?



I Never Thought Gullibility To Be A Virtue, But, It Is.

Saturday, March 25, 2017 at 10:57 pm

This has been quite a day, O my Father—O Father of mine! You have pour down Your power of love from on high on me big time! Every single day You strip away another layer of my carnal doings. What an amazing development! I will now take a break to wash my dishes.

Sunday, March 26, 2017 at 12:19 am

I washed my dishes. Clean things a bit. Couldn’t come back to continue writing anything. Just clicked the date tab and I wrote, ‘Bed’ and headed for it.

Sunday, March 26, 2017 at 6:50 am

A comment on a post….

WOW! The tears of hope and wonder are copiously flowing from my lachrymal. The description of a true woman you have exposed in this post is exactly as the Creator meant it to be. None of us can achieve such status without suffering. Much to be said on the matter. It all boils down to the Father/Creator of our beings. In time, we must all arrive at King Solomon’s conclusion.

Perhaps a reminder to my own self on what to do? No need to wonder. No need in trying to figure out what comes next. No need to study and rack my brains to learn what I don’t need to learn. It is written,

Ecclesiastes 12:11-14

  • The words of the wise are like prodding goads, and firmly fixed [in the mind] like nails are the collected sayings which are given [as proceeding] from one Shepherd.
  • But about going further [than the words given by one Shepherd], my son, be warned.
  • Of making many books there is no end [so do not believe everything you read], and much study is a weariness of the flesh.
  • All has been heard; the end of the matter is:
  1. Fear the Almighty Creator of our beings [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is].
  2. Keep His commandments
  • For this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation
  • The object of God’s providence.
  • The root of character
  • The foundation of all happiness
  • The adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun and the whole duty for every man.
  • For the Almighty shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it is good or evil.

O my sister, what a blessing you are. I sincerely hope to establish a relationship with you. I know in my heart this is our Father’s time to join us all one by one. Hope you sense the same thing. Much love, thiaBasilia. 🙂

Back to Gullibility….

Sunday, March 26, 2017 at 11:13 am

Father? I know You are there. I know You are here. How do I know it? I don’t know how I know it. I just know that I know it. Perhaps I know it because You have become One with me or vice versa? Perhaps You have become One with me because that is the way You intended it to be from the moment of our creation?

Anyhow, I know You are my Father. I know You are right here with me. I know You are right there with each one of Your children. No need for me trying to figure You out, but! There is much need for me to listen or to obey Your voice. You have made that possible for me. How? Gullibility. I never thought gullibility to be a virtue, but, it is.

Let me put it like this,

  • Because I am gullible, I am still alive.
  • Because I am gullible, I believe in people.
  • Because I am gullible, I prick many hearts.
  • Because I am gullible, people take upon themselves to take care of me.

What it means to be gullible? Easily deceived or cheated; naive; credulous. Now, that puts me in the mind of an innocent child. That’s what I am like. That’s what our Redeemer calls us to be.

  • Ha! So that’s the secret of this supernatural life that I am now living. Good Grief people! Get a hold of yourselves. It’s really that simple.

Alright, alright! It’s simple, but! We humans love to complicate things. Because the more complicated we are, the more attention we get from simpletons. What? Yeah, to be gullible does not mean to be a simpleton or a person who is felt to be deficient in judgment, good sense, or intelligence; a fool.

There is no comparison between gullible & simpleton. But why bring the matter to the surface? Because simpletons make heroes & heroines out of complicated human beings. But, a simple matter? Forget it! It has no appeal even for the highly intelligent human being.


Dumping On My Father

Sunday, March 26, 2017 at 2:57 pm

Father? Here I come again to dump on You. You know how disgusted I am with all that goes on in the world—the issues that we have called upon our own selves. The issues that we want to skirt around irresponsibly, aka, the issue of us women’s predicament now.

Human beings refuse to hear. At the sight of the atrocities due to our lack of listening to Your voice, they exclaim, “I DON’T WANT TO HEAR THAT!” They storm away to do whatever suits their insane mind! I had it!

Regardless! I refuse to take anything into my own hands to take care of the matter. Because, the major issue of the woman of today affects me personally. Thus, in the past I have taken things into my own hands to re-mediate the issue.

Big goof up! No positive results. Only to escalate the whole ugly issue affecting the woman of today. Therefore, I know now not to take things into my own hands.

So, what am I doing now? Dumping the whole matter on You, my Father. For You are the only One able & willing to resolve not only the woman’s predicament but also all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun. You know that my Father.

  • Only the majority of human beings haven’t got a clue of their lack of power to resolve the issues we have called upon our own selves.

Thus, they torment me with their, “I DON’T WANT TO HEAR THAT!” O but I could just kill a few and be done with them! No two ways about it, they infuriate me!

What about You, my Father? I need to hear from You. You alone can quench the flames of my fury. You alone can intervene not for my sake alone, but! Mainly for the sake of all involved. Mainly for the sake of all reading these lines.

Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Do you remember how My people vexed Me in the wilderness? Do you remember I intended to destroy them on the spot? But My servant Moses interceded and prevailed in stayed My wrath.

Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? You live in My Presence in Oneness with Me. What I think, you think. What I feel, you feel. Only you are human. Thus, as a human you estimate such violent reaction to the stubbornness of your people is not right, but! Little do you know, you are feeling as I feel about My rebellious people.

Moses Intercedes for the People


Numbers 14:11-25

  • And the Almighty said to Moses, How long will this people provoke (spurn, despise) Me? And how long will it be before they believe Me [trusting in, relying on, clinging to Me], for all the signs which I have performed among them?
  • I will smite them with the pestilence and disinherit them, and will make of you [Moses] a nation greater and mightier than they.
  • But Moses said to the Almighty, Then the Egyptians will hear of it, for You brought up this people in Your might from among them.
  • And they will tell it to the inhabitants of this land. They have heard that You, Almighty, are in the midst of this people [of Israel], that You, Almighty, are seen face to face, and that Your cloud stands over them, and that You go before them in a pillar of cloud by day and in a pillar of fire by night.
  • Now if You kill all this people as one man, then the nations that have heard Your fame will say,
  • Because the Almighty was not able to bring this people into the land which He swore to give to them, therefore He has slain them in the wilderness.
  • And now, I pray You, let the power of my Almighty be great, as You have promised, saying,
  • The Almighty is long-suffering and slow to anger, and abundant in mercy and loving-kindness, forgiving iniquity and transgression; but He will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, upon the third and fourth generation. Pardon, I pray You, the iniquity of this people according to the greatness of Your mercy and loving-kindness, just as You have forgiven [them] from Egypt until now.
  • And the Almighty said, I have pardoned according to your word.
  • But truly as I live and as all the earth shall be filled with the glory of the Almighty, [Isa_6:3; Isa_11:9]
  • Because all those men who have seen My glory and My [miraculous] signs which I performed in Egypt and in the wilderness, yet have tested and proved Me these ten times and have not heeded My voice, surely they shall not see the land which I swore to give to their fathers; nor shall any who provoked (spurned, despised) Me see it. [Heb_6:4-11]
  • But My servant Caleb, because he has a different spirit and has followed Me fully, I will bring into the land into which he went, and his descendants shall possess it.

O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? So far you have been addressing Me as the Father/Creator because that is what the Messiah instructed you to do when He walked among you, but! Now?

I would have you to address the mystery of your Messiah—the secret behind your experience of the supernatural life you are living now.

In addition, I will now reveal to you and to all your readers, the beginning of the rebellion of My people.

The People Rebel


Numbers 14:1-12

AND ALL the congregation cried out with a loud voice, and [they] wept that night.

All the Israelites grumbled and deplored their situation, accusing Moses and Aaron, to whom the whole congregation said, Would that we had died in Egypt! Or that we had died in this wilderness!

Why does the Almighty bring us to this land to fall by the sword? Our wives and little ones will be a prey. Is it not better for us to return to Egypt? [Act_7:37-39]

And they said one to another, Let us choose a captain and return to Egypt.

Then Moses and Aaron fell on their faces before all the assembly of Israelites.

And Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, who were among the scouts who had searched the land, rent their clothes,

And they said to all the company of Israelites, The land through which we passed as scouts is an exceedingly good land.

If the Almighty delights in us, then He will bring us into this land and give it to us, a land flowing with milk and honey.

Only do not rebel against the Almighty, neither fear the people of the land, for they are bread for us. Their defense and the shadow [of protection] is removed from over them, but the Almighty is with us. Fear them not.

But all the congregation said to stone [Joshua and Caleb] with stones. But the glory of the Almighty appeared at the Tent of Meeting before all the Israelites. End of quote.

My child, this rebellion is now at its peak. Therefore, I will soon have the Messiah return to end the cause and effect of such rebellion, but!

Announcing the Messiah’s Return…

Before the Messiah’s return it is necessary to sort & reunite My people scattered in the whole earth. Thus, the importance of the journal of your daily life in My Presence.

For this time, I will not deal with the multitude at large. I will deal with each one of My children individually. I am picking one of a city. Two of a family. I have pick you, O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart as one of city.

I have sent you to this region of the world. From here, I am accomplishing My plan of restoration to the original intent for your creation. From here I am reaching My children’s heart one by one as per My words to my Prophet Jeremiah. Quote,

Jeremiah 3:14

  • Return, O faithless children [of the whole twelve tribes], says the Master, for I am the Almighty and Master and Husband to you, and I will take you [not as a nation, but individually]–one from a city and two from a tribal family–and I will bring you to Zion. End of quote.

It Is Not Our Fault. Our Minds Are Not Able To Understand The Creator’s Words.

Even so My child, My people are still obsessed with all kinds of rituals and doctrines and regulations. So much so that they are not able to hear anything outside of their own programmed doings. It is not their fault.

Their human mind is not able to comprehend My mind. Do you remember Paul? Quote,

Romans 8:3-7

  • For the Almighty has done what the Law could not do, [its power] being weakened by the flesh or the entire nature of man without the Holy Spirit. Sending His own Son in the guise of sinful flesh and as an offering for sin, The Almighty condemned sin in the flesh or subdued, overcame, deprived it of its power over all who accept that sacrifice, so that the righteous and just requirement of the Law might be fully met in us who live and move not in the ways of the flesh but in the ways of the Spirit—our lives governed not by the standards and according to the dictates of the flesh, but controlled by the Holy Spirit.

  • For those who are according to the flesh and are controlled by its unholy desires set their minds on and pursue those things which gratify the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit and are controlled by the desires of the Spirit set their minds on and seek those things which gratify the [Holy] Spirit.

  • Now the mind of the flesh which is sense and reason without the Holy Spirit is death—death that comprises all the miseries arising from sin, both here and hereafter.

  • But the mind of the [Holy] Spirit is life and soul peace [both now and forever].

  • That is, because the mind of the flesh with its carnal thoughts and purposes is hostile to the Almighty, for it DOES NOT submit itself to the Almighty’s Law; INDEED! IT CANNOT.

Let No One Disqualify You.

Colossians 2:1-23

FOR I want you to know how great is my solicitude for you—how severe an inward struggle I am engaged in for you and for those believers at Laodicea, and for all who, like yourselves have never seen my face and known me personally.

For my concern is, that their hearts may be braced (comforted, cheered, and encouraged) as they are knit together in love, that they may come to have all the abounding wealth and blessings of assured conviction of understanding, and that they may become progressively more intimately acquainted with and may know more definitely and accurately and thoroughly that mystic secret of the Almighty, which is Messiah (the Anointed One).

In Him all the treasures of sacred wisdom or comprehensive insight into the ways and purposes of the Almighty and all the riches of spiritual knowledge and enlightenment are stored up and lie hidden.

I say this in order that no one may mislead and delude you by plausible and persuasive and attractive arguments and beguiling speech.

For though I am away from you in body, yet I am with you in spirit, delighted at the sight of your [standing shoulder to shoulder in such] orderly array and the firmness and the solid front and steadfastness of your faith in Messiah, that leaning of the entire human personality on Him in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness.

As you have therefore received the Messiah, evenYahushua, the Master, so, walk (regulate your lives and conduct yourselves) in union with and conformity to Him.

Have the roots of your being firmly and deeply planted in Him, fixed and founded in Him, being continually built up in Him, becoming increasingly more confirmed and established in the faith, just as you were taught, and abounding and overflowing in it with thanksgiving.

See to it that no one carries you off as spoil or makes you yourselves captive by his so-called philosophy and intellectualism and vain deceit (idle fancies and plain nonsense), following human tradition (men’s ideas of the material rather than the spiritual world), just crude notions following the rudimentary and elemental teachings of the universe and disregarding the teachings of Yahushua (the Messiah).

  • For in Him the whole fullness of Deity (the Almighty’s Head) continues to dwell in bodily form [giving complete expression of the divine nature].
  • And you are in Him, made full and having come to fullness of life in Messiah you too are filled with the Almightyhead–Father, Son and Holy Spirit–and reach full spiritual stature. And He is the Head of all rule and authority of every angelic principality and power.
  • In Him also you were circumcised with a circumcision not made with hands, but in a [spiritual] circumcision [performed by] Messiah by stripping off the body of the flesh (the whole corrupt, carnal nature with its passions and lusts).
  • Thus, you were circumcised when you were buried with Him in [your] baptism, in which you were also raised with Him to a new life through [your] faith in the working of the Almighty as displayed when He raised Him up from the dead.
  • And you who were dead in trespasses and in the uncircumcision of your flesh (your sensuality, your sinful carnal nature), the Almighty brought to life together with Messiah, having [freely] forgiven us all our transgressions.
  • Having cancelled and blotted out and wiped away the handwriting of the note (bond) with its legal decrees and demands which was in force and stood against us (hostile to us). This [note with its regulations, decrees, and demands] He set aside and cleared completely out of our way by nailing it to His
  • The Almighty disarmed the principalities and powers that were ranged against us and made a bold display and public example of them, in triumphing over them in Him and in it [the cross].
  • Therefore let no one sit in judgment on you in matters of food and drink, or with regard to a feast day or a New Moon or a Sabbath.
  • Such things are only the shadow of things that are to come, and they have only a symbolic value. But the reality (the substance, the solid fact of what is foreshadowed, the body of it) belongs to Messiah.
  • Let no one defraud you by acting as an umpire and declaring you unworthy and disqualifying you for the prize, insisting on self-abasement and worship of angels, taking his stand on visions [he claims] he has seen, vainly puffed up by his sensuous notions and inflated by his unspiritual thoughts and fleshly conceit,
  • And not holding fast to the Head, from Whom the entire body, supplied and knit together by means of its joints and ligaments, grows with a growth that is from the Almighty.
  • If then you have died with Messiah to material ways of looking at things and have escaped from the world’s crude and elemental notions and teachings of externalism, why do you live as if you still belong to the world?
  • Why do you submit to rules and regulations?–such as ‘Do not handle [this], Do not taste [that], Do not even touch [them], referring to things all of which perish with being used. To do this is to follow human precepts and doctrines.
  • Such practices have indeed the outward appearance that popularly passes for wisdom, in promoting self-imposed rigor of devotion and delight in self-humiliation and severity of discipline of the body, but they are of no value in checking the indulgence of the flesh (the lower nature). Instead, they do not honor the Almighty but serve only to indulge the flesh.

The Precious Nature versus The Vile One. The war between two natures is the core of the Mental Insanity

Monday, March 27, 2017 at 8:10 am

Why am quoting such long passages of Scripture? Is this a ‘Bible’ study? NAY! NAY! NAY! this is another example of Worldly Wisdom/Wisdom from Above, that’s all. Get off your high horse, dear Pat. No need for your premature wise comment to prove me wrong and you right.

Ha! I just about hear you saying, “No Thia, that was not my intention. I know you are right. I never think you to be wrong!” Hum! Hum! Hum! I give the benefit of doubt. Maybe I am the one is wrong in my estimation of your intentions. What?

  • Pat, I am not wrong or right! Let’s understand the situation. I share with you what the Spirit in my heart wants you to hear but! We are both humans. We are both reacting as humans.

Sober revelation…

Let me get back to the title of this long post, The War Between Two Natures/The Core Of Insanity…

  • The precious versus the vile. The precious nature of the Creator versus the vile nature of our birth.
  • The human nature versus the Creator’s nature. The vile nature of our birth versus the precious nature of the Creator.
  • Choose life. Choose The precious nature of the Creator
  • Choose death. Choose The vile nature of our birth.

The war between two natures is the core of the Mental Insanity that besets this world that we inhabit.

So, perhaps anyone could consider me insanely portraying myself as a little child? I have news for all, I am still that abused, ignored, labeled with all kinds of labels, and emotionally damaged of my pitiful past but! No longer affected by such sordid past. What am I talking about?

I am talking about the supernatural life that I now live underneath the Everlasting Arms of my Father/Creator.

  • He saved me from that sordid past for His esteem & honor.
  • He has satisfied all the needs of my childhood.
  • He has preserved my child-like nature in the image of Himself.
  • He has guarded & protected me even in the worst moment of my tumultuous life.
  • He has given me a new life.

The tears shed in that tumultuous life He placed them in a bottle to water the garden of my new life.

That garden of my new life is beginning to produce.

Thus, the writing & publishing this long essay; that others may see my good works and esteem & praise His blessed Name.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017 at 3:47 am

O my Father—O Father of mine? There is hope in our midst, yet! We suffer. We suffer big time! It is not just lack of money to live on; it’s much deeper than lack of any material thing. What then it is?

  • The lack of commitment to You.
  • The failure to fear You.
  • The insidious human quest to supplant You in all human’s heart.

O my Father—O Father of mine? What do You want from me. What do You want from each one of us? Way back when, You gave us the answer to this question: Listen to My voice.

Pause. Reflect. O thiaBasilia—O child of My heart? Pause & reflect in the way I have led you all these years. Have I not led you in the same way I led My servant Abraham? Have I not provided all things for your comfort all the days of your life? Am I not doing the same even now? Indeed! You bless Me every single day with your thanks even when things are not quite pleasant to you.

You bless Me in the morning, at noon time.

You bless Me when the sun goes down and when the sun rise up.

But why do you do so now but not in the past?

Ah! My child, that’s the difference between your lower and higher life.

My child, you ask now what do I want from you? My answer at this time of your existence on these earthly grounds is not any longer what I want from you. My answer is,

  • I want you!
  • I want you for the intent I created you to be.
  • I created you in My image.
  • I created you to be My most precious possession.
  • I created you to love, cherish, and protect you from all evil.

True, the process of your creation has taken place in ways beyond your comprehension.

  • It is generally believed that Satan thwarted My intend for your creation but! It is not so.

  • No power on, under, or above the sun can come close to thwart any of My doings. Despite all attempts to do so, I am and shall ever be the sole Creator of the whole Universe and everything there in including you.

  • My plans for you are good. No one can thwart such plan. My plan to restore you to the original intent for your creation has prevailed.

  • You are My child. I am your Father. I love you beyond the scope of your imagination. Therefore, I am carefully minding all things pertaining to your welfare.

In the deepest part of my being I know this to be a fact, my Father. I refuse to think otherwise.

I Know You Better Than You Know Yourself…

After a life of rebellion, you have finally listened to My voice. Because you have listened to My voice, My blessings or promises for your good are now materializing. Quote:

Blessings for Obedience

  • If you will listen diligently to the voice of Yahuwah your Almighty Creator your Maker, being watchful to do all His commandments which I command you this day, Yahuwah your Almighty Creator your Maker will set you high above all the nations of the earth.
  • And these words which I am commanding you this day shall be first in your own minds and hearts; then you shall whet and sharpen them so as to make them penetrate, and teach and impress them diligently upon the minds and hearts of your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down and when you rise up. …
  • If you will listen diligently to the voice of Yahuweh your Almighty Creator your Maker, being watchful to do all His commandments which I command you this day, Yahuweh your Almighty Creator your Maker will set you high above all the nations of the earth.
  • And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you if you heed the voice of Yahuweh your Almighty Creator your Maker.
  • Blessed shall you be in the city and blessed shall you be in the field.
  • Blessed shall be the fruit of your body and the fruit of your ground and the fruit of your beasts, the increase of your cattle and the young of your flock.
  • Blessed shall be your basket and your kneading trough.
  • Blessed shall you be when you come in and blessed shall you be when you go out.
  • Yahuweh your Almighty Creator shall cause your enemies who rise up against you to be defeated before your face; they shall come out against you one way and flee before you seven ways.
  • Yahuweh your Almighty Creator shall command the blessing upon you in your storehouse and in all that you undertake. And He will bless you in the land which Yahuweh your Almighty Creator your Maker gives you.
  • Yahuweh your Almighty Creator will establish you as a people set apart to Himself, as He has sworn to you, if you keep the commandments of Yahuweh your Almighty Creator your Maker and walk in His ways.
  • And all people of the earth shall see that you are called by the name and live in the Presence of Yahuweh your Almighty Creator, and they shall be afraid of you.
  • And Yahuweh your Almighty Creator shall make you have a surplus of prosperity, through the fruit of your body, of your livestock, and of your ground, in the land which Yahuwah your Almighty Creator swore to your fathers to give you.
  • Yahuwah your Almighty Creator shall open to you His good treasury, the heavens, to give the rain of your land in its season and to bless all the work of your hands; and you shall lend to many nations, but you shall not borrow.
  • And Yahuwah your Almighty Creator shall make you the head, and not the tail; and you shall be above only, and you shall not be beneath, if you heed the commandments of Yahuwah your Almighty Creator your Maker which I command you this day and are watchful to do them.
  • And you shall not turn aside from any of the words which I command you this day, to the right hand or to the left, to go after other your Deities to serve them. Deuteronomy 28:1-14. End of quote.


Why The Righteous Are Sinning, Cannot Recognize Their Sin? Why The Mental Insanity Besetting This World?


Tuesday, March 28, 2017 at 6:17 pm

Been blessed again. The Internet was cut again for lack of pay and, it did not bend me out of shape. Instead, I spent the whole day working off line on the next post. And to boot, I got the answer for my bewilderment.

My Bewilderment…

  • Why are the righteous sinning? Because they have not renounced their intellectual capacity or understanding of all things.
  • Why the righteous cannot recognize their sin? Because they have not recognized the existence of two natures within our beings, the carnal nature of our birth & the nature of our Creator.
  • Thus, the righteous attribute all their doings to the carnal mind in lieu of the nature of our Creator. They assumed all their doings to be from the human mind. They exalt the human mind just like any other human does. Such is not to be, but!
  • Why so many beautiful things are sinful? Because we look at all things with the knowledge from the tree of good & evil. Thus, we assumed all beauty to be something to view to honor the Creator. But it is not so.
  • Why our search for that elusive happiness? Because there is no such a thing as eternal happiness for the carnal nature of our birth. There is no peace for the wicked.
  • Why Mental Insanity besets this world that we inhabit? Because of the lack of knowledge of our Father/Creator’s ways.

On to the next most important matter.

Most Important…

How can we find the answer to our bewilderment? We find the answer when we listen to the Almighty Creator’s voice. In other words, when we listen or obey His loving commandments. Most explicit? When we obey the First and Most Important of all commandments, as it’s written,

  • You shall love the Master your Almighty with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind (intellect). [Deut. 6:5.] This is the great (most important, principal) and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as you do yourself. [Lev. 19:18.]  These two commandments sum up and upon them depend all the Law and the Prophets.

You know what, Pat? It just dawn, on me. Thinking about my former understanding when I read such words, I was convinced I was keeping that first commandment. I thought about my Master. I pray to Him about everything. I read & studied the Scriptures to show myself approved by? Him I thought but! I was only looking for your approval. And to put the icing on the cake? I loved my neighbor as I love myself first and uppermost just like all of you did & do. I was a ‘good’ Christian woman, I was told.

Hum! That lasted for a long time. In fact, I am still told how good I was. I am still told there was no need to change myself, but! The Creator? Ha! The time came when He descended upon me. He commanded me to stand up and give an account of my knowledge versus His knowledge. WHAT? I thought I knew You but! Now I see.

I stood there naked in the sight of the Almighty. My face to the ground, I exclaimed, “I repent in dust and ashes.” Wow! This time? My face remains on the ground. His face shines from me, yes indeed! I know it because He tells me it does.

Why The War Between Two Natures/The Core Of Mental Insanity…

Wednesday, March 29, 2017 at 1:57 am

O my Father—O Father of mine? My trust & confidence are in You. I fear no evil. You are with me. Let me this day continue with the task You have assigned unto me. Deliver me from all distressful thoughts & feelings. You know the situation. You are in control. No problem. No worries. I wait on You to intervene in our behalf.

Let’s go back to the title of this post: The War Between Two Natures/The Core Of Insanity…

  • The precious versus the vile.
  • The human nature versus the Creator’s nature.
  • Choose life.
  • Choose death.

Well, about my former understanding of the first commandment. The truth? I was far from keeping the First and Most Important of the commandments, but! I was totally oblivious to such fact until, the Almighty convicted me on the spot. I have recorded that matter in many of my previous writings.

Even as much as I have recorded the matter of my conviction before, let me briefly recount the exact date of my conviction. That conviction happened on October 21, 1986. At that time, I had returned to my former conniving ways to earn my living against His commandment in August of 1985 for me to write. For in June 20, 1985, the Messiah stepped into my tumultuous life. The miracle of my transformation became a reality. Next? Quote,

First Words Spoken To Me By Father Yahuwah. My Father spoke to my heart on the morning of August 8, 1985.

Father says to me at this moment:

  • “I have been shaping you into a vessel, a beautiful vessel to hold flowers, beautiful flowers of love. These flowers are not yours, they belong to Me and I give them to whom I please: you are only holding them as they sit in the water of My love with which I have filled you.
  • You cannot give out these flowers on your own, because you are only a vessel holding them; but I will send you those to whom I have given the flowers you are holding; some will pick just the flowers from you, and some will pick you up, and use you to bring good news and cheer to others. Rest in Father and hold My flowers.”
  • Do not put your own flowers in that vessel of yourself; because they are the flowers that wilt and don’t last; but the flowers that I am letting you hold will last forever.”

And what kind of flowers are those Father? I asked. Father answered to me:

  • “You are only the vessel to hold these flowers and you need not to know what kind of flowers they are, again I say, rest on Father and just know that you are holding MY not your flowers.”

A second Word,

Father? Are You trying to tell me to quit looking at what I do and what I say and just rely on You that what I am saying comes from You and what I am is what You are working with and that You are in control and to quit doubting everything because it doesn’t fit exactly with what I think and what I reason to be OK, Father?”

Father answers:

  • “I am not trying to tell you. I am telling you.  I am telling you just that.  You look, you wobble, you go back and forth like a seesaw because you are taking your eyes off ME.  Even in your typing that is what is happening to you, you take your eyes off the master copy to look at what you are copying.  You are being self-conscious.  Fix your eyes on Me, I am your Master, I am in control, relax, I have taken your yoke and done away with it, now take My yoke, for My yoke is easy.”

Father, help me? I pleaded.

  • “I am helping you, I am talking to you plainly, and you know I have touched you and made you whole.
  • Quit trying to perfect My work.
  • Relax and do your work and know that you are doing well.
  • Whenever you remember something you have forgotten, realize that I reminded you of it, and that I allow you to forget about certain things for my own reasons, even if you don’t understand my reasons.
  • You are not to know everything now because you can’t take it, it will blow your mind.
  • Picture yourself as a vessel, but in your human nature you have a narrow mind, the body of your mind is tremendous, but your mind is narrow at the entrance, there is only so much that can go in at one time, that is why I have to pour slowly and gently in order to fill you, and that is why I have to shape you to enlarge your opening so I can fill you.
  • Relax about your writing. You will write and you will get published and I will use you.  That is why I gave you the gift of writing, for you to be used by it.  It is not for you to use your gift for your own purposes and gains.  I’ll do the work, as a matter of fact I have already done it.
  • So, don’t worry about anything. Take everything in this day and know that My name will be glorified because you have obeyed and trusted Me and placed Me in the center of your being.
  • Every little flaw in you has been taken care of. You are a finished work because I am finished.”

You know what, Pat? I am also talking to you, my faithful Reader, you know what? Those words have been fulfilled 100% up this moment of time. You have been picking those flowers from me through my writings, but! Ahmad? He done frisked me to this? O man! To this Amman, Jordan. Not anything like my beautiful Aqaba, Jordan. I was having me a good time there but! Father warned me that was to happen. I am to bring cheer to these strange people. Only the power of His love empowers me to cheer them up against all odds.


Coming back to my conviction. On October 21, 1986, He stripped all means to support my own self from me. He then commanded me to separate the precious from the vile. The promise if I did so? Quote:

Therefore, thus says the Master to yours truly as He said to His Prophet Jeremiah:

  • If you return [and give up this mistaken tone of distrust and despair], then I will give you again a settled place of quiet and safety, and you will be My minister; and if you separate the precious from the vile [cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning the Almighty’s faithfulness], you shall be My mouthpiece.

  • [But do not yield to them.] Let them return to you–not you to [the people].

Hey! Should I say anymore? Nay! Not in this post anyhow. I should continue next post with the issue of United Kindred Spirits. That will be our Father/Creator’s way to join us all to conquer the Mental Insanity that besets this world.

Be on the lookout! Don’t know how am I to word what or how United Kindred Spirits shall become the unique project in the mind of all the souls within the reach of this unique blog. Perhaps. It is not my faith. It is my Father’s faithfulness!

Wednesday, March 29, 2017 at 4:59 pm

Father, O my Father—O Father of mine! You know that right now I have ample opportunity to despair. People’s behavior towards me is causing me much pain. I could just count my loses and call it quits, but! I WONT!

My trust and confidence are set on You. I refuse to waver. I have not got the slightest idea of how You will materialize Your promise of riches to me. I am so broke, I can’t pay attention. If anyone wants a penny or my life? They will have to take my life, it’s that bad!

Anyhow, it is not that You have not supplied the funds for my needs. The fact is that I had to put my needs aside. I had to considered my neighbor’s needs. This is not the first time I had to do such but, now? I have my people questioning my expenses. Is the questioning that is bothering me, but! At the same time, I understand. My people have amply supplied extra funds for my expenses. They have the right to question.

So, how can I get over this attitude of despair for lack of funds to take care of my extras like my Internet, my ink, the staples I need to take care of my body, and even an extra penny for whatever else is needed? Also, I need to take care of my teeth. I need to finish the apartment repairs.

I see also the needs of the family. From dental care to health food and more, it’s has become an unsurmountable mountain to climb. But You know all about it. I refuse to despair. You are never late. You never give me any more than what I can take. I wait on You. Thanks for letting me dump this whole burden on You.

What is my next step, O my Father—O Father of mine? Should I approach my friends to make arrangements to stay in Aqaba for a couple of weeks? I’ll wait for Your answer.

You will answer me. I will record Your answer as You see fit for me to record it. For now, I will end this booklet. The next booklet is about: What Do I Want From You? I Want YOU! To Fulfill The Longings In Your Soul.

I Want Nothing Material From You. I Need None Of Your Possessions. I Want YOU! Whatever For? To Fulfill The Longings In Your Soul.

Closing this booklet. On to work in the next one.

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